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hiiiiiii long time no see :3c
So! What happened here?
Towards the start of the hiatus - I'd sayyy around Sunny's Birthday Arc? - I was in a pretty iffy headspace, generally. I was getting burnt out with life in general TBH, which might've been pretty easy to see what with how updates slowed during that time, though I still tried to keep up and continue the story. (That was why I brought on Mod Sock, if I remember - she's such a sweetheart and offered to help <333 ily sock /p)
However! On March 28, 2023, my father died. It was sudden andddddd a LOT of my life was up-heaved due to this. He was me and my brothers' main guardian, so there was a lot going on what with who would be taking care of us, where we'd be living, etc etc. Plus, that was only, like, two months before I graduated high school? Lol. So there was also the stress of trying to do THAT as well.
That was the main cause for the hiatus. I honestly just couldn't really balance my mental state, my family situation, AND the responsibility of this comic on top of that - this is just supposed to be a fun thing for me, yknow?? So, I put it on hiatus. I... wasn't really expecting to ever take it off hiatus. I mean, after all those months? After I've gone and started college?? This blog started the summer before my junior year of high school. That's, like, a WHILE.
But then the first chapter of the official OMORI manga came out and it fucking sucked and pissed me off aghalkdhg;ksdhgalshk
That's happening now, I guess. After some light and affectionate prodding (encouragement) from friends I am... tentatively rolling back the hiatus. TENTATIVELY!!!
If it gets too stressful again I've got no problem dropping it again, but I think that now, with a bit more experience and maturity, I should be better at the whole time management and prioritization thing. We'll see how it goes, though. (BTW if there's a notable difference in how updates from here on out looks, it's because I don't use MediBang as a program anymore ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Sorry lol)
So... next up, I guess, is I'm gonna finish up this bit about BOSS, and then characters will be open to answer asks again!
Thank you guys for all your support, both old and continued <3 Let's see if I can't finish this story before I graduate college now LOL
#hiii!!!!!!#hello!!!!!!#so many things have happened irl!!!!!#college is crazayyyy lololol#<- i say that as if im not a social sciences major and go to bed at 9#aoa#ooc
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Not sure if this would help you, but something that helps with my visual hallucinations is using my phone camera to check if something is real or not!
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What does it mean when it makes them worse...?
-Tim
#ask.png#OOC: Olea Speaking#HI IM BACK#sorry for the impromtu mini hiatus a bunch of shitty IRL things happened back to back and had to put the blog on hold#I never stopped drawing tho 👀 i have a lot to share both on main and on here#ive got SO MANY COMICS coming your way hehehe#tim wright#skully#jay skully#marble hornets#mh#mh tim#mh skully#mh jay#afterlife au#slenderverse#fan art#fanart#art#tw eye strain
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On top of being robbed of so much Juke content we’ll never get, what I think about alot is how Juke would have been approached more if it went further.
One of the (many) reasons I love jatp so much is it makes me believe their characters are real, that they have background, they have their own goals and ambitions to them, they’re fleshed out.
That moment of Flynn going “my girls got a crush and his name is Luke” and Julie going “what no?! Luke’s a ghost😳.” And Flynn saying “a cute ghost” and Julie giving in and saying “…with a perfect smile☺️” and adding that Luke is “cute air” which implies she has indeed given this Luke crush idea some thought.
That moment of just two best friends talking about the others potential crush like that’s such a good moment bc I genuinely believe that I am watching these two genuine besties just have that kind of talk with one another bc that happens!
Like that moment we have with our friends when they’re like “hey I got something to tell you 👀” or they approach you like “so… umm… I’ve been kind of noticing your behavior lately around this person.” It’s the realistic little things like that which is why I appreciate this show so much.
