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Saw your tags on that binder post and I thought Iād share that my first introduction to chest binding was actually through the lolita community! A lot of big name japanese brands are not exactly size inclusive and did NOT cater to anyone with more than an A cup, so I did see quite a lot of safe binding advice and methods on blogs and forums back in the day before more inclusive brands became available, ranging from sports bra to actual proper binders. Iām probably not the only example of the ābinding to fit into an angelic pretty dressā to ābinding to fit into an angelic pretty dress and gender reasons)ā pipeline, but plenty of other lolitas I know are still cis women who just do it on occasion or for specific pieces that arenāt very forgiving on the tits! I doubt that a single niche fashion subculture is the reason for those binders being marketed towards cis women so heavily, but I thought this was a funny anecdote :)
Fascinating!
patricia taxxon shit really fucking hurts. i dont want to be effected by a random internet microcelebrity not liking transdudes, that happens often enough. but god her music and essays got me through really rough shit and it really hurts to see someone i looked up to for well written essays and work fall back on the bullshit arguments used to deny my lived experiences. it really really fucking hurts, especially with how it feels barely anyone will talk about or call it out. i thought trfs were something id have to look hard for, and seeing their rhetoric creep into the fucking music i listen to and tumblrs i follow really truly scares me
I'm sorry, anon. I love you a lot. <3
āYou shouldnāt break up the trans community into groups!ā The TRFs literally came up with a way to break up the community via TMA/TME. They are actively distancing themselves from the community by baking fearmongering into their ideology. God forbid we create a term about sticking together against a group within the community thatās inherently dividing?
lmao literally
Just had my first time getting sexually harassed by a woman as a percieved cis man and commiserating afterwards with a cis man about how we're all just supposed to be cool with being treated like that. It's a weird experience and somehow going through the same things mostly from women as a girl then nonbinary then a trans guy it feels the same but the flavors change. I know the discourse is literally nothing but it makes me feel like my feelings shouldn't matter because of the male privilege. And I even did my civic duty and took the brunt of it away from the other trans man who was getting it worse because of his percieved feminine traits which people also like to pretend doesn't happen. All of it is just stupid.
It's fine, she was a woman and you're a man so that was praxis sexual harassment.
honestly i think a better predictor of how much autonomy a child is able to have over their presentation is probably whether the child is disabled moreso than agab, like i not only wasn't allowed to have my hair too short, i also wasn't allowed to have it too long for a chunk of my childhood because it took me awhile to understand how to brush my hair (because i was afraid to because i am hypersensitive to touch and my mother would always brush my hair in a way that hurt so much i would cry), and my mother would bitch and moan about how difficult i was about it (because she was hurting me and did not listen when i told her this) and so i wasn't allowed to have longer hair until i could brush it myself. ultimately the biggest factor is always the attitude of the parents though
God, so much of my shit with my mother was over my hair, it still really gets to me.
TRF is like the whole voting for face eating panthers. But itās like TERFs are the panthers and TRFs are a cheetah, like āIām a kind of cat too so they wonāt eat my face as long as I eat faces too right?ā WRONG they see you as prey, they wonāt spare you because they see a fellow cat, theyāll eat your face cuz youāre not a panther!
cis women will like me if I explain to them how I'm -taxonomically- a woman
itās insane to me that āitās bad to hate someone for an uncontrollable part of their identity no matter who they areā is a controversial take now
we've regressed
when people say āum ackshually i can say i want all men to die and if you tell me āmen see these things and go far right because they think itās trueā then you are blaming women for menās bad behaviourā i just immediately assume that this person is stupid as fuck like. if a teenage boy goes online to see what feminism is about and is bombarded with ākill all menā āall men are rapistsā etc then OBVIOUSLY heās not gonna want to be feminist. it is really not that fucking hard to understand. people donāt wanna be in spaces that are cruel to them for an aspect of their identity that they cannot control itās not āblaming women for misogynistic menā to say that. itās just fucking true. people are so stupid it actually pains me
unfortunately radfem juice is addictive
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i think your art is very beautiful //. !!!!!!!!!!!!!uhm what app slash program do you use or recommend ..
EV E Y BOD Y SAY. THAAAAAAAAANK UOU <33333 HELL O U SWEE TBEAUTIFUL THANG. IIIIIIII!!!!!!O K OK.
iam severely biased because i use csp and i Fucking Love CSP but. i have used lots of different art programs & can just share my experiences. my choice from top being first to bottom being absolute last
CSP ; i mean, like, legally speaking -- it costs money. but. like. you know. arr mateys and all that. smirk. VERY good program, super extensive & i believe its industry standard? one downside for most people ive seen is that it is. like. incredibly complicated & visually overwhelming. like this is my personal setup
BUT ALSO GOING INTO THIS MORE.,.. the interface is like. 100% customizable. you could completely get rid of every single thing on here except for the brush and colorpicker if you wanted. like it is completely customizable just do whatever the fuck u want forever ALSO ANIMATION FRIENDLY BLESS i do all my animations here!!! . i really like it because there is an entire asset store with people making dedicated brushes and models and textures etc etc & also its just. it has a nice feel to it :)) its hard for me to describe well but i love csp. my babygirl
MEDIBANG PAINT: i have not used this in . quite some fucking time so forgive me if some of this is outdated. its not like. NEARLY as customizable as something like csp or photoshop (ewww) but it works like. pretty fucking well honestly. the brushes all have a very nice feel to them and it's a very far far reach from csp in terms of like. Set up BUT its free and has a lot of pre-made brushes to pick from :) ... unfortunately theres no way to import stuff unlike csp and ps so ur stuck with things made within the app or downloaded from the cloud i think otherwise tho i think it has a very nice interface :)) NOT animation friendly tho. sigh
FIREALPACA: FREE... also you can animate in it but its fucking insane. better selection of brushes than medibang but im not a big fan of how it feels + it was super laggy for me when i used it....
KRITA: same as above p much but a smaller brush selection ... IBISPAINT: free! big fan of the brushes (+ theres a LOT of them) & even if the interface is a little confusing for me its pretty simple & would be good for sum people i think :) PROCREATE: $5 last time i checked? fuck procreate honestly. one of my least favorite programs & i used it for 2 years so i would know. it gets a LOT of popularity because its aesthetically pleasing and. YES the feel of the brushes is nice i will not lie but the shit hiding behind such a simple interface is the fact that there is literally. so few options/so little customization. very laggy, brushes are EXCLUSIVE to procreate & even if there's a wide selection if you want to move to a different program its gonna b a nightmare having to use totally different brushes. animation feature is fucking terrible, there's a seperate app made by the same people i think? and i havent tried that one but ive heard its good :)) regardless. procreate isnt BAD but it has an incredibly simple interface, ipad/iphone exclusive, only really works well with an apple pencil (which is already pretty fucking expensive on top of an ipad if you dont already have one LOL !?!?!?!?!?!?)
