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monakisu · 7 months ago

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10-year age-gap akeshu AU in which, after an especially bad night, 16-year-old akira’s family situation has degraded so irreparably that he finally runs away to tokyo, like he’s always planned to. still in bad shape from his escape, he gets reluctantly picked up by a woman not that much older than him and recuperates at her apartment, where he meets her very hostile, very overprotective son.

it takes a while for 6-year-old goro to realize that akira isn’t one of his mother’s usual “clients”. despite akira’s flight-or-fight instinct button-mashing RUN out of fear of stagnating in one location for too long, in typical joker fashion, he stays with the akechi family to help them through hard times—praising and pampering goro when his mother is too tired to acknowledge him, and pulling mamakechi back to reality when she teeters between picking her poison: a rope hung from the rickety ceiling fan, a long, cold bath, a step off the balcony… he’d barged into their life a year before things would have broken permanently, and patiently patched up the cracks that would have deepened into permanent fissures.

goro in particular takes a liking to the new addition in their household. akira is the only other person he has met who treats him so nicely and gently and attentively—even more so than his own mother. he always seems genuinely happy to see goro come home from school, and frequently offers to take goro out on “adventures” to tour museums, visit aquariums, pet the alley cats, and so on. with him around, goro doesn’t have to wait at the bathhouse anymore. he grows to revere akira as the darling guardian angel his mother had brought home just for him.

in the end, having satisfied the selfless side of his nature, the selfish side has akira running away once again. he thinks his role has been fulfilled, and that he shouldn’t keep disrupting a family that isn’t his. he couldn’t have been more wrong.

and so, goro grows up with a doting mother and an awful, gaping hole where half of his heart should be. that is, until he meets a familiar stranger in Mementos—then again, in an innocuous coffee shop halfway across tokyo.

#tw suicide #akeshu #明主 #ft. goro hunting down his flight-risk wife and tying him down with a ring #akira is in disbelief that someone as talented and accomplished and shiny as goro is deadset on some random barista “past his prime”#except to goro akira has only grown more attractive with age #of course mamakechi would be OVERJOYED to see her “roommate” again #even happier to have him as an in-law! now he can't run away ever again!! family hotpot time!!!#she might beef with sojiro for snatching away akira though... murder mom vs coffee dad. who will win #i created this AU bcus i grew bored of daydreaming about my other ones while i fall asleep #except it was so fun to think of that i ended up losing three hours of my sleep...#can u tell i have a huge soft spot for mamakechi LOL

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puppppppppy · 1 year ago

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i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand

#me when im the only person on the bus wearing a mask: i should make a furry plaguesona #its hard to explain bc. most of the time i try NOT to give my characters a 'strong' theme like making their whole design around #one thing like apples or even broad stuff like baking or cottagecore.. idk if its partly for flexibility or because i cant imagine them #making it their whole personality. not bc i find it cringe or overblown but more like ive learned to associate design with character depth #i had a cutesy uwu persona for most of highschool because i thought it would make me more. likeable? easy to remember? since #memorable character designs are easy to recognize. and one way of doing that is simplifying it with a theme or symbol so you form an #association. but since im a real person its exhausting keeping up that appearance all the time and denying myself things when they dont #fit my 'aesthetic' or 'theme.' i think ive grown past that bc i just collect stuff because i think it looks cool and dont let myself dwell #on how it might 'fit' with my image. but i cant help feeling bad doing it to my own characters bc it feels like im making them too one #dimensional. despite knowing that theyre not real and design alone doesnt reflect depth i cant help feeling like its wrong #despite that i love seeing motifs because it feels like it reflects the characters soul and paradoxically gives them depth. it makes them #interesting to look at too and honestly its pretty fun combining things that fall under a similar category when designing #i struggle find a balance between those two things #actually this reminds me of noelles christmas theme.. i dont remember her saying anything abt liking christmas despite a lot of #her design and character tying back to it. it makes me wonder if she would have feelings about that or doesnt think abt it too hard #or if its like a matching family shirts situation and shes just going along with it??#maybe i should just do whatever i want with my character designs since theyre not real and im thinking abt it too hard #although. this probably has something to do with deep seated identity issues huh #yapping #oc talk #oc

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hibernating-stag · 3 months ago

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I know I'm like, one game away from meeting him for real and I probably shouldn't be speculating on a character I don't know yet.

