#saying I wanna rewatch it but I can't bc all I can think about is how they should've ran so far away from each other

[lesbianmarrow]

augh. rewatched btvs 5x22 scene where spike & buffy go to buffy's house to get weapons before the big showdown. them having to retrieve weapons is such an amusingly flimsy excuse to have them go to her house so we can have the scene where she invites him in + he promises to protect dawn + "i know you'll never love me" speech. i love a paper-thin excuse to put 2 characters in a room together. especially when those characters are buffy and spike!!!!!!!!!!!!

it really is so striking the way spike refrains from asking buffy to let him in even though he would be perfectly justified in doing so as it's obvious that buffy has forgotten he's not allowed in. i think part of it is that he wants to make it clear that he will respect the boundaries she has set with him. but i also think part of it is that he doesn't wanna feel the pain of being rejected again, because that fucking hurt. if he doesn't ask then he doesn't have to hear her say no again. it shows how head over heels he is for her and how much he has changed since the beginning of the season, when he was challenging her boundaries so much.

spike's expression when he's walking thru the doorway......it's so endearing and some really great acting from james marsters. first surprise and disbelief, then glee which spike is trying very hard to restrain because these are grave times. and yet he can't help feeling so joyous that buffy trusts him. he glances as the doorway like he's thinking "ah yes what a nice house" which makes me laugh because it's so stupid but also sweet. i think it's him trying to play it cool and doing a not so good job of it. there's such a lightness to him - it reminds me of the feeling when you think you did something to upset your friend a few days ago and you're anxious that they've been angry with you all this time and you finally gain the courage to ask them about you and it turns out they were never angry or upset at all. the giddy relief you feel.

and then there's that little moment of tension where they're standing so close together and you think something might happen but then spike breaks off and goes to the weapons chest and starts rambling about what they should take. it's so notable that it's him who gets nervous and moves away. so different from the way he behaved with her in fool for love, getting up in her space and trying to make her admit she had feelings for him. he's accepted that she'll never love him back, and moments like this where it feels like maybe there could be something between them are too painful, so he disrupts the moment. moves away.

jumping to the end of the scene - i love that buffy is on the stairs when spike does his little speech. she's physically above him. "you're beneath me." not only that, she's ascending, just as she ascends at the end of the episode, accessing a level of heroism that spike will never be able to meet. rewatching this part, spike's expression really surprised me. when he says "i know you'll never love me," he doesn't look at all bitter or resentful. his face is open, understanding, compassionate, and thankful. because that's what this speech is - he's thanking her for treating him better than he deserves. he's so grateful for the respect and trust she has given him. it has been truly transformative, as we've seen. only he doesn't get to the actual thanking part, because he cuts himself off, saying he'll wait for her down here. i think he cuts himself off because he realizes that this isn't what buffy needs to hear right now. she's got an enormous battle to prepare for, and a sister to save, and spike's feelings simply aren't important. so he stops mid-sentence for her sake. i think we're meant to understand that the only reason he started to say this at all is that he really thinks he might die tonight and it could be his last chance to let her know what it has meant to him to be treated like a person capable of doing good.

i've focused on what's going thru spike's head in this post bc i think buffy is a lot harder to read here. which is interesting bc sarah michelle gellar as buffy is so expressive that usually you can always tell exactly what buffy is thinking. but when she's with spike in these episodes toward the end of season 5 it's difficult to tell how she regards him. i think a lot of the time even she doesn't really understand how she feels about him. their relationship is so paradoxical. she relies on him but she reviles him. she wants him around but she finds him intolerable. i might rewatch the scene again and make another post about what might be going thru buffy's head, but for now i'll leave it at saying that i kind of love how spike's feelings for buffy are crystal clear to us and buffy's feelings for spike are much murkier. spike started out as this cool mysterious antagonist, whereas buffy has always been the protagonist and we're constantly seeing things from her point of view and being made to understand how she feels. so it's kind of fun to see that flipped a little bit. and it also rings really true for me how buffy in this moment is like, i have 5 billion things to be worrying about right now, i cannot even begin to process whatever feelings i may or may not have regarding spike. and with all of that said........there really is a softness to the way she treats him in this scene. and it's nice.

anyway. these two ✌️ gonna go jump off a tall tall tower

[reikunrei]

tbh i feel like if i had to pick a single standout performance out of everyone in stranger things... it would probably be gaten matarazzo. like, i feel like he very consistently gets scenes so perfect and so genuine, while other charas always have at least one scene where i go “eh, that didn’t feel like the best take they could have used.” not with gaten. he is, as dustin would say, right on the money every time

[k2ulhu]

finished watching the x files and had a breakdown in the middle of ikea

[kuiinncedes]

njvfnjfhgfd

[gayofthefae]

i just rewatched the hopper threatening mike scene bc of your post and was reminded how we literally don't know what he said to mike??! (someone else pointed this out way back, i just forgot). but like! he says i'm going to talk and you're going to listen, and then they drive off, and we don't see the actual convo. i think all we know is what mike says later, that hopper said he's spending too much time with el. i'm curious how you think that whole convo went.

Such a good point and this one of those things I like "meant to think about later"

Yes "I am going to talk and you are going to listen". I of course don't think it was anything explicit that Mike feared but he had definitely had that switch to "convince him how bad I wanna be with El" by that point in the conversation. So I don't exactly know what the "boundary" was but at the time I remember interpreting it as "stop spending time with her indefinitely, I'll let you know when you can come back".

But that threatening energy definitely stayed and I don't know that he stopped feeling scared of Hopper catching onto him even if he knew that he hadn't yet. In a similar way to El accusing him of not loving her. He knew by the end that she was mad about his behavior but didn't know why he was doing it, just like Hopper, but that doesn't put him in any less risk of her finding out if she's seeking those answers.

I think the same is true for Hopper. I think the talk in the car was very "tomorrow, you will not come to the house, you will not call and talk on the phone all day, and you will do that the next day and the next and the next and some time after that we will see if I will-" as he said in that scene "-allow you to continue to date my daughter".

