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Also, some people arguing that Theo shouldn't be acting captain because of one! mistake/wrong decision he made years! ago is, quite frankly, laughable. He even asked for his own demotion, meaning the department didn't even put the blame on him for what happened. On top of that, Theo felt absolutely terrible about what happened and probably still does, and if Travis, of all people, can forgive him, then everyone else can put what happened behind them, too. And let's not forget that, while he's currently emotionally invested in this arson case, he's also shown to be a capable and compassionate firefighter, who will absolutely not accept mistakes being made in the field and that's exactly what this team needs right now
#Station 19#Theo Ruiz#that's one of those hills I'm willing to die on#can't sleep won't sleep#so these are the rants you're gonna get
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I'm rewatching Trollhunters in the background right now, and the disfunctional mother son relationship between Jim and his mom is making me crazy.
Like, he's taking care of the household and his mother for years as a teenager and before probably. She is sometimes giving half hearted comments about him not having to do so much, but very obviously she's not gonna make him stop do all the cooking and cleaning. Y'know. Both because they've been living like this for years, and because it's obviously also very comfortable to have someone do all the house work.
Then Strickler comes into the picture, and if we ignore the whole Troll and changeling side of the story, Barabara gets very offended cause Jim doesn't want her to meet him privately. Again, ignoring the whole magic and trolls stuff, STRICKLER IS JIMS TEACHER. If Jim hadn't figured out that Strickler was a changeling he probably wouldn't have a problem with it, but the fact that he does, no matter the reason, should be enough for Barbara to put a stop to the relationship. Her child is clearly uncomfortable with her seeing/dating that guy, for whatever reason, and even clearly vocalized it. But she doesn't care about, or rather, she tells Jim that she "wouldn't expect something like that" from him. Obviously not, cause she may see him like her child/teenager he is, BUT DOESN'T TREAT HIM LIKE ONE.
And then Jim, unknowingly to Barbara, becomes the Trollhunter, and his behavior changes. He's suddenly doing reckless stuff, sneaking out, getting bruises, landing in detention and even at the police station, barely avoiding a police report. What does she do? Asking him what's going on? If everything's alright at school? If he has any other problems? Maybe trying to lower his workload around the house, which again, he's doing most of that as a teenager and longer probably.
Nah. She doesn't do anything until he lands in the hospital. Except for again, dismissing him rather negatively at the one topic he's openly expressing any negative opinions about (Strickler). And after he lands in the hospital she now starts not asking questions, but demanding answers. Demanding answers from a teenager in a difficult situation who is also now acting much more like a teenager than he ever did before, from her point of view at least. Except she obviously doesn't know how to deal with a teenager, cause she has never had to raise or live with a teenager. She instead lived with a child pretending to be an adult for years, that was partly much more of an adult than she was, who did way to much work even before Jim became the Trollhunter. So she throws punishments at him and grounds him, but does he listen?
No. Cause why should he? Not only is he dealing with things much more important than being grounded, yknow, saving the world, he's trying to protect her from the sheer knowledge of the supernatural and physically protecting her from getting harmed. And again, for the majority of the time since his dad left he pretended to be an adult. He was and is the main adult in the household, dealing with important things she doesn't even know about.
The only one's treating Jim like a teenager are teachers, other children and Blinky and Aaargh sort of when they're not in the middle of Troll business. Strickler, in the first episodes where Jim doesn't know about his true identity, is much more of a parental figure to Jim (also after his redemption later on tbh) than his mother.
In summary: Barbara is treating her son like an adult, almost like a partner, instead of a child/teenager. And when that isn't possible anymore she doesn't know how to properly treat him. She also doesn't really care that her son is uncomfortable with her being around Strickler, or Strickler in general. And it takes Blinky telling her (when Jim is 16) that Jim might be affected by his father leaving when he was five years old.
Jim meanwhile is treating his mother more like a child/teenager instead of the adult and MOTHER that she is. Seeing her as his responsibility. Cooking for her. Cleaning for her. Telling her to rest and take breaks.
They obviously love each other other. And their relationship might not be toxic, but it's very much disfunctional. In a way that is mostly negative for Jim.
