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2amriize · 10 hours ago
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.ᐟ RIIZE reaction: reader goes out at night without them ༉‧₊˚.
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req: who in riize would be the most affected by reader going out at night without them?
pairing: readerxbf!riize — masterlist
i think there will be three kind of reactions:
⭑.ᐟ sungchan, eunseok
These two would be the most affected. It’s not that they don’t trust you, but knowing you’re out partying and not being able to be by your side would consume their thoughts all night. Sungchan would try to sleep, but it would be impossible. He’d spend the entire night biting his nails and waiting for your messages. Aside from being (very) jealous, he couldn’t stop worrying about how you were doing. How could he sleep? What if something happened to you? What if you needed him? He wouldn’t be able to relax until you were back at his place safe and sound. Eunseok, on the other hand, would text you every few minutes (about every 10) to make sure you were okay. He’d try not to think about you being surrounded by other guys while he wasn’t there, so he’d distract himself by playing video games or watching a series.
⭑.ᐟ shotaro, sohee, anton
These three would be nervous but wouldn’t want to pressure you or make it obvious. They fully trust you, but for some reason, they can’t stop wondering what you’re up to. They’d feel much more at ease if they were there with you, able to check on you and ensure you were safe and in good company. Even though they know you’d never lie to them, they couldn’t stop overthinking throughout the night. They’d be glued to their phones, waiting for your messages or checking if you or your friends posted any stories to confirm you were okay.
⭑.ᐟ wonbin, seunghan
These two are overflowing with confidence, both in you and in themselves. They wouldn’t be worried at all about you going out to a party with your friends. Seunghan would probably want to tag along but would understand and let you have your time with them. Both Wonbin and Seunghan would stay calm throughout the night. Of course, they’d reply to your messages right away, but they wouldn’t spend all their time wondering who you were with or what you might be doing. I mean, having them, who else would you even want to be with?
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masterlist // taglist: @regularsuh @gacktsa @totheseok @kkumistars @taroddori @enhacolor @ladylilith @electric-hearts @astrobymarwa @layluv123 @sunflowers1610 @nctrawberries @synkjellies @ramyeonzprincess
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ofmdrecaps · 15 hours ago
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11/19-20/2024 Daily OFMD Recap
TLDR; Rhys Darby; Taika Waititi; David Fane; Samba Schutte; Megan Vertelle; Lindsey Cantrell; Damien Gerard; Dominic Burgess; Hugo Pierre Martin; ShopStands Black Friday Sale; Articles; Fan Spotlight: OFMD means Frames hosted by Ram & Tsutsuya!; Love Notes; Daily Darby/Today's Taika Gifs.
Hey crew! I wanted to add a bit more but I'm already late and we've got a couple things coming down to the wire! If you wanna get in on the Auntie's Tiny Boats raffle being hosted by @ofmd-buys-boats's raffles you can until 23:59 Thursday 21st November 2024 (GMT) (WHICH IS TONIGHT)! That's not far away! Be sure to submit your entries!
= Rhys Darby =
The gigs just won't stop! Next up is Christchurch AoNZ! Christchurch Tickets
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Source: Rhys' Instagram Stories
Rhys is also going to be at The Bell House, Brooklyn NY on Feb 22, and Feb 23! Get tickets at TheBellHouseNY.com
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Source: Instagram
Australia Dates are also up! Get tickets at his website! PW: ROBOT for priority.
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Rhys is going to be at the London on the 22nd for The Republic of Pirates with Vico, Con, Nathan, and Kristian!
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Source: Rhys Darby's Bsky
And if there wasn't enough going on with Rhys:
Also, Final Fantasy XIV won a Clio for Best use of Influencer and Talent -- and by that they obviously mean Rhys!
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Source: We Are Royale Instagram
== Taika Waititi ==
Taika is super excited about the Moana 2 Maori screening, he's sending out a PSA that you can help sponsor one to help others experience the wonderful Maori language!
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Wanna sponsor a screening of Moana 2 in Maori?
Visit watewamedia.nz
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Source: Taika Waititi's Instagram
= David Fane =
Just a quick promo video with David Fane and the rest of the Moana 2 crew!
Source: DisneyAnimation Instagram
= Samba Schutte =
Samba and Damien's new game Call of Duty Black Ops 6 is up for Best Action Game at TheGameAwards! If you've played and would like to give it some love, you can vote for the game amongst others at TheGameAwards.com. (Note: You do need to sign up for an account to vote).
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There are still hand signed pictures of Roach available at ShopStands! Get some cool merch and support charities here!
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Samba also sent a little reminder to keep that scurvy away with an immoderate use of citrus!
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Source: Samba's Instagram
= Megan Vertelle =
One of our fabulous set decorators -- Megan Vertelle was kind enough to help support the @ofmd-buys-boats charity raffle and send us some BTS for Zheng's ship as well!
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Source: Megan Vertelle's Instagram
= Lindsey Cantrell =
Our dear Lindsey, who CREATED the tiny boats that are being raffled off in @ofmd-buys-boats's raffle is reminding you that entries end at 23:59 Thursday 21st November 2024 (GMT)! That's not far away! Be sure to submit your entries!
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Source: Lindsey Cantrells Instagram Stories
= Damien Gerard =
Our dear Father Teach could use a pick me up, if you have a bsky account and a few spare minutes, would you be so kind as to send him some love? Quotes-- music, photos, anything that brings you joy <3
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Source: Damien's Bsky
= Dominic Burgess =
The countdown is on! Our wonderful Jeffrey Fettering will be adding his talents to the new Skeleton Crew show!
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Source: Dominic's Bsky
= Hugo Pierre Martin =
Our favorite valet from s1, Hugo Pierre Martin is calling out for some art submissions for his spotify series! "The next season of the audioseries will be called "The Seventh Son." The series will have icons for every episode and I'd like it to be some variation on this ancient symbol: The Oroboros. It can be: - A snake biting its own tail - A dragon biting its own tail - A blue Bunny dragon biting its own tail" Interesting in submitting something/checking out the submissions? Check out his Instagram!
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Source: HPM's Instagram
== Stands Black Friday Sale ==
There's still OFMD merch available at shopstands! If you were thinking of picking some of these up this is a great time -- and it's for a good cause!
