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I want sleep. Itâs almost 6 am
#i guess itâd help if I actually put the phone down#hmm.#ignore or donât iâm not the boss of you#sleep is a construct#(I need 12 hours or I donât function)#⊠but lately itâs been the more the better#I wanna take a forever nap#đȘ alas#⊠would also like to be cuddled to sleep like just once in my life#but I also donât want to be touched. so thatâs fun#and I canât tell if itâs sensory/overstimulation issues#or if iâve built it up so much in my head that itâs like - ack! no touch đ
đŒ#OR itâs been so long that thatâs started to affect me#(iâve also wondered if itâs trauma but like - I have no memory of being touched withouf wanting to be touched; and have had it be traumatic#)#so if it is trauma related itâs something that I donât remember; which to be fair w how much weed I smoke now đ„Ž#but like the chances of that are super low? âcause I havenât been in precarious situations#and I just - I dunno.#autism maybe. probably#⊠that tag has absolutely NOTHING to do with the original post#weird how that happens#thatâs the adhd đ#i need to go to bed#before I start ranting about the heat crisis and global warming#đ
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class swap design masterpost for convenience (from top to bottom: bard!riz, cleric!gorgug, sorcerer!kristen, barbarian!fig, artificer!adaine, and rogue!fabian)
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhfy#fhsy#fhjy#riz gukgak#gorgug thistlespring#kristen applebees#figueroth faeth#adaine abernant#fabian seacaster#my class swap stuff! oh yeah I think I got a tag for that I'll call that#fh class quangle#gna slowly go back and get that tag on relevant posts too. for organization's sake#even tho I didnt really intend this blog to be that kinda blog lmao. we were all just gonna be out here dealin with that at our own pace#anyways uh! they! u know all the lore for the designs already I put em in tags. but otherwise this also collects like the#color keys kind of for these. mostly the things that change between designs#doing this did make me realise half of these are a Lot more consistent in color keys than the other half lol#like kristen's palette stays pretty much the same. and fabian's. the hit's mostly in the construction#a lot of this is overall like an exercise in remembering what high schoolers would actually wear and how to work in Costume pieces#on this point at least I straight up have No relevant recollection lmao all the basic education establishments I went to have uniforms#and outside of school I was. well kind of a shorts and tee guy. so#on that topic I feel like fabian's is the furthest stretch lmao. like if a guy in high school wears the same bright yellow raincoat#to school every day that's like. people would Not like that guy. fabian really is saved by being cute and a rogue#he will still have stans when he's deep in his fishing arc in junior year he's the manic pixie dream bf#anyways uh. things to do! stuff to get done. sleep first tho. have a good night lads#I have not caught new nsbu yet! seems I mostly catch them like two to three days late nowadays.#so please uhh. don't reply on my posts with nsbu spoilers? we are all excited and having fun but that's rude#ok thank u. signing off for the day have a good night#!!
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from the trailblazer's perspective:
we met some weird guy who wears a statue on his head, who was kind of a dick to us, but then we went on a little entomological field trip where he was oddly encouraging. surprisingly nice to us afterward for all that he literally interrogated us first. but herta runs around as a doll and we're plenty weird ourselves, so dr. ratio is whatever, i guess. we probably think of him as "that weirdo who was on the herta space station once," which is an association i'm sure he'd hate - but hey, at least we don't call him "scholar king."
from the trailblazer's perspective:
we met some flashy IPC guy because we accidentally held him up in line at the hotel check-in, himeko tried to negotiate and it turns out he's a professional cutthroat negotiator, but it all worked out and he gave us his fancy room. he also loomed over us with freaky glowing eyes and maybe threatened us, but it was kinda vague and it's not like he really hurt us. well... until he did. the trailblazer gets the opportunity to be verbally sore about that, but the fight didn't really feel like cocolia, like phantylia; like aventurine had gone mad and wanted to take over and/or destroy the world. his grandstanding didn't make any sense to us at the time, though, and fighting him sucked ass. but we lived and - as we found out eventually - so did he.
then the trailblazer boards the radiant feldspar, and we see aventurine's hologram talking with ...boothill? okay. who explicitly says they're working out some kind of shady underhanded deal to find oswaldo schneider which, subtlety thy name is not boothill, but that's none of our business i guess. but aventurine's there(-ish) and alive and not cackling mad, which is an improvement.
then we go into the next room over and see that herta space station weirdo, dr. ratio.
huh???
and the first thing he says to us is "no wonder that gambler likes you so much."
huh???????
everything about this is news to the trailblazer. since when is dr. ratio not only on penacony, but in the dreamscape, aboard the exclusive invitation-only dream cruise ship? since when does he not only know of aventurine, but was apparently on this mission with him? since when does aventurine like us??? we just got done mutually trying to kill each other! his hologram didn't seem sore about it, which is great for us, but doesn't exactly translate into "like!"
why are we hearing this from him and not aventurine? why does he know aventurine's thoughts on us in the first place?
dr. ratio really just shows up, yaps about aventurine unprompted, recommends us reading material, complains about the crowd and then is like "k i'm done here. ur dismissed."
the trailblazer had bigger things to think about but i, the player, do not. the fandom at large may feel like 2.3 fell flat, but the fall of the roman empire is still within the wheelhouse of my roman empire. i never left the radiant feldspar. i am still aboard this fucking ship.