PHOTOSHOP: fuck adobe! expensive as hell + ia m generally just not a big fan of it or its interface... its not bad per se but i wouldnt reccomend it to anyone who hasnt Already Used It
THERES . PROBABLY MORE IM FORGETTING like i could say sony sketch & gimp and shit but i dont have enough experience with them 2 really say. regardless i hope IHOP;E ANY OF THIS MADE; SENS;E[ ;34TEORTUDOIG
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kxksiwskkkiwss'zkwkzkskskskidizz oh my fucking god ??? angelita ??? are you fucking serious ?? like do you want me to shot myself right now ?? this was so fucking delicious, brilliant, perfect and hot like wtf. i died a a lot while readin this. i love the fact they're all sharing different kinks. and lmfaooo it's freaky kinky times. this was so good to read, so fucking yummy. i dont have words because you took them away with your creative mind but also all the smut you write for it. foaming at the mouth currently because i'm nothing but a dog right now š you just give me what i needed
IM JUST SHARING SOME BC....NEED TO REACT A LITTLE
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cnc: these two have a meeting and go over all of their fantasies. while bambiās suggestions are more tame, rafe is going all out, suggesting that he kidnaps her, holds her at gun/knife point, along with making another safe word just for the sole purpose of dismissing it. heās covering bambiās mouth while sheās screaming for him to get off of her, fucking her with so much force that her body scoots up on whatever surface rafe has her on. sheās pushing away, or trying to at least, and rafe is just so much stronger than her that he doesnāt budge. ālook at you, so pathetic and weak..ā rafe would laugh at her, making her cry as she helplessly took his cock. ā CNC ??? ARE YOU KIDDING ME ???šāāļøšāāļøā¼ļø
rope play: no one can convince me that rafe wasnāt a boy scout when he was little. heās very knowledgeable of different knots and ties and made it a point to start experimenting with you, tying you up in grotesque positions purely for his enjoyment. even tying your arms behind your back in intricate weaves was enough to get him going. heād take full advantage of you in your restraints, fucking you past overstimulation, the mixture of pleasure and pain making you cry out in both agony and bliss. your fingers would gradually grow numb, along with the rest of your body until rafe untied you, indents from the rope adorning your flesh. ā ELABORE ON SCOUT BOY RAFE ??? BUT I TOTALLT AGREE. YOU'RE FUCKING RIGHT AND I NEED MORE ON THE ROPE PLAY + BONDAGE
asphyxiation: this was first done on accident when rafe was fucking your throat and smothering your face at the same time. seeing the way you gasped for air after he pulled you off of his cock was nothing short of gratifying. but seeing the way you were eager to do it again was even better. from that point forward he would do anything and everything to cut off your intake of air. covering your nose when you sucked him off, choking you during sex until you were on the verge of blacking out, pinning you down by your neck so your windpipe was being crushed. of course he educated both you and himself, and took your little taps of surrender very seriously. ā SOMEONE TAKE ME BACK TO LIFE ššš
predator/prey: the thrill of the hunt and the chase was like no other. whether rafe was chasing bambi in tanneyhill or outside at night time, the promise of getting to do whatever he wanted to her if he captured her was all the encouragement he needed. sheād be hiding, goosebumps spreading across her skin once she couldnāt see rafe anymore. little did she know, he was already creeping up from behind her, a rough hand clamping over her mouth before she could scream. rafe is grunting threats in her ear while she thrashes against him, telling her that sheās powerless and fighting against him is useless. of course, once he has her held down, sheās completely at his mercy. ā I WAS SO SURE ABOUT THAT
language: hearing you speak in your mother tongue is going to do it for rafe every single time. whether youāre cursing at him or grabbing him through his pants, whispering; ālo quiero, papiā i want it, daddy..ā his cock springs up at the sound of your voice. youāve taught him enough spanish for him to reply to certain things, your favorite phrase of his being, āmĆrame, muƱecaā look at me, doll.ā when youāre shying away from the intensity of his gaze. rafe loved hearing all the words falling from your lips, especially when a particular thrust of his hips made your voice crack at the end of your sentences. ākeep talking to me, hermosaā beautiful, i need to hear you.ā ā FUCKING PERFECT š„¹š„¹š„¹š
dacryphilia: rafe does things to purposely make sheep cry. pinching her clit, fucking her so hard that his tip is nudging her cervix with every thrust, grabbing her cheeks and squeezing them together with a bruising grip, he loves seeing those sparkly eyes watering with tears. if he has you on your knees, he wonāt stop fucking your throat until you have tears running down your neck and chest. rafe thinks sheep looks prettiest when sheās an utter mess, tear-stained cheeks and swollen lips are his favorite look on her. even when sheās crying and upset about something, he canāt help but guide her hand to his aching length, promising her that sheāll feel better once she makes him cum. ā MY FAVS. 10/10. ā¼ļøš
impact play: if you and rafe werenāt hitting and shoving each other into his room when you wanted to jump each otherās bones then you werenāt doing it right. slamming you against the wall while he was inside of you, slapping him across the face when he did something a little too hard, it was all apart of your little dance together and you two fucking lived for it. rafe loved that he didnāt have to be so soft and gentle with you, and even more so when he found someone who finally didnāt treat him like he was made of glass and used the same force against him. the roughness and complete disregard for one anotherās feelings in those very moments was addicting to say the least. ā I'M NOT OKAY, I'M NOT OKAY
choking: while rafe loves to choke you in order for you to keep your sassy remarks to yourself, he nearly loses it when you take charge and wrap your hand around the column of his throat instead. he loves the push and pull of your shared dynamic. when he has you pinned down by your neck, itās useless to deem it a punishment since you always end up liking the pain more than the pleasure. rafe canāt help but curse to himself at the sight of the smirk adorning your lips when heās cutting off your airway. āno way youāre loving this shit right now..ā both of your voices are hoarse once youāre done with each other, the sound making you two look at each other smugly. ā XKKDKZ READER CHOKING RAFE ?????????? š¤¤š¤¤š¤¤š¤¤āØ
face fucking: once rafe got started on this, it was never-ending. heād have you on your knees wherever you two were at, forcing you to keep your hands behind your back as he used your throat like a cock sleeve. heās pulling at the roots of your hair with a strangled groan, the sound of his length sliding in and out from between your lips making his eyes roll to the back of his head. itās messy and sticky, your cheeks full of tears as spit and precum dribble down your chin, your jaw aching for a break. āfuck, just look at you.. ābet you donāt have shit to bitch about now, do you?ā still managing to roll your eyes at him, rafe chuckles to himself before picking up his pace. ā YES. YES YES
lingerie: this was only fitting considering you were a whole designer with your own lingerie brand. rafe hadnāt really developed his kink for fucking you in your lingerie until you started surprising him, the lace and sometimes satin material looking just gorgeous against your skin. besides the obvious fact that you looked stunning in your sets, he thinks the reason why he appreciated it a lot more is because he knows you thought about him when choosing which one to wear. ādo you like it?ā was possibly the most dumbest question you couldāve ever asked him. of course, you got your answer when he pulled you on top of him, moving your panties over to the side before slamming you down onto his length. ā I WAS SO SURE ABOUT THAT TOO šļøššļø
cum play: rafe died and came back to life when he watched you smear his cum over your lips the first time you took his length into your mouth. and then he died again on a separate occasion when he came on your tits, your pretty manicured fingers swirling his seed over your sensitive buds. now every time he finished, if it wasnāt inside of you, he watched with a bated breath as you tasted him before pulling him down into a kiss. your tongues clashed, both of you moaning as you made out with his cum in your mouths. you shared spit, making a mess out of each other until you were begging him to cum again. āplease, i want more, rafe..ā ā WKKDKZZ CUMSLUT SQUAD ā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļø
size kink: cowboy!rafe is hugeee, and (un)fortunately for you, also hung like a fucking horse. his entire body envelopes yours when heās on top of you, only half of his cock fitting inside of you before heās forcing you to take the whole thing. feeling like his length and the sheer girth of him is splitting you open, youāre looking down at where you two are connected, your eyes wide as you see what looks like a belly bulge coming up from under your flesh. āohmygodohmygodohmygod!ā youāre delirious as the big, strong man above you drills into you at an unforgiving speed. his hand is large enough to wrap around the entirety of your neck, your chest caving in once you felt the band in your tummy snap. ā where is my big boy šāāļøšāāļøšāāļø I NEED you
FUCKING MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ME <33 ILYSM
āšāĖā¹ā” RAFE + THE !READERāS AND THEIR KINKS
warnings: dark content ahead! please do not read if you donāt feel comfortable with any of the kinks listed!
a/n: some of these might not be considered ākinksā but instead things that both rafe and !reader may particularly enjoy. special thank you to @nemesyaaa for giving me this idea and always listening to my rambles <3333 consider this my christmas gift to you ą«®ź° Ė¶ā¢ ą¼ ā¢Ė¶ź±į ā”
wc: 5.0k
ā.į bambi!reader
cnc: these two have a meeting and go over all of their fantasies. while bambiās suggestions are more tame, rafe is going all out, suggesting that he kidnaps her, holds her at gun/knife point, along with making another safe word just for the sole purpose of dismissing it. heās covering bambiās mouth while sheās screaming for him to get off of her, fucking her with so much force that her body scoots up on whatever surface rafe has her on. sheās pushing away, or trying to at least, and rafe is just so much stronger than her that he doesnāt budge. ālook at you, so pathetic and weak..ā rafe would laugh at her, making her cry as she helplessly took his cock.