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Source: ShopStands
== Articles ==
More articles about our favorite show, and our Captain talking about his new tour! Thanks so much to @adoptourcrew fand @ofmooshd for keeping us appraised!
Source: Moosh on Twitter
Source: Adopt Our Crew Twitter
== Fan Spotlight ==
= Our Flag Means Frames - Moonlight Scene =
There's a new frames project hosted by Ram and @tsutsuya on Bsky! Here is the link to the full thread. The deadline will be the 31st of Janurary 2025! -- and you can sign up here! It looks like they've already shared so many frames that there are just some hand frames left so get in while you can!
Contact info:
@tsutsuya.bsky.social
@panodtortur.bsky.social
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Source: Ram's Bsky
== Love Notes ==
Hey lovelies! There are two things in this issue that are time sensitive and I'm running late as it is so I'm gonna make this short today! You're halfway through the work week if you work weekdays-- you are almost there crew! You can make it! <3 Sending some love notes from others for today <3
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Source: NewHappyCo Instagram
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Source: New Happy Co Instagram
== Daily Darby / Today's Taika ==
I just have to re-share this look they give each other today. Today's gif courtesy of the lovely @captain-flint!
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papil0nglegs · 2 days ago
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ok but like I loved ur mercy!reader post and considering my love for crossovers ESPECIALLY character interactions I was wondering if u could do more???
Nerf this!🐰
Tf2 x Dva!Reader
A/n: If you’re not familiar with Dva then I suggest watching the Dva Cinematic. It’ll sum her character up and she’s a fun one at that ^^. A lot of my tf2 x ow fics are platonic so unless I outright say that it’s romantic you can imagine it however you’d like, enjoy <33
Warnings: None
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Divider creds: Sister-Lucifer on Tumblr
Engineer
Since you guys were forced to share a workshop it looks pretty similar to the bedroom from Sam and Cat, one side being dull and grey with little to no decorations while the other is pink with cute plushies/figurines around the place.
After a bit you grew closer, sitting around in silence while working on your projects got pretty awkward so it was about time before someone broke the ice.
“You ever name your bots?”
“Huh, don’t think so.. you?”
“Yes! I call her Tokki, she’s cute isn’t she?”
“And one hell of a shade of pink”
Engineer is really competitive when it comes to you, being that you both are engineers/inventors. You guys have fun 🫶
“That’s 10 kills! Can you do that grandpa?”
“Haha! Just wait til’ you see what my other babies can do”
Will gladly show you some old tricks that he’s learned over the years since he’s more experienced. Plus he’s the only person you’ll ever trust your dear Tokki with.
Speaking of which-your self destruct sequence is always done by him, any of the other mercs will FUMBLEEE
“how do I friggin do this?? Is there like a joystick I can move around?”
“Too many dæm buttons on this zing! I zon’t know what I’m doing”
“pulls out glasses your mouse controls the small pointer on ze screen, use it to-WHAT DOES ANY OF THIS MEAN?”
“IT MEANS YOU’RE STUPID HEAVY.”
Interactions/Voicelines 🎤
Team kill with Self Destruct
“How’s that for a shade of pink?”
“Definitely haven’t seen somethin’ like that in my years.”
“Thanks Tae-I mean!-Engie!!”
Domination
“Too slow, peepaw!”
“Hope that wasn’t hard on your arthritis -3-“
Medic
Medic gets so excited when you’re on a mission with him. Loves pocketing you, partly because you’re the nicest when it comes to asking for help
“CMON THEN DOCTOR”
“HURRY ON DOCTOR”
“DOCTOR, HEAL NOW”
“heals plss 😚”
He also enjoys how you’re full of surprises, he thought you were gonna die when your mech broke down but no! You jumped out that thing and pistol whipped the whole team’s faces off like the diva you are.
“PISTOL TO THE FACE!!”
“Y/n slow down 🙂”
He loves you but you overstimulate him.
Interactions/Voicelines 🎤
Ubering
“LETS GO!”
“RAHHH!! GET OUTTA MY GAME!”
Spawn Interactions
“You gonna surprise me out there, Hase?”
“Of course! You know I always do ^.^”
“Nett mech”
“Nett coat!!”
“Aw, vy thank you”
Spy
This ho won’t stop talking shit. Every time he opens his mouth about you it’s him complaining about how “you’re too young to be on this team” or “your ‘experience’ with video games doesn’t serve a war” or “stop playing video games y/n we’re in the middle of battle”.
He avoided you for the most part until you decided to make some small talk while you both awkwardly stood in an elevator, big mistake 😬
“I bet your gun does a ton of DPS”
“Must you always muster up your video game vocabulary with reality?”
“Must you always be so petty?? 😒 old Frenchie fuck you and your dps gun”
Clearly he’s not fond of youngin’s joining the team. Though he does find you more “tolerable” than scout since you at least have some experience with fighting in a war (kinda)
He hates that he has to crawl to you for tech help, he doesn’t know what he’s doing-you’re the tech expert!!
“Y/n.. something is wrong with the radio.”
“..oookkayyy??”
“Can you help?”
“LOL!!”
Meetings with you always end up in him taking your game console away, he just won’t leave you alone 🙄
“Hey! I was in the middle of beating a boss!!”
“You’ll have it back once you listen to what I have to say, girl.”
“Ughh fine”
Interactions/Voicelines 🎤
Spawn interactions
“Don’t you think your little pink robot will be a distraction?”
“That’s.. just the way I like it!”
Blaster light gun kill
“See that, Spy? Pure skill.”
Spy callout
“Ping!Ping!Ping! Spy around here!!”
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dumpywrites · 1 day ago
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Osculate - Jung Hoseok / J-Hope
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Prompt: You kissed someone at the party last night… but who?
Prompt request: HERE
Genre/tags: friends to lovers, producer! Hobi, slight drama, slow burn(?), mentions of cheating ex
Pairing: Hoseok x she/her reader
a/n: Welcome back Hobi <3 this is my first time writing about him! Also this turns to be longer than expected but we love the drama hehe
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The gentle touch. 
The soft feel of a pair of lips touching yours for a brief moment. 
You kissed someone at the party last night… but who?
