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ravenwolfie97 · 1 year ago

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hey brain can you stop stressing out about things that aren't even really happening thank you

#my dream was weird again #pretty unusual in the sense that i was driving a lot #i kept having to go back down this one road and make a left into this neighborhood #so that i could get more food stuff #since i was supposed to be leaving for a long while #apparently also at some point i end up communicating with my mom probably on the phone or smth #and it hits me that i had been in a hotel and all of my stuff was still in there. like ALL of it #and it was like 3pm so it was well past checkout time #so then i start freaking out and my mom starts getting mad bc im stupid #and that last-minute stress was what woke me up n prompted this #i just really hate my brain stressing out over things that aren't real. like all the school/college dreams #where i keep like forgetting i have class things right before a deadline and i have been neglecting it and ill be held back #which by the way Never Fucking Happened in real life #i only neglected one class on purpose bc i was depressed as fuck and the only other scenario was the one i did in 2 days post covid #which truth be told was pretty stressful but i was so filled with adrenaline i was not even freaking out i was just Doing #but the hotel thing with leaving halfway before realizing i just kept my shit unpacked and sprawled out #leaving without even checking out or realizing i had nothing at all with me to move back with #nothing of the sort would ever happen in real life. i was so good about stuff like that especially for hotels on the move here #idk im so tired and i do not want to write on my phone anymore im not awake enough to deal w this

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icewindandboringhorror · 4 months ago

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On average, what is the total MONTHLY amount that you spend on dining out*?

*(This doesn't only count going out to restaurants, but also stuff like picking up fast food to bring home, getting a coffee on the way to work, getting a premade sandwich from a grocery store deli during lunch, buying a quick snack from a convenience store or food cart whilst walking somewhere, ordering a pizza or any other food to be delivered to your home, etc.)

*(If you often dine out in groups/as a household: calculate and divide the costs so that you get a Per Person average. This is for YOU individually, NOT the total household/group costs)

(I'm sure polls similar to this have been made before (very common topic), I just haven't personally seen one that I can remember, so, I was curious to do my own! I was discussing this with a group of people today and it was very interesting to see how widely the number varied between individuals. :0c )

(Reblog for bigger sample size if you can, and feel free to explain your answer in tags if there's anything extra to add!)

#polls #tumblr polls #I'm mostly in the 0/1 - 25$ category. Maybe the rare month is a bit over $25 if there's something specific going on like birthday.#Which I'm NEVER eating in an actual restaurant (erm... covid... plus I just hate restaurant environments. i would rather pickup #the food and bring it home to a peaceful quiet environment that I control lol). But more typically like stopping by a grocery store deli #section or something. I don't have coffee that much. And I can't eat fast food much due to my health issues/diet restriction stuff #so if I'm out like coming back from an appointment and I start feeling really sick and weak. I know that a hamburger will just #blow up my system and cause nausea or something. So I try to pick the breadiest most #neutral looking turkey sandwich at the safeway deli to eat during the hour ride home or whatever lol #I actually kind of wish I could do stuff like get food more often vecause it would take the burden of cooking everything off of me #but.. alas... Money... and Health Things... T o T #I still wouldn't do it ALL the time but like... once a week instead of once a month or something.. or maybe turning into a coffee #person.. I do love drinks A LOT .. i am a drink person who will have 5 different drinks sipping on at all times #But i just have to make them all myself mostly lol #And I cant really have too much coffee since it will make me sick. so like.. teas and juice mostly #When I inevitably become a millionaire by never using social media never networking and only finishing one #sculpture every 5 months which I dont even post about or sell - then I shall... get more drinks..#I will somehow wean my body onto coffee and drink one a day solely for the ritual of it #Though even then... I would still probably just like.. buy the mateirals to make it at home or something #Like if you had a million dollars you could just buy a kitchen grade ice cream machine and other stuff to make your own milkshakes and #coffees and smoothies and bubble teas. Genuinely I think even if I were a BILLIONAIRE I would still look at playing likr $8 for a single #coffee and go .. uh.... I could just buy the equipment to make this and then save that money. PLUS. its in my house now so no need to #have to leave. I can make my own drinks in the comfort of home. .. ideal..#Like no matter how rich I ever got I would still have the lingering scroogey stinginess. like i am NOT paying for that. I will jus #make it myself. Especially if it was an Everyday thing. Anythign thats part of my routine I try to optimize and make as efficient as #possible... ANYWAY.. In an IDEAL world I would get treats. but probably not that much. as on a daily basis it would start to get #to me and I would just save up to buy kitchen machinery if I was rich lol

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souenkun · 6 months ago

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Larry's random conversarion lines 🍙

Pokémon Masters EX spoilers ahead!