#toa#toa trollhunters#trollhunters#jim lake jr#jim lake junior#barbara lake#walter strickler#trollhunters strickler#tales of arcadia#blinky#aarghhh#trollhunters blinky#Barabara; just because Steves mother has a relationship with one of his teachers and it working out between him and her son#Doesn't mean it's gonna work out for you#If you're a parent and your child is uncomfortable with a partner of yours#YOU BREAK IT UP#Especially if your child is still living with you#Seriously#Okay I know trainer Lawrence probably only became Steves stepdad later in the series#And they also had to work some things out first#But at least they didn't try to kill each other and trainer Lawrence was actively trying to be a good parent/friend to steve#And don't get me started on “A vespa costs so much”: YOU'RE A DOCTOR#Don't know much about new jersey or wherever the show takes place but doctors earn good money almost everywhere#Especially with how much nightshifts and over time hours she has#Not being sure about your 16 year old driving I understand#But don't try to excuse it with money when you're obviously not poor and he's been wanting it for so long that you could've easily saved up#The money till his 16th birthday#Okay I ranted about this long enough#Also the fandom is dead so nobody will read this probably#Byeee
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whenever i see someone who is like "yes but [x] isnt as oppressed as [y]!!" or "[x] is widely accepted now!!" as a way to like. disregard queer people's experiences. i'm just like. have you been outside? have you been in the real world?
#im just.#infighting is so dumb#'you're tme so you can't talk about-' first of all. we're not tme. transmasc =/= tme. honestly tme is a dumbass label anyway and has just#become a 'progressive' way to ask for agab#what do you think a boy/masc person in a dress reads as to transphobes. you think theyre gonna apologize if i say#'actually im transmasc not transfemme'#thats not how that works-#every time we try to correct our pronouns we get stopped because it's 'inappropriate' and 'uncomfortable'#same with every time we try to explain our gender#and yet there are still people online trying to judge if a complete stranger is 'queer enough' to count#(and if they're 'not' the reaction is like. death threats for some reason??)#and im always like. GO OUTSIDE. PLEASE.#the queerphobe on the bus does not ask for your labels before calling you slurs. the bully harassing you will not stop and apologize if you#try to say 'i'm not [x] actually im [y]'#they do not care. they are full of hate and they have already decided on a target.#also? you have no right to a stranger's labels and life experiences#trying to demand that is already creepy. especially since your goal is to see if they're worthy of respect#ok rant over i think. just. ahhghh
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So uh...Mario, huh?
Transcript for all the text Under the Cut!
Jumpman Plumbing & Electrical
Mario and Luigi Saltatore -
Nestled in the Metro Kingdom’s countryside, live the twin plumbers Mario and Luigi. For most of their adult lives, they’ve dedicated themselves to fixing the pipes (and light bulbs) of their small hometown. But when a phone call worlds away separates the duo, Mario travels to the Mushroom Kingdom to do what he does best. Little did he know that he would be tackling the unbelievable, saving the kingdom’s citizens from a tyrant. Meanwhile, the younger Saltatore finds himself having to help a secluded scientist with restoring his power. What follows is Luigi encountering supernatural forces that terrorize him throughout the night. What fun!
Mario: +Dependable =Confident -Reckless Tinkers in spare time, TV dramas are a guilty pleasure
Luigi: +Loyal =Optimistic -Cowardly Collects obscure LPs, big fan of slashers (somehow) ---- The Mushroom Kingdom and the Koopa Brigand have been at conflict for what feels like ages. While there have been attempts at peace, Bowser’s braggart attitude have stalled such treaties. But the Princess, everlasting in her patience, was willing to extend an open hand to a better future for both powers. Keyword being ‘was’, as Bowser has decided to take that offer with an iron grip. In more recent months, things have escalated, as the King took up a plundering habit, reaping worlds of their riches and denizens in hopes of impressing the elusive blossom of the Toadstool Family. Such actions have only weakened an already brittle relationship. During all this, she has lost all respect for the powerful pirate. But, uh, no one has had the courage to tell him the bad news. Peach, however, has had it up to here with this destructive campaign for her adoration and is currently looking for a champion to send a very, very clear message to him as she’s too busy tending to those harmed by Bowser’s tirade. Good luck, Mario! You’re gonna need it. King Bowser: +Strong-willed =Tactical -Immature Will defend musical theatre with his life, holds war game tournaments to boost morale Princess Peach: +Compassionate =Open-minded -Reticent Took up gardening to calm nerves, is never seen without her gloves. Never.
