#so some of this is guesswork

[heretherebedork]

It's Juyeong clinging to Dohoe's father out of a desperation to still find that connection to Dohoe, to find that connection to the man he loved but also to the man who was abusive but who took him in, who beat him but did not leave him on the street or turn other people against him.

It's Dohoe pulling himself away from the brink of violence and escaping the life he most feared, trying to escapes the parts of himself he feared by leaving it all behind and knowing where Juyeong was but also knowing what he was doing and never going back.

It's both of them feeling betrayed and abandoned, both of them alone, both of them fighting the curse of the violence that haunts them. Because they are both haunted, each in their own way, by the violence done to them and the violence they did or almost did.

Juyeong tries to teach children what he learned but with kindness and excitement and joy. He tries to share what he found in taekwondo with them but also to show them kindness and care, to show them that they are worthwhile and worth kindness and tenderness and gentleness, all the things he was never shown except by Dohoe, to show them acceptance.

Dohoe left all of that behind. He saw the potential for violence in himself and pulled away from all of it, turning his back entirely on the concept itself. He made a different life, a different kind of life, one without the violence and without the need to forgive.

(They found joy in sparring but that joy was a small one, born of love that brought greater joy in many places and many ways and that joy is the joy they both lost, that joy of love and acceptance and tenderness and abuse stole that from them, the cycle of pain stole from them what could have been and now they must find a way to free themselves, to escape the curse of violence even the violence that they do to themselves.)

[gibbearish]

ive seen ppl saying smth in the wider plagiarism discussion to the tune of "don't worry anxious people, it's impossible to accidentally plagiarize!" and i feel like that lacks a lot of nuance that anxious brains like mine latch on to to just dismiss the possibility outright, as well as a lack of life experiences fueling it.

it is possible to "accidentally plagiarize" in that you can read something, forget about it, then a while later have your brain spit the ideas back out without telling where it got them. so of course you just assume they're yours and share them as such, because That's Where Most Of The Thoughts In Your Head Come From! and it both is and isn't plagiarism, you weren't /intending/ to pass someone's else's work off as your own, i'd even say in a way you were just as much a victim of misinformation as your audience. but you very much so did still resuse the work of someone else, even if you don't remember it.

but in my experience, this kind of thing also happens to a lot of people. you tell a friend a joke then wake up in a cold sweat two days later realizing the reason they didnt laugh was because they'd told you that joke a month ago. you reply to a friend's text and after sending you realized you ended it with the same exact phrase as theirs. you're writing edgy poetry and write a line you really like only to see it in a text post two days later saying youve already liked the post. like, it happens. so if it DOES happens and you're just honest and explain, people will understand. something like "oh shit im sorry, i totally have read that, i mustve forgotten and only remembered bits and pieces and just thought they were mine. thank you for letting me know and for the source" works wonders.

people know you can forget things. people won't automatically doubt your apology just because all true plagiarists say it was accidental. HOPEFULLY people can understand the nuance between a genuine remorseful explanation, and a thief who hoped no one would find out scrambling for excuses for why they did it. and those who can't, that's a them problem, not a you problem, you've taken responsibility for your actions as much as you can. they think the answer is simple, that the only thing stopping you from saying "yes i did it on purpose, i knew the whole time and deliberately copied them" is shame/inability to admit to your actions. but sometimes things AREN'T that simple, so imo ppl who are shitty to you for not following the script they made up for you in their head should be ignored

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

Do you have the links to ashswag on internet archive ? (Hyperfixation has gone brrrr recently lol) ¤3

I can do you one better, and link you over to the lifesteal vod archive! It is honestly a godsend in the age of streams as lost media, and the archivists have my heart

You should be able to cell search if you’re in desktop, but mobile can be a dick about it, so if you’re not in the mood to column sweep:

House arrest vods one and two

He did WHAT to the mothership???

Zam gets sent to hell

Genesis SMP (one, two, three)

Kaboodle SMP (one, two, three, four, five, six)

KabSMP with lifesteal near the end

PVP legacy with a bit of gensmp at the end

PVP legacy part two electric boogaloo

Their health is linked?!

Lifesteal season five (one, two, three, four (marriage edition))

Minecraft singleplayer

Skyblock randomizer with Zam, Redd & KyleEff

Lifesteal public

[blackjackkent]

She eyes the strange shifting landscape outside the vessel warily. It is blisteringly hot; her sweat is soaking the thin robes she wears. She considers jumping; it would be a way out, even if a likely fatal one. But she will not give her captors the satisfaction. She wants answers.

And vengeance... comes the implacable thought. They must pay for this pain in my head. I want them to PAY.

She frowns, stalks towards the far door which slides open with a sickeningly wet slurping sound. In the room beyond, she hears the first voice that has spoken to her since she awoke.

At first she thinks it is the man slumped in the chair talking, but he is slackjawed with agony - not quite dead but nearly so. Another prisoner in this place, but this one horribly mutilated. His brain is exposed, and it wriggles with each word murmured into the boiling air.

"Yes!" it hisses excitedly at her approach. "You've come to save us from this place. From this place you'll free us--" Its voice undulates and wavers weirdly and she feels a prickle run down her spine.