Random conversation 1:

Ever since I met a certain individual, I now find myself gazing up at the sky every once in a while. There's scenery you'll never even notice if you stick to flat, well-trodden paths. Just something I've observed. I don't dislike the vast, clear sky... But I don't think I can reach it. It's nice to know that there's something like that out there, though.

Random conversation 2:

Pasio seems to have many good restaurants. Ah, I'm not asking for specific recommendations, though... I actually enjoy walking around and looking for a place I might like. That's part of the experience. I seek the exceptional only when it comes to food. Pasio has a variety of cuisines to choose from, so it's hard to stick to just one.

Random conversation 3:

(Player), which do you tend to favor: the exceptional or the average? I was thinking of inviting you to have a meal sometime. Casually figuring out your client's preferences is a special skill that you learn as a salaried employee.

Random conversation 4:

Lunchtime is one of the few things that a salaried employee like me can look forward to at work... We can decide whether to spend that precious time eating something familiar or trying out a new restaurant. It's not just about the meal. The decision-making process leading up to it is also something to look forward to.

Random conversation 5:

People, Pokémon... There's no need to overcomplicate things. Nowadays people only seem to want a shock factor. Something weird, something bizarre. When all's said and done, simplicity is strongest.

Random conversation 6:

You don't necessarily have to follow every instruction from your boss. But I pretend to follow them, at least, so I can avoid hassles later on. That's a technique you can use to get by in the workplace. Keep it in mind.

Random conversation 7:

I'm here in this famous tourist spot, but I can't really spread my wings while my boss has her eye on me. I guess I'll do what I usually do on my lunch break and find a spot to Roost...

#entering that time of the year where my phone gets full so i'll archive some stuff here 🫡 feels like this could be useful for my writing!#anyway you guys. the first convo line... is he talking about kabu. tell me that i'm not hallucinating or reaching here. is this him talking #about their different values... that he knows he can't match kabu's passion but he's happy to know that someone like him exists?! 😭😭😭💗💗#pokemas said old man yaoi and gave us a FEAST apparently... aokabu/silverstreakshipping fans we keep winning 🗣🗣🗣#also not larry telling you how to ditch your boss' orders lmaooo 😭🤚 what's next my king? gonna tell us to read fics during company time?#his love for food is sooo endearing though... mayhaps the way to his heart is a good home-cooked meal 🥺 i think he'd appreciate that!#also the roost reference... the sky reference... more larry alt is coming. elite four larry is coming. trust #gym leader larry #elite four larry #pokemon #pokemon larry #pokemon scarvi #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon masters ex #pokemas #pmex #pokemon masters ex spoilers #pmex spoilers #pokemas spoilers #scarvi #paldea #pasio #larry pokemon

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pansyfemme · 2 months ago

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i really love my friends

#had like. 10 people over tonight plus my housemates and it was. so nice #not everyone knew eachother but we all just chilled and ate food and played games and i . needed it #ive been. lonely lately. and it really felt like it was the first time in a while i could take my mind off things and relax #ive. been taking steps forward #i’m gonna take only four classes next semester I think. and get back into my hobbies and my solo art #im gonna try and go see live music more often and stuff like that #maybe go home on weekends more frequently #i am. going to try #i still cant believe how many friends i have #going to zero to 1 to like. so many has been quite the transition #im trying to be more outgoing

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seagull-scribbles · 11 months ago

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Happy valentines! what says ‘love’ like two smelly, unwashed teen boys?

