#reminder to self that importance of me being active is to others

[sordidmusings]

Could be out o pocket but there seems to be a wall perceived by many readers between them and the creator. May be related to our general mythologizing of content creators but that’s a whole separate discussion (a lot of it stems from the mythos of “genius” and if you want a damn good read, try Linda Nochlin’s “Why Have There Been No Great Women Artists?”. It’s related I swear lol she deconstructs many ideas around creativity and talent and genius and was one of the earlier ones to do it. V thankful to Aesthetics class for introducing me to her). There could also be some touches of the idea that a certain type of productivity is the only valuable thing a person can do, which narrows the concept of creativity (ironic lol). I had typed out a lot more but I think it’s time I digress 🤡

You are not unworthy of talking to creators you admire. Or people you admire for that matter. Sure the effect may vary - one who is used to droves of interaction will cherish your specific interaction in different ways from someone who almost never receives it, but whether it’s a brief joy to a large creator or the thing that keeps a small creator going, it is valuable.

A last note is I do also understand the feeling that you interacting with anyone is a bother to them and having social anxiety cripple even your online interactions. I’m often lost in that sauce lol it can be especially difficult if you’ve been called a burden explicitly, talked over and ignored, or have a history of feeling as if your social interactions “fail”. Finding the level that is just outside of that comfort zone can both help you and give that little extra bit to the creator. Maybe you have to do it on anon. Maybe you can only add comments in tags. Both of those are still much more encouraging to creators than a like because it’s more human - it reminds you that there is an actual person enjoying something you made and that they actually have -thoughts- about it. The thoughts are especially good - there’s almost nothing a creator loves more than knowing that their creation actually lived in someone else’s head, if even for a time. If your creations only live in your own then it can quickly feel like what is the point of -making- them when it’s so much easier to just think about them.

Long story short - the creator you enjoy likely wants to connect to you as you want to connect to them and any time you find yourself able, please do

Everytime I see posts like this I get filled with such profound sadness

Cause you know who has the same brainrot as you? The same unhinged feelings as you after you've read the fic? The person who always wants to scream about the fic with you?

THE PERSON WHO WROTE IT

I never used to leave comments but since I got into the habit of commenting on everything i enjoy it's been incredible. Especially when the author gets back to me about it and we get to have a discussion of what other ideas they had. One writer replied to my comment with a 5 paragraph essay detailing the Floorplan of the building the characters lived in and it was incredible

Anyways this is all to say that if you find a fic that just makes you want to scream from the rooftops, leave a comment saying that to the author and maybe they will join you and you can scream incoherently together

[kallianthiutdr]

you cannot remove the queerness from utdr without fundamentally hurting the story. there is no label ever put on it but it's there and it has to be acknowledged.

Frisk, Chara, & Kris being non-binary instead of just–whatever the player wants them to be–adds to the themes of individuality and separation between them and the player. For Frisk & Chara, I've made a whole post about their role as narrative stand-ins but also individual characters. For Kris, it's actually ridiculous if you even attempt to claim they aren't non-binary–because they actively reject the player's influence and are the furthest thing from a self-insert. Monster Kid, Napstablook, etc are also genderless. In Deltarune, Seam also.

Also, Frisk considering to Flirt with literally anyone regardless of gender–and that being a game mechanic in and of itself–to me, implies this kid is most likely pan. Whatever you want to call it, their gender-blind flirting is in fact a game mechanic.

Alphys' and Undyne's sapphicness is the key to the pacifist ending. Without setting them up you literally cannot access the true pacifist ending. If it wasn't for Papyrus encouraging his lesbian bestie to send that damn letter, nothing would have happened. (Maybe indeed Flowey would've used another method to make time, but accessing the true lab with Alphys' permission would've been near impossible.) In fact, Alphys' bisexuality and her subsequent crushes are in fact a big part of her character. Not the most important–obviously, Alphys is one of the most layered characters in the game–but in hating herself, the lies she says to appease to Asgore first and Undyne later are undeniably a big part of what makes up her character.

Mettaton's allegorical transness kick-starts the events that lead to the creation of Flowey and the amalgamates. Without him, Alphys wouldn't be royal scientist. No determination experiments, no Flowey, no game. No Mettaton? Half of the hotland segments wouldn't exist, including the MTT resort in which the infamous it's raining somewhere else sequence happens. Mettaton also helps other trans people with their transition, like when he gifted his blue dress to the beautiful trans lioness after being done with it.

Mad Mew Mew's transness, even if unacknowledged by the main game, is constantly brought up by Toby since she appears in occasional News Letters, the alarm clock dialogue, etc, as a way to remind everyone that she exists and is as much s part of this found family as everyone else. She's also a sapphic, with her crush on Undyne also being acknowledged.

Asgore's implications of bisexuality and his inherent homoeroticism when talking about Rudy in the Alarm Clock Dialogue & Deltarune alike aren't game changing aspects of his character but nice touches that inform his relationships outside of Toriel.

The two Royal Guards in Hotland can only be spared through being set-up. Also, their romance cuts the player's nice cream supply.

Papyrus, though nothing game changing can be said about his sexuality, has a well-documented celebrity crush on Mettaton. Also, if you want to bring Toby's twitter joke into consideration, the skeleton brothers could in fact exist in the ace spectrum. And I say spectrum instead of outwardly asexual because Sans befriended our mom last night-

Even though Nice Cream Guy gives free Nice Cream to Burgerpants, he refuses to give free Nice Cream to the human. Burgerpants is so oblivious this could be considered flirting that I wasn't sure if I could count it, but then again Burgerpants is the nexus of a complex, interwoven web of non-reciprocated crushes and he's deeply unaware of the situation at large. This dynamic expands in Deltarune, with Bpants saying that Blue Ears is obsessed and has no sense of personal space–and the latter noting a love for his co-workers and giggling.

So then, In Deltarune, obviously, we have a deeply queer group of people and I think that this queer solidarity is really fundamental to it. I already mentioned the importance of Kris being non-binary .

Ralsei is generally understood to be maybe pan due to his general gender-blind openess towards especially Kris. I don't want to really get into his blushing when Kris gets too close or the fountain of love, because, well, he's representative of Asriel–but still. His queer-coding is undeniable.

But onto stronger candidates for this queer conversation, Noelle and Susie's dynamic adds two more sapphics into the utdr franchise. Noelle's crush has always been a massive, dare I say game-changing part of her character. Susie and Noelle met for the first time in Susie's first day of class. Susie had forgotten her pencil, and then Noelle noticed it and offered her candy-cane one. After this nice action of Noelle's, and also by the fact that she genuinely smiled at her, Susie developed a soft side for her and spared her from her bullying.

Then we have Berdly’s whole, “I'M the one Noelle and Susie are falling like dominoes for. And you know what dominoes means, Kris? ,,,You're next.” At another point he calls Noelle to ask her if she will be his date at the festival the next day. Susie tells him to leave her alone. And you can decide to respond that you'll go out with him or sing the Wrong Number song (in any case, Berdly is surprised). If you choose the first option, he says that Kris will have to compete with Noelle and Susie (thinking the two are into him). If it's the second then, he says that Kris will fall under his charm sooner or late. That also suggest a gender-blind attraction. But, in general, his crushes to Noelle and Susie respectively seem performative. And the queer reading that can be done here is undeniable, taking into consideration deltarune being steeped in themes of identity, performance, masks and unspoken internal conflict.

Now, mind you, every single side character can be viewed through a queer lense–in fact, it's damn near impossible not to do that. I just think that's wonderful. Like, have you seen Rouxls Kaard? Queen? Jevil? Spamton? Tenna? The queerness is oozing right through. The side characters in both Undertale and Deltarune are bursting with camp, flamboyance, theatricality–rarely do they conform into typical binaries/boxes wether those could refer to gender, sexuality, or like. Morality man idk.

[biscuitdolly]

୨ৎ absolute necessities .ᐟ

if you're trying to glow up, get healthier, etc, these are the very basics that you absolutely NEED to follow!

01, WATER .ᐟ

Staying hydrated is crucial for your health and wellbeing. While the recommended daily intake is 8 cups of water, you can gradually increase your consumption over a few weeks if that seems too overwhelming. Drinking enough water provides numerous benefits, from clearing skin and flushing out waste, to boosting exercise performance and supporting weight loss. Despite being the very essence that sustains life, water is often underappreciated.

02, FOOD .ᐟ

I used to skip breakfast, thinking it would help me lose weight. However, studies show that those who eat breakfast tend to lose more weight and keep it off longer. The truth is, food is incredibly important. It's best to regulate your eating habits by consuming at least 3 meals per day, even if they're only small portions. Some food is better than no food. If you want to go on a diet, that's fine! but make sure you research healthy dieting methods. At a minimum, eat one serving of fruits and vegetables daily, and try to increase that to five servings per day if possible. Proper nutrition is key for your overall health.

03, HOBBIES .ᐟ

i have this previous post regarding hobbies you could try! It's so important to find fun activities that you genuinely enjoy and look forward to doing. Hobbies add fun to your life and pose as a nice break from technology and the stress of work and school. They also greatly improve symptoms of depression and anxiety. You could do some physical activity, such as a sport you like, or something more calm and creative, like painting or writing.

04, SLEEP .ᐟ

a lot of people struggle to fall asleep at a decent time. Try getting ready for bed early. Personally, I tend to take off my make up and do my skincare immediately after i come home for school/work so i don't have to worry about it before bed.

Technology is probably your sleeping schedule's worst enemy, as the blue light from the screen keeps your brain awake, so try to pause screen-related activities at least an hour before bed. Also, try not to snack 2 - 4 hours before you go to sleep. This is because lying down makes it harder for your body to digest food, which can result in sleeplessness.

Forcing yourself to go to bed super early isn't helpful either. Like I've mentioned in my other points, take things slow and gradual!

05, SOCIALIZATION .ᐟ

Engaging in simple social interactions, such as conversing with family, seeing friends, or greeting people on the street, is incredibly important. Isolating yourself in your room all day accomplishes nothing.

There was a time when I dreaded spending time with friends, convinced I lacked the energy or mood. However, once I forced myself to make plans, I realized how much I genuinely enjoyed their company. Other people are what make life truly worthwhile. So why not reach out to a friend right now and invite them to hang out tomorrow?

06, ACTIVITY .ᐟ

you don't need an exercise routine if you don't want one, but simple physical activity is still a daily necessity! At least 30 minutes is recommended. Personally, i most enjoy plugging in my headphones and going on a walk around my neighbourhood for an hour or two.

07, SELF TALK .ᐟ

Arguably one of my most important points, quit the self-deprecating talk. You never realize how much it affects you until you quit it. Yes, you can absolutely get that assessment done. Yes, you are a likable and amazing person. Just keep affirming and reminding yourself that you are worthy, and you will attract so many good things. Trust me, it will help you so much in the long run.

[blightbright]

i think it's interesting to not let Solas kill the ignorant mages (the ones who bound his Wisdom friend) in his DA:I personal quest!

they definitely enslaved a spirit, which is wrong, and Solas disapproves of sparing them, AND:

these are pathetic randos who have literally only ever been exposed to cultural messaging that says spirits are objects not people. they're annoying and they destroyed someone's life, but they are not evil. they were imprisoned for years, they were taught misinformation by their captors, and now they've escaped, they're vulnerable, they got scared of being killed by bandits, and they ignorantly stumbled their way into something they didn't understand by following a book's instructions.

none of that is an excuse and also, in an extremely on-the-nose fashion, being enslaved and forced to kill is what harmed Solas' friend. the Inquisitor doesn't know how directly this parallels Solas' story, but if Inky can come at the mercy choice intuitively, the choice to stop Solas is IMO a very good one, because (like Cole embodying Compassion for the Templar when choosing to make Cole "more spirit") it actively reinforces Solas' inner Wisdom self.

Inky doesn't have to intervene much at all to get Solas to stop btw, literally all it takes is an uneasy "Solas..." and he stops.

