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Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness
(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)
#star wars#star wars the bad batch#the bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#tbb fanfiction#dumping my “fanfic_doodles.clip” file here literally#sorry the style is messy#now I see them all Im like “ok it's all over the place zero/100 aesthetically pleasuring post”#hhhh its the thought that counts?#And tbh the point is just to convince you to read theses#because I'm like OBSSEEESSED with theses since you appeared in my notes#Every fic is gold#Me baiting my followers with pretty enough pictures to read fanfics#this being said I should really take the time to color properly my stuff#but I don't liiiiiiiiike it#there is tons of more talented artists if people want colored beautiful amazing art#me I can't really make my “”“spontaneous”“” “”“doodles”“” pretty without trying hard and at the end it's meh#They're so flat too#yesterday I was like “oh my scenes are becoming less flat I improved maybe”#Then I scrolled on my storyboard insta and was like#yeah sure no#I'm still faaaaaar away from the industry standards#I studied like at three arts school and I'm still bad at drawing TAT#why is my brain not working v_v#look brain I'm showing you nice pictures learn from them#brain: no Im gonna overfixate on this left hand here and only this#anyway
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other people have probably already said this but like. it's been a shockingly nice experience to watch the dungeon meshi fandom go absolutely NUTS over falin. just this unbelievable wellspring of thirsty romantic eye for her, and not only is she chubby in canon, most of the fanart i've seen has skewed towards drawing her even chubbier? i... genuinely do not think i've ever seen that before. i don't think i've ever been in an anime fandom where someone both looks like me and is the subject of such enthusiastic adoration BECAUSE she's fat before.
it's... it's really nice.
#dungeon meshi#falin touden#i've come a long way on my own body image issues since i was a teenager and miserable about it#some of it was gender stuff some of it was style stuff but a lot of it was just#the pervasive sense of every clothing store loudly implying 'you are ONLY BARELY thin enough to be worth catering to'#growing up in the 2000s the beauty standard was 'painfully skinny'#phasing towards that sort of skinny-fit toned look#i never got close to hitting either of them#i'm short and stocky with big thighs and a thick waist and a soft belly and a chest to match#there's solid working muscle under there - i've been doing farm labor or construction labor since i was fifteen - but it's covered with fat#and i don't think i've ever seen an anime character who looks like me before#maybe i have if i think REALLY really hard#but i'm pretty sure i haven't#but here's falin and people draw her broad and thick the way i am in a way that's just. BLATANTLY appreciative of her#SPECIFICALLY **BECAUSE** SHE'S FAT??#i hope people keep doing that#this is a new experience for me#... i like it a lot#posts by cwaf
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What’s the Janeys/Brakul death scenario?
So like upon review I mostly just was going to kill them off for Couya + Faiza + Hibrides’ character development (#FEMINIST WIN!!!!!!!).
The background situation of their death scenario is something that will happen either way:
Throughout the story, the pilgrimage requests tribute from the towns it passes through (mainly food and other supplies). This is a common practice for pilgrimages and the travels of royalty, and Imperial Wardi civilians are used to the concept (just not so much during a famine). Some people give fully willingly (a lot of people believe in the pilgrimage's goals/and or the necessity to keep its high status participants fed), most are at least partly coerced (usually not via direct threats, but the pilgrimage contains a couple hundred soldiers, the Usoma, and Odonii leadership. The threat is implied), some are Fully coerced via threats.
In the latter third of the story things are not going well. There’s been a lot of internal struggles among the soldiers and dissatisfaction with pilgrimage leadership (mostly Stavis), men are starting to defect and a large body are getting outright mutinous. The group has also lost much of their food supplies and things are getting desperate (they've been starting to eat their own pack khait and oxen)
With this going on, the pilgrimage sends three soldiers to exact tribute from a farming village in the province Lobera. They meet a group of men acting as representatives for the village, who flat out refuse to give tribute. Things escalate into an outright fight, the soldiers are better armed but few in number and are killed.
One of the village elders finds out that this happens and panics, knowing that the men who killed three of the Usoma’s soldiers (one of which is her son) have signed their own death sentences, and possibly that of others. She attempts to persuade the families to preemptively flee, and then takes the village's one remaining skinny old plow ox to carry the bodies of the dead soldiers back to where the pilgrimage is camped. She supplicates herself before Stavis Amanti and begs for mercy, saying they don't even have enough food stored to feed themselves, much less to give, and that the men thus considered the killings righteous self defense. She shows that she’s returned the bodies for rites as an act of goodwill, and offers the ox in tribute, the most valuable thing she can provide. She begs that the Usoma accepts this as tribute and spares the men's lives, and that the pilgrimage moves on without taking anything else.