#do u ever think about how baffling and incongruous these two must look to the trailblazer and go a little insane abt it#they may have woken from their dreams but perhaps i the player am caught in ena's dream being served ratiorine food forever#âthen wake to weep?â no. i shall simply sleep đ€#ratio's still on the ship with me too đ if i just never accidentally press F near him and screwllum he'll stay here till EOS đ#sidenote: the trailblazer probably shouldn't have immediately known that ratio's âthat gamblerâ was referring to aventurine specifically#but i'll forgive a peephole thru an otherwise well-constructed 4th wall in the name of gay shipping#hsr meta#hsr#aventurine#ratio#ratiorine#trailblazer#penacony spoilers#also this is NOT what this post was supposed to be about when i started typing it. penacony just Does That to me#merry yaoimas & happy final victor anniversary#the only holidays i celebrate
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you guys remember when house wanted to move into wilsonâs spare bedroom (amber shrine) and the way he chose to communicate this was by jerking off on his couch when he knew wilson would catch him. iâm seriously asking. are they normal about anything
#I want a permanent room in your home#which also happens to be the room where you and your dead gf used to sleep#I think Iâll masturbate about it#I fucking hate them aksbdhajjsbsj#house md#hilson#house/wilson#greg house#gregory house#james wilson#the worst part is#he kept his hand under the blanket all through the interaction#something something men will construct intricate rituals in order to relieve the seriousness of asking for further commitment#while also being able to look their bff in the eyes while their hand is on their dick
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Thinking about how in Moushwashing we all fucking hate Jimmy which is correct and valid and also find fault in Curly who was complicit in allowing Jimmy to cause pain BUT donât forget the true villain in the game, the one that will never face responsibility, is Pony Express. Because all it took for Jimmy to steer the ship into an asteroid was a key that turned off autopilot from an unlocked container. That is the fault of Pony Express. The ultimate fault lies in a company that made it so that any one malicious bad actor can doom a ship.
This company deliberately placed all the responsibility on one person, the captain, so that it could appear blameless. And because of that the ultimate failure to take responsibility lies with the company itself.
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing spoilers#Iâve watched to many construction failure documentaries does it show?#imagine if the company installed locks in the sleeping quarters
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Jack has no sense of personal space, especially with love interests close friends
#hes practically a sleep paralysis demon#i drew this so fast im sorry if it looks weird LMAO#also this is the first time ive drawn hair like jack's so if yall have any constructive criticism id like to hear it!#ticcijack#ticci toby#eyeless jack#toby rogers#toby rogers fanart#eyeless jack fanart#jack nyras#jack nyras fanart#creepypasta
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late shift
Shuttle for Mars is departing now. Please keep hands, feet, tails, and other appendages clear of the yellow line.
âNice, finally get off work on time for once! Man is it empty, way less busy than the 5:45 oneâŠ
Are they sleeping? Please tell me theyâre sleepingâŠâ
âSnnrkâŠâ
âOh good they are, oooh lots of empty seats next to them! Nice.â
The young human sits across the large figure and looks around.
âWonder why everyone else is sitting so far away from this guy? Heâs not that much scarier than a AlteauhâŠOH! Heâs an Orc! An actual Orc, oh this is so cool! Wait. Calm down, control yourself. Orcâs are people too, not some exotic animal in a zooâŠ.heâs sooo cool looking tho!â
The human smiles and takes out their headphones and listens to some music and take in the view they see through the shuttleâs windows. From time to time they peek at the orc, canât helping themselves from people-watching him.
Like what most humans imagined, he was huge. Easily more than 7 feet tall, with large calloused hands bigger than their head. He had large tusks but unlike the stereotypes he was well trimmed with well relatively kept hair. It would have neater had there not been dust in it. The orc wore dirty cloths and work boots. Beside them what looked like a tool box and bag.
âMust be a construction worker or works in a tradeâ they mused
âPoor guy, heâs gotta be exhausted to sleep here. At least he gets to go home now.â
The shuttle shakes and with it so does the sleeping giant. Rocking side to side.
'That's not good.' They nervously slide off their headphones.
The turbulence increases until the sleeping orc leans too far and starts fall face first off his seat.
âOH SHIT!â Diving to their knees they manage to catch his head and shoulders.
âMm?â
âYou okay?â Damn he's heavy!
âMmmâŠsorry.â Rubbing the sleep from his eyes he slowly got back into his seat, the turbulence now gone.
âNo worries, I just didnât want you to hit your head.â
âHeh, wouldn't be the first time Iâve done it.â
after rubbing his eyes a bit more and a crack of the neck he looks at them, brain finally working to some degree.
ââŠwait. You caught me?â
âUh-huhâ
âBut youâre so small! Are you hurt?â
âYou're not the first sleeping giant Iâve caught. Iâm alright.â
âI am so sorry for that. I just finished working a 12 hour shift fixing the 1st and 3rd engine rooms and couldnât help myself from dozing off.â
They whistle. â12 hours? No wonder youâre tired! If I were you Iâd be in a coma.â
âAh but surely you have a difficult job yourself. How else would you be able to catch me?â
âNo, nothing like yours! I just work at a youngling centre.â
âThe one on the ship?â
âThatâs the one.â
â...YOUR ONE OF THE BRAVE WARRIORS WHO RISKED THEIR LIVES TO PROTECT THE CHILDREN??!â
ââŠyouâve heard of us?â
âEvery orc and warrior worth their blade knows of your valiant deeds!! Tell me, what is your name??â
âKim, uh and you are?â
âFenrir. It is truly an honor to meet someone of your bravery and intelligence."
"Likewise! I've heard that the orc species are a true warrior race."
For the rest of the trip the two talked. Kim sharing how her and Max built such a safe room in the centre, which lead to the two realizing how similar each other's planets are.
"You have wind whirlpools as well? I thought they only existed on Bantor!"
"Well we call them hurricanes and tornadoes but yeah. Do you guys have hail?"
"Not where I grew up but nearby farther up they get a week or two of light hail showers during the fall. What about animals? Do you have reptiles bigger than an adult with large teeth and live in rivers? We call them darthrang."
"Oh we call them crocodiles!"
"Amazing! To think that your species live in a world much like mine!"
When the shuttle finally reached it's destination the two went their separate ways. A few days later they meet again, this time on the later shuttle. They sit and talk and create a routine of sorts where they became each others travelling companion for the trip to Mars.
One day however, Fenrir stopped coming. The human was saddened as she enjoyed his company but was soon surprised when seeing him at the centre.
"Kim! I've been transferred to stay on the ship so I won't be taking the shuttle to Mars anymore."
"Oh...well, as you know I only go home at the end of the week so maybe we can hang out now. Like eat lunch together or have a drink after work...or something like that!"
"Actually we'll be seeing each other everyday now. But if you don't get sick of me then yes, lets each lunch together."
"Great! But why will I be seeing you everyday?"
"Because after telling my family about you and the centre they've enrolled my nieces and nephews and younger siblings here...and I offered to drop them off and pick them up."