The thoughts were going on circles in your head. 
The first thing you realized when you woke up was a pang of headache. Of course, you were supposed to listen to your friends. Maybe drinking gin straight from the bottle wasn’t such a good idea. Of course it was not, but your ex was in the function.
The worse part was that he couldn’t even be considered as an ex. It had been a little over six months since the whole drama with Jaehyun. You went through somewhat of a situationship with him. Honestly, you liked the guy, couldn’t exactly say you had strong feelings for him, but you both agreed to enjoy the flow and get to know each other at a slow pace. For two months you both did all things couples do without any label, but it was not the main problem cause you had a conversation before about it… right? WRONG. He had a girlfriend the whole time. What a joke. 
Truth to be told, you were not that upset to see his face there. To you, even though he had basically ruined your perspective of men forever, it was all in the past. You couldn’t forgive him but there was nothing you could really do, life was just like that sometimes. What disheartened you was your friends inviting him in the first place. 
You had only ever told the whole story to two of them, that being Namjoon and Jungkook. Namjoon was the one who you called the first second you found out, and Jungkook the next day since you knew Jaehyun from him after all. You hoped that telling him would at least make him consider their friendship and to not trust him anymore, but you continued to see him occasionally in the photos of their stories.
Maybe Namjoon and Jungkook never told the others about it, it wasn’t their fault that Taehyung didn’t know and decided to invite him to his birthday party. Who knows, who cares. You were on your sixth shot of the night and you were feeling emotional. Fuck your friends for being insensitive really. 
Soon after the shots turned into drinking directly from the bottle, the memories were quick to fade away in a blur. 
“How did I even get here…” You mumbled to yourself. You still had the mini dress from last night on, but you were wearing your hoodie on top of it. You wondered if this happened because the person who helped you knew where you kept your hoodies. Coming from the party, the only people who could possibly knew that information were probably Namjoon, but that man couldn’t drive to safe his life. Was it Jin? After all he also had been to your place a few times before to play some video games, at least he knew where your bedroom was. 
The noise coming from your kitchen did sound suspicious though. 
“Hoseok?!”
You were very surprised to find him, considering he had never been to your place before and you couldn’t remember any major interaction with him the night before. 
“Finally!” His smile almost blinded you. “You alright? Sorry I had to use your kitchen, but I made us some pancakes.”
“I’m fine, thank you… I uh… what happened?” You said, sitting down on your dining table. 
“You got super drunk last night, long story short I got you here. Namjoon helped but he had to leave. We were worried to leave you alone, so that's why I'm here. Thank God you got your keys on a carabiner on your belt, or else we wouldn’t be here.”
“Gosh, what happened in between?”
“Nothing much, you were just dancing around, spilled drink on Taehyung and his girlfriend, not sure it was an accident though, and unfortunately you couldn’t make it to the ladies restroom so you puked right in front of the door.”
“Shit…” You facepalmed. “I’m so sorry you had to see that.”
“Come on, I’ve seen you drunk before it’s fine.” He said while placing the pancakes on two different plates. 
“But it wasn’t like this.” You shook your head. 
“It’s fine.” He smiled, somehow the look in his eyes softened. “After what happened with Jaehyun, honestly… I get it.” 
“Oh.” You looked down to your lap. “Did Namjoon tell you?” 
He paused, finally taking a seat next to you on your small dining table. “You kinda told me last night…”
“Of course I did.” You chuckled, rolling your eyes. “Sorry for trauma dumping, I guess.” 
“You don’t remember anything?!” 
“I don’t remember anything after I finished that bottle of Bombay Sapphire.” You shrugged, bitting your inner cheek. 
“That’s… unfortunate.” He flashed a disappointed grin. “Although I must say, I’ve always secretly hated that guy for no reason, glad to finally have one.” He sneered. 
You looked at him amusingly. “Why didn’t you tell me before?!”
“Dunno, I just feel like I don’t have anything to backup my opinion and I saw how you looked at him. I just knew you wouldn’t listen to me anyway.”
“Fair.” You said with a spoonful of pancake in your mouth. 
“Hey, I’ve told you this yesterday but I’m gonna repeat myself again since you don’t remember anything,” He smiled, moving his body to face your direction. “It’s not your fault. He did that because he’s a bad person and that has nothing to do with your quality as a human being.”
You sighed. “Seems like I done told you my insecurities as well.” You threw a sad smile. “Thanks, I appreciate that.”
“If you ever need validation again, come to me. But I’ll be charging you next time.” He grinned and proudly opened his arms. 
You laughed. “The pancake’s lowkey fire though, I must say. I’ll treat you a meal next time.”
You ended up ordering some Chinese food while watching old Harry Potter movies in the background. Somehow the conversation just kept going and you didn’t know before that hanging with Hoseok was this much of fun. You even let him borrow an oversized T-shirt of yours before going home, since you felt bad that he was still with what he wore yesterday. 
You had fun and the question of a faint memory soon left your mind. Why bother? It was probably just a stranger that you would rather not know about. 
From later getting the meal you promised him, the friendship only continued to blossom more from there. 
**
It was a random day after work when you decided to join Yoongi and Namjoon in their studio. Hoseok was supposed to join later after visiting his parents. The cool thing about having producer friends was that you could basically get free early listen to various singers’ songs. And their studio being very cozy and spacious was also a plus point. The company they worked for was also quite chill about visitors. 
“Jimin just texted me, he said he wants to join just for the preview of the song I’m writing for Megan Thee Stallion.” Namjoon said after reading his text. 
“Isn’t his dance class not done until eight or something?” You asked. 
“He recently switched to morning shift, I heard. Something about being too old to teach in that hour.” Yoongi chuckled. 
“He always say that, but I just know he’s gonna be the healthiest when we are old, cause all of us have jobs that requires multiple hours of sitting down. Unlike him.” You said. 
“Ain’t that right.” Yoongi groaned, suddenly fixing his posture. “By the way, where’s Hobi?” 
“Didn’t he tell you? He’s visiting his parents so he’ll be a little late.” You replied. 
“Just found out about that now.” Namjoon replied, suddenly eyeing Yoongi suspiciously. 
“Well, he’ll probably just be an hour late so don’t worry.”