Stavis bids her safe passage away from the camp (without confirming or denying that he's accepted her plea), and the heads of pilgrimage confer on what to do. The killing of the soldiers is a violation punishable by death, but this would be like, a notably bad PR move. Meanwhile a contingent of soldiers (including some major side characters I haven’t introduced) break off and lead a raid on the village to avenge their fallen brothers and loot supplies. Others get drawn into the fighting, and it devolves into a full on massacre.
A couple families had fled at the elder’s suggestion, but most refused to leave their homes. Some of the villagers believed they would be left unharmed if the killers were given up, others had been preparing for a reprisal and armed themselves with everything available. But they have few actual weapons and none are trained combatants. All of the remaining men and adolescent boys get killed, one woman manages to take out a soldier using a shovel but is killed, most of the other women and girls are spared murder but several are assaulted. The village is looted for supplies and kindling for funeral pyres.
Stavis Amanti has no fucking idea what to do. The soldiers defied orders and killed Imperial Wardi civilians, but the current climate amid the pilgrimage would make it EXTREMELY Bad for him if he demanded their punishment (but also potentially very bad if he didn't- not all the soldiers participated in the massacre and many were horrified). Faiza encourages him to exert authority in a measured response by having the ringleader of the mutineers killed but sparing the rest, and offers to publicly back him in hopes of avoiding full on mutiny.
The raid reveals that the villagers had been hiding more grain than they claimed they had (as in like, enough to feed their people on starvation level rations for a few weeks). Stavis takes this as an opportunity to justify not punishing the mutineers (as the villagers DID technically have something to give, and execution IS technically the punishment for refusing the order of tribute (though not execution of the entire community)), but insists that their Galenii bless the village dead and their men build pyres for the civilians as is honorable conduct. (This attempt to make amends is not particularly appreciated by the survivors.)
The pilgrimage holds a funeral for their own dead soldiers. The village ox that was given in tribute is killed and butchered for the funerary feast.
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In the Bury Your Gays route, Brakul is one of the three that gets killed during the tribute extraction. Janeys loses his fucking mind when his body is brought back, and tries to slit his own throat on the spot. Couya stops him by wrestling him to the ground while Janeys screams threats at her and the old woman in a very pathetic public spectacle. He is deprived of all sharp objects.
While the pilgrimage leaders are conferring, he hovers miserably around Hibrides (who is also not feeling so great about all this). He's suddenly very interested in her pregnancy for the first time ever, asks to feel the baby (which has been just starting to kick). She's like "fuck off", but he strongly implies he's planning to commit suicide asap and she concedes and then is like Okay I Let You Feel The Goddamn Baby Now Leave Me Alone Holy FUCK.
Janeys turns his attention to fucking murdering anyone tangentially involved in this happening. He’s among the initial raid party, plays a major hand in it turning from its ostensible 'find and execute the ones responsible, subdue the rest, steal their food' directive to a full massacre by directing his men to immediately attack the first man he sees. He and his group capture three young men as prisoners and demand that they be slain at the soldier's funerals as is wartime custom (this isn't wartime). Janeys additionally demands that he should get to do it, as the only kin of any of the dead men. Once that's done he immediately cuts his own throat and bleeds out. They wind up getting cremated at the same time so things work out how Janeys wanted it.
At one point I realized that this is kind of just The Iliad?
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So like obviously whether they die here or not has little impact on THESE events, but a lot of the endgame revolves around Couya Faiza and Hibrides and these deaths would be very significant to THEM in varying capacities. It affects the trajectory of the final stretch of their arcs and adds a lot of layers to the ultimate Couya/Faiza conflict. I also liked their deaths being kind of random and shitty and meaningless because that in of itself is kinda ~thematically resonant~ with the story. (A lot of tension between the lack of intrinsic meaning to events and the profound levels of meaning ascribed to them).
I'm almost definitely not going with this version of events though. Janeys and Brakul don't have much active involvement in the endgame and don't Really need to be alive for it as it stands, but I think the version where every main character (except Faiza she's doomed) survives to see What Has Been Wrought and living to experience the fallout ultimately works better.
