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askblueandviolet · 2 months ago
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Macaca and the Mayor, what's it like to be parents?
Bai Hae, how does it feel to have two more dads?
Do your parents even know that one of your babysitters is the mayor?
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#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#monkie kid macaque#lmk macaque#lmk baihe#lmk hostess#lmk little girl#monkie kid baihe#monkie kid little girl#monkie kid hostess#blue and violet#To OP: I know you mean well with your ask but I am so sorry- there is no family dynamic between Macaque and Mayor and Baihe in this blog#I’m gonna ramble in the tags but please know I’m in no way shape or form dismissing your potential headcons-#-because I actually really love the family dynamic#Hot take: it was very bad of Mayor to just condone LBD possessing and removing bodily autonomy from a child#Of course Blue would never question LBD’s strategic choices in who to pick as a host-#-but I think we need to make it clear that their undying loyalty does not condone the trauma that was given to Baihe#So no Mayor is not a dad because they are actually really fucked up and feel no remorse for allowing Baihe to be used by LBD#Baihe has every right to be afraid of them because who wouldn’t#Macaque is a different case because lmao he’s just a bad dude and doesn’t regret being an arsehole 90% of the time#Not a good parental figure and fortunately for this specific story he isn’t one#Baihe and Macaque are ex-roommates turned friends in BAV and that's the extent of it#ALRIGHT END OF RAMBLE- PLEASE KNOW THAT DESPITE ALL OF THIS I STILL LOVE THE TRIO 'FAMILY' DYNAMIC LMAO- THEY ARE ALL SO SILLY#-THE THINGS I WOULD DO TO SEE CONTENT OF THESE THREE HANGING OUT TOGETHER IS CRAZY
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sarahlancashire · 9 days ago
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tagged by @airesgay, thank you <3
Rules: Shuffle your 'on repeat' playlist and post the 10 first tracks, then tag 10 friends to do the same
good luck, babe! by chappell roan
wrong again by kirsty maccoll
working for the knife by mitski
head over feet by alanis morissette
over my head by fleetwood mac
dreaming by blondie
please, please, please let me get what i want by the smiths
wedding bell blues by the fifth dimension
think about me by fleetwood mac
my life would suck without you by kelly clarkson
tagging @alisonscotlock @juliewlters @moxyphinx @elssbethtascioni @pea-green @tevos @lizmitches @notprincehamlet @majoris @luthqrs (feel free to ignore!!!)
#about me#music#meme#me? a boring lesbian cliché? it's more likely than you think!#this is... pretty much what i would have expected tbh#what's most surprising is the lack of abba bc i listen to abba pretty much constantly#and also that alison moyet's whispering your name didn't come up#(or any alison moyet/ yazoo song at all but especially whispering your name; only you)#i was also surprised that of all the kirsty maccoll songs to come up it was wrong again#not that i don't love the song bc i do but i would've thought several others were more likely (especially tread lightly; still life;#teenager in love)#i've basically played good luck babe! on repeat ever since the vmas lmao#working for the knife is MY mitski song; i've been obsessed since the first time i heard it#i got briefly obsessed with how lisa-swain-coded head over feet is#over my head is my number one song to play while reading fanfics (especially sexy ones) bc it's the most relaxing and sexy song ever#and also pretty lisa-coded now that i think of it#“you can take me to paradise/ and then again; you can be cold as ice” - hello?? lisa swain is that u??#“you can take me any time you like” - carla to lisa anyone???#blondie's dreaming is and always will be the best blondie song ever and one of my most favourite songs in the world#& the reason my ask page title has been “ask me what's my pleasure; a movie or a measure” since i joined tumblr#i like a lot of the smiths' work by please please please let me get what i want will always be MY smiths song#(as well as heaven knows i'm miserable now lmao)#nobody cares @ me
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shorthaltsjester · 4 months ago
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maybe this is just because it feels like a metaphor for how tlovm uses vex in general (and i could write an essay about it and have and will again) but something that i both understand tlovm choosing to do and deeply hate as a choice they made is vex no longer being the one to break thordak’s crystal even though vax was still the one to kill him. especially since the show was very explicit about thordak being responsible for killing the twins’ mother and also set it up as a sort of avenging of percy, it felt tonally weird to literally just have vex hanging out in the background for both the crystal breaking and him being killed. it’s fine (deeply upset voice) i understand that adjustments to pike’s vestige made this make sense for the plot but. glad to have vex continue to be a witness in tlovm moments that in the campaign her agency in were delicious character moments. it’s fine.
