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finally finished my wynncraft oc/persona reference sheet!!
close ups under the cut
#wynncraft#wynncraft oc#wynncraft persona#errr she has no name guys#she is simply me fr#I guess her name is soapy#yes despite the purple clothes she’s riftwalker it’s water bender in red clothes logic#oh and the mythic mimic is named max because alliteration#wynncraft art#wynncraft fanart
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hey btw y’all, just wanna let y’all know that the most heart melting, almost made me cry, in-the-running-for-favorite moment of the season has 100% been the immediate “i give her the help action” to lydia barkrock with absolutely zero hesitation from kristen
#she cares about everyone so much all the time!!!!#and she simply doesn’t show it in conventional ways!!#BECAUSE SHES NEURODIVERGENT!!!#so she tries to help people and tries to do what she has to do and also things she WANTS to do and fails SO OFTEN#but she is at a disadvantage and doesn’t even realize ittttt!!!!!#and she doesn’t have the tools to help her succeed!!!!#:((((#like give that girl some fantasy adderall PLSSS#IM BEGGING YOU BLEEM AND ALLY#DONT LET HER DO TO HERSELF WHAT I DID TO MYSELF IN HS#cause i see me in her and i so much so don’t know how to be normal abt it#she just like me fr#dimension 20#dimension 20 fantasy high#dimension twenty fantasy high#d20 fantasy high#dimension 20 fantasy high junior year#d20 fhjy#dimension 20 fhjy#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#kristen applebees#lydia barkrock#adhd#adhd posting#ally beardsley#bleem#brennan lee mulligan#queue are... my fire. the one... desire.
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dark justiciar shadowheart is genuinely so interesting to me as like... a facet to her character. like it really hammers home how desperate she is for shar's love and affection (+ the validation and love from other worshipers of shar). like in a lot of ways I get that it seems shocking to others / some fans because it really does contradict some of the morals we see her express BUT imo that just speaks to the level of desperation she feels. her comments on how shar "must" love her for her to survive the shadowcursed lands, or the bit where she talks about shar nurturing her and loving her and sounds... almost more like shes trying to convince herself more than shes trying to convince you. theres a bit about other sharrans not thinking she had earned her name, and of course the mother superior not thinking she was ready / worthy of being a dark justiciar. like shes just so completely desperate to feel unconditionally and securely loved, and to earn the approval of others that shes entirely willing to injure herself in the process (as well as.... the people who actually love her, of course).
not to mention that mechanically, afaik, she can only end up there if shes encouraged to by the player. ie... she needs to know someone else approves.
#CHEWING ON GLASS ABOUT HER BTW IF YOU EVEN CARE!!!!#shadowheart is the character EVER dude im so unwell about her#also this is not me judging her at all. shes just like me fr fr on this#baldur's gate#bg3 spoilers#bg3#baldur's gate 3#shadowheart#my post#eta: at risk of projecting here she seems so like. disorganized attachment to me. like that NEED to be loved#and craving that approval and fearing ur not good enough to get it#BUT ALSO being so scared to trust people in the first place that its hard to ever get that love#and kind of. how prone she is to rapidly going from total love and trust and openess about her feelings to just#completely walling off the player character if they say something she deems mildly uncomfortable or unsavory#oughhhh#im unwell man i am. simply unwell.#also tbh these tags are a fun game in: disorganized attachment style or bpd? why not both! sjdbdbdg
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no thoughts head empty the oppressive stagnancy of legacy in ever after high dragging me round the block yet again
it's such a shame that we get so little explanation about the actual mechanics of destiny, which is the entire premise of the show, bc it's so juicy. like what power does destiny hold when you rip away milton's lies and centuries of assumptions and traditions. esp bc despite raven signing herself as the evil queen in the real storybook of legends, when the snow white fairytale actually happens in dragon games she's playing one of the seven dwarves and her mother has reprised her role. like how much of that was because of the characters' actions and how much was destiny pulling on old, familiar threads. keeps me up at night.