#In retrospect probably not clear enough that the baby feeling demadn is 'I am planning to die imminently you will never have#to deal with me again can I FUCKING feel signs of life from my dead boyfriend's bastard fetus currently in your body before I do'#and not 'let me feel the baby or I kms'. With the latter Hibrides would be like 'Okay Then Die' instead of 'FINE go ahead and then die'#The current scenario might involve the tribute extraction party Not all dying but rather one being killed and the other two being#badly wounded and taken hostage (with the realization of what the consequences of the first killing will entail- as a desperate#attempt to stand off against the pilgrimage and bargain for their safe release)#So the character involvement can stay Similar without ending in death and the fallout of these events will get messy in different ways#The massacre is also the straw that breaks the camel's back that leads to the province of Lobera declaring itself an independent#city-state and seceding from Imperial Wardin so like the pilgrimage spends the final third mostly traversing through outright#hostile territory it's great stuff for them.#A massacre like this happening is pretty much standard for wartime sackings and would not be questioned much if committed#against a declared enemy but this was inflicted on Imperial Wardi civilians which is a big fucking deal
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I cannot imagine being a Damian stan right now. You've got both Zdarsky's bullshit (where he clearly doesn't give a shit about your boy) and The Boy Wonder (where Juni Ba clearly gives so many shits about your boy) coming out on the same day. The whiplash must be insane. I hope y'all get some nice warm soup for your efforts jfc
#damian wayne#damian al ghul#damian al ghul wayne#batman#batfamily#for all of the issues that come with having Steph as your fave having too much wild shit happening at once is never one of them#btw I quite like The Boy Wonder Issue 1. wow shocker an artist and writer who I have liked everything they've ever done#has once again written something that I am enjoying with art that makes me want to be part of its world.#it's almost like Juni Ba is really freaking talented or something#like I have some problems with it but it seems like many of those are part of the point. Damian is learning that his siblings are more#three-dimensional than he realized and that is part of this 'coming of age' story merged with fairytale#so I can't be mad at the oversimplistic defining of Dick and Jason and Tim until the conclusion of the series. that might be the point.#I hope that the series will address Steph as a Robin but if not then frankly it's not an issue unique to this series.#I'll be annoyed and disappointed but ultimately roll with it like I am with Babsgirl being here. There's too much good stuff here to get#hung up on shit that seems to be almost an editorial mandate at this point. at least that's where I'm at.#I am also very sorry that Chip Zdarsky is massacring your boy. he has 'X (Tim for him) is the best Robin so everyone else must suck' diseas#where a writer really likes one specific Robin and in trying to uplift them demeans all of the other Robins. instead of like...just writing#for that one character only or alternatively not demeaning the other characters in order to make his blorbo look good#it's wild because I actually think his writing for Tim is pretty solid. but he's not writing a Tim series. he's writing a Batman series.#and if you are going to write a Batman series and include other Batfamily members you need to actually write them well.#instead of assigning them like 2 personality traits while Tim gets to be a whole character#I accept that behavior in fanfic where I have lesser standards because it's fucking free. not a comic run that wants me to pay#tens of dollars in order to understand what the fuck is going on. he's been going for a while now it's gotta be a lot of money.#I can buy Steelworks with that money. I can see John Henry and Natasha Irons in a trade. Fuck you Chip.#it's why it takes such a special person to write a good ensemble story/a good Batfamily story. you have to be good at writing a LOT#of different characters. which I don't think most people are. I sure as hell am not. I can write maybe 3 at a time confidently well.#and you also have to give all of them at least SOME love or else people will be upset that you aren't focusing on their fave#and also the writing as a whole will suffer. Chip Zdarsky is a pretty good Tim writer. I'd maybe read a Tim solo written by him.#I would not read a story focusing on multiple characters that I like written by Chip Zdarsky. because every character who isn't Tim#is at least a bit weak/inconsistent/out of character INCLUDING FUCKING BATMAN. THE NO. 1 GUY MOST ARE HERE FOR
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I know you dont care about pesterquest but i wanna know, did you think they wrote eridan well or bad?
