#sannin angst

[usuratongaychi]

imagine they accidentally kill someone on a mission, the others are distraught but orochimaru lingers over the body, prodding it like a curious kid coming across a dead bird. curious, he reaches inside while no one is looking, inspecting the still-beating organ covered in thick blood…

there was always something off about him

[psy-ay-ay]

sorry for being so late to this realisation but the sannin angst >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

like when orochimaru comes to save tsunade who literally is split down her middle and they talk about the potential of what ~could have been~ and the third one who is dead but he's there, between them, like orochimaru always was between jiraiya and tsunade all their lives

like i want so much more of that

[sannin-three]

[senjutsunade]

It had started off as a deceptively tranquil evening.

Or as tranquil as evenings could be now that she had returned to Konoha, taken on the Hokage mantle, and devoted her days, evenings, and nights to the curse of never-ending paperwork.

Shizune – the sly creature that she was – had somehow managed to hide all of her sake, leaving Tsunade desperate for a drink. And not the cheap kind she could buy from any random stall in Konoha – it was a shinobi village, after all; sake was sold more than water. In her quest to quench her thirst (or addiction), Tsunade decided to raid Jiraiya's stash – the toad sage had to have some good quality alcohol. Maybe she'd be lucky enough to score some Umeshu.

The air outside was unusually still, the village wrapped in an eerie calm, like the quiet before a storm. As Tsunade ventured out, the soft glow of lights flickered along the streets, casting whimsical shadows that danced and twirled in the corners of her vision. The promise of a stolen moment of indulgence hung in the air, whispering sweet temptations into her ears. She moved with a mix of determination and mischief, the prospect of raiding Jiraiya's secret stash adding a spark to her otherwise monotonous routine. 

She knew where he was staying, of course. The motel was old-style, not the best, but it had a sort of charm that suited her fellow Sannin. Breaking through his seals was laughably easy; his style hadn't changed after all these years. Nostalgia hit the blonde, turning the mischief in her expression into a softer smile. Perhaps not everything had changed. Stepping into the place, her eyes took in the clean setup, and she found herself sighing softly. The place was too organized for it to be the same Jiraiya from their younger days. A stark reminder that time had indeed passed, and the momentary nostalgia had been just that—a fleeting moment.

Banishing the sullen thoughts, not wanting to ruin her evening, Tsunade stepped further into the darkness, only to step on a piece of crumpled-up paper. She'd been ready to ignore it; one more step, and it would have never entered her thoughts again. And yet...curiosity got the better of her. That one scrap was an anomaly in an otherwise perfectly organized environment, and it was beyond her nature to ignore an anomaly.

In hindsight, perhaps it would have been better if she had ignored it. Some burdens were too much to bear.

What she had assumed to be some silly draft of his trash novels indeed contained content that left the Senju stunned. She knew his writing as well as her own, after all. Hazel eyes moved over the words once. Twice. Dread creeping onto her. Each word was like a kunai digging into her heart. Leaving new wounds while opening old ones.

The third time she tried to read them, expecting the whole thing to be some genjutsu (or a nightmare), she realized her vision was blurry. Tears spilled down ashen cheeks as she slowly sank to her knees, clutching the paper in trembling hands. How? Why? Why would he think that?

A thousand thoughts assaulted her—of their years together, of childhood days spent always next to each other. All happy memories from her perspective. Now she viewed each from how he might have interpreted them. How long? Her shoulders shook with choked sobs at the idea of him thinking he did not belong, even during those early days. Yes, Orochimaru and her had bonded over their shared scientific curiosities. Yes, the snake sannin had ensnared her mind from an early age, and much of her attention had unconsciously been directed at him—she could not deny. And yet, she had never even questioned Jiraiya's presence in their odd little dysfunctional family. How did the fool not realize he completed them?

From childhood to their days as Chūnin, Orochimaru's scathing words and her merciless fists—how much had they damaged their third half? How had they not realized? How did Jiraiya never see that there was never any actual heat in Orochimaru's words and that her hands were as quick to heal him as they were to deal damage?

It was now her tears that stained the paper, smearing the ink.

If only erasing the words was enough to erase her memory or erase his wounds.

She forced herself on her feet—she had to talk to him. To make him understand how much he mattered. Determined, she ruthlessly wiped away her tears, stalking towards the door, mind going over all the possible places she might find him, only to stop as dread filled her. She’d sent him on a mission…

A mission he may not return from. May not want to…

Her fist clenched tightly around the scrap.

Her feet rush her towards the gates of Konoha. The guards are startled at her unexpected appearance but a withering glare from them stops them from questioning her. She stands just outside the doors and knows this is where her boundaries are - for as desperately as she wishes to run after him, he has shackled her to this place. She shakes in anger, in despair. 

And she waits….

He is expected to return by sunrise. But sunrise is hours away. 

Hazel eyes stare ahead though, willing him to appear on the path leading back. He does not. Time passes. The night's chill creeps in and yet nothing can move her from her spot. Shizune’s brief appearance is ignored and her apprentice knows her enough to know it is better to leave the Senju alone. 

Minutes, hours. They tick away slowly. 

All the while her heart aches for the sight of him. Her mind tries to come up with all the ways his mission could go wrong. It was an A rank but there was never any certainty, right? 

Kami-sama, had she sent him to his death? 

She waits as the sky lightens, dawn breaking and her heart beats faster. He has to return. He must. 

He will….right? 

Minutes stretch on. 

The guards are sending her curious and concerned looks, not sure what to make of their new hokage and her clearly unhinged act. But it’s a shinobi village, so they may amuse themselves with gossip but deep down they understand. 