Drew this after a lovely convo with @less-depresso-more-espresso, who also gave me this song to listen to 💕 so this one’s for you bestie aha

#tmnt 2012 #rasey #casey jones #raphael hamato #less-depresso-more-espresso #I love the farmhouse arc a lot actually #I think Casey went and got a few jobs on ‘local’ farms to help pay for food and bills #and April got a job helping in a shop or something she’s not very outdoorsy #and after Leo wakes up raph would start going outside #mikey looks after the animals and the farm there but we know ralh likes animals and flowers so I think he’d keep pretending to be too macho #his main jobs looking after Leo #but Casey could get him to goof off and sit in the sun and stuff #maybe raph would help chop wood or just sit near by drawing or trying to make daisy chains for mikey #something silly #anyway #I don’t do romance but I like using today as a chance to tell my friends I love them and to spend quality time snuggling my dog so #I hope everyone has a good day xxx #thank you again depresso xxx #Spotify #I tried to make this so it couldn’t be platonic but who am I kidding I sit on my friends like this all the time lmao #oh I drew this in my usual grunge way I do for 2012 and then tried to make it look softer with the same brushes so lmk if it worked

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dykedvonte · 1 month ago

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I think the most baffling thing about the Tulpar as a vessel to me is the fact that the ship really did only have a one way communication system.

I know it was cheap but even the most basic of vessels regarding major transport would have some way, shape or form for outside communication. Not only that but there was absolutely no form of innate emergency signal to show they may have been offline or in trouble despite clearly having a system to dock credits if they went off course. It's another factor that really shows that bad situations are made to get worse by design. One person who is required to relay all information to the crew and make all the choices without feedback. No way to update or call for help in case of a dire situation. No way to inform of inner personal conflicts and acquire procedures accordingly.

It really is like they are all in some sort of fucked up solitary confinement. They have their own world with strict roles that are meaningless in the end, as long as the cargo makes it, it doesn't matter what happens on that ship to the company. They don't want to hear anything and will come to conclusions on what happened based on how much pay they can withhold from the workers. Even what they do send is short, sterile and corporate to the extent it was likely written and sent out with a command by some random unmanned computer in an office.

There's something to be said about how unfair it is to force absolute power and control onto one person when you as an entity could do so much more to offload it but I've said it many times before so I won't again.

#its just like idk i dont think Curly was a bad captain because we only have this scenerio and I certainly dont think a man like Swansea #would like him or have very little issues with him specifically if he was incompentent or too lienent in the past but I do think the stress #was making him worse and worse as being a present leader as it dawned on him how much he actually had to handle like I really think he #just wanted to do yknow normal captain pilot stuff and fly the ship and yknow the little stuff like make sure things run right and over tim #the constant stress and strain of having to make every major choice started to grate on him and freak him out cause they cant even fucking #eat unless he pulls out the scanner and starts cooking like he has to choose the meal likely or have a vote and i make that part of the #reason he seems so indecisive and inactive is the fact he has to make the choice all the time and he's hoping he can at least make the crew #feel a little more in control of themselves as people by staying out of affairs like the game or disputes because god he literally has to #choose for them all the time like thats a lot of responsibility monitering their sleep their breaks food consumption thats all on him like #it really should be another persons job entirely as thats almost like absoulte contrl over the lives of everyone else that PE forces onto #that title and its also crazy how everyone accepts it even if they dont like it like they broke the food machine open rather than get the #scanner they all waited two months before Jimmy appointed himself leader its so scary how conditioned they all are to the environemnt #cause that sort of mindset is sadly real where people just wait everyone just waited until it was getting real dire and then they still #followed Jimmy without too many complaints like i saw a fic or post where Anya acknowledges they all kinda just let Jimmy do what they want #because he became the captain and it was stupid on all their parts cause they could clearly see how bad he was and yet he was captain so #they just fell in line to their roles and thats a bigger point towards how PE treated them and the complacency capitalism brings to you #just like something that irks me because idk I know Curly is slow to act but he's not as like unopinionated as people make him out to be #like he does try to find solutions but they are still restricted at the end of the day by what PE provides them and I think his biggest c #crime is being in his own head too much and not giving Anya that emotional stability cause like idk man was he supposed to go to Home Depot #himself and install like padlocks? even if the let Anya sleep in medical after she pointed it out she was already pregnant at that point #like we arent seeing the inherent issue that no one not even Anya herself was thinking of the preventative measures because a)there was a #point nothing was happening that necessitated them b) it would've been the responsibility of PE to address them pre and post incident and c #there is only one person on the entire ship given the authority to do anything. You can not make multiple important choices in one instance #in such little time and Curly should not have had that total power like i think the most interesting thing in takes that really blame Curly #is that level of control they give him over the company. Like again i think about the three days we miss between the eval/party and the #convo/crash like i think people switch them around as if those scenes happen in succession when they are broken up and its heavily implied #Curly and Jimmy just havent been talking vs the depiction that she told him and for like three days Curly was just chummy despite the fact #Jimmy and him just had a blow out fight like the next time we assume they talk is during the crash sequence cause he honestly hangs #around Anya more which i think is really important because she trust Curly to defend her himself but not his judgement to give her somethin #to defend herself as she knows he believes her but also knows she's not seeing the danger the same and its heartbreaking and more