Julie having the line of “what no! Luke’s a ghost!” Means so much that, on top of acknowledging “hey he’s got a cute smile, and he himself is cute” she also acknowledged “…he is a ghost though…” but then our Julie being who she is (we love her for it) went “but he still do be cute though 🥰” like this is a genuine teen girl in high school having a crush
And then later on when Reggie and Alex bring up how Luke and Julie ooze chemistry (and the way that throughout the show when Julie and Luke are being cute and them, the looks that we see Reggie and Alex give like Juke and then each other is so good bc I genuinely believe like “yeah these boys are all friends with one another so of course they’d react that way to their other friend showing an interest in their fellow friend”) Luke’s like “no come on I have chemistry with everyone I sing with” HE DOES THE SAME THING JULIE DID WHEN THE EXACT SAME TOPIC EAS BROUGHT UP TO HER! (Soulmates your honor!)
Him denying it, like Julie did, implies too that he also had the thinking of “…she is alive though and I’m not” (I mean me personally I feel like Luke didn’t truly realize he liked her until later on even if there were signs earlier, just bc he seems like the kind of person where like music was his absolute everything like even if the Sunset Curve fangirls were always like ‘omg Luke is amazing 😍’, I just get the vibe that he would never really notice the advances towards him bc he is just so consumed in music and that is his whole existence, so when Reggie and Alex see that Luke appears to be falling for Julie it’s a big deal bc they’re probably like “Luke has NEVER shown any interest ever so the fact that a girl has replaced music in his life THIS IS A MASSIVE DEAL”)
And then the moment when they’re on Julie’s porch and she tries to hold his hand but ya know CANT (huge what a gut punched) and then she awkwardly looks away and he’s like “…this is an interesting little relationship you and I have” and they’re just there for a moment just looking and smiling at each other (THEY’RE FLIRTING SO MUCH WITHOUT SAYING ANY WORDS UGH TAKE ME 😩)
I am sat there genuinely believing that these are two teenagers who even though they know they’re not *supposed* to feel a way about each other, they still do. Like that scene is their confession to one another and it’s so sweet and genuine bc in that moment where Julie tries to hold his hand, they’re brought back to reality as to what they are and yet, they can’t help but still like one another and appreciate each other bc of what the other person has changed so much in their life.
AND THEN, that scene in the beginning of the last episode how Julie asks to talk to Luke (and Reggie and Alex immediately are like “oop leave them be 👀 they’re having a moment” being the greatest friends that they are) and they’re both standing there, in each others presence, it takes a moment for Julie to say what she wants to but they’re just two kids who ended up in each others lives and they know they like each other but they know they can’t act on those feelings yet they still just have this love for each other is so enduring and charming. The way Luke tells her “anything Julie you know that” MAKES ME MELT like ugh 😩 their dynamic and friendship has grown so much with each other from episode 1 to like now and it’s so just ugh it gets me
When I think how Juke could have been approached if we had gotten a chance, I would have loved to see the new like “glowing touch” development and how that would impact their dynamic. (I just imagine Reggie just hugs Julie all the time bc he can (he just seems like such a hugger and I feel like he’d give good ones🥺) and Alex also will gives her side hugs (they just take advantage of being able to physically touch her bc they don’t know how long they’re able to do it for with their new ghost development)) I feel like Luke and Julie would just be a bit apprehensive since the hand holding thing on the porch, and maybe their hug was just a one time thing.
Would have loved to see Carlos referring to Luke as “Julie’s boyfriend” (he was there for edge of great and stand tall THERES NO WAY he’s thinking anything of than “the sleeveless one is indeed my sisters boyfriend”) would be extra great too with like Luke being in the room and Carlos just says that and Julie quickly trying to make him not talk about it bc it’s embarrassing 💀 her just being like “Carlos, he’s a ghost” and him being like “…hey with you having a boyfriend are you going to have less time with Dad and I bc you’ll be busy kissing him?” And Julie’s face just goes pale as Luke takes the time to take himself out of room meanwhile his face his like bright red
Would have loved to see when Carrie’s redemption is happening and it’s Julie and Carrie and Carrie’s like “sooooo 👀 I’ve seen how you look at your guitarist” and she immediately tries to shut it down but Carrie is like “Jules, we may not have been that close in the past year and some but we’ve known each other for how long? I can see your tells!”
