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finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using
#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for?#open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer)#maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel#once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs#i respected their commitment to the theme#but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities#dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton#ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered#i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it#aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment#honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet#letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already.#really i've put off my responsibilities long enough#(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings)#(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time)#(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.)#(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)
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Look. Look look look.
I was saddened by Percy's death, obviously, but it didn't hit me overly hard because I was expecting it the entire time I was watching E7. Damn episode is literally called Cloak and Dagger and had all the telltale signs of an impending character death (looking at you, score-less scenes and death-flag dialogue)
But KASHAW? Fucking KASH? They killed HIM off? That was the scene that brought me to tears. What the FUCK do you MEAN the loveable asshole is DEAD? That he got SQUASHED like a BUG by Thordak and joined the Matron's side?
He and Zahra were supposed to have a lovely cameo each season where we got to see their relationship progressing alongside the others! They were meant to end the show happy and healthy, joking with Vex and Vax about how twins run in Zahra's family!
I kinda desperately want Kash to be given a resurrection. Let Vox Machina repay him for his help in bringing Vex back last season! Let Zahra and him build their family together! Let me know some peace!
#yet that is not how stakes in an animated show like this works#percy coming back is already pretty significant and considering their deaths happened within episodes of each other#the ONLY way i could see it working is if they did a double-resurrection (think zahra appealing to vex as a fellow heartbroken lover)#critical role#critical role spoilers#tlovm spoilers#tlovm#tlovm s3#the legend of vox machina#kashaw vesh#zahra hydris#god i am actually so destroyed by what happened to kash#percy's death? expected. prepared for. painful but necessary for the larger picture.#kashaw's death? unexpected. unprepared for. COULD HAVE BEEN GIVEN TO FUCKING SYLDOR INSTEAD#to be clear this is not me hating on the show - i am just deeply emotional about such a sudden character death
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a slightly scribbly Eddie for @akemima's promptlist, day one - cool outfit! well, i don't know if its Cool, but it sure is an outfit!
#mannnnn i forgot jewelry existed... could have slapped on some cute rings or earrings...#i forgor... outfits are not my forte... it shows in my choice of daily clothes as well...#i also didn't realize i didn't give him a full body until i was pretty much done so. No! Oopsies!#drawing eddie continues to be comforting and yet a total pain in the ass!#i love him! i hope he goes Through it! i hope he Dies Traumatically! i say this Every Time!#but yes cute prompt list. excited to do more#slowly though... writers brain perseveres rn...#scribble garnish#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#eddie dear#looking directly at the drag prompt. yes please yes please#eddie in drag is everything to me she's so gorgeous. augh. ough#i must find the perfect Dress...
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Mha sketch dump!
feat. LoV sleeping and other things
So there's that World Hero vote going now, BUT there's also basically a personal Top 5 thing too
I thought about my top 5 for a bit and ended up with this
But as it was I didn't like that we don't exactly have a way to make multiple characters have same place like that character sorter. But my top 3 would've shared 1st place
And also it gave me some inspiration so I sketched Izuku and later Tomura. And here started the sketch wave, bc choosing AFOmura for the Tomura pic is... A choice and so there are two Tomura's on the sketch, with AFOmura getting the 2nd amd Tomura 1st
I got a bit frustrated with how I drew them so I decided to try to redraw some stuff while keeping with mha style as close as I could
I was a bit... Surprised? To see my own progress as the last time I did a thing like this it wasn't that good
Trying to simplify the style instead bc I was getting sleepy didn't help
#fanart#sketch#my art#bnha#league of villains#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#midoriya izuku#toga himiko#dabi#toya todoroki#spinner#shuichi iguchi#mr compress#jin bubaigawara#Had isat ost on a loop for the LoV sketch#It was my last one and I like it the most#I wanted to sketch something like that for a long time even more so after... Final arc#Was thinking about stuff while drawing#Like how Izuku tried to save Tomura and yet the moment he (Tenko) was free from all those feelings#He just thought of his friends and later LoV and refused to give up on that#And it wasn't even a choice that could've changed anything with how he was slowly dying after that blow and AFO's involvement#Isat is so easy to crossover with mha actually just take Izuku's arc and boom#I thought about LoV tho#One would ask when don't I do that#Hyperfixation is slowly becoming durable so I'm mostly trying stuff out and mixing now#This sketch dump was a spontaneous thing just because I saw that one top 5 thing#Because drawing mha stuff is pretty painful! That's why I drew LoV sleeping#I was literally thinking of dropping the sketches halfway with most of them#But in any case LoV always has a special place in my heart it's been 5 years after all
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+ Butch 4 Butch +
(Except neither one of them is rlly that butch but holy fUCKING SHIT THAT SONG IS LITERALLY THEM… the version of them I made up in my mind palace… it’s them.)