I think that whatever he said was a continuation of what we saw but not clearly convinced of Mike's "normalcy" of feelings towards El enough that Mike's obedience was not based in trying to prevent Hopper from wanting to dig any deeper into it (especially as a literal COP).

But yeah. I don't know what Hopper said but whatever it was, Mike still felt scared about being found out afterwards. Enough that he couldn't just do what he ABSOLUTELY did in season 1 episode 1 and just...defy Hopper for someone he loves.

Because as I stated in my recent post, Mike DOES love El. Which is why his avoidant behavior with her is so odd. I remember thinking on my first watch "why doesn't he just disobey Hopper?" And I was right. He was never that scared of Hopper, I mean, what could he have threatened that would scare Mike that much? It's not like Hopper threatened violence against him. He WAS scary and being yelled at is a valid fear and he has legal power but at the end of the day, it all comes back to the fact that Mike has directly disobeyed Hopper BEFORE. So why wouldn't he now?

Because there are stakes to what Hopper will do if he disobeys that weren't there last time. "He'll be mad and be motivated to do something based on that" is a valid general fear, but in character, his logic I feel would lean more towards that that is preventable, protectable, and reversible. What is he gonna do? Frame him? Like-

But do you know what can't be undone?

Say Mike defies Hopper and continues seeing El, openly or in secret. Say Hopper knows. Say Hopper continues to think Mike's behavior around El, which he continues to commit to spying on, is odd. Say his curiosity motivates him to think harder on it. Say he, a straight man, continues to say to himself "that's not how I act around women, nor is it how I acted around them as a teenager. It seems almost......PERFORMATIVE". Say he realizes. Say his protectiveness over his daughter drives him to tell her. His stress about the situation drives him to tell Joyce. He tells her in Melvald's, it's overheard. Say now the whole town knows. Say they have pitchforks. Say he's the next Eddie Munson.

Now the stakes are pretty fucking IRREVERSIBLY high, aren't they? Cats don't go back in bags.

[n--n]

So can you elaborate on the lyrics of Poison being uninspired? I think a big problem with them is that there’s supposed to be a dramatic switch up in tone at the end, but it’s not actually big because the song has no dark subtext, the darkness is pure text. You can’t have a character say “My stories gonna end with me dead from your poison” then expect us to be shocked when the song gets sad in the end.

Addict was something people could have actually comfortably danced to in the club, which makes it hit when the concept is flipped to the dark side of itself, and it fits thematically, because it’s him coming down from his high, and he’s taking in what’s become of his life. Angel wasn’t happy before the ending of Poison so why is the song suddenly sad now like anything has changed?

But to me the lyrics seem unique enough. Like I can’t say any of them are cliches or platitudes. Though it kind of annoys me that the second verse like a regular pop song, but a real pop song has eight lines in verse one, this one has six and the Yeah yeah yeahs don’t count, so the second verse has an odd number of lines and just feels incomplete. That could be an example of it being uninspired.

Thank you for this ask it gives me an excuse to surgically open this song and really understand why it bothers me so much. Also it's 12 and I haven't rewatched it in a while so I might come back tomorrow and rewrite this so take it w a grain of salt sorry abt that.

In a nutshell- it's uninspired to me bc its such a nothingburger of a song. Like what do we get from it that we don't already know about Angel- either from the show itself, side content like the Addict video, or even from posts about him? Nothing. And lyrics aside, although the beat is good it's just a generic pop tune like Addict was a generic Kesha tune ya'know? Nothing about the melody particularly stood out to me as unique on its own or helping the storytelling. Even the fact that it's so upbeat in spite of the lyrics and visuals works against it when it gets towards the end and fails at trying to surprise you that it's sad.

"...so the second verse has an odd number of lines and just feels incomplete"

^^See thank you for articulating this bc I don't actually know much about how to articulate my thoughts on music, but this does help me make sense of why the actual tune just didn't grab me/felt off.

Also, going w/ the comparison to All You Wanna Do again- it's uninspired in that it also tries to do the thing where it makes a character use sexual innuendo to cope/describe the sa but falls so flat. Like,

"So far beyond difficult to resist another gulp

Yeah, I know it's poison You're feedin' me poison I'm chokin' from the taste and I can't help but swallow Up your poison I made my choice and Every night I'm wasted like there's no tomorrow"

Angel Dust does his dance as he sings this-and the images of him in his fetish gear/parts of the assault appear on screen, and he even poses in the positions it's implied he's being assaulted in. Like, was ALL of that necessary when the lyrics are already telling us directly what's happening to him??? Katherine made sex jokes abt her sa too, but we get to see her as her own character outside of the assaults and we learn so much about her pov, how it affected her entire life, etc. I feel like I wouldn't find it even that egregious if we had gotten to have scenes where the audience gets to see Angel be himself outside of the performative mask he wears+his suffering, but he was only used for cheap sex jokes when interacting w the others at the hotel. And now in his song, he redundantly sings abt his situation which we have already been shown:

"I got so good at bein' untrue I got so good at tellin' you what you wanna hear I disassociate, disappear Yeah, yeah, yeah"

We saw his conflict w Husk over how fake he is, saw him placate Val over the phone, and I can't recall if we saw him disassociate but regardless. The point is we know all this, it didn't need to be a song let alone a whole music video. If we left the scene after Val abused Angel in the backroom and made Charlie leave it would have been waaayyyyy more weighty and foreboding than this song/MV.

ALSO:

"You can’t have a character say “My stories gonna end with me dead from your poison” then expect us to be shocked when the song gets sad in the end." + "...and it fits thematically, because it’s him coming down from his high, and he’s taking in what’s become of his life."

^^^^THIS!! They really tried leaning into the tragedy of his situation but really just ended up making him a tool for whump instead. Addict was put together wayyy better musically, thematically and visually- it actually felt impactful when we're left with Angel Dust crying on the bed w his pet comforting him, whereas Poison leaving him on the ground left me feeling nothing but annoyance.