But I have been thinking about *Sin* recently... in terms of like, this kid has to be in near constant pain, right? It might be a little mitigated by him being part gear, but I can't imagine growing so fast wouldn't be excruciating... Especially since he'd be more human than gear (if that train of thought applies here-)

This kid is going through body horrors not previously conceived by my mind I'm gonna. Throw up on the carpet.

#I'm pretty sure the humanoid gear characters aging like they do was to keep the timeline tight but I keep thinking about the Rammys...#don't even get me started on his family-#I dont think Dizzy would be too affected because she herself is a gear who grew up fast (I do wonder about her as well with growing pains)#but thinking about Ky is messing with me...#hes just. a human man... if Ky ever thought about having kids before Sin I can't imagine how rough seeing him grow up so fast would be...#especially since I think Sol raised Sin for most of his life #Sin is 5... and almost fully grown... if I was his dad I wouldn't be able to wrap my head around that #he should be a toddler! how long was Sin even a toddler for? weeks? days? hours??#christ-#I might delete this post later I'm not very confident in this being any worthwhile analysis #it's just something I've been thinking about-#yappin'

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vikvampir3 · 4 months ago

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Yk what’s really fucked up? I was more masculine before I realized I was trans. I’m short and I’m skinny and I’m gay and that makes me a fuckin twink according to everyone else. And yeah sure sometimes I love a cute skirt and makeup and yeah sure maybe I am but that also means I fucking had to bury the girl who did archery and wanted to be on American ninja warrior and was always called on for being strong. Boyfriends say it’s awkward when I’m curled around them with him as the little spoon. “It feels weird for you to be the big spoon” “woah this is weird let’s switch” you do realize just because I’m short and don’t work out anymore this doesn’t mean I’m just this little cute bottom who is the twinkiest of twinks. I just wish I were taller so that maybe for once in my fucking life I could be taken seriously

#I’m so fucking done with this #I’m actually incredibly fucking masculine #Even my own mother #I’ll say “yeah if i were born a cis guy I might have used he/they” and she buts in “and probably she sometime”#And I’m like “…yeah #sure”#No #not at all #I’m a bastard with a shot gun and a bow and arrow #i spent my childhood trying to get as muscular as possible #But no #i got fucking sick and now I’m tiny and now I’m just another twink #I often wonder how much would be different if I hadn’t gotten an ed at 12 #Maybe id have grown #Maybe I wouldn’t have developed such severe anemia that I had to drop all sports #Maybe I’d be taken seriously #I’m just so done with this #I need someone to not laugh at me when I talk about that side of me #I’m from the fucking south #I grew up around a bunch of beer drinking bastards with guns and trucks #I’m not your fucking doll #And no one seems to see that #Idk #transgender #trans men #transmasc #transblr #trans problems

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ovaruling · 2 years ago

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like, many girls know they shouldnt ever get into cars w strangers but they also tend to know that women are far less likely to hurt them, usually from personal life experience. what chills my blood is that there are men who KNOW that little girls know that, and are using it to take advantage of situations where girls would normally probably never interact with a strange man on the street. if you present as a woman, if you can convince a young child at a distance that you are a woman, you’re less likely to frighten that child and are more likely to gain that child’s trust and engage them in conversation and get close enough to them to abduct them. i’m going to throw up

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fennopunk · 7 months ago

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Yesterday at Ropecon's (a Finnish RPG convention) costume show there was a teeny tiny little Kiki (maybe 6yo, max) at the stage, with broom and all, and not only was she super adorable, but she was so brave because she clearly was shy but she was there at the stage in front of hundreds of people and she did wonderfully. She didn't really know how to answer the host's questions (probably because shy), but she was brave enough to speak to the mic, and that's amazing. The mic is scary for me as an adult and I remember how it felt as a shy child. Needless to say probably, but she got one of the loudest cheers of the show.