Anywayyyy. Yeah! Have a tagr art dump..! aka, those vibes when you, out of a series of moments of temporary insanity, end up finding, taking in, nursing back to health and eventually falling into a tangled messy yearning situationship w the asshole tsundere alien who tried to destroy your entire planet… rlly extremely relatable vibes!!
#invader zim#gaz membrane#tak#invader tak#tagr#iz tak#iz gaz#doodles#caption for the 3rd pic:#ton ten photos taken seconds before a goth girls plushie security system shoots you in the head.#anyway… yeah… I love these two#I think a lot my ideas for them are informed by this one fanfic I read as a young teen/child… but I don’t actually remember anything#concrete?? just general story beats? and I’m pretty sure my ideas deviate from it a good bit. but#I think that fic def formed the basis for my tagr love and appreciation#I think they could be complicated and messy and painful and fun as fuck#I have ideas for them lol. and some more art. so hopefully I’ll be able to post that soon too#but for now… enjoy sketch dump of messy goth saphics#*top ten moments. not ton. spellings hard ghgh#I think tak is very hesitant about initiating physical contact and intimacy and being cuddly. cuz of pride and also repression#but I saw a post talking about irkens being naturally very touchy feely affectionate and I def agree…#so. tak is wary of stuff like that at first. but once u break thru that initial barrier of her denying herself she’s actually sUPER TOUCHY#gaz has unleashed a pda beast she just doesn’t kno it yet
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P'Joe, I miss you. I miss you so much. Don't be stupid. Open your eyes. The only one he loves is Tong.
MY STAND-IN (2024) | 1.06
#poom phuripan#up poompat#my stand in#my stand in the series#msiedit#usersasa#tobelle#usertoptaps#userbunn#tuseralexa#userrlana#rinblr#userzhaozi#userrlaura#msiep6#clairedgifs#joe my babe he's calling out your nameeeee#but anyway from joe's pov i totally agree why he cant trust ming yet#cuz even if joe 2.0 believes that ming loves joe 1.0. the act of ming using joe 2.0 for comfort can make both joe/audience have doubts#but for ppl who get it get it#for ming it's the sense of familiarity he seeks from joe 2.0#not just simply sex#and im pretty sure they will depict that in ep 7 but i dont want to spoil it#ming is a dying matchstick holding out hope for joe 1.0 return but the loneliness is slowly killing him so he's seeking warmth from joe 2.0#love the line in ad where ming says he's well aware of the painful cost of using somebody as a sub but also he cant stop making bad decisio
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Softly, slowly, I want to love you anyway (Patreon)
#Doodles#ISaT#Loop#Isabeau#Siffrin#Sloopis Sloopis Sloopis#Top tier polyship heck yes#Poor Loop :'0 Give them love now!!!#Kinda-sorta inspired by my Loop fic - that transformation had to be difficult ;;#The ones with Isabeau are deffo more Star of Your Dreams tho <3 Isa's so sweet weh#Loop honey letting people in is like The Thing that will help The Most#Always deflecting giving outs letting people off the hook at their own expense :'( Pushing others away is easier than letting them see ;;#It's why Isa's such a good boy!! He genuinely wants to know to be close to see the real them - both of them!!!