--- ty for reading all that holy shit :)
#finished#character design#mario#super mario bros#im not gonna spam the tags but egdjhfd i did do the big work hard on this thing so KNOWTHAT!#JP&E#<au tag cause i dooo plan on posting more. watch out#also yes i really liked the movie what gave that away. lol.#i'd also rant about behind the scene stuff but thats a whole other thing so uh. leaving it at#'if you catch the references made here you're getting one (1) cookie'
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THE BEST OF SHENKO 1/?
The end of the world has a way of reminding you of all the things you forgot to say do. Mass Effect: Legendary Edition (2021)
#mira makes gifs ✨#kaidan alenko#sophie shepard#EDI#shenko#fshenko#mass effect#mass effect legendary edition#dailygaming#OTP: you're real enough for me#i learned i am physically incapable of creating less than like 20 gifs at a time#but shenko stonks are up right now!!#gif’ing my favorite bisexuals gives me joy 🥹#even though ME2 is dry as shit for shenko content like it’s literally the sahara desert#like a whole ass 10 minutes max of cutscenes between shep and kaidan like come on#like 2 minutes in the prologue and like 8 minutes of cutscenes on horizon#and then an email and looking at the picture in your cabin before the suicide mission#i'm so sorry y'all ME2 shenko canon is absolute shit (besides kaidan being rightfully angry on horizon) which is why we ✨ignore it✨ 🥰#but i rant about ME2 VS treatment too much so i will not write another essay about it in the tags#i will say the EDI line isn't the exact quote from the game but i think about it a lot tbf#same with the quote i borrowed from anderson too lmao (which is also a tiny bit paraphrased)#i just love EDI asking shep for relationship advice when you get to follow shep and kaidan's relationship/struggles across 3 games#and anderson's quote about all the things you forgot to do in relation kahlee to is just *chef's kiss* when you think about shenko#like whether it starts in ME1 or ME3 shenko has some really fantastic moments across the series#two characters with strong morals who realize that they're falling in love and literally start to become each other's strength??#their soft place to land?? their support when they need it?? shenko will always have my heart#also the shenko quotes you get are the most fire thing in the world#you're real enough for me?? you make me feel human?? i want to be your strength- your soft place to land?? shenko you will always be famous#I FORGOT IM GONNA FIGHT LIKE HELL FOR THE CHANCE TO HOLD YOU AGAIN TOO LIKE??#but i’ll stop ranting now bc i do that wayyy to much in my tags lol. have a good day wherever you are! <3
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There is a very exquisite agony in playing a game you love so so so so so much, and realizing that one of the other players is trying to play a totally different game than you.
#hush frenchy#we went to the coffin shop today in vallaki#and our rogue triggered combat SIMPLY because he didn't want to leave the house without looting every single room#to clarify: WE HAD ACHIEVED OUR OBJECTIVE#we literally just needed to get out#but the rogue's player was like cmoooon its no fun to leave without looting everything we can get our hands on#now everything we're doing has gone to absolute shit#and to clarify: its going to be very interesting!!#and I feel like I would've been just fine with the result#IF it had been for any other reason besides that this one player seems to think that we're in a video game#like if there had been some kind of character motivation? or genuine concern that we were missing a piece of something we were looking for?#totally fine!! love that in fact!!#but just stealing shit because 'you're the rogue' feels... idk.#it just feels like it's a totally different game than the rest of us are playing#and now we ALL have to deal with the consequences#i just. urgh. i do not know what to do#i am gonna talk to the dm and see if she noticed the same thing as me#and try to brainstorm we the players can do to impart a sense of balance for people with different play styles#but i just feel like despite repeated efforts by the dm to be like hey this is a game for exploration and character engagement#the player is just ignoring that and doing Whatever He Feels Like#ANYWAY SORRY RANT OVER#I'm just really in love with this game and having one really thorny part is just HNG#positive note: the wizard whipped out alter self and thought he was the coolest guy in the whole world#despite repeatedly missing in combat#it was very cute and i wish Wyn wasn't absolutely certain that she was about to die#because she would absolutely stroke his ego about it simply to see him preen#the fighter was also very sweet and keeps working so hard to protect wyn#and since I'm a fighter in my other game i know where to put myself to make it easier for him so there's a lot of synergy#IT'S JUST VERY CUTE AND NICE AND GOOD. I LOVE THEM BOTH A LOT
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BEETLEJUICE WARRIOR CATS AU
Dude I already have a story kinda figured out????