“You’ve been hanging out with him a lot, I see.” Namjoon said. “Even heard you calling him Hobi now too.”
“All thanks to that drunk accident, I found out over trauma dumping that I actually like hanging out with him.” You shrugged.
“Geez, don’t remind me. It was so hard to convince you to come home that day.” Joon complained. 
“Wait, speaking of that day…”
You had heard the story about when you got drunk and what happened in between. But none of their stories ever mentioned about you kissing someone, which was ironic considering that was actually the only part that you faintly remembered about that night. You were sure you were not dreaming, fantasizing even. You knew it was real. You just needed to know with whom it happened, if any chance your friend witnessed the scene. 
“Did you guys see me kissing anyone that night?” You looked at the guys back and forth. 
“You kissed someone?!” Namjoon gaped. “This is another news to me.”
“I didn’t even see you half of the party cause you were mostly at the dance floor and I never even left the table.” Yoongi said. 
You sighed. “I guess it’s probably just some stranger then. I just hope it’s not Jaehyun, because hell no.” You scrunched your nose in disgust. 
“Can’t be him, he was also mostly at our table. Only left after you spilled drink all over Tae and his girl. We got you home right after that.” Namjoon explained. 
“I need to thank you for that, cause heaven knows that fucker wouldn’t stop talking about his new job and how much pay he gets now. Like dude, shut up.” Yoongi rolled his eyes. 
“I don’t know if Joon or Jungkook ever told you but… something horrible happened between me and Jaehyun.” You looked at Yoongi. 
“I never told them, neither did Jungkook. We thought it wasn’t our place to say so. Looking back at what happened though, we should’ve said something. I’m sorry.” The taller guy said, looking at you with concern in his eyes. 
“It’s fine, I totally get it.” You assured Namjoon. “Me and Jaehyun used to have this situationship thing going on, until I found out that he has a girlfriend.” You said to Yoongi. 
“He has a girlfriend?!” Yoongi asked with widened eyes. You knew it was serious when he started to show a big reaction. 
“Yeah, I don’t think he intends to tell you guys about it too, to maintain his image and all.” 
“That shithead told us he only has two exes and barely go on dates.” Yoongi gritted his teeth. “Why are we still friends with him??? This is fucked up!”
“Jungkook didn’t know the whole story, it’s my fault.” Namjoon spoke again. 
“Guys, it’s fine… I don’t expect you to stop hanging out with someone just because they wronged me.” 
“Uh, you should???” Yoongi protested. “You are our friend too.” 
Your heart softened at the reaction. “I don’t want you guys to fight though…”
“We could just stop inviting him to our hangout.” Yoongi shrugged. 
“We need to tell the others about this, are you sure you’re okay with that?” Namjoon asked, his right hand patting your shoulder. 
“I guess it’s about time.” You sighed. “Just please promise me you’ll hold Jin down in case he wants to throw hands.” You folded your arms, holding back a smile. 
Namjoon laughed. “I’ll make sure of that.”
Just seconds later, you heard the door cracked open. 
“You guys are gossiping without me???” 
Hobi spoke as he entered the studio. He was wearing a jacket, which he took off right upon entering the room, revealing his black T-shirt that now seemed to be slowly transforming into a compression tee with him going to the gym lately. 
“Does he know?” Yoongi asked. 
You nodded. 
“What? What are you talking abou— Oh… don’t tell me it’s about that loser…”
Yoongi’s lips popped a “yup” while Namjoon just sighed. 
“We can finally agree that we should never invite him ever again now, right?” Hoseok said as he took his designated chair. 
“One hundred percent.” Namjoon said, nodding. “By the way, have you ask Hobi if he saw?” The guy pointed at Hoseok while looking at you. 
“Oh.” Your eyebrows raised. “Actually no, I haven’t. Hobi, did you see me kiss anyone at the party?”
Suddenly, the said guy choked on nothing. He quickly fixed his tinted sunglasses, only to then awkwardly take them off, putting them on the table next to his keyboard. 
“I’m sorry, what?!” Hoseok straightened his posture. 
“I’m sure it’s not that much of a surprise, you’re overreacting.” You chuckled. 
“I don’t know… maybe? Who knows. Do you even remember where it happened?” 
You looked at the guy with slight skepticism. “I don’t know. I can’t even remember the face. I remember the feeling??? If that’s not TMI.” You faked a cartoonish shiver. 
“Did you not… like it?”
“I wouldn’t say that.” You tilted your head slightly, pondering. “I remember feeling really soft lips, and I actually don’t remember disliking it in any way. But I don’t even know if I was the one who initiated the kiss.” 
“I see.” The guy turned away to face his computer screen. “At least you liked it.” 
“I guess so.” You shrugged. 
Jimin later joined as promised. Both of you quietly listened as the three producers continued on their work. You went out for dinner afterwards and Hobi offered to drive you home, since you used public transport.
There was a bit of oddity in his action’s that night towards you but you couldn’t put a finger on what. He just seemed a like he was holding back something and you didn’t know why. 
You also wondered since when did you start to notice how attractive Hoseok was. Had he always been this way? You were sure he did not change that much from the first day you got to know him. Because lately, he had been glowing, his smile looked extra bright, and the hair looked extra fluffy. 
Sure his fashion taste had developed over the years but he still looked pretty much the same. Maybe you were just dumb not to realize it sooner. Or maybe it’s the new workout routine. Yes, it must be that.
**
You found yourself hanging out yet again at the three’s studio. This time with only Hoseok, since he got something he needed to revise. You were nearby and decided to drop by with some pizzas, knowing how often these guys forgot to eat while working. After texting the group chat, you found out Hobi was the only one there, but the pizza had been bought anyway so you wouldn’t want it to go to waste. 
“Man, remember when you used to be such a fanboy for J.cole? Can’t believe you’re producing for him now. I’m so proud of you, man.” You took a bite of the slice of pepperoni pizza in your hand. 
“I know right? I can’t believe he randomly came across my SoundCloud archive.” He grinned happily. 
“You should try, you know… being an artist? You even dance well. Jimin’s words not mine.” 
“Nah, I don’t think I can handle the fame.” He shooed. “Besides, I don’t think I look good enough to be an idol.” He laughed. 
“Are you kidding me?!”
