#shadows blinding

[swagglessmoth]

One of the things that I LOVE about Shadows Blinding and marks it as one of my favourite fics ever, is the relationship between Sakumo and Kakashi.

Lots of spoilers (obviously)

In most fics, Kakashi’s feelings towards Sakumo aren’t really explored in a complex way. Mostly they go as far as him missing his father, we see his grief and loneliness deepening with each lose of a loved one over the years, until as an adult he heals and grows to understand his father’s decision and forgiving him. Which is completely okay! I love those fics, I love the progress as we see Kakashi healing over time. But most that I’ve seen don’t usually dwell into Sakumo’s suicide that much and the heavy impact it would have on a child at that age, that would later follow them to adulthood. Choosing instead to focus on the impact either team Minato or team 7 had on his life (which, fair, it is A LOT, but you get my point).

In Pesto’s (author) interpretation, things go a bit differently: Kakashi does miss his father, but at the same time he still deeply resents him for what he did, just like he did when he was a kid and trying to not be like his father. Except he hasn’t exactly grown out of this bitterness. For scarring him for life and leaving him alone at such a young age; for sending him to what’s essentially a cult, leaving him trapped with a family he’s not familiar with; for leaving such a deep mark, that even if he tries to escape him and the clan, they’re in every little part of his life. Such as his most signature quality, his mask, only existing because Kakashi reminded Sakumo of his brother. He hates all of this.

This Kakashi never healed from what happened, so caught up in all the deaths happening around him that he never really had time to even process it. He doesn’t even allow himself to miss his father because of all this resentment, and that’s not something that just goes away. This is why I love his relationship with Kosuke, the way Kakashi wishes he’d allowed himself to miss his father despite what he did like Kosuke does. (OH AND THAT SCENE THEY HAD AT THE END. KOSUKE MISSING KAKASHI IN SPITE OF THAT HE DID, LIKE HE MISSES HIS FATHER 😭😭😭😭😭 OUGHH IT’S SO SADD ❤️‍🩹🥀⛓️🚬🐺)

That sense of hate is engraved in him, and it is amplified by the fact that Sakumo giving him that seal essentially made him loose everything he’s known and loved once again. His whole world is destroyed, the people he loved have forgotten about him (also they are dead) (and let’s not even mention Obito). All this time he’s had his team as a source of light at the end of the tunnel, something to fight for. But he’s lost that, and with his clan that’s basically a cult and that wrinkly bitch Nana running around ruining everything, he really has nowhere to go. That one split-second decision, even if done in good faith, ruined his life.

«Tou-san fucked up» indeed (or however the quote went I don’t wanna look it up)

YOOO THAT’S WHY THE SEQUEL’S GONNA BE FIREE 🔥 🔥🔥🔥 Kakashi expecting to come back to a wasteland and being prepared to start digging graves for his dead friends (everyone bro) and instead finding an alternate-timeline Sakumo. We’re getting that deeply awkward and uncomfortable father-son bonding YEAHH 💪💪

Oh and don’t even get me started on this new timeline bro. How baby Ino appearing in the epilogue implies that this is at a point in time shortly after what would’ve been the Kyubi attack (we don’t know how Kannabi went so idk if it even happened) Rin and Obito would be around 14, 16 max. And Minato and Kushina would be around 22-24. Kakashi here is like 30, he is NOT getting his team back. And that’s without counting that with Kakashi dying by birth on this universe, there would be another kid in his place. Knowing that no other kid their age was jounin at the time, they might’ve not even been assigned for the Kannabi Bridge mission or at least done it with Minato, which already elevates their chances of survival.

He might not even get to meet team 7 personally. They’re babies rn and he’s a complete stranger to the village, a stranger on Kage level might I add (I don’t think it’s too far fetched to say that, he’s VERY powerful now, and he did become the sixth hokage without this power-up so ��‍♂️). They’re NOT letting him near the babies bro ❌😿

He’s alone with his father (whom he kind of hates and doesn’t know) in a world that doesn’t know him AT ALL. We have all the time in the world for group therapy, Kakashi’s gonna be demanding ANSWERS. Or maybe he’ll say “fuck this” and become a kind-of-missing-nin-but-not-really-bc-he’s-not-from-THIS-Konoha that stalks the village to make sure his loved ones don’t die this time. Yeah, I could see that happening tbh.

Idk I’m just ranting, this is gonna be messy and I’ll love every second of it 💞

[pestoast]

Literally one of the funniest mistakes I ever made while posting shadows blinding is that in the first batch of tag adding (see: when I first posted it) I had the brilliant idea to add a tag that said ‘processing your grief and trauma in the cushiness valley in the world: luxury!’ and at the time I thought I was being really tongue in cheek! I was the comedian of the internet!! But with literally no one having read the fic but me at that point, it was 100% serious to literally everyone but me. I apologize to the poor soul who was the first comment on SB and said ‘a healing fic. Nice!’ because I replied “hahaha yeah!!!!” instead of being frank and telling you the truth that the tag was a heinous LIE and Kakashi only came out of that valley with MORE grief and trauma bitch!!!

[disastermanagement]

He just needs a good distraction.

[virune]

(blind shadow au) curiosity + contact

[imaginariumwanderer]

Liar Jester and the Blind Healer

[blu-ish]

So who's looking forward to the Sonadow takeover on Friday.

[blahlahblash]

Day: 6 "Autumn Leaves"

woah. That's a little too romantic, geezus

[fishyartist]

Drew a bunch of sonic characters as zero escape+aitsf characters for various reasons or w/e. Don’t worry about it <3

Bonus this whole thing started w/ this amy as ace I drew as a joke about a single shared character trait (?) between two otherwise totally different as hell characters

[pestoast]

WOW!! This is seriously amazing! The hand-lettering is amazing, especially the title. I am seriously honored that you made such beautiful art because of my fic.

Basically this fic in a nutshell

Kakashi: But at least all that trauma is in the past where it can’t hurt me.

Sakumo: :)

Made up a cover for @pestoast ’s Naruto fic, Shadows Blinding. Which is just fantastic in so many ways. It demanded a dramatic artistic rendition.

This is my first time doing hand-lettering. I think it could be better but eh. I would be at this for even longer than I wanted. Next time.

[ask-but-beware-the-consequences]

Summer collection no. 1 piece! ^^ A sweet friender bender moment in Paris :3

Drinking wine instead of porter An Irishman in gay Paris~

[swagglessmoth]

Thinking about Shadows Blinding…

Ougghhhhh

[sonadowkismesis]

Because you, my friend, you have found yourself the perfect man. If I was ever so lucky to find the perfect man, I would give him flowers every day! And not just any flowers, okay? His favorites are dandelions - yellow dandelions. And snacks! One hot dog inside a bun, with chili meat sauce on it! No cheese! Just the way he likes it.

[dandelionjack]

quick question steven. what did you mean by that last bit there

[virune]

(terios inspired) blind shadow au

sonic gets a job as a waiter at a local cat café and discovers a mysterious regular, a hedgehog named shadow, who is blind. sonic takes shadow's orders and chats with him, gradually getting to know him over time, all the while falling more and more in love.

[yellowvixen]

person who loves listening + person who infodumps = perfect match. if they weren't so oblivious lol

[clovreat3r]

BLOOD UNDERNEATH WATCH OUT RAHHHH

Tord after painfully peeling off his bandages after the disaster of a comeback with the gang

at least he got to borrow some comfy sweatpants though- oh yeah and a new eye!