Like how I'd tweak the main story so it'd fit?????
Ish
So like
Umm
Omg yall
Im gonna rant abt it in a bit
Egeheheheghegegeggehegegeheheheehehehehehehhehe
I just need to pull up the warrior cats naming sheet so that I can remember how to name them 🧍
#beetlejuice#rant#Warrior cats#So like#Ooohhhh my god#Blue#You are gonna get an earful#Of my warrior cats ideas#Bc you're the only one I know who can match my silly possibly#Omg omg omg
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I just realized the two fandoms I left are all because of the fandom itself and how miserable it is there. ppl just can't respect other ppl's boundaries and would throw in words that they don't even know the meaning of. I mostly keep to myself but some of it was so loud I'd heard it from other ppl and would sometimes end up seeing it. like some artist would leave and sell all the merch they bought just because ppl bullied them so bad over being a fan of a character. or you just ship smth and ppl would bully you for it. like these are simple ships and some got driven out coz of how hostile ppl are. seeing all that shit really is just demoralizing and not make me want to put content for those fandoms anymore.
#the last one tho about ships...#cant even post shit coz of fear#even if your ship is the most wholesome you get shit on#no one is safe bruh#ryomina has been so freeing for me hfksjdksjd#coz I'm not alone#ppl are crazy for them and I'm crazy for them too#also I'm not taking my chances this time I'm mostly surrounding myself with my jp and cn moots#also they make awesome merch for me to buy ehehe gimme more ryoshu merch#but yeah like I'm not gonna dive deeper into the p3 fandom#I'm gonna stay in my own bubble#you guys are already enough and so kind so far#I'm not gonna waste my time and engage in infuriating ppl that are so terminally online#idk why this suddenly came up I just wanted to rant#ig you're safe in that fandom like if you ship one of the most popular#the most popular yeah but it's the blandest thing I have ever seen#but you do you I respect that#if you know what I was drawing before p3 then yeah it's from that fandom#but yeah anyway I do wanna talk more about ryomina but I'm bad at talking to ppl lmao
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thinking about the person i could have been if i tried a little harder to find my own way
#probably the thing i am resenting my parents for right now is how good they were at convincing me#not to pursue any career paths other than the ones they laid out#every time i was like hey this seems interesting should i check it out? they would be so quick with the#do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it? to do it for your whole working life?#and obviously 8 yo 12 yo 14 yo 17 yo 18 yo me would get terrified and go no sorry and just not look into anything further#supposedly this is the safe option but everything i do feels meaningless#all of the jobs in this field seem meaningless#the job market in this field right now is dog shit and I'm fighting like hell for positions that just make me sad to think about#but every time i think hey what if i tried another thing#now my brain shuts me down with the do you care enough about it to stake your livelihood on it#your whole life on it#and the answer is no and it's gonna be no for a long time i bet#don't know if I'll ever find my way out of it#told my roommate's boyfriend about my general dispassion for pretty much everything in life#he asked me if I'm even a person#which feels very true#i feel like this path I've followed if i keep following it#I'm not going to be a person i can be proud of#i know it's really early in my life to say but#idk if it's nature or nurture or my own damn fault but all the ambition has been weaned out of me and I've been getting just surviving#i just wish i got told more you can be whatever you want to be :)#instead of whatever you'll do you'll be good at so do what makes money and push your hobbies to the side you can do them after you retire#your mom likes this and you're good at it so you'll like it too it'll make you money this is the best thing#the other thing is harder and doesn't make as much money don't do that you won't like it that much i bet#when i was younger#maybe I'd be struggling more but I'd be really happy and fulfilled#or maybe this is genuinely the best timeline and eggs who tried to pursue art hates it now#maybe I'd be really stupid at all the other things i gave a passing glance at#eggsistential speaks#tag rant
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Here are my political thoughts. I'm not putting it under a read more and I'm not tagging it!! I know a lot of people come here to give themselves a break from real world stuff but sometimes you gotta deal with it (like right now)
Or just scroll by/block if you want idgaf baby!!!