I just think a lot about how this ship, even though they’re not meant to like each other yet they do and still care about each other, would have been approached more if we got the chance
#I just wanted to yap I apologize 💀#OMG I forget to mention the locker scene …probably for the best I’ve been yapping too much already no one wants more of that 💀#probably could have been saved for a juke juedi but everyday is juke juedi to me#I know I kept repeating how I like genuinely believe these characters are real people but bc there are so many times where fictional#things like you’re watching it and are like ‘that would never happen’ or ‘no one would do that irl’ but with jatp there is not one point#at all where your brain goes to that which speaks volumes with how good the writing is and how good of performances are in it like UGH#I LOVE IT (also I took a ‘film as art’ class and in that there’s a term called ‘willfullness of disbelief’ where you as the viewer know#that these are actors playing charcaters and they’re on a set HOWEVER in the media you are viewing you are willing to put that aside and#view it as taking in the set as an actual place and the actors ARE their characters)#in Jatp it makes me believe that like all our gang are real people bc of how well they’re portrayed and written it’s just so cool to me 🥰#julie and the phantoms#jatp#jatp netflix#jatp julie#jatp luke#juke#jatp juke#jukebox
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“Fandom isn’t fun anymore fandom isn’t fun anymore” tbh it just feels like white racist “normies” jumped in as opposed to white racist nerds and for me personally u can feeeel it kinda but it doesn’t change much
#like yeah it’s more homophobic#but if u were a fan of a black character and didn’t stereotype them or have them revolve around a white character#Ur getting the same amount of queer content as u were before it’s whatever#like i don’t feel the need to justify my ships or whatever I got over that when I was in middle school thinking I kinda hated the way y’all#saw bismuth#like this is a very sad day for real white nerds#but for blerds it’s like. there’s 12 of u now instead of 10#like awwww u don’t like when ppl tell u to get over their bigotry :((#u don’t like when ppl say it’s not bigotry it’s just an opinion and ur taking it too serious 🥺#is it annoying when u see ur faves getting called bops or diddy or shoehorned into caretakers roles to continue to prop up the importance#of their white male counterparts ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️#how saaaaaad#and it’s very telling it took y’all this long to notice it like#Maybe perhaps deep down ur recognizing there’s so many similarities that u only clocked the behavior when they started going after u?#also complete side note to convo is that for a lot yall fandoms not fun anymore or ppl don’t let ppl have fun#is not a result of cringe culture but a result of more poc and women refusing to let y’all sideline and mischaracterize everyone who’s not#a white man anymore#Like yeah sure it’s shipping for a lot of y’all but for a lot of y’all ur mad u can’t say this girl is getting in the way of ur ship anymore#Ur mad that we’re clocking how ur bigotry irl is shaping fandom spaces and that the small things u just so happen to get wrong are related#that’s about tim stand specifically but u already know#every person who’s written a creepy Ra’s Al ghul fic#and u know what the fuck i mean by creepy#u owe an Arab person $50 and a hand written apology#and if u donated to ao3 keep the apology and send $100
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I hope this blog is great AI dataset poison. Of course I have 3rd party sharing turned off, but it's not like an AI company is actually gonna listen to that stuff
The majority of generated transformers imagery I've seen is already just blobs of color. Ironically, robots are hard for AI to understand. And here am I, with hundreds of scruched up little (though maybe even too little to be included in a dataset) images, selected specifically for looking weird, all tagged various transformers characters. Just imagine what all those croissant Arcees could do to an image generator!
#not a face#anti ai#random thing i thought of a few days ago but forgot to post until now#i'm sorry i haven't responded to so many people yet#irl stuff has gotten to me and i haven't had the energy to try and get my slow laptop to run tumblr#so i've just been relying on the queue which is actually stocked for once#i'd be lying if i said everything was okay but it's also nothing to be worried about#just one of those 'life happens' situations that was inevitable and a long time coming#ok it's not even a 'situation' really#i knew a sad thing was going to happen and then it happened and now it's over#it's not that bad i promise this has happened to me like 30 times already and i know how to deal with it#and having to deal with it is basically the only consequence#sorry for the 4am trauma dump#i guess messing up my sleep schedule was also a consequence lol
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That's why the dark types in your town are so more mischiveous that normal, your family invaded their natural habitat! They want their land back! Dar, you are in a family of colonizers.