rope play: no one can convince me that rafe wasnāt a boy scout when he was little. heās very knowledgeable of different knots and ties and made it a point to start experimenting with you, tying you up in grotesque positions purely for his enjoyment. even tying your arms behind your back in intricate weaves was enough to get him going. heād take full advantage of you in your restraints, fucking you past overstimulation, the mixture of pleasure and pain making you cry out in both agony and bliss. your fingers would gradually grow numb, along with the rest of your body until rafe untied you, indents from the rope adorning your flesh.
outdoor sex: an innocent little picnic can quickly turn into rafe pushing your head into the grass while he fists your panties, dragging them down your thighs before bunching your dress up and slamming into you without warning. he canāt quite pin point when this became a āthingā between you two, but fuck he knew you loved it. maybe it was because of the scenery or being far away from anyone being able to see or hear you two, but sex out in the middle of nowhere was thrilling for you both. bambi already spent a lot of her time outside, so whenever rafe would join her and do what he does best; making her cum around his cock, it was like her two favorite worlds collided.
asphyxiation: this was first done on accident when rafe was fucking your throat and smothering your face at the same time. seeing the way you gasped for air after he pulled you off of his cock was nothing short of gratifying. but seeing the way you were eager to do it again was even better. from that point forward he would do anything and everything to cut off your intake of air. covering your nose when you sucked him off, choking you during sex until you were on the verge of blacking out, pinning you down by your neck so your windpipe was being crushed. of course he educated both you and himself, and took your little taps of surrender very seriously.
predator/prey: the thrill of the hunt and the chase was like no other. whether rafe was chasing bambi in tanneyhill or outside at night time, the promise of getting to do whatever he wanted to her if he captured her was all the encouragement he needed. sheād be hiding, goosebumps spreading across her skin once she couldnāt see rafe anymore. little did she know, he was already creeping up from behind her, a rough hand clamping over her mouth before she could scream. rafe is grunting threats in her ear while she thrashes against him, telling her that sheās powerless and fighting against him is useless. of course, once he has her held down, sheās completely at his mercy.
ā.į sheep!reader
slapping: whether rafe is slapping the swells of your tits, the fleshy globes of your ass, or your poor overstimulated clit, he loves seeing your body jolt at his touch. he especially likes slapping you in the face when heās pounding into you, the small flash of hurt passing over your features shooting straight to his cock. heās smiling while youāre flinching every time he picks his hand up, his large palm meeting your soft skin with a harsh smack! he knows youāre far too timid and shy to tell him to stop, small whimpers leaving your lips at the stinging sensation. once heās done with you, your skin is raw and sensitive to the touch, rafe always making sure to soothe you and comfort you afterwards.
corruption: you were just a pretty, clueless virgin when he met you, and still pretty and clueless after he broke you in. rafe still seeās you as a saint even when heās fingering you to tears, your tight walls spasming around his digits. he treats every time like itās your first time all overs again, the idea of getting you addicted to his cock was enough to make him cum. he loved to see the confused, yet desperate plea in your eyes for him to turn you inside out. the fact that heās the only one who has ever seen you unravel makes his chest fill with pride. to know that heās the one who turned you into a cock-hungry slut to begin with does wonders for his ego.
dacryphilia: rafe does things to purposely make sheep cry. pinching her clit, fucking her so hard that his tip is nudging her cervix with every thrust, grabbing her cheeks and squeezing them together with a bruising grip, he loves seeing those sparkly eyes watering with tears. if he has you on your knees, he wonāt stop fucking your throat until you have tears running down your neck and chest. rafe thinks sheep looks prettiest when sheās an utter mess, tear-stained cheeks and swollen lips are his favorite look on her. even when sheās crying and upset about something, he canāt help but guide her hand to his aching length, promising her that sheāll feel better once she makes him cum.
orgasm denial: the way that rafe keeps sheep needy and ready to fuck whenever he wants is by denying her orgasms. waiting until her eyes are rolling to the back of her head before pulling away and making her clench around nothing. ānononono, please, rafe! i need it!ā sheās clinging onto him, trying to keep him near as much as she could before heās swatting her hands away. āgotta keep you on your toes, ādoll.ā heās rough when he holds her down, stroking himself until heās painting her tummy with his seed. sexually frustrated and sad that he didnāt fill her up instead, sheās bending to his every will later on when he wants to go for round two.
overstimulation: if sheep isnāt getting denied an orgasm, sheās getting a load of them until sheās physically trying to run away from rafe. while heās doing everything he can to keep her cumming, sheās convulsing, shaking and trembling, writhing in pain as rafe works her poor, sensitive bud. using his fingers, tongue and cock, he tells sheep to keep count and if she messes up then he has to start from zero again. sheep is brainless after the first three, her train of thought being completely gone as rafe fights with her to keep her thighs open. āno more, no more, no more..ā sheās repeating it like a mantra, rafe ignoring her pleas for him to stop.
ā.į latina!kook!reader
praise: rafe is having a hard time believing that his favorite latina is even letting him touch her, so heās doing everything he can to remember this moment. heās telling you how good your perfume smells, marveling at how soft your skin feels under his touch, admiring and staring at your body in awe as if to remember every curve and detail. youāre looking in his eyes while he raves about never seeing someone as beautiful as you. āyouāre so fucking gorgeous, holy shit.ā rafe is in disbelief when he finally gets you out of your clothes, his eyes instinctively blinking as he didnāt know what to take in first.. your angelic face, show-stopping tits, or glistening pussy.
language: hearing you speak in your mother tongue is going to do it for rafe every single time. whether youāre cursing at him or grabbing him through his pants, whispering; ālo quiero, papiā i want it, daddy..ā his cock springs up at the sound of your voice. youāve taught him enough spanish for him to reply to certain things, your favorite phrase of his being, āmĆrame, muƱecaā look at me, doll.ā when youāre shying away from the intensity of his gaze. rafe loved hearing all the words falling from your lips, especially when a particular thrust of his hips made your voice crack at the end of your sentences. ākeep talking to me, hermosaā beautiful, i need to hear you.ā
mirror sex: you didnāt have not one bad side. in rafeās eyes you were absolutely flawless. after the first time you two had sex, he knew immediately that he needed to see you at every angle. getting a mirror installed on the ceiling right above his bed was the first step, then it was a mirrored headboard.. and then two full length mirrors that sat in the opposite corners of his room. the man was obsessed with watching you. if he had you in doggy, he could still get a full view of your face twisting in pleasure along with the bounce of your tits. on days where you wanted to ride him, heād watch in awe as the globes of your ass met his thighs with a ripple effect adorning the fleshy skin.
body worship: similar to praise, rafe is whispering sweet nothings against your skin, his hands working to massage your calves as he presses kisses to your thighs. heās holding onto you, eyes closed as he takes in your scent. āyouāre so perfect.ā rafe sounds like a broken record as he kisses your knuckles, and up your arm to the curve of your shoulder until he finally gets to your lips. his hands are roaming your body even as heās inside of you, his soft touch a stark contrast to his hard thrusts. not a single inch of your body goes untouched by this man. he pays attention to every single thing, from the crown of your head down to the tips of your toes, he makes sure you feel like a goddess at all times.
tit fucking: having both your tits and your face in his line of vision is a surely a sight to behold. heās delirious as you gaze up at him, the tip of his cock emerging from between your tits before meeting your tongue. despite you moving yourself up and down, rafe is thrusting from beneath you, the slick sound of his precum making both of you moan. āah, fuck!ā his hips are stuttering everytime you manage to wrap your lips around the tip, his cock twitching with need as you stroke him with ease. he loves seeing the way your lashes flutter up at him when he finishes across your chest, watching with lust-filled eyes as you swipe some of his seed with a manicured finger before popping the digit into your mouth with a smile.