That sounded way too loud from what you intended. 
“Why? You actually think I look handsome or something???” He said with a judgy expression, almost as if he couldn’t believe you. 
“Hasn’t anyone actually told you that?”
“Uh… no, I don’t think so— why though???” He seemed truly curious. His eyes visibly widened and he scoffed closer with his chair. 
“Don’t fucking ask why!” You retrieved, actually moving away slightly on the couch. “It just crossed my mind, okay?”
He chuckled. “Are you actually being shy right now?” 
“No, I’m not!” You widened your eyes in horror when he got up from his seat, seemingly moving to sit next to you. 
“It’s fine, I get that you don’t actually wanna admit that I’m hot.” He smirked. 
“Aren’t you the same person who literally seconds ago said that he isn’t good looking enough???” You rolled your eyes. 
He took a slice and munched a big bite. He shrugged at you with a downturned smirk. 
“Forget I ever said that.” You scoffed. 
“You too.” He said after swallowing the food. “I think you’re attractive as well.”
You paused. The atmosphere had now suddenly turned thick. Your lips went tiny bit ajar, starring at him with an unbelievable look. 
“It hasn’t changed since the first time I met you. I’ve always thought you’re attractive.”
“Do not say stuff like that.” You looked away, feeling your body burning up, stomach roamed with butterflies. “You’re making me feel weird.” 
You didn’t know what you did but something changed in his eyes after you said that. His face was now only inches away from you. You didn’t think you had seen him looking this serious before ever in the whole time knowing him. 
It felt too weird, so weird that the back of your mind was quietly suggesting to claim his lips. The idea sounded odd but somehow not unheard at the same time. Should you be weirded out that you were thinking of kissing your friend or should you be weirded out by the fact that the thought of kissing him didn’t sound that preposterous to you? Your silly little brain could only handle so much. 
The sound of door knob turning saved you, or maybe not. Both of you instantly jolted and faced the direction of the entrance. 
“Am I interrupting?” Namjoon peeked. 
“N-No.” You awkwardly scooted away from Hoseok. “I thought you won’t be coming?”
“I left my hard drive.” The tall guy said as he moved towards his desk and grabbing the said item. 
“I see… Uh, do you want pizza? We still have some.”  
“Nah, just had dinner at home. You guys have fun though!” He gave a thumb up before exiting through the door. 
“Yeah, that’s weird.” Hoseok said, putting down his unfinished slice of pizza that he still had in his hand the whole time. “I’m sorry.” He giggled awkwardly. 
“I know right?” You laughed as well, but it sounded so fake that you internally gagged. 
That night the thought of his eyes looking at yours sent electricity down your spine. The butterflies in your belly kept you awake. 
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After that, the mystery kiss never really crossed your mind again. At the end of the day, you were just glad it was not he who shall not be named. 
Just when your mental state was heading towards a better direction, your luck decided that you had to bump into the said guy, Voldemort himself, Jaehyun. God forbid a woman just wanted to grab herself some snack at a nearby convince store. Of course his new job was near your home, because why wouldn’t it be. The universe just loved to toy with you like that. 
“Y/N? Here let me get that for you…”
“No, thank you.” You forced a smile and shook your head at the cashier, signaling the lady to take your card. 
“It’s fine, they’re just biscuits anyway.”
“And I can pay them myself.” You said and quickly stormed away, hoping you would be left alone. 
“Wait!” He called, but you continued to walk out the store, unbothered. 
You squirmed in disgust when you felt his hand stopping you by your wrist. You stopped but shook his hand off immediately. “What?”
“Can we talk? I’ll be quick I promise.” He said, sounding almost begging. 
“No, there’s literally nothing in this world that can excuse what you did to me so I don’t want any further explanation.” 
“I… I feel so guilty. The past few months I’ve been so grossed out about myself…” He spoke out anyway. He looked at you with a pathetic expression. 
“You did something bad so of course you were supposed to feel awful about it. What part of this is my problem?” 
“I think you deserve a proper apology. So… I’m sorry.” 
“Are you still dating that girl?” You asked sternly. 
“No, we broke up due to distance.”
“Good. That innocent woman doesn’t deserve a lying and cheating fucker like you.” You folded your arms. “Is that it?! I would like to leave now.”
“Are you with Hoseok now?”
“What do you mean??? Are you out of your mind?! What made you thi—”
“I saw both of you kissing at Taehyung’s party.”
A few circuits in your brain just snapped because what in the fresh hell was that. All this time, the mystery man was Hoseok all along??? But he never once told you anything about it, even after you mentioned it. Is it embarrassing for him? Did he regret it? And worse, did you force yourself on him??? There were so many questions pilling up in your head. 
Seeing your zero response, he spoke again. “So, you’re not dating him then?”
“It’s literally none of your business.” You simply said before moving your feet to leave him in a flash. 
You were walking, running maybe? You couldn’t even think straight. You had not even reached your apartment complex yet, but you already took your phone out, calling Hoseok without giving it a second thought. 
“What’s up?” You heard the man picking up the call. “You don’t usually call…”
“I kissed you.”
The line went silent for some good second, before you heard him clearing his throat. “You finally remember?”
“Why didn’t you tell me???” You raised your voice. “I even asked you before!”
“It’s a lot more complicated than what you think.” He sighed. “And correction, we kissed. I kissed you back so you weren’t the only one doing the kissing here.”
Your heart skipped a beat. Maybe two. 
“Are you home? Can I come over?” You heard him sighing again. 
“Uh, yeah I am.” You bit your lips, feeling extremely nervous all of the sudden. “Sure, I guess…”
“Okay.” Was all he said before hanging up the call. 
You were now pacing back and forth at your apartment lobby. The security was already giving you funny looks and so did some of the passerby. You couldn’t care less though, because truthfully, your mind was filled with endless possibilities of what happened and how it happened. Deep down you were glad it was him, but the real question was did he feel the same?
By the time Hoseok arrived you were already sitting on the lobby sofa, clasping your hands together out of cold. The aircon and night air were not such a big help with your nervous sweaty palms. Not to mentioned Hobi in his casual clothes… you might be biased but still!