[the-catmans-offical-2]

I js had a dream someone asked you on here if homunculi slept, and you gave a really confident and decisive answer with a source. But as soon as I tried clicking on the link you posted the dream ended

That's amazing bc that is something I'd do, and will do rn because why not.

In FMA 03 its practically said that homunculi don't need to sleep, the only acception being Wrath because he's partially human or something of the sort; It's also why he has to eat, drink, and so on. The other homunculi don't have to, Gluttony just *wants* to eat but there's no actual need and they don't need to eat philosopher's stones but they do it for the regenerative purposes and whatnot. I have no idea about FMAB, but if I had to *assume* then the answer would also be that they wouldn't.

I can definitely link the ep that Ed and Lust talk in (Ep 46, Human Transmutation, 2003) and Ep 29, The Untainted child (Wrath Centric Ep) if you want though in PMs/DMs; But I can't say I've read articles in regards to FMA/B at all, I've just watched the show and whatnot so im basing my claims off that. Therefore I can't say much about Brotherhood, as I still need to rewatch it.

Here's the quote from FMA 03 I'm talking about in regards to Lust and Ed:

Ed: "I'm the one who should be asking why. Why do you wanna be human? You guys are immortal aren't you, and you don't even age at all from what I can tell. You can't be hurt, and you have powers no human bring can ever top. So why should I believe you when you say you want to give all that up!?"

Lust: "You don't know how cruel you're being, do you? Alright, then why do you want your brother to be returned to the flesh? He's practically immortal too. It's the same thing, Edward."

So it doesn't really talk about sleep, but since it brings up Al I think it's including sleep. As Al can't/doesn't need to exhibit the needs that are typically preformed by living beings, eating, sleeping, breathing, aging, and so on; So it's generally safe to assume that homunculi don't need to sleep but probably can, save for Wrath who does need to sleep. Though in Ep 29 he says that "everyone's dead" when referring to sleep, which Ed then corrects him on but I think he ignores because he's just silly like that.

That's all I got for the topic though lol.

[fbfh]

OMGGGGG YOUR FRANCIS HCS MADE ME REWATCH MALCOLM JN THE MIDDLE 😭😭😭😭 pls tell me you’re writing for him more 🙏🙏🙏

HONESTLY ITS MAKING ME WANNA REWATCH IT TOO 😭 Abso-fucking-lutely yes I will!!!!!! Send me asks about your Francis thoughts bc I have a few meself.

You know what would be an absolute hot mess disaster???? Okay we know Francis has a big fat obsessive crush on you, but the only thing worse would be if his brothers started to get crushes on you too. Like you're so nice and sweet and have such a charging soothing energy its impossible not to fall in love with you so no one can be too surprised. The problem is having one Wilkerson boy in love with you is already a handful, especially if its Francis. But all four of them????? Jesus fucking christ brace yourself.

Dewey is the first one to get a little puppy crush on you. You didn't make fun of him when he couldn't remember his times tables, you didn't even make him feel bad. You just said "it's okay, I had trouble with this too when I was your age. It gets easier the more you practice." With an encouraging smile. You gave him a couple tricks to help him remember the things he was struggling with, and that was the heart eyes moment. After that Dewey started bringing you drawings and pieces of candy and every good grade he got on an assignment just to see your face light up.

Reese falls for you next. You don't have to do much, he's probably going to have at least a tiny little crush on you if Francis likes you. What really gets Reese is when you help him beat a video game level. You offer to give it a shot and he humors you. You haven't mentioned anything about liking video games since you started babysitting, but he's really stuck on this level so he lets you give it a shot. He watches you annihilate aliens like it’s nothing and you beat the level in one or two tries. He can't remember any of the tips you give him about the game because he's too busy staring at you totally dumbstruck.

Malcolm is the last one to go. Before you come over one day, Dewey tells Francis he thinks he shouldn't try to date you anymore and Francis looks at him like he's grown another head. When he asks why, Dewey tells him he's going to ask you to date him instead. Much to Francis's surprise, Reese objects before he can. To say the room erupts into chaos is an understatement. They're all arguing about it when you show up, and Malcolm thinks it's the dumbest thing ever. Why would they spend so much time fighting over a babysitter and arguing about who you'd like back. Then you give Malcolm some old notes you found from when you were in the gifted class in middle school. You were in the gifted class in middle school? Someone as cool and pretty and cool as you?? He takes the notes and thanks you, suddenly thinking fighting his brothers for you doesn't sound so dumb after all.

[airenyah]

People I wanna know better tag meme

was tagged my @lurkingshan <3

Last song?

ok so there's actually a story behind the last song i listend to: earlier i was revising some stuff we did in my thai class before christmas (bc our new course is starting tomorrow) and one of the words was "earthquake" and i saw the thai word written down in my notes and somehow i heard the word as a melody in my brain?? instead of my normal reading voice?? and so i went to look up the song and sure enough the word is there

actually i heard the melody of the word "earthquake" from this song in somebody's very specific voice and i wish i could say that you can win a prize if you're able to pinpoint who and where exactly i got this song from but alas i don't have a prize, so you'll have to do with my highest admiration lmao . yes i've linked it on my blog before some time in the last few weeks

Favorite color?

blueee i really like blue, esp a nice shiny dark blue

Currently watching?

cooking crush

last twilight

the sign (i'm like 2 eps behind tho)

and i know i just got done with my bad buddy anniversary rewatch only yesterday, but i was thinking of doing another rewatch next month when i'm on semester break bc i wanna track all the times an instrumental version of "just friend?" plays as background music

Last movie?

*gaily* Überraschung!

no, i will not elaborate. this one goes out to all my german speakers. if you know you know 🤭

or actually, i'll let calvin and habs do the explaining

Sweet/Spicy/Savory?

totally depends on my mood and the dish

(unpopular opinion but savory strudel >>>>>>>>>> sweet strudel)

Relationship status?

trying to get over a crush single. bc i'd rather be caught dead than tell anyone how i feel about them. can't let people know we have, you know...

running away and denial is a healthy coping mechanism i know lmao

Current obsessions?

what am i if not a bad buddy blog in its joongdunk era

Last thing you googled?