IMO, gently expressing uncertainty about his decision to outright kill them reminds Solas, hey, what if you don't have to kill them (which hurts you too, which you were forced to do, and that damaged you)? these people might be teachable. what if you, Wisdom, teach them to never do this again? what if they spread that message to the other oblivious mages they encounter, and many more people learn?

these mages literally cannot learn anything if they're dead. if spared, they're still not the best critical thinkers, but they state this was the first time they'd ever done a binding, and they seem genuinely shocked that they hurt someone by doing it. IMO, they seem unlikely to ever do it again. IIRC Inky can even threaten them in optional dialogue afterwards, and they swear (in a way that seemed earnest to me) that they've learned their lesson.

TL;DR, gently prompting Solas to slow down and consider what he's doing instead of slaughtering people who are cowering in front of him with their hands up, even though intervening makes Solas feel unhappy in the moment, is IMO a great way to reach out to his own bound Wisdom and say, 1) hey, I actually like your truest self, and 2) hey, sometimes people do terrible things... I'll stop them permanently if I have to, but I prefer to first try and see if they're willing to do better.

that's a pretty important message for Solas, for multiple reasons.

[valent1neg0d]

THINGS I WISH I KNEW WHEN I WAS GETTING STARTED WITH THE LAW OF ASSUMPTION (AS SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN MANIFESTING FOR 5 YEARS)

1. the law of assumption is personal. considering how we have different sets of experiences, different environments, different upbringings, and even different languages, we have different assumptions.

because of this, we are affected by teachings and success stories differently. it's important to note this since a lot of manifestation coaches will teach you about the law in a way that worked for them (and the others they may have taught) but it's possible that their advice (even my own) may not be the best for you. even abdullah and neville goddard, two of the people who are known to start this discipline, may have ancient or varied belief systems and techniques. this is normal considering the world they lived in before is different from the world we live in now.

although, you should still read on abdullah and neville because they will teach you the basics and they will help you understand the foundations of the law.

as an example, you might manifest your dream career faster with simple affirmation techniques but a coach may have taught you to focus on visualization techniques.

even the idea that "dominant THOUGHTS manifest" or "what you BELIEVE in manifests" is entirely up to you.

note: notice how i said "may not be the best for you" instead of "may not work for you". any technique can, does, and will work.

how i learned this: when i was learning about the law, i mainly focused on neville's teachings because he was one of the most prominent figures in the practice. and though i liked his practical techniques (especially mental diet and inner conversations), there were some beliefs that i do not agree with e.g. divine timing, appointed hour, avoiding "does not" "is not" "will not".

when i was going through sammy ingrams' takes, she said that it's better to have concise affirmations/short list (non-verbatim) than a long list of 25+ affirmations. but going through affirmations without being specific about them doesn't personally resonate with me and that's just because i'm a detail-oriented person (also a writer).

what i can advise:

learn about different approaches

a. through scientific concepts. e.g. quantum physics, reticular activating system, cognitive reframing, cognitive behavioral therapy, the psychology of placebo effect, the psychology of affirmations, Baader-Meinhof phenomenon (a.k.a. the psychology of self-fulfilling prophecy)

b. through religious and/or spiritual concepts. e.g. passages from the Bible, passages from the Quran, deity work, spells and rituals

c. through self-development. e.g. identity-based habit

start the practice with an identity you like in the present or an identity that you resonate with (learning style, talents, interests, etc.)

examples:

-visual learner = vision boards

-loves writing = scripting

-words of affection love language = affirmations

take teachings with a grain of salt. do not limit yourself and do not allow other people to limit you. experiment with concepts, ideas, and techniques, and have fun with them.

2. techniques are only reminders. you are manifesting either by thinking, feeling, or acting out your desires. you are manifesting every second of the day either with your thoughts, emotions, or by embodying a state. you are only being intentional when you anchor techniques.

note: it is true that your dominant thoughts manifest. it is also true that what you believe in manifests, the same way that your inner knowing manifests. BUT these ideas are meant to empower you. they are meant to remind you that manifestation is as easy as thinking, feeling, acting, believing, understanding, deciding, etc. if an idea doesn't feel good to you, it doesn't have to be an ultimate truth you embrace and carry on with. this is the same with techniques.

what i can advise:

choose one technique and practice it for 7 to 21 days. it can be mental diet, affirmation tapes, sats, mind movies, etc. as long as you can persist with it. give it time. give it time. give it time. in other aspects of the world, you give change some time. when you're calcium deficient and you decide to drink calcium supplements, you realize that it's counterproductive to ask "why am i still calcium deficient?" as soon as you start your regimen because you know your body is changing with the supplement and you put your trust into it. after all, why would you choose a supplement you have no faith on? you just give it time.

note: you can still manifest changes to be instant. you can affirm "i am seeing results now", "results come immediately", "my manifestation is quick". the amount of time you're using a technique does not equate to the amount of time your results will come.

the reason why i encourage you to practice for maximum 21 days is so you can fully explore and master the technique you chose. with the abundance of topics and methods discussed in social media, switching and trying new things is tempting. now, there is nothing wrong with this. it's just that, you wouldn't be able to take a step back and reflect on what worked and what takes more effort when you change techniques every so often.

try a technique that is popularized in the media. a lot of the times, the reason why this technique gained traction is either because it's simple or because it has worked for a lot of people. now, here's the thing: if said technique wasn't for you, at least you can say "oh this is a tiktok/twitter/youtube/old/beginner technique, there are other techniques out there" and you can try another technique with less resistance. but, if it did work, then it did. congratulations.

you can invent your own. here are some techniques that i invented throughout the years.

a. "name is set and solid with the fact that..." - works amazing for sp, getting people to commit, getting people to pursue you

b. "okay! manifestation powers go brrr!" - funny but i do this when I'm spiraling; it also helps me surrender doubts and i think it's because it's so simple and unserious lmao

you can combine them. for example, you want to do sats but you cannot hold a vision for long, what you can do is montage photos or videos that is similar to the vision you want to manifest. you can also have affirmation tapes running in the background.

3. "concept" work can be such a banger. assumptions are basically the conception about the world, about yourself, about the people around you. hence, when you manifest and apply the law of assumption, you change or reinforce a conception.

these can be done through:

self-concept

what it is: your awareness about yourself; the way you perceive yourself.

how you can apply it: there are multiple ways to establish your self-concept but the best way, is to start reinforcing the universal truth: that you are inherently worthy. you deserve money and resources because you are worthy. you deserve love because you are worthy. you deserve ease because you are worthy.

other ways to grow your self-concept is celebrating the identities you have within yourself that you like e.g. that you are strong, you are disciplined, you are beautiful. be careful about strongly tying yourself into these identities though because these are not the reasons why you shall receive. again, you shall receive because you are inherently worthy.

why it works: by having a strong self-concept, you develop ease. you are less likely to rationalize or question the law or why you deserve the things you're asking for. and as you may think, rationalizing may be a form of resistance. questioning may be a form of resistance.

one of the ways i have seen this is when people receive incentives from work, instead of just receiving or saying "thank you", they say things like "what have i done to receive this?", sometimes completely rejecting this gift because of fear that they might lose something when they receive. this can be an example of a weak self-concept. consequently, the company starts questioning "did my employer really do enough to receive this?".

on the other hand, someone with a strong self-concept can take this incentive and buy the things they like because they know they deserve it. they can also take this incentive and say to themselves "oh it's because i worked hard these past few days". it's the knowing and confidence they have within themselves that everything around them has no other option but to recognize.

conception of other things (e.g. of love, of money, of a specific person)

you can work on your conception of other things the same way you work on your self-concept: choosing a narrative that is uplifting to you.

in case you have resistance to a specific object, you can also listen to people's success stories to start shifting to a more positive and desirable perception. one of the ways i do this is by going back to abdullah and neville's story. these two men lived at difficult times, through difficult eras, yet they manifested their desires. they managed to let go of the 3D.

4. practice some distance as you're starting. you were exposed to a different life before the law, it's only normal and human to have doubts or spiral once in a while. however, when you set distance on things that do not help you embody the state, you set distance on things that will feed your doubts and spiraling.

for example, if you're shifting to a state of wealth and you're affirming "i have 1,000 dollars". it's unhelpful and opposing to be constantly surrounded by someone else saying "you only have 10 dollars".

now, i do understand that not everyone can do this right away because of circumstances. but PLEASE do whatever you can to set this distance. find a voice to reinstate your truth.

a personal story, i am an asian girl living with a grandmother who was pessimistic about love because her two children (my mom and my aunt) struggled with it. because of this, she used to constantly remind me of how love is difficult. i didn't know this at the time, but this created a set of beliefs in my head. consequently, as a teenager, i only seeked and allowed love which was difficult because that was all i've ever known. that was all my assumption.

but around the pandemic, i went back to the countryside with my dad where i had a lot of time on my own. this was when i got deep into new-age spirituality and did shadow work. from here, i realized: this is not my assumption about love. before my parents broke up, my assumption was that love is easy. you only have to make the other person laugh. when i was busy in school and would spend most of the time at my friend's house, my assumption was that love is support and light. i started to get these epiphanies that a lot of my pessimistic perception was because of someone i was constantly surrounded with and that i have to build new assumptions.

but around august 2020, i have to go back to the city with my grandmom. i was afraid of the toll i might get into when i got back. however, because i already practiced distance and understood what are the assumptions that serve me, what are the assumptions that i want, i was more at peace. i listed down affirmations about myself, about love, about money, about being "deserving".

after this, every time she told me what love was, i can stop her and say no. i can tell her that it's not the universal truth, and certainly not mine. along the way, i started manifesting that she believes love is easy and supportive. i started manifesting that she believes i deserve love that is soft and tender.

then, when i got into my relationship, she was nothing but happy and supportive.

other ways i have practiced distance while manifesting:

unfollowing content creators who normalized hating men.

unfollowing content creators who were shady and negative about relationships.

unfriending highschool guy friends who do not make me feel safe about men.

unfriending relatives who make unnecessary comments about my looks, my studies, my relationship, and my earnings.

unfollowing girls who made me feel bad about also liking girls.

unfollowing manifestation gurus who romanticize struggles because "the more you struggle, the more you get blessed"

unfollowing manifestation gurus who say stuff like "if you want money, you have to take action to deserve it. not just manifesting"

now, you can totally manifest these people to change and be better, as long as it will make you feel good.

that's all i can share today (since this post is already getting long). i hope you learned a thing or two. thank you so much for reading. i love you and i appreciate you !

xo

[starsworldd]

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐚𝐮𝐫𝐮𝐬-𝐒𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐩𝐢𝐨 𝐚𝐱𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐬

PLEASE READ:

long post - thank you for 2k! i apologize for the wait but this took me a longggg time to prepare.

it’s also important to note that planets in taurus/scorpio will effect how you resonate with the interpretations below

reminder that readings are open! i’m now selling persona chart readings of planets/angles as well

take with a grain of salt

1st (scorpio) - 7th (taurus)❤️: relationships are a source of comfort and wisdom. scorpio risings’ experience of reality has to do with trust, hard truths, and taking back your power but their relations with others often bring a sense of peace and value into their lives. people may perceive you to be useful and smart in these similar qualities as well. your partnerships help to balance out the chaos and even insecurity you face at times with your identity and precense in the world

2nd (scorpio) - 8th (taurus) ❤️‍🔥: you are powerful in your resources/skills and in the way you support yourself overall. in this lifetime, how you find worth and appreciation for yourself and what you have (skills, physical resources, etc…). you may feel suppressed or face much controversy for what you value or for how you choose to support yourself monetary-wise or as a person. your biggest comeback story in life may have to do with self-esteem and with how you accumulate worth and value (physical or moral/mental) into your life and goals.

although there may be much turbulence and important realizations/truths that are found in how you support yourself and your goals, the transformations and scary things you face in life ironically enough can bring you lots of support if you choose to make good use out of it (which taurus is naturally good at). of course, this is the house of fears and traumas so a big part of your life story may include building your own sense of independence by learning from times of distress.

