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crabrat · 1 year

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ITS HECK WEEK(the week before hell week)IN THEATRE SO I MIGHT BE MIA  BUT REST ASURED IM HERE IN SPIRIT

also I need to memorize my 8 counts and I am so *tired*

#hell week #theater #theatre #we’re doing #chicago the musical #it’s my first time doing a show #so I’m rlly anxious #and all the others are older than me #so theres a disconnect #but eh whatever

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mipexch · 1 year

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comic about v2 and the goal they'll never fully reach alongside a dissatisfying conclusion. intimate rivalry and all (alternative ending comic. V1 dies instead of V2 during 4-4. V2 is narrating. V1 is dead.)

#high of victory drops to an overwhelming crushing feeling of what comes next now that youre done #if it wasnt clear v2 is trying very hard to put v1 back together after it kills them. very very poorly. weight of your actions hits #v2 #v1 #ultrakill #v4v #heavy implied at the very least. see as you will #i realize now that the writing is very disconnected and so are the drawings but bear with me here. do you see my vision #theres something going on between these two that is beautiful but also extremely codependent #at least on v2s end #tried to do those two descriptive pages in a way where it went like. 2 - 3 small details about v1. and then something very specific. some-#-thing theyd only know if they paid close attention to how the other acted or looked #took me a few days to put together and im pretty happy with it i think #feel free to dub or do whatever as long as you gimme credit where credits due #there are many ways to interpret v2 and this is one of them #gen art

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remxedmoon · 1 month

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isat npc designs!!!!! wahoo!!!!!

greyscale versions below :3

i don’t really have much to say about the colors here?? all of these fellas are vaugardian (i think) so i just kept their palettes Warm. i did give claude stains on her coat because i think she drops Chemicals on it all the time and doesn’t wash it throughly enough to get the stains out. other than that all of these are pretty straightforward!!

#marshdoodles #isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #<- technically? shy stranger and claude are minor spoilers i guess #i was going to do more of these but. isatscryption. the brainworms took hold #anyways! i know theres that little. triangle thing? on the daydreaming one’s dress but i couldn’t figure out what it was #and i didn’t really have a lof of good images to reference from so i just left it out. sorry girlie #i wanted the locked one’s colors to be more muted? and less Warm to show their disconnect with the rest of dormont #also going to be honest. claude’s design was just referenced off my friend pastell’s design for her #i couldn’t find any references of her before act 6! and i like its design a lot

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lemongogo · 27 days

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#not to complain ab the same stuff i always complain ab #but my artblock is soooo bad . its so bad and frustrating and limiting and demotivating #because instead of being able to draw whatever whenever i feel like im chained to random bursts of inspiration #that i cant manifest just by willing it so yk. and imlike why…#so many ppl who draw whether for their job or for their hobby seem to be able to do it whenever #and its like yeah i could put pen to paper rn but theres such a mental disconnect that its not enjoyable anymore #dude its so whateverr😭😭 like its so made up and ik its just a psychological thing but it feels so physically .Hard #rrrgwgqq #like i try to maintain the habit by drawing stuff out even w no end in mind #but that also stresses me out bc its likeIDKK idk #silly tbh #seeing all of this art arnd me all the time > online and stuff is so nice and inpsiring #and it makes me want to do that too but i legitcannot . like i am being squished by a boulder and my hands are chained to 30lb weights #whatfreakign ever dude .like whateverrr #i want to grind my brain 2 a pulp . honestly🙌#like what do u mean u cant u literally just do it.but im the one exception to that

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swanno-arts · 10 months

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im quoting from a critical theory final im writing but its really neat how return of the obra dinn is not a game about you.

there is no self in the game. you dont control anything, you were not part of the obra dinn's tragedy and nothing you do in-game can change their fates - or anything for that matter. they will remain dead, the obra dinn will disappear with the storm, you have no power to change the story or the game. your self do not matter, even if you are represented by the eyes of the inspector.

what mattered are the other, the memories, the stories of adventure and tragedy of those aboard the obra dinn, how they relate to other characters in their struggle or in their demise. this game is not about you, it is about them.

but its a cycle of remember and re-member. you feel a disconnect to these strangers' stories and experiences but you are thrown into their boots. you were not part of the obra dinn, but you feel pity, anger, sadness, disgust and fear for their fates, do you not?

and i think that's really neat. also im very drained </3

#swan .txt #not art #rambles #return of the obra dinn #// i was going to use papers please as a second example but #as the papers please inspector your choices still matter and fate changing #theres still a self represented there but not with obra dinn baybee #which is also funny bc the obra dinn inspector has like 4 lines max #and the game randomizes their voice for just those 4 lines #so. thats a disconnect babee!#ho boy finals getting me delirious

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transsextual · 10 months

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had a really incredible moment this evening. went to my campus art market where one of my friends was selling the tank top i'm wearing - another friend bought it for me and i'm so overjoyed to have it. usually a fit that leans more Traditionally Masculine feels like a costume but tonight it just felt deeply correct and honest and warm. took the opportunity to take some indulgent little pictures because i do not think i have Ever looked more like myself. so happy.