"100 usd to euro" bc of this poll

Selfie or another pic you took?

enjoy this picture from that one time when boy cat INSISTED that he too needed to go on a walk when my mom took the dog outside and then got really angry when there was, well, snow on the ground

the world sure is not fair, huh

tagging:

@dimplesandfierceeyes @nongnaos @greenteadumplings @sunnenfinster @visualtaehyun @moonkhao @newyearknwwme @gaym3bo1 @ranchthoughts @mommyzhilla @callipigio

[autisticempathydaemon]

hello everynyan :3 /ref

4 the redacted match-ups ! not sure if you're still doing these or not bc i'll be damned i'd give up after the first 3 🙌🙌🙌 power 2 ya ! (if you ARE, in fact, not doing these anymore pls ignore this. this never happened. kay.)

What song are you fixated on at the moment? What lyric or verse, and why?

this was the hardest question bc i LOVEEMUSIC so bad i can never really pick ONE fav bc it changes every 2 seconds but !!! gun to my head as of rn i'd say -- "but not kiss" - faye webster

'i want to see you in my dreams,

but then forget.

we're meant to be,

but not yet.

you're all that i have,

but can't get.'

i chose this song primarily because of the aesthetics & instrumental,, + the feels - i love how the piano carries and portrays every feeling (dread? maybe?) alongside the vocalist ugh sick to my stomach /pos

as for the verses i've chosen i just. really like the way she sings them HA i guess depending on my current mood i might relate to the lyrics for .5 seconds due to a past relationship of mine that had me fuckedd anyway.

Do you love gargantuan Youtube video essays, and if so, which is your favorite and why?

i WISH i could enjoy these as much as others but i have the attention spam of a fucking goldfish i need to be stimulated 24/7. i cannot stare at the same face and occasional photo/clip for over 10 mins.

i might watch more of em if they had like a satisfying slime video in the corner or smth. i find i only watch ones that have a topic/interest of mine that i am actively curious about/into????if that makes sense??

for instance, the only one that comes to mind rn is "in defense of chat noir" by toon ruins UGH ITS SO GOOD i used to be a huge fan of miraculous so that defffinitely takes part in why i rewatch it every few months.

What is your go-to way to fall asleep?

on my stomach. arms under pillows. one leg up. yo i bought these headphones made specifically for sleeping while listening to relaxing noises or smth & i kid you not i use them shits to listen to asmr/rp audios. sometimes it puts me to sleep other times i'm up all night tryna figure out what position the listener and 'character' are in. anyway!!!

If you had to change your name, what would it be, and why? (In tandem, if you have changed your name, why did you pick that one?)

first thing that comes 2 mindd for whatever reason is 'may' ?? possibly bc i really like my birth name already and 'may' is somewhat close to it already? also because i'd love writing it over and over in my handwriting . probably just an excuse to write the letter 'y' actually.

What is your favorite of Redacted’s audios, and why?

fav character changes ALLL THE TIMEE for no reason my fav is all of them rlly i just wanna love and be loved BUT when i reaaaally think about it ?? hudson. even though he's like. an easter egg. i cant have anything. wanna "D D D D DDDJJJ ANXIETY" into his pants. what. who said that. just got hacked wtff

What Redacted boy holds no appeal to you, and why? Like, not the one you hate but the one who you don’t get the hype for. (I won’t judge, I promise.)

a know a LOTT of ppl love david but i am sorry i just cannot. angel better than me idk how they do it. srry. my momma raised a bitch. i've never ever gotten to finishing any of his videos so maybe im the problem but from the get-go THIS BITCH IS SCARY BRO he's so damn intimidating . the fact that his voice is rlly deep doesn't help either :C ..& don't even get me started on early david.

Which Redacted boy are you platonically attracted to? Like- forget dating, which dude do you want to be your best friend?

this is such a good question rlly makin me think . hmm . OK I FEEL LIKE A BASIC BlTCH BC PPL HAVE BEEN SAYIN THIS ALREADY BUT . hux. we like this 🤞 . as for why?? i feel like i need and would . honestly really appreciate more,, warmth and positivity in my life - and i def get that sorta 'aura' from him. & i know damn well he'd give the best hugs. and we could go to the gym together. it'd be so fun. so precious.

Do you have a go-to thing you ramble about when you’re tired, and if so, what is it? (For example, my boyfriend knows I’m ready to sleep when I start talking about space.)

ok first of all #relationshipgoals that is so sweet awe :((

i wouldn't say i really 'ramble' per say -- i just talk. to myself. like a normal person. mhm. i struggle with sleep in general, so i'm usually up till like 5am. typically endlessly scrolling through my phone, or talking to the abyss about something personal that's been on my mind for a while. if it's really bad, i cry in my voice memos. if i just need to - refresh? get smth off my mind so i can sleep? i write songs.

...and then i record them on my $15 wireless headphones. onto that very same voice memos app.

Tell me your go-to gas station and drink combo.

if im being honest,, depends on my mood . but god could i fuck up some strawberry milk and mini oreos right about now. . mind you i've had strawberry milk like once but it changed my life u dont understand

Tell me about your favorite playlist at the moment.

i mean i don't listen to it 24/7 but man i outdid myself w this one. it's called "insanity" and every single song matches the vibe of . just straight up 'otherworldly' ?? if u catching what im throwin?? all songs r pretty 'out-there' - in terms of the vibes - at least i like to think so. for reference it has songs like "goth - sidewalks and skeletons" and "eternal youth - růde" . IDK i guess it makes me happy when songs from a playlist actually match up with one other

What’s your guilty pleasure media, and why?

i listen to this japanese-kawaii-metal-based group called BABYMETAL and i loveee them soso much. a few "metal enthusiasts" go out and call their work 'not real metal' , which is why i guess you can technically call their music a pleasure media -- as well as the fact that whenever i put on one of their songs mfs r like ... what is this - cause its three young japanese girls talking abt bubblegum with the the most insane guitar riff in the back. their newer stuff is incredible. womanhood at it's finest. give them a shot plspls /nf

ALL DONE !! ty 4 reading & have a lovely day/night, wherever you may be <3

Oh, this one is perfect and required, like, no thought. Vibes-wise? Given your energy? It’s just gotta be Guy.