It was then that Kim noticed the dozen of orc children hiding behind Fenrir. The tallest and what looked the eldest of them stepped forward.
"Hello, I am Athea, uncle Fenrir said your one of the ones who saved the centre."
"Yes, my name is Kim. It's great to meet you AtheaaAA!" The orc girl pulled the human into a tight hug, lifting the adult woman off of her feet.
"Thank you for saving Nova." she mumbled into her chest.
'Ah, the Captain's daughter' Kim thought. "I was just doing what any teacher would do."
After a moment the human was put down and lead the children into the centre. The day went well. Fenrir's young family members were quickly won over by the humans, first with the saving of the centre, then with how they understood how wonderful their planet was rather than terrifying or deadly.
They were also greatly intrigued by how such a small species could survive in a planet that was thought to only be habitable to orcs.
"How can you carry us?" asked Thor, one of Fenrir's youngest brothers. "We're much bigger than a human child."
"Yeah but your not bigger than my cousins who are teenagers. Also just last month I had like 10 kids climbing on me. Two were tighalaxes."
"Your joking!"
...
"It that tumpon?!"
"Hm? We call it maafe, but it's also known as peanut stew, do you want some? It doesn't have any meat in it though."
"Guys Max has tumpon!! Can you tell Fenrir where we can buy the ingredients?"
"Of course. Finally I'll finish what gran gave me without having to gain 10 pounds."
And thus the first day ended on a high note! Now if only Kim could figure out why the children looked at her and nodded while talking to Fenrir...
So this based off of a post by @llamagoddessofficial about humans meeting actual space orcs. Sadly I can't find the actual post. but yeah, here u go, space orc and human meet cute
#the adventures of kim and max running a space child centre#space orcs#humans are space orcs#humans in space#the beginning is something that actually happened to me#caught a sleeping construction worker who I sat across from on the bus when heading home from work#thankfully he was just a little taller than me and not a giant like fenrir#also my brother went through a phase of randomly doing trust falls in front of me so I am experienced in randomly having to catch people
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Hinao found a reliable construction company for her cafe! She'll be back on her feet in no time!
(pls Hokazono...I beg...bring my girl back...plus bring back Uruha...cause why not...)
#kagurabachi#kagurabachi hinao#hinao#kagurabachi fanart#bachiart#majima goro#yakuza majima#majima construction#This has honestly been in my head for a bit#Though I wouldn't be surprised if I wasn't the first#Just wanted to draw Hinao#I mean#can you blame me#Anyways I'm going to sleep#Majima drawing looks like shiz but idc#GOOD NIGHT
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â love makes you do strange things sometimes
#factorio#digital art#okay but I got to the point in game where you have construction bots and just a look at them being busy with flying and helping and placing#and sleeping in their little cozy roboports or even personal roboport I want to place plushies for them in there and read them goodnight sto#ries I am totally normal about my construction bots okay
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Sweet torture ft. Zhongli + fem!reader
cw/tags: bondage/shibari, muzzle, oral sex (m!receiver), dom/sub dynamics, reader doms in this one ayyy, sub!zhongli, TEASING lots of it, masturbation, sex toy, improper use of geo (lmao).
notes: What did I just write?? We just don't know. I am sorry I saw one (1) fanart of Zhongli wearing a muzzle and went b a l l i s c t i c. Also.... dom!reader hella. This is so filthy and I'm so sleepy.....
It was torture. You were torturing him.
Zhongli groans, muscles tense as he feels your fingers gently stroking his member. The sudden touch makes him jerk, but the intricate ropework laced around his arms holds him nicely to prevent any more movements and instead keeping them tied at his back.
He couldn't touch you, kiss you, hold you...
A sweet yet deliciously devilish laughter comes out of your lips.
And then you lean down and start giving small kitten licks to his dripping cockhead before your hot, wet mouth starts slowly enveloping him, bobbing your head with lewd wet noises and purposefully drooling all over him. Messy. Obscene. Painfully driving him mad with lust.
âDarling, please.â He moans hoarsely.
You pull back with a smirk âHmm? Are you about to break your own contract? My dearest Zhongli?â
He huffs and growls, shaking his head.
As easily as he could break out of these ârestrainsâ he had made a deal with you, so all he could do was toss his head back and endure.
And oh⊠you could definitely see the appeal of being the one in control.
The lord of Geo. The mighty Prime of the Adepti. Bound and muzzled like a feral beast. Squirming under your touch.
You kiss down along the side of his impressive cock, lightly tracing a vein with your tongue and making it twitch. âHmmm⊠seems like youâre all ready for me.â Zhongli gasps as your fingers follow the fine trail of hair from his bellybutton down, teasingly. âItâs my turn.â
For a moment he thinks the torture is over and youâre satisfied with your small game. Youâll release his arms, or at least take off the horrible muzzle (âno biting tonight, dearest.â) and allow him to eat you out to his heartâs content.
How wrong he was.
Zhongliâs eyes widen then he scowls and jerks into his restrains again, shuffling on the bed when he sees you pull out one of your toys. He glares at you. You wouldnât.
You smirk in response. Watch me.
âRelaxâŠâ You smile, sickly sweet. Leaning back onto a pillow and spreading your legs. âJust enjoy the show, darling.â
You start by teasing your entrance, gently, slowly. Caressing and pinching at your clit and slowly easing the oiled tip of the object into you. A rather special geo construct of Zhongliâs own creation. Sweet irony.
âHmmmmâŠAhâŠâ
He snarls, glaring at the offending object as you slowly feed the fake cock into your pussy, inch by inch stuffing you as you let out a quiet moan. He knows you wouldnât be satisfied with such a⊠crude and lacking replacement, no. He knows you ached for him, his warmth and thickness that could fill you so much more, satisfy you so much better.
You bite your lip and whine as it bottoms out.
âThis one is⊠hah⊠rather accurate huh? ⊠hng!â You mewl, squeezing your eyes shut as you start pulling it out only to push back in. âA-ah- fu-!â
He tries to keep calm. By Celestia, he tries. But the sight of you, naked and sweaty, presenting yourself so freely and displaying your pleasure, makes it excruciatingly difficult. You rock your hips and moan his name, high-pitched. Getting more and more used to the intrusion and thus increasing the speed.