#im like. slowly gently exploring butchness & ... what it means to me & ... trying to release the idea that it requires Masculinity....#ive always felt pretty disconnected from masculinity as a whole but i'm starting to find points of entry that resonate really deeply #& along with that is like... esp when it comes 2 kink & leather & butchness - which r not intrinsically related but to me they r connected #theres this idea that like. i'm taking myself too seriously. and that nobody's gonna take me seriously. and that i'm too little too young #that im like #obviously inexperienced and a joke and failing and looking stupid .#but ... realized recently that . that's really just the trauma talking #and that i can just like. try shit out. and notice how it feels + what comes up #and then try it again if i so wish #and nothing i try has to be permanent or defining ... and that like . my desires and comforts and joys and needs Should Be Taken Seriously #soooo much of my like. impostor syndrome . has to do with worrying that im not doing it right when compared to other men #but like.... most of the kinky men / leathermen i see are 35+ and cis .#of course im not doing it like them .#so . looking to the queers i know. especially my fellow transmascs as well as lesbians . for like. reassurance and inspiration #has been very healing . & good for my heart & my soul.#:)#yeah .#i think i gotta go read butch is a noun. ... yeah #goodnight :)#speak #materialization #ok2rb

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 11 months

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I'm frightened of you knowing who I am but, could you possibly give me your frank frankly theories pretty please idc if you only have like 2.1 I want them regardless of how many you have.

mayhaps?

ah man i wish i had some to give! i think all of my Frank theories (at present) are tied into other theory posts! he simply doesn't have a lot to chew on yet

#unlike say - wally or eddie - he doesn't have a lot of incriminating information #there's a bunch of little puzzle pieces:#the multiple hims in their house on the map / not having a backstory in his bio / im sure theres more but i cant recall it rn #but the little things we have so far are - imo - so disconnected thats it like. man idk what to do with these yet #i can very lightly speculate that he'll probably play a big role in 'looking behind the curtain' as it were #just since he's the serious Knowledge Guy #and i can imagine that out of everyone he's most likely to pursue the truth if he starts to Notice that things arent what they seem #i also imagine that that miiiiight clash with wally?#cause if frank goes 'holy shit none of this is real' its also likely that he might try to tear down the illusion / something similar #meanwhile wally seems deadset on Restoring the neighborhood and keeping things the same #could be conflict there! wait does that count as a theory? i may have lied to you #sorry my thought process works best when rambling - constant stream of thought can knock new things loose up there yk yk #rambles from the bog #homebogging #wh speculation #and dont even worry about it - i dont even know who i am! i know no one and nothing and everything is a nebulous void!

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ganondoodle · 1 year

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in all honesty, im feeling a bit burned out on totk, the more i think about it the more i dislike its story and lore, i dont know what to make of it it being so loved by everyone else makes me feel like theres something wrong about me :/ gonna try and take a step back from it all

#ganondoodles talks #i also feel kinda dumb #bc i feel like im both not reading as much into everything as smarter people can #but also am trying to look into it all too deep #like i know nintendy made the game with lots of love and care but i #i cant help but sometiems even feel outright insulted by some of the choices they made #like the continuity problems with botw #man i loved botw so much and i feel kinda stepped on for caring so much about it #is this whats it always like when a new thing for your hyperfixation releases?#its happened with multiple of my past interests...#if i wrote an more about it i just feel like im being hateful - which im not trying to be #i just feel like -fuck me for caring this much-#part of why i was hyped about totk was bc i thought theres gonna be lore and design stuff i can use for my fanworks #but honestly i feel like i dont want to use anything of it #i know usually when you feel like you are the only one feeling like that you are not #but still i feel like im the only one that thinks this game is so .... weirdly disconnected #...almost like spinoff dare i say #nothing fits together #..... i miss koga #everytime i met him i was filled with joy #:(

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phantomrose96 · 1 year

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Hello so! My little brother started a podcast with his friend, and he had me and my older brother on as guests and it was a lot of fun! So if you wanna hear me and my brothers (and my little brother's very funny friend) goof around, there's a podcast episode!