a lot of this is probably just like, plot holes and writer hot potato but i like making it that deep, that's half of the fun. my personal interpretation is that fate is a wild thing that desires repetition and they developed the system of fairytale legacy bloodlines to keep those repetitions predictable and contained, instead of wreaking havoc whenever and wherever they please.
which lends itself to some really juicy exploration of how legacy is a duty as much as it is a privilege, and how to be a princess or a witch or a hero or a dragon is to be the same thing in the end: the lamb destiny slaughters on the altar to sate the ever-ravenous narrative. to keep the flock safe. keep the unknown that prowls beyond the beaten path at bay. because if a there is always a mother who will be cruel, or a maiden who will fall into a sleep like death, or a child who will become a bird, isn’t it better to know who, and how, and when? isn’t better if it’s you, who has known your whole life that you must be eaten, be poisoned, be stripped of your humanity, rather than anybody else, who wasn’t raised to see it as an honour instead of a great and terrible injustice?
#ever after high#mine#remember when apple asked snow white for advice on yester day and she had nothing useful to say? bc all the problems in her life were#solved by a smile a friend and true love's kiss?#and apple got to experience being disappointed by the parent she placed on a pedestal for the first time ever? that was really fun#don't even get me started by how the class of classics are all called by the names of their roles that is sooooo fun and fucked up#the mantle of your legacy is so large and so heavy that it swallows you up entirely#ik it's for convenience's sake but simply imagine with me. surrendering your true name once your tale begins to bind to the retelling#more strongly. invite the eye of the narrative to fix on you. set destiny on its well-worn tracks and drive it smoothly#to happily ever after#i love the idea of the retellings being ritualistic to an extent. there is so much you could do w destiny#how destiny is a crutch too that prevents u fr growing as a person bc there is nothing life can start that u haven't already seen finished
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Obligatory thruple post
#they mean the world to me#ppl need to stop leaving Gwen out of their polycule fr#Merlin is the chaotic pansexual with no impulse control Arthur is just as bad but yells at him anyways despite being worse and#Gwen has them both on child leashes while also goading them on bc she thinks it’s funny#Merlin and gwen like to jump scare arthur bc he’s so serious it’s borderline comedic#arthur and gwen dog pile Merlin bc he simply never sleeps and it’s annoying#Arthur and Merlin do the “guess who’ thing to Gwen every single time they see her and it’s more obnoxious than endearing#let them be annoying together i mean it 🤬#bbc merlin#Merlin#merlin fanart#murther#arwen#merwenthur#???#is that the ship name???#oh well#my art
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thinking about making a pack au where they actually stick closer to hyenas than whatever the fuck they did in that episode
bc uh he-LLO? hyenas are like... one of the BIG popular matriarchal animals and we just acted like xander was all scary now? pshh. I mean he was hyenas are scary but buffy is absolutely highest rank top dog here no wayyy he'd be all scary to her since they're already y'know a "pack" of sorts. like I'm pretty sure he'd still defer to her. plus willow! her making friends with buffy first and just generally being a girl he'd rank below her as well (though I do wonder where his stance with giles would be)
and I get that xander already sorta had a new clan with the other possessed kids but even then why was HE at the top of that hierarchy?? in fact it was so barely structured at all I'm only assuming xander was a high rank bc he's just one of our mains. and the shot of them all walking ofc where he was front and center I can read basic filmmaking choices lol
but also hyenas have FRIENDS! they have cliques and groups within their own clan. isn't that so cool? why did they just disregard xander's friendship with the scoobies? I think the fact xander had friends and quite loyal ones is like important? I mean okay I suppose it's all he's in this clan now he's cut ties with the scoobies, but to me at least I think that's kinda boring haha. though actually even if xander had the support of the scoobies, with how that clan were already a group before xander and not with xander at all, he'd actually probably be like real goddamn low anyways instead of more equal like it was shown
look I really have no idea about any of this I've just been looking up hyena facts for the past hour bc I thought it was neat. I simply think they should've done more with this instead of oo look xander's all feral and evil when they literally chose hyena to be their animal. like ooookay then whateverrrr lame
#they should've just done wolves or smth why the hell did they pick hyenas if they weren't even gonna play with their more unique structure#btw PACK? not CLAN? guys seriously re see above they just wanted to be different while still riding off of wolf girls#buffy IS the leader. highest of the high. top rank here. she's the alpha female since that is apparently what they're called lol#I just don't see why xander would Act like he did in that episode if we we're going off of hyenas and not some other predator#even if we go off the idea he broke ties with the scoobs as outsider females I think both wils and buff r still doing better than him#ANYWAYS. that's my two cents this episode was silly and I wish they'd had more fun playing with the animal they chose#someone with more spotted hyena knowledge should talk to me I'd LOVE to learn more I think these animals are so fucking cool#xander harris#btvs#buffy the vampire slayer#alright I did a little more googling and interesting! xander and wil might outdo buffy in the whole friendship department#so I THINK their clan WOULD have a far more level playing field simply because of how close everyone is. neat neat neat!#but buffy could still kick their asses be fr
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you wanna know what??