Building on that, I love that you write songs and he writes screenplays(?). I think it’s so cute to pair writers together so that you might inspire one another and be each other's biggest fans. I also like Guy for you because he strikes me as one of those people who calls themselves “polyjamorous”, listening to basically anything and everything. He loves all your songs and all your playlists, vibing along to all of it even if there’s no words or words in another language. He doesn’t care: he’s with you, so he’s having a good time.

I would predict a fun, artistic life for the two of you like parallel-playing co-writing sessions with the two of you having individual headphones on, making funny faces at one another when you catch the other staring. You take turns showing each what you’ve created and hyping each other up, offering critique. When the writer's clock keeps y’all up till 3 AM, he’s got leftover pizza and any snacks you could possibly want. (He strikes me as the sort of guy who always has junk food caches.)

Song:

It was just two lovers/ Sittin' in the car, listening to Blonde/ Fallin' for each other/ Pink and orange skies, feelin' super childish/ No Donald Glover/ Missed call from my mother/ Like, "Where you at tonight?" Got no alibi/ I was all alone with the love of my life

Given your passion for music, I tried to pick a love song for y’all that was emotionally evocative to the mind and the ear. I chose this one because I thought the piano instrumental and how it evokes that mental imagery of sitting with someone during the golden hour might resonate with you. I also like it for y’all because this song got really popular on tiktok, and Guy would probably know it from there.

Runner-ups:

Obviously, we have to have Hudson as a runner-up. As a DJ, he’d be so loving and so supportive of your craft, hyping you up on air all the time and playing your work whenever he can. He’d also make you really bomb-ass playlists. A less obvious runner-up would be Anton, but I really like this one. You’d be more of an opposites attract sort of pair, but I think it’d be cute, and listening to music would remind Anton of you while he’s away~

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[ukranianacearo]

Guess who watched The Hobbit AGAIN💪

And now I'm having ideas for some characters, but have no motivation to write it, so you get this.

Imagine Yandere!Thranduil x First Wife! Reader but with a twist (not the one where she's also yandere, srry)

So our reader has lived many lives because of someone who couldn't accept their death in their first life. They have a curse (or a spell, whatever you wanna call it) that makes them reincarnate every time with the same body, a similar story, same nationality, etc, but with no memories of past lives, they have the trauma,but they don't know from where it comes. Things in their life can change certain way, only if they don't see or even know about that someone's existence. And in one of their so many lives, they reincarnate as an elf (idk what is the gn word for elf, I'm sorry) who's not in a great position, to say. Their lives in general aren't very good, but this one is particularly bad. When they come of age, they parents decided that it's their time to marry (I think for elves the coming of age is when they turn 100 y/o, but they finish puberty at around 50 y/o). And they have options to choose, but unfortunately, most of them aren't really good options. Except Thranduil, it seems. So they agree to marry him, blah blah blah. One of the problems for reader, is that they're aroace. In every life time. And this one wasn't an exception. But Thranduil isn't aroace, in fact he falls in love with reader after long years of knowing each other and marrying each other in the end and even having a child, Legolas. When reader dies in this verse it affects greatly many, but for reader, life begins again from 0, without them knowing it. They are born in a totally different universe, where time goes much faster than in The Hobbit's universe. They live on, die at the usual age because they knew that someone as their childhood friend. But after this death, instead of reincarnation, they get to guard one of the universes for some time. Unfortunately thought, that universeexplodes right before their arrival and now they're a lost guardian, who lives a lot longer and can't die at all (bc simple guardians die of the universe they're guarding is destroyed). And now they just travel verses bc that's what they got to do. And imagine that one of the verses they travel to (and the slowest one that she has ever visited) is the Hobbit's universe and now she's making friends with Gandalf and long after she's with the gnomes and Bilbo going to Erebor.

And now I will leave the ending open, unless you want otherwise bc I don't know how to put my thoughts on paper (or rather screen) lol

See ya

And I'm going to watch the Hobbit again (the notes at the beginning are from when I started writing things and the notes at the end are the ones I write when I finish the piece. Usually, at least a day or some hours gave passed away from one point time the other) and I already rewatched LOTR. Might write for Legolas, why not

[lover-of-mine]

Your last post is funny bc just TODAY I watched that season finally. I’m literally 2 episodes into season 5 right now. As someone who just watched that for the first time (and hadn’t noticed it WAS the season finally when I started watching it) I was losing my goddamn MIND watching those episodes. Just constantly 😯😯😯. I began watching 911 when I started seeing posts circulating about Buck being bi. At the time I had no idea who he was other than the occasional gif set but it made me intrigued and I have been HOOKED. Literally trying to get through as many episodes as possible so I can watch the episodes live. Questions for you (since I have no one else to talk to about the show); when did you start watching? Have you had any predictions while watching the show that didn’t/ did come true? Like for me when I watched season 1 and Abby went to the fire department for the first time I SWORE up and down that her and Bobby were meant to be endgame (was clearly wrong lol). But also after Chris got stuck in the Tsunami I called it that something would happy to Harry later on (just a feeling that no one was safe lol, not even the kids). I’m just so curious to see what the fandom theories have been over time lol since I missed out on it!