ā.į bitchy!kook!reader
choking: while rafe loves to choke you in order for you to keep your sassy remarks to yourself, he nearly loses it when you take charge and wrap your hand around the column of his throat instead. he loves the push and pull of your shared dynamic. when he has you pinned down by your neck, itās useless to deem it a punishment since you always end up liking the pain more than the pleasure. rafe canāt help but curse to himself at the sight of the smirk adorning your lips when heās cutting off your airway. āno way youāre loving this shit right now..ā both of your voices are hoarse once youāre done with each other, the sound making you two look at each other smugly.
hate sex: you two mastered this before everything else. fucking when you were enemies and nothing more was like a fever dream, both of you fighting to use each other for no other reason besides getting off. youād push rafe down, bouncing on his cock to keep him from having his way with you, only for him to have your face pressed into the pillows moments later. you two didnāt care if the other felt good or not, it was purely just your way of taking out all of the pent up anger and frustration you two had for eachother. youād curse at him before he crashed his lips into yours, telling you to āshut the fuck up for once and just use your mouth for what itās supposed to be.ā as he forced you down onto your knees.
impact play: if you and rafe werenāt hitting and shoving each other into his room when you wanted to jump each otherās bones then you werenāt doing it right. slamming you against the wall while he was inside of you, slapping him across the face when he did something a little too hard, it was all apart of your little dance together and you two fucking lived for it. rafe loved that he didnāt have to be so soft and gentle with you, and even more so when he found someone who finally didnāt treat him like he was made of glass and used the same force against him. the roughness and complete disregard for one anotherās feelings in those very moments was addicting to say the least.
degradation: this was bitchy!kook!readerās specialty. telling rafe how stupid and pathetic he is for spamming her phone with desperate texts, telling him heās worthless and that the only thing heās good for is being her boy toy. sheās bringing up the times when rafe was begging her to let him eat her out, calling him names and laughing in his face when he looks the slightest bit embarrassed. rafe isnāt letting up on you either, heās cussing in your ear, calling you a bitch and a āspoiled fuckinā bratā as he folds you in half. both of you revel in the weight of your insults, the words only making both of you needy to prove the other wrong. ājust shut your fucking mouth already..ā
possessiveness: despite āhatingā each other, thereās nothing neither of you hated more than seeing each other in close proximity with someone else. rafe hated your friends, all of them always trying to introduce someone to you in hopes that they could get you to leave rafe alone once and for all. of course, later on that night when the party is over and the place is cleared, heās pounding into you like he has something to prove. āyouāre fuckinā stupid if you thought i was gonna let you leave with that asshole.ā he has you in a head lock, his toned stomach smacking the back of your ass as he choked you out with his bicep. āno one else could ever make you feel like this.ā
ā.į bitchy!pogue!reader
recording: sheās rafeās personal pornstar without a doubt. bitchy!pogue!reader knows she looks amazing every second of the day, even when her mouth is full of cock, so when she seeās rafe pull out his camera, sheās really giving him a show. āyou fuckinā slut, i could make millions off of you..ā rafe would say after she made him cum on her face and tits. rafe loved to keep documentation of bitchy!pogue!reader almost begging to tears for rafe to fuck her already, the footage coming in handy when she decides to wake up with an attitude and tells him that heās lucky that you even let him fuck, let alone talk to you. he has the camera in your face the same night, grunting out āaww whatās wrong? āstill think youāre too good for this cock now?ā
rough sex: these two turn ārough sexā into an umbrella term with all of the depraved shit that they do. smacking your skin until youāre bruised, scratching rafe until you draw blood, thrusting into you so hard that you let out a shriek with every stroke of his hips, and this isnāt including all of the choking, biting, and hair pulling that both of you do while youāre at it. rafe is ruthless in the bedroom, often leaving you bedridden by the time heās done plowing into your poor, sensitive cunt. this was what regular sex was like between you two, and you wouldnāt have it any other way. it drove rafe crazy to know that you were so willing and just as sick and twisted as him to take his shit.
humiliation: this was a two way street for both you and rafe. he would say that he could never be seen with a stripper on his arm since he was sure the entire island had already been with you before, and you would say that you wouldnāt want to be seen with a pathetic loser with daddy issues and a drug problem to cope, anyways. both of you knew that the shit talking that you were doing was only foreplay for the activities you were going to do later. sure enough, heās taking you in the country club bathroom, all of the grand parents there staring at your provocative outfit in disbelief. āplease donāt make me moan loud..ā youād whimper, rafe wrapping a fist in your hair. ānah, youāre gonna let this whole club know that youāre nothing but an easy hooker.ā
face fucking: once rafe got started on this, it was never-ending. heād have you on your knees wherever you two were at, forcing you to keep your hands behind your back as he used your throat like a cock sleeve. heās pulling at the roots of your hair with a strangled groan, the sound of his length sliding in and out from between your lips making his eyes roll to the back of his head. itās messy and sticky, your cheeks full of tears as spit and precum dribble down your chin, your jaw aching for a break. āfuck, just look at you.. ābet you donāt have shit to bitch about now, do you?ā still managing to roll your eyes at him, rafe chuckles to himself before picking up his pace.
dumbification: your walls are fluttering around rafeās cock when he tells you things like; āyouāre a dumb, stupid, slut who doesnāt know how to do anything except take dick.ā and calling you a brainless bimbo with nothing but tits for brains. youāre nodding along to his words, not caring about how much heās dumbing you down. in this very moment, with his hips slamming into yours, you were brainless.. not a single thought behind your fucked out gaze. ājust prancing around in your heels like a clueless fuckinā bunny, not knowing shit..ā heās delivering each word with a punctuated thrust, your back arching into his chest when you feel the rough pads of his fingers on your sensitive clit.
ā.į kook!sweetheart!reader
sexting: boyyyy you two can sext for hours at a time. once the clock hits ten and your phone dings with a āyou up, beautiful?ā from none other than rafe himself, youāre faking a yawn and telling your parents youāre gonna cut the movie short tonight because youāre so sleepy. as soon as youāre laid in your bed, your room door locked until further notice, youāre sending rafe all the pretty nudes you took for him since the last time you two sexted. rafe is fisting his cock as your pictures come in one by one, his bottom lip pulled haphazardly between his teeth to keep himself from moaning out loud. in return, rafe is also sending you pictures of himself. shirtless gym pics, his bulges when he wakes up thinking about you, and your personal favorite; his bare cock and the aftermath of stroking himself to your sexy photos.
lingerie: this was only fitting considering you were a whole designer with your own lingerie brand. rafe hadnāt really developed his kink for fucking you in your lingerie until you started surprising him, the lace and sometimes satin material looking just gorgeous against your skin. besides the obvious fact that you looked stunning in your sets, he thinks the reason why he appreciated it a lot more is because he knows you thought about him when choosing which one to wear. ādo you like it?ā was possibly the most dumbest question you couldāve ever asked him. of course, you got your answer when he pulled you on top of him, moving your panties over to the side before slamming you down onto his length.
cum play: rafe died and came back to life when he watched you smear his cum over your lips the first time you took his length into your mouth. and then he died again on a separate occasion when he came on your tits, your pretty manicured fingers swirling his seed over your sensitive buds. now every time he finished, if it wasnāt inside of you, he watched with a bated breath as you tasted him before pulling him down into a kiss. your tongues clashed, both of you moaning as you made out with his cum in your mouths. you shared spit, making a mess out of each other until you were begging him to cum again. āplease, i want more, rafe..ā
pussy eating: he needs it. he needs to have kook!sweetheart!readerās thighs locked down to his shoulders while he works his skillful tongue on her pussy. sheās whimpering above him, wrapping her hands around his large fingers as he gently circles her clit. rafe is easily eating her out for an hour before another hour passes and sheās a mess. having orgasmed at least ten times, rafe is very controlled and knows how to bring her up before pushing her over the edge and letting her fall ever so graciously into another orgasm one after the other. the lower half of his face is soaked, and when he looks up at you from between your thighs, the sight of him is burned into your mind forever.
cockwarming: one of rafeās favorites. whenever you and rafe are in the bliss of aftercare, he stays nestled inside of you, both of you kissing each other lazily while he rubbed soothing circles into your skin. āthink you could keep still?ā you teased, rafe laughing softly as you clenched around him, almost as if to provoke him to move. not even ten minutes later, youāre slowly circling your hips, desperate for any kind of friction while rafe holds you in place. āi knew you were gonna put out.ā rafe groaned, moving gently as he rolled over on top of you. ignoring him, you dug your heels into his lower back, prompting him to keep going. āyeah, yeah, just fuck meā oh!ā
ā.į farmerās!daughter!reader
size kink: cowboy!rafe is hugeee, and (un)fortunately for you, also hung like a fucking horse. his entire body envelopes yours when heās on top of you, only half of his cock fitting inside of you before heās forcing you to take the whole thing. feeling like his length and the sheer girth of him is splitting you open, youāre looking down at where you two are connected, your eyes wide as you see what looks like a belly bulge coming up from under your flesh. āohmygodohmygodohmygod!ā youāre delirious as the big, strong man above you drills into you at an unforgiving speed. his hand is large enough to wrap around the entirety of your neck, your chest caving in once you felt the band in your tummy snap.