âZ-Zhongli, baobeiâ You keen. âWouldnât you be a dear and apply a bit of resonance?â
A growl. âI would rather have you myself, my love.â
You let out a breathless chuckle. âOf course. But donât you want to see me come undone first? We do have a contract and for now you have to do as I sa-a-y Ah! Oh fuck-!â
You bite your lip, whining, eyes rolling back and hips moving on their own when the geo construct indeed starts buzzing low on your hand and inside your pussy. The sensation drives you up to the edge of that high, delicious simmering heat all over your body and pooling at your navel. Feel so good, so good-
âZhongli, Zhongli, Zhongli-â Â Â
You come with a cry of his name as your body arches away from the mattress, high-strung with pleasure, free hand clawing at the sheets. For a few seconds you lie there basking in the afterglow, chest falling and rising rapidly until you sit up and slowly pull the toy out, shuddering at the wet squelch.
Your gaze sets on the man in front of you, looking absolutely pent-up with sexual frustration. Cock pressed up hard against his abs and smearing tacky precum everywhere.
You scoot up to him with a playful smile, eyes half-lidded as you sit upon his lap. You brush your hand down before bringing it back to run a slick-covered finger over the muzzle, the metal turning shiny and no doubt getting impregnated with the scent of your arousal. You see him open his mouth and pant slightly, sharp fangs on display, nostrils flared, eyes half-lidded and pupils brown wide as he chases the path your finger makes.
Oh, he is absolutely drunk on you.
You place your hands at his shoulders for leverage and this time (finally!) slowly envelop his cock with your warm pussy.
 âNowâs your turnâŠâ
#genshin smut#zhongli smut#zhongli x reader#zhongli x you#genshin x reader#genshin x you#genshin imagines#genshin impact imagines#genshin impact smut#crys writes#fem reader#dom reader#I guess??#sub zhongli#god what a tag#pls don't look at me do not perceive me#I just wanted to write this man being treated like a feral animal with a muzzle and tied up //pokes fingers together shyly#I sure have fun with geo constructs don't I?#bless the lord of geo#bye imma go hide forever (sleep actually) bc what is this
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Late April Fools' comic of the ADA's celebrations!
Yeah Dazai got his ass beat after this lmao
#read: he had to sleep on the couch#also catboy atsushi!!!!!#i love my son so much#i firmly believe that atsushi should get to be a catboy#i am not taking constructive criticism in regards to this topic#also the tanizaki thing is just me realizing halfway through that I forgot him and just throwing some bullshit together#my art#fan art#digital art#art#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs kyouka#kyouka izumi#izumi kyouka#kenji miyazawa#ranpo edogawa#nakahara chuuya#chuuya nakahara#atsushi nakajima#bsd atsushi#osamu dazai#dazai osamu#yosano akiko#yosano bsd#april fools#comic#soukoku#skk
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Good Morning? January 2018
#sunshine#hope#ray of hope#ray of sun#sunray#light#sun ray#canary wharf#under construction#city never sleeps#urban#city#drama in the sky#drama#clouds#moody#despair#sunrise#sunset#sunrise or sunset#rising or setting#urban sunrise#urban sunset
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Rough Character Animation I did on top of Ashe Jacobsonâs storyboard! I was super excited to try my hand at it and I hope I did this amazing storyboard justiceđ„ș
#I can now draw Nezha and Wukong in my SLEEP#this thing is about 600 frames and I had to adjust each drawing for the camera movements#I probably wonât clean it up tbh#that takes a lot of time that I donât have#but Iâm pretty happy with where it is right now#ANYWAY WORKED HARD ON THIS HOPE YALL LIKE IT#If anyone has constructive criticism Iâd love to hear it!!#CONSTRUCTIVE PEOPLE!!! CONSTRUCTIVE.#sun wukong#lmk nezha#lego monkie kid#lmk#my art#my animation#<- I feel so offical omg
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i'm getting pretty used to taking the same 16ish hour train route with multiple train changes by now, and while the trains are the same, the stations where to make the switches varies a little bit every time for whatever inscrutable reasons. i do not question the railway gods. usually. i want to question them a little bit about why i have to be awake at 5am instead of getting to stay cozy on the sleepytrain all the way to its end station as usual...
#at least this station has an open indoor section where i can wait for the next train in an hour......#I didn't dare sleep too much bc i was worried about missing my stop:(((#maybe it was just a quirk of me choosing the cheapest possible tickets or smth#or there's some construction work somewhere that jumbles up the usual schedule#but the most probable reason is to torture me specifically of course
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That I Would Be Good [3/5]
Whatever It's Worth
âFor whatever itâs worth, I think it always looks fine. I think you fuss over it too damn much, but regardless⊠itâs⊠fine. You always look fine to me. Youâd look fine even if you didnât have any hair at all.â
A small smile blooms across your features as his words sink in. âThatâs⊠thatâs the closest thing to a compliment youâve ever given me, Sun.â
You turn and he lets the ends of your hair slip from his hands, looking a bit caught off guard at your sudden motion. You ignore his false eyes and look directly into the camera in the center of his screen. âThank you.â
He remains frozen for a moment before his display dims to black and he turns, quickly scrubbing the worst remnants of conditioner off of his hands and onto a nearby towel. âI think your hair has been conditioned enough.â
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In This Chapter
Sun attempts some level-headed honesty with his hands in your hair, and Moon gets a little overzealous when it comes to his unofficial position as Household Chef.
Pairing:Â Sun x Moon x Reader
Word Count:Â 4,779
Contains:Â [AU - Real World | Sentient AI/Automatons | Personality Swap] [implied EDNOS] [invasion of privacy] [implication of past self-harming behavior] [Reader has their period (not graphically described)] [discussion of menstruation] [discussion of various foods and nutrition] [one (1) use of a fem gendered term for Reader] [discussion and feelings of dysphoria] [eating]
A/Ns: This is a songfic. Lyrics and title are from âThat I Would Be Goodâ by Alanis Morissette.
This fic is part of my AU â[Not] Made by Designâ, the full series can be found here.
Links to other parts of this fic:Â [Ch.1]Â [Ch.2] [Ch.3 (you are here)] [Ch.4] [Ch.5]
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth.