She feels his chakra before she sees him. And then she is moving, finally, her muscles complaining after she had stood still for so long. Chakra enhances her speed and she only stops once she stands before him. Momentary just taking in the sight of him - there. Alive. 

And then she assesses him from the eye of a medic. Her eyes, trained and precise, began their silent assessment. Starting from his head, she notes the slight droop in his shoulders, the faint lines of tension around his eyes, and the way he favors his left side. Her gaze moves down, observing the way he holds himself, the stiffness in his movements. Every bruise, every cut, every subtle sign of injury is registered in her mind.

And then she feels like she can finally breathe again. A momentary relief as her listless eyes finally rise to meet his dark counterparts. 

Her lips tremble and she can not stop the hand that raises as she slaps him. There is no power behind it. It's not even hard enough to leave the slightest mark on his skin. “How dare you….” 

Her hands shove against his chest. Once. Twice. Again and again, until his back is against a tree and she has to stop, her rage waning as grief overwhelms her. “How dare you think you wouldn’t have mattered?” she chokes the words out as tears fall again. Even saying the words makes her feel sick. Her trembling fingers curl in the threadbare material of his haori as if she were intending to shake him but has no strength left. 

Self hatred, grief and guilt has drained her like nothing else could. 

She stares up at the man that had more often than not been her rock and wonders when he started to crack under the pressure. “We were all fucked up Jiraiya. From the first mission to the day we became the sannin. We were always a mess but as long as it was all three of us, it didn’t matter. The sannin are three, not two.” Words were never her strength. They were his tools. More desperate tears fall as she shoves the crumpled up paper in his hand, wanting it away from herself. She wants to burn it. To erase its existence. But she needs for him to know she knows. 

“Orochi and I could afford to fuck things up….test our limits because we always knew you’d be there to catch us. We knew that and that trust allowed us to be who we became. We both had a penchant for getting lost in our own heads and it was you who always pulled us back to reality. You who always….” reminded us to live. She shakes her head, unable to continue that thread, as she is momentarily overwhelmed by bitterness and grief. 

“Orochimaru may have been the brains and I the strength but you were the soul and the very heart of the sannin, you fool!! “

I’ve always been alone. Others will try to convince me otherwise but when I take the time to think beyond the surface I see it too. They just think I’m dumb enough to not realize it. I’m not one of the team. I’m just a shared burden for them to laugh at. The shared love for medicine and scientific discoveries bonds them in a way I can never be apart of. I’ve seen them whisper behind my back. I’m not an idiot. I know it was about me. My own teacher lacking any faith of what I can do. I’m just someone to laugh at. I guess they never believed in me. No one does.

If they did truly love me, they wouldn’t have left me.

If I truly loved them then I shouldn’t have been such a coward. Maybe if I died I wouldn’t feel like this. I’d finally stop being a burden. Even now. As I forced us together and created a fight. I felt that same distance. That maybe if I weren’t here it wouldn’t have mattered. They share a bond even if on opposite sides. Even then they have someone when there isn’t each other. Their students are still alive. Where I failed mine.

And they forgot about me.

If I weren’t here then nothing would have changed. I don’t think I’ve ever mattered. Maybe I should stop pretending that I do. It eats away me. This… loneliness. I guess the only change I’ll ever make is when the bugs thrive off my flesh and the earth that grows from my remains.

The page it’s written on is crumpled up to the point it’s almost soft and the integrity of the paper is close to falling apart. The ripped edge implies its from a journal and was hastily torn out. There’s inky fingerprints everywhere and the sloppy writing itself suggests it was written in a messy emotional tirade. A feeble attempt to get out the thoughts that cloud his brain. It isn’t signed or dated. But those who have seen this handwriting before know who it belongs to.

[19silvermirrors]

Farewell, Jiraiya-sensei 🌧 11/11

[humanconditionpoetry]

Passing Toads! - Jiraiya's Birthday Poem

T.W/Tags - There are some Sexual Themes in this Poem(Not Overt) and Death. This is based on Jiraiya's Life based on the anime Show Naurto.

Again, T.W/Tags - Sexual Themes(Not Overt) and Death!

Passing Toads:

I graduated from the Ninja Academy.

Put on Team that seemed it up of alchemy.

One a Genius, another with brute strength and chakra.

Meanwhile, for me, it seems I didn't possess anything...

Not even cakra...

It matter not, for a while, as I was little prevert among many things...

I swear, it is for research, stop burying the life in me!

But one day, the teacher called...

Told me that I needed to do better in the way of the ninja or else I fall.

So, that is what I did, as my rival was getting better...

The girl on my team, I wanted to please and get her.

One day, I was trying to do a summoning....

But ended up in the realm of toads with one forth coming.

I was offered a chance to run with the toads....

So, under their tutelage, I began to do what they told...

Through the months and years...

My strength increased, making me in line with my peers.

Before I left the toads, as the end of teaching grew near...

A prophecy was told to me that I would try to adhere.

Though the peace would not last....

I also taught a three-man team that I hope would amass.

One who I was hoping, due to his skill would be the child of prophecy that came to pass.

During the Second Great Ninja War, fame came fast.

The Title of Legandary Sannin was place on me, as well as my team.

From the great ninja from the Hidden Rain, he would casted.

Peace to the Ninja World was my dream...

The destuction I caused would gleam....

The ruins of the land and the hearing of people screams...

One day during this war, a chance to redeem.

Three kids approach...

After a brief convstation and hearing of their dangerous travels...

I decided to stay behind and be their coach....

After a while, I left them, knowing they can now defend themselves from any battle.

I went back home.