I have bad news about what every city and town had to be built over. It's all natural habitat. There wasn't somewhere magically with no pokemon where they built Castellia or Jubilife or Lumiose. They had to kick wild pokemon out for that, too.
Also, there are still wild pokemon here? I have mentioned them repeatedly. We haven't kicked any except the bad ones out. I just saw a sawsbuck on my way to school. There are pidove outside. The dratini in the river.
#pkmn irl#pokeblogging#rotumblr#//shes not a colonizor having to kick out animals is just how building incredibly large settlements like towns and cities work 😭😭😭😭😭#//its easier for a lot of wild animals to stay near a settlement when its smaller but like there is not a magical plot of land where no#//animals live ever unless ur in a wasteland#//that being said natural areas within cities sosososo good for them#//like a little forest is so good in the middle of the city for so many reasons#//whats the fucking point if you cant go see rabbits in the woods#//but like yea no it becomes harder for most wildlife to live in cities that get larger. not even as a colonization thing but in the way of#//generally if you have a lot of people and big buildings bears do want to avoid it. this was a thing even thousands of years ago#//you had a fire and a couple of guys whos job was to start screaming if a bear or lion got close and then bears and lions wouldnt come over#//massive fuck off skyscrapers and cars everywhere are also not beneficial for wildlife to enjoy themselves.#//sorry if im rambling. generally what i mean is like this just what happens when you put a town down luckys place aint special
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ANGELA/SERA FROM THE MARVEL SNAP HERO ANIMATIC
#eep babies first gif#definitely... could be better#i ended up having a lot of issues doing it the way i wanted to in my head and so. had to work around it the only ways i could figure#and also making tumblrs size & dimension limits was. harder than i thought! kinda. compressed to hell#idk. i think i can do better but this is what i ended up with#also i know this has been giffed already but i thought messing w animation was a bit easier than irl images#low stakes also bc none of my friends care about this either#nyxtalks#angela#angela odinsdottir#sera#sera of heven#serangela#angelsera#angela x sera#marvel#marvel snap#gif#one of the things i was having issues was was framerate? like i could not get it to cooperate at all#i couldnt figure how to make it faster as i saved it and then when i tried to edit it in post speeding it up even 1% made it way too fast?#but it was stuttery without change. so im gonna have to mess around more with that#idk! still much to mess with#will be a long time before the GB edit happens at this rate lol#i think maybe im somewhat getting the hang of the bare basics though#if you read this far friends i love uuuuuu#i assume only my dear mutuals would actually read the tags#sorry for there being so many. i had commentary
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only got 4 comments on chapter 3 of settle our bones which is less than a quarter of what i got on chapters 1 and 2 in the same time frame. are people just not interested in lily. there’s plenty of other stuff happening too though.