dirty talk: rafe knew exactly what to say in order to get your cheeks heating. āyou donāt think i know wet you are right now? i bet i could slip right in yaā..ā youāre gasping at the lewdness of his words, hiding your face from his view as he stroked the exposed flesh of your waist. āray!ā you laughed nervously, both of you hiding in his little house that was in the back of your own. āyou know iām right.. thatās why youāre getting all shy on me right now.ā he scoots closer, his lips trailing along your collarbone. ālet me take this shirt off, āget these tits in my mouth.ā being around a horny cowboy wasnāt good for your heart. āoh, my word! your mouth is filthy!ā
daddy kink: the basis of you and rafeās relationship was that you were together secretly, your father forbidding rafe from dating you, let alone looking in your direction. he wasnāt fond of your dad for that very reason. every time heās asking you who your pussy belongs to, heās forcing you to refer to him as a different name other than his own. āyou, daddy! oh, fuck, i belong to you!ā youāre crying out, the name falling from your lips before you could stop it. the fact that he had you, the farmerās daughter, in his bed, calling him daddy when he knew your actual father hated him, stroked his ego more than your cunt did. āyeah, iām your daddy? say it again.ā you oblige, your eyes screwing shut as the plap of your ass against his thighs echoed in your ears.
mating press: seeing your glossy eyes gaze up at him while he had your knees pressed to your chest was hands down one of his favorite sights. with the back of his hands sitting underneath your hips, your lower half was slightly elevated, your needy cunt guaranteed to take all of his cum. in this position, you swore it felt like he was in your tummy. ānghhhā canāt, rafe!ā you shook your head, your eyes brimming with tears as he leaned down, taking your lips in a bruising kiss. āshhh, of course you can, sweetheart, youāre doing so good for me right now.ā the wet squelch of your cunt made rafe keen, his lips wet with your spit. āgonna fill you up to the fuckinā brim..ā
breeding kink: you dreamed about having cowboy!rafeās babies, both of you always talking about having little ones running around the farm. rafe saw it vividlyā your pretty round belly, swollen with his seed, a baby on your hip while you greeted him after a full day of work. itās all he could envision while heās pumping in and out of you, your sweet moans sounding against his skin. āiām gonna make you such a pretty mom, baby, you just fuckinā wait.ā he grunted, throwing your legs over his shoulders as he went even deeper inside your cunt. biting back tears, you let out a half-sob as he continuously hit that sensitive spot along your velvety walls. āyouād want that, right?ā rafe still asks even though his mind is already made up. āduh!ā
ā.į pogue!sweetheart!reader
spanking: rafe blamed your mini skirts for his hyper fixation with your ass. heād be groping you every chance he could get, the spanking factor coming in when you pretended to drop something one day, your boyfriend wasting no time in draping you over his lap and giving you the attention you were so clearly asking for. he spanked you so hard, you couldnāt help but cry out every time his hot palm met your flesh. āyou asked me for this, donāt forget that..ā he said through gritted teeth, smirking to himself as you continued to let him spank you with an unforgiving force. rafe was always so gentle with you, you loved when he switched things up and disregarded your pain sometimes..
food play: pogue!sweetheart!reader is basically our little strawberry shortcake. always whipping things up in the kitchen with rafe pressed against her ass was bound to lead to some interesting experiments. first it was strawberries, you and rafe sharing one before he dragged the fruit up the curve of your neck, licking the sweet, succulent juice that had dripped down to you chest. the second time around, before you two decided to incorporate it more regularly, you two were having a lazy day, both of you sharing some whipped cream you had made. you had playfully licked some off of rafeās finger before he got the crazy idea to lick it from other places, too..
cream pie: rafe was obsessed with watching his cum drip out of you. heād pull out halfway while you were still clenching around him, forcing you to look down so you could see the glorious sight of his twitching cock filling you up before pulling out altogether. you two would wait with bated breathās, a moan leaving your lips as you felt the warm ropes of cum slowly drip out of your entrance. rafeās chest would be rising and falling as he used the tip of his cock to smear his seed up and down your folds, even taking the time to circle your sensitive clit. āoh, fuck, this is amazing..ā heād marvel, gathering the sticky succulence before pushing it back into you.
marathon sex: with pogue!sweetheart!readerās camper being far away from everyone on the island, it was like you and rafe were dead to the world as you moaned and screamed as loud as you wanted. completely losing the concept of time, you and rafe went at it until someone tapped out, neither of you tiring easily when you were too busy getting thrown over the edge time and time again. one night in particular, you and rafe were doing what you usually did before bed, your legs wrapped around his waist as he thrusted into you and you just couldnāt get enough. both of you kept going without any intentions of stopping. it wasnāt until rafe finally called it that you two noticed the blue morning sky peeking through your curtains that you realized you had just fucked for hourssss
soft/vanilla sex: rafe loved taking his time with you, especially because he knew you were sentimental about everything. holding your hands while his head was working between your thighs, looking into your eyes the whole time he was pounding into you, the gentle touches against your skin as he hoisted you up further onto your bed, it was all his way of handling you with care. heād peck the tip of your nose when you were cumming, his fingers bringing you down from your high as he held you against his chest. whispering praises in your ear, rafe wouldnāt start aftercare until you were gazing up at him lovingly, and that was even sweeter.
#āĖā¹ā” bambi!reader#āĖā¹ā” sheep!reader#āĖā¹ā” latina!kook!reader#āĖā¹ā” bitchy!kook!reader#āĖā¹ā” bitchy!pogue!reader#āĖā¹ā” kook!sweetheart!reader#āĖā¹ā” farmerās!daughter!reader#āĖā¹ā” pogue!sweetheart!reader#outer banks#outer banks smut#outer banks fanfiction#outer banks imagine#outerbanks rafe#outer banks x reader#obx#rafe obx#obx smut#obx imagine#obx fanfiction#obx x reader#rafe smut#rafe cameron#rafe cameron smut#rafe cameron fanfiction#rafe cameron x reader#rafe cameron prompt#rafe cameron blurb#rafe cameron imagine#drew starkey
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I just wanted to say thank you for posting so many good pieces of writing and sharing them all with us! I love peeking at your page to see what you posted, and I love the way you write hazard's dialogue. š„ŗ You've helped me gain the confidence to contribute to the fandom as well! I decide to try and write a big HC/Story all about Susie's life - when it's done I hope you'll like it.
and also hopefully give me constructive criticism because I have no idea to write good for tumblr and you seem to have a lot more experience lmao. and please id love any tips for how to better write haz's scottish accent because i dont want to get it wrong and insult someone haha š
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Iāve also been checking your page ever since I saw your Hazard comic and I just KSNSKSSNJS
And absolutely! I would love to read and see what you come up with! As for hazards accent I wasnāt sure at first on how to write his accent for a bit until i started to do my own research- (and that is just listening to his VA on streams as well as looking at the vocabulary)
But These are just some I know that can help ya out! Scottish accent involves tweaking spelling, grammar, and word choice to mimic the way Scots speak.
Use phonetic spellings like:
"you" becomes "ye"
"not" becomes "nae"
"my" becomes "ma"
"canāt" becomes "cannae"
"donāt" becomes "dinnae"
Scottish speakers often drop "g" in words ending with -ing:
"walking" ā "walkinā"
"talking" ā "talkinā"
The "oo" sound in words like "book" or "look" often shifts to sound like "buk" or "luk."
The "i" sound in words like "right" can become "richt."
