#self medicating

[yodaddysobipolar]

Wow.

Me: *googling bipolar and hypersexuality”

Google: here are fifteen articles why you’re a burden in your relationship

[danny-boys-world]

Peach Crescendo- indica - popcorn buds

[mariposas8494]

Mhmmm

[whumpetywhump]

The Defected - Ep. 8 & 9

[smashing-yng-man]

I've done it all - attended Alcoholics Anonymous twice a day, five days a week. Memorized the fourth edition of the "Big Book" from cover to cover. Admitted myself into two different rehabs, staying 60 days each time.

What has ultimately kept me sober from drinking is confiding in my therapist and taking a combination of Acamprosate and Naltrexone twice a day to curb alcohol cravings.

I drank heavily for nearly two decades, and frankly have the experience and genetic predisposition to confirm that addiction is not a choice.

But sobriety and self-care are.

[remyxavierr]

I got out of therapy a bit ago and have learned from my psychologist that we have exhausted all options for getting me the help I need! Yay! I'm fucked! 🥲 I guess I'm going to go through another year to a couple of years where I'm heavily self-medicating again, and maybe another possible suicide attempt? Who knows! The possibilities of how I can fuck my life up are endless now that I know the province of Alberta does not care to help me in the slightest!

Welp, I guess it's time for me to go on the side quest of getting the borderline personality disorder diagnosis off my medical records, or at least getting re-rediagnosed with my original, and correct, diagnosis of bipolar I with psychotic features.

I DO NOT RECOMMEND MENTAL ILLNESS. I ALSO DO NOT RECOMMEND EVER GETTING DIAGNOSED, EVEN IF YOU KNOW YOU HAVE IT. Doctors are fucking useless at best and will ruin your life in the worst case scenario.

[yodaddysobipolar]

If I’m going to therapy for weed addiction (I do not use this word lightly)… anyway… can she really be mad if I’m going into therapy high. I’m much more talkative.

[mariposas8494]

Don’t forget your meds 💊

[creathur]

kissing monster energy full on the mouth.

[milowithani]

I'm just saying.

If someone has to struggle through every minute of their life, already tried every coping mechanism, medication, and professionals available to them, and the only thing thing that relieves up to 80% (I would even take 10%) of the agony they experience on a day to day basis, and improve their quality of life, and for some people is even cheaper than the total cost of seeing professions and being on medication, and can be easily accessible, and the only thing you have to have is a triple espresso and you're good for the day, then respectfully, I don't care about your opinion.

I hope this reaches the people who understand what I'm talking about, and know that they're not alone.

[dichotomoustessellations]

i was drinking monster energy then i felt the sudafed kick in woaaaahhgh

[yodaddysobipolar]

[staarknaked]

Funnest fact: substances that full your perception of pain make physical changes in how your brain feels and processes pain sober. And not in the direction of "less pain". Prolonged narcotics use can and does lead to hypersensitization of pain signals leading people to need more opiates because they don't have the tolerance for the original pain, let alone the New and More Spicy Pain.

Yes this includes emotional pain from trauma.

Using drugs is an ongoing traumatizing event.

fun fact: any policy on drugs that isn’t harm reduction is going to cause addicts to suffer and die

[selcukbayhanltd1010]

Whoever said medicating can’t be fun has never tried a Medicated Nerds Rope! These delightful treats combine the nostalgic crunch of Nerds candy with a potent dose of THC, ensuring that your sweet tooth and relaxation needs are both satisfied.

[hermholland]

So it seems to be a "drink red wine as a metaphorical way of bypassing my bleeding fixation so that I don't self harm just to purge myself of these intolerable emotions" sort of night