#restriction tw

[interstellarstorms]

I’m gonna vent about restricting food but it’s due to a colonoscopy tomorrow, not for ED purposes. Still tagging #restriction tw and this plus similar vents will be under a cut.

Just know that this isn’t me relapsing at all and I have no intentions of relapse ❤️

I’m already weak from not eating and I had food at 7:30 pm last night so I still have until about 2 pm tomorrow (after my procedure) when I get to eat.

[dosagelamb]

What really triggered me to come back here is something my father said to me a few weeks ago. (I literally hate my father and he’s a terrible person so he didn’t say this bc he was curious or whatever, he said it to hurt me)

He pulled me aside and asked if he could ask me something without me getting offended. Then he asked if I was pregnant and told me I’d gained a lot of weight recently. I just went to my room and cried because he was right but I don’t think any father should say that to his daughter, ever.

So I’m back to restricting! :) how fun

[whoreishghost]

i am like Not able to eat basically at all rn and this has beem ongoing for like 3-4 ish weeks now. in the first 2 weeks i cld eat a bit more but still like rlly way way too little and when i had my adhd review i was pretty surprised i had acc gained a bit of weight so i just sort of brushed off the not eating as me misremembering how much ive eaten. but now i like, am basically on a liquid only diet (and i cant drink anything thicker ? ig than like a diet coke bc that also makes me feel sick, tried having a milkshake at one point and i felt soooooo bad) bc 1 i like just dont get hungry at all, and 2 even if i feel ig the closest thing to describe wld be peckish (like im craving a specific flavour or texture) by the time i start eating it i rlly rlly do not want to be and its like, u know when ur so full its like hard to chew and u just want to spit the food out? like that. ive been trying very hard to like force myself thru this by like letting myself eat and buy whatever food i want at literally any time of day bc while it is expensive ive lost kind of a lot of weight v quickly (tw ed: this is about as much as id lose in a month whilst restricting v heavily in just under than 2 weeks). its worked to a degree but honestly im mostly just wasting food and honestly money, and whenever i do manage to eat a bit, itll be like 1 small size serving of poke (currently the only food that has been tolerated even slightly, ig maybe bc it has a "fresh" flavour? idk) eaten over the course or 5-6 hours bc i cldnt eat it faster than that which even then was not rlly tolerated bc i felt fucking disgusting physically, and then basically anything else (eg a genuinely really nice tasting stew my wife made, a mozzarella and avocado sandwich, just an avocado w salt, pasta, etc) makes me so nauseous and uncomfortable that i have to go force myself to throw up right after ive eaten to not literally be in hell for like 8-9 hours (i have an extremely low tolerance for managing nausea and the amazing ability to basically never throw up ever by myself hence the "forcing myself" which yes bad but also i refuse to be regurgitating and getting acid reflux whilst in pain for that whole day because i tried to eat smthn). i originally thought it was probably psychological bc ive been doing v v badly and to a degree it is (i cba to cook or eat rlly) but even when i have the food to eat i cant do it then either? idrk what to do, i have brought it up to drs multiple times who just tell me its poor mental health management and imply i need to ig "try harder". theres also the fact that it is v triggering for my disordered eating brain bc i am unintentionally restricting a lot and i am losing a lot of weight and its been v difficult not to just spiral down that sort of thought process into just not eating at all. feeling kind of like this is either gna randomly stop at some point and itll just be a confusing period of my life or im going to get v v unwell without support and be blamed for it

[complicit-rot]

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my eating problems: while you were 11-13, your ex who was grooming you told you to stay thin to stay child-like so i'm not gonna let you eat

me: ok

my eating problems: your stomach can't handle anything ever everything is rough on it and it always hurts whenever you eat

me: ok

my eating problems: your babysitter shoved peas & green beans down your throat as you were vomiting so looking at & smelling them makes you want to throw up

me: ok

my eating problems: i can't handle the taste & texture & smell of 90% of food

me: ok

my eating problems: there's mold in everything you eat

me: what the fuck. i have to do something about this

[delightfultragedyparadise]

workout plans with ratings <3

[justemithings]

”did you know diet coke is actually worse than-“ I DO NOT CARE. I. DO. NOT. GIVE. A. FUCK. GIVE ME MY DAMN DIET COKE.

[beatrixx1212]

i want to look how i look when i suck in

[katemoss4lyfe]

when the fasting euphoria hits and suddenly the lights are brighter, vision is blurring, there’s buzzing in the ears, whole body is trembling, everything is dizzy and you couldn’t care less, you’re just floating around in your head and let the feelings take over

[lyslowcal]

A cat says “meow”

A dog says “woof”

And a pig says “I’ll start tomorrow”

[chic-diet-inspired]

Chic Diet (the book): Masterlist

Index in case you wanna read it...

(Like/reblog this in case you want to read that way. I'll be adding the latter parts soon and then i will edit this masterlist as I go)

FOREWORD

PART 1: THE FUNDAMENTALS CIGARETTES COFFEE (BLACK, NATCH) DIET COKE ADDERALL AMBIEN ARTIFICIAL SWEETENERS CHEWING GUM SPARKLING WATER CHAMPAGNE

PART 2: THE MECHANICS OVERDIGESTION BEING COLD DIURETICS FIBER LAXATIVES COLONICS

PART 3: I'M JUST TRYING TO BE HEALTHY JUICE CLEANSING GLUTEN SENSITIVITY DETOXING EATING CLEAN SUPERFOODS HEALTH BEVERAGES COCONUT WATER NON-DAIRY MILKS BARS ACUPUNCTURE GENERAL ORTHOREXIA EXERCISE

PART 4: UM, IT'S NOT A FAD… IT'S A LIFESTYLE VEGETARIANISM THE BABY FOOD DIET THE AIR DIET THE PALEO DIET THE RIDICULOUSLY LOW CARB DIET THE STRATEGIC STARVATION DIET THE RAW FOOD DIET THE ONE FOOD DIET THE TWO CUP DIET THE HCG DIET THE CABBAGE SOUP DIET THE I-CAN'T-SEE-IT DIET THE I'M-FUCKING-RICH-AND-GLAMOROUS DIET

PART 5: HIDE IT, BETCH BLACK SPANX BOHO CHIC ONE SIZE DOWN

PART 6: I'M PRETTY SURE THAT'S ILLEGAL COCAINE MDMA VALLEY OF THE DOLLS BANNED DIET PILLS

PART 7: FODDER FOR YOUR SHRINK COMPETITION MODERATION COMPROMISE LYING HISTRIONIC PERSONALITY DISORDER BEING A TOTAL BITCH STRESSOREXIA

PART 8: ALL THAT OTHER CRAY SHIT OCCASIONAL VOMITING CHEW-AND-SPIT HYPNOSIS THINSPIRATION PUBLIC EATING A PICTURE SAYS A THOUSAND WORDS SHARING IS CARING COACHELLA BOO, YOU WHORE

[bebe774]

a month from now you can be 10lbs lighter or 10 times more miserable

[nova1224]

Saw this on X/Twitter never related more in my life 💀

[live2starvz]

Anorexic August. Lock tf in.

[akinalai]

Mini body check, what do yall think

[greenhairedfreakglobal]

if nicocado avocado can do it, so can i

[un-nom-qualitatif]

I NEED to see my b0nes peaking out of my skin by september I'll do ANYTHING for that 🙏🙏🙏