3rd (scorpio) - 9th (taurus) 💋: you could be especially sensitive to input from others and be able to pick up undertones and double meanings from others easily. communication, creativity (especially having to do with hands or written words), is your superpower. you grab others’ attention easily with your stories and artistic output when you learn to harness your fears/limitations effectively. this also makes you very intelligent of your community + gossip because scorpio rules over extremes as well

while in your everyday communication and daily life you may uncover and discuss skeleton’s in other people’s closet and may be doing a lot of activities that use a lot of your energy (scorpio is ruled by mars, planet of action), this makes you very comfortable (taurus) in being able to adapt to different environments and perspectives (9th house). having taurus in this house can make someone very wise because they find value and meaning in variety.

4th (scorpio) - 10th (taurus) 💄: people with scorpio in this house have usually had some sort of significant event or trauma regarding their family or childhood or may have regrets as to their actions in the past. these people could be born out of either extreme poverty or wealth too. these people’s sense of safety/privacy can be very important to them or they could feel like this aspect of their life is being compromised often (mars = conflict) but you could also find safety/comfort in curiousity or things that are “off-limits”.

if the private/emotional life of the native is exacerbated and transformative for them the career and reputation for the native is where they feel appreciated and most creative. having these signs in this house-axis can be indicative of a strong comeback story (extreme poverty to extreme wealth or even the other way around). the career-field can be very fulfilling (emotionally or monetary wise) and where you are grateful or feel lucky for the events your work presents.

5th (scorpio) - 11th (taurus) 🌹: feelings of creativity, romance, and happiness are taken to extreme lows and highs throughout life. if you’re a cancer rising, i believe this is where the “moody” reputation for us comes from. like leo rising, there could have been significant changes or revelations during childhood that changed your way of deriving happiness and familial support. these people may crave for luxury and overindulgence and can do so by turning their pain into power. scorpio in this house can make someone very grateful as well.

if our sense of happiness and luck undergoes significant change and gives us our “comebacks” throughout life, the 11th house is where we have already found peace and prosperity with our place in society. we encounter valuable experiences when polishing our individualism (5th) within our community (11th). we can find personal contentment and growth in accepting our individual, unique role amongst the people around us. you may like to surround yourself with confident people as well.

6th (scorpio) - 12th (taurus) 👠: these people can feel very unlucky or trapped throughout life, with the 6h ruling bad luck + burdens and scorpio relating to extremes. scorpio is a smart zodiac i’ve noticed as well, so these people usually have a certain way (especially that requires much energy) of doing their work and job that could defy others’ expectations. extreme focus on a certain obstacle or insecurities is also possible and can take awhile to finally figure out what makes you feel secure and satisfied with how you manage your burdens.

if your everyday burdens and responsibilities test your strength to the max in this lifetime, your imagination, creativity and solitude is where you find peace. it could also be that these people do unusual things to satisfy their need for pleasure and wholeness, because the 12th house is where we are easily misled. these people are internally comfortable with their thoughts and ideas, regardless of how odd they may be because it takes them to a place of stability from their scorpio 6h.

7th (scorpio) - 1st (taurus) 🍒: these natives’ partnerships/commitments make the native have to look more deeply into their underlying intentions or feelings with said partnerships/commitment. this can bring a lot of disturbing but also very eye-opening and insightful experiences that affects the native’s identity and ambitions going forth. scorpio can also be a curious sign so there can be a little bit of investigative or persistent approach to your partnerships and this is where your power can derive from.

it may seem like your partnerships “destroy” parts of your identity, because you approach the world from a sense of wholeness and peace. at least, these are circumstances that you are ambitious to achieve in your life. pleasure and steadiness are big life themes and at first it may seem like life is rather dull or boring, but similar to scorpio in its opposite function, taurus asks us to dig a little deeper into the simpler things in life and to find enjoyment.

8th (scorpio) - 2nd (taurus) 🍫: when dealing with other people’s problems (financially, intimate connection, debts, etc…) it brings about experiences that require you to fix what’s wrong or holding you back in life in rather uncomfortable ways. this can indicate someone who is afraid to acknowledge psychological blockages or who lacks the necessary bravery/instincts to attack underlying problems. you could earn valuable assets (tangible or not) from others when you engage with activities that are “gross” but healing/heroic.

this native survives on feeling complete. having a sense of wholeness is very important to these people and makes these people very resourceful because they are able to make the seemingly mundane valuable and able to work in their favor. these people are good at feeling in control of their life, future, and choices because they are committed and secure in their abilities. these people place much importance on authenticity, diversity, and self-sufficiency.

9th (scorpio) - 3rd (taurus) ❤️: when achieving mastery/global knowledge, and self-discovery it may have to do with bringing up topics that you ignored or swept under the rug especially having to do with your identity/precense (in context of the world and society). your global approach and experiences have to do with dealing uncomfortable topics in order to achieve better awareness and understanding of all aspects of the world. how you navigate foreign environments and your sense of flexibility is your strength.

if foreign experiences provide you with strength through perseverance, your intuition and familiar environments provide you with strength through growth (tangible or not). although it may seem like the everyday social rituals and ideas (including intuition), can appear mundane, this setup of houses gives an opportunity to grow a garden that provides roots, beauty, and good taste in the way you perceive and express yourself local environments.

10th (scorpio) - 4th (taurus) 🪭: these people have to have a ton of intiative when working in their career and towards their big goals in life. it may feel as though these people have to start from a bad hand of cards (compared to everybody else) in order to make it to the top or that their working conditions and/or responsibilities throughout life may feel difficult to complete or deals with high stakes/status. but even though there are difficult tasks they have to be done and you have drive/resourcefulness to do it!!

if the workplace is where you see the thorns in your garden (where you have to get rid of them) your home life and condition is where you see the roses. taurus is good at being able to attract good circumstances for themselves because taurus is very representative of wholeness and the feeling of completion. there’s probably more opportunities for you to setup and manage your domestic life the way you like. wisdom may be found through your domestic life too.

11th (scorpio) - 5th (taurus) 🧨: your surrounding communities/people who support you seem to try to pick you apart. you may feel as if the people who you’re around with don’t actually support you or that there’s something incomplete or “wrong” with the circumstances and people that made you successful, imposter syndrome possibly? your supporters/friends could show you things you couldn’t see before, likely for the better although they may reveal this in dramatic or difficult circumstances.

if you feel incomplete about the people/circumstances that support your public achievements, your creativity and lust for life is where you find contentment. these people feel most stable and appreciated for their talents and way of enjoying themselves. for these people, they find stability, growth, and satisfaction when they engage with activities that bring them happiness. they find beauty and appreciation from others for their self-expression/creatvity.

12th (scorpio) - 6th (taurus) ♠️: your drive to feel complete is what can you mislead you in life. this may be because you feel as if there’s always something missing or not being to shown to you but you are persistent in finding what that something is. this same energy can make the native very wise because they have to overcome their demons over and over again throughout life. but at the same time, you could also feel like your sense of resourcefulness and strength fails to manifest in reality.

if there’s conflict/determination in trying to protect yourself from things that induce bad energy, then there’s likely to be tranquility and acceptance in doing activities that can put your life back on track. the 6h is known as the house of bad fortune in astrology so these people are good at being able to find the most reliable way out of a difficult situation. and while these natives could be good at finding solutions, slacking off and overindulgence can lead to oversight with tasks.

once again thank you for 2k!

hope you enjoyed🥰

[yuukskillsworld]

ahhhhhhh omgggg i am obsessed with your writing brooo

can u do like a fic or headcanons of the love intrests x a self destructive readerr ^^ (i am a sucker for angst what can i say)

hope your having day or nighttt

“Wreck Me Softly” – Killer Chat LIs x Self-Destructive Reader Headcanons

Hey, sweetheart—thanks for the request! If you’re here for a little pain wrapped in obsession, you’re in the right place. These killers see your cracks and still want more.

Hope you enjoy every second of the spiral. <3

written by yuukskillsworld<3

WARNINGS: Heavy emotional themes: self-destructive behavior, intrusive thoughts, low self-worth, comfort after emotional distress, protective/possessive behavior in some characters, mild language and intensity, hurt/comfort dynamics, please take care while reading. If you're struggling, you deserve real-world support too—fiction is comfort, but your well-being matters more.

Ronin Beaufort

⁠♡ Immediate Recognition: Ronin sees through the facade instantly. You can joke, smile, or pretend—but he notices the tremble in your hands when no one else is watching. He's lived that kind of quiet pain and never overlooks it.

♡ Silent Vigilance: He doesn’t confront you right away. Instead, he watches from the sidelines, eyes sharp with concern. “You gonna tell me what’s eatin’ at you, or do I gotta dig it out myself?”

♡ Protective Fury: When your pain becomes undeniable, Ronin gets angry—but not at you. It’s a raw, helpless rage aimed at the world that’s hurting you. “You matter more than you act like, darlin’. Start believin’ it—or I’ll make you.”

♡ Subtle Care: He shows love through action, not words. Drapes his coat over your shoulders, hands you water without a word, or simply sits beside you, thigh to thigh. His presence is constant, grounding.

♡ Internal Spiral: When you fall apart, so does he—quietly, inwardly. He blames himself, wonders if he’s too damaged to help. His greatest fear is losing you the way he’s lost others.

♡ Fear in Disguise: If you take a reckless risk, his reaction is sharp. Loud. Scared. “You think this world wouldn’t end if I lost you? ‘Cause I promise you—it would.”

♡ Soothing Aftermath: But after the storm, he softens. Always. He holds you close, forehead against yours. “You don’t have to be okay. Just… stay. Let me help you carry it.”

♡ Unconditional Commitment: He doesn’t want to fix you—just wants you here, alive, with him. If it takes holding your broken pieces together every night until they start healing, then that’s exactly what he’ll do.

Maria de la Rosa (Angel)

⁠♡ Immediate Recognition: Angel quickly notices the signs of your self-destructive behavior. Her intuition and experience make her sensitive to subtle changes in your demeanor.

⁠♡ Protective Instincts: She becomes fiercely protective, often going out of her way to shield you from harm, even if it means confronting others or taking drastic measures.

⁠♡ Emotional Support: Angel offers a listening ear and comforting presence. She encourages open communication, assuring you that you're not alone in your struggles.

⁠♡ Acts of Service: She expresses love through actions—preparing your favorite meals, organizing relaxing activities, or simply being there when you need her.

⁠♡ Encouraging Self-Care: Angel gently nudges you towards healthier habits, reminding you of your worth and the importance of self-care.

Misaki Katsuo

⁠♡ Shared Vulnerability: Misaki relates to your struggles, having faced their own challenges. This shared understanding fosters a deep connection between you two.

⁠♡ Humor as a Coping Mechanism: They often use humor to lighten heavy moments, helping you find moments of joy amidst the darkness.

⁠♡ Open Conversations: Misaki encourages honest discussions about feelings, creating a safe space for you to express yourself without judgment.

⁠♡ Consistent Presence: They make it a point to check in regularly, ensuring you feel supported and valued.

⁠♡ Encouraging Professional Help: Understanding their own limitations, Misaki gently suggests seeking professional support, emphasizing that it's a sign of strength, not weakness.

Valentin Viljoen(V)

⁠♡ Observant and Insightful: V notices patterns in your behavior, often identifying triggers and offering strategies to cope with them.

⁠♡ Structured Support: He helps establish routines that promote stability, such as regular meals, sleep schedules, and mindfulness practices.

⁠♡ Calm Reassurance: V provides a steady presence, offering comfort through calm and measured responses during your low moments.

⁠♡ Encouragement of Autonomy: While supportive, he respects your independence, encouraging you to take active steps in your healing journey.

⁠♡ Resourceful Assistance: V researches and shares resources, such as therapy options or support groups, tailoring suggestions to your preferences and needs.

Thanks again for the love—means more than you know. Glad you’re enjoying my writing... and trust me, the killers are enjoying you even more. If you want I can make you a fic for each of them.