Hearing of all the great news and the ones found dead, all of it set in tome.

Later history would unfold....

But things never go as plan...

Third Great Ninja War was now at hand....

So I went, gain more fame...

That hardly anyone who met me would not know my name.

Jiraiya, the Legendary Sannin and the Great Toad Sage.

Just when i thought the end was near and be put to rest.

The Genius had gone mad, seeking immortality and all of justu without a care of the people engaged.

To worsen, the teams I had built, I heard they had gone into ruin.

This felt like I failed the trial and test.

However, I am not quitting, not yet...

I vow to bring back my friends, this I would atest....

While, I roam protecting the village from threats.

In the end, it seems I had nothing to show for expect failings and regrets.

My friend went rogue....

Could not get the love of my life....

I lost all of those who I natured and cared for...

Away from village and killed by Pain.

At least, I hope the final student that I passed my knowledge too.

Will bring peace to shinobi world and be the child of prophecy and go through.

R.I.P - I think I will call this final tale: The Tale of Jiraiya the Gallant.

I remember watching his death and feeling so awful. Happy Birthday, Jiraiya, may you R.I.P!

I hope you all like this poem and check the blog for future poems!

[cocostyles]

Do I look like him? — Naruto Uzumaki

pairing: Naruto Uzumaki x fem reader!

word count: 1 k

summary: The daughter of Jiraiya notices how everyone seems to see her father in her.

warnings; little angst, english is not my first language.

The afternoon in Konoha was calm, the sun bathing the streets in its golden light. A beautiful figure with white hair walked through the market, drawing the attention of a few curious onlookers. You were not someone easy to ignore: your elegant bearing, your long hair inherited from your father, Jiraiya, and the intense eyes that seemed to see through people—how could you go unnoticed when you were the only daughter of the legendary Sannin?

You had returned to Konoha after years of living far away. Your father's stories had always surrounded you, a man you almost never saw and didn't feel you ever truly got to know, yet whose shadow you constantly felt breathing down your neck. Since you were little, you had heard rumors, tales about his charisma and, of course, about his relationship with Naruto Uzumaki, the Seventh Hokage.

Naruto was everything you admired. His energy, his smile, and the way he spoke about the people he loved had captivated you since the day you met him. You knew you had also caused that effect on him; it was undeniable that both of you felt something for each other, and the only thing holding you back from advancing was the weight of your father.

Although Naruto didn't try to hide that he liked you, there was something unsettling about the way he looked at you. A mix of nostalgia and sadness that you couldn’t decipher.

One day, while you were training in a secluded clearing, Tsunade appeared to watch you. You had always respected her as your mentor, having known her since you were a child, but there was something more between you two, something you could never explain—Tsunade looked at you as though she saw a ghost, and you were starting to get tired of it.

"Is there something wrong with me?" you asked one afternoon, sitting next to the Sannin on the bleachers of the training field.

Tsunade sighed, placing a hand to her forehead. "Not with you. But sometimes… when I look at you, I can't help but remember someone else."

"My father?"

Tsunade shook her head. "Not exactly. It’s more complicated than that. It's like you’re the answer to questions I could never ask."

You shifted uncomfortably. You knew something had happened between them that was never resolved. Despite it all, you had loved your father, that man who, though you barely remembered, used to take you to the lake when he visited and shower you with gifts, the one who taught you your first summoning. Of course, you had loved him, and his death had brought you great pain. But now, you no longer wanted to be trapped in his shadow, chasing and never reaching a ghost.

That conversation left you unsettled. You didn’t have time to dig deeper because Naruto invited you to join his team for an important mission. It was your chance to prove that you were not just Jiraiya's daughter, but someone capable of forging your own ninja path.

However, while working together, that discomfort resurfaced. Naruto smiled at you and treated you with his usual warmth, but there were moments when he would just stare at you, almost lost in his thoughts.

"Naruto-sama," you said one night while camping, "Is there something you want to tell me? Because I feel like you always look at me as if you’re expecting something from me."

He seemed surprised by the question but didn't deny anything. "It’s complicated, Y/n. Sometimes, I feel like… I already knew you before you got here. Like the universe is showing me something I forgot."

The conversation lingered between you two, and you couldn’t help but wonder if he truly felt a real connection with you or if it was all related to his father. Was she a reflection of Jiraiya? Or was there something more?

Tsunade sought you out after the mission. "Your father had a deep love for many things, Y/n. But one of the few things he regretted was not being here to see how Naruto fulfilled his dreams, and his greatest regret was not having spent enough time with you. And now, every time I see you with Naruto, I can’t help but think… is this what Jiraiya would have wanted? That his daughter found something special in the boy he always admired?"

You understood then. It wasn’t just your physical resemblance to Jiraiya that left everyone confused. It was the way you connected with Naruto, as if you were destined to meet.

One day, while training together, you decided to speak up. "Naruto, I’m not my father. I’m not an echo of him. I am me. And if I stay here, close to you, it’s not because I feel obligated by what you two shared, it’s not because I want to hear about how he was, because I didn’t know him as well as you did… If I stay here, it’s because I want to be here. With you."

Naruto looked at you, first surprised, then slowly, a smile began to form on his face. "I know. And I’m grateful for that. I really like you, not because you’re his daughter… I like everything about you, and what you represent. I admire you so much."

For the first time, you felt like you didn’t have to prove anything, nor fill the void for someone else. You were forging something new, something that was all your own.

And Tsunade, watching you both from afar, felt that the déjà vu in which she saw herself and Jiraiya reflected in Naruto and you finally made sense. The past, unfortunately, could not be changed, but the present was an opportunity to heal.

