#why am i being so real on the dooku stan blog recently | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

count-doodoo · 10 months ago

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idk if this is a hot take or not but i would literally rather everyone just throw all their insults and criticisms of me at my face. like i'd rather just know. a) so i can fix the problems and b) because the not knowing drives me bonkers (what if everyone hates me, a social anxiety story. but seriously what if everyone hates me tho--). getting notes like "sorry to bother you but this thing you've been doing has been really annoying for awhile" is legit The Worst because we could've fixed that!!! i would've tried to do better if i'd known!!! i don't ever claim to be a good person, let alone a perfect person, but i do /try/ to be better!!! (but then again no one would be /wrong/ to assume that me attempting things scarcely results in success so like)

#honestly lbr the real reason i have social anxiety is simply because i myself am a fucking bitch #and thought crime doesn't exist bc what you don't know can't hurt you. that said if i knew anyone thought about me the things i've thought #about others. i think i would implode like some sort of dying supernova or something and burst into flames and vaporize out of shame and #probably an unhealthy dose of anger or whatever.#and it's not like i'm gonna assume everything has the same kind of brain as me. i know we're all different. but i also can't quantify how #because my brain is the only one i've ever had. it's the only one i've ever really known. my head is the only one i've ever been in.#why am i being so real on the dooku stan blog recently #fuck i need to go back to poop and fish jokes gdi #doodoo.txt #**again not fishing for compliments here just need to vent my brain's toxic fumes. actually i'm fishing for insults. degradation kink???#the entire world is probably just like i am once again asking you to go to therapy #jokes on you that's where the trauma's fro-- ok no shutting up now

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