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lastoneout · 1 year ago

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We're currently switch my cat's food and litter to try to figure out what's causing this weird mystery allergy she's had for the last like 5 years and I was kinda worried she wouldn't like the new food bcs you never know, but actually she likes it so much it's actually ridiculous. Cuz like when you switch a cat(or dog's) food you have to taper it like a medication, you keep giving them the old food but slowly mix in more and more of the new food while mixing in less of the old, cuz if you don't you can make them sick, and she is SO SO SO mad that I keep giving her ANY of the old food.

Whenever I go to fill up her bowl I first add in the old food and then mix in the new, and while she used to just immediately start eating when I'd pour her food now she just watches me do the first one, sniffs the bowl, and then sits back and stares at me like "uh mother it appears there's been an error" and then when I reach for the other food she looses her MIND and starts shoving her face in my way and meowing and getting all excited and she only starts eating once it's mixed in.

So like, glad she enjoys the new stuff at least!

#also it looks like her allergy is improving a lot but we're pretty sure it wasnt the food lol #bcs we switched the litter and she IMMEDIATELY improved a bunch #but we still dont think we've found the righ one bcs this one still is a powder kinda and it kicks up dust #and she does still sneeze and scratch her ears more than she should #so we're gonna try this pellet stuff next and see if it works #and I guess we can keep getting her the new food too bcs she really seems to like it lmaoooo #I do hope this is it tho bcs the vet told us we could try this hypoallergenic special prescription cat food #AND BY GOD IS THAT SHIT EXPENSIVE HOLY FUCK #like we could afford it if we really stretched things but only barely #so fingers fucking crossed this fixes it!!!!

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disneyfoodislove · 8 months ago

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French Fries With Pulled Pork And Cheese. Flame Tree Barbecue, Disney’s Animal Kingdom.

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capricioussun · 5 months ago

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Not for any particular reason, but chat how would we feel about a uf papyrus / general underfell focused magma on monday? Would that be nice?

#I haven't hosted a drawring thing in a minute #I'd try to hop in now and then #I just kinda wanna try getting into the habit of at least trying to do stuff more #I just always tell myself I can't do stuff like that unless I can put in 100% but like. I never have time for that for other things #idk. maybe also it's just a bad idea lmao #like. why? it's not an anniversary or anything but idk. the idea just popped into my head and it sounded like it could be fun #or not idk!!! sorry I have food poisoning or something so I'm feeling out of sorts #this weeks been really weird in a not so good way. barring like. a couple good things #so ig im just a bit out of it #sunny with clouds #possibly delete later if i become less out of it and decide this is Not a good idea

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robinsnest2111 · 6 months ago

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maybe I really need to get back into carbonated water. the latest addition to the local grocery store's bottled water selection has been quite good actually (sparkling peach and sparkling lime-lemon flavour) in those 3/4 liter "sports" bottles...