After rinsing the remainder of lightly-tinted soap suds out of your hair, off of your body, and down the drain, you bend down to turn the shower off. Gently squeezing the worst of the water out of your locks, you straighten back up and pull the shower door aside.
Then you shout.
âSUN! What the fuck are you doing?!â
You quickly step behind the blurry frosted glass of the shower door, leaving only your head peeking around the edge. You shiver in the relatively cold air that rushes to fill the shower stall as you await an answer. The solar automaton is currently leaning against the opposite wall, arms crossed and casual as ever, monitor flipped around 180 degrees in what you assume was meant to be a silent assurance that he wasnât watching you.
âI have a question.â
Your eyes pinch closed and your features scrunch up in frustration, silently asking any higher power out there to grant you the patience to deal with this nonsense. âAnd it couldnât wait until I got dressed?â
He shrugs. âI donât see why it would need to.â
You silently press your forehead against the cool metal of the shower doorâs frame.
ââŠAre you decent yet or must I continue admiring the grout between the tiles on this wall behind me?â
You huff, reaching out of the shower and grabbing your bathrobe off of its designated hook. âJust one⊠damn secondâŠâ You cinch the rope around your waist and step gingerly out onto the bath mat. âOkay, Iâm âdecent.â Nowâpray tellâwhat do you need to ask me?â
He leans his upper body away from the wall, rays retracting to give himself enough clearance to flip his monitor around. His rays slide back out in tandem after he turns his head to face you, and he rests his shoulders against the wall once more. âI was wondering why youâve taken three showers today.â
You stand there, blinking in disbelief. âThatâs it?â
âYes. Itâs⊠concerning. I wanted to make sure you werenât up to any⊠harmful behaviors in here while left unsupervised.â
You roll your eyes. ââLeft unsupervisedâŠâ What is this, some kind of inpatient program? Christ, Sun, this is my house! Canât I catch a break?â
You throw your arms up in frustration, and he doesnât answer you immediately. It isnât until you deflate, dropping your exaggerated expression and bringing a hand up to pinch the bridge of your nose that he finally responds in a quieter tone. âYou⊠concern me. I donât know what to do.â
You sigh, trying to reign in your frustration.
Sometimes you forget that he has a lot less experience with being a person than you do.
You try to cut him some slack. âSun, I appreciate the concern over my wellbeing. But I promise you, the only destructive behavior going on in this bathroom today is the damage I'm doing to my hair.â
Heâs quiet, processing your words for a moment before he announces an observation. âItâs a lighter shade than it was this morning.â
You nod. âI sure hope it is. Iâve been in here washing the hell out of it with this fading treatment, trying to get the color I wanted.â
His expression is something between confused and disapproving. âYou arenât supposed to do that. Itâs bad for your hair to wash it so much.â
You turn to the mirror and toy with your hair, dismissing him. âYeah, yeah. Jeez, who are you, my hairdresser?â
He steps into view beside you in the mirror, leaning in closer to examine your hair. âMaybe if youâd gone to one instead of DIY-ing it youâd have gotten the color you wanted.â
You lock eyes with his reflection for a long moment. ââŠTouchĂ©.â
He seems pleased enough with your response, stepping back a bit and watching you futz with your hair in the mirror.
âHave your concerns been quelled now, orâŠ?â
ââŠI suppose.â He replies, making no move to exit the bathroom.
ââŠWell then are you gonna just stand there and watch me apply my leave-in conditioner or what?â
He ignores your question, leaning in close to you again. Pinching the end of a damp lock of hair between the pads of his fingers, he hums his dissent. âYou really need to quit fucking with your hair if you want to still have any left.â
You canât help but laugh. âGoodness, the way you worded that almost sounds like a threat!â
His eyes meet yours in the mirror again and he smirks. âNo⊠just a warning.â
He drags the tail end of your hair along the palm of his opposite hand, like idly toying with a paintbrush. âYouâre always awfully concerned about the appearance of your hair.â
You cock a brow up at that. âAre you sure that isnât a threat, Sun?â
A noise escapes him: half-scoff, half-laugh, and he sounds oddly genuine when he reassures you. âItâs not. I just⊠noticed.â
He releases your hair and you can finally lean far enough away to open the cabinet. âMhm. What donât you notice.â
He ignores your comment in favor of hitting you with another set of sudden left-field questions. âAre you afraid of getting older? Or are you afraid of losing control.â
Your hand halts, hovering halfway toward retrieving the conditioner from the cabinet, and drops back down to your side as you turn to face him. âWhat?â
âIâve learned that some people dye their hair because they want to appear younger than they are. Iâve also seen many posts online where people describe making drastic changes to their hair while going through something difficult in their life. The concept appears in a number of song lyrics too. It seems to me like an attempt at gaining a sense of control.â
The fun thing about living with sentient, learning AI is that theyâre always asking questions and compiling information about the world around them.
The not-so-fun thing about living with sentient, learning AI is that theyâre always asking questions and compiling information about the world around them.
Youâd liken it to having a fully grown adult with the curiosity and learning capacity of a child, if you didnât want to feel even weirder about your âCreator x Creationâ dynamic than you already do sometimes.
âWhile I⊠appreciate your attempts to psychoanalyze me based on my hair-dyeing habits, I regret to inform you that itâs neither of those things for me, Sunny.â You consider it a moment more, and add on. ââŠAs far as Iâm aware, at least.â
His head tilts to the side a bit. âYou donât have to patronize me.â
âI⊠wasnât?â
âYou used that name for me. âSunny.â It made your statement sound⊠patronizing.â
Another fun thing about living with sentient, learning AI is that you get to clear up all sorts of little miscommunications.
âOh, no, IâI didnât mean it to sound like that. Iâm sorry, Sun. That wasnât my intention.â
He doesnât let it go so quickly. âBased on my calculations, a nickname like that tends to be used in one of three waysâpatronizing, dismissive, or affectionate. Care to clarify which one it was?â
You level him with an unamused stare. âNo, I donât care to clarify.â
You then turn to retrieve the conditioner from the cabinet, effectively shutting down that line of questioning. You grab the body lotion while youâre at it, and as you set your items down on the counter, you attempt to free yourself of your overly-curious bathroom companion. âUnless youâre waiting around to help me put this stuff in my hair, I'm afraid itâs time for you to go find something else to do for a little while, Sun.â
His response is⊠unexpected. âI⊠can help.â
What has gotten into this guy recently? Used to be you had to fight to get one nice word out of him and now here he is playing â20 Questionsâ and offering to condition your hair?