[socra-time]

Socra’s Naruto Liveblog Ep. 91-100

(how tf are we at 100 already)

Ep 91:

-I can’t believe Tsunade is making a bet to win a 12 year old’s money

-the height difference between Jiraiya and Tsunade in the flashback is crazy

-welp I understand why Tsunade doesn’t like blood now

-Tsunade and Jiraiya have an interesting dynamic so far

-also at this point I know a little bit about Orochimaru’s and Tsunade’s pasts, but I realized that I still know virtually nothing about Jiraiya’s

Ep 92:

-can Kabuto PLEASE get an outfit change now that he’s not being a spy anymore (I just really hate his outfit lol)

-I really hope Sakura gets a cool technique to match Naruto’s rasengan and Sasuke’s chidori

-I can’t believe Tsunade actually DRUGGED Jiraiya

-Orochimaru sent Kabuto to take out Shizune but like… since his arms are useless, how does he expect to take on Tsunade if she tries to fight him????

-why would Tsunade ever expect Orochimaru to keep a promise to leave Konoha alone? There’s literally no way he would do that

-oh nevermind I guess Tsunade was gonna trick Orochimaru or something

-this is so off topic but Orochimaru’s hair kinda slays

Ep 93:

-Tsunade’s voice actor is popping off in this episode. She really sounds broken and torn up about how much she wants to see her loved ones again

-Naruto is once again having a profound positive effect on every character he meets

-I need Tsunade to kick Kabuto’s ass so bad. Fuck him up for me queen

-I like that Tsunade’s fighting style revolves around punching shit. I appreciate that even though she’s technically a medic, she’s also a physical fighter

-I said this back during the Naruto vs Kiba fight but if food pills are so helpful why aren’t people using them all the time

-Tsunade punching Kabuto in the face was satisfying as shit

-I don’t like that Kabuto was actually able to “beat” Tsunade. I know he took the food pill but WHY is he that powerful? He’s like someone’s edgy overpowered OC and my hate for his annoying ass grows with every episode he’s in

Ep 94:

-Orochimaru biting Jiraiya’s neck was uh… interesting🤨

-Kabuto needs to shut the fuck upppppppp. I want him dead so bad

-Naruto hitting Kabuto with a rasengan right to the chest was one of the most satisfying moments in the show so far

-(can you tell how much I fucking despise Kabuto)

Ep 95:

-see Sasuke’s already had multiple near-death experiences so it was about time for Naruto to have one of his own

-Orochimaru summoning a snake sword out of his fucking MOUTH was so weird ngl

-also the way the sword stuck out of his mouth like a tongue looked kinda stupid in a lot of shots

-lmao are we gonna get a sannin Kaiju battle

Ep 96:

-Tsunade saying “give my regards to hell” before punching the shit out of Orochimaru was metal as fuck

-also Tsunade wrangling Orochimaru by his tongue was so satisfying

-Orochimaru’s theme continues to go hard

-Naruto is such a hater to Tsunade lol

-Tsunade giving Naruto the forehead kiss was a great callback to her past

Ep 97:

-I do like Jiraiya and Tsunade’s dynamic a lot. Jiraiya has actually been pretty tolerable this arc

-I love Naruto nicknaming Tsunade “Grandma Tsunade”

-I feel bad for Shizune, her job is definitely kinda thankless

-Ngl Naruto pretending to be kidnapped to help make Tsunade pay off her debts is a hilarious plot point

-I love that Naruto sympathizes with the people who need Tsunade to pay the debt she owes, he really has a good heart

Ep 98:

-I’m just gonna pretend the scene with Konohamaru and Tsunade’s boobs didn’t happen

-ah I was so happy to see the other Konoha kids again

-Shikamaru really needs to have a Sokka arc and unlearn his sexism

-jesus Sasuke looks really traumatized. I’m worried about him

-I literally started yelling “MY CHILD” when Lee came on screen (also I love how antsy Gai was to get Lee healed)

-I was not expecting so much Lee angst in this episode. My poor boy:(

Ep 99:

-so like who’s gonna look after Konohamaru now that Sarutobi is dead? I’ve been wondering about what the village does about all its orphans for a while actually. Are they all just living in random apartments like Naruto?

-I really like Sakura and Lee’s relationship. It’s very wholesome

-Tsunade’s first act as Hokage should be making everyone go to therapy

-Tsunade busting through Konohamaru’s traps with the most deadpan look on her face was kinda iconic ngl

Ep 100:

-seeing Lee look so depressed is SO heartbreaking. My poor babyyyyyy

-god I love Gai’s dub voice so much. It’s literally perfect for him

-again, how did Lee pass the academy exam and become a genin???

-I appreciate having these little interludes about characters like Lee and Konohamaru, it helps add to the sense that there’s more to Konoha than just Naruto

-NO LEE IS CRYINGGGGGG

-the flashback of Lee and Gai talking about self-imposed rules is a good interaction but also it looks so fucking stupid because they’re walking on their hands during it

-ugh Gai and Lee are so father and son coded

[lenelee]

Dad Kakashi x daughter trope (

Kakashi x oc (not romantic)

Trope: found family

Word count: 1.5k

Warning: Oc character, Tragic backstory, mention of characters deaths, selective mutism disorder, Angst (if you squint?), hurt/comfort?, trauma, previous relationship, childhood love.

Kakashi ex girlfriend and comrade was someone he never could keep his mind off. Once he started to feel normal a little girl with white hair shows up, being called the daughter of his ex girlfriend. He was left with a note to raise her.

Kakashi didn’t know what to expect when he was called to the Hokage office. He assumed it was just another mission, so he put his uniform on, concealing his face underneath his mask, and made his way undetected.