#i got so many comments on chapter 1 it spoiled me#it stings less bc i got so much detailed validation from my beta#so i know at least One Person saw and appreciated What I Was Doing with lily in this chapter#i mean it’s a long chapter maybe ppl are still reading idk#was also softblocked by literal oldest mutual / thought was a friend and i am deeply confused#i am not as upset about these things as i normally would be#bc i have very good things happening irl#settle our bones tag
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if anyone cares have an angel and vic anecdote because i miss her! when we got home on the 19th we were all really tired, we lowkey weren't even thinking about dan and phil at that point because we desperately needed rest. i think at this point everybody else was in the middle of changing or packing. vic was just sitting on the floor folding something and i was compelled to tackle them. a second after we both simultaneously realized that we Did The Thing and we started laughing hysterically about it (because it was funny and also we were exhausted). and in our fervor vic knocked our heads together and hit their nose on my forehead. it was still red the next day. i have been rotating this moment in my mind since friday because pinof day and that was So fucking funny
#vic tag#i wish we recorded more things from the trip to be honest#ofc we never wouldve thought hey lets record us packing in case something funny happens but i would love to rewatch that in 4k live action#instead of my hazy memory vision#i have so many funny little clips of us being idiots#there's this one of my irl doing the corpse pose and vic going through FUNERAL PLAYLISTS to find the right music to play to commemorate#their 'death' and then every time she moved she kept calling it rigor mortis#not what that means really. especially not laughing you do not laugh when you get rigor mortis#there's also one of vic just looking at me#i think i posted that picture#because their face just reminded me of that pic of dan with the glass of water on his head and idk if that was anything but it cracked me u#it's literally just a video of her looking at me. and then going 'did you take the picture? oh ok'#I! MISS! THEM!#please please please take me back to october 19th#i cannot stress enough how much it was our day more than theirs to me. and i really like that and i need to relive it about 50 times#i love my friends so bad#this post is not even about dan and phil. whatever it's my blog you're all just following it#i'm a vic phanaklusmos fan blog now#among other people ^_^#just a. my friends fan blog#sorry for being annoying but i'm full of love
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2024 Singapore GP | x
#hi everyone I'm sorry I vanished for a few days#this weekend has been hard here with irl family things and in my heart in the world of F1#I feel so so so so much for Daniel and I keep riding a roller coaster of anger that RBR let this happen and sorrow if this is it#then I swing back to hope#not just in 2025 (which I still believe in!!)#but that he can find joy and fufillment and love somewhere better#he deserves so much better than the callously cruel weekend from a sport he's given so much of his life to#I'll be a Daniel fan no matter where he goes next#but my trust in RBR is irrevocably shattered as it is for many (not that I had much to begin with!)#but he was thrown to the wolves and I'm just so angry and heartbroken this happened#but then the possible last lap of his potential last race given to Max#thank you Daniel#and I'm hopeful til the end#I hope he gets what he wants but he deserves so much love#and seeing the love from fans and the people in his life who DO care#I'm a newer fan but I have become so fond for Daniel so much and the anticipation is killing me#let him and fans have peace (even if the goal is Checo retiring after the Mexico GP then at least give some closure for the month between)#just a hard weekend#and the FIA absurdity with Max too ugh#and Carlos' crash in quali ahhh just an awful weekend#with that and an overwhelming family weekend I just couldn't bring myself to post anything#but thank you everyone for this space#I need to catch up but I have seen so many folks echo how I feel#it is upsetting and needless and uncerimonious and cruel#I'll be hopeful forever there is a chance#but Daniel deserves to be happy and RBR proved how heartless of a place they can be#I'll savor the silver linings of Max and Daniel's bond and those on the team who lifted him up#I'll be away again for a work event today but I looked around insta a bit last night#I'll post and tag for the GP if anyone wants to not see it!! still hurts but it'll all be okay in time I know it ❤️#autumn posts
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i find it funny that so many adults talk about how bad the internet is for teens but like ive made so many more friends because of the internet and like the internet made me so much more confident in my art and myself
like of course theres bad ppl on the internet. theres bad ppl irl. bad ppl exist. its crazy i know.
the only age group that shouldnt be on the internet is little kids. like 8-7-etc years old.
#ofc im not saying the internet is the best thing ever but#its one of the best things to happen to me personally#did i have alot of bad stuff happen on the internet? yeah!#but ive had alot of good stuff happen too!#ive met SO many cool ppl who are now my friends through things im interested in#through posting art of said things#interacting with ppl in my communities#when i had only one friend irl who i havent met in like a few years.#tldr: the internet is cool sometimes :)#oswalds rambles
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playing ridgeside village in stardew valley and realizing it’s a goddamn good thing i downloaded the free love mod because there are too many boys in this game now that i like and want to marry. i’m going to have a harem of like a half dozen or more husbands by the time i’m done with this playthrough and its going to be absolutely glorious.