Sorry if I didn't do the characters description more cuz I only played the Angel and Ronin route for now. Thank you for for understanding (⁠´⁠∩⁠｡⁠•⁠ ⁠ᵕ⁠ ⁠•⁠｡⁠∩⁠`⁠)

Come back soon, darling. <3

Credits:

-> dividers: @saradika-graphics @dollywons @uzmacchiato @thecutestgrotto

-> photos: Pinterest

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Goblin Mode Daddy König

I’m gonna be honest folks, König doesn’t stop being a goblin when he has kids. He’s a good dad, don’t get me wrong, but he’s a bit of a nightmare.

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Thankfully, König is a good father and husband. He’ll clean up after the little ones, he’ll take shifts when caring for them (especially in the first year), he’ll go so far as to take a weekend to be with the kids so you can rest. He does expect you to pull your weight, kids are a choice and a lifestyle when you have them. He wants you to care for them as a good parent would.

However, there are times where König is a little… Curious with children. Not in a bad way, in more a ‘Bro you’re kinduva dick’ sort of way. Not malicious to a point of harming a child, no never. But he’s a dick.

So, when König goes on walks with his kids he’ll put them up on his shoulders if they get tired. He really wants them to love nature as much as he does, of course! He wants them to love the woods and forests and to embrace the world around them. This also means he takes them tent camping and when they complain about not having anything to do he’ll tell them to find ways to entertain themselves. He won’t keep them busy all the time; they need to learn what to do with themselves when they have freetime. This also means that when they come up asking him to entertain them when he’s napping, he’ll wake up, grunt, then turn over and go back to bed. They’ll learn that bothering dad when napping typically doesn’t go well.

The other delight of König is when he’s playing games with them. He’s determined to teach them self defense. It’s very important! What he doesn’t expect is for his kids to get in trouble at school for using some of these techniques on their bullies. He’s not mad, just a bit sheepish when he’s called in and has to explain that no, they didn’t do it out of nowhere, actually he has been the one teaching them self defense so, you know, sorry about that.

König is great when watching kids. It’s just that he does it in his own way. He’ll actively involve them in what he’s doing. This means that his kids watch horror movies wayyyyy too early. They also learn to curse far too early for your liking. At least he teaches them to be responsible with it, but still. C’mon man. He at least does turn it off and care for them if it’s too scary. He’s not a monster, just sometimes a bit oblivious.

He’s also very intent on ensuring a good education. His children fear not the sandal, but the pen and paper as he forces them to write paragraphs about why kicking their dad is a bad idea. He’ll lecture them too, of course, but he does take delight in pushing education into every avenue in life. Yes, this means that you’ll sometimes stop on a trail and get a half hour lecture on how to use a flower in stews and herbal remedies. His children are begging him to stop but he’s insisting that they learn.

Unfortunately, this leads to smart kids, and smart kids know how to be sneaky and how to mouth off. Unfortunately for them, König is better in both areas. He can be downright snarky with his kids. He’s blunt and straightforward and also determined to remind that no, they cannot say whatever they like whenever, they need to learn their manners first.

Now, the true goblin nature of König comes out with food. He’s a nightmare with food. He was before having kids, he will be after. It’s just now he has new targets.

When his kids get cookies, they will inevitably make the horrible mistake of offering a bite to their father. Just a little one, but they want to share! Sharing is good! Sharing is not so good when your father devours your entire cookie with a smile. He just eats the whole thing. There is no sharing food with daddy König. He’s König the Devourer and his children aren’t immune to his ways.

Sometimes, one of his kids will offer him a lick of icecream. He proceeds to take the cone and then refuses to give it back until there’s naught but a napkin left. His children learn the meaning of the word ‘betrayal’ at a terribly early age. Perfidy will haunt their every memory involving their father and food.

I cannot stress the shock on König’s face when he steals his toddler’s cookie and then gets slapped.

This leads to playfighting. König is surprisingly gentle and good with playfighting. He’s good at falling in such a way where he doesn’t hit the kid behind him in the process. He’s actually quite good at avoiding accidents entirely. Part of it is being hyper-vigilant as a colonel, part of it is just that König really cares about his kids. This said, he won’t always stop an accident if he thinks it’s a good learning opportunity. If his kid runs into a sliding glass door, that’s a great learning opportunity. Again, he’s a bit of a dick.

He’s especially a dick when being introduced to his kid’s friends. König is a big, big man. Being five and meeting your friend’s dad is always scary, but when said friend’s dad is König? Oh good lord it’s terrifying. König used to try to ease kids into his presence but now he just accepts they’ll be terrified of him.

Now before I go into the next antic, I want to make something clear. König is a very quiet man. Extremely quiet. However, when his children make a mess, he doesn’t always want to go upstairs and knock on their door. Being in the military and having a big body gives him a nice big voice, and he’s more than happy to shout for his kids to come downstairs for something. Sometimes, he’ll yell about something but he’s not actually that mad about it. As I’ve said before, König would never yell at his kids with all his energy. He might raise his voice when he’s particularly strained, but he avoids yelling (in anger) as much as possible.

However, when yelling for his kid to come pick up their toys, imagine his horror when his son comes down and then another kid comes following behind. Oh König has so much explaining to do. He didn’t realize the play date was today, not now at least. He’s mortified that he just yelled at the top of his lungs and nearly made a child soil their pants. He has to get down low and really help calm the kid down with cookies and milk to make sure the kid won’t pass out. He has so much explaining to do when the kid’s mom comes to pick him up. It’s a genuine nightmare for König. He probably tried to ask you to deal with it for him but sometimes you gotta face the consequences of your own actions. König learns this the hard way.

König is good with other kids, but sometimes when he slams a door too hard or yells when he stubs his toe, visiting friends can get the willies spooked out of them. He always tries to apologize, but there’s so much you can do to calm someone down when you’re big and covered in scars (or worse, wearing a hood).

König isn’t a perfect father by any means, but the thing that matters most is that he always loves his kids. He always emphasizes how much he cares about them to you and to them in particular. He’s good at keeping his cool when things get heated and he’s great at getting to them on their level. He really does love his children above all else. His family is the most important thing in the world to him. He’s determined to shower them with love and affection. He’s strict about education and helping them get ahead in school, and he’s insistent that they are good kids and not spoiled brats, but he won’t ever hit his kids. He’ll never scream at them and call them names. He might grunt and make sarcastic comments, but he won’t ever hurt his child.

Or at least you say that until he accidentally sits on one and they both scream.

Konig Dump

Headcanons

[honeytonedhottie]

how to stop being toxic⋆.ೃ࿔*:･⭐️

the point of this post in general is a reminder to be self aware so that then u can become an individual that u are proud of ✨

SELF AWARENESS ;

everyone has traits in themselves that they aren't necessarily proud of and thats okay. its only natural bcuz we are humans. whats important is that u are able to acknowledge it and work on it.

toxic traits and behaviors stem from things like our own insecurities, conditioning, our egos and a multitude of other things. when we aren't toxic we free ourselves up for better people and experiences.

SELF ASSESSMENT ACTIVITY ;

do some shadow work, dig deeper and do some journalling to rly assess some of ur personality traits whether u classify them as a negative or a positive trait. some examples of traits include

having trouble taking accountability (shifting blame)

once you've classified that trait, write a sentence that explains why that particular trait is/isnt toxic. so for this particular trait ur sentence could look something like

trouble with taking accountability for myself and my actions is a toxic trait because it displays my inability to be responsible for myself/admit fault. this can jeopardize relationships and opportunities for me, it can also hinder my growth as an individual.

just because you notice toxic behaviors within yourself, it doesn't mean that u are a bad person. in fact, since u can acknowledge it and wanna improve it, that shows that u are a good person.

HOW TO ACTUALLY STOP ;

look for the source of toxic behaviors that u display. some ways that can help u to identify what makes u act in that way is by seeing a therapist who can help u to dissect and understand urself, intentional journalling etc.

when u find urself in situations in which u think that ur being toxic, u can practice mindfulness and nip it in the bud. the more that u practice doing this the easier and more natural it'll feel.

be a good listener

show urself compassion

start journalling/going to therapy

listen to feedback

listen to feedback from others from an impartial view. dont take criticism or negative feedback personally. take the feedback that u get and apply it cuz thats one of the many ways u can grow.

[vitaminseetarot]

Pick a Card: What's Rolling Into Your Life?

*･ﾟ✧Masterlist | *･ﾟ✧Ko-Fi

Hey y'all, welcome back to another nostalgia themed pick a card! Wow I'm finally back again in time for the next full moon [howling] I have no reason for being gone so long other than... work! Hopefully soon I'll reset back to a normal work-life-tarot balance. ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪

Today's reading is inspired by the Katamari Damacy / We Love Katamari games, featuring a few of my favorite cousins. The purpose of the game is to gather items, as many and as fast as possible. So each reading here comes with a bonus list of random things you could be manifesting or noticing as synchronicities, which will be "rolled up". Choose whichever cousin you'll play as and find out what you're rolling up this summer.

Pile 1 - Dipp ✨ Pile 2 - Ichigo 🍓 PIle 3 - June 💧 Pile 4 - Marcy 🌈

Pile 1 - Dipp ✨

Heart, Walrus, Incognito, 9 of Prisms - Lucent Stones, Sound - Resonance - Frequency, Chop Wood; 2 of Wands, Ace of Swords, 3 of Pentacles

How's it going pile 1! You picked the funky disco night owl Dipp, so it seems only natural you got the Sound card with all the vinyl discs! I'm also loving how the stars in the 2 of Wands fit this glamorous reading. I'm getting that you're becoming more of a local icon in some respects? Like your name is getting around more like a song on the top 20 charts. Perhaps for some this is due to your hobby in playing or listening to music, but it could be for anything. Maybe your genre or artist preferences aren't for everyone with the Walrus here (any fans of the Beatles in this here pile?), but it doesn't seem like you're caring much about what others think either way as you're jamming to your own beat this summer and you've got heads turning. Dipp is all about light, so in some area of life you're shining bright for everyone to see and talk about.

It's like at the same time you're being noticed, whether through admiration or envy, you're gaining this sense of chill and repose. With Incognito, your joy and talent are no longer entwined with how the public perceives your image. You're rolling up a quiet sense of confidence that's freeing your mind up for things you consider more important. Simultaneously, this relaxing of social pressure will somehow draw more people in. The way the man in the 2 of Wands holds the heart shaped globe reminds me of the King of All Cosmos and the Prince. Together they created new stars to fix up an old mess the King had made, but in doing so created an unexpected fanbase eager to be pleased with their requests. With Chop Wood, it's business as usual, but there's more word going around about what you're doing even if you're trying to play it cool.

I feel for a lot of folks in this pile, this is going to pertain to something that you're actively improving on. If you've been working out at the gym, you'll start to notice more comments about your muscles. If you're in school, suddenly people may seem more interested in what you're studying or getting a degree in. Some of you will find that you're content with doing things on your own, like traveling or engaging in a hobby, yet will still find that people are becoming interested and want to join even as you attempt to pull away. This may be a very socially busy period if you let it. If you start to feel concerned about your personal space, then be sure to clearly communicate boundaries and be sure that you meter out time for your comfort, as you might get asked to do favors or business out of nowhere. For those looking for work or clients, this is lucky news, but it's still important to consider how it factors into your need for privacy and self-care.

You Rolled Up: Box of chocolates, swings, glass figurine, intricate art tapestry, hearty frozen snacks like ice cream sandwiches, cards that play noise when opened, beach towel, bugspray, bandages, MP3 player, small stationary kit, glasses or eye contacts, seafood, vintage band shirt, bouquet, headphones, mini broom, glowsticks, palette knife and brushes, gardening shears, sparklers, wallpaper or poster, energy boosting drinks, vitamin supplements, musical instrument

Pile 2 - Ichigo 🍓

House, Squirrel, Alignment, 5 of Mechanisms - Wind-Up Galaxy, Levity, To the Sea; 3 of Swords, V The Guru (Hierophant), Page of Pentacles

Hello pile 2! You picked one of the most popular and diva cousin Ichigo, who's shaped just like a strawberry. I see this energy reflected here in the Guru (Hierophant), where LOVE is written above in big letters. I'm hearing the cliche "home is where the heart is" and I truly feel like your summer will make you feel cozy and cute at home. I'm seeing large pink blankets and coffee table set ups with the works like snacks and video games. I'm also seeing long bubble bath and spa sessions to unwind. With Alignment, you may also be getting the urge to redecorate your living space to make it feel more in touch with who you are. This theme for your season is ease and comfort, especially as I see this 3 of Swords sticking out. Perhaps the previous season or early half of this year has not felt so kind. This tarot card also talks about mending the heart, not just breaking. You're taking the time to stitch things back together (are some of you getting into knitting or crochet?)