He hadnt expected to be greeted by the Hokage alongside one of the legendary Sannin. The other white-haired man had been out of the village for a while, claiming to have research to do. Kakashi was a bit surprised to see him there.

He was even more surprised when they settled down and Jiraiya brought out a small blue-haired girl. She looked around seven… almost the same number of year Jiraiya had been gone for. Kakashi assumed it was the older man’s daughter and he would be assigned to guard her.

But what he was told was much worse.

Kakashi had never sought out love. He had actively avoided it, his childhood traumas leaving him to scarred to get close to anyone. He had seen others find love during times of war only to be left with hurt and alone. Kakashi tried to stay away from it as long as possible.

Yet he couldn’t help it when a beautiful girl with the kindest soul make her way into his heart, making him year for something he have vowed to never have, never want. Every time she stepped into the room, he couldn’t help but let his mind wonder to the terrifying place of his imagination, the future. Imagining their future together.

Kiyomi Tatsuyama. That was her name. The girl with all the time in the word, who used it all to pester him. She would always bother him during his morning walks, beg to spar with him only to go home with bruises, make him lunches when she assumed he was to busy to make his own, and bring him extra scarves during winter.

It annoyed him. She always asked what he was doing, the thing he liked, his favorite foods, his hobbies, and what kind of Shinobi he was.

He tried hard to put a distance between them, but mo matter what he did, she found a way to get to him. He hate it.

He hated how he would walk by her house slower when he noticed her rushing to do her hair before joining him. He hated how he would fall into an easy cycle of teasing and playful banter during their spars.

He hated how he would purposely complain to his comrades about how hungry he was when she was around so he could try the new food she made, despite it being overcooked. He hated how he’d leave his coat and scarf at home so she would nag and feel bad for him.

He hated the way her finger tips left a warm trail against his neck when she wrapped her scarf around him, the small scowl on her when she scolded him, the small dimple that appeared when she caught him staring blissfully, asking if he was listening, and how she would blush when she tried to scold him.

He hated the fact that he fell in love with her. And he hated it when she left. Leaving him behind with just a bite, telling him he would be in her heart forever before disappearing from his life forever.

His comrades would ask about her once they noticed the “fly” was no longer hanging around him, wondering if she had finally gotten the clue and stopped bothering him. He hated how heart broke he felt.

He hated how he could still hear the small cracks in his heart grow even after all these years as he read a note she had left him again. Hearing her soft voice saying he words he read:

“I always liked the cold. I liked the cute outfits I got to wear. The excuses it gave me to get close to you. I liked how warm I felt without feeling sweaty. I always felt that way around you. I felt nice and warm. Sorry if I bothered you, Kakashi. I couldn’t help who I fell in love with and how I handled it. I’m also sorry for what I’m about to do you. I don’t trust anyone the way I trust you. I know you’ll take care of her. People aren’t so kind to those who are different, of the unknown. She’s a good kid. She won’t bother you much. She likes to speak a lot but if you ask her to be quiet she won’t talk. She loves winters as much as I do and she likes to watch the stars shine. She doesn’t know how to make friends and she likes to eat a bunch of Dorayaki. Please take care of Kasumi for me…

I want you to know….I do remember that night.. Thank you.”

Kakashi couldn’t help the ache in his chest when he finished reading the letter. The way he crumpled the paper. The way he stared at the girl who stood behind Jiraiya, looking around curiously. The way the older men looked at him with hidden pitty behind their eyes.

He felt another stab at the heart.

“Kakashi, you understand you must take care of this girl? This child has been entrusted to your care. If you refuse her, she will be handed off to her grandfather. Although the isn’t reckless, he is in no condition to take care of a child. He can barely walk himself.” Hiruzen explained, his voice steady but his eyes filled with unspoken concern. Kakashi could feel the weight of his options being laid in front of him.

Jiraiya glance at him. His usual carefree deamnored replaced with a rare seriousness.

“She posses a Sharigan. It was placed in her. She can’t control it, and the longer it remains unstable, the more dangerous it becomes: not only that but…” Jiraiya paused, his face softening as he looked at the small girl who clung to his sleeve, her eyes landing on his, her big innocent eyes looking at him.

“Kasumi is daughter or Kenshiro Kaguyuki. Which means her anatomy is different than ours. Where we are warm blooded, Kasumi is not. She was born in the cold…. Kasumi is also mute.” Jiraya continued, his voice betraying a hint of sorrow. Kakashi’s eyes widened as he looked at the girl who tilted her head at him before hiding her small body behind the larger man.

“She wasn’t born with it. She developed it after going through a traumatic experience. It’s called Selective Mutism. Since she was three, she hasn’t spoke to anyone aside from her mother siblings,” Jiraya explained, his tone somber.

Kakashi felt his blood run cold. Hearing Kiyomi had moved on after all those years while he was stuck yearning for her, made him feel glad she found someone else but he couldn’t help the jealously that ran through his veins. Hearing she had children with another man made him feel sick.

“How many?” Kakashi asked, his voice barely above a whisper. Hiruzen stared at him, wondering if that had mattered in this moment.

“Three. This is her only daughter. The man she was married to had threatened to hurt her father if she didn’t come with him. He had four wives with the purpose of breeding strong children from different clans,” Jiraya explained, glancing down at the small girl who plugged her ears to not hear.

“… He committed suicide taking his three other kids with him… we’re still looking for his wives.”

Kakashi felt his jaw clench at the thought. His Kiyomi had spent years with a man who used her for her clan jutsu’s. She had left, and he hadn’t even thought about trying to find her. He had left her to be use by an evil man. Who knows what kind of horrors she and her daughter had to endure.