I am
TIRED
of overmasculinized werewolves!!!!
I WANNA SEE A
WEREWOLF
WALKING AROUND IN A CVNTY LITTLE OUTFIT!!! WALKING THE STREETS!!!! DISEMBOWELING CREATURES!!!!
I WANNA SEE WEREWOLVES COVERED IN BLOOD AND GORE WHILE WEARING A SHORT SKIRT AND CROPTOP WITH HELLO KITTY ON IT!!!!
I WANNA SEE A WEREWOLF WALKING AROUND IN COTTAGE AND FAIRY AND PRINCESS CORE OUTFITS!!!!!! WITH A DEAD MANGLED RABBIT IN ITS MOUTH!!!!
AND MAKE THE WEREWOLF
D I S G U S T I N G ! ! !
#i am TIRED of seeing all these manly man werewolves that are all copy and paste white boys#I am TIRED of seeing all these woman werewolves being butch and masculine(also mostly white) or submissive!!!#I WANNA SEE SOME PLUS-SIZE WEREWOLVES I WANNA SEE SOME BLACK ASIAN LATINO MIDDLE EASTERN NON WHITE WEREWOLVES!!!!! THAT ARNT F3TIZIED!!!!!#I WANNA SEE A G I R L WEREWOLF THATS INTO “G I R L Y” THINGS!!!!! LET THE WEREWOLF BE A SLVT!!!!!#LET THE WEREWOLF BE IN THE TRADITIONAL CLOTHING OF ITS CULTURE!!!!#AND RIP AND TEAR AND MAUL AND CRY IN THE MORNING AFTER DOING ALL OF IT!!!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#no but fr can we werewolf fans like. actually sit down and reflect on the inherent misogyny of werewolves??? ESPECIALLY IN MEDIA#like. almost EVERY. SINGLE. WEREWOLF. in movies and shows and stuff are always a buff white man with anger and trust issues#and on the rare occasion that there *is* a woman werewolf shes always either over masculine or “weaker” than the “stronger alpha male” were#olf and only seen as a mate. AND shes always “calmer” and “maternal” and “calms the alpha male down🥺🥺”.AND she never has an actually good#werewolf form its always either wolf tail and ears or full wolf. or if it *is* actually a decent werewolf her transformation is offscreen.#like whyyyyyyyyyyyyy are people so scared to make women go ape shit?????? werewolves are NOT pretty creatures!!!! STOP MAKING THEM PRETTY!!#(lmao jk we know why they're so scared hashtag male gaze)#like yes. werewolves ARE pretty but not in the “dog show 30k$ poodle” kind of way i see some people making them(not that that's bad tho)#AND ALSO LIKE. ARE WE JUST GOING TO PRETEND WEREWOLVES LITERALLY WEREN'T MADE FOR WOMEN AND MINORITIES???#like. once a month someone turns into a raging bloodthirsty unstoppable beast driven by the moon and instincts with an insatiable hunger an#need to hide away from people due to them wanting to kill you or fearing you simply because you're a werewolf. they don't know you. they ju#t see you as a creature that might hurt them. constantly being hunted down to be killed simply for existing.#WHAT PART OF THAT SCREAMS: “ah yes. White man.”#IK theres going be people(men and pick mes) that see this post and think “this bitch is overreacting” and tbh idc.the girls who get it get#the girls who dont dont.#anyways shout out to Ginger Snaps trick or treat and every other piece of media or fan piece with disgusting non-f3tiszied woman/poc werewo#i love yall#*smooch smooch*#Werewolves#Werewolf#Lycanthrope#Lycanthropy#Werewolf AU#Yeah. Im tagging that too. I see yall.