bad
#why would he care about shrek hes a hipster#also he cant just casually waltz into a movie theater hed scare the shit out of everyone there#like everyone else on alternia automatically assumes a sea dweller is going to want to kill you#eridans never done anything casually before in his life#even GAMZEE's internal narration goes 'better not stand on the beach for too long#if a sea dweller sees me theyll attack lol'#i know hes been memed to hell and back because hes a pathetic little meow meow but like#objectively eridan was fucking terrifying by alternian standards#even if he isn't actually like that inside he still LOOKED and ACTED the part#and also he did do all those murders yeah#like so many murders#like 'killin is all i evver done practically' levels of murders#vriska says her bodycount is in the 'many thousands' so eridan's deffo up there too#hes like objectively dangerous and scary#and the fact that the team forgot about this when it came to dealing with him pretty famously had disastrous results#anyway heres my eridancore movie rec: Once (2007)#i know 'hipster actually likes mainstream stuff' is a Trope and theres truth to it but like look at me in the eyes#do you really mean to tell me eridan “wizard and magic are stupid and fake but i have 6 wizard statues in my room” ampora#is going to be the hipster that admits that he likes mainstream stuff
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god fucking damn you mike flanagan and your profound horror series making me feel things about life and love
#ramble#this post is brought to you by midnight mass#although i will say nothing has hit me as hard as hill house#when i tell you i was WEEPING#that was my first one too i think#thought id signed on for an above standard horror movie#and then i just sobbed about the tragedies and hardships and love persevering and yadda yadda#midnight mass was pretty solid too tho#and the ending monologue about death and self. yeah. shit hits.#life is a wish made again and again and again and i am all of it#its good stuff#guy likes recasting folks tho huh#id appreciate less dead cats in the next one. i keep having to check on mine to feel better#thinking either house of usher or bly manor since i never finished that one#guess ill throw some obligatory tags back here#midnight mass#the haunting of hill house#the haunting of bly manor#mike flanagan#actually i think my first flanagan mightve been ouija but i was only half paying attention to that one
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man the struggle of going back into my old art and trying to see if i've improved or not
#i've definitely gotten better at digital art but a lot of the traditional stuff in these old notebooks is pretty up to par#most of my stuff from when i was like fifteen would still pretty much be considered up to my standards except a couple stylistic difference#fun fact gravity falls was the first fandom i drew human people for#got jumpscared by tumblr sexyman my little pony alicorn bill cipher that is hands down the best thing i drew at that time#and then i didn't touch gravity falls for another eight years#hello me#omg i made a guardian falls oc#also i find it funny that the first couple pages in this notebook are writing like i tried to use these notebooks to write#and then immediately filled this + seven more notebooks with exclusively art and never creatively wrote for fun again except those two time#lmaooo i tried to draw dipper and mabel as cats and wings of fire dragons and gave up halfway through#there's some monster falls au art in there i don't think i ever drew for transcendence au#every fandom i touched i made a steven universe crossover out of#eggsistential speaks
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Has Chuuya ever dropped Dazai? On purpose or accident?
Despite what it is in cannon, Chuuya in my Au is a big no-go for hurting Dazai unless he absolutely deserves it (though he’s the type of dick to always deserve a punch) and puts him in line in other ways like threats.
Dropping him on purpose if they were flying is a thing, Chuuya can hold him one of two ways—a piggy back ride, or by hanging onto his hands and letting him admire the view he could die from for a quicker landing. He throws him at a safe distance, Dazai drops and rolls and tehdahhhh
Or when doing tricks in the sky, that too.
On accident I can see numerous scenarios involving Chuuya getting distracted, with, lets say Tui (a dragon specialized shapeshifter), or one talking to one of Gin’s crows
He’s pretty animated so maybe he accidentally drops Dazai like that and—OH SHIT YA GOTTA CATCH HIM HE’S GONNA DIE
Or the usual hold Dazai bridal style (which they barely do if at all unless to cause a scene or be funny), and then unceremoniously drop him if he’s being an ass
…Am I talking too much yet
#bsd#bungo stray dogs#chuuya nakahara#dazai osamu#soukoku#bungou stray dogs#au#dazai x chuuya#bsd au#skk au#skk#ask me stuff#asks#send asks#ask game#ask answered#ask me anything#ask#love this one#wish I could come up with better scenarios#this is still pretty funny though#Bungo standard funny maybe
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If your man dont look at you and thinks of all the possible ways to give you the world maybe that aint yo man😳
#tumblr girls#pretty#sprinkle sprinkle#cosmetics#pretty privilege#spotify#just girly posts#girls with tattoos#i love me#shera seven#the wizard liz#relationship#advertising#fashion#girl blogger#bella hadid#high standards#fantasy#chanel#self love#lovers#stand up#happiness#girly stuff#girl talk#talk to me#poets on tumblr
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crazy that indonesian isnt even top 29 help??? its 56(?)