Being gentle with yourself in whatever you're recovering from is essential. This includes not filling out every hour of your day with things to do. There's stillness in the Hierophant's pose as he holds his heart medallion. Take time to sit with how you're feeling and to check in whenever you feel your mood change, especially during the busier times. When the weight of everyday worldly issues creep in, set a reminder to pause when need be and enjoy what surrounds you. It might be helpful to spend time by the water, like at a beach or lakeside, to reconnect with your emotional flow. Although you may bring friends over from time to time, it's also wise to listen to your body when it's asking for quiet time to reflect. This will likely be a hermited summer, but the focus is more on letting go of stress rather than needing to stay stuck inside the house all day.

The Page of Pentacles reminds us that in this quiet space, new details might emerge that wouldn't have been as easily noticeable if there was more hustle involved. Stop to smell the roses in between walks to and fro. Take the astronaut from the first Katamari game, for example. He was so wrapped up in doing his work that he failed to see the news about the stars vanishing, or of katamari rolling through the streets attempting to replace them, until the last second. Had he taken time to look around, he might have seen what his children saw right away. This season, you're being asked to tend more to the little things that you have rather than what's being longed for. It's not enough to gather acorns; they have to be remembered and accounted for too, otherwise forgetting about it is the same as not having it any longer. Do some inventory, like going through your make-up collection to see what you want to keep or throw out. In doing so, you may find some old but pleasant surprises hiding in plain sight.

You Rolled Up: Decorative house lights, cairn, bubble wand, sorbet or popsicles, fresh fruit, multicolored yarn, unique or foreign coin, pink throw pillow, assistance ramps for homes, smartwatch, ferry ride, bonfire, tea or herb bundles, foreign snacks, antacids, heavy jewelry, windchimes, posture supports like shoes and backrest, books, a class just for fun, video games, swimsuit or scuba gear, lunchbox, bulk amount of your favorite snack, marathon award, scrying pendulum, rare collectible item

Pile 3 - June 💧

Tower, Peacock, Dissolve, Macroscoria, Go Your Own Way, Happy Happy; VII Chariot, 4 of Swords, 7 of Pentacles

Hi pile 3! You picked the nature loving cousin June, who some see as ditzy but is really happy in her own world. I see this energy in the Happy Happy card, with this joyous fairy being showered in bright blessings. She sits in between the patient 7 of pentacles and the "go your own way" card, showing that she's not afraid to grow at her own pace. Some in this pile may be neurodivergent or have an introverted personality that isn't always as quiet as you let on. In any case, you're content with doing what pleases you over always pleasing the crowd. There's a lot of excitement and energy here that wants to move towards what you desire regardless of what traditional structures hold. Some of you may be looking into an interdisciplinary major that doesn't neatly fit into an academic box, for example. Or you have an art style that tests the limits of how a style is commonly taught or what the software can typically handle.

You're rolling in a lifestyle change that will allow you to work at your own unique pace, pile 3. I'm hearing extra spare time, or a great flexibility in time. Somewhere you can't do the 9 to 5, or follow the usual itinerary of a vacation trip, but rather you'll find an alternative that works better for you. You'll be getting a chance to do things your way at your own time in some aspect of life. I'm getting that things may slow down a little bit or opportunities you were gunning for have fizzled or lost a spark here and there, but these are signals pointing you to recharge and realign with what you would rather be doing. If something lit you up but doesn't feel the same way a week later, it's okay to take a break and come back to it. You'll find the time to wrap up loose ends and finish what needs to be done, but allow yourself to enjoy the season. It's okay to have delays and hiatuses. It's also okay to cancel something you no longer want to do.

In the story, we look back at the King of All Cosmos, the Prince's father, and how he dealt with the pressure his father placed on him to be perfect at things he had no interest in doing. He didn't get to have a say whether or not he wanted to go to night school or practice fighting. When he went against his father one day, going down his own path, he found what would make him unexpectedly happy and rekindle his heart. Some of you may have felt the pressure from a prideful older figure who wants to project a certain image of who you are, but over the years as you age, it gets easier to create a new path that speaks more to your heart and the drop the expectations others have placed. If it takes you extra time to get there, remember that many of us have to spend adulthood learning things that should have been taught by parents and teachers ages ago. Don't feel guilty for needing this extra time, but see it instead as a blessing to get to know yourself and your passions again with reinvigorated confidence and renewed energy.

You Rolled Up: Potted plant, smartphone, pillow, dice tower, carnival food, toy car, sprinklers, chalk, shampoo, reclining chair, hand or cooling fan, eyeliner, map, salads, clothes for job interview, lava cake, suncatchers, fuzzy cat toys, video editing software, semi-permanent hair dye, mirror, white noise machine, funny bumper sticker, kaleidoscope, glasses or eye contacts, tour guide brochure, elaborately stitched dress, massage bed, commuting bus, hammock, organizing shelves, subway tickets

Pile 4 - Marcy 🌈

Clover, Coral Reef, Reflection, 6 of Bloom - Wings of Fae, Thrift Shop Magic, Observer; 6 of Pentacles, Knight of Wands, 7 of Cups

Hey pile 4! You picked the fun fashionista Marcy, who loves to explore her own personal style. She was purple in the first game and becomes more colorful in the second. The Thrift Shop Magic card shows this in the variety of clothes available for choosing, with a small rainbow painting above the coattrack. You're in a phase of exploration, especially in regards to what you like. You may have acquired a taste for the fanciful or unusual (or at least that's how some people around you may perceive it). I see also that you're exploring more than just aesthetics; with Coral Reef, you're diving deeper into what you value or choose to stand for.

You're the only pile in this pick a card reading that got an Environment card from the Buzzfeed deck, while the other three got the same type. So you're definitely standing out from the crowd this summer, pile 4. You may be getting vocal about the issues you care about, and "environment" kept repeating in my head so you may be deeply concerned over global climate or develop a strong sense of stewardship to the land you live on. Animal rights as well (my black cat really wants to lay on your cards). Fast fashion, poverty, and humanitarian crises inside and outside your country could also be topics deeply on your mind, even if it makes some around you feel uncomfortable to discuss. I think you have a knack for helping others reflect on what they care about way more, though, even if they won't admit it. You're rolling in positive changes to these circumstances affecting your life. You'll gather something that helps you stand back and find new solutions and new ways of expressing these solutions to your community.

There is a level in We Love Katamari where an activist wants to save the red pandas and urges the Prince (or Cousin) to gather the most expensive materials, only to spend just enough for the red pandas to feed them for a day while giving away the rest. It's clear he could have donated it differently. You may receive a windfall or something that will benefit you but if you wish to use it to help others, you must be wise in how you use this blessing. Some may not have the best intentions in mind with what you have, so always pay attention to details to make sure it's being spent properly. Do homework on organizations who claim to be directly serving the needy. How are they using what they are blessed with? Passion should not be mistaken for impulse, listen to where your heart wants to go while acknowledging the mind.

You Rolled Up: Telecope, fairy house, stained glass, donated goods, butterfly garden, lunar jewelry or decorations, new and green or red clothes, arcade games, cookies, fish tank, hybrid or electric motorbike or moped, raffle prize, generous tip, tea set, water purifier, hiking gear, science lab gear, vending machine, brochures, yard sale dinnerware, small plane, art depicting bird nests, personal lucky tokens, purse, board or tabletop game, shadowbox, jet ski, hors d'oeuvres, red hat or hair dye or meeting someone with red hair

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みんな大好き, I Love You, Disco☆Tech, So Funky Night ~

2025, @VitaminseeTarot ™

[acmee-arts]

i'm fairly certain it's you who was talking about Xaria not liking sam and the ways in which it makes a first impression on the player that ppl aren't willing to examine?? its been rolling around in my head A LOT, especially about Xaria likely /being/ a "good person" (as much as i don't think that's a helpful descriptor) who has generally put in an effort for positive change & simply... is not being considerate to Sam.

i think it also says something very interesting about how much people respond to lyle's fawning at face value and how SO many people love him on sight because he immediately establishes himself as a positive asset to the player, someone who likes sam, someone who will help sam. lyle has not... actually done anything worthy of praise aside from coerce several intimate gestures out of sam for photo paper. i personally struggle to characterize lyle as anything but self-interested and kind of... a liiitle bit roll my eyes at some depictions of him i've seen.

LIKE!! these are the things i /like/ about lyle. but i think its interesting how so many players fall for the masks these characters are clearly putting on for/around Sam, and it doesnt actually have anything to do with how 'good' those people might or might not be. just how convenient

/ @cryptozombologist

(sorry for rambling in ur inbox LOLLLL)

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OH okay okay, so while I have regarded that i think, i also believe it was @/crunchybeards who made a more extensive essay then what I previously said, verbalizing that about Xaria as well? Which to be fair, absolutely has been rolling around in my mindscape as well too ..

Now this ask however does make me think, the points about Lyle compared to Xaria reception - UPDATE OH MY GOD THIS BECAME A XARIA ESSAY

Lyle, as you said, is putting on a mask of sorts to appeal to Sam. He doesn't flat-out address his .. hobbies unless you narratively push back on him and get to his 'project' room, and even then, a large amount of activity surrounding his character and additional actions (Seen through a sort of rose-tinted glasses way?), are sidestepped in place of indulging something adorable on the surface, in the wake of all the horrors surrounding every other situation you meet these primary characters in.

From what I've seen off Frankie, he absolutely agrees that Lyle was intended ('lab-grown') to be cute (and, apparently people were already fawning over him with the OG game demos too), to capture first players in, which I'm a fan of personally; not the other way around where he so /happens/ to be fawned over by proxy of interpretation, there's an intent.

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With Xaria on the flipside; as much as I do love Lyle's character - I honestly find her through and throughout to be more of a (in-character) genuine person then him. That's a given, she isn't hiding anything from the player - and in fact has a habit of stating her mind and show where her boundaries and needs are, which is SUCH a breath of fresh air, honestly

(Especially for a character that isn't intended to be another guy character in the first place:

- quoting my previous essay; "preface reminder; the rat baby thing WAS an accident after all, because she dropped a whole stack of dishes and it scared her and yatta yatta Frankie plans to give you more choice about that.. because he doesn't want rat baby to feel helpless in that situation." She's any number of adjectives to describe 'harsh', but she isn't trying to appeal to anyone besides herself and Monty. Not in a self-centered way as Lyle acts, but in a way that tells me she really could give less of a shit about putting up a front to get ahead in life. You get a pretty raw version of her that speaks more care towards things, then someone who trades you intimate gestures for important items. (To summarize, not bashing Lyle on that, i just thought about being blunt)

In addition, the player themself using pushback on a lot of characters does end up with the more interesting routes and dialogs, doesn't it? Items as well, not that you have to kill people but just get a bit creative if you're up for alternatives. Xaria's way of acting reminds me of that tbh, picking the most outright options to get intense responses.

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Her Octocook dialogue is a really good way of showing it's not just attitude on her/that's all she is, but instead that she genuinely /does/ care about being present in her own way. Besides the game gradually offsetting her, there is an entire thought process she /really/ goes over with herself that we're never fully let in on until she can state the argument, and I LOVE that so much.

It's something the narrative doesn't even pick up on itself, nor does Sam, because it's something cute to gloss over.

First play:

Second play:

Third play:

Fourth play:

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There's something there that severely speaks to me about what she might have experienced to find this kind of situation messed up to her as it is. It's showing a real investment and taking a situation seriously in something that'd otherwise be 'just a character', from a character, in a game. Granted she has some assumptions on the octopus chef's situation, but she also could have researched the game too where she wasn't seen by the player otherwise.