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I think I'm gonna tell my therapist how I feel. Not in a "let's go out" way but in a laying it bare way.
#I have simply noooot been doing well 😭#And I need a therapist I can be honest with#So I think I really just need to tell her#Idk how I'm gonna word it#But I see her tomorrow morning. Little less than twelve hours#I will DEFINITELY be reporting back here 💀#Cause I know I've dragged y'all through this saga with me#Y'all deserve to know what she's gonna say to me#God bless 💀#No fr#I'm scared but I'm also in a spot where I simply need someone I can be open with cause your girl is struggling BAD#All that to say y'all should stay tuned
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Characters baring a mouth full of sharp fangs as show of aggression is top tier but can we talk about how sinister a flash of smooth square omnivore teeth can be. The implications therein? The difference between facing a carnivore vs a member of the terrifyingly, aptly named 'opportunistic eaters'? The fear of being on one's menu, the knowledge that you are on the other's - no matter what you are. The inherent danger of a threat display where there are set rules to avoiding harm turning into a hunt on a dime.
Anyway, thinking about Nikodemus and how beautifully all of this translates into his supernatural setting...
#man said Eater eater. on all levels including spiritual he is an omnivore#on my 'omnivores are the most terrifying kind of animal' grind#no one is truly safe fr we can be as high on the energy food chain as vegetables fruit and grain#or as low as munching on carnivore-eating carnivores#so yeah maybe i like the idea of that extending to the preternatural in the respective worlds i play him in#as much as nik's beyond inhuman at this point he truly embodies the spirit of humanity by clawing his way to the top of the food chain#when he started at the metaphysical bottom#inspired by me saying nik has a mouth full of sharp fangs spiritually in my head - like the way we see carnivore teeth as inherently scary#and then realizing no you know what omnivore teeth are more terrifying we're just desensitized because we're part of that horrid 3%#thinking about the lion-eating chimpanzees#or hedgehogs eating snakes#something about an animal not as associated with violence and danger nor even built for it eating creatures who are#simply because it was hungry and there was no other more convenient food source#thinking about Avita tangentially. my other eater who has more readily available energy sources than souls#but would not deny herself a morsel if prey was stupid enough to purposefully wander into her path and challenge her#to be fair she wouldn't even bare her teeth#𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐑 ‒ nikodemus ║ MUSINGS
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plane scene is so funny cause why is mine a sleeper agent that wakes up whenever daigo is mentioned
can’t wait to see it in dragon engine :3
mine has been the winner for Funniest Character Imaginable for 15 consecutive years and i have yet to see anyone come close i fear
#snap chats#originally i wrote 'funniest character alive' and then remembered. HAH im so funny //throws up//#all my fave charas know how to do is get crazy on planes over men they love its disgusting#utterly hilarious cause after making the last post i went on twitter and they mentioned ANOTHER plane scene i throw up over#diff franchise so not important it is just SIMPLY funny how coincidences work and further confirming I Have A Type#BUT NO BACK TO MINE IT'S STILL SO FUCKIN FUNNY I HAVE TO REWATCH IT#i have to replay it .... all of y3 ...#if anyone remembers my friend from college and how we used to stream she asked me if we could stream#and i was like 'girl i havent streamed in Fuck Ever huh' and yk what maybe i'll stream y3 with her#at the very least ill stream y3 for myself ... legend mode .....#ive beaten y3 legend mode one (1) time and it was the worst experience of my life because if its not shadow the hedgehog#i am not good at the game i am playing !!!!!!!!!!! it'll be funny tho#i remember wanting to do a y3 drinking run but i told myself id stop drinking so i simply think. i will substitute drinking for hot sauce#its an idea im ironing out and i also have to like. properly set up a twitch- or maybe ill stream through youtube#ive always liked youtube streaming more ... at least as a viewer#these are all details for plans i will not be enacting literally any time soon can i stay on topic#the topic being i love mine. i love that plane scene forever the casual Whats Goin On Here :)#and he is the embodiment of :) in that scene casue :] is gen friendly but :) has an underlying aura of Im Going To Kill You#thats him in that scene. and i love him. for the third time. im ending this post now forever and always stan mine#if and whenever y3k comes out i cant wait to see !! but i personally believe that's well and away from us at this point#not impossible since they did mention it but yk. i dont think itll happen within the next year or two#maybe next five or ten realistically. if that jVLAEKJVLAEKJ ok bye fr now