To those in the US: I hope you are okay, get resources for your mental health if needed. Be scared, be pissed off. Don't let anyone tell you your feelings aren't valid because anyone that is queer or disabled or a poc is in for an even bumpier ride than usual.
If you are able: I hope you are involved and engaged in your community because there is no getting progressives into the White House without getting them in at the local level first and that's where you can make the biggest changes. Volunteer with youth or a campaign you feel good about. The DSA have a lot of different chapters in different states if that's your jam.
Remember that progress takes time and does not happen overnight or even over a few years. It is slow as hell and I know that sucks, but we have to be in this for the long haul and for future generations.
The rest of the world: we fucked up for real (again). Sorry for the fallout your countries will inevitably face.
If you voted for Tr*mp: get off my blog before I shoot you with my laser eyes. I do NOT tolerate intolerance. I come from a rural community who are completely brainwashed and!! newsflash!! His 2017 legislation hurt farmers and his tariff plan on John Deere is gonna hurt you again!!!
If you don't "do" politics: well, politics is gonna do you, babydoll, so you might as well!
#this ain't a harris endorsement but if you voted for trump get the hell away from me#the dem party is so fucking stupid to run a campaign pandering to white centrists don't get me started#MY POINT IS#community is important!!#love is important!!#if leaving the country is what is best for you and you're financial able good for you i guess#I was born here and feel some twisted horrible need to stay here and try to fix it#the US is a world leader and we really have a domino affect that impacts the entire world whether you want to admit it or not#his last presidency caused a lot of far right nut jobs to come out of hiding around the world AND helped them take leadership positions#the US has been in a shitpile for ages#pick up a shovel for those who can't and help dig!!#voting matters!! climate change is real! vaccines save lives!!#we live in an age of disinformation and heavy apathy!!#don't let it win!!#he's gonna try to start taking rights away on DAY ONE!!#but at least the economy is going to get worse too#end my soapbox rant#actually last thing: STOP painting melania as some innocent gold digger who hates him#(i'm petty and still haven't forgiven her for renovating jackie kennedy's rose garden but there are tapes of her defending him)#she knows what she's doing and is okay with what he's doing and is not a victim just STOP#okay now i'm done for realsies this time
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Anyway on another note I cannot explain to you just how Severely disappointed I will be if bnha ends with a confession ending. I hate confession endings outside of romance manga 😀
+big ass rant in the tags
#they do NOT need that rn#this isn't even about me mainly shipping either of them with other characters like i LIKE izch it's just that they need COUNSELING#I hateeeee “getting together makes everything better” endings they need a friend they need a shoulder to cry on they do NOT need romance#if I was in their situation I would not be able to dedicate myself to a relationship#Girl saves my life and then dies right next to me giving me all of her blood#Childhood friend dies comes back to life and then I lose all of the powers that I didn't even originally have and it still feels like#I'm responsible for saving everyone and having the world on my shoulders#like. dude#at least leave it open ended if there's a confession#bnha spoilers#bnha manga spoilers#mha spoilers#bnha#Erased spoilers. surprise. I was so happy when Kayo and Satoru didn't get together at the end. That's how much I hate romance endings.#If the romance felt like a subplot it would've been fine but romance has never even felt like that in bnha#Like if it was supposed to be obvious then I guess I'm stupid#subplots are still significant parts of the plot there has to be a good amount of time dedicated to a romance if you're gonna go with#a confession ending PLEASE#THE MAIN PROBLEM WITH CONFESSION AND MARRIAGE ENDINGS IN NON-ROMANCE MANGA IS THAT THEY ARE ALMOST NEVER DONE WELL#tag rant
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hate when like some of the best stories ever told is in a robot franchise bc nobody will ever take them seriously