âI⊠didnât expect you to actuallyââ
âIf you didnât want me to offer then whyâd you ask?â
You squint at him, unamused. âSun, câmon, I know you grasp the concepts of sarcasm and rhetoric.â
Once again ignoring your statement, he pushes himself away from the wall and holds out his upturned palms in an open gesture of offering. âWould you like me to help or not?â
Youâre quite sure he expects you to turn him down, so you agree to his offer, if for no other reason than to subvert his expectations. âYou know what? Yeah, sure. Iâd love the help, Sunny.â
He freezes for a momentâprocessingâbut youâve gotta admit, he collects himself surprisingly fast, apparently feeling up to the challenge.
Once you explain how much of the product to use and how to apply it, you quickly find yourself staring into the mirror, watching Sun carefully and methodically work conditioner into your hair and wondering how you got here.
Eventually a question pops up and you break through his focused silence. âDoes it really look lighter than it did earlier today?â
ââŠYes. But if you want my honest opinion it looked just fine before you scrubbed the life out of it three times.â
You huff in surprise at his bluntness. âDamn, okay, tell me how you really feelâŠâ
âWhen have you ever known me to mince my words?â
âI know, I know. Itâs fine. I appreciate your honesty.â
Silence settles over the two of you for another few moments, but he eventually pipes back up. âFor whatever itâs worth, I think it always looks fine. I think you fuss over it too damn much, but regardless⊠itâs⊠fine. You always look fine to me. Youâd look fine even if you didnât have any hair at all.â
A small smile blooms across your features as his words sink in. âThatâs⊠thatâs the closest thing to a compliment youâve ever given me, Sun.â
You turn and he lets the ends of your hair slip from his hands, looking a bit caught off guard at your sudden motion. You ignore his false eyes and look directly into the camera in the center of his screen. âThank you.â
He remains frozen for a moment before his display dims to black and he turns, quickly scrubbing the worst remnants of conditioner off of his hands and onto a nearby towel. âI think your hair has been conditioned enough.â
Your tone quickly becomes teasing. âAww, is somebody flustered?â
He reaches for the doorknob. âItâs time for me to walk Zero. I trust you can moisturize the rest of yourself without my assistance.â
Quickly making his very smooth retreat, as your laughter subsides, youâre left there to apply your lotion in thoughtful silence.
That I would be great if I was no longer Queen.
âDoes this feel more like an âapple-cinnamonâ or âbanana-walnutâ kind of day?â
You release a soft sigh as you raise your head from where itâd been⊠briefly planted atop your crossed arms, and you lean back into your seat at the kitchen table. âYou really donât have to do every single thing for me, Moon.â
His monitor clicks, spinning a few degrees back and forth to accompany his playful rebuttal. âAnd leave me with no task to occupy these idle hands? Why, I feel like thatâd be just cruel.â The pout he wears doesnât do much to convince you, nor to ease the guilt you feel.
He can tell as much, and tries a more serious approach. âStar⊠youâre menstruating. From what I can tell, this is a more painful period than normal. Iâm sure in no small part due to the excess stress youâve been under this past month. You deserve to rest as much as possible right now.â
âI figured youâd be in favor of me getting up and moving around. Isnât that supposed to help in the long-run?â
He nods. âIt can. But it tends to help the most when stretching and physical activity is maintained throughout the entire monthly cycle, not just once youâre already bleeding and in pain.â
His explanation is straightforward, but soft spoken, everything in his tone and body language obviously trying not to offend, accuse, or criticize. âBesides, bugging you to exercise tends to fall more under Sunâs jurisdiction, and heâs had his reasons for prioritizing other aspects of your well-being this month.â
Speak of the devil, Moonâs other half strides into the kitchen with Zero trailing closely behind. He has no trouble falling into the conversation. âI can help you through some gentle stretches later today if youâd like, but I second the notion that you should rest right now. I donât need to hear any more groans and curses from you like I heard after you insisted on cleaning up the living room and prepping your own dinner last night.â
You rest your chin in your palm. âI âinsistedâ because I just⊠I feel like I put too much on you guys. You donât deserve to have to do all this shit for me.â
Sun scoffs, speaking with his back to you as he pulls open a cabinet door. âTrust me, youâre doing us all a favor by letting this one over here dote on you. I fear heâd go mad if there wasnât always some task he could busy himself with, and he seems to favor any task that falls under the realm of taking care of you.â He turns to face you, mug in hand. âNow, what do you want to drink?â
Youâd laugh at the juxtaposition of his words and his actions, but the deep pain of another cramp sets in and you weakly wave a hand in defeat. âJust some hot water, please.â He hums in confirmation and moves to grab the kettle. You turn your focus back to Moon. âIâll let you⊠appease your instincts. Itâs kinda my fault that youâve got âem in the first place.â
His expression brightens, round eyes curling into his signature crescents. âGood! Now, shall I list your options again?â
You shake your head and hum a negative, mulling it over for a moment as you take hold of the steaming mug of water that Sun quietly slides in front of you. âUhh⊠actually, can I just have it plain today?â
Moon smiles softly, head twisted back over his shoulder to look at you while he pulls a carton of dry oats from the pantry. âOf course, star. Would you like some sugar on it or do you want it truly plain?â
You shove aside the inner voice whispering to you about âempty caloriesâ. ââŠI guess a little brown sugar wouldnât hurt.â
Moon brightens a little at your answer. âGood choice! I hear that brown sugar gives it a maple syrup-y taste thanks to the molasses. Oh, that makes me think of pancakes! And waffles! And french toast! I should make one of those tomorrow. How does that sound?â
You smile at his growing excitement over tomorrowâs breakfast, in spite of the fact that he wonât even get to partake. Another cramp sets in as you respond and you try to keep the strain out of your voice. âThey all sound good, but I donât know if I can choose right nowâŠâ
He gently places a small pot of water on the stove, turning the burnerâs dial with practiced precision. âThatâs alright, thereâs no rush! Itâs just someâhehâfood for thought!â
Sun groans at the joke, and Moon defends it. âHey, noâthat was a good one!â
Zero noses at Sunâs hand, stealing his attention before he can begin to debate with Moon. As you passively watch him pull the dogâs breakfast from the fridge, a random thought occurs. âDo we still have any Ruffles left?â
Moon opens a different cabinet and shuffles a few bags around in his search. âWeeee⊠do!â
Youâre hesitant to request the odd combination, but your craving wins the inner battle. âCan I⊠have some of those too?â
âYou certainly can!â
Sun reaches past Moon to grab Zeroâs bowl from the dish rack, speaking beneath his mechanical breath. âSugar and salt, what a breakfast.â
âTheyâre fine choices!â Moon chipperly responds, the word âfineâ punctuated by a small smack to the back of Sunâs monitor.