#cr team respectfully i think you need to think more about the consequences of your Cool Action Choices#on your central characters’ agency and growth#particularly when they are women whose names start with k and v#i think pike does better because there is the extra attention of How To Fit Her In The Story#but for every great moment of character reinterpretation of vex and keyleth there are about five where i’m like.#these characters are animation tradition pilled and not in the fun adventurous way i mean in the#medium that got away with treating women as objects in much more extreme ways for longer way. where i think the echoes are harder to extract#from common tropes and shit that aren’t exactly harmful but do take keyleth and vex. both characters who fit well into archetypes#but who are interesting because of how they subvert them pretty consistently#and instead just have them subvert them on occasion and we’re left with just. innocent flower who occasionally has rage#can’t kill vorugal on her own. can’t crack thordaks gem. why is she there (i said tired and sad for other reasons) i’m being hyperbolic#and cold and charismatic woman (now . trope identical mourning widow 👍) who occasionally is given depth (typically in romantic context)#which sure great. yay action sequence yay npc backstories and motivations. could i get a slice of the time and effort percy and scanlan get#to trace their arcs through everything they do#with keyleth and vex. please. Please#to be clear. this isn’t like. i think the characters are being targeted (certainly don’t think the cast doesn’t have a say either)#this is me saying i think the say they have/choices they’ve made aren’t very compelling ones#tlovm spoilers#vex’ahlia#tlovm
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moeblob · 3 months ago
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Right and his work menaces (Brent and Karen).
I don't remember last I mentioned it but apart from crude nicknames to people (except Chris), he also just puts them in his phone really weird (except Chris, who is literally in his phone as Chris). And I bring this up because in Right's phone, Karen is saved as "Lawful Obligation".
#my characters#oops i fell in love#can you guys tell im stressed and hyperfixating on my own fucked up ocs cause i am#also brents nickname at work and in rights phone is fuckwad#and hes like yeah if im called anything else at this point by right its weird and uncomfortable#and when it is finally approached as if paul is only in rights phone as shitty-ex (answer) now that hes an excoworker#what was he in rights phone BEFORE the transfer#and right is like annoying dickwad ... karen is like oh i see thats why you call him a dick still#thats like a nickname from his phone name#and brent has to ask why fuckwad and dickwad and right looks at him and takes a deep breathe before saying#because i like the word wad and it is very comforting bc like a wad of paper ? you can throw it away#and so if i realize i gotta get rid of attachment i wad it up#also dont tell paul that dickwad was a form of attachment or he will never shut the fuck up about it#karen and brent both swear to never mention it to paul#paul is honestly such a weird anomaly in the plot bc he doesnt directly work at the same police station#but he is CONSTANTLY a topic of gossip or annoyance or updates#hes literally karens best friend! aside from chris he was one of the few right worked with who HAD touch privileges before right banned it#hes also just genuinely well liked but no one can actually tell him or he will become insufferable#which is a crime that rick is guilty of once when he meets paul and karen introduces him#and rick is just OH i know that name! youre her best friend#and she looks so betrayed and paul looks so delighted and stunned and radiant over this fact#and rick makes up for it before the night is over which is why karen forgives him - he made paul back in his place#anyway yeah right has lots of fears and hes my bundle of anxiety and i love him and his atrocious nicknames#i think i would die if i gave someone a rude nickname even affectionately irl#also also final note on this ig#since right is a detective and not always at the station its worth pointing out brent and karen just work taking calls and#doing misc other work at their desks which are nearby so they 100% bond and its wonderful#ok i lied final note on them is#for a very long time karen has to check with right to make sure she isnt annoying brent because he doesnt emote well#and shes scared she wont know if shes annoying him please help youre like the only one who reads his moods accurately
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nebulousfishgills · 5 months ago
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Let's have a moment of silence for the TAVs/Durges that currently can't be played properly while waiting for the mods to update ✊️😔
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thebirdandhersong · 4 months ago
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Lol
#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting#with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy#and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because#your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED#OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered#being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal#anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this#can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws#worries#and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please#also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up#in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite#but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying#you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents#but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents#not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up#that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY#you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard#i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation#and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far
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orcelito · 14 days ago
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Here with a wonderful new post of:
Beds of The Veilguard... Ranked!!!