#i talk abt them to other people and they just think tf is a kid's interest!!!!#WHAT#the average 10 year old cannot comprehend whatever the fuck is going on in any of the comic continuity#and transformers one trailers did not do it justice :(((( i know it's supposed to appeal to kids but FUCK WHAT????#nobody ever fucking told me it was gonna be a highly progressive film#like yeah#tf will inevitably be for kids#but it's a franchise w loads of other stories that would appeal to adults too you dipshit#and the QUOTES?#im gonna get some of them wrong hold on but#“i have nothing but contempt for this court”#“I've heard it said that we gain wisdom through suffering- and tonight I intend to make you very wise.”#LIKE WHAT#“i have better things to do tonight than die.”#so many others from mtmte too#“you may not be good but you're sure as hell good enough”#FUCK#anyways#im normal about the transing formers franchise#roi rants
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the downside to being a sitcom neighbour sort of person is that when rough things happen and emotionally fuck u up a lil bit, it also sounds completely made up
#bert's dead dad tag#found out today the way my dad told mom he wanted a divorce?#he wrote her a letter and left it on the dining room table for her to find on the morning of her fortieth birthday#who the fuck does that dead father#like that is the sort of thing i would entirely make up if i needed everyone at the table to fuckin hate an npc#and at least one person would go 'you're laying it on a little bit heavy'#i know he did work to become a better person as he got older#which is good because BOY howdy was that man a piece of shit in the early 90s#and we are having Complicated feelings about it tonight and also for the last nine months#something something when i was writing his eulogy i came across an old article discussing something he did in the 90s#YDIP (your dad is problematic)#like yeah this is the sort of thing that would have been vaguely acceptable in the cultural context#but like. still objectively bad. potentially ruining several lives sort of bad.#learned this and then wrote the rest of his eulogy about how he was a great guy and how i'm lucky to have been his son#(which was rough enough on its own because i've never said 'i'm [dad's name]'s son' as many times as i did that trip home)#but like what else do you do? i sent off a message looking for more information#and that information if it comes is just gonna sit with me i guess#sure as hell not telling my sister and this whole thing i've been getting through without really having anyone here for me to talk to#(hence the big fuckoff tag rant. your problem now losers who like clicking the read more button)#so even if i get all the answers i want about this one thing it's not gonna do any good except putting an end to one question#but part of having a dead dad who's been out of the business of forming new memories since you came out is having more questions#answering this one's just gonna add even more questions to the pile#but. got fuckall else to do
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Sks: Ugh sorikus want Kairi out of the way for their ship how delusional of them
Also sks: Riku should've died in kh3 and Riku should fail in kh4 so Kairi can come in and save Sora so they can have their happily ever after
#kingdom hearts#kh rant#how the turns have tabled#i'm the oprah shrugging gif rn#it's so funny to me how they accuse us of wanting kairi out of the way for soriku when it's not our fault she gets kicked out of the story#and then they turn around and say riku should die so kairi can save sora and they can kiss and shit#like do you realize that you're saying the EXACT same thing you're accusing us of saying?#you're trying to word it differently but we know what you mean#people don't like that riku's still important and they show this by saying he should fail his mission#and when they suggest kairi save sora they conveniently leave out riku's whereabouts#like homie you're not subtle lol#anyway can't wait for sora and riku to make out in 4k hd graphics it's gonna be great
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I'm just figuring out how important music is in my life! This is coming from a long while trying to cut down on my music use, mostly because I was listening to it so much that it felt more like I couldn't do anything without popping in some earbuds, and partially because of other personal reasons. Some of my routines changed, forcing me to not listen to music while doing certain things, and it ended up becoming that besides working on homework or drawing, I didn't listen to music at all. But I've given myself a break today since I have nothing to do and since, for reasons, I'm feeling just a lil crappy today—and boy, I'm starting to realize again just why I love music!!