#chrissy speaks #it was a lot of fun and i had a good time #also i guess you get to hear my voice so theres that?#edit: my friend made a joke i sound like an influencer and i. feel so disconnected from that whole scene #like oh gee ive been on a podcast now. oh no.#if i have to make an instagram im gonna dig myself into the dirt instead #it was really just fun to joke around with my brothers who i havent seen in a while

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feline-evil · 7 months

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Never gonna be over how unutterably pathetic and in dire need of ANY kind of companionship or friendship that doesn't revolve around their band the entirety of dethklok are. I love these horrible idiots who are so devoid of any real connections outside of themselves that they will latch onto anyone unfortunate enough to get too close to any one of them! And GOD help anyone they latch onto!!

#jay talkin #metalocalypse #im thinking about the doubles episode where they just seem genuinely happy to have 'friends'#who arent like. industry people. these men are so starved of any kind of connection #and it takes them four seasons a rock opera and a movie to realise they can find that in each other lmao #also thinking about how quickly any of them bond and become really intense abt anyone in their life #aka: NATHAN TOWARDS ABIGAIL. oh dear poor abigail oh dear #but also toki to damn near anyone and this goes for the entire band tbh as well they all do this at least once #and yeah its mainly cuz 10min eps mean u gotta progress stuff fast #but also holy shit. charles these boys want friends so bad u gotta set em up on playdates or smth #maybe it'd get some of their dumb stupid idiot energy out and they'd be better behaved. well. no they wldnt but... u can dream #i do think theres smth to be said that yeah all of dethklok are cool theyre metal superstars they r good at what they do #theyre also fucking prophesised saviours too and theyre also incredibly dangerous idiots and terrible ppl #but never forget that they are also. so so SO pathetic and isolated and dysfunctional #these men have not lived in the real world in decades and are disconnected and unsocial and spoilt and u can see that this does impact #the way they interact w the world! they need like. anything other than the band in their lives hah. they do need to pal around #im glad they find that in each other eventually!!#i dont want 2 sound like im babying them or infantilising them these r grown asshole idiot men but like. listen these shitheards r lonelyyy #everyone in their lives is like. assigned to be there and is set as beneath them in a class and workbased system #they dont rlly have ppl who r just there cuz they like em. outside of fans. and fans arent rlly a real connection yknow #their only connections come via work networking sex and violence and worship baby!!!! its fucked up!

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bunnihearted · 7 months

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having avpd is so hard bc yes i am extremely sensitive nd insecure nd thus difficult to deal w plus i self sabotage bc of my self critical thoughts. when i was a kid i was constantly picked apart nd criticized for every single little thing i did or said or thought nd now my brain's broken!!!!! yayyy

#it ruins everything for me #nd it's esp hard w relationships to other ppl #bc someone can tell me that hey no i like u i like talking to u nd prove it by keep talking to me for a year #but me? im like omg no what if they dont actually like me nd are just pitying me ?!?#or it's more like.... theres such a huge disconnect bwteen me and being likable that i just cant believe it #i rlly genuinely hate every single person around me when i was a child #they fkn tore into me nd everywhre i went all i got was criticism for my entire being nd existence #and now im stuck like this forever!!! will i ever be able to do anything at all????#avpd #like when someone has anything positive to say to me my brain gets so confused #what do u mean u arent criticizing me rn???? idgi???? so sad :((

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crimescrimson · 4 months

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Rebecca Chambers in Resident Evil Remastered (2002)

#crimson's gifs: resident evil #Resident Evil #RE #Resident Evil 1 #RE1 #Resident Evil 1 Remastered #Resident Evil Remastered #RE Remastered #RE1R #Rebecca Chambers #Rebecca Chambers (RE1)#Why is her cgi cutscenes so scuffed in the end of this game bro 😭😭 RE0 has much better cgi cutscenes how are they in the same collection #Speaking of that im ngl her va in this game isnt nearly as good as her re0 one either :/#RE0 and Vendetta Rebecca is her better characterisation where you can tell shes scared but shes also a badass #Because yes shes young but shes also a fucking special ops cop so shes gotta have a backbone yknow #Idk theres just a huge disconnect between her character in re0 (half an hour ago) and re1 (also chris needs to cut her some damn slack)#Anyways ILY REBECCAAAAA #Dont take any of this as me hating Rebecca I actually adore her I've just played so much RE1R recently #That Ive collected a lot of thoughts on the game as a whole #Btw I was so fixated on getting every single piece of Rebecca footage that I accidently got the No Saving achievement 😭#I genuinely forgot to fucking save bro I noticed after i fucking GOT TO THE MINES #Thats the under courtyard btw idk why ive stuck to calling it the mines