Kakashi zoned out for the rest of the conversation, hearing Jiraiya talk but unable to make out the words. He couldn’t help but feel like he had failed again, like it was his fault. He should’ve fought for her, he should have chased her. He should have asked her father. He should’ve went after her. Regret filled his body.

He finally tuned back in when he saw Jiraya turn to look down at Kasumi. His brows furrowed as he saw the Sannin make a series of hand signals.

It a took a moment for Kakashi to recognize it. It wasn’t a jutsu he had seen or copied. It was sign language. The girl— Kasumi— was muted she wouldn’t speak to anyone, which meant Jiraiya must’ve learned the easiest way to communicate with her.

Kakashi watched his eye locked with Kasumi. He assumed he was the topic of their conversation. He tried to give her a warm smile, but ended up looking awkward and forced under his mask.

She removed her fingers from her ears, frowning as she looked back up at Jiraiya and signed, ‘Why can’t you take care of me? I don’t want to stay here.’

Jiraiya smiled at the girl, reaching down to pat her head. She blinked at every sudden movement, her eyes wide and wary.

“Donr worry! You’ll be in good hands! Besides, Susu, I was meant to deliver you to who your mother asked. We just got side tracked by— my research,” he said, not signing this time, glancing over at Kakashi. Kasumi nodded sadly.

Kakshi watched as Hiruzen and Jiraiya spoke in a hushed tones, the two of them exchanging glances filled with concern. Meanwhile, Kasumi tugged on Jiraiya’s seeking his attention. Kakashi’s eyes were drawn to her.

Her hair was short, barely longer than her jaw, with uneven lengths and layered pieces sticking out, even her bangs where cut oddly, with chuckle pieces in between her brows, showing off her deep blue eyes. The same blue eyes he once knew, once woke up to, the some ones he had complimented, the ones he saw filled with love. Her hair seemed poorly dyed, large chunks of the bald showing white patches, and strands underneath the blue revealing a mixture of white and blue.

Kakashi watched as Kasumi reached up, offering Jiraiya a coin. The man grinned, giving her a small frog toy before making his leave.

Hiruzen looked at the girl, his eyes softening as she reminded him of the young girl. “This is Kakashi Hatake. You’ll be staying with him from now on,” he told her gently.

Kasumi stared at Kakashi with a blank expression.

Idk if I should make part two… please help me before I end up deleting this 😭😭

[devildomresidentt]

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

⇨ 𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐈𝐧𝐟𝐨 + 𝐑𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐬

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Lucifer

Lucifer Headcanons 🌟

NSFW Lucifer Headcanons 🕯️

Songs that remind me of Lucifer

How would they dress?

Favorite Music Genre HC’s (+ Diavolo & Barbatos ) 🌺

Favorite Musicals + The Datables

Mammon

NSFW Mammon Headcanons 🕯️

Mammon Headcanons

Songs that remind me of Mammon

How would they dress?

Favorite Music Genre HC’s 🌺

Favorite Musicals + The Datables

White Mustang 🔥🎃

Leviathan

Leviathan Headcanons

How would they dress?

Favorite Music Genre HC’s 🌺

Favorite Musicals + The Datables

Satan

Satan Headcanons

How would they dress? 🌟

Favorite Music Genre HC’s 🌺

Favorite Musicals + The Datables

Asmodeus

Asmodeus Headcanons

How would they dress?

Favorite Music Genre HC’s 🌺

Favorite Musicals + The Datables

Beelzebub

Beelzebub Headcanons 🌟

How would they dress?

Favorite Music Genre HC’s 🌺

Favorite Musicals + The Dateables

Love Scars 🔥🌟🎃

Belphegor

Belphegor Headcanons

How would they dress? 🌟

Favorite Music Genre HC’s 🌺

Favorite Musicals + The Dateables

Rants + Drabbles

Lucifer seeing himself in Satan 🥀🌟

Lucifer’s memories during the fall 🥀

How did the Little D’s come to be? 🌺

Little D’s and their Behaviors 🌺

Old man Lucifer 🌺

Random Headcanons 🌺🌟

Everyone excluding Diavolo from the cookout

Random Headcanons 2 🌺

Belphegor abusing his power 🌟

RIP, You would’ve loved (ft. The Demon Bros)

Levi & his fav Jpop group

𝐍𝐀𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐎

Konoha 12

None!

Leaf Sensei

Kakashi + Yamato NSFW Alphabet 🔥🌟

Birthday Wishes (ft. Yamato) 🔥

Akatsuki Members

The “death” of Obito Uchiha🥀🖌️

Innocence (Obito Uchiha) 🥀🖌️

Yan!Itachi Headcanons 🕯️

Senju Brothers

None!

The Legendary Sannin

Lust for Life (ft. Jiraiya) 🔥🎃

Character Mix

Men who… 🌺 (w/ Kakashi, Kisame, Gaara, Juugo, Yamato, Obito, Might Guy, Asuma, Itachi, Iruka, Jiraiya, Konoha 12 males, & Anyone else you see fit)

Men who… 🔥🌟 (w/ Kakashi, Obito, Itachi, Jiraiya, Shikamaru, Shikaku, Neji, Choji, Might Guy, Naruto, Rock Lee, Iruka, Sai, Kiba, Sasori, Juugo, & Gaara)

Rants + Drabbles

Out of pocket Tweets

Incorrect NaruSasu Tweets 🌟

Shino “The Drip Shinobi” Aburame

Kotetsu and Izumo being boykissers for each other

Kisame and his adorable tiny pet kitten

The cursed Nara hairline

𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐀𝐍

Survey Corps

Agora Hills (ft. Armin Arlert) 🔥🌟🎃

Marleyan Warriors

None!