From highest to lowest, we have...
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Davrin!!!! Here at #1 with his nice respectable bed. Well-made, WITH multiple pillows... it's a bit unconventional on account of it being open-air, but it's the Fade! Weather protection doesn't matter here. Overall, hands down the best bed of the party.
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Taash comes in at #2!!! Lost to Davrin on account of the lack of pillows (???) and the bed not being made, but it still looks like a comfy mattress & it has a nice frame. Still a Good Bed.
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#3 is Bellara!!! It's a little thin, no blanket in sight, but it still looks like a nice solid sleeping space. If someone likes a firm bed, then this seems like a good way to go!!
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Rook lands in at #4. This isn't a bed. There are no pillows or blankets. But it Does still look pretty comfy... add in some pillows and blankets and it'd be a pretty nice space to sleep!! A decent bed-replacement.
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At #5 we have Harding!!! This may be a bedroll on the ground, but there are some really plush looking pillows!!! Plus harding LOVES camping!!! She's used to sleeping on the ground!!! Enjoys it, even!!!! Points added for atmosphere, bc this room really is SO very pretty. Such a comfy looking nook. Still could've benefitted from an actual mattress tho.
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Narrowly coming in at #6 purely bc the other two options are So. Bad. We have Neve!!! With a fucking cot??? No pillows or blankets. Neve, you're a classy woman, don't do this to yourself. I know you're a workaholic, but please... have some self respect... at least get a pillow......
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Number #7 is here... Lucanis!!!! What are you doing. Bro what are you doing. Bedroll on the GROUND would be better than this, bc at least that'd be more even!!!! Instead you just have a bedroll on uneven wood planks that would dig into your back and give you bruises. Like I know his whole thing is trying to sleep as little as possible due to the Spite thing, but... bro... at least u could be kinder to your spine... please...
And then the absolute worst one. The one I was aghast to realize what it was........
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Emmrich!! Number #8!!! What are you DOING!!!! Now you may say, "Of course this isn't his bed haha, we see him reanimate the dead on this thing several times." But. But. Take a look around his room. Thoroughly. Top to bottom. There is no other horizontal surface. Nothing. *Nothing*. This is the only thing that could possibly constitute as a bed. And it's... a bloodstained stone necromancy table. With the tools still there.
Either Emmrich is sleeping in one of his chairs or on the floor... or this. None of these options are good. Full shade, here. Emmrich, What Are You Doing.
Anyways there's the post, thank U for reading
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ratatatastic · 4 months ago
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lmaoooo maffhew wanting the knot immediately and having to wait for sasha to catch up with that is so deeply funny like. this omega is not subtle and you’re not a stupid alpha babe! can only imagine what benny has to say to maffhew about it once he catches on and stops banging his head against a wall
idiots to lovers is always great but especially when its two people who would be hitched with 10 kids by now if they stopped being dumb for a single second like its that easy and yet...
to me they very much fall around the same time (infatuation at first scent if you will) just that sasha takes some time to get there not because he's dumb (okay he's a little dumb) but in the sense that its like "this person is very interested in me, i can see and recognise that but theres so much cognitive dissonance in my brain right now between knowing that intrinsically and finding that hard to believe so i unintentionally play dumb because obviously i'm reading too much into things it cant be me they're interested in haha that'd crazy but they're being awfully touchy and flirty with me wow"
but also it takes two to tango and we have to acknowledge that and this is when i would love to bring up the ways in which this man decides is the best way to go about that because he is a catholic school girlie... there's so much hilarity to be had here especially because his flirting is very uh how you say... a little ass backwards if you will especially considering dynamics
"I make it a point to keep the door closed when we're alone in a room together! That's basically a clear invitation that I'm down to fuck!!! Im basically asking to be ragdolled on his knot!!!"
and Benny just pinches the bridge of his nose like "I don't know how to explain to you in a way you'll understand that not everyone went to Catholic school."
