#audhd tag

[jones7thavenue]

Emotional dysregulation's an eternal struggle; it never ends.

will i always be this angry?

[clowningcrows]

my god ive MISSED the feeling of being so intensely hyperfixated on smth (bonus points if its special interest related) that i feel a little bit like im losing my mind vibrating foaming at the mouth over it and can think of nearly nothing else except that thing

[fadeintoyou1993]

having to explain to people things like. if i have to go out to do something and run errands i need to have it all mapped out and planned w like. at least a week in advance. and if i go out that day i cannot do anything else because That will be it. if i have multiple commitments that cannot be put on the same day i need one full day in between those commitments so i can rest and be recharged for that next thing otherwise i might have a breakdown in the middle of the street (again) and then That will render me unable to function for like a whole three days. and then people look at me like i choose to live like this?

[edandstede]

adhd had me painting my kitchen at 7am today 🫡

[capriciousarsonist]

okay.

*behaves neurodivergently*

[unhinged-transmasc-man]

This is really funny to me because he’s most likely either interested or hyperfixating. This is why adhd is not a LACK of attention, but a differently-motivated interest system which causes issues with PRIORITIZING attention. Hyperfixating is an ADHD trait, which is why the concept of “oh he’s focusing, the adhd symptoms are gone” is hilarious to me.

Scientists once thought that ADHD symptoms were always present. But previous research from Rapport, who has been studying ADHD for more than 36 years, has shown the fidgeting was most often present when children were using their brains' executive functions, particularly "working memory." That's the system we use for temporarily storing and managing information required to carry out complex cognitive tasks such as learning, reasoning and comprehension.

Here’s full study: https://www.eurekalert.org/news-releases/478386

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[etherealspacejelly]

sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

[leahcee]

had to cancel my adhd/autism eval today bc insurance didn’t cover it and it’d be $2500 out of pocket…

So ofc I told my dad and he was like go to this psychiatrist your sister sees. I looked up psychiatrist and she specializes in PSTD, insomnia, anxiety, and depression… not ADHD or autism. But my parents only know I’m looking to get my adhd diagnosed. But my dad is like just go see her and let her know your concerns anyways.

Whatever I’m like I’ll call and tell the receptionist I want to schedule bc anxiety/depression and let the Dr know I believe it’s deeper than that and why.

And then my parents start going on and on about how it could be nothing. I could go through all this stuff and despite what I believe (know about myself) it could be NOTHING. And my dad starts saying how it could limit me bc I’ll have a label now and I’m trying to explain that it’s more so the fact that I’ll finally, FINALLY, have a reason as to why I’m so “scatterbrained” and feel like all the “wrong” things about me actually had a name and I’ll be able to find resources to help me. And he’s like it could be nothing though! It could be that you don’t get a diagnosis because you’re just in your head!

Like this is exactly why I haven’t told them I highly suspect I’m autistic (2 years of research for autism in women and adults, 5 years of research of adhd in women and adults) but no EYE could be wrong and just trying to find something to blame as to why I felt like things never clicked growing up.

[bluepandadraws-log]

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[unhinged-transmasc-man]

Not to mention that uhhhh…. Most “gifted children” were undiagnosed adhd/autistic especially. All the “gifted kid stuff” means is that you are taught to become even more dependent on academic success for validation of self-worth and personhood.

ohhhhh I get it now. the "gifted kid" discourse exists because people see it fundamentally as a sign of Privilege and not as a largely meaningless category that puffs up weird children before setting them up for the same unremarkable lives as everyone else; thus they interpret people going "the educational system gave me false expectations before ultimately abandoning me to the same heartless world as everyone else" as "why am I, The Main Character, not getting everything I ever wanted."

[skulandcrossbones]

wikipedia article on human senses for definitions and clarification

[clowningcrows]

lately i’ve been trying to make my life into something that’s worth living again. wearing clothes i like. cutting my hair the length i want. brushing my teeth, trying to remember to floss. stretching my body. taking vitamins, and my meds. practicing new hobbies. revisiting old ones. going to therapy. hell, even trying a new major and avenue for a career. at the end of the day you have to make your life into a life you want to live. i think maybe that’s what it’s all about.

[cxsmicvega]

Shoutout to AuDHD kids who were told to just "be who you are" but then when you were, you got told "no not like that".

[edandstede]

half 7 on a bloody bank holiday weekend and i’ve already cleaned the shower, descaled the shower head, and started wiping down the bathroom tiles. i love adhd

[capriciousarsonist]

i should probably change my adhd tag since i know for a fact i have autism now

[vroomvroomwee]

Does anyone else feel lonesome?

Not lonely. Not alone. Just... lonesome. Like you don't feel connected to anyone. Like you never feel that you will find anyone that understands you, that will see you truly, let alone someone who will even like you. You see friends everywhere, but you don't see yourself in their place, like that is not for you, like you're not made for that and that's not made for you. You see people having fun and laughing and dancing and getting drunk and falling in love and you just... don't feel that for yourself. Like you're not supposed to have that, like you can't because it's not for you and you're not for it.

Like you're supposed to be seeing all these beautiful things in the world but not experience them yourself. Like you want to experience so much, experience everything, but be overwhelmed by it so you don't do any of it.

Like you want to be everywhere and do everything, but you don't belong anywhere and can't do anything. Like you're not supposed to be here. Not in a self-deprecating way but in an incongruous way. You want to live you want to be alive, but you feel you're not supposed to be. Not here at least, not like this. Just a presence in the world, not an active member of it. Even your body doesn't feel like home, your face isn't a face you recognise, like you're not supposed to have either. Like you're just supposed to be.

Like you're supposed to observe, but not experience.