#maybe the carbonation will keep my senses entertained enough that i don't feel the need to stuff my face with food 24/7 #also hydrationnnnnnnn so important #struggling with food again. if i' not super rigid with meal prep and portions and timing i go off the rails #i just don't feel really hungry or full. got no cues unless i'm in the beginning stages of starvation #and food is more of a sensory distraction thing to me i think arghhh which i HATE #i could do so many other more fun or productive things but then i get stuck in a snacking cycle #because of textures and mouth feel. so stupidddddd #could this be considered an e.d.?????? idek #just. food struggles a tale as old as time. have felt like this my entire life #vent #sorry i'l delete this post if it's too triggering to anyone #just had to ramble and be honest about my eternal struggle #could this be an autism thing too????? we just don't know!!!!!

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icewindandboringhorror · 6 months ago

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What would you choose? :0c

(note: original image is from HERE (link) - but I edited it to add a wider variety of options.. also added $3 extra to the total, even though I know that makes it more uneven lol, I thought if you're adding 10 whole extra items, the money to spend should at least be increased slightly, if that makes sense..)

#I would get orange juice. black coffee. AND iced coffee ($3) because I love the variety of having multiple drinks #then sausage and scrambled eggs ($8). Then sauteed mushrooms ($3)....AND... hrm.. then spending the remaining $4 would be hard #I wish I could get waffles (as they are my favorite and are superior in every way compared to pancakes. donuts. etc.) but I'm not willing #to give up the other savory things just to get them. so... then maybe I could get a biscuit or english muffin? and just put jam or #honey butter or something on it so it can be my replacement 'sweet and bready' thing instead of something from the $5 row??#OR I could also just assume that having the orange juice plus iced coffee would provide enough of a 'sweet element' to the meal #(since I largely prefer savory foods. I only like a tiny bit of sweet added for variety) and thus forego any sort of #'bready' thing entirely and just get the bowl of beans/onion/tomato (I'd leave the avocado since I don't like the #texture of them really lol). THEN I'd have $1 left to get the milk or the black tea... increasing my total of random drinks..#which is always the goal of course.. as a chronic ''person who is sipping at 5 different drinks at their desk simultaneously always'' perso #OR... I could just do.. waffle. scrambled eggs. sausage. mushrooms. and black coffee and orange juice.. which is... okay variety #augh... so difficult.. As my Ideal Breakfast is like a buffet type thing or something where you have like 25 different things to choose fro #and can get a little tiny bit of everything. My eating style is very much like.. I'd rather pick at a small amount of a ton of #different things than just have a very large amount of only one or two things. Thats why I LOVE sample platter type stuff.#So it's like... augh... the ideal option would be a tiny portion of EVERYTHING actually lol...#Difficult to choose...#ANYWAY.. Also no idea why I added croissant instead of bagel. I only thought about that afterwards. I do actually like bagels.#I've only ever even had a croissant like 2 times in my entire life. Yet I've had many bagels. For some reason it stuck out in my mind more #when I was considering 'essential breakfast foods' somehow... how could I forget them... bagels my beloved...#Blame it on the hot weather... 'What in the blazes? The sun hath obliterated the concept of bagels from my miind!'#(< meant to be said in a silly overdramatic elderly wizard accent or something)#Also I don't think ''bowl of beans. onion. avocado. and tomatos.'' is necessarily a breakfast classic or something gbhjjh #but I was just trying to think of a versatile vegetable-ish side that could be full of common breakfast additions #so people could do stuff like ''oh I get the toast option and then the bowl of stuff and I put the avocado on the toast'' etc.#Like a mix and match. You could mix ingredients from different parts. You could put scrambled eggs and bacon and onion #on the bread or soemthing. etc. I just feel like something is always missing if a Full Breakfast Spread #doesnt have some sort of onions or beans or mushrooms or asparagus or spinach like... some sort of thing that isn't just eggs and meat and #bread.. you know? lol..#But then again.. I am the Sampling Plate Style Variety Lover and Tiny Portion Of Food Picker so maybe thats just a me thing.