IKR??? esp bcs Indonesia is like the fourth modt populated country in the world ,,, like obv mandarin and english n hindi wld be above it, then spanish n arabic bcs its got so many countries, but its wildddd its so low for native speakers. Even if u include non native speakers its only 11th :0
#lookin at the top 10 tho im.not suuuper surprised#english is 1 which makes sense. over a billion second language speakers#mandarin is 2 and it can get up there by native speakers alone#like literally the number of native soeakrrs os over 300 million more than the third one#hindi is 3 urdu is 10 and bengali is 7#those are all spoken in India +which give them a huge boost just by native speakers (not to mention the other countries its just India has#A Lot kf people)#and then second languahe speakers are pretty high too#spanish duh#its thd go-to second languahe for any english speaker and I assume a lot kf other european language speakers#plus theres all of south america besides three countries#and EG#french is also duh its an official language in lime 30 countries#Arabic actually Kinda surprises me to be 6 only bcs the classification doesnt include dialects#and theres A Lot of dialects#OH WOW actually thatd entirely by second langauge speakers#it doesnt list ant native speakers sjnfe every1 learns their respective dialects first#b4 learnjng standard#thays less surprising then actually#since a lot of ppl wld learn MS arabic after already knowing theur own dialect#esp for like international business n stuff w/ other arabic speaking countries#and then lots kf ppl learn it as a second language#portugese at 8 ... its got PALOP and brazil so I get that yeah#and russian at 9#honestly im just surprised its below portuguese and russian. esp russin tbh#also I didnt know urdu has sk few speakers ....#(“few” its 232 million LMAO)
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okay. so. i did not vibe with the latest doctor who episode a lot? and idk why exactly. i did still enjoy it for the most part! do love that we're getting more explicit queer romance on the show, but idk it didn't feel...genuine? especially with the doctor saying that ruby's his best friend but then abandoning her to aliens for most of the episode. i'm like really feeling that the overarching plot must be about storytelling. like especially all the blatant references to bridgerton INCLUDING the bad guys and poker face covers. and the teaser line about it being the doctor's life they're playing out. i'm hoping that the arc is kind of about how something (pantheon character?) is kind of controlling the doctor/ruby's story to hit the beats it's supposed to bc its tv but is doing so in a non-organic way which is why the season feels so disjointed and very telling-not-showing. also the weird 6 month time jump between Space Babies and Boom. otherwise i'mgonna feel like it was just kind of poorly written. like! to be clear! i am still enjoying the show! but not as much as i have other seasons
#rachel speaks#doctor who#the rogue#sorry i have many thoughts#i think my favorite episode so far this season has been dot and bubble#it just feels most lilke doctor who and the twist at the end was really well done#i think doctor who is at its best with a good monster (alien) of the week and a mystery to solve#and i think a lot of the episodes this season have either totally strayed from that format or not fully built it out enough#like space babies is a pretty standard motw episode but i felt like there was a lot left out#like i did not get a good reason as to why the doctor was saving the bogeyman#like not even a 'all life deserve to live moment' just a 'oh no you can't kill it and now i've trapped it in the airlock forever instead!'#devils chord felt like it came way too early in the season#and personally as a professional musician music episodes tend to be hit or miss with me#because the more specific they try to be the more wrong they usually are#for example#a tritone is not a chord#and it wasn't actuallyb anned in the middle ages#also the idea of a 'lost chord' is so baffling to me#if we're living in western tonal land (which we clearly were in the episode) there are no lost chords#we know all the chords#if they had said 'melody' i would be more inclined to believe them#anyways so not a huge fan of the devils chord#73 yards was also very good and enjoyable! probably my 2nd favorite#but definitely a departure from standard who#oh i forgot about boom#i liked the anticapitlist anti war stuff#thought the twist was clever#but i felt like it relied too much on a relationship between the doctor and ruby that we hadn't actually seen yet#the rogue went back to that motw format but it spent WAY more time on the relationship between the doctor and the rogue#than actually on the cosplaying aliens
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love people being judgy about traumatized teenage girls lying and making bad decisions on the lying and making bad decisions show :/
#it’s called pretty little LIARS#maybe I’ve over corrected since i made an effort to focus on female characters (back when it bugged me that i didn’t do that enough)#because i now support female characters doing pretty much anything and i get sometimes things are bad. but idk i see people excusing or#having no issue with male characters lying or cheating because they’re people’s blorbos#but female characters don’t get held to the same standards#and then i see people disliking seeing female characters get away with being shitty and i just don’t get why?? the male characters in fandom#spaces are applauded and excused for all sorts of stuff why can’t we do that with female characters too#all this to say these girls can do whatever the fuck they want and be as shitty as they want (which so far really hasn’t been much) and i’ll#support them#i support women’s wrongs#thanks for coming to my ted talk#pllos
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Also, regarding my criticism of over consumption: I am of course not completely innocent.