But saying that Sasha does side-eye the door knob heavily when Maffhew goes over to close it the first time and he starts sweating like he just got dragged into a game of 7 Minutes in Heaven he did not sign up for and he's 13 again and oh god he got paired with a really cute girl, and he hasn't even had his first real kiss yet and-
And then absolutely nothing happens because Maffhew is just waiting with a polite expectant smile (because his work here is done, he did the heavy lifting know it's Sasha's turn) and this is when Sasha's dynamic classes training kicks in and he basically scolds himself for even assuming in the first place because this is clearly a show of trust (correct) not an invitation for extra circular activities (incorrect buzzer noise) and it basically becomes "This Omega really trusts me, I'm honoured especially as Pack Leader that I'm able to be so accepted into such a private space with the inherent knowledge that I will not encroach their boundaries whatsoever because consent is verbal, this is not in any way an invitation to take advantage of them this is deep platonic trust I will guard with my life :]"
and if you listen closely you can hear the lovely sounds of Maffhew bashing his head into a wall about how much of a gentleman Sasha is but also COME ONNNNNN... you know... once Maffhew realises what's happening which (looks at my watch) is not due for another few months really
Battle of wills: unstoppable force (maffhews catholic school understanding of dynamic interactions) vs immovable object (overseas alpha cotillion classes)
And if you think it's an Oh! An overseas dynamic thing! It's not. The Euros are watching the horrible car crash in front of them and doing absolutely nothing about it because it's none of their business, but they will stare at it... maybe judge it a bit but definitely are observing from the tall grass.
and I'm also not saying that luosty lundy forsy and bobby have a current running bet of how long it'll take for maffhew to break sasha in but i'm also not not saying that... luosty goaded lundy in the midst of a gossip session ("It has to be 3 months, right?) forsy happened to be around so lundy turned to him for advice ("7 months.") and maybeeee bobby overheard from all the way over from his stall and puts in his two cents for what it's worth ("6. Captain nice but not that nice. Very impatient." "So 3!" "No. Impatience makes him double the time, and wait longer. 6 months.") (lundy finally settles on a good 5 months because he's indecisive)
And Sasha does eventually pick up everything maffhew is throwing down... eventually... and when he does it becomes more so I want to court this omega the way they deserve I will take this slow and romance them sweetly :) *smash cut to maffhew caterwauling like a cat in heat*
but also once again its not like maffhew is helping sasha in any way this is idiot4idiot and benny would like to enjoy the car crash with the euros but unfortunately that's his soulmate, thats his bestie, his littermate from birth who has been weaned on the same teat as they climbed over each other to get to it, the first girl you kissed in your childhood bedroom because somehow you started play fighting on the bed because she was like i could totally pin you down easy and then she does and you always noticed how beautiful she was but shes even more gorgeous when she's pinning your wrists to your hannnah montana duvet you promised yourself youd changed out before she came over but you forget and well she teased you about it and you cant help but giggle about how perfect this all is and it seems that the natural conclusion to this is to taste the strawberry lipgloss of her lips because whats a kiss between besties huh its tacky and sticky and it tastes like summer and just other apt metaphors to put here about the inherent -isms of their relationship that i nearly cant put to words properly other than girls having fun (they are fucking)
and well anyways benny is watching and he has a lot of things to say about how its been proceeding so far
"You should really use your words."
"I am!"
"Right because smelling like a fucking perfume shop in the middle of October is using your words."
"This usually works with most Alphas okay!"