Yeah, no, watching suspicion/survivors for the first time is WILD. Like, imma be honest and bit oversharing, I watched the show for the first time in a depressive episode, so I watched everything up to 5x10 in like, 6 days according to the posts I made on Tumblr about it, so I didn't realize theorize about anything, I was just hitting next episode like my life depended on it. But I didn't know anything about the show, like, at all, I had just watched 911 lone star in a weekend because it was on the tv and there were only like, 20 episodes of it out it at the time and a network in my country was just showing all of them on a loop, and I opened the Disney app fully intending to rewatch grey's anatomy, and 911 was the first show on my recommended to you list, and I had liked lone star enough, and was like sure why not. And I legit couldn't stop watching. All of this happened the week before 5x11 aired on the us, so 5x11 was the first episode I watched like "live" (the first episode I actually watched live was 5x16) but I watched it in the same week, I think I finished on a Tuesday? And the episode aired on Monday. I can't really give you any theories I have witnessed so far because they would be spoilers tho, but if you wanna come back once you catch up we can talk about some of the madness that goes around here. But I had the same thing happen to me, I didn't realize it was the season finale, and I didn't know anything about the show, so I had no idea what was happening, and I thought I had learned my lesson with the tsunami arc, because I watched 3x01 at like 3 am fully saying this is the last episode I will watch and then I'm gonna go to bed, and then the tsunami hit, and I was like well fuck and then Chris fell in the water and next thing I know is 5 am and Eddie is making me cry at the end there. But I saw the 13 and didn't realize the season only had 14 episodes and then everything kept happening. I seriously cannot imagine what it was like to be forced to wait a week between those 2 episodes it was SO CRAZY. When Eddie got shot I legit froze. Watching that for the first time not knowing it's coming is SOMETHING. I do remember thinking that they were gonna kill Shannon but I didn't expect to be right, I also remember clocking that Jason was Doug pretty fast. Something funny tho, I remember posting that meme that's like "I've had blank for 1 day and a half but if anything happened to him I'd kill everyone in this room and myself" with Buck and I waited until I had been watching for a day and a half, that means I posted it while watching the season 2 finale. I hit post and the truck blew up and I legit went like ????????? and that is still the most ironic thing that ever happened to me while posting about 911 kspskspkspakapkapa (here's the post, I actually came back to edit the tags because I was in shock lol) and I laugh every time I remember that lol but I'm glad you're enjoying the show, you can come back to talk to me about it any time!;

[butisittho]

rewatching community: highlights

from S3E16

- Troy checking in on Abed while he's on a fucking date with Britta is possibly gayer than a fully explicit anal sex scene

- Real Actual Dialog™:

Jeff: I left my wife for you when she was pregnant!

Annie: who do you think inseminated her?

- the totally straight™ character Troy Barnes: I can see why women find Clive Owen attractive to the point where I might just as well be attracted to him

- also Troy: I'm more turned on by women in pajamas than lingerie, I just wanna know they feel comfortable 😭 ❤

- Fake shirley in Abed's simulation: Abed's been filtered out because nobody NEEDS HIM :(((

- also pointing out that even in the simulation Troy is the only one who knew of Abed bc even Abed knows that Troy DOES need him

- abed according to annie according to abed: control freak with no empathy 🥺🥺

- Abed: we're inside a locker, it's where i spent a lot of time in junior high 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

- also Abed: I've run the simulations; I don't get married, I don't invent a billion-dollar website that helps people have sex, I don't make it into Sundance

perfect summary of how i felt about my life when I realized I was queer tbh

- Annie: Your simulations are nothing more than anxieties; you're afraid you don't fit in, you're afraid you'll be alone. Great news, you share that with all of us, so you'll never be alone and you'll always fit in. (...) I was trying to make life go according to some script, I can't, you can't. We need to get more comfortable winging it.

man sometimes this show gets really heartfelt in a way that i love

- LMAOOO when it cuts to a voice over of abed saying "I don't know a lot of things everyone knows" and there's a clock, shoelaces and taxes papers on screen 😭😭

[cringelordofchaos]

For the askgame: sean!!! :DD

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SEAN !!! time

favorite thing about them

everything argh!!!!!!!!! his headphones !! How he talks to Mr Broom and thinks it's totally normal !!! How passionate about music he is and how he uses it as a coping mechanism and a distraction from his family issues because due to the neglect he's faced caused by his parent being preoccupied with arguing with one another he's been conditioned to feel that his emotions don't really matter to others so he doesn't talk about them too much or express them too much but he does open up sometimes so he can make other a understand they're not alone !!! Also how music is his ONLY passion in life (special interest!?!?). his larger attachment to objects !!! His introversion? (Ik rosy said he has friends outside the club but you can have friends and still be introverted, lmao), either that or he spends his time alone cuz he's used to? Being alone cuz again patental neglect...,, how he stasu behind to clean the music club room after school instead of going home cuz he doesn't wanna go home probably bc of his.parentz !!!! How he rejected the offer to go to his house by car cuz he probably wanted to arrive later and also wanted to be able to think to himself !!! HOW HES SO CUTE 🥺 like how he tears up when Jake offers him his laptop 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 or how he tears up when the club reunites w Jake 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 or how he blushed or is awkward w daisy 🥺🥺🥺 AUTHGJFHF CUTIE PATTITIE. how subtle he is as a character like genuinely rewatch TMF and observe his facial expressions I promise they're all very carefully animated I promise I'm not lying to myself or others ahahaha. How kind he is !!!!!!!!!! And how genuinely understanding he is towards others, like, GENUINELY!!! like when he said "I understand if you need time alone but if you ever wanna talk were here for you" to zander like he's.so.patient and understanding . His love for pizzas. His bonds and friendships w others. How non judgemental he is idk do u get me. I listen to gateaway despite not rly liking the song I just love Sean and daisy lmao. How pretty he is !!! How trustful he is ??? His angst material !!! How his parents are so busy arguing so often theyre straight up neglectful, like Sean has made it pretty clear he REALLY REALLY cares abt his laptop and making music cuz it's his only escape from his issues, what do you mean your parents are probably gonna be too busy arguing to notice it's gone??? Your prized possession ??? Your PRECIOIS??? whatever. His dismissal of his emotions and how he felt bad for "wasting everyone's time" while they were trying to find his laptop at the store like buddy your friends care about you dw abt it. Whatever I'm probably overthinking about it IDC I will explorate every single little fucking detail from his character and overanalyze everything I DONT CARE. How his smile immediately fades after Milly walks away in ep6 and immediately says "what a day" further implying he's not rly truly happy even if he seems like he is around others ?? Cuz he doesn't want them to worry abt him bc he feels like he doesn't matter ??? OKG everything. I love the nonbinary HC but for the sake of simplicity I'll refer to him w he/him in this post sorry. how he was probably forced to grow up sooner than others? bc he had to learn to be independent for himself cuz his parents weren't there. lmao. ETC ETC C EYC PLS ASK ME MORE ABT HIM ANYTHING I LOVE TALKING ABT SENA