Commanders / Squad Captains

None!

Rants + Drabbles

None!

𝐉𝐔𝐉𝐔𝐓𝐒𝐔 𝐊𝐀𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐍

Jujutsu Sorcerers

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Cursed Spirits/Users

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Jujutsu High Students

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Rants + Drabbles

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⇨ 𝐊𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟐𝟒’ 𝐋𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠

MORE TO BE ADDED…

[rayshippouuchiha]

More Bby Naru getting kidnapped, I mean raised by the sannin au

Kakashi absolutely Loses His Shit™️ when he learns Naruto has gone missing

He’s tearing Konoha apart trying to find Minato-sensei and Kushina-nee’s son

He knew, he knew, that Hirizen’s orders were bullshit, but ignoring them would be treason, and now Naruto is gone and he knows treason would have been worth keeping him safe

(Who knows, maybe he kills Danzo and takes apart ROOT in his effort to find him and ends up saving the Uchiha clan whiles he’s at it)

Meanwhile with the Sannin

Jiriaya and Tsunade quickly realize they have no fucking clue on how to raise a kid

Tsunade knows how to keep him healthy, of course, but for all she calls Jiriaya a Man Child™️ neither of them have experience with children

And they obviously can’t go to Konoha for help and Shizune can only do so much

During this time they run into Orochimaru, who finds their struggle absolutely hilarious though he does end up getting roped into raising the child

(There are worse kids to raise, he thinks. After all, an Uzumaki Jinchuriki can learn So Many Jutsus)

And bby Naru (who I picture around 4) is having the time of his life with people who while not knowing how to care for him, care about him

(I’d also like to acknowledge how OP™️ a Naruto raised by the Sannin would be, just imagine)

Add hilarity and angst to the entire situation by being like, the Sannin don't know how to take care of Naruto but Naruto actually has a semi-decent idea of how to take care of himself already even if his methods are a bit off.

[usuratongaychi]

my OT3s for Naruto

- InoSakuKarin, i love them and their niche little community.

- Jiraorotsuna..sannin angst is so good aufhghghfhf. I swear they all loved each other.

- ShiItaIzu….odd i know😭i justify it bc itaizu is canon, and shisui is related to kagami uchiha, who isnt related to itachi. genuinely the ethics in naruto is so odd… but anyways they both love itachi.

- Shiktemasasu…yes i know, it started as an inside joke sorta thing with my discord mutuals…

- Borumitsusara IM SO ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT THEM, they also mirror the sannin pretty well.

- kaka-yama-iru-gai. really i just like all of those shipped with kakashi. i cant chose for the life of me and i enjoy content for all. lol this makes kakashi seem like a hoe

-nejileeten, i really love their team, they take care of each other.

[hellcifrogs]

I have this fic idea in the works - where basically when Sas defects Konoha, Sakura & Naruto come with him, essentially they have a fight which ends in Sas breaking down that he doesn't wanna lose more people, and Sakura & Naruto convincing him that they should all stick together, they're each others family

Finally they convince him, part of their argument though is not to go to Orochi, and instead go elsewhere - Sakura suggests Tsunade, cuz obvs she's gnna know about the legend of the Sannin

An that leads to Tsuna meeting these three kids who run away and join her on her travels, totally becomes that meme of "I've only had Team 7 for a day, but if anything happened to them, I'd kill everyone & then myself" so she's know like a mum of 3 babies, and one teen (Shizune, who's now Team sevens big sib)

Shizune trains Sasuke in poisons & the lil bit of Genjutsu she knows (Making that up but don’t care) Tsuna teaching Sakura & Naruto healing & all three of them Taijutsu

They may run off to Uzu, cuz of Naruto & Tsuna having heritage there - may even make Sakura part Uzumaki or decended from a merchant clan there cuz I can!

Kashi tracks them down once, realises that the kids are right & defects with them – gets a smack up the head by Tsuna for bein a lil sexist & then realises his errors n gets better

Shizune & Kashi are gnna fight like sibs and be besties - I’m not elaborating

May incorporate angst or may just make it happy lil family times idk yet

This is inspired by a fic that's kinda similar, but it's Rin & Kashi that run off to find Tsuna and ask for help, so my idea is a tad different - but your Sannin swaps are just very very inspiring to me also, so wanted to let you know of my idea, and kinda get your opinion if you'd like to offer one of course!

I've already started writing it, but it's the motivation which has left me for right now ahah

Apologies for such a long ask!

Do it!!! I can almost picture them discussing their options in that very team 7 manner, pure chaos, lot's of yelling and 'shut up Naruto!'s, except is something as serious as defecting from Kohona and finding a new legendary master.

Would love to know how they'd find their way back to Uzushio! And Kakashi going after his kids! And him and Shizune bonding! AND big sis Shizune 😖✨️

Also to see what other versions of single sannin trained team 7 would end up like 👀

[thetoaddaddy]

A very angsty probably somewhat tiggering drabble. Inspired by my friends talking about orotsu. Which is a ship i do enjoy. But we covered an older jir discovering it. But what about a younger jir?

Staring at the knife Jiraiya contemplates. The floor of the bathroom was cold. The equally cold blade embedded deep into the wood in front of him. He should be happy. Yet all he felt was betrayal.

Maybe they’re right. He was the odd one. The extra. The third wheel that never quite fit. He’s strange, loud, perverse, and ugly. A mad man. A freak. Unwanted. From his parents to his team. He shouldn’t be here. He shouldn’t exist. Obviously if he was meant to it wouldn’t be so hard. It wouldn’t hurt as much as it does.