"Sasha isn't most Alphas."
"Tell me about it." Matthew grouses before he peeks over to Sam, looking up from beneath his eyelashes—the exact way he knows both endears him to Sam but also absolutely miffs him all the same, "Worked on you, didn't it?"
"Oh, is that what we're doing right now? We're calling getting a lapful of a preening O in preheat in the middle of a roadie a normal way to go about these things."
"It worked didn't it?" Matthew reiterates.
"It would work better if you use—"
"Okay! Alright!! I get it!!!" He does not.
like benny here is unfortunately an active listening participant in the going ons of the fuckery if not because hes involved by proxy because of maffhew because who else will hold his hair back as he calls him a dumb bitch you know
#ask#i dont think we nearly take enough advantage of maffhew going to a catholic prepatory school#my friend who went to catholic schooling his whole life until highschool (where we met) dropped the bombshell of the door thing on me#to which i went you have to be fucking with me that cant be real and then i was like well i guess its good we're both boys then-#and then he goes oh my mom knows im queer the rule applies to boys too#and i just nervously looked over to the door knob like well uh maybe we should open the door? i dont want your mom to be mad-#and he was like oh shes convinced we've been fucking since we met so this is allowed youre the only boy she lets do this (the door thing)#a couple of years later when he moved out i found out friends weren't allowed over if he was alone in the house but i was the only exceptio#and i felt like the equivalent of a roving tomcat who keeps wandering into the gardens and got the neighbours cat daisy pregnant#i dont think i could ever look that woman in the eye after all that#this is all to say catholic schooling does things to you man#anyways i do have to reiterate every kitty is fucking each other on a normal basis and in an abo au it gets even worse#making our whorehouse a whorehome#ive always said this but flirting with a virgo is like flirting with a brickwall#actually thatd be an insult to the brickwall because at least the brickwall would give you something to work with#the humble virgo looks you in the eyes before they crush your ego with a single word and youre like thank you mistress may i have another#i feel for maffhew i really do#theres just so many funny ways this just goes terribly wrong because both maffhew and sasha are inherently messy people#matthew and sasha on a team outing sat next to each other in a booth and matthew gets a little tipsy and starts rubbing his cheek#on sashas shoulder and sasha is just looking over to benny like please. help. and benny just snorts and blatantly ignores#him as he continues to sip on his beer and sasha just turns to ekky and silently pleads with his eyes. PLEASE. HELP.#ekky huffs and looks away very much not thrilled about being involved in any form whatsoever and hes not gonna change his mind about this#*5 minutes later* and ekky finds himself switching spots with sasha with a cuddly maffhew on his arm and he's a little disgruntled about it#but its very hard to stay upset when maffhew keeps mumbling about how nice he smells and keeps trying to scent him#all over like he has any right to lay a claim when hes been in the pack for such a short time#and yeah okay maybe he preens a little bit at the compliment like just a little#and maybe he does like being treated like a glorified scratching post but matthew doesnt need to know that (matthew knows that)#well anyways
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sometimesanequine · 10 days ago
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i pray none of you ever have the misfortune of feeling the weather in your bones in the hellscape that is current weather patterns
#tis agony fellas#dont ever get so stressed for so long you get sick and treat your body well (if possible) so you dont end up like me ok?#and if you do end up like me please make time for yourself and rest your body and eat good food and drink good water#keep your body in top condition even if you feel bad because it can help you feel at least less like a corpse#i would probably be less sick if i figured out what was wrong with me sooner. but pitying the past does nothing#instead i spend my time resting researching biology to see if we can ever reverse it right. so im less sad about being unable to do stuff#boy howdy does it feel bad to sew and cut fabric for roughly 2 hours and then have to go lay down cause ur baka body is telling you to stop#it'll be okay though theres always tomorrow. and i can sew for less time and take longer breaks. its bad to always push your limits#eventually i will finish! but not today and thats okay because tomorrow will come and go and i will sew when im able again#in the meantime i can read a lot! my brain is still curious and hungry for knowledge even if my joints are weak!#you should all go and have a snack and a sip of water or beverage you will consume and wash your bedding#so you can go to bed on clean sheets and blankets and pillow cases. ALSO!!! change your pillow cases#not a horse#also. please dont wish for me to get better. i probably wont :} and thats okay. it is fine. im not very sad about it often#so please dont be sad about it either!