Thereās also vocabulary words like:
"wee" for "small"
"bairn" for "child"
"lass/laddie" for "girl/boy"
"aye" for "yes"
"ken" for "know"
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DAY 75: onehat
#codacheetah#isat#loop isat#siffrin isat#isat act 6 spoilers#twohat spoilers#isat spoilers#yea im tagging the onehat post twohat spoilers. watch me#..do we know what time of day it is when siffrin goes to the favor tree?#i always imagined the evening for some reason.#um so anyways. hey do you guys ever think about onehat. do you think about it#do you ever think about how siffrin never learning about loop and never getting closure with them#is just as valid of an ending as twohats. you dont have to get twohats. loop getting some catharsis isnt necessary to siffrin's narrative.#they asked to be here. they were here to help siffrin. and they did. and it ended#that's it.#i've always wondered if loop saw siffrin perform the ritual for them#i wonder if it would comfort them or not. if you ask them if they're a ghost they say yes (and no) after all#the tree is their grave.#something something from main character to stage director to sponsor to corpse#and with how arcane the prereqs for twohats are. yes you can get them naturally on a first playthrough but it's definitely not the majority#experience especially playing blind.#to give loop an ending you have to reach back in with both hands and grasp at that connection#i dont rlly know how to articulate it but it makes me feel a kind of way tbh. you only learn the prereqs (w/o guidance) by talking to loop#very frequently and paying attention to the hints they drop to you about the coin. labor of love situation#self love. siffrin reaching back for loop. We Are Getting Out Together Bitch#Is this anything i dont know that it is#idk onehat fascinates me a lot and im not even gonna touch on the onehats playthroughs where u actually do get the prereqs#i think there is a slight tendency among some fans tocharacterize loop as. more vindictive than they are? i guess?#it's easy to stare down loop's big twohats breakdown and see them bare their fangs and look into their anger#but loop's willingness to fade into nothing and leave siffrin alone shouldnt be forgotten i dont think
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learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way
#experiencing some BIG FEELINGS OVER THIS REVELATION#listen i have never ever been bothered abt not seeing someone in a while or making time to talk to them bc in my mind its like not thst muc#time has passed. i mean it with every fibre of my being that when im like 'oh its ok even though we havent talked in a while and have our#own things going on it doesnt mean we're not friends anymore since we left things on a good note 8 months ago' i sincerely believe that#and for the longest time i just thought everybody makes peace with it at some point and not automatically assuming the other person doesnt#wanna talk to me anymore or smth. my longest lasting friendships are with ppl who work the same way i just thouhght that was normal#whatever organ everybody has that makes them reach out to their friends and plan hang outs i probably dont have it#i was already hesitant to ask out Alex bc i spend almost every waking hour doing smth that isnt talking to ppl unless they happen to be in#the vicinity. and at first it was bc i planned on making sure i had everything set up so i dont get stressed out and do it one at a time#but then i find out theres a friendship decay mechanic? and after dating and marrying someone you lose -10 friendship points for every#day u dont talk to them?? actually ive probably been losing friendship points this whole time without knowing bc of this?????#and i notice a lot of my own habits are also reflected in how i play bc ive been avoiding getting close to pierre and marnie since its more#of a professional relationship. like i know theyre npcs but im approaching it the way i would in real life its fucking nuts#i think its a little relieving im playing /as/ a character than myself bc as im playing im just making up little interactions in my head#than approaching things the way i would myself so it takes a bit of the stress off trying to put myself in there as a spectator. but well#being in a relationship demands a certain amount of energy even more so when theyre things that already take up energy on its own#like making time to talk to your partner and make sure they know theyre loved. i dont always have energy to put all my mental focus into it#and this is true for real life so im not really bothered by not dating anyone. but when its a game and i want my character to be with someo#and i know its fully optional and i know i could just apply the same logic to this i dont /want/ to. sometimes i want to experience#the same things other people do at least to a certain degree without the same emotional andmental stakes#no offense krobus#yapping#stardew#stardew valley#puppy plays sdv#sdv#this game has me by the ankles man
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Thinking about ISAT and how the party treats Bonnie throughout the game, which is to say they protect the child to the death. But they also respect the child and try to explain things to them they dont understand which makes me get so emotional because they care!! so deeply for Bonnie's safety!! And during the "let's stop fighting segment" you can really see how much they want to protect Bonnie and how much they love them and I just. Get so misty eyed over it, cause can you imagine knowing your loved that deeply? The horror, the trauma, the feeling of safety that must bring? The care finely balanced between love and resentment Bonnie must feel? God, Bonnie is going to realize how much was going on behind the scenes years from the end of game and I would love to see what they think of it all
#isat#isat bonnie#isat spoilers#I dunno I just dont have a good track record of loving family members so I think about this a lot#Though.. I do have some experience with very specific scenarios Bonnie went through and uuuhhh#it left its marks! That child is traumatized!
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do you ever think about how all you used to draw when you were 10 was ponies and that you should still know how to do that, then get an idea and proceed to draw something like these in nearly one sitting and it turns out better than any drawing you've done in the entire past month
sooo anyway does anyone have cutie mark or pony name ideas for them?? lol
#(the b girl lineups are older than a month because i procrastinated a lot on doing minor fixes. nothing i drew in the month of june 2024#is really worth showing it's all shitty doodles lmao)#bnha#class 1b#mlp#?#yui kodai#setsuna tokage#itsuka kendo#ibara shiozaki#(i love how she came out in particular! creature :3)#reiko yanagi#tikto's art#you may be wondering why pony of all people isn't here.#i did draw her! but i kind of ran out of steam so i ended up not really liking the result lol same for kinoko#anyway shoutout to elementary school me i was SO obsessed with mlp. brony stuff was one of the first things i used the internet for#and you know what. i wouldn't say it ruined me it was a pleasant experience#i just read what was basically a polish version of equestria daily and constantly checked the deviantart profile of one (1) specific artist#that i liked a lot#i did watch some weird speedpaints (yknow the horror ones) but i honestly dont remember being very bothered by them i just liked the art#i was just chilling there lurking and never actively participating due to being 10 and afraid of online strangers (good for me tbh)#i remember having an identity crisis though because can i really call myself a brony if i'm a little girl? the target audience of the show?#lmao anyway i would also draw ponies constantly and write oc fanfics (and the ocs were actually my irl friends ponified)#and i even had my own little g5 concept. good times good times#tag story time over god bless enjoy your day
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Huevember 22
Brent, the most expressive bard to ever bard.
#my characters#oops i fell in love#i love brentholomew the bard#brent just deadpanning his support is wonderful and karen appreciates it a lot#because hey man brents hilarious esp due to the dryness and she really loves chatting with him#so having him as her support for bardic inspiration so she can murder just brings her so much joy#right and karen probably hype him up in game as a petty rivalry to paul and his npc hot bardtender#like yeah you might have your npc of your crush but WE have the better bard look hes wonderful#hes practically glowing look at him paul do you see the superior bard#and brent is just staring at paul and paul is staring back and they both dont know what to say in the situation#bc what is there to say? i prefer the npc? or maybe point out that the four are literally in a party together?#like sure hb is an npc but paul is actively running around in game with brent and like.... what do you say#brent doesnt actually want to point out theyre in the same group bc then karen and right will stop antagonizing paul#and honestly nothing against paul but its fun to watch him get quiet and confused#chris is off to the side begging them all to focus on the actual campaign - they can hype brent up later please just focus#which is a nice contrast to right having to play responsible adult at the police station#now chris has to wrangle the other adults and also keep them focused good luck!#i love brent a lot im totally biased bc hes my depression as an oc C:#so he means a lot to me and his lack of socialness and his childhood emotional neglect is a la my experiences#like brents my depression and rights my anxiety#smoosh them together and theyre soul mates haha how very ace of me as ive said before#but also i main bard in ffxiv when i play which is also possibly the bias for brent to be a bard in the dnd au#gang im so tired
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I love your art style, especially how energetic it is! How did your art style get such dynamic lines? Do you have any tips/advice/ideas on how to do that?
Thank you! Um... I'm not sure how to go about it, but Iāll try and give some tips on line confidence. I think my main advice would be to not let your sketch box you in- keeping it at a really low opacity so that your eyes donāt get used to seeing it with your line art when you draw over it (having your sketch opacity too high can give a different impression of your line work), leaving room to exaggerate or play around with fresh lines in the next phase.. Itās easier to do when youāre confident in your subject, so the sketch should be stable enough to convey that, but have fun with the process otherwise! For me, good line art comes out when Iām actively finding ways to build off the sketchās energy while lining it, not when Iām trying to limit myself to it/already 100% happy with what it provides.