The walk to the lift and to your room was silent. You wanted so badly to make a small talk, but you couldn’t make yourself to open your lips. And the man who you knew as one of the most cheerful person out there, was dead silent as well, which was killing you. 
“Do you want to drink something?” You finally said after a few minutes of unwieldy silence between the two of you. 
“N-No need!” He shook his head. Did he just stutter?
“Okay.” You took a seat on your couch, in which he followed shortly. 
He took a deep breath and exhaled loudly. “At first I saw you crying silently near the toilet. You just left after the whole drink-spill accident and clearly were not walking straight. I was worried so I followed you there. By the time I reached you, you had already puked…”
“I’m sorry.” You cringed at the thought of him seeing you puke. 
“It’s alright. Fortunately, you didn’t dirty your clothes from it.” He smiled. “I helped you walk out from the club, and that was when you started telling me everything. I feel so bad that I couldn’t do anything about it other than listening to your cries. But a few minutes later, Jaehyun showed up.”
Your eyes widened. “What did he do?”
“Apparently he was looking to talk with you privately but never got the chance.”
“And what happened?”
“I told him to scram.” He chuckled. “Honestly, I’m proud of myself for not punching him in the face that day. How dare he appear right in front of me just minutes after I found out how much of an ass he is?!!” He said in disbelief. “But he refused to leave.”
“Oh…” You began to see where this was going. 
“He was saying a bunch of nonsense I couldn’t even recall, and just out of the blue, you grabbed me by the collar and just… kissed me.”
You blushed upon hearing the words coming out from Hoseok’s mouth. 
There seemed to be a light shade of pink on his cheeks. “I was so taken aback I didn’t know what to do. I mean… I couldn’t believe the girl I’ve been secretly crushing on just kissed me!”
Wait, what?
**FLASHBACK**
“I just want to talk to her!!!” Jaehyun insists. 
“She’s too drunk right now, so fuck off.” Hoseok spat out. 
“Then I’ll take her home.”
“Over my dead body.” 
And that was when you suddenly pulled him for a kiss. It all happened so quick, that even Jaehyun was also at loss for words, but Hoseok kissed you back, eagerly. That of course made Jaehyun even more uncomfortable, enough to make him finally leave the scene. 
The two of you didn’t stop kissing though. Not for a while. Despite being the sober one, Hoseok lost track of time by the touch of your lips. For a moment it was just you, and your friend, making out in front of a club entrance. The club was at the fifth floor of a building, so you were just kissing each other intensely, next to the elevator, against the glass window, like a couple of hormonal teenagers hungry for each other.
Anyone could see you, in fact, one of your friends might caught you on the act, but that did not stop Hoseok. What stopped him was the thought of you being heavily intoxicated. He did not want to take advantage of you, and clearly did not want you to think about him that way in any shape or form. And so he pulled away. 
“I’m sorry… that shouldn’t have happened.”
Your eyes looked glistening, cheeks red, and your lips were swollen. It took Hoseok almost everything in him to not just grab you and go back to kissing you like crazy. 
You looked up, staring at him with droppy eyes and started tearing up again. You just looked so helpless in his eyes. He was so desperate to ease your pain, but he had no idea how, or even if he were allowed to in the first place. 
“Hey, it’s not your fault… you know.” He sighed and took your right hand, intertwining it with his. “He’s a horrible person and that has nothing to do with you. You’re wonderful. You’re one of the most amazing person I’ve ever met.”
You only continued to sob, so he pulled you in and hugged you softly. He let you cry for a while before Namjoon and Jimin found both of you outside. They decided it was best if he took her home so Namjoon told him your address and followed Hoseok to his car. 
It was quite the struggle, supporting you and helping you walk to your apartment unit. By this time you were passed out already, so Namjoon offered to carry you, in which Hoseok volunteered in instant. 
Thankfully, your keys were attached to your belt, dangling by a hook carabiner you always liked to use, so it wasn’t hard opening the door. Namjoon opened the door and Hoseok laid you down on the sofa. He took off your shoes carefully before setting them aside. It didn’t seem right to just leave you like that so both of them thought it would be best if someone stayed. 
Long story short, Hoseok carried you to your bedroom. Saw your hoodie laying around and decided to put it on you and leave you in your room. The tiredness then caught up to him, so he crashed out on your couch. 
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“And that’s all!” The man smiled at you. 
“Hobi, I…” You were speechless. “Thank you… first of all.”
“Don’t mention it. I was happy to help.”
“I didn’t know you have a crush on me…” You said while awkwardly avoiding eye contact. 
“At this point I don’t think it’s still a crush anymore…” He breathed out. “I like you, like a lot now.” He grinned happily.
You were once again too stunned to speak. 
“Well, now that it’s out of the bag, I hope it won’t make things weird between us…” He scratched the back of his head. 
“Jung Hoseok, I literally like you too.” You finally said, making you flushed so red that it reached your ears. 
“You do??? Forreal???” He grabbed both of your hands. 
“Yes, for real.” You giggled, still blushing. “Should we kiss again to seal the deal?” 
“Say no more!”
He stood up, which made you raised your eyebrow at him. But a yelp soon escaped your mouth when he suddenly lift you up, twirling you around before kissing you on your lips passionately. You smiled through it, kissing him back with equal devotion. His lips felt so familiar, but not because you had kissed him before. In fact, you barely remembered how it happened. It was because his touch made you felt secured, so safe, like you were finally at home. 