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sollucets · 3 months

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hi everyone :’) i havent been on tumblr much lately because i am 1) not watching anything and 2) still dealing with the effects of a bunch of fun medical stuff! i am doing ok but my body hates me so so so much lately. i have the energy and ability(?) to do only a few very specific things right now (play elden ring, let youtube forcefeed me kpop videos, languish) and that does not include watch show or make gif or even write no matter how much i might want to. so. this is how it is haha. miss u guys

#it feels silly to make a post like this when im still on here nearly every day but i Feel disconnected. yknow #like i rb something once a day. i hardly talk to my mutuals. idk #i post vaguely often about my Medical Situation but. i think it might be good if i clarify so #this year since april ive been dealing with a sudden and long-term resurgence of pain that ive had before #originally we thought it was ovarian cysts (which ive been troubled by before)#but that got ruled out mostly. so #my doctor ‘diagnosed’ it as endometriosis (note quotes; it’s apparently not possible to diagnose endo without a surgery which i havent had)#(and so this is just an educated guess on her part and on mine. but a decent one)#i went on hormone meds for that which dont seen to be working for the endo but do regulate other things #but that significantly worsened my depression #so im on ssris now #theres also some other issues with me i dont care to disclose here #and its really just been A Lot #right now the ssris are on a very low dose but they are making me brutally dizzy and nauseous also.#i keep trying to be optimistic and then i get dunked on. but i will keep hoping #it will pass but fuck could it pass faster #rowan chatter #i have actually managed to write some despite all this. but show watching has fallen to the wayside

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albireon · 28 days

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got a new wire for my tablet so i dont have to restart my computer every 5 minutes while drawing YAAAY heres some of my favorite characters to celebrate

#gotta get back in the swing of things #theres a couple missing but these are like the numero unos #probably forgot someone #well its faves and my 9000 versions of pip #my art #also ive had that shitty old wire for like #over a year #nice to have a new one that doesnt require tape and doesnt disconnect my tablet every 10 seconds #bottom right hes freshly g0thed. not in the zone yet. still has expressions besides =_=#kidding #but its his first time dyeing his hair so hes like [looks]#anyway missed you guys lalala #pete pip yuri guy the doodle on the bottom is in your honor

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majorshatterandhare · 11 months

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Today I, an aromantic, was getting ready to attend a wedding… with Stranger on repeat.

#the mechanisms #stranger #ttbt2 #i knew what i was doing when i put it on but also i am working on an addtion to my brian-jonny foils post so i was thinking about brian #its always sad brian hours #i cant really read that song separate from him anymore. honestly not sure i ever could but. its just so unconnected from anything else.-#actaea and lyssa is pretty disconnected. but its still almost certainly on the city. alice is pretty disconnected but its a result of-#king cole’s war. the most disconnected songs are redeath. the ignominious demise of dr pilchard. drop dead. hereward the wake. and stranger-#(and frankenstein but i consider that its own thing). and redeath and drop dead are my least favorite mechs songs.dr pilchard i didnt-#really care for for quite a while. stranger has so few words in it. it’s my favorite song. but the story is minimal fron the song (ie w/o-#knowing the crane wife story) so making a story around it sort of makes sense? im having a hard time with the words here. like we expect a-#story. cause that’s what the mechs do. and stranger has a story. it just doesnt have context and so creatong that context for ourselves is-#understandable. to be expected even. hope that makes sense #side note: i think it would make sense for hereward to have been from the same place (system I guess) as the people that made-#fort galfridian. i mean hereward was more of a real person than arthur (since there was no one person arthur was based on. like thats a-#whole thing) and hereward was anglo-dutch. so it makes sense hed be related to that story somehow #its just a theory. obviously. theres nothing in the songs connecting the too as far as im aware.#OH also achilles pointed out to me the anti-amatonormative/aromantic reading of stranger and i liked that a lot #hereward was anglo-danish. not anglo-dutch. sorry danish and dutch people

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adharastarlight · 11 months

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when you see a cute trans post but then half the replies are transphobic and that brief moment where it was just you and your mutuals in your lil corner of decent humanity is gone :(

#like it breaks my heart #why cant people just be nice :(#how does someone choosing to go by different pronouns actually affect you!?#like seriously #if you're that bloody bothered go to therapy man #it sounds like a you problem #but sadly youve made it everyones problem #i hate transphobes #theres like ten minutes a day when i forget how many people are actively against me #its just me and my delusional (desperate) ignorance (denial) against the world #its like so disconnected from actual society and lasts an entire few minutes but its so nice #why cant we live in peace man pls #anywayssss #trans #transgender #lgbtq #lgbtq community #i hate the world #i hate society

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