Here's a bit of a visualization! When going from the sketch to the line art, I was thinking that I could improve the flow of the cape, so I made the upper part less flat and balanced its curve with the bottom to keep the energy flowing. The slope of Kalim's pose could balance the curve of Jamil's sarouel, so I leaned into that when putting down the lines for Kalim's. Meanwhile having some areas be more linear helps give contrast. Line of action, straights against curves, etc. (I think this is delving more into gestural talk now) I'd recommend studying artists whose linework you enjoy too! Kaisen_Tobiuo was-and still is- a big inspiration of mine growing up for how expressive their works and line art felt. Also study naruto fanartists they're cracked It ended up being a bit of a ramble, but I hope this could help op!
#ask#will say i was already feeling good that day when doing the line art for the sketch; some days require more information#arts not a linear process so take note of how youre feeling that day and adjust your method accordingly#and looking at the sketch again theres different ways i could have gone about it! dont be afraid to experiment#most of all though have fun! the process is a lot smoother if you enjoy it#and if you dont enjoy it find blorbos that will make it enjoyable for you#sorry for the late response btw!! really wanted to think this one thru; i have a lot of love for this subject but talking is not my forte
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Been a fan of your fics for YEARS. I was just telling my friend how despite how much I read fics I never actually love them, with some of your fics (especially TMA) as the exception. Felt the need to reread some of them and saw you reblogged some ISAT fanart. So. Any thoughts on ISAT you'd like to share?
Hope you have a wonderful day!! So happy I found your fics again!!
I avoided answering this for a while because I was trying to think of a way to cohesively and coherently vocalize my thoughts on In Stars and Time. I have given up because I don't want to hold everybody here all day and I have accepted that my thoughts are just pterodactyl screeching.
I love it so much. I have so much to say on it. It drove me bonkers for like a week straight. I have AUs. It's absolute Megbait. They're just a little Snufkin and they're having the worst experience of anybody's life. Ludonarratives my fucking beloved.
I am going to talk about the prologue.
The prologue is such a fascinating experience. You crack open the game and immediately begin checking off all of the little genre boxes: mage, warrior, researcher, you're the rogue...some little kid who's there for some reason...alright, you know the score. You're in yet another indie Earthbound RPG, these are your generic characters, let's get the ball rolling.
Except then you realize that these characters are people. You feel instantly how you've entered the game at its last dungeon, at the end of the adventure. They have their own in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They get along well and they're obviously close, but not in a twee or unrealistic way. They have so much chemistry and spirit and life. I fell in love with them so quickly.
But Sif doesn't. Sif kind of hates them, because they will not stop saying the same damn thing. They walk the same paths, do the same things, make the same jokes, expect Sif to say the same lines. They keep referencing a Sif we do not see, with jokes we never see him make and heroic personality he never shows - they reference a Sif who is dead - and Sif can't handle that, so he kills them too.
They become only an exercise in tedious frustration. Sif button mashes through their dialogue, Sif mindlessly clicks the same dialogue options, Sif skips through the tutorial, Sif blows through the puzzles. Sif turns their world into a video game. Sif is playing a generic RPG. Sif forgets their names. They are no longer people with in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They're the mage, the warrior, the researcher, and...some random kid.
I did not understand the Kid's presence at first. I had no idea what they contributed to the game. They didn't do anything. As a party member in a video game, they're a bit useless. Why is the Kid there?
Because Sif's life isn't a video game. Because the kid isn't 'the kid'. They're Bonnie. Bonnie, who the party loves. Why is Bonnie there? Because they love them. There is no room for Bonnie in the boring RPG that Sif is playing. And then you realize that Sif is wrong, and that they've lost something extremely important, and that they'll never escape without it.
Watching the prologue before watching ISAT gave ISAT the most unique air of dread and horror, because you crack open ISAT and you see the person Sif used to be. You realize that Sif used to be a person. Sif used to be the person who made jokes, who gave real smiles, who interacted with the world as if they are a part of it. And you know you are sitting down to watch Sif lose everything that made them a person, to lose everything that made them a member of this world, and turn them into a character in a video game who doesn't understand the point of Bonnie at all.
At the climax of the game, when the others realize that something is deeply wrong and that Sif physically cannot tell them, they realize that there is nothing they can do. So Bonnie declares snacktime. And for the first time they have snacktime.
What is snacktime? Classic JRPGs don't have snacktime. There's literally no point to a snacktime - not in a video game, and not in Sif's terrible life. It's not fixing this, because nothing can fix this. But Bonnie gives Sif a cookie and Sif eats it.
It's meaningless. It's a cutscene. It didn't save Sif and it didn't change a thing. It will make no difference in the end.
But it did make the difference. It made all of the difference in the world. Bonnie is a character who you really don't understand the point of before you realize that Bonnie was the entire point.
ISAT is about comfort media. Why do we play the same video games over and over again? Why do we avoid watching the finale of our favorite shows? What is truly comforting: a story with no conflict, or a story where you always know what is about to happen? Do you want to live in a scary, uncontrollable world, or do you want to play Stardew Valley? Do you want a person or a character?
When I beat Earthbound for the first time (and if you don't know, the prologue/ISAT battle system is just Mother) and watched the ending cutscene where the characters part ways and say goodbye...I felt a little bit sad. I wanted them to be together forever. But that's something only characters could ever be.
#these aren't deep or unique thoughts they're just the specific aspect of ISAT that made it one of the most interesting gaming experiences#i actually like the prologue much more than ISAT for just this reason#its honestly a video game art piece that's created to give the player a very specific experience#that makes them an aspect of the narrative that is told#it's. incredible.#in stars and time#start again start again start again#start again: a prologue#isat#god and there is so so so so much more to say here#what a rich and complex and fascinating game that made me cry like a baby#i dont even kin sif. we arent similar at all.#i cant imagine how devastating this game would have been if i did#but I do have a deep relationship with escapsim#and i write about it a lot#and video games about being video games are wonderful#as are stories about being stories#and why we consume stories. how we use them. how they save us and hurt us.#never played a video game that used its medium so well#i bet undertales also pretty good at that but this is more so i think#stories about stories have to be about why we love stories#and im not an artsy person and i roll my eyes a bit when people talk about the spiritual neccesity of art#i think people need stories because the world is sad and hard and boring and we want to think about something else for a while.#some people need to be anywhere but here#and sometimes if you're Lil Depressed-Ass Snufkin that looks like being here forever#baby cringe-ass snufkin big hat idiot
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fencer things i hc the team as doing:
seiji is one of those people who do the little high jumps before the start of a bout and who are bouncing back and forth during it
aiden and eugene flick on their own foot to check whether all the electrical is working, meanwhile harvard/seiji hit the ground outside the strip
nicholas doesn't scream during high tension points but he does gesture/pump his fist/ect.
eugene and aiden instead do scream (to harvard's dismay). seiji only screams at the end of an important bout like a final.
harvard for sure gives firm handshakes at the end of a match and does the full greeting before (a little sloppy bc no one does it perfectly) (except for seiji who does it perfectly)
eugene hugs/high fives other athletes he knows at the end of a bout, no matter who wins or who looses
eugene is also a wrist/foot hitter (canon amazing accuracy) and is strong enough to knock a blade to the side easily. he also rarely bounces his blade and has a very firm stance
nicholas accidentally hits the ground an embarassing amount of times (and the score table, and the score machine, and gets tangled in people's cables/gloves)
aiden doesn't try to get into close combat situations but when he does he is very good at drawing his blade out and hitting once, cleanly
nicholas on the other hand does riposte after riposte and it WORKS. he understands very well the "it's not over until the referee says something" rule
aiden loves a bitch ass everyone-will-hate-you move like a third disengagement and flick to the back. or a flick to the wrist. or a flĆØche right at the beginning of a bout
coach is the kind to smile and go shake the hands of both the rival coach and fencer, only to turn around and rip the team's performance to pieces
but also, she's the kind to grab the waterbottle of whoever is fencing during the one minute pause and have them drink while she explains tactic changes (without an epƩe in hand, just directly with her arm)
eugene is the type to hit everyone in the foot/shin when he's walking by to get their attention
similarly aiden and harvard are poking each other when either are fencing non-serious bouts, nicholas tried to do so once with seiji and was immediately destroyed by a glare with the power of a thousand suns (all during practice ofc)
aiden is a feinter extraordinaire. harvard is one of the few who never follows these feints/lounges past them (other than seiji who is just a great fencer)
aiden has been yellow carded for having his hair poke out from his mask before, meanwhile harvard is likely to be yellow carded for the one minute inaction rule. nicholas is most likely to get yellow carded for close combat. eugene and seiji understand the damn rules and don't get carded often
#i never focus enough on the actual fencing in this damn series#so here i am#can u guys tell im hoping to become a fencing coach sometime in the future lol#lots of these r taken from my own experience but i dont know the damn english terminology#fence comic#nicholas cox#seiji katayama#aiden kane#eugene labao#harvard lee#i miss fencing but i literally fenced yesterday for like 3 hours#also i have this vision of seiji winning an important final and celebrating and nicholas being enamored#i have like 3 similar drafts written about this scene and I canāt figure out how to put it to words#hmmmm#anyways I love observing the small things athletes do#and I love analyzing technique and a fencerās personal style#itās so much fun hehe
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i understand the frustration with āi made this gay pairing cis x trans so they can still have biological babiesā with no thought to other methods and how ppl assume thats the case when it comes to mothpool aus where mothwing is also the mother of the three, but alsoā¦. idk i kinda dont give a shit if someone wants to do that and i dont really think its inherently transphobic as long as its handled with care and respect.