#It's work but it's worth it <3#And obviously Sif understands haha#If ever a pair needed some self-love it was these two like Sheesh#Loop still wouldn't make it easy hehe <3 They're just like that#It'd be so easy for Sif to accidentally hurt them and need to backtrack and it's worse because Loop would Get It#They understand each other so intrinsically and yet Sif still has - will always have - a victory that Loop never got to ;;#Even loving each other and sharing what they currently have it's still a painful reminder of what they left behind :'0 Loooop </3#They really are fun to draw hehe Loop's eyes are so pretty ♪ And actual sparkles on the dark gradient this time! Yes!#I debated whether I wanted their tears to be visible - blotted out by how bright their head is? But went with it for expression reasons#Gods can you imagine how beautiful their tears would be tho? Little prisms splitting up their white light#Although that would imply colour lol - I mean if Anyone Would have a bit of colour it Would be Loop sooooo#Hmngh love 'em
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#kawaragi momoka#girls band cry#garukura#WHAT IF I KILLED MYSELF#based off the opening scene in ep 8#guys i get so so sad. she looked so happy#she really believed in her dream#MAKES THE FALL MORE PAINFUL YOU LNOW#(BUT YOUR DREAMS HAVENT DIED YET!!!!)#edit: i wish i could get the gradient darker at the top#but then i wouldnt have good contrast with the border at the top#and also this paper wasnt made for handling heavy washes of water ahaha#anyways i really like how it looks irl…! its a little smoother… i had to up the saturation to get the ink to look as vibrant as irl#(the blue is soo pretty… im glad i still had a nice amount in the tiny 10ml bottle 😭)#(its herbin blue calanque btw… if ur into fountain pen inks and stuff)
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#joker#arthur fleck#joker folie a deux#tw suicide#suicide tw#btse gifs#i've searched hard but haven't seen this part giffed yet so i made some#though i did these pretty quickly so there may be errors#i know this is a cool joker moment for many but it's also pretty painful in the full context of the courtroom scene
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experiencing the horrors . save me lil guy from comic book. lil guy from comic book PLEASE
#rimi talks#genuinely kind of sad/upset i wont be able to do more than 1 MAYBE 2 fics for superfam week#bc this whole week and last week have been taken up by health bullshit and all i want ot do is sleep#i had plans. i had outlines. unfortunately i also had my stupid body betray me and now here we are :(#i had a doctors appt yesterday. and the day before. and i have one monday and one more that i haven't scheduled yet#i am. so tired y'all#and im extra tired of being in pain all the time. i have been in constant pain since wednesday at noon#it's a little funny i was texting my friend abt steel '94 and there is a timestamp visible for when i stopped responding#bc i was suddenly in too much pain to put words in order or even sit up straight at my laptop lmao#and luckily it HAS gone down like im not in so much pain i genuinely can't breathe anymore. no longer feel like im in danger of passing out#but i do still feel pretty damn bad and im so tired of it aouhghuhgghghhhhhhhhhh#comic book man save me (he can't bc i can't even fuckign write?? what's the POINT)
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[PUT INTO PLACE, TIED DOWN AND ARRANGED, AND IS NEVER THE SAME, AGAIN.]<-listen to my favorite songs. VAMPIRES ARE WONDERFUL ARENT THEY. THE FLESH IS SO MUCH MORE DURABLE. SO MUCH STRETCHIER THAN HUMANS. THE STRESS DOESNT KILL A VAMPIRE THE SAME WAY IT DOES A HUMAN. YOU CAN TAKE THEM APART THREAD BY THREAD AND LEAVE THEM WIDE AWAKE WITHOUT WORRY OF THE BRAINMATTER SPOILING UNDER VINEGARY AGONY.