least favorite thing about them

lack of screentime. O mean at the same time I LOVE IT bc I get to overanalyze every single scene abt him and it's "ok" but yeah he deserves more. Also the severe utter lack of Sean centric fics out there- like either they're really unpopular or I just can't find them someone PLEASE give me Sean centric fics I've only read one jean fic where he had half the focus and it was back before ep10 after ep9 for the.love.og god please

favorite line (I FORGOT THIS ONE FOR DREW OOPS)

Probably "maybe they'll be too busy arguing to even notice it's gone anyway..." Which is literally the only piece of dialogue to confirm or suggest how his parent argue which kinda sucks but hey he's got 20.MORE EPISODES TO GO WOOOOO !!! . Like idk I'm normally for show don't tell but like. That one small piece of information changes everything TRUST. also "I know what it's like to have... Family issues." He genuinely sounded like he was gonna cry wholy shit. Also the only other piece.lf dialogue that suggests he has family issues. "It's my escape, I guess." Is also good. One of the more silly ones I like is "Mr Broom and I have plenty of great conversations together!" Like he's so silly u guys

brOTP

JEAMILLY JEAMILLY JEAMILLY. SEAMILLY AND JEAN RULE. I LOVE THEIR FRIENDSHIPS AND BESIDES FOR DAISY I FEEL LIKE HE MOGHT BE CLOSER TO YHEM??? IDFK. I ALSO LOVE PLATONIC SAISY PLUS I HC DAISY AS AROACE SO. AND THEU LOVE EACH OTHER SM AND BLUE DAISY SYMBOLISM. ALSO FANON DREAN LOOE COMEONERBBRNDNFJRHRJRJJRNR R I CANT BELIEBE I FORGOT TO MENTION IT IN MU DREW POST I THONK I MESNT TO MENTION JY BUT I FOTGOT

OTP

GENERIC ANSWER but SAISY. they understand each other's issues soooo much and while they barely ever.opened up to anyone else they learnt to open up to each other and they're both so kind and sweet and caring and loyal except daisy's moms are too restrictive and strict and harsh on her while Sean's just aren't there for him and have a horrible relationship w each other. So Sean shows daisy the way of having fun and being herself without stress of her parents cuz he had the freedom while she didn't. Also BLIE DAISY SYMBOLISM. Also flustered Sean is everything - also Sean puts ZERO pressure on her to do something for him like open up, he just like leads her to opening up cuz he can tell it she actually needs it n probably makes her feel safer despite hating herself y'know??? and how they spend time together at the music club room but since daisy's got detention now they might drift apart ??? Which might tie into Sean's family issues cuz he might feel his parents drifting apart and he might feel like there's no winning in love and it's all hopeless hello??? Also DREAN as romantic is also cool but I prefer it.platonic. same with Jean

nOTP

Tbh I don't rly have one?? I saw Sean x Hailey which I don't really like but otherwise idrc.

random headcanon

He has major depressive disorder (smiling depression) and also maybe is autistic ! And he owns a YouTube channel where he posts comfort playlists and his comment section is free therapy zone where anyone's allowed to vent and he'll hear them out <4444 he also has a pet turtle

unpopular opinion

he's not bland. I'm not sure if that's an unpopular opinion but I've heard of the idea of him being bland on multiple occasions and I kinda spiraled each time lmao. But uhh yea

song I associate with them

surprisingly I don't rly associate much songs w him sorry I just can't find enough kf his specific issues and personalitu kf that makes any sense. Though "Older" by Sasha Sloan is SOOOOOOO HIM CODED YOU GUUYS. HE USED TO SHUT HIS DOOR WHILE HIS MOTHER SCREAMED IN YHE KITCHEN. HEF TURN THE MUSIC UP GEY HIGH AND YRY NOT TO LISTEN TO EVERY SINGLE FIGHT. CUZ NEITHER ONE WA SRIGHT. HR SWORE HED NEVER BE LIKE THEM. BUT HE WAS JUST A KID BACK THEN. THE OLDER HE GETS THE MORE THAT HE SEES HIS PARENTS AREBT HEROES THEYRE JUST.LIKE HKM. AND LOVING IS HARD. IT DONT ALWAYS WORK. SOMETIMES ITS BETTER TP LET PEOPLE GO. HE USED YO BE MAD. BUT NOW BE KNOWS. SOMETIMES KTS BEYTER TO LET PEOPLE GO. IT JUST HADNT HIT. HIM. YET. THTE OLDER HE GETS -

ALSO "7 Weeks 3 Days" by Yungatita is so jean codes (Sean pov). Also he's totally singing "Hey" and "Rises the moon" by liana Flores to daisy

favorite picture of them

every single ome bit the only one readily available to me atm is this one which works

He's emmoo oh nooo

ABYWAY THANK YOU NNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE SEAB ;!!!!!!!!!!!!!;;!

[honestreviewsblog]

The Lizzie Bennet Diaries

Everyone who knows me knows how obsessed I am over P&P so when I read a Tumblr thread on Pinterest that said that this is one of the best things in the world... okay I didn't watch it instantly cos I'm prejudiced (badumtss) BUT a few years later, I found another thread that says it's amazing and people should go watch it and I'm bored so I thought, "alright?? maybe i WILL watch it????". And I did and it was the BEST FREAKING THING IN THE WORLD OMG.