From what I could see in the dark, I'm pretty sure she was immediately afterwards escorted to her mom :)

#diaryposting #ropecon #her dad and little sibling were behind me in the bleachers and there was non-stop commentary #at some points me and my friend were almost cracking up bc this kid was hilarious #and just before her sister came to the stage she asked 'why I'm not there?'#so there might be duo costumes happening in the future #I love how kid friendly the con is these days #in my early years in this con there weren't many people with kids #but people have grown and now there's teens and even young adults who have gone there since babies #I wouldn't be surprised if there wqs already third generation happening #and now these so much kid friendly things #like the host was obviously great with the kid #but there's also events specifically targeted to kids #and there's even a huge Dublo pit :D

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maddie-grove · 2 months ago

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I’m having such a hard time getting into Stranger with My Face by Lois Duncan. But actually I’ve never quite vibed with her work.

#she’s a stiff and expository writer a lot of the time imo #and her attitudes always feel slightly out of date #even though the subject matter really isn’t #my attitude might be influenced by the horrible ‘updated’ editions #which feature decisions such as giving all the characters cell phones #thereby forcing multiple contrived explanations for nobody being able to use said phones #failing to explain why a teen boy in the early 2010s was a polio survivor #despite having grown up in a developed country with non-wackadoo parents #changing a teenage character’s name from Ruth (classic name. totally explicable especially if parents are religious or it’s a family name)#to Kristy (already dated by the early 2010s)

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faaun · 9 months ago

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a while ago i accidentally bent a g.pangolin electrode (those things are made of gold) the world was covered in conductive gel time is passing unreal lvls of quick they know my heart is yours

#a mark per line. i want to learn how to play the santoor linguistic communication is a two way process. candle dances like theres someone #burning in it. both listeners and speakers need to adjust for successful communication. give two examples of how listeners might adjust to #speakers. a quick rum picks you up. speakers assimilate. speakers adjust to mispronunciation. my cat is guarding the living room #my friend is stuck in abstraction hell. how might speakers adjust to listeners? laziness leads to permanent language changes and neonates #recognise the rhymes their mothers sang to them before birth. we know this because we have a way to quantify familiarity. i wonder if my #heart too would slow if i heard your voice . are you free on the 7th? i'd love it if youre there even for a little bit.#he said i dont know when ill see you again. ill see you whenever you want. i have an exam the next day and an event i'm not going to #full of beautiful monsters. shes taking her girls instead. shell be on her motorbike overclocked. from 7 hours to 9 days after #birth neonates can habituate to basic 2d shapes. i was in your living room in some latent space between solid and not. ive grown #complacent and overfilled and lazy in their warmth. my friends keep me alive and undervolted. too much sun to care for the important things #that arent you. she escapes to a small town with a book alone for meditation. she tells me she cuts fabric for the girls blood in their eye #i wish you never met my lips. shes back in lancaster. hes back from her cave full of velvet and rivers and sand #go on girl punch like you mean it #kick like i taught you.

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lovinglin · 1 year ago

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My best bet in lore posting is if I just don't think abt it too much