#cw gore#WEEEE WHIPPING OUT ALL MY BELOVED PIXEL HORROR GAME SOUNDTRACKS FOR THIS ONE#STILL A WIP#SORTA. FORKSFORKSFORKS INSPIRED ME TO START WORKIN AT IT AGAIN. AND NOW IT LIVES. IT LIIIVEESS!!!#MOSLT.Y ATLEAST. I MIGHT MESS W IT MORE LATER. WE SHALL SEE. ANYWAY GABRIEL MONTEZ HUH. WOW POOR GUY#THERES A FASCINATING FEELING THAT COMES WITH BEING ON A OPERATING TABLE.AND BEING IN IMMENSE PAIN#ONE OF MY FONDEST MEMORIES IS LAYING ON A DENTIST CHAIR. SHAKING AND INVOLUNTARILY CRYING AFTER MANY MANY#NEEDLES TO MY THE MOUTH. I METABOLIZE THE NUMBING STUFF QUICKLY APPARENTLY. THEY NEEDED ALOT OF NUMBING SHOTS#BUT I WASNT AFRAID OR DISTRESSED. THE DENTIST WAS VERYVERY NICE AND ALSO UH. PRETTY. BUT THATS BESIDE THE POINT#THE POINT IS. THAT IT WAS FASCINATING TO REALIZE MY PHYSICAL RESPONSE TO PAIN UNDER A CONTROLLED ENVIRONMENT#I DIDNT KNOW HOW EASY IT WAS TO SHAKE AND TO CRY PRYVIOUS TO THAT EXPERIENCE.MY DENTAL ADVENTURES CONTINUE#THEY CONTINUE TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT ITS LIKE FOR PAIN TO BOIL AWAY THE TIME. TO DISTORT THE PASSING HOURS AND CONSUME EVERY THOUGHT#DO YOU REMEMBER PAIN? THE MOST SEVERE PAIN IN YOUR LIFE? NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE RED LIGHTS? RED LIGHTS AND SHIFTING FIGURES#NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE PAIN UNRELENTING.PAIN WORLD SHATTERING.PAIN IMMORTAL.CAN YOU IMAGINE BEING PULLED APART#THE HUMAN MIND CAN ONLY WITHSTAND SO MUCH PAIN BEFORE IT SHUTS DOWN AND HIDES.IT NEEDS TO PROTECT ITSELF AFTERALL. PAIN CAN ALTER#PAIN SHIFTS THE CHEMISTY OF THE MIND OF THE FLESH OF THE SOUL. FOR HUMANS ATLEAST. BUT YOU ARE NO LONGER HUMAN#YOU CHOSE OTHERWISE DIDNT YOU BOY.BECAUSE YOU WANTED MORE.STATUS.POWER.APPROVAL.SECURITY.SAFET.Y.#OHHH YOU CAN WITHSTAND THE PAIN FOR THAT. FOR ALL THAT. YOU WERENT TOLD THERE WOULD BE PAIN BUT YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WERE PROMISED.#ITS ALL WORTH IT IN THE END. NOW LETS JUST HOPE SOME BLONDE TWERP DOESNT PROVE TO BE STRONGER THAN THE STRONGEST PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE#LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. I LOST MY TRAIN O THOUGHT#anyway dawww poorr gabeee that shit probably huuurrrrtttss but so much time has passed that your body got tired of screaming and squirming#why havnt you passed out yet? maybe you might as well have at this point. like sleeping with your eyes open and your nerves awake#OH HEY FUNFACT ABT THE ART. I FOUGHT W IT ALOT. TOOK A LONG WHILE FOR ME TO BE REMOTELY HAPPY W THIS.#i was thinking abt pixel horror video games when i made it.just as i do with all great things ofc ofc#i love you pixel horror game i love yooouuuuu.i struggled so much w the colors for so LONNGG UHGHGHGH but im finally happy...im finally fre
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So what if I combined two mystery/angsty supernatural shows
So I handed lizzy a death note, let's see what she will do with it!
I honestly don't think she would use it unless it is to protect her loved ones and then after that it's mostly just her paranoid over getting potentially caught. Though I think it would lead to some good scenarios!