Sunâs rays retract as he ducks down and steps back, distancing himself from Moonâs reach. âI never said they werenât.â He sets Zeroâs bowl on the counter with emphasis. âBut you might want to throw some sort of multivitamin in with that salty-sweet mix.â
âI always see to it that they meet their daily needs, Sun.â Moonâs voice rarely wavers from its amicable tone, but thereâs an undercurrent of finality to it now that quiets any further commentary from his other half.
As he stirs the simmering oats on the stove, his monitor turns to face you. âOh, speaking of! I was thinking about making you something with spinach and tofu for lunch. You could use the iron, and the magnesium might help to ease your cramps. Plus the vitamin C should help you absorb the iron, and- oh! I could add some wild rice, or potatoes. The additional B vitamins should help the magnesium, and they support progesterone prodââ The kitchen timer dings, stealing his attention and interrupting his ensuing nutritional ramble.
Twisting his head back around, he turns the burnerâs dial off. âAnywaysâpoint isâhow does that sound to you? I could cube the tofu and toss it into a spinach salad, I could slice and fry it and arrange it together on a sandwich, or I could even sautĂ© the spinach and make a tofu scramble!â
His excited discussion of all of your lunch options is a bit overwhelming to you, considering you havenât even conquered breakfast yet. Still, you bear in mind that heâs only trying to help, over-enthusiastic as he may be sometimes. âUhm⊠the sandwich sounds nice.â
âAlright! Then it shall be yours.â He moves to pass behind you, enroute to retrieve a bowl from the other side of the kitchen, wrapping an arm around your blanket-clad shoulders in a brief embrace. âAnything the Queen of the castle desires is hers upon command.â
You both giggle a bit at his playful expression, and Sun rolls his eyes, accompanied by a dramatic gagging sound. Zeroâs happy tail thwacks repeatedly against one leg of the kitchen table. All is well.
Except it isnât.
As Moon returns to the stove and Sun portions out Zeroâs meal, you struggle to fight back the feeling that what heâd just said didnât sit right.
It had nothing to do with his devotion to service and everything to do with the concept of you being âQueen.â All of this morningâs focus on your menstrual cycle, coupled with this âprincessâ treatment and compounded by his casual use of feminine terms for you, suddenly has you feeling more like a woman than you suppose youâd like to.
Trying to push the nagging uncomfortable feeling aside, you pull your phone from your sweatpants pocket. You attempt to distract yourself with a mindless scroll through your notifications as the pleasant smell of your breakfast fills the room.
After presenting Zero with her own breakfast, Sun takes a seat across from you at the small table. You can feel his analytical gaze on you, pointedly avoiding eye contact when you glance up from your phone to sip your water.
By the time Moon presents you with your breakfast, the feeling has done nothing but rapidly fester. You try to distract yourself with the meal, but not even the absurd sight of your requested potato chipsâon a plate, methodically arranged by size and laid atop one another in a spiralâis enough to rid you of it. You do your best to sound unbothered when you thank him, and he falters as he moves to step away from the table. âYouâre very welc-ome⊠Is, uh⊠everything okay, star?â
Sun doesnât beat around the bush. âSomethingâs wrong. Is the pain getting worse?â
Youâre quick to shake your head. âNo, no, itâs fine. Iâm fine. Just⊠thinking about something.â
Moonâs hand comes to rest on the back of the nearest empty chair. âWell⊠talking tends to help people sort their thoughts out, no? Weâre all ears if youâd like to get it off your chest.â
You hesitate and Sun straightens in his seat. âIf my presence is preventing you from opening up, I can leave the room.â
Your gaze flicks to him, brows knitted. âWhat? No, noâI⊠why would you think that?â
He shrugs. If the notion bothers him, he doesnât let it show. âIâm sure Moon is⊠the easier of the two of us to talk to. You seemed to be getting more uncomfortable the longer I sat here. Makes sense to me that maybe youâd rather me not hear about whateverâs going on.â
You start to feel a bit guilty that thatâs the conclusion he jumped to. âNo, Sun, thatâs not⊠I mean, okayâyeah, I could feel you watching me, but just about anyone gets uncomfortable when they know theyâre being watched. Your penchant for staring isnât⊠youâre not keeping me from opening up.â You look him directly in the eye. âThere isnât anything Iâd say to one of you that I wouldnât want the other to hear. I donât want either of you thinking that.â
Sunâs fingertips drum along the table and his faceplate clicks to the side. âOkay then, what is stopping you?â
You pull in a deep breath, internally debating whether itâs even worth explaining.