#stardew valley#ridgeside village#of course i’ll have the usual suspects from base game#sebastian and sam and alex my beloveds#plus lance from sdv expanded#and now it’s clear that i will have to marry shiro and jerik from rsv because they’re both so adorable#its funny cuz i’m definitely very monogamous irl but i decided this was a thing that needed to happen cuz there are too many options
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how many times do we need to learn as people that irony and hyperbole can be harmful because 'jokes' aren't easily distinguished from genuine thoughts and feelings until we stop rewarding people for speaking or posting about violence
like even if you're joking/don't actually believe that/think whoever you are insulting is bad/immoral/fictional therefore deserves it - ad hominem attacks always do more harm to the people who share those characteristic then the individual you intend to cause harm to or discredit
#discourse#long post#its genuinely erased so much of my enjoyment of 911blr knowing i have to check accounts or risk seeing bullying/hate#l like its an odd feeling to know that so many people in the same fandom as you actively hold hate or find hate funny against your communit#like tired of people saying others are too sensitive because we dont want to hear or see a person say they want to hurt themself or others#like sorry i put in the work everyday to not let my mental health backslide and to enjoying being alive and accept my queerness#while others seemingly have not#and i know the content i post/share is not all in the same circles as that certain blog and i hate that it still grinds my gears but#its so frustrating to see the cruel glee people have#saying things they would never say to anyone's face irl and only to other blindly devoted/similar bullies#like do these people realise that they are on a razor's edge between 'ironic jokes' and just outright bigotry and threats - like do they#literally the only thing seperating That and conservative bigots is that the bigots are honest about their hatred towards minorities#like a lot of people in the fandom seemingly still need to deal with a lot of intenalised homophobia/racism and just outright hate-#especially regarding queer men and men of colour#because i can not be emphasise enough#It is NOT GOOD OR HEALTHY to be a fully grown adult that actively derives joy from the idea of enacting hate crimes#like you can hate tommy you can want him off the show even want him to die like weird but go off#but its such a next step to unprompted talk about [a character i dislike/hate/dont ship/disrupts my fanon endgame] in derogatory ways -#with rhetoric that straight up is out of terf/rel. right/homophobic/racists bigots and evokes violent hate-crimes......#well i feel sorry for those people cause what a miserable life to spend so much of it unable to enjoy your own life that you target others#anyways I know this is too long but I'm just a very tired man who has studied history and education and working with kids i have seen it -#too many times- harmful words coming from harmful environments or creating harmful actions and thereby perpetuating the cycle of violence#also not super relavent but as Latino Australian i am genuinely appauled at how many people have in their bio they are also Australian-#while actively liking/reblogging and engaging with post that find homophobic violence a funny haha joke - as if activist in our country -#aren't actively trying to dismantle homophobic and transphobic laws regarding issues like conversion therapy#like I know professors that actively got fired for being gay while teaching in religious education context - and its still happening!#so for people to forget so quickly what progress has been made and how much it took and how easy it is to loose - disappointing#(and its the same people who wanna pretend mardi gras is nothing but a party as if 78rs didn't risk their jobs/safety/lives)
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the trainee reminds me of a boss and a babe and yes it's because every ep has me thinking where the fuck is the hr department in this fucking company?
#so many things happening and almost every one of them is a hr violation#if they're trying to complete the book of hr violations as fast as possible really impressive bc they're close to do it#i think all of these characters need to know what a proper workplace behavior is like wtf#also explain to me WHY judy didn't take ANY responsibility in kissing bahmee...#if i remember correctly she in fact DID kiss her back when bahmee moved her face away#a boss and a babe has the situation a little worse because cher was having a relationship with the actual ceo of the company#also never forgetting him bring the wrong coffee to gun on purpose he would be fired in this exact moment irl#but as i am guncher for life 🤞 i also am janeryan love them very much#still deciding in what at what level am i with judybahmee#i love women and love even more sapphic women so...#the trainee the series#witchbz-bl#witchbz : watchz the trainee
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no new fanfics since 2022 💔 r u planning on writing again anytime soon ? /pos
WAIT THIS MAKES ME SO SAD ITS BEEN THAT LONG?????? damn friends thats my bad. one day the overwhelming urge to write just left me and i haven't been not-busy for long enough since then for it to come back. i do occasionally get excited about stuff and want to go back and write but i never have good ideas or enough time </3
i miss y'all though and it means a lot that anyone is still paying attention!!! hmmmmm mayhaps if anyone has prompts they can send them in? i should have a handful of free time this summer, we can see if my gears get turning!!