#kuroshitsuji#black butler#elizabeth midford#death note#ryuk death note#ryuk#I thought about giving it to o!ciel but he already has sebastian and wouldn't need it#and r!ciel is already insanely powerful with undertaker on his side#so lizzy it was!#ceces_art#ceces_bb_art#strangely enough this is my second time posting something au related with lizzy#ryuk was such a pain to draw though oh my god#i also gave lizzy an design of my own to differentiate her a bit#don't know what to call this au yet I might give it a specific name later#what's interesting though is the lore can actually be combined pretty well
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Kinda gets me when people age them down in AUs and stuff because to me those characters wouldn't be half as interesting if Chilchuck, Senshi and Mithrun were the tallman equivalent of in their twenties
#just something about having a lot of history you know#like. chills is divorced or thereabouts. senshi spent like 30 years living in dungeon wilderness. mithrun knows kabru's mom#none of this would be possible if they were 20-somethings#dungeon meshi spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#somewhat i guess#like. yeah kabru and laios and falin (and marci for an elf) are really young BUT have a lot of life exp#but like. the fact that so much happened to them while they are so young is TRAUMA. its BAD#meanwhile chilchuck had like. a pretty average life for a halffoot his age. maybe even successful from a professional standpoint#senshi didnt have an average life but had the time to accumulate an amount of knowledge no 20something could have#and of course mithruns whole life story is like. slowed down because hes an elf#but even then i think its really important to show that it might take several years to start recuperating from a traumatic event#like its what makes his character such an interesting commentary on disability and depression#when you're 25 bouncing back is easier. when you're 40? 50? showing that theres hope#even when you've lost your whole youth to your pain... thats a whole other thing#sorry i started writing serious commentary in the tags#chills#captain mithrun#senshi#even in senshis character up to a point. he spent more years out of society than in it#and YET! even he manages to find a place. somewhat#like. they are all here to show that life goes on even after horrible or simply sad shit happens to you#they are survivors!!!! thats important
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I totally agree with the general consensus that Ringo provided a lot of emotional support and coolheadedness to the other beatles to the point where they'd have probably killed each other without him but I do also wonder sometimes how much of that is being supernaturally patient and easygoing and how much of it is Ringo just having a tumultuous and isolated childhood where he was never taught to recognize and assert his own emotional needs so he became a blank slate on which others could process their emotions
(And tbh I also wonder how an inability to access or assert his feelings may have contributed to his tendency to process pain by numbing himself and the pretty shitty way he treated women)
#see also: george falling in love with his wife and paul routinely telling him he was easily replaceable#and yet ringo has nothing but warmth for either of these men#and of course I'm not saying we shouldn't appreciate how much patience and kindness that takes!#but also i guess it takes a certain lack of assertiveness or the ability to see/value your own emotions#and that's also something interesting to think about#speaking from experience here a lot of alcoholics want to be numb more than they want to be alive#and if ringo couldnt access his emotions it makes sense his only recourse would be to erase them#but i think for him it comes from isolation at a young age and a lack of emotional support#you need your caregivers to teach you what 'sad' is so you can then teach yourself what to do about it#or you may start to cope with that constant feeling of unease and dissatisfaction (that you can never quite grasp) in destructive ways#also his mom started getting him falling down drunk when he was not even twelve years old so tbh the alcoholism was probably inevitable#anyways all this is just to say that the fact that he could absorb pretty much infinite distress CAN definitely be construed as a virtue#but tbh it might also be symptomatic of some painful shit that he needed/deserved help with#ringo starr#longer rambles
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the urge to write jason and roy having abusive, angry, painful sex hhhhgggnnaaaa i can't, i need to get a grip-
#i already wrote a pretty heavy thing with dick and catalina. idk why i'm venting through fics with painful sex (both for body and mind) but#it's working. idk why.#i havent posted it yet btw. waiting for the right moment. it's very personal so idk.#jayroy#jason todd#roy harper#catalina flores#dick grayson#batman#dc comics
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WHO DYA THINK YOURE KIDDING. HES THE EARTH AND HEAVEN TO YOU TRY TO KEEP IT HIDDEN HONEY WE CAN SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOU
#soriku#GODDDDD THINKING SO HARD ABOUT THEM.#Yknow how every kh game has mount olympus. call me deranged but hoping and PRAYING for I Wont Say Im In Love for them#Obvious choice is riku (you keep on denying who you are and how youre feelin) but this also goes for sora.? he hasnt realised yet#and riku's kinda past that part of his life where he denies it (all of dream drop is pretty fuckin blatant)#OAUAGHHHHHHHH THEM THEM THEM. PAIN AGONY O THE HUMANITY#kingdom hearts#kh riku#kh sora#beverly says stuff#riku kingdom hearts#sora kingdom hearts
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