Yet here he is. It seems the higher powers, if there is any, have planned for him to soak in misery.

He didn’t hide it well. His surprise. Then his disappointment. A dull cast over his eyes and his inability to even twitch a smile. He hated it. He hates it and he couldn’t hide it. Tsunade and Orochimaru.

“We’re dating.”

What is it about him?

Maybe he is all he fears he is. An unwanted burden. There’s no room for him. There never was. He’ll have to suffer through it all won’t he? Seeing them happy. Watching them grow closer. Burning with envy and hatred at all the wonderful things he’s never experienced.

Being aware that he’s fading away.

Even if he did commit would they notice? Would they care? Did it even matter anymore? Did he matter?.. To anyone? He knows he’s sensei’s least favourite. He’s no one’s favourite. They have each other if he’s gone. So what if he’s gone? There’s nothing for him. There will always be nothing. He’s stumbling through an empty life.

A fitting end would be this. No glory. No amazing tales to tell. Just a footnote. His body would probably be rotting here before they bother to check on him. He means… nothing. A mistake to his parents. A screw up to the military. Girls laughed at him. Boys scoff. An outcast that will never find his people, for they don’t exist. He’s meant for no one… Nothing. A puzzle piece that never quite fit. An extra knob that should be lopped off. There’s no one for him and no one destined to wait for him.

What a terrible burden it is to be born without a purpose in life. To be so unimportant. To feel lost. To have… nothing. Nothing and no one.

And nothing he shall be.

[psy-ay-ay]

so i wanna read naruto fics

and everything that i come across is kinda fluffy and i feel like i want heartwrenching stuff which is not even plot heavy but just deals with the fallout of everything we saw in the series

I honestly feel like even the boruto canon (I haven't seen much of it) if seen right after naruto feels kinda fluffy because they have definitely dealt with the feelings or just moved forward in their ninja way idk

anyway the point of this rambling is I sometimes feel like they are all so broken that sometimes I wonder if they are just too broken to heal and I want a fic which is the healing but ofc there is SO MUCH ANGST because they are them. it can literally be any characters like team 7 (sasusaku in ship) is my top choice but even e.g. the sannin.

so any, say, sasusaku recs from the blanck period (but I want major naruto and kakashi presence as well because naruto and kakashi are major parts of sasuke and sakura's life) are more than welcome

[rashidax2]

Headcanons for being Jiraiya's sister

the results of staying up late and letting your random side decide what to post on your blog.

★ First off, I just wanna say he thinks you're scary 😭

★ You don't play any games if/when you catch him spying on women.

★ Whenever Tsunade's too tired to whoop his ass, you'll do it for her!!

★ Even if you get onto him about being a perv .. you're his sister so it makes sense you pick up some of those perverted attributes. you hide it very well though because you know very well that jiraiya would not let you live it down 😭

★ You two are pretty distant ngl. But whenever y'all randomly see each-other while walking by you point at him (like that spiderman meme 💀)

★ You met Naruto and sometimes Jiraiya gets a little jelly whenever you treat Naruto like a little brother (and u can't help it, he's too cute)

★ But nah you hit him on the head whenever he pouts like a baby and then give him a lil side–hug

★ YOU TWO CAN'T TAKE ANYTHING SERIOUSLY. jiraiya will say something that sounds oddly sexual and then you two will have the most intense staring contest then proceed to laugh like idiots 😭 especially in tsunade's office, she'll just wait until yall are done with one of those red marks on her head

★ Dinner is so fun. You feel guilty for stealing Naruto's frog wallet but you and jiraiya get drinks or something. You don't even discuss the Akatsuki's whereabouts most of the time, just random stuff.

★ When Naruto's asleep after training you two take a quick cloud–watching break and laugh whenever one looks like a butt or something lmao

★ He's not too protective of you since you can damn well take care of yourself but if someone insults you while you're away he'll slap them for sure.

★ He likes to annoy you.

★ "[name].." he pokes your cheek, examining your peaceful sleeping face to see if it would stir. His favorite passtime is waking you up from your slumber while you two are together. His eyes hold a childish glint in them as your eyebrows subconsciously furrow and your hands, that lay beside you, splay out a little more.

★ He does the same action once again, this time his finger pushing more into your flesh. He gasps a little and retracts his hand as your eyes snap wide open right after as if anticipating for him to poke you again. He's aware of how grouchy you are whenever you're woken up, so he takes a step back and raises his hands in front of himself as if telling you to wait. He definitely wasn't expecting for you to actually wake up. "Hello there, dear sister."

★ You show him no mercy as your eye twiches, and like a monkey reaching for a banana, you jump at him and knock him to the floor, giving the hardest punches you could muster. Your eyes are as red as a demon's and that's not because of your tiredness. "DON'T! WAKE! ME! UP!"

★ yeah my creativity goes wild whenever i imagine things.

★ But anyways, he loves embarrassing you. Like giving you piggy–back rides in public. You hate how Naruto finds it amusing. You growl (which sounds pathetic considering that you're on your brother's back) whenever he laughs.

★ Yeah, you embarrass Jiraiya too. You call him things like Ji–chan or Froggy–boy. Its funny whenever he crosses his arms like a kid and tells you to stop it.

★ He thinks you're cool. You've been through so much with him, from fighting enemies to beating his ass for spying on women, he couldn't ask for a better sister. (He'd never say this out loud.) And that's why he swears on his life that he'd always be there for you until the day he dies :(

★ 8/10 brother. Goofy and annoying but still cool.