Also an assumption - but it's a perspective to perspective none the less. I love it. I LOVE love love it and this is severely understating how much i love her character AHHH AHH SCREAMS . either way, it's always fascinating to me how the more abrasive character (Xaria) has such an investing conversation surrounding her writing, compared to a more indulgent character (Lyle) fawning over Sam, but ultimately is a bit shallow in himself. (This is a compliment)

anyway i hope its obvious i think about her a lot thansies for reading mwahhhhhhhh <3 <3 <3 THANK YOU ALSO FOR THE THOUGHT PROVOKING ASK @cryptozombologist IT MEANS A LOT TO ME!!!!

[starmocha]

the idea of zaynemc having twins is honestly *chef's kiss*

snowdrop as an older brother 🥹🥹🥹🥹

would I be indulging you too much about this plot bunny if I asked:

snowdrop was carefully planned, would pregnancy 2 be as well or it'd be like oops 🫢

and the most important question of all:

how would they react upon learning they were having twins??

you don't need to answer if you don't want, it's fine, it's just that as much as I love the idea of zaynemc having their one little treasure, picturing them with two more and having a full house like that made me so happy. they deserve it so much. 🥹

🥹 lowkey hoped someone would ask~ This plot bunny has been sitting in my brain for too long. I really want to yap lol

☆-— The second pregnancy is both planned and unplanned, in the sense that both Zayne and MC have noticed how much time has passed and Snowdrop is already getting bigger and would start preschool and later grade school, so they're feeling the early signs of empty nest syndrome.

☆-— Zayne is holding it together well. He's feeling bittersweet about it, much like in the second to last scene in 'Keep It Icy,' but MC, on the other hand, is a little more visibly sad about her baby growing up. She's happy, of course, but still. This is her baby. She just wants him to stay little for a while longer. </3

☆-— So, one night, they are cuddling in bed, talking about their day, their son, and eventually it leads to them both admitting how bittersweet it feels that each day Snowdrop is becoming more independent and needing them both a little less. They're happy and proud that he's growing up as a happy, self-assured, and bright little boy, but it's so hard to reconcile this with their memory of the day he was born and he was just so small, and now he would soon be taking his first little steps into a new world where they won't always be the center of his.

☆-— Eventually, they both reach the same thought: "Should we try for another baby?" They're not trying to fill this sudden empty hole, but also realizing how they also want their son to grow up with a sibling. They can certainly afford a bigger family, and they both love the life they have built together so far.

☆-— But they also agree that this time, they're not rushing like with Snowdrop. They're relinquishing control to the Universe. They won't be using protection or being cautious, but they also won't be actively trying to get pregnant like the first time. If it's meant to be, then MC will get pregnant with another baby.

☆-— Cue some time later, MC notices her period is late. Zayne, too (of course). She also complains about how tender her breasts feel (Dr. Zayne to the rescue with some TLC for the titties). She's also more tired lately no matter how often she sleeps.

☆-— They suddenly look at one another, like, "Maybe???"

☆-— A few tests later and they're both shocked, because she's gotten pregnant much quicker than they both had anticipated. And then they're stupidly smiling and laughing, because, what do you mean they're now going to be a family of four????

☆-— Snowdrop, of course, is the first person to hear this news that "Mommy is going to have a baby. You're going to be a big brother soon!"

☆-— And sweet little Snowdrop is happy, because he senses his parents' happiness. Of course, he also hits them with an innocent "How did the baby get inside Mommy's tummy?"

☆-— MC says she has to go get reacquainted with the toilet because of her morning sickness, and abandons Zayne in a heartbeat. "You're a doctor, Zaynie, you have all of the answers. I just know how to shoot wanderers in the head. Bye~"

☆-— One awkward hour with a very inquisitive toddler later, Zayne is carrying Snowdrop in his arms as they go find MC, saying they should all go out and celebrate this news.

☆-— As the weeks pass during her first trimester, it kind of occurs to MC how she seems to be growing faster than during her first pregnancy. It seems like her bump is already showing, but Zayne reminds her how each pregnancy is unique. She shrugs and accepts his reasoning.

☆-— They soon find out just how unique this pregnancy is during one of her checkups.

☆-— They're floored. They wanted to try for a second baby, and they succeeded. Too well. Because, hello???? Did the doctor just say they heard two heartbeats? As in, twins??????

☆-— One ultrasound later, and they're driving home and MC is looking at the photo in her hands and then her bump and back to the photo before she starts laughing. Zayne is also still wrapping his head around the news and how overjoyed he is in this moment. It seems their family is jumping from three to five just like that.

☆-— Snowdrop, once again, gets first dibs on baby news. And once again, our darling little boy is very curious about some things. "Where did the second baby come from?"

☆-— MC conveniently forgets her marriage vow once more and abandons her husband during a hard time. "You're a doctor, Zaynie—"

☆-— "You can't keep using that excuse."

☆-— She still abandons him, reminding him that thanks to him, she's going to have to push out two babies this time. Zayne knew she would pull a dirty move like that. Cue him silently planning her future punishments.

☆-— Halfway through her pregnancy and they learn the twins' gender. They have Snowdrop with them during this checkup, so everyone learn that MC is pregnant with both another boy and also a girl.

☆-— Zayne and MC share a look, and she can just see the love in his eyes. He kisses her forehead and he's just whispering praises only she could hear.

☆-— Snowdrop is excited because he's going to have a little brother and sister. He asks them innocently, "Will they like me?"

☆-— Zayne and MC laugh. They're kissing his cheeks until he giggles, and saying the babies will love him so much, because he's their big brother. They also add that they love him so much, too, and won't ever stop or love him less, but now there would be more love to be spread around for their growing family.

[jackoshadows]

Once in a while I come across certain posts that really give us an insight into how certain stans think and it explains so much about this fandom.

Like the way a certain stan group gets triggered when Arya's canonical appearance is discussed.

Arya is canonically pretty.

Beauty is, of course, subjective - even for the characters in asoiaf. What Gendry finds pretty about a girl may not be the same for someone like Joffrey Baratheon. What Alys Karstark finds attractive about a boy may not be the same for Sansa Stark. What a Northerner may find attractive may not be the same for a southroner.

There are characters who mention that Arya is pretty.

“Lyanna might have carried a sword, if my lord father had allowed it. You remind me of her sometimes. You even look like her.” “Lyanna was beautiful,” Arya said, startled. Everybody said so. It was not a thing that was ever said of Arya. "She was,” Eddard Stark agreed, “beautiful, and willful, and dead before her time.” - Arya, AGoT (Eddard)

“I look like an oak tree, with all these stupid acorns.” “Nice, though. A nice oak tree.” He stepped closer, and sniffed at her. “You even smell nice for a change.” Arya, ASOS (Gendry)

“I’m sorry I tore the acorn dress too. It was pretty.” “Yes, child. And so are you. Be brave.” Arya, ASOS (Lady Smallwood)

Lord Smallwood, she knew, remembering Acorn Hall so far away, and the lady who’d said she was pretty. Arya , ASOS

”Or would you sooner be a courtesan, and have songs sung of your beauty?“ - Arya, AFFC (Kindly Man)

“Wear this when you are here,” the priest said, “but know that you shall have little need of it for the present. On the morrow you will go to Izembaro to begin your first apprenticeship. Take what clothes you will from the vaults below. The city watch is looking for a certain ugly girl, known to frequent the Purple Harbor, so best you have a new face as well.” He cupped her chin, turned her head this way and that, nodded. “A pretty one this time, I think. As pretty as your own. Who are you, child?”  “No one,” she replied. - The Ugly Little Girl, AFfC (Kindly Man)

She had never cared if she was pretty, even when she was stupid Arya Stark. Only her father had ever called her that. Him, and Jon Snow, sometimes. - The Blind Girl, ADwD (Jon Snow)

So we have, in canon, Ned Stark, Jon Snow, Gendry, Lady Smallwood and the Kindly Man call Arya or describe Arya as pretty or nice.

On the other hand we have a bully like Sansa who thinks only Southron girls like Margaery are beautiful and actively keeps wishing at every turn that others were her sisters instead of Arya.

Why couldn't Arya be sweet and delicate and kind, like Princess Myrcella? She would have liked a sister like that. - Sansa, AGoT

Sister. Sansa had once dreamt of having a sister like Margaery, beautiful and gentle, with all the world's graces at her command. Arya had been entirely unsatisfactory as sisters went. - Sansa, ASoS

Keep in mind that Sansa assumes Arya is a bastard because she looked 'common' like Jon and therefore Sansa would think of Jon as ugly as well. We have never seen other characters call Jon ugly either.

The sycophantic Septa Mordane is a terrible teacher and very clearly dislikes Arya. And then there is Catelyn having her own biases and wanting Arya to be a mini Sansa in order to be considered pretty.

In contrast we have both family members (Ned and Jon) and unbiased outsiders (Gendry, Lady Smallwood and the Kindly Man) who think that Arya is pretty. This is not something that's made up, it's not fanon, it's not headcanons, it's not speculations or assumptions.

Arya's appearance is important to the character and her story. In her very first chapter we read about her self-esteem issues and feeling as if not being able to fit in. Always compared to Sansa and found wanting. So much so that in the next book, she even doubts her mother's love for her. She's surprised when Ned compares her to Lyanna. Even as far as book 5, she is defensive about how she looks - the effects of being bullied about her appearance. And yet, in each part of her journey (WF, KL, Riverlands, Braavos), the author writes in a character who thinks she is pretty.

Arya is the classic 'Ugly Duckling' story of a swan amongst ducks, a Stark amongst Tullys (in terms of appearance) - Ned's only child to look like a Stark. Arya looks like Lyanna. She does not have the Tully auburn hair and blue eyes, no. Does not make Arya ugly, just different.

These Arya/Lyanna parallels interspersed throughtout the books are important as Arya makes her way back North. There are also parallels between the girls of the North - Arya, Lyanna Mormont, Wylla Manderly, Alys Karstark. These are deliberate parallels about a certain type of proactive young leaders in the North.

As Arya gets older and grows into her looks while progressing in her story, GRRM is also setting her up with marriage plots just like with Sansa. Catelyn arranges an alliance for her with a Frey bastard. Gendry falls for Arya and we have a bit of a romcom with these two. There's an entire subplot up North that revolves around 'Arya's' marriage with a Bolton bastard.

So why shouldn't book fans in general and specifically Arya fans discuss Arya's appearance? Why shouldn't they write fanfiction with pretty Arya? Draw fanart with pretty Arya? Call out the racism when certain stans who think that Arya is ugly draw or reblog art of the canonically white Arya in darker tones to highlight Sansa's white skin because she is beautiful? Call out the sexism when canonically petite Arya is drawn as a giant next to delicate, pretty Sansa?

99% of the time, discussions of Arya's appearance - like now - only happens in response to a triggered Sansa stan obsessed about 'beauty'.

But Nah. Apparently these are not the reasons.

Apparently Arya fans only discuss or talk of Arya being pretty "as a kind of f u to sansa".

Imagine the entitlement, the cope, the absolute brain worms, the hardcore stanning so much so that these stans can't even imagine Arya fans discussing anything about Arya unless it has something to do with Sansa!

Like look at this utterly nonsense post!

For these stans, their world revolves around Sansa so much so that they really think one cannot discuss Arya separate from Sansa and can't talk about Arya's journey and Arya's relationships unless it has to do with Sansa.

I mean, that's the way they think. That's why for them Arya is a forever side prop for Sansa and everything Arya should somehow revolve around Sansa.

That's why they go on and on about 'Sun and Moon' and 'Stark sisters' foreva' because they want Arya tied permanently to Sansa instead of Arya being the main character having her individual story of growth and leadership in asoiaf.

Imagine saying with your whole chest that an Arya fan discussing a canon aspect of Arya is actually just the fan saying 'fuck u' to Sansa...