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adahlenan · 12 days ago
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Haunted one
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hana-bobo-finch · 26 days ago
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what a precious little guy. i hope nothing bad ever happens to him
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#pdbc#< posting this here bc I think this deserves all the love in the world#not because I think the art is particularly good I just think that Lethia is. so wonderful#I’ll probably keep most of my pdbc shitposts here but the longer posts on my alt#I have a curse. I love drawing characters from a top down angle bc they look so goofy—#—but I don’t know how to properly draw characters from a top down angle. oh well#my beloved muddy moth. get out of there lethia go back to your mud pit please :(#it’s gonna be a while until I finish this minicomic#I’m about 6 pages into the (very) rough sketch of it and it’ll probably be at least 20 pages so. uh. gonna take some time#maybe like a month or two until it’s fully finished. ah well. look everyone it’s my boy lethia#art#poor guy does not deserve any of what happened to him#tho ​he kind of needed his ego to be knocked down a peg but you didn’t hear it from me#he is the sweetest little bug but. he sorta has no concept that he could ever be in the wrong#not necessarily because he’s an egomaniac but because he has hardly ever interacted with anyone else#in his eyes he IS the center of the universe. he has no concept of other people having feelings#wdym other people have ‘’’feelings’’’’ and ‘’’’emotions’’’’. the only people here are my pet aphids and they all submit to my will.#but even then he deserves better lmao he wasn’t being that rude mostly just befuddled#lethia noooo Lethia you can’t just barge in and expect people to do whatever you say no matter how polite you are nooooo#especially not on an island like THIS ffs nobody here is reasonable except for kurt and he’s probably off building a secret plane or smthn
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melit0n · 1 month ago
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delightedchips · 2 months ago
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about the timebomb healing period ..
particularly interested in the idea of ekko also struggling to adjust having returned back to the current universe so suddenly and being whiplashed by a lot of things like the scar & sevika team up 😭 (i assume anw by how casual the two pop in tgt during the recruit meeting) it does offer a neat foundation of a shared sorrow of some kind between timebomb .. jinx watching him pour so much of himself taking care of her and also catching glimpses of him when he's away struggling to digest all the happenings of the firelights during his absence, grieving heimerdinger, rebuilding a semblance of a relationship with sevika, seeing the current dissipation of the tree, getting bombarded by news of an upcoming war and still having a big chunk of his heart to help jinx, making sure she's eating, her bed is warm, water is always ready .. a boy of many burdens ..
maybeee. the sadness cycles back to jinx because the sight of it all tugs her heart to guilt (maybe even anger) and she has this sudden urgency to save him from what hes committing to by taking her in . a part of her actually wants this second chance but she still doubts ekko understands who she really has become and desperately wants assurance that he does . But instead of asking for it she opts to try and convince him to give her up again via rashing out in cold-hearted anger . with the outcomes of either ekko actually giving up (which, in turn, to jinx, 'saves' him. which is viewed good! ekko doesn't deserve another burden. ekko deserves the 'truth'. at least to jinx) or, ekko not giving up (which, in turn, to jinx, assures her. affirms she is still worthy of love at all even at this point. maybe it's not too late. but jinx won't admit how appealing it all actually sounds or how she would much prefer that outcome).. I don't think ekko would react w comfort .. i want to think he'd break too . All the rage cracking thru .. but in the end he still chooses to pursue this path .. something something
A shared sorrow . Kinda. A cycle of sadness . Kiiinda. Just two broken people trying to figure it out .. carrying a semblance of a want to save the other but each of their efforts costing a part of themselves
