#sefharm

[thethoughtsofanunknownauthor]

TW MENTION OF SH CRAVINGS

cravings by [redacted]

they got so bad

i couldn’t stand it anymore

i opened tumblr for the first time in a while to look up something i hadn’t in 7 months

it was beautiful

the lines

the scars

the red color

it made my arms itch for it

my mind began to spin, i had just found my knife after all

maybe just 1

no, no [redacted] you know it won’t just be one

even numbers

they got louder

just 2 won’t hurt

come one you know you want it

i mess with the blade in my hand for a few minutes

what am i doing?

sitting here, alone, about to do *this*

why?

why erase all the work i’ve done?

i press the blade to my wrist and apply pressure

but i don’t break skin

the feeling of the blade pressing is enough this time

i press it up and down my forearms over and over

leaving faint indents in the skin

the skin around turning a bit red when i let up

the sting is there

the thing i carve so much when i want *this*

i found a way to do it without actually doing *it*

maybe it’s still bad, but at least the cravings are gone….. right?

[itsbrokenheartworld]

Body check!!

[bluegrey02]

I keep triggering myself because i don’t know who i am outside this bubble of depression.

[bl00d-hail]

I’ve been clean for 3 weeks from self harm.

[secretdiaryyy]

lmao feel like i’m the only one liking online school more than regular school

25/5-20

[currently-not-0kay]

Dear me, I owe you an apology. My job was to protect you but I hurt you instead. I made you go through a lot. I was dedicated to sabotage you —over and over again. I refused to hear you when you were begging me to stop and I turned my back on you when you needed me the most. I am very sorry for the pain I have caused, you did not deserve any of that.

I am sorry for the cuts,

I am sorry for calling you an ugly pig,

I am sorry for not feeding you right,

I am sorry for humiliating you,

I am sorry putting too much pressure on you

And I am sorry for the things that I cant recall 

[asweettrashbouquet]

Sometimes

sometimes i feel like shit

sometimes I feel alone

Sometimes I feel like I can’t reach my goals

Sometimes I feel worthless

Sometimes I feel obesse

Sometimes I blame my slow thyroid

Sometimes I feel fat

Sometimes I blame my lack of excersise

Sometimes I vomit

Sometimes I want to shoot myself

Sometimes I want to stop eating like a disgusting pig

But never reached to be skinny

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I kind of need some support, I feel like i’m all alone in this

I know, I’m really weak, but I really want to feel pretty and happy with myself

I want to feel pure and beautiful

[savemefrommyself-ibegyou]

As bad as it is, I wish I didn’t have supportive parents. Ones who ask me if I am okay? Or if I feel the need to cut.

I just want the freedom to cut and bleed and scar.

I am filled with guilt

But the need is there

[lunarnova97]

Tw: implied self harm “It takes more than the courage to jump— you have to have the courage to FALL and to get back up again” It’s important to remember that the worst of times are not the end of times. The sun will rise again, and so will you. Have faith in yourself and your ability to survive and you will be able to come out of the toughest storms stronger than ever! Be anti-fragile. #myart #throwback #depressionawareness #sefharm #cw #tw #trigger #triggerwarning #bruising https://www.instagram.com/p/CQt6v56DDem/?utm_medium=tumblr

[burningxo]

Don’t leave me alone, please. I beg you. Don’t leave me alone with my thoughts. They are satan himself. My mind is a violent island, hungry lions want to devour me and my blood is the liquid that supplies this place. I am the food of the beasts. Little by little I’m being destroyed and I know I should fight but maybe heaven is better than this hell that I'm living.

My mind is fucked

[find-a-way-to-make-it]

Iv written my note. I reached out and nobody cared. I guess this really is goodbye

[secretdiaryyy]

this song has been with me thru the darkest times

[tryingtoliveinthathell]

I never hated myself more!

Help!

[suicidal-society]

Just me ?

Am i the only one whose depression feeds into itself like a black hole? I get anxious and depressed a lot and then i try to reach out for help but that gives me more anxiety and doubles my depression because then i feel like they hate how bad i get all the time. Trying to tell people about my depression gives me hyper anxiety and i hate myself more for being this way and always having these problems. I don't really know how to explain.

[nyacat857]

I relapsed... after over five months, I did it again... • • • • #sefharm #cutting #relapse #addict #addiction #addicted #depression #anxiety #selfcontrol #selfhate #suicidal #unloveable #unloved #scars

[upset-below]

Ich liebe meine Narben.