I've watched the BBC and 2005 version and while I loooveee both versions equally in my heart of hearts, I think this version perfectly encapsulates my idea of Jane when I read the book. Jane was described in the book by Mrs Hurst and Caroline as "a sweet girl". In fact Jane was the only one in the Bennet family who received a compliment from both their judgy ass which further proves just how sweet Jane really was. And the actress totally nailed it, she was so soft-spoken and calm and good natured, when you see her all you can really think about was, "Oh my God she's so sweet".

Charles Bingley/Bing Lee's charac is much more nuanced in here and when you look at what he did to Jane in a modern eye, you might dislike him just a bit honestly. But I guess in this version, their feelings were mutual and they both knew that. In the regency era versions, he didn't know Jane's feelings because she's shy and didn't show it much and along with her family being soooo embarrassing, he was persuaded to end the "engagement" by the people whose opinions he hold in the highest favor. He fully redeemed himself tho the moment he knew and in all the versions, you just couldn't help but like him in the end cos he's an overall good guy and good person just surrounded by judgmental people lol.

Wickham's a first class a-hole, I hated him before but now I LOATHE him, he's a HORRIBLE person hope he dies a most painful death. Meanwhile Lydia, I looove her in this version. I can't believe I'd say this really, it sounds so crazy but yes I do love Lydia. I think she was a victim of her choices but she shouldn't be held majorly accountable for that. She's a kid, she didn't know better but when she did, she gained a lot of wisdom from it.

Lizzie couldn't be more relatable—she was relatable before but now with all the technology, it feels like she's speaking for my soul. Meanwhile Darcy is soooo dreamy, and much much more hilarious. Everytime he shows up I just wanna rewatch it all over again. He's also more intimidating tho in a sense probably bcs of his limited screen time and how the vlogs are structured to only see what Lizzie wants you to see and only what is sometimes taken from a camera "candidly". No other point of views and no other camera points that might suggest otherwise. The whole vlog was totally Lizzie, it's like travelling inside her mind and only knowing people through her. It was definitely a whole other experience to which I absolutely loveeee as I do like to experience P&P in different ways.

Kinda sad that I didn't get to watch it at the height of its popularity tho cos I can only imagine the hype?? the chaos?? the excitement for the next episode next week?? the intensity of waiting for Mr. Darcy to finally appear on screen?? It must've been sooo crazyyyyy

Overall it was 10/10 I can't believe I finished it in 2 DAYS WTHHHH I WAS SO OBSESSED

[bropunzeling]

If you're up for some random-ass questions, here are some questions for the new year!

what fic were you proudest of this year?

what fic are you most surprised you wrote?

favorite old (to you) ship this year

favorite new (to you) ship this year

favorite old (to you) ship you picked up again this year

favorite old man (old man being a state of mind not gender) ship (maybe you ship a younger version of them but they're Old Men now)

ships/characters you're excited about in 2024

fics/plot bunnies you're excited about working on in 2024

give a random prediction of any kind - about your own writing, about your fandom's fic trends, about canonical developments in your fandom

share a random thought about fics you've written, characters you're thinking about, writing in general, etc

Feel free to pass on if you'd like, or not! Happy new year!

thank you anon! what a great excuse to ignore the work computer. also consider this a blanket "steal these prompts" from me for whoever is so moved bc i don't want to tag everyone

what fic were you proudest of this year? i might have to say only fools rush in aka marriage bets! it certainly is the longest one i've written and had the longest gestational period. plus i wrote a lot of it while incredibly busy (tho maybe that helped?). im still happy i managed to hit the balance between ridiculous premise and genuine feeling that i was aiming for, and that i managed to figure out and feel comfortable in a new pov.

what fic are you most surprised you wrote? linger. if you told me a year ago i was gonna write 65k of omegaverse i simply would not have believed you! it wasn't a trope i ever thought i would write! and yet here we are. lmao.

favorite old (to you) ship this year? i mean. viva la ratfiction. someday we may run out of steam but not this year by golly!

favorite new (to you) ship this year? the amount brady/quinn clawed its way into my brain this year cannot be overstated. maybe i was exploring last year but this year is when it really got me in a fucking chokehold. the pining! the friends to lovers of it all!!!!! exquisite. honorable mention to matthew/sasha. those two ARE in love.

favorite old (to you) ship you picked up again this year? earlier this fall i started a rewatch of miss fisher's murder mysteries and god. jack and phryne. they are EVERYTHING. someday i really will write fic for them.

favorite old man (state of mind) ship? gotta be honest first thing that came to mind was band of brothers winters/nixon. we'll go to chicago. i'll take you there.

ships/characters you're excited about in 2024? hmm brady/quinn, obvi. the general state of brady tkachuk and how i'd like to give him a midlife crisis and by midlife i mean when he's 29. jamie and trevor are BACK baby, and i wanna make trevor sad and making poor choices for 50k before he finally gets to get kissed. has someone written timmy stu and mo seider as summer boyfriends yet? bc i still like that.

fics/plot bunnies you're excited about working on in 2024? i think i have tentatively figured out my next long matthew/leon project (which i can't start until the new year) but i don't want to say quite yet in case i scare it off but! that. it WILL be a true slow burn which will be fun. also ballet quinn i WOULD like to put more than 2k in your gdoc. hopefully at some point soon inspiration will hit again/i'll feel less dull and burnt out

give a random prediction of any kind - about your own writing, about fandom trends, about canonical developments in your fandom: the kraken will sign yamo to a longer contract. i will start a project thinking it will be nice and short and then watch it double, like bread dough rising.

share a random thought about fics you've written, characters you're thinking about, writing in general: did you know the more you write the better you get? even though there’s plenty of areas where i want to improve and become a stronger, more thoughtful developer of sentences/plots/et cetera, i can really see my growth from month to month or year to year and that's neat!!! i'm slowly getting better!!!