what really concerns me about this debate is how some people are adamant that you cannot portray trans people having biological children in media or youre being disrespectful. and im gonna say as a nonbinary person who doesnt want children for themself- thats kinda fucking weird? like i understand that for some people, theyre trans themselves and theyre speaking from a place of dysphoria, and i absolutely get that, which is why i think the topic should be handled with nuance and diversity in trans characters, but likeā¦. guys. pregnant trans men exist irl. trans women get people pregnant irl. trans pplās ability and right to parent and have biological children are being debated irl. we get denied the opportunity to adopt as well.
in a climate like this, are we SURE we want the stance on rewrites and headcanons in the silly cat books to be āif you portray trans characters having children, especially with a gay couple, youre a transphobic freak no matter what!ā does it really matter? especially if its being done by a trans person handling the topic with nuance who has a lot of trans characters with varying perspectives?
obviously yes, remember that thats not the only way certain gay couples can have kids, remember that not every trans person is fully comfortable with it and keep that in mind, remember that surrogacy and adoption are also perfectly valid ways to give fan babies- but remember that there are OPTIONS. not that you need to condemn the idea of transgender parents in the first place unless they fit the very specific criteria of āproper transgender representationā and anything that dares deviate from that is proof the op is a transphobic monster (bonus points if theyre a trans creator bc i mostly see trans people getting shit for this and it kinda pisses me off. although idm if cis people do it either as long as theyre handling it with respect)
#and this isnt getting into how trans mothwing outside of mothpool is a really good way to read her character#sorry. remembered the shit bonefall got despite being trans as well and got annoyed#that especially annoys me bc hes got plenty of surrogacies but the second hed touch a trans pregnancy#āāno you cant do that!!! you freak!!! obviously you only see trans people as a loophole for gays to have babies!!!āā#also my gf and i were talking and obviously take this with a grain of salt bc this is our experience#butā¦. i think a lot of the ppl saying thisā¦ā¦. havent really talked to trans women?#dude some of the ones i know LOVE the idea of getting people pregnant#did you know trans women have sex? did you know trans people in general have sex?? did you know trans people irl wanna start families?#did you know that? did you? or do you black out at the idea of a trans woman being anything but strictly pure and nonsexual#and OBVIOUSLY this is not every trans woman. some do have dysphoria around the idea#but im genuinely starting to wonder how these people act around irl transgender parents#whether they had kids before or after coming out#bc ngl. the attitude that thinking about this makes you a transphobic pervert?#directed at trans people making content for themselves?#im starting to think you all just dont want us to reproduce. if we reproduce we arent āāgoodāā trans people#because a āārealāā man wouldnt carry a child. a āārealāā woman would carry the child. and god forbid the gays even THINK about reproducing#and being around children!#if we have children then weāre doing things that might make cishets look at us and declare weāre not perfect#weāve proved weāre not just identical to cis ppl!! (and therefore deserving of respect!)#idk. i think this was mostly a case of tumblr going āāoh someone said no to this so lets push this to an unhealthy extreme!!āā#and i cant help but notice nobody really brings up nonbinary parents at all in this discussion#not that we have it āābetterāā or anything for that but yknow. are we supposed to swear it off?#is the idea of us having kids inconcievable? or worseā¦. does it mean we āāpicked a side?āā#so its not even worth getting mad at a pregnant nb person bc āāwell thats a woman so who caresāāb#HMMMMM.#ohhhh i bet they also get mad if you make transfem pregnancy possible too. no winning#idk really think about it when you go āāyou can NEVER EVER portray a trans person starting a family. bc REAL trans people would never.āā#ohhh you probably get mad when trans ppl dont get surgery for one reason or another dontcha#whether we want to or its not in the cards for us for whatever reason like cost and such#(while also getting mad if we do bc we cannot win in this no matter what)
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sorry but saying that the accessibility needs of mentally disabled people are just preferences or about "comfort" is blatantly incorrect. if i can't enter a building because the bright lights and loud noises would send me into a meltdown, then i can't enter the building, and that's not less important than me not being able to enter a building because it's not wheelchair accessible. if you genuinely think that mentally disabled people aren't really struggling, and that it's okay to mock their very real concerns, then that just shows that you've been refusing to listen to their experiences. do better or shut the fuck up.
#yeah yeah i know i said i wouldn't post about this stupid fucking 'discourse' anymore#but i keep seeing takes that make my blood boil#physical and mental disabilities are two sides of the same coin! yes there are differences but also a lot of commonalities#but nooooo expecting people to have even an ounce of fucking compassion for those who dont share their exact lived experience#is too much to ask for i guess#i've said this many times before but gatekeeping and infighting will get us nowhere#throwing your fellow disabled people under the bus won't help you#i get people's anger - i have a lot of anger too as someone who is housebound with a physical disability#but other disabled people arent your enemy#and taking your anger out on them is just a dick move#especially if you do so using the same ableist 'its all in your head' rhetoric#that mentally disabled people have had to put up with since forever#disclaimer: obviously not all physically disabled people act like that. from what i can tell its just a small (but very vocal) minority#but it's pervasive enough to make me wary of online spaces for physical disabilities#which is kinda sad seeing as i have a physical disability myself and would love to connect with others#but i'm not super keen on being told that my autism (which has significantly impacted me my whole life) doesn't matter
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dying like a man and drawing the cullens :)
(list of fun little details below the cut)
they all have matching friendship bracelets! (something something the stars on them represent how they sparkle and how abnormal and dangerous they are and thats what brought them together)
jasper and rosalie matching spiky bracelets!!
edwards sweater is loosely based on a painting I vaguely remember him mentioning in midnight sun
emmet and roaslie wedding rings <3
jasper and alice have matching necklaces and braids !!
emmets crocs and edwards sensible loafers.
jasper, alice, and rosalie have matching nailpolish
jasper's eyes are slightly darker than the rest, since he's been in the group the shortest amount of time
silly gold lines in their hair to match the eyes!!
emmett eggs...
little heart in edwards hair because hes a special little loverboy <3
#guys. guys i spent 10 hours on this please.#im imploding both mentally and physically#screw it emotionally too#how did this happen. what am i doing.#i did not check the wiki for appearance details so i could be wrong with a lot of this but its ok š#anyway i think the cullens love is stored in jewelry. If you couldnt tell.#they hsve so much time since they dont sleep#and jewelry making is a silly little way to spend time!#I think alice and emmett probably make the most#hence all the bracelets he and rosalie have#and edward is super shit at it. the absolute worst.#roisins edward experience#twilight#twilight fanart#jasper cullen#alice cullen#edward cullen#emmet cullen#rosalie cullen#the twilight renaissance
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i canāt do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I donāt want to do it Iām just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. Iāll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. Iād love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period canāt decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damnā¦.#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally wonāt die. itāll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but Iām still stressing myself about it so my thoughts arenāt really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I donāt really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? itās been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just donāt#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but itās not very fun when it feels like Iām going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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