#Like jinx's guilt could probably be rage too .. how dare u not see how bad i am. how dare u take these lengths#Maybe she would try to convince him hey this commitment isn't worth the time U R dumb . Make him hate her again#she doubts his commitment and his understanding of what he's getting himself into#the way you look at me is shrouded by the past. think of the dead bodies. think of the shimmer. the bombs. remember now#The past is gone#you are still so naive#(Please look at me as I am) (please prove I am worthy of this forgiveness)#(I as in me in all my terrible)#And then she slowly would see the evidence Ekko did not in fact take her in with rosy lenses#he saw her completely#from the innocence of their childhood to the hurting of their parting sumthsumth he did not take her thoughtlessly .. he knew her completel#I do not look at you half-heartedly or through a past we have lost I look at you with a love I can not leave#I have tried#I have tried to rid of it but it keeps coming back. Now it is here and I have decided to let it stay#I know your mistakes I know all the pain you have caused. I know the ones you felt#I know as well the ones you caused me. I know a part of me hates u still . I know. I know#there's this reassurance he did not make the choice with a different person in mind He Had HER in mind fr fr. All of her#jus brain slopping like goo!!!!!#not good explained but whatever#!!!#Ekko#timebomb#Jinx#Ekko x jinx#Arcane#idk I get the vibe. That desperation that u love me for me right? Not the facade . Or anything. U saw my imperfections right?#i hope u did. I hope u know what ure getting into . THAT KINDA THING.. eats door..
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awakenthebeing · 2 years ago
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i had a pretty rough time these holidays. how would piepoe comfort? (im ok dont worry <3)
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moeblob · 10 months ago
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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)
#moe talks a lot#i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry#and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds#LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO#shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds#BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER#i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up#i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong#after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before#YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain#oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older#and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds#holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang#sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat#but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like#welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant#anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain#im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake#but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry#anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering
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moregraceful · 2 months ago
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EVERYBODY SHUT UP!!!!!! PAT SIELOFF IS PREGNANT!!!!!
1. Birthday cake from Sierra and Kelly; 2. Gritty soft serve ice cream cup; 3. Sign for Erik Johnson's 1k celebration; 4. Jersey Devil Christmas tree ornament.
#just got taken very off guard by a big room remix of mozart's lacrimosa and the experience did NOT spark joy#horrible. i keep going back to the playlist it was on and listening to 30 seconds and getting mad all over again#not bc i believe in the sanctity of lacrimosa but bc i don't like it#ko and sierra aren't responding to my messages probably because they are spending quality time with family!!#but EYE do not have quality time with family. and my brain is swiss cheese from too much church#please god let him be a girl dad do not let him have a boy to put into hockey#i mean you can put the girl in hockey but we do NOT need pat sieloff jr (boy) into hockey#pat sieloff continuing proof that every single bone in your body can be broken and you have like negative muscle ligaments#but you can still be so so so so cute and happy with your wife in pictures announcing baby sieloff 🥰🥰#the weather is making me UNWELL. like physically i was not built for this weather i was built for heat not cold#BUT mentally also. please explain to me why i outlined an entire advent liturgy -- all four sundays -- based around hockey#LIKE NOBODY NEEDS A PRAYER OF CONFESSION AROUND HOCKEY#and it fucking WHIPS is the worst part. it was only an outline but if i spent more than 3 hours on it. well someone should a do wellness ch#ck is what should happen. we don't need hockey liturgy no one needs that#the thing is i am so fucking burnt out and just exhausted by all of it (<- what christmas/advent will do to a mfer) but i love#writing liturgy. it's so fun. it's like creative nonfiction#so then i was like well what if i did lent and baseball. which tracks much better yk ending the darkness and the coming light#and then i was like. interesting. what urgent tasks am i avoiding by doing all this. what medication am i not taking#white knuckling it ONE DAY LEFT OF CHURCH NONSENSE AND THEN I CAN ROT IN MY LIVING ROOM FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR#oh my god is it past midnight already i've been working on this post for like two hours and keep getting distracted#if the classical music station played ''mozart's final rave (lacrimosa)'' by oliver heldens at 7am i would certainly get out of bed :/#fresno oilers.txt
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