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the-great-papyru · 8 hours ago
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been thinking about how going through and getting used to the resets would genuinely limit flowey’s ability to do… well, basic things. like form conversations.
think about it. he’s scripted everything. and he’s had all the time in the world to work on scripts, too.
what if he hears someone talk, and through unrelated circumstances they say something they usually say in another, unrelated scenario. like… i dunno, when toriel gets killed in a certain way, she’ll say something along the lines of “how could anyone do something like this?” and flowey’s prone to responding with “oh, you haven’t even SEEN what i’ve done to papyrus!” because he knows if he does she’ll remember papyrus’ name and, if he times it right, warn sans, and that has a snowball affect that leads to his run being much more interesting.
and then toriel says the line post-pacifist for whatever reason (maybe she’s reading the news) and absentmindedly flowey immediately responds with his usual reply.
he gets several strong looks, and papyrus checks his back to make sure flowey didn’t attach a sticky note with the words “kick me” on it again.
or, okay, he’s used to thinking through responses until he finds the perfect one. sans gives him a “heya” and he spends 2 minutes trying to figure out what he means by that greeting, what he knows (flowey’s been struggling maintaining his pre-prepared facial expressions lately for some reason, no idea why) and how to respond in a way that doesn’t let on that he knows sans knows, but also let him know that he’s not letting down his guard, not to mention figuring out what face to say it with… by then, of course, sans has muttered a brief “uh. okay then” and walked away. and flowey can’t just reload to finally let loose his carefully crafted reply like he’s used to, either.
he honestly probably finds it easiest to talk to frisk. he doesn’t have a running tally of their likes and dislikes. so he doesn’t have enough to base lines on, and he’ll sometimes even end up saying the first thing that comes to his mind. crazy.
also. i don’t know about you, but when i get multiple choices in a video game i often choose the clearly “wrong” answer just to see what people say. you can’t progress after choosing it, anyway, so there’s no real loss.
i wonder if flowey has that same mentality. it might do a lot more than make people angry, though. like… let’s say toriel asks him “what would you like to eat for dinner today?” and he goes with eggplant parmigiana, he hates eggplant parmigiana it’s gross and chewy and obviously the wrong answer. and he just wants to see what she’ll say before he reloads and chooses the right answer (snails). he realizes too late what he just did.
so yeah, flowey would really struggle with talking, i think. it’d be a learning curve for sure. he’ll figure it out, of course, but it’ll take a while.
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yellowocaballero · 8 months ago
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Been a fan of your fics for YEARS. I was just telling my friend how despite how much I read fics I never actually love them, with some of your fics (especially TMA) as the exception. Felt the need to reread some of them and saw you reblogged some ISAT fanart. So. Any thoughts on ISAT you'd like to share?
Hope you have a wonderful day!! So happy I found your fics again!!
I avoided answering this for a while because I was trying to think of a way to cohesively and coherently vocalize my thoughts on In Stars and Time. I have given up because I don't want to hold everybody here all day and I have accepted that my thoughts are just pterodactyl screeching.
I love it so much. I have so much to say on it. It drove me bonkers for like a week straight. I have AUs. It's absolute Megbait. They're just a little Snufkin and they're having the worst experience of anybody's life. Ludonarratives my fucking beloved.
I am going to talk about the prologue.
The prologue is such a fascinating experience. You crack open the game and immediately begin checking off all of the little genre boxes: mage, warrior, researcher, you're the rogue...some little kid who's there for some reason...alright, you know the score. You're in yet another indie Earthbound RPG, these are your generic characters, let's get the ball rolling.
Except then you realize that these characters are people. You feel instantly how you've entered the game at its last dungeon, at the end of the adventure. They have their own in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They get along well and they're obviously close, but not in a twee or unrealistic way. They have so much chemistry and spirit and life. I fell in love with them so quickly.
But Sif doesn't. Sif kind of hates them, because they will not stop saying the same damn thing. They walk the same paths, do the same things, make the same jokes, expect Sif to say the same lines. They keep referencing a Sif we do not see, with jokes we never see him make and heroic personality he never shows - they reference a Sif who is dead - and Sif can't handle that, so he kills them too.
They become only an exercise in tedious frustration. Sif button mashes through their dialogue, Sif mindlessly clicks the same dialogue options, Sif skips through the tutorial, Sif blows through the puzzles. Sif turns their world into a video game. Sif is playing a generic RPG. Sif forgets their names. They are no longer people with in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They're the mage, the warrior, the researcher, and...some random kid.
I did not understand the Kid's presence at first. I had no idea what they contributed to the game. They didn't do anything. As a party member in a video game, they're a bit useless. Why is the Kid there?
Because Sif's life isn't a video game. Because the kid isn't 'the kid'. They're Bonnie. Bonnie, who the party loves. Why is Bonnie there? Because they love them. There is no room for Bonnie in the boring RPG that Sif is playing. And then you realize that Sif is wrong, and that they've lost something extremely important, and that they'll never escape without it.
Watching the prologue before watching ISAT gave ISAT the most unique air of dread and horror, because you crack open ISAT and you see the person Sif used to be. You realize that Sif used to be a person. Sif used to be the person who made jokes, who gave real smiles, who interacted with the world as if they are a part of it. And you know you are sitting down to watch Sif lose everything that made them a person, to lose everything that made them a member of this world, and turn them into a character in a video game who doesn't understand the point of Bonnie at all.
At the climax of the game, when the others realize that something is deeply wrong and that Sif physically cannot tell them, they realize that there is nothing they can do. So Bonnie declares snacktime. And for the first time they have snacktime.
What is snacktime? Classic JRPGs don't have snacktime. There's literally no point to a snacktime - not in a video game, and not in Sif's terrible life. It's not fixing this, because nothing can fix this. But Bonnie gives Sif a cookie and Sif eats it.
It's meaningless. It's a cutscene. It didn't save Sif and it didn't change a thing. It will make no difference in the end.
But it did make the difference. It made all of the difference in the world. Bonnie is a character who you really don't understand the point of before you realize that Bonnie was the entire point.
ISAT is about comfort media. Why do we play the same video games over and over again? Why do we avoid watching the finale of our favorite shows? What is truly comforting: a story with no conflict, or a story where you always know what is about to happen? Do you want to live in a scary, uncontrollable world, or do you want to play Stardew Valley? Do you want a person or a character?
When I beat Earthbound for the first time (and if you don't know, the prologue/ISAT battle system is just Mother) and watched the ending cutscene where the characters part ways and say goodbye...I felt a little bit sad. I wanted them to be together forever. But that's something only characters could ever be.