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can't believe I used to feel like a failure because my films didn't look "good"
#cause in uni i used to cry over my films not looking as good as the others#but then i watched some of the other films with my sister at my graduation and she was like. they look like adverts/commercials#and made me realise that it wasn't that my stuff looked bad. it just didn't look '#'industry standard' which was never my goal by the time i got to uni like maybe so. my classmates will thrive#and will succeed at a higher level than me but that's ok because that is simply not what i want.#i fr just want to make silly little movies and show them for free in abandoned houses that's all i want 😭😭😭
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the fact that taylor not only announced an album called the tortured poets department on grammys which btw resembles the name of group chat in which joe alwyn was in but also dragged a known zionist lana del rey on stage after winning aoty and talked about how she impacted young artists during an ongoing genocide is just not sitting right to me. like, there's already so much hate against joe alwyn who has done nothing but stay silent after all the death threats, god only knows how much it will increase after her new album.
also, the fact that the term poets will be associated with her album rather than dead poets society is just not disappointing
Honestly, I've never cared about Grammys. And while I used to be a swiftie (ik, bleurghhh, everyone makes mistakes at 19, mine just happened to be a white billionaire instead of a boy 🤢), it is now difficult to care about her enough to even hate her.
But the fact that she chooses to stay silent I'm the face of genocide, with allllll this affluence that she's acquired over the years and with no threat to her actual career (let's be fr, who's gonna fire her? She works for herself ffs). And then she brings on stage an actual zionist supporter.... There really is no hope for this punk rock billionaire, at this point I feel bad for her exes.
#anti taylor swift#Swifties dni#Feel free to block the tag. Or even me. idc.#Also I don't entertain hate mail#Unless it's funny. In which case go ahead I'll have a laugh and totally consider posting it#Bonus if you have enough guts to go off of anon#I leave taylor swift supporters alone and expect the same decency from them okay#Also super sad about the dead poets society thing. That is a great piece of media. But I'm also sure swift won't be able to eclipse it out#Ever. Simply because it will always be more relevant than her. It's a classic. She's just trash no comparison fr.#anon ask#arushi rambles#asks
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SUPER DARK TIMES (2017) DIR. KEVIN PHILLIPS
#super dark times#zach taylor#allison bannister#sam edits#if you listen closely you can hear the sound of both mine and Allison's hearts breaking! <3#ok but fr: i know this is gifs. so no sound. but the WAY he DELIVERS the 'you've got a bump on your head' line makes me NUTS#it's so soft. it's so fond. it's... it's a punch in the fucking gut. he likes her *so much* but he *can't let himself have this nice#thing with her* because he's *being eaten alive by guilt he can't accept & won't let himself be happy because of it* and SHE DOESN'T KNOW!#like the thing. the thing is. when you watch SDT you're along the ride with Zach and his POV of everything. despite the obvious paranoia#& guilt warping his perspective/influencing his behavior—we can see where that's all coming from. we understand the motivations#behind the actions he takes. but ALLISON? Allison has no fucking clue what's going on! from Allison's perspective... Zach is this guy she's#known for a while (like they make a point of *telling us* in one of the earliest scenes that Zach feels weird talking about her in the#detached way they may talk abt other people in their grade they barely know—because it's *different* since he and Josh *actually know her*#plus in the script [and it STILL COUNTS TO ME because she *starts* saying the line but just gets cut off by Dennis] Allison brings#up Zach & Josh having had a silly handshake since 7th grade ['oh god that used to make me pee!' <- girl why would u say that to him]#so it's like... these are kids who've known each other for years!) and he's got this obvious fucking crush on her (the hallway scene where#he is. blatantly staring and she catches him for a second) and the moment she decides to actually start pursuing him because SHE'S#got a crush on HIM too... he starts pulling away and acting erratic and sending her the most mixed signals in the fucking world.