âYou⊠donât have to tell us, if you really donât want to.â
You give Moon a tired smile, opening your mouth only for a defeated sigh to fall out. âItâs⊠nothing, really. Stupid, even.â
Moon frowns. âDid one of us do or say something wrong?â
âNo⊠I meanânot really. Not intentionally! Itâs justâŠâ You groan, resting your forehead in your palms. âI feel uncomfortably⊠feminine. Today. For some reason.â
He nods slowly. âOhâŠkayâŠâ
You attempt to elaborate. âI know I donât talk about it much. You guys know I use She/They pronouns and thereâs no more explanation really required. But⊠I donât know. Something lately has just had me wishing I was more masculine. Orâat least more androgynous, I guess. And with all this focus on my period, andââ
Sun, the ever patient listener he is, cuts you off. âMenstruation is not inherently feminine. Any human can have periods if they have a uterus.â
You nod quickly. âYesâIâI agree, but youâve gotta take into account that thatâs a relatively new take on the concept. Itâs a good one, of course, but⊠a lot of people still associate having periods with being a woman. Itâs been so tied to femininity for so long, always seen as a âwomanâs issueâ that⊠it can be a difficult thing to un-internalize. Itâs a common cause of dysphoria in transmasc and nonbinary people.â
He listens intently, rays slowly circling his head as he considers your point. âRight⊠right. I see. That makes sense.â
You take a pause to sip your cooling drink and recall where you left off. âIt⊠honestly doesnât usually bother me this bad. I couldnât tell you whatâs different about this month, itâs just not sitting well with me. But I do appreciate knowing that you two donât see it as making me feminine. That does help. Itâs justâŠâ You shake your head. âUgh, this is so sillyâŠâ
Moon slowly pulls back on the chair heâs been holding onto, stepping around and gently taking a seat. âItâs not silly if itâs bothering you.â
Sun nods, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms. âHeâs right.â
You meet both of their gazes in turn with a small smile before casting your eyes back down to the table. âItâs not a big deal, though. It just⊠on top of already feeling very feminine, it sat with me wrong when you called me âQueenâ earlier. Thatâs⊠thatâs literally all!â You punctuate your confession with laughter, trying your best to make light of the issue.
Moonâs eyes brighten. âOh! Oh⊠oh goodness youâre right! I didnât evenâI didnât even thinkâŠâ
You raise a hand out toward him, quick to stop his unnecessary apologies. âItâs not your fault! I promise. You had no clue I was feeling⊠this way today, and I know you didnât mean anything by it. Iâm not upset with you, Iâm⊠honestly way more upset with myself that Iâm so bothered about it in the first place.â
Sun throws his opinion into the ring. âI donât think either of you are at fault. Moon didnât know you were feeling this way, and you canât really control when you feel this way.â
Moon nods and you follow suit. âYeah, I was hesitant to say anything because I didnât want to make a big deal out of it. I already feel like Iâm⊠hahââoverly-sensitiveâ right now anyways.â
Sunâs expression quickly shifts to disapproval. âOh, that stereotype can get fucked. You feel how you feel and thatâs that. Itâs just as real right now as it would be at any other point in your cycle.â
Your eyes widen at Sunâs insistent tone and Moon chuckles a bit at the sight. âI agree, star. And⊠I donât think that youâre making a âbig dealâ about it at all. Honestly, I think the best way to not make it a big deal is to not be afraid to tell us if we use a term for you that makes you uncomfortable. Iâd much rather you tell me than just try to ignore the feeling.â He reaches out to place a hand over yours. âWe know that your identity isnât set in stone. If thereâs ever something you want to be called, or something you donât want to be called, the best thing you can do is just let us know, okay?â
Unable to fight the affectionate smile that pulls at your cheeks, you flip your hand over to grab his properly, and squeeze. âOkay. Yeah, that⊠I can do that. Thank you for understanding.â
His faceplate contentedly clicks a few degrees to the right, his smile soft. âThank you for telling us.â
Feeling flustered and just a bit overwhelmed by how surprisingly smooth that went, you give his hand one more squeeze before pulling back to wrap it around your mug instead. You clear your throat as you do so, looking for something less intense to say. âI uh, I guess for now Iâd just like to stick to gender-neutral stuff, okay?â
Moon nods eagerly. âOf course! Easy-peasy. I can even remedy what I said earlier if youâd like!â Heâs muttering to himself before you can even tell him that thatâs not really necessary. âOhâuhm⊠hmmmâŠ. whatâs a good neutral alternative to âQueenââŠâ
Sun instantly starts listing suggestions. âMonarch. Ruler. Sovereign.â His rays spin a quick round, a tell that heâs taking his internal database search online for more information. ââCalnâ is apparently a monarch word based on the Q slash K sound of Queen and King, if that sounds better to your ear.â
He suddenly barks a laugh and your brows raise in interest. âWhat?â
He shakes his head dismissively, still chuckling. âNothing, just⊠Quora results. The questions some people pose are truly something.â
Moonâs interest is piqued. âWhatâd you find that was funny enough to make you laugh?â
Sunâs voice shifts to his âdefault humanâ impression. âIf Queen Elizabeth announced she was gender fluid, dot-dot-dotâŠâ
You stifle a laugh. âThatâs certainly one way to pose the question.â
âWhat's the rest say?â Moon asks.
Sun waves his hand in dismissal. âI donât know. The preview was humorous, but I wasnât compelled to follow the link to the full thing. Quora gives me a headache. Iâve moved on.â
Moon playfully pouts as Sun expands his list of suggestions. âExcellency. Majesty. Highness. Grace. Eminence. âŠQuing?⊠Oh, apparently âCalnâ is queer. Wait, do they mean queer created or queer exclusiveâŠâ
You interject before he spends the next hour falling down a rabbit hole of royal terms. âYou could go the meme-y route and call me Liege.â
Moonâs attention shifts back toward you. âIs that one gender neutral?â
âI⊠think so?â You shrug. âSounds neutral enough to me. Though I honestly wouldnât mind a bit of masculinity to counterbalance the way Iâm⊠feeling right now.â
He nods sagely as Sunâs list of suggestions continues to grow, getting more and more obscure as he delves further and further into his search.
You canât help but laugh a bit as you dig a spoon into your oats, beginning to breathe easier with the reminder that youâre in very considerate company.
A/N: Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed. Iâll be back in a few days with part 4! You can also find my notes and commentary on this fic right here on Ao3. Links to the playlist and moodboard for [N]MbD can be found on this blogâs pinned post, as well as in the series notes on Ao3. Image Sources: x - x - x
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prayers for my husband pls we just took the train to the second city of our honeymoon and now he seems to be coming down with an illness
#and there is VERY LOUD construction going on outside our air b&b starting VERY early in the morning!!#so he canât even sleep!!!#in which cate tells stories
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