#social anxieties just a bitch

[1nan0th3rl1f3]

was almost asleep then had to search up "sesame street cooking game" bc I loved one as a kid and damnit I might replay it tomorrow(it was family food btw. also loved cooking with cookie monster tho)

[bixels]

Pinkie forced her to go to a party.

This honestly isn't even Sunset Shimmer anymore, but I don't give a fack, she's by far my favorite character in the AU. Can you tell I have a character type, lol.

[theminecraftbee]

you know, there are a lot of posts about how transitioning as an adult is like going through puberty all over again. and I’m not medically transitioning (at least not yet, maybe one day), so I don’t know if I ever expected to exactly experience that. after all, my hormones are at normal adult levels for someone on birth control. but no, some of the stuff I experience does make me feel like a teenager awkwardly becoming an adult again, actually.

see, I’m attending a friend’s wedding, and I need new formalwear for it (protip: it is generally frowned upon to wear a wedding dress to someone else’s wedding, and that’s the last formalwear I purchased). and I just… really didn’t want to wear a dress, so I went to go get a suit. and I didn’t know how to get any of the required clothes for it and had to have a salesperson help me figure out how dress shirts work and nervously stood there while getting shown how to try stuff on and it really did feel like I was a lost teenager, despite being, you know, almost twenty-six.

but also: I own a three-piece suit now! it’s grey! it looks pretty good on me! I even got a blue tie with bees on it! so it was worth the temporary embarrassment of suddenly realizing I don’t know how men’s formalwear sizes work and, oh god, why are there so many variations of “white dress shirt” what does this mean.

and I figure as I very slowly work up the confidence to be out more irl there will be more and more moments like this, and I’ll lament the fact I didn’t do all this stuff as an actual teenager, but as weird and scary as it is, so far, it’s been worth it.

[satorhime]

the people have started to recognize me at this place i eat at on my lunch break and the guy who brought my food out said “you came back again huh” i’m so embarrassed i want to cry LOL

[seaoftales]

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[rosenotactuallyquartz]

i love chatting with mutuals about their edits & art & AUs & headcanons & opinions & thoughts

you’re all so creative and talented, genuinely

the fact that you also love my favourite ship/characters on earth?

i feel so lucky to know you guys

and even if we aren’t moots, i hope you have a lovely week. chances are, you’re far more wonderful than you think. at being the person you want to be, at whatever you’re working on, & just in general. i hope good things happen to you and you know that they’re fully deserved

<3

[clowningcrows]

very cool how i can come out of a pleasant social interaction that i did perfectly fine in just for my fuckass brain to be like, “hmm actually that was really bad and you should be soooo embarrassed and ashamed” and proceeds to then force me to ruminate over even the tiniest potential social blunders

[mitchyhawk]

wanting a bf and then remembering i have to talk to a boy.. oh no

[wyrm-town]

I think it actually just shouldn’t be possible to have social anxiety and NPD. If I’m not included and getting attention I will FUCKING DIE but if anyone acknowledges my existence I will FUCKING DIE. Literally the worst duo ever actually.

[1nan0th3rl1f3]

call me phykoha the way I'm eating nerd gummy clusters and drinking monster energy

[most-datable-datable-bracket]

I need to know who mod is choosing to romance first in exocolonist 👀👀👀

The slutty dogboy. Obviously.

[steampoweredskeleton]

Ignore

[a-rand0m-bl0g]

Reminder to ALL my followers and ESPECIALLY my mutuals.

I have severe anxiety and I tend to overthink what people say and I am also extremely self conscious.

@foxgirl87

[count-doodoo]

idk if this is a hot take or not but i would literally rather everyone just throw all their insults and criticisms of me at my face. like i'd rather just know. a) so i can fix the problems and b) because the not knowing drives me bonkers (what if everyone hates me, a social anxiety story. but seriously what if everyone hates me tho--). getting notes like "sorry to bother you but this thing you've been doing has been really annoying for awhile" is legit The Worst because we could've fixed that!!! i would've tried to do better if i'd known!!! i don't ever claim to be a good person, let alone a perfect person, but i do /try/ to be better!!! (but then again no one would be /wrong/ to assume that me attempting things scarcely results in success so like)

[machinedramon]

it's cool seeing ppl reminisce abt stuff but then it just kinda feels like i'm intruding and maybe don't belong since everyone else has so much history :/

[i-swear-its-only-ironical]

Yo ma' fellow humans, I just realised that the last time I had a depersonalisation episode was multiple months ago. Like,,,,,, my brain is actually doing it's fucking job???? Without the odd absolutely terrifying breaks of identity??? Neat!