The rest of everything in that post is also crazy in terms of the lack of self awareness. Stuff like this:

They don't see anything wrong in this? The fact that beauty is necessary to be an 'ideal' sister for Sansa is true but why are they so proud that Sansa is a superficial and shallow person who places more worth on appearance than the humanity of the person?

Isn't this what got Sansa in trouble in the first place because she trusted the likes of Cersei and Joffrey and then later Margaery because of their beauty?

If Sansa will only accept Arya as her sister if Arya is beautiful, what does that tell us about Sansa?

I have never seen ANYONE, not any of the Arya fans on here who discuss Arya and enjoy her character state that Sansa will be threatened by Arya's beauty.

Because WHY?! Why would that be important in the grand scheme of things for Arya? Why is that important in Arya's story of self love, gaining acceptance amongst her pack, knowing her own self worth, the relationships she forms with characters like Gendry or uniting once again with loved ones like Jon Snow and becoming a leader of the North.

Does anyone think that Arya will be celebrating that poor Jeyne Poole lost her nose to frost bite when they meet again? Or will Arya and Jeyne have more important things to talk about?

Arya fans - for whom Arya is their favorite asoiaf character - never come up with elaborate nonsense like this. For an actual Arya fan, Sansa is just one of many side characters in Arya's story and there are other more important characters - Jon, Bran, Nymeria, Daenerys, Gendry, Cat/LSH, Winterfell, Rickon etc. before we even come to Sansa.

It's the Sansa stans who loudly proclaim that they love Arya so much who get triggered by mentions of Arya being pretty and see it as a threat to Sansa's beauty.

There is no other fandom group in asoiaf so obsessed with beauty like Sansa stans. The entire thesis of the most popular Sansa ship - the Jonsa crackship - is that 10/11 year old Sansa is so beautiful, 14 year Jon simply can't resist her. He called her 'radiant' dammit!! SanSan is all about 'Beauty' and the Beast.

And this is why Sansa is such a self-insert for her fandom. When Arya fans discuss Arya's canon appearance, it's Sansa stans who feel threatened about the characteristic they love best about their fave and hence assume that Sansa will be threatened and then project that onto Arya fans.

It gives us insight into their mind. This is why they get triggered anytime Arya fans bring up that Arya is pretty. They really think that saying Arya is pretty is a fuck you to Sansa, because their mind simply cannot accept that Arya being pretty is ABOUT ARYA!

And finally it's funny that the so called 'neutral' bnf reblogged this with such tags as:

Are they talking about themselves and their fellow Sansa stans? Because the only people projecting these fantasies about Sansa being threatened by Arya's beauty are these Sansa stans themselves. No one else.

As an Arya fan the only thing I want from any Arya/Sansa reunion is genuine remorse from Sansa about how she treated her little sister, including siding with Joffrey against her, throwing Arya under the bus again and again and snitching Ned's plans to Cersei that got the girls trapped in KL. I want actual character growth and an apology from Sansa. Acknowledgement that she was wrong.

And that's about it. Who the eff cares about which sister is more beautiful and being jealous and all that - the kids have grown beyond all that. Sansa and Arya may love each other as sisters but are too different to get along or enjoy each other's company. They have their different paths and journeys and individual stories to deal with. And that's what fans should be discussing about.

Sansa stans need to stop getting triggered about mentions of Arya being canonically pretty in the series.

[prentissluvr]

only got eyes for you — sam winchester

cw : lawyer!sam x gn!reader, fluff, very light angst, reader has sort of low self-esteem, feelings of insecurity, alcohol consumption, reader gets a lil tipsy, very vague allusions to sex if you want it to be heh but definitely sfw, mentions of unwanted physical touch, 2.7K words. requested !

summary : you're convinced no man, certainly not one like sam, the successful, kind, and handsome lawyer you meet at your hotel, could fall in love with you, but he's only got eyes for you.

MOVED BLOGS TO @sammyluvr !! no longer active on this blog! all fics can be found there!

he’s a shining star. an angel halo, maybe. 

odd, because he looks just about the same as every other man in this overpriced luxury hotel bar. black suit, shiny hair, and an air of wealth and importance. and yes, he’s handsome. but he’s also beautiful. he’s beautiful and has kind eyes that tilt your whole perception of him. it just feels like… like he’s good, or something of that sort.

you’re sort of tipsy and you can’t stop staring at him.

you wonder at the concept of hotels as a liminal space. for you, this hotel is an in between. it’s a pause. it’s somewhere you’re not one hundred percent you, but not pretending to be someone else. and it’s supposed to be about you, in a way. it’s your reset button, your “slow down and take a deep breath.” and it’s certainly not supposed to be about gorgeous men.

it’s just that he’s magnetic. you can’t help staring at him and you can’t help but wallow in the bottom of your empty shot glass because it feels like everyone else in this room feels his magnetism just as well as you. or they just think he’s handsome as hell, which they wouldn’t be wrong about.

but you’re not supposed to be wallowing, especially not over a man who’ll never even look your way. you’ve seen three separate people offer to buy him a drink tonight, each one of them reminding you about what you can’t have. what you’ve never managed to have. and so, your pick-me-up treat of a vacation has turned right back into “i’m still convinced that no one will ever fall in love with me.”

all because you’ve been staring at a pretty man across the bar for just a little over an hour. in your defense, you’d like to remind the audience that you’re slightly tipsy. at first, as a treat to yourself. and at first, this man was a treat too, of the eye candy variety. 

now? you want him out of your sight… or in your hotel room bed. so, clearly feeling very logical, you keep looking.

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sam doesn’t like the attention. sure, it’s very flattering to be offered so many free drinks and given plenty of flirty smiles. but the unwarranted touching, the paws on his elbow or shoulder or, god forbid, the bare skin of his hand… those he hates. he doesn’t like being stared at either. it feels ignorant and disrespectful, especially when it’s followed up with the sway of hips and poor flirting if said onlooker approaches.

and almost all of them are so… prissy, priviledged, and haughty. it’s not as if sam isn’t wealthy; he’s a successful civil law attorney working at a big firm. but he can’t stand people who’s money has gotten to their heads.

their stares are hungry, their touches an extention of the fact that they think they should get whatever they’d like for their five course dinner.

but there’s one stare, just one, that sam doesn’t mind. he’s not bothered by the fact that he can constantly feel your gaze on him. mostly because he can tell that you’re tipsy and not trying to stare as much as you are. you look away, embarrassed each time he glances in your direction.

you’re not shameless and you’re not looking to take. you’re just looking for the sake of it. 

sam thinks that your eyes seem kind and curious, even from where he’s sitting. and a little bit sad, for a reason he’s not privy to but would like to know, maybe even fix somehow. he supposes he’s privy to nothing about you except for the way you look, and the way you look at him. he thinks he’d at least like to know your name.

maybe he’ll see you in the bar again tomorrow night. or maybe he’ll never see you again at all. maybe you’ve been staying at this hotel for a month, and tonight is your last, as it is his first.

that means he has a choice. risk talking to you tonight or risk talking to you never. now sam isn’t bold and sam isn’t a flirt, but sam is certainly a lover, so he’ll take a chance.

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you sigh when the pretty man stands, though you suppose it's better for you that he leaves. only he doesn’t leave. he turns and looks at you. he turns and walks to you, a soft smile on his face.

on instinct, you tear your gaze away, playing with the empty shot glass in front of you. he must be looking at someone behind you. but you can see him out of the corner of your eye as he gets closer and he is not looking at someone behind you.

you look up and try to smile back, nervous.

“would, uh, would it be okay if i sat here?” he asks, hand resting on the back of the chair next to you. his voice is kind, and you were right; so are his eyes.

“sure,” you nod, voice a little quieter and breathier than you intended. you swallow and wonder how long it’ll take you to sober up as he settles into the chair beside you. he’s even more brilliant up close and you smile at him because you can’t help it. it feels like he deserves to be smiled at, though you’re not sure where that feeling comes from.

he smiles right back and says, “thank you… can i ask your name?”

and that strikes you; he asks “can i…” and “would it be okay if…” and makes his intentions clear without overdoing it. you hesitate. are men like him real? he’s bound to have flaws, of course. but he’s a man, so you feel like he’s bound to be horrible in some way or another. and you have trouble believing that his interest in you is anything, certainly not after seeing all of the beautiful people who have approached him first and been turned down.

then your tipsy mind thinks fuck it, because you’re only here for four more days and you’re here for yourself and frankly, you’re here because constantly being stinted in love and attention is getting to you. and here is a beautiful man who’s giving you his attention over at least three other rich and gorgeous people. so you come to the conclusion that you should let it happen. see where it goes, tell him your name and ask for his. 

letting attractive men flirt with you should definitely count as living for yourself. it’d be a crime to deprive yourself of listening to his rich voice and seeing his kind eyes, which are hazel up close. already, you guess that they change color depending on the light or the shirt that he’s wearing.

so indeed, you tell him your name.

“nice to meet you,” he smiles, “i’m sam.” now, sam notices your hesitance at first. it worries him for a second, and he thinks he’s maybe making you uncomfortable. but your gaze shifts and your voice sounds at ease, maybe even a little bit pleased to answer him.

“it’s nice to meet you too,” you say, hoping you sound as sincere in those words as you feel.

as far as first meetings go, sam is stellar. he’s a lawyer, and though he’s humble about it, you can easily tell that he’s successful. he’s here partially for a small vacation, but mostly to check out a new firm. he’s looking to move to a new city too, somewhere that needs better immigration lawyers. clearly, he wants to help, and from what you can presume, he’s succeeding on that front. he’s here for just two more full days, and likes classic literature.

but he doesn’t just talk about himself. he asks about you like he really wants to know. and his face just lights up when you tell him that you live in boston. that’s the top of his list right now for new cities, he visited a month ago and thinks he might love to live there. so you run your mouth a little bit, giving him all of the ups and downs of living there. mostly the ups. you want him to like it, you want to sell it to him. how silly is it to hope that he moves there?

he offers to buy you another drink too, but you wave him off politely. it makes him laugh a little when you admit that you’re already a bit tipsy and don’t think that you should drink anymore.

“of course,” he nods, so respectful by nature. he wonders how silly it is to add you to the list of reasons to move to boston. sam finds you to be completely lovely. you’re just as respectful as him and it makes you happy when he tells you he likes your city.

tomorrow is the day that sam focuses on the work side of things. but thursday is for exploring the city, he tells you.

“i, uh, i know that you’re here for a solo trip, but, um… if you’re willing, i’d love to see some of the city with you,” he suggests. you like that he’s not perfectly smooth all of the time. he’s even a bit awkward. it’s endearing and helps you relax around him. 

“i’d… love that too,” you say, letting a wide smile stretch across your features. it feels a little bit too good to be true, but you can’t help but wonder if this is just things finally going your way, even if it only lasts a day or two.

“great,” he grins back. “let me give you my number so we can plan something.” you nod, pleased at those words. you’ll have his number. if you ever feel bold enough, you can text him. if he likes you enough, he might text you first. if he moves to boston, maybe he’ll tell you. then you can offer to show him around a little more or bring him a housewarming gift and maybe bring him to your favorite coffee shop.

then you remember you’re supposed to be pulling out your phone for him. you reach for your pocket to find it empty.

“oh, right,” you mutter to yourself. “how about i give you mine. i, uh, left my phone in my room to get away from it for a bit.”

he raises his eyebrows. “impressive,” he jokes. “i respect that. i’d kill to get away from mine for even a little while.” he pulls his phone out and opens up a new contact before handing it to you. you type in your number and full name as he talks. “most people working in law don’t know what work-life balance means.”

that pulls a small laugh from you. “i can only imagine,” you chuckle. you hand him back his phone and talk a while more, trying to hide just how giddy you feel about him and all of this.

you glance behind you to check the time on the clock. it’s late. as you turn back to sam, you catch someone’s gaze. she’s glaring at you, unabashed. you furrow your eyebrows and look away, confused for a moment. then you register her to be one of the people who had approached sam earlier and you frown. she’s stunning, well dressed, and certainly far more wealthy than you. overall a better technical fit for sam.

with some saving up, your job pays well enough for you to afford this nice hotel, but you’re just not on the same level as most people here. you know logically that it’s no reason for you to think of yourself as less than or not good enough for sam, but your deep-seated insecurities about romance resurface.

sam notices the change in your demeanor. not just your expression, but your whole body language shifts. you seem uncomfortable next to him, uncomfortable in here. the flick of your eyes anywhere but his face and the tug of your lips read as insecure. he glances back to where you’d looked, and he too catches the glare of the woman behind you. she sends him a suggestive look before returning to glaring daggers at your back.

he scoffs and looks away without giving her anything at all.