#these aren't deep or unique thoughts they're just the specific aspect of ISAT that made it one of the most interesting gaming experiences#i actually like the prologue much more than ISAT for just this reason#its honestly a video game art piece that's created to give the player a very specific experience#that makes them an aspect of the narrative that is told#it's. incredible.#in stars and time#start again start again start again#start again: a prologue#isat#god and there is so so so so much more to say here#what a rich and complex and fascinating game that made me cry like a baby#i dont even kin sif. we arent similar at all.#i cant imagine how devastating this game would have been if i did#but I do have a deep relationship with escapsim#and i write about it a lot#and video games about being video games are wonderful#as are stories about being stories#and why we consume stories. how we use them. how they save us and hurt us.#never played a video game that used its medium so well#i bet undertales also pretty good at that but this is more so i think#stories about stories have to be about why we love stories#and im not an artsy person and i roll my eyes a bit when people talk about the spiritual neccesity of art#i think people need stories because the world is sad and hard and boring and we want to think about something else for a while.#some people need to be anywhere but here#and sometimes if you're Lil Depressed-Ass Snufkin that looks like being here forever#baby cringe-ass snufkin big hat idiot
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uncanny-tranny · 9 months ago
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This might be a half-baked theory, but I wonder how much of the "think of the children!!" ideals that are almost... aimed at women rely on the idea of women as Forever Children.
What I notice is that a lot of these ideas of corruption in youth are feminized in a way that evokes motherhood, but I also notice that many people blur the lines between women or anybody forced into or expected to be women and children so that they are as one.
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ganondoodle · 3 months ago
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just to get this out again though
zelda lore is dead to me and i have never hated the sonau (zonai) more than now, shoved literally into everything, all the way into skyward sword, if that is even canon still
i hate this stupid ass book (masterworks 2.0) before its even out, if that is whats on no more than 4 pages (-take it with a grain of salt, just repeating what i have seen- hylia made the stupid magic pebbles and gave them the sonau, they lived since skyward sword at least, possible triforce and skyward sword retcon, totk gan being the literal first gan(?) and rauru being the literal first king of hyrule(???) and also the gerudo having been their own established COUNTRY, thus making raurus goal to take them over too even WORSE together with how ganondorf is meant to be seen, AND it possibly meaning that totks past was actually that far back to the literal beginiing of the timeline even though it looks 1to1 like botw even which SUCKS on more ways than one- (edit: ALSO NONE of botw seemed to lead up to anything like that, totk was supposed to a DLC and it shows and yet they do this with its lore????the fuck are they smokin?? botw was a neat like soft reboot that leads to like, a new kind of zelda without changing the past, then they do THIS literally brute force it back to the literal start?? as if totk couldnt get more seperate from botw) ) what else are they gonna fuck with on the lot of other pages, i cant WAIT to find out!
they can shove their weird sonau obsession elsewhere, didnt think my hatred for totk could get even worse, id have happily locked it away and out of my memory as possible at some point but i guess you cant escape it anywhere bc they are literally everywhere apparently weehooo!
(my franchise now)
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theplantbish · 1 year ago
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Me, as I'm about to start playing coral island: I don't know who I'm going to marry in this game. Mark caught my attention right away but I want to get to know the characters better before I make my decision, maybe I'll like someone more than him :)
Me, three seconds into the game, running around the island: WHERE IS HE? WHERE'S MARK? BRING ME MY FUTURE HUSBAND!!
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fallenbhaalspawn · 2 months ago
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one of the things about Orin that fascinates me is how she definitely is a dedicated bhaalist, but not nearly as dedicated to bhaal and how that's shown in a bunch of little (many unintentional) ways! her outfit being red instead of the traditional bhaalist black (or that weird bronze/gold some bhaalist armor gets), her title of the Red given to her not by bhaal nor fellow bhaalists, but by her cognate doppelgangers, the jewelry she shares with her mother but is worn by no other bhaalists, etc.
even before she says "I did all this for [Sarevok]!" and finding her Helena's corpse in Orin's room even after her mother attempted to kill her, a fact which she is clearly and justifiably caught up in, you can still see the breadcrumbs leading to the fact she is primarily driven by her more direct familial connections instead of her god
#how much she is aware of this is of course a matter for debate but i lean towards it being an unconscious thing#do i think bg3 intended her outfit being red as an allusion to this? no. but i am choosing to interpret it that way anyway#this is why despite not liking her outfit like at all i do think her outfit shoul still be red#(also it would be a shame to have a character called the red and not dress her in red)#(...or white i suppose but that wouldnt work too well with the bhaal theming and wouldnt be as striking in a video game medium)#orin the red#i realize this is all likely obvious stuff i just like talking about my girl okay.#not mentioned in the post but i also think this applies to *some* of her values as well#bhaal is not exactly object to incest but the revelation of her birth is still deeply horrifying and worldshaking to her#(granted! so is sarevok ordering helena to kill her but i got the impression that was more due to him claiming he supported her—#—and not telling her about his involvment in the biggest betrayal of her life)#and given her title she evidently spent some time among doppelgangers/changlings*—i wonder how much?#*yeah i know doppelgangers and changlings arent the same thing but alas. i do not think larian is.#bg#01#anyway tldr: fuck everyone else larian tell me more about orin's childhood. please. please ple#also tell me iron throne opinions. there is NO WAY she is not even a little pissed at gortash for using that right. right.#incest mention#(in the tags)
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princescar · 3 months ago
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The Milk Carton is going into my Mukuro playlists
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thebeastunleashed · 10 months ago
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aroace-number-eight · 9 months ago
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Do you think John was ever allowed to keep mementos of each place he and Henri moved to, because he knew his time in each home was never going to be permanent, so he tries to take a bit of home with him wherever he goes
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purpurussy · 4 months ago
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#tw suicide#idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT#i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone#and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess#but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm#but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing#hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this 😭#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse#to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house#and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like#to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age#but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me#also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently#tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me#i thought it was a “let's live together and get a cat one day” relationship#but now i feel like for them. it was just a “sex and video games” type situation#i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself#and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons#most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks#idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear#this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly#sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point#and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have#the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona#so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem#anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope
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july-19th-club · 11 months ago
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like somewhere in me the wires between 'excitement' and 'dread' got mixed up and now they feel exactly the same and i cant enjoy stuff without taking a dozen steps to reassure myself that something bad is NOT happening and it's all fine we're just going to the movie theater to have a popped corn and see a big screen. it's ridiculous. it's outrageous. it's unconscionable
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misspickman · 6 months ago
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Actually so evil of bg3 to have the emperor be referred to with it/its pronouns only to do the big reveal and make it a him again
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