I used to paint miniatures. I never really enjoyed the painting part itself, but I loved the end result, and I loved having and growing my collection of miniatures. They still see frequent use in my tabletop campaigns.
But at some point, the painting just became too difficult to make time for. Did I immediately stop buying miniatures and painting supplies? Of course not! I own probably at least a hundred unpainted miniatures and part of me still swears that I'll get to them someday. I did, however, make the conscious choice to stop buying them at some point. And I put away my supplies so they're not just lying around my house anymore. I accept that it isn't a hobby I'm actively interested in doing right now. And that's okay! Accepting it actually brings me peace because I no longer feel guilty for not making time for it. And I can always go back to it later if I want.
#see the self reflection I did there?#that's what I'm asking other people to attempt#putting stuff away is actually pretty difficult for me#if I didn't have housemates my home would be such a mess#but I recognize that holding myself to a higher standard isn't just good for my relationships with them#it's healthy for me too#Dare Original
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MY TOP 5 STRAY KIDS SONGS
Thank you @boba-skz for tagging me! Though I’m late to the party and this is probably the very last set of this tag game to be posted, I want to tag some mutuals/people I’m always happy to see in my notifs to say thanks: @skz-films @quokki @jisungsjaistandjeekies @applejongho @sungwanns @hyunjinz (thank you for 2022, and I look forward to seeing more from you guys in 2023 ^^)
#Stray Kids#Stray Kids gfx#Stray Kids gifs#bystay#staysource#staycompany#adriblr#hellomal#this is me adding gfx assets#to disguise how i don't really know how to#make pretty gifs#stayblr has set the gif standard high#also#i was thinking of either thunderous#or sorry i love you#and changbin's hugot song won out#who hurt you my dude#my stuff
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got the posting anxiety bad tonight
#click clack#ok a peak into my thought process and anxiety here we go#ok so the art is almost done and up to standard I would post onto my art blog#BUT for some reason the thought of posting art of my ocs there scares me#because even tho it’s my art blog in my mind it’s the equivalent to a art gallery that demands being detached????? from the art#like once I share it there it’s no longer ‘mine’ but to the public#and my ocs (plus the stories that go with them) are like the closest to my heart and relinquishing them feels like a lot#a part of my imagination that I spent so much time with developing over the years to be placed up for judgement…#so then the solution could be to put it here on my personal! the online space cozy enough and filled with other posts that could easily bury#the original posts I put here#but there goes my other dilemma. i don’t want them too associated with my personal for if one day i do muster up something for publication#my big fear is that ppl will find this space and go thru everything. the fear of being perceived and judged 😵💫#all the hypotheticals and anxiety for something that may not even happen#dumb mind problems my head made up 🙄#anyway writing it out helped lol I’m posting it to my art blog I decided 👍#I have to work on getting that blog to be comfortable space to post… i should lower that silly self imposed standard I set for myself#and be whatever about ppl being aware of my online presences#maybe… [grinding my teeth] I should post my messy sketches onto my art blog…#I should take my friends suggestion and make a website to feature my ocs…🤔#idk my only other solution that doesn’t feel viable to mitigate the anxiety is to slowly introduce my ocs in the background of setting art#just a slow drip until they are in the forefront#bleghhh whatever much ado about nothing it’s like I never posted my ocs ever when I have indeed posted them before on both places ( º_º )#I’m realizing it happens too when I post too much fanart in a row… I have curator disease??? 🫨#or something I used to be very particular about what order I reblog stuff like it used to be by color and content balanced out#I still do to a lesser degree… but it used to be pretty bad#post order compulsion????#the fear of being abrupt and incohesive in between posts…#if you read this far thanks you can now see how much this consumes me 🙃
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still can't stop thinking about how Cass phrased it when (presumably) she was asking me how I killed House. girly pop why'd you say it like that </3
#cass is actually a pretty fun companion dialogue wise even if her perk is well. not helpful for me.#but some of the stuff she says is crazy even by my standards.
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