“don’t mind her,” he says, voice soft and annoyed all at once. you look at him, surprised that he noticed. he looks sort of pissed, but he smiles at you. “she tried to give me her number earlier,” he explains, despite knowing that you most likely saw with the way you were watching him. “i said no. i wanted your number, not hers.” sam’s confident when he tells you this, and your heart just about melts.

how can someone who barely knows you at all know just what to say? how can someone stare the things that scare you in the face and say “i’m here too now” without even knowing what it is that you’re afraid of? how can it take a single night for someone to say that and you just let them because it was said with so much purpose and respect? how can you know someone for just a few hours and just feel like you can trust them?

you have no answers, but you wonder because that’s exactly what’s happening.

you smile at him and nod. “good thing, then.”

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sam is very good at loving, very good at making one feel loved. and that’s something you get even before he really loves you.

like when you see each other in the lobby the morning after you meet and he smiles brightly and walks right over to you with a wave. he wears a knee length brown coat over his black suit and it looks beyond charming. then he asks if he can buy you a drink that evening if you’ll be in the hotel at the time. you accept with a smile and he looks happier than you to be the one to treat you.

you make your plans for the next day in the hotel bar, and nobody asks sam for his number that night.

and the next day is a total date, even though you don’t call it that yet. his fancy, environmentally friendly car is brought out by the valet service and he drives you everywhere. to the museum and the down-to-earth, homey sandwich shop that you eat lunch at. you both have reciprocal museum memberships that get you in free. he actually pays close attention to the museum exhibit, but he pays more attention to you and what you like about it. you swap halves of your sandwiches because you both were interested in the same two.

in the afternoon, he takes you to the gardens that you wanted to visit and tells you he’s glad to have you around since he wouldn’t have known where to go.

then, sam drives you back to the hotel and tells you to text if you don’t want to eat dinner alone. “otherwise, this is goodbye, for now,” he says. so you say right then and there that you’d rather not eat dinner alone as long as he doesn’t want to either.

you’re tired from the afternoon sun, so you meet at the hotel restaurant. you stay for dessert, you stay for a glass of wine. you head to the bar and he has a single beer. you decide a zero-proof is best for tonight, and he gladly pays for that too.

he invites you to his suite in the most gentlemanly, respectful way possible, and tells you that nothing has to happen. you accept the invitation, feeling better than you have in a long, long time. sam makes you feel good.

in the morning sam kisses your cheek, a little shy about it, before he leaves and he promises to text. he tells you he likes this city, but he still likes boston more.

he sticks to his promise to text, maybe not as well as he’d like, but he’s a busy man. and what he has to give is more than enough for you.

it’s such a joy when he calls. it’s an absolute delight when he tells you that he’s decided to move to boston. little do you know, one day you’ll move into his apartment there. for now, you’re sitting in your favorite cafe with him, showing him around like you promised you would over the phone.

sam does an excellent job of making you feel loved.

[changbinsboobs]

Who in Skz goes out clubbing?

Hello guys im back🌝

Aaannnnddd the answers will probably shock you. Def shocked me 👁️👄👁️

Chan - yes occasionally on the regular. Like if the phase is tight i see him going weekly or something, but always with a group of friends and always for fun, social interactions etc. Not to get drunk, pick up women and be a lil rascal.

Lee Know - no he prefers his solitude and peace and quite. Also the night is dark for a reason he says, when its dark you should be home sleeping. Instead of doing other stuff.

Changbin - feels socially pressured. If he goes he goes against his will. I feel like he may be in circles with very social people who like s bit wilder things than him, and even tho that's not so much his thing he wants to make his friends happy and spend time with them so he goes every once in a while but i don't see him staying long or being active, u probably wouldn't even notice he's there. Its really not his thing.

Hyunjin - he goes but rarely and its intentional. Like he doesn't go there just to let some steam of or just because someone invited him. He has to have a reason to go and a mission to fulfill. I see him going more to social networking partys. (The other guys probably too, like i don't see idols like them going to regular clubs😂). But for hyunjin i see when he goes out partying its something like an after party or a private party involving certain important people etc. He goes to things like this to put himself out there, make himself be seen, win opportunities, get acquainted with people that could be helpful to him etc. It's more like a job to him than leisure.

Han - Im seeing two polar opposites, struggled, something addiction. So if i have to string everything that im picking together i would say he either hates it and u CAN'T force him under any circumstances to go - or he suddenly loves it and get so addicted to it you can't keep him out if the "club". But that energy's really heavy and not nice at all. Reminds me of someone with a gambling problem - that type of addictive.

Felix - isn't up to his values, he has better things to do than that. I see him having went in the past while he was still "undeveloped" (his words not mine if y'all crazy felix fans come at me again im blocking ur asses IMMEDIATELY🫵🏻😤) bubnoe that he's ~mature~ stuff like thats not up to his standard. Seriously tho idk when that shift happened exactly but in the time frame of 6 months (since around i started my acc and have been reading on him) his energy has changed sooooo soooo much. I think he's going through a phase of discovering himself and building his own sense of self. As someone who can definitely relate and would say is already on the other side, i think his transformation/ rebirth hasn't really finished. Let me explain - in the past his energy felt really really strong but u couldn't see/dense it probably it was very mellow, unused, unseen by himself even, it was very very weird seeing someone with that much power not having it utilized. It felt unsettling (now i think i understand why but thats a topic for another time). He didn't really have a sense of self, was very easily swayed, influenced, and didn't really know much about himself or the world, he just felt like a little newborn and went along with the flow not really having a steering wheel i his hands he just sat on other peoples boats and floated on it and let himself be taken by wherever others brought him. This however is not the case anymore - he has his own boat, and now thinks that having a boat means the work is done and he has found his sense of self and knows who he is etc. But thats just the first step, the actual work/journey begins now. He has to learn how his boat works, learn to navigate tides, to know his surroundings to interact with other boaters (idk what they're called). U get where im going at? And oftentimes with people that have been denied their power, freedom and sense of self, and finally come to a point where they reclaim those they switch to a polar opposite of what they were before because that past self is what others were, not u, so the brain makes u go the opposite way to find urself. I see felix being in THAT stage. His energy once very fluid & accepting, suddenly feels very rigid and convinced of certain beliefs and values, he doesn't seem to have the ground to be so convinced in yk. Because that switch is so sudden. So yeah in short i believe he's on a journey of discovering himself and now he's experiencing the stage of the "other side". Eventually he'll come to a crash out, live the consequences from the breakdown and within the healing period he'll actually find his true sense of self and begin from then nurturing that seed and "growing himself" more and more as time goes. Thats my prediction.

Seungmin - loves them 👁️👄👁️ it's really his thing i think he's a hidden charmer. Like ... an actual actual charmer a casanova, a don juan. Those a mainly directed to seducing women tho, i don't see him having that reputation, he's just overall charming and can attract lots of people, feels good in that energy can entertain and just overall he's made for parties and clubbing apparently. It gives him energy & confidence.

I.N - loves clubbing too and does it quite often. Like i see him whenever he can he goes out could be as often as every night or every other night. Definitely a couple times a week. There's not much else to pick up on here, idk why he öikes it so much or what he does when he goes out but yeah he does it often.

[another-goblin]

Spoilers for 2.3

Some thoughts, speculations, and headcanons about our little dialogue with Ratio (+more)

1. This tells me that Ratio and Aventurine are friends (or as close to being friends as both of them are currently capable of, which isn't much, but still). Yes, what Aventurine thinks about TB could have been them discussing their mission. But I choose to think that they just chat with each other sometimes, because they actually enjoy it. Aventurine feels comfortable enough to just share what he thinks about the people he meets, and he knows that Ratio is interested in his opinions, and he's right. He listens and takes note. btw people being actual friends is my favorite trope for romantic couples.

2. Ratio seeing his relationships with Aventurine, and our TB, and people in general as a teacher and a student and being constantly in his teacher mode made me think. Probably all significant relationships in his life were those of a teacher and a student. He cannot see himself in any other role because he has never experienced it himself. I wouldn't be surprised if even his parents provided him with knowledge and education instead of parental love. This may also be why he's so frustrated with people who don't fit these two roles: normal people not interested in bettering themselves through education, students who don't take studying seriously, most scholars, and especially the Geniuses, for not actively sharing their knowledge or doing anything to uplift humanity.

3. Ratio seeing their relationship with Aventurine in particular this way is appropriately weird and a bit unhealthy, in my opinion (but what did we expect from him), considering that they are undeniably close. But that's probably the only way he knows to show his care for somebody:  to teach them stuff and help them better themselves.

4. On Avenrutine's side, he seems amused by it, in a good way (the way he playfully refers to Ratio in the descriptions of some of the 2.1 quests, "Your professor friend," and so on). He even seems to be a bit proud that an actual professor has taken an interest in him.

5. But what can he teach Aventurine? He might share his actual knowledge. I think the "Death" and "Dormancy" part of his note is him doing that. But he mostly sees his duty as a teacher in showing people that they can achieve a lot by themselves if they stop relying on higher beings who don't care about them and start relying on themselves (with little help from Ratio.)

But "relying on himself and achieving things" is what Aventurine has been successfully doing most of his life. So is it the "little help from Ratio" that matters here? Or is he helping Aventurine stop relying on his supposedly supernatural luck and realize how capable he actually is?

6. This. (btw 'philosophical zombie' means "a being in a thought experiment in philosophy of mind that is physically identical to a normal human being but does not have conscious experience" (from wiki), so basically just some weird concept in philosophy.) But what an admirably in-depth knowledge of his 'not partner' he's showing here. Are you equally interested in the inner worlds of all your students, doc?…

7. Anyways, that reminded me of what Jade said about the Stonehearts, even using the same word 'void'. So. Aventurine has a void in his heart, caused by his inability to protect people he cares about. It's very significant that Diamond gave him the power of Preservation specifically to help him fill that void, to be finally able to protect somebody he cares about. The problem is, he doesn't have anyone to protect anymore (he doesn't even see himself as worthy of protection). Until recently. So, and I'm being extremely self-indulgent here, if Ratio got in danger, Aventurine protecting and saving him would fill the void in his heart. And btw what can boost one's self-worth more than protecting somebody who's important to you? I mean, he should snap out of that 'I'm only worth the money my slaveowner paid for me' mentality sooner or later, I hope.

(the problem is, I'm not sure how it can play out now that he doesn't have his stone anymore. And he lost it, not protecting anybody but nearly killing himself and furthering the IPC's agenda. Although doing something like that without the stone would be even more significant)

Also, I hope Ratio won't realize that, and won't deliberately put himself in danger for Aventurine to save him. You know, for educational purposes.

8. He just runs around helping people, making sure everybody's okay, and, emm, 'enhance their living', that's his thing.  And even broadly speaking, with his scientific discoveries, and him saving people on Herta station. And considering that 'everybody's my student' thing, I feel like he sees himself as responsible for everybody (in his own way).

And some people still think that he's selfish and egoistic. He even gets angry when we ask for an autograph:

9. Aaand that's the third time he disappeared in the middle of a conversation involving Aventurine. I understand him, though. As somebody who also 'detests noisy gatherings', group chats aren't much better.

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ok this was supposed to be hidden in tags but i think tumblr found it too scandalous or something i don't know, i'll just leave it here: the more I write about Ratio, the stronger the urge to just call him Rat, you know, lovingly also whoops sorry, I'm physically incapable of writing short posts, it was supposed to be a short comment about their friendship, how much content can I squeeze out of a half-minute long dialogue?, the answer is yes, but I just had to get it out of my system