#and sheee THINKSSS ITS HERRR FAULT!!!!!!!! like. listen. this scene i giffed above? this is what she's fucking talking about later#when she jokes about not wanting to 'scare him off again'. like sure she says it like a joke but... uhm. i simply think there's#a certain amount of truth to it too—because he DID leave the party visibly freaked out! and i think it'd be perfectly believable for her#to think that it was at least partially HER pushing too hard that was causing him to withdraw/pull away from her. plus she blatantly says#she thinks she's the reason Josh & Zach are fighting. like. this poor girl is on the outskirts of a tragedy she'll probably NEVER know the#details of but she's seeing firsthand the impact it's having on Zach and... blaming herself... that's so fucking heartbreaking
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will I ever learn to not tell my mom about my problems and feelings bc the second I do the first thing she does is undermine them and treat them as if they were less and that my sis or other people have bigger problems than me and I shouldn't be crying over mine 🙂
#liliana talks#it's always the same shit with her she's always emotionally unavailable#she likes to tell me her issues but the moment i try and tell her about mine she always brushes them off#and today i finally realized that and made myself the question of why do i keep telling her my stuff if the same always happens with her#like why... why do i keep trying to count on her when i know i can't#i also had the thought of simply just not call her to talk anymore bc she's always angry at something#and fr it's draining to hear her angry all the time#i just don't want to call her anymore#funny thing is that my relationship with my dad is awful and he's a horrible person but weirdly he's been available for me when i need him#mmmm idk what that says about them#idk maybe i need a therapist
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im just like if adrian leverkühn was kinda average. which i am aware is against the whole point of his character but i AM just like if adrian leverkühn was kinda average
#doktor faustus#faust tag#but really i relate to him on so many levels#from thought spirals to like. actual academic choices??#one of the most if not THE most relatable proyagonist i have memory of. like woag#thank you thomas mann you didnt need to call me out like that#sounds like im being pretentious because hes basically god but i did say Average. which i feel is very important to point out#a difference is that i do in fact wish not to be average while he doesnt want not to be average. you love what you lack i guess. also nobod#wants to be average. and in this too i am average.take a shot every time i say average#but other than this. she simply is just like me fr#AM I gonna get syphilis from a prostitute. if i do well. what a way to go
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nearly fainted an also cried @ da cooking prelim 2day. sooo passing
#I CSNNOT BELIEVE THIS#I JAD A MATHS 1 YESTERDAY IT THAT WENT FINE??? IM SHITE @ MATHS😭😭😭#i can sit down @ a paper js fine but cant do a practical 4 sum reason#this is da prelim 2 like this aint even da final exam#i hope i dont sit the exam this yr this has been the only prelim that has actually stressed me beyond belief. so far#literally had 2 b taken 2 da back twice bc of it😭😭 ms i gave me a hug that was nice#an a lil guidance which we werent exacrly allowed ‼️‼️ and she fixed up my starter 4 me#SHES MY N1 TEACH FR!!!!!!!!!#i hope she gets that i am usually on top of things in class it was js da prelim stress getting 2 me 🙏#n e ways on a better note i managed 2 play the black parade b4 skl!!!! IT WAS SO GUD#I CSNT EVEN ARTICULATE IT 2 U IT WAS SO GUD#nearly cried bc i was simply thinking abt famous last wrds in maths😭😭#i think it changed me a lil i think im a new man#didnt help 4 da prelim but wtv 💔#rivers rambles <3
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