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hollowsart · 4 months ago

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-cracks knuckles-

I don't have twitter and I've never drawn a Miku before in my life, but I adore that trend happening rn and wanna drop down my two cents, so let's go with the research to make a Hatsune Miku: but she is from my family (hard to explain, but it's absolutely Texan)

#ghostie mumbles #looking up some native american jewelry from the ones in my genealogy to be accurate and true #as well as merging it with some casual wear and subtle cowboy stuff.#culture stuff for me and my family is very lowkey and more in what you'd see as little details scattered around the house--#--and houses of my relatives. so this is gonna be a very tame Miku but it's gonna be a nice little depiction of my heritage n stuff #I am going to have at least 1 piece of jewelry that represents the native american tribe sin my genealogy which is..#tbh.. as close as I am with that side of me. I'm so far removed that my physical features are so subtle you'd have to look closely to see i #everything I know came from my grandma on my dad's side and the powwows we have gone to when I was younger before they all--#--kinda.. stopped happening and moved to the big one called 'red earth' which is out of state for me #I liked the small ones.. the smells. the food. the music. getting to see the regalia of dancers.. the beautiful art and jewelry and trinket #--and figures you could buy.. it was always so nice getting to go.#at least the state fair has some stalls dedicated to native american artists who craft and sell similar things #one thing they don't have tho is the fry bread. and now I really want some. :(#ANYWAYS Gonna mark down the jewelry and the tribe name next to it as I find it and get that noted before moving on with everything else #I wanna make her look cute and interesting. will also definitely be looking into hairstyles and clothing. taking inspo from my own family #all this just for a dumb miku drawing #I do my best to try and do research for my pieces!!!! mostly.

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ryuseitai · 4 months ago

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ii quite enjoy cooking although i dont know a whole lot about it but it is fun and i like to experiment and just wing stuff.. i also dont have a lot of like, resources bc my house is fucked up and nothing works and we own one pot, ive wanted to try baking out for a long time but the oven doesnt work yadda yadda yadda But well one day, whenever i live somewhere else, i can try it out.. but i liike doing what i can do here and it is so nice when i make food and its yummy :] esp if other people eat it too and also like it. i made cinnamony soft apple thing and my momma said is really good she liked it

#i get sad if i think about it too much bc i really would like for my dad to teach me stuff #but he cant due to how he lives within the soil of the earth these days. but he was a chef and made rly good food always.. well its ok #i also always regret that i was such a picky eater when i was younger #and i became much more courageous w trying new food and realized i like eating just about anything #around when i was like uuh.. idk 15 or 16 or so but #there was always a lot of food my dad would make that i wouldnt even try bc i was picky and i didnt stop being picky until years #after he died. i wish i could let him know. hed be happy about it i think #only slightly related but when i was little and would see in like #movies or at school and stuff how the mom/women stereotypically do the cooking in households it confused me #bc my dad cooked everything at my house like the only thing i can rmbr my mom making ever is like #Box mac and cheese

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itspileofgoodthings · 4 months ago

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you know what I’ve realized lately? that’s really helped? the axiom: it just doesn’t really make that much of a difference. Or at least it doesn’t when you’re talking about good things and not, like, doing good vs. doing evil. Big choices, little choices, decisions, decisions —it’s not just that they don’t matter in the grand scheme of things—because they do! —but just. It won’t make that big of a difference. Life will continue to be wonderful AND difficult, fascinating AND hopelessly mundane, full of roses AND thorns and all the other cliches whether you walk down one road or another. And you’ll get used to the joys and sick of the sorrows whatever they are, and you’ll be ungrateful and bored and dissatisfied in some measure some of the time and you’ll have to work on all the things you have to work on anyways and just. Yeah! It doesn’t make that big of a difference! Even the biggest things!