#no promises but i do miss fic writing so yeah!!#feel free to send things in :-)#guys i have so many life updates#i have a girlfriend now yall it finally happened#college au friends to lover arc irl <333#anon#ask
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hhhh talking about my writing was fun but 30 tags is not enough.. yes i have 3 major influences but i have minor ones too.. it is a lovechild of my favorite things.. writing is so fun and i have no self control or a concept of pacing myself i will sit there for 16 hours and get hit with every status effect but by god does it all just flow out of me. I've always been a music person yes but i also used to write a lot into early adulthood until The Incident™
but i am ready 2 jump back into it. i think comics are a great middle ground between the two mediums so i don't get As into writing bc i kind of started going crazy last time 🫡 i can take a more structured approach to it that forces me to pace myself and think about it differently. i love art.... i love making things i love knowing how to do things i love knowing how to play things i love having so many creative outlets, even if i don't do a lot of them regularly lol. it is enriching 😳 and nice to know that it's always there to come back to when u want.
#if u want the tea my imagination at the time was like i could space out and straight up just be another person POV doing every little#thing as if i were them for hours and the experience would come together without having to even think about it.#different times/places/contexts/conversations etc. forced 2 to to my mom's lil cult meetings for 2 hours twice a week#i would opt to do these imagination exercises instead to rly put myself in a character's perspective. every step‚ stumble‚#riding in a carriage together for the entirety from point A to B etc. WELL i was working on a horror anthology somewhere 18/19#(that had a small local following 🫶🏾) and it its concept was like the Twilight zone but a lot darker. it was called interdimensional#and the main recurring character never actually shows up in the story. they r an omnipresent god of death who exists everywhere but#exists outside of our realm‚ and it picks random people to reveal itself to as a symbol. it can be apparent or just in passing that#the entry's MC sees it in‚ it will appear on something somewhere and once it's brought up it's a cue to the reader that this person#has just been sent to an alternate reality that leads towards their inevitable death. for the character nothing ever changes immediately#but the different starts to creep its way in‚ as does death's approach at its crescendo but the path's i took to get there were 😨#and after enough entries i started to see the symbol irl and hallucinate some other stuff from my stories and it really scared me#and made me stop 🫡 but i think in retrospect i just went too hard on the imagination exercises and wished i tried cultivating it instead#give myself time to settle and get in control.. but alas‚ she has not written seriously since. to this day it still flows out of me if#i just sit down to do it‚ but i don't think I'm at risk of something like that happening again anymore :3 so yeah ♡ i am learning how to#draw and trying not 2 force it bc i want it to b fun as a little journey for me and i look forward to the day i can come back to actively#writing again too 🫶🏾 i miss it but i also want to b able to draw ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა#learn the hard thing first then do the stuff that comes naturally.... i also want to get back into music sometime but clearly i got a lot of#other stuff to work on 💀 i burnt myself out on it learning too many things and not having enough fun with it anymore‚#but i have a better healthier with art these days and i know it'll be great to come back to when I'm ready 😌💕#i have been considering getting an acoustic or bass guitar tho 🧐 the beauty of physical instruments.. they're just there ready 2 go..#I've been doing mostly digital the past few years‚ when i was making music. it was also rly hard to when i was w my ex ૮ – ﻌ–ა#that's a whole other rant lol. but ugh digital is like u gotta set it up u gotta make space and then u gotta be in one spot the whole time#i just wanna lay in bed and vibe or something yfm.. walk around maybe idk. do something less structured.#maybe.. hm. hmmm 🧐#I'm going to guitar center lol c ya ✌🏾 getting a bass and amp and maybe a guitar too depending on the price
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