#aka lemme just ramble without thought. don't mind how messy my thoughts might get here #♥️ we're going overdrive!#< it's abt them. anyway #do u think he'd feel guilty the first few months of them being together?#bc there's a part of him that's happy and thankful for being with someone so wonderful yet he can't help but feel guilt over subjecting her #-into his problems? like the restless/sleepless nights and the nightmares and the breakdowns and the accidents where he hurts her?#he knows he's not perfect. not every relationship is perfect at all. but sometimes he feels like he's too far gone to be “fixed” anymore #that this is how he's grown to survive and it'll always stay that way. there's so much learning and unlearning to do #he's probably really thankful she's so patient though. even through everything. she always keeps saying they'll make things work #his tendencies and problems are a lot more visible- they show more easily through his actions and his words. and she works and adjust to-#-that in whatever way she can. but then what about her? when you turn to her- it almost looks like she doesn't have problems at all #but she does. and maybe her silence in itself is a problem #maybe her hurt is more quiet. more discreet. more subtle and less obvious. but that doesn't mean it's not there #maybe it's the distant stares or her lack of input. or the inconsistent meals or how tired she can get #she does get nightmares too. but maybe it's more of how she's already crying and hesitating to wake him up because she knows he doesn't get #-enough sleep as it is and she doesn't wanna pile onto him with her problems #maybe it's the self-isolation of locking herself in the bathroom and wanting to claw at her skin because of how uncomfortable she feels #the phantom pains on her back and the times she doesn't want to be touched because it's a level of discomfort that she can't describe #and it hurts just as badly for him because he Doesn't Know what to do. other than stay at a distance and use his words #hm. I dunno. these two just has me thinking a lot

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grapecaseschoices · 5 months ago

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Human vs Spirit Cole

Spirit

Solas approval

Krem gets Romance

I dont have him in Kendis' party that much anyway, so whatever???

He let's go of trauma not his.

Human

I could moving forward. I feel Kendis would be more likely to take Cole under their wing if he was a human. Obvs.

Solas disapproval, ie he is a bitter old man and i think it's funny to force him to parent a human.

He can explore so much more as a human.

#someone said like human colv gives varric a friend. and im like thats not my business???#there are so many grown folk that could be varric's friend if he wasnt up hawke's ass so like .... ima not gonna decide this based on his #feelings #the only person's feelings it seems that matters is KENDIS bc it goes good either way for Cole #like solas' approval is only counted bc i like to keep that topped off bc he's so bitchy and those slightly disapproves might add up #but varric i think is pretty cool with kendis [tho i didnt bring him to those last two red lyrium stuff ...]#grapecase plays dai #kendis adaar pt #but like like varric's solas' is not NEEEDED or even weighing heavy. it's just more of a bonus that varric's in this pt #if anything i wanna see him adapt to liking a human. a qunari. and a dwarf lmaao #he wont but ...#honestly my main draw back is the krem thing bc i want krem to have a romance and i dont think COLE SHOULD like isnt trespassar just ONE ye #r like where did that even come from? lmao #who the fuck is marydyn [i know who she is. but like whomt???]#i have to make this decision icly if it were me it would be spirit bc krem.#but -- kendis doesnt want cole to suffer the way he is. but #i like the idea of change vs stagnantion i read somewhere idr #lmao

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sysig · 1 year ago

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It always seems like such a good idea in the moment (Patreon)

The first four are in reference to a great idea I had of - since I’ve finished my lower-limit page number testing for making books; shorter fics take up less page space, and just increasing the font size isn’t as handsome! - simply making a mini book! All it would take would be to halve the pages again, right? Just cut them right down the middle! Easy peasy!

As I’m sure you can tell by the second, no. Not easy peasy. Difficult painful un-fun >:(

Obviously I still did it tho! What do you take me for, someone who could have the idea of an even tinier book and then not do something about it?? No It’s also the only one so far to have a paper bookmark rather than a ribbon!

All told it’s a bit smaller than your average manga (I love the monochrome covers on these under their dust jackets haha <3) - you can see even with effectively doubling up the pages by halving their size, it was still very small-spined!

A quick shot while it was still being made hehe ♪ It’s Out! Paired here - and the earlier one, just without its dust jacket haha - with my Zarla SC2 collection (ft. Family, Negotiations are Going...Well, and With No Obligation) - I absolutely kicked myself after the fact for not including Out as the run-up to everything, I was really trying to make a full collection in probably-chronological order! Out would’ve been a perfect start! And it only would’ve taken like four pages!!

Ah well, it was still quite a learning experience - I probably wouldn’t make another standalone of under 4k-ish just for formatting reasons but I did get some good ideas of how to do so if I wanted to! Although, my next project is going to be even more of a formatting nightmare........I’ll get there when I get there! Lol