#as Maria once said to me iconically: marry the guy don’t marry the guy #life is hard and it sucks and it’s also great and little treats exist #and we have to practice patience and virtue and penance regardless of any other circumstances #and God loves us no matter the path we take #like I just. I am reflecting #you know what also made this click for me recently? the limits that can be reached with doing little things to improve your life #like YES. I need to get some exercise and eat some food that is not totally terrible for me and clean my space #but you know the fuck WHAT #(I’m so sorry for swearing)#it doesn’t !!! actually !!!!! dramatically alter my life if I do one thing or another or in a certain order #I could become a fanatical hiker (for some reason I have been seized by the vision of this lately)#and it’s just like. well. yes you could. and you know what it would keep raining sometimes and my anxiety would still exist #and people would still be irritating and laughter would still be real!#anyway I don’t mean to be dismissive over the ways choices can deeply affect our lives #but when the choices are good and the options are good it just doesn’t matter that much #I also realized this with makeup lol. like I reached the point where I was like I could spend more time and effort and money #to achieve a higher level quality of appearance and literally for WHAT #people would still not pay attention to me in the grocery store (lol)#and they don’t need to!!!!! and it’s fine they don’t!!!!!!!#but I just. that voice in my head that’s like if you do X you will experience happiness you have never known #and things will all work out and everyone will be in love you #to that voice I say: well no.#wow this is long but you know what I mean????? it all just sort of matters less in the sense that nothing WE do is going to really #change our lives? I know that’s insane #because people are so insistent that the opposite is true. but like. actually no the most life changing opportunities usually happen #without our control or our scheming or our planning #so of the stuff within our control it’s not that big of a deal!! do good avoid evil enjoy your lunch call your mom!!! but that’s all gonna #keep being the same on the other side of so many many different choices we can make #so yeah

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ana-rends · 6 months ago

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i would rather live with ana for the rest of my life than binge like this ever again

#rending.txt #i dont know how to stop binging i was doing so well yesterday and then for no reason it fell apart #i just want to stop #i have so much to do today but i just dont want to do anything im so depressed #im just going to lay in bed and eat all day and think up ways to die #i already know my chosen method i just cant be bothered right now so maybe later #i just want to keep sleeping #i called in sick to work today because i was so so tired and i slept i think nearly 12 hours which isnt bad #i wanna go on a walk and work out and stuff but i just. cant right now. i need to work on my job presentation but i just cant #i just want to keep eating and go back to sleep and then wake up and end it #but i just need to make it to therapy tomorrow and maybe itll get better? who knows #i dont even have the energy to walk up to tesco to get blades or more food so im laying im bed eating dry granola like a pathetic pig #i dont wanna talk to anyone but my boyfriend but hes asleep and i dont want to vent to him anymore because it makes me feel guilty #and it doesnt help to vent to him anymore so i just make him sad for no reason and i dont know how to vent to anyone else #i havent changed my bedsheets in weeks and theres so much trash on my floor you can barely walk in my room and i havent showered in a week #i just dont have the heart to cry anymore i just want it to stop #i did everything i was supposed to so i could prevent binges and it didnt work at all so i think im beyond saving lol

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welcometoteyvat · 1 year ago

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arlecchino's official title is "father" when house of hearth members refer to her ......... please just one chance please please

#GOD. me when slightly more masc women #idk i really hope they keep that just bc it would be so nice to have some more canonical gender fuckery as little as it is #i hope they write her well because MAN she's been so interesting so far #. kind to kids; who also end up becoming essentially child soldiers; 'has her own agenda' according to childe..#thinking back to my own post abt her and house of hearth: seems like she really does care abt the kids in her org (or acts like it well eno #enough . but ahskdjksfjl she could ofc be another person who knows how bargaining and equivalent exchange works. like. save your life for #a debt. win loyalty via small favors that are actually nice things and things she doesn't mind doing etc #think how bai.zhu operates but a lot more ethically questionable #please please let her be a well rounded evil. her design is already so cool (minus the long rat tail ponytail thing :\)#chewing on her and her motivations and backstory for enrichment #genshin spoilers #4.0 spoilers #fontaine spoilers #arlecchino #i hope! they make her self aware enough to know she's doing evil. or not evil but not morally great things . and i sure hope they don't #write it off as 'this for that. food/shelter for doing 'jobs' for me' when the job is literally . murder and spying and all sorts of other #stuff. or ig she can justify it like that but IDK all im asking is that she doesn't get the shogun treatment #teyvat thoughts #ramblings!

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