Narrator: The exposed brain quivers in expectation.

"Who am I talking to?" she asks uneasily. "A man or a brain?"

"A newborn..." the brain whispers eagerly. "Born new from this husk..."

Narrator: [ARCANA - FAILURE] You know no creature like this - one that is more brain than person.

Of course she doesn't. She knows nothing. Not this creature, not who she is, not anything at all.

The rage-fear churning in her stomach rises in a sudden clear bolt of blinding frustration and revulsion at this vulnerable target, and she lashes out with both hands, sinking them deep into the abomination's fleshy bulk.

Destroy the brain.

The flesh gives under her hands with extraordinary ease and she feels a cracking pop as she severs some vital nerve. The creature screeches in agony and then falls silent. The man's terrified eyes go blank.

Slowly she withdraws her fingers from the mutilated tissue and shakes the blood from her hands to spatter a vibrant pattern on the floor. A strange sense of satisfaction settles in her gut, and the rage-fear eases a little in response, as if sated. The threat is eliminated, the abomination destroyed.

But her sense of unease only deepens. Because she realizes, as the anger fades, that she didn't know she was going to kill the creature until it was already dead.

[sysig]

I also made a card for him (Patreon)

[forcedjuggalofication]

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[skeleton-in-a-hoodie]

Thinking about Yoshi doing rat stuff and how his uncles feel about that. Like Yoshi is a rat mutant who got mutated when he was about a month old - this kid has zero memories of being human and looking at photos of himself as a newborn makes him feel weird, because in Yoshi's mind he's a rat, not a human.

At first, whenever he acted more like a rat toddler than a human toddler, I think it really worried his uncles. He couldn't talk yet, so they couldn't ask him why he did that and the parenting books they had were no help.

Taling to April wasn't much good either - June may not be entirely human (Utrom/Kraang genetics inherited from April), but she was more or less a normal kid. April had never had to worry about June climbing up walls with her claws, chewing through metal, and had no answers for all the strange noises Yoshi made. It takes them a while to figure out which bruxing means rat nephew is happy and which means he's distressed.

This is a kid who needs new stuff to investigate or he'll get bored and start destroying something. Before he was old enough to entertain himself, the Turtles spent as much time as they could finding things for him to do. This was properly one reason Raph and Casey taught him how to spray paint, as well as how this version of Splinter gets into smithing. Like if he gets bored he can paint something or make another sword! (Ageswap Yoshi has so many knives, it's ridiculous.)

The Turtles have to be careful about introducing new scents into the Lair cause there's a chance it'll confuse Yoshi and his sense of smell won't be able to make up for his terrible eyesight and he'll got lost on his way to the dojo.

The first time the Turtles saw porphyrin coming out of Yoshi's eyes, they pretty much screamed. They thought Yoshi was bleeding out of his eyes and were all in various stages of mental breakdowns thinking Yoshi was deathly ill and they'd failed to look after their nephew. Finding out that hey, it's okay, that's completely normal for him, its not actually blood, had them all either laying on the floor or going off on their own into a quiet room to stare at the wall for a while.

If Yoshi gets stressed out about something, they have to stop him from scratching himself or trying to chew on his own tail.

This kid has no poker face at all. His ears and whiskers are always giving him away, which is great for them knowing when he's lying, but terrible for being a ninja. This also gets really frustrating for him, because there are times when you don't want everyone to know how you're feeling, but those things give him away. Yoshi can forget about being upset without everyone knowing - he tries to compensate by pulling his hood up on bad days, but that kinda just lets everyone know he's upset and doesn't want to talk about it.

Just the Turtles and their very much a rat mutant nephew, who doesn't feel ashamed of being a rat, so doesn't bother hiding the ratty part of his nature

[sovaharbor]

i hate how i [momentarily] blacklisted sp1derverse and the miguel o'hara tag is still absolutely inundated with reader-insert fics with absolutely no grasp of his character and only exist because oscar isaac hot

[mastersoftheair]

this comment by mitch stone (a hair stylist and photographer) was left on a MotA-related post made by kirstin chalmers (a hair and makeup designer for the show). if i'm right that he's talking about MotA (why else would he leave that comment?), i suppose there were reshoots in los angeles (at some point?) and isabel may may have been cast in the show.

neither may nor stone are mentioned on MotA's imdb page, but stranger things have happened.

[pokemonfrommemory]

So glad they got wings :)

[yngai]

i hope RE4R separate ways starts with ada sipping a mojito on the beach as she's rudely interrupted by an organization liaison who offers her the spain operation & she takes off her sunglasses, frowns & downs the rest of her drink, just as a fun contrast to leon's little edgy monologue about his really bad time under military service

[did-slid-skid]

robespierre brushed his teeth. fascinating. remarkable.

(x)

[maggiecheungs]

some newer films that imo have a shot of making the new sight and sound 100 best movies list: parasite, the handmaiden, spirited away, moonlight, uncle boonmee who can recall his past lives, oldboy, the tale of princess kaguya

[curly-cottage-girl]

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[pochapal]

we are so fucking back (kind of)

[thalwhore]

Good GOD I just sat on the floor for like three hours cutting up a shirt pattern, my hips feel like that of an old lady who's fallen one too many times.