I love the diverse music taste I've developed over the years! My family is not only big about music but big about listening to it loud, so the majority of my music taste for most of my life has just been Christian hiphop (Lecrae, KB, Andy Mineo, Trip Lee, and ironically Tonex, whose album where he was struggling hard with his gayness has been my favorite concert movie since I was 5) and gospel music (Kirk Franklin, Tye Tribbett, etc.). And music was one of the few connections between me and my race (I grew up feeling pretty estranged from my blackness as a kid, but the popular songs they played at the YMCA in the 2010s were some of the few things I could use to feel more connected) and between me and my classmates/friends at the Y (I still have fond memories of playing FNAF songs in mat forts and reciting lyrics at pool parties). But I got tired of knowing I could never bond with anyone besides family friends music taste-wise when I was in high school, and so I started listening to secular music on my own time. And that's how I first found Ghost and Pals, a vocaloid artist and one of the first secular music folks I listened to as a kid (can you smell the religious trauma yet? Lol), and that's how I bonded with one of my best friends in early college (ironically, also my first time being publically queer). Now I listen to Kpop, anime songs, songs from warriors MAPs, songs from musicals (Hamilton and In the Heights <3), latin songs, metal songs, and even some secular songs young me would've been too scared to listen to.
And music has always been one of my biggest sources of stimming! I can't dance to save my life, but music will sure get me to flick my fingers and hit my fist against my shoulder furiously. Music was one of the first clues that I like stimming with vibration too (since I love laying against the car door and turning up the music loud enough to feel the world shake around me). And music was one of the first things that made me look into ADHD or autism (specifically, listening to Ghost and Pals songs for a month straight and getting my friend at early college [who also has ADHD] to start looking at me funny when I was discovered doing chores and listening to one of three songs for the fifth time). Music is so cool it'll get me to wax poetically. It was one of the things that kept me together during my roughest times and soothed me during my best. I listen to it while I write, while I cry, while I hang out with my friends and family and while I chill by myself. It's how I relax after a long day, and it's how I feel safe. I feel kinda emotional finally having music hit that spot in me without feeling like I need it to do stuff.
#songs listened to while writing this post:#Tell Your Girlfriend by Lay Bankz#Get Up (Live) by Tye Tribbett#the Oshi no Ko OP song for season 1 (by Yoasobi) - which I ironically found before getting into Oshi no Ko#Waterfalls Coming Out Your Mouth by Glass Animals#Como Fue by 116#Creator (a Minecraft song I picked up from my college friend J)#The Ultimate Soldier (Evangelion)#Reckless Battery Burns by Ghost and Pals#Uncanny x Deathbody remix by Ghost and Pals#Watch Me Work (Trolls 3)#Mount Rageous (Trolls 3)#Better Place (Trolls 3)#Hayloft 2 by Mother Mother#Hayloft 2 Smashup by Mother Mother#Don't You Worry About a Thing (the Sing movie)#Mama by My Chemical Romance (found through a warriors MAP [yes the one you're thinking of])#Gossip by Måneskin#Looking at my playlists getting more and more secular songs feels like healing#but I also love that I can still listen to gospel hiphop or gospel music without feeling ashamed or (completely) embarrassed#(except for Bizzle but that was always more of my dad's music taste anyway)#also yes I have tinnitus how could you guess? Haha but for real it feels like an okay sacrifice to me (more like a battle wound for loving#music so much - but everyone else please use ear protection if you can! Tinnitus doesn't bother me too much but it could you!)#fenn rambles#gonna use this tag for my favorite rants and rambles that I'm most proud of hehe#(also this is an excuse to not leave some non-alterhuman-themed or non-neopronouns-themed stuff untagged >:3)#music#(also I went to a KB concert recently and it was HYPE)#(and I went to Winter Jam in Mobile and it was legitimately one of the best concert experiences in my life - Lecrae >>>>#love his new album hehehe)
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#sorry i have to be bitchy for a sec but i just saw a h/c fanfic#where one character had an infected cut on the hand#and he was like noooooooo pls dont make me get medical care doctor scary#and the other character was like aww dw beloved ill take care of this ur so brave <3#then like cleaned the wound out or something i guess#meanwhile i am sitting here like 😬 babe 😬#he's got FATIGUE#he's got a FEVER#he's LOSING CONSCIOUSNESS#that hand is probably twice its normal size and smells disgusting#PLEASE GO SEE A DOCTOR#you're in a MODERN SETTING#octenisept and a bandaid isn't gonna cut it get your man some fucking amoclav. he needs antibiotics or he will die.#this has been a psa. theres limits to diy woundcare and they begin at the first sign of infection. because that will kill you.#like theres a reason doctors sawed off limbs as a preventative measure before we had penicillin#rant over
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