#personal ish I guess

[ressq]

i've been into fandoms since i was like 12 and now so shocked that theres SO MANY kids on here ☠️ it makes me wonder, is this how the fandom people who were 21+ when i was 14 felt? i feel like the fandom climate has changed so much too, maybe it's cus i'm getting old...

i dont know why i'm so genuinely surprised that a solid half of the clockwork orange fandom is in high school. not hating, just realizing that fandom stuff on tumblr/twitter is a very teenager type of thing to be into. i guess that's why so many of us that are adults are autistic. (me included) we're kind of known for sticking to more childlike/teenlike behavioral patterns and i guess now i'm realizing that this isn't typical adult behavior. nothing wrong with it, obviously. it's fun. i like being in spaces with a lot of other wacky autistic people.

i think it's fine if a minor enjoys or shares my art or whatever. i interacted with plenty of normal fandom adults back in the day, after all. it's nice to see people of all ages making cool art.

a part of me will always feel a bit dirty about posting anything adult though, even as a joke, because it's like...i know what fandom teens do ☠️ i was there looking for illicit content CONSTANTLY as a teen, and making it too. i guess i turned out okay despite it all...a functional-ish adult with a steady job, nice bf, and plenty of hobbies. was CONVINCED i had bpd or some shit as a teen but then that steadied out after my brain finished growing.

seeing a 13 year old posting about wanting to be porked by alex delarge gives me whiplash. like damn, where are your parents...do they know you watched this movie? (maybe it was just me who had parents that were freaked out by my interest in the macabre) but also i was just like you once, kiddo. sneaking on tumblr and ao3 and shit to get my fix of Questionable Materials. hell, i think the blog i used as a teen to hornypost about fictional characters is still on here somewhere, too. (it had a loooot of punch-out stuff)

seeing people participate in a fandom as an adult is such a weird perspective, i've never felt like i had to be careful before. also now being an adult with adult things to do means i'm not living and breathing it in the same way. hyperfixations, special interests, they're the same in many ways but i experience them through the lens of an adult with an adult life.

born to hyperfixate, forced to grow up. born to shit, forced to wipe. i stock shelves at a supermarket while deep in thought about characters from an old movie with like 30 seconds of screentime and almost no dialogue. as one does.

this post means nothing. this is a personal blog. i will type words on it.

[hopeswriting]

reminder that if you back tsuna into a corner he

A) sends you right back into the worst prison for mafia criminals you just escaped from, but even worse than before (enjoy being unconscious and tied up in your one room swimming pool for the next 10 years)

B) freezes you with flames burning so hot they turned into ice (< this isn't how the zero point breakthrough is explained in canon but it's the more dramatic explanation), fully knowing you were already frozen by similar ones for 8 years until, like, a month prior

C) burns you fucking alive and also undoes the last 10 years of your existence across all existing timelines. also he won't think anything about it afterwards ever (?????? like. it's not that he didn't deserve it, to be clear, but damn. 😭😭😭 middle schoolers when you just want to take over the world(s) for a bit, smdh 🙄)

D) is willing to become the boss of the most powerful mafia family in the world with a bloodstained history if it means getting the opportunity to get his hands on you and kill you beat the shit out of you. but you're lucky he likes you so you could stay on very thin ice long enough for both of you to clear things up

E) gangs up against you with all the current and future strongest people in the world, and then punches you so hard he makes you see the light of doing the right thing despite your centuries years old deep rooted hatred which singlehandedly kept you alive as an undead person

also reminder he did all that while he was only 14 years old. this is all things he did in less than a year.

this is tsuna's resume during the course of less than a year of proper mafia business.

so, you know. the next time he goes "i just want my friends and i to be safe and happy and live in peace. 🥺🥺🥺 please don't make me fight you to make it happen? 👉🏽👈🏽🥺👉🏽👈🏽🥺👉🏽👈🏽🥺"

just maybe, consider listening to him

[nyehilismwriting]

WOAH IVI ROMANCE?!?!?!??!!1?!1?1!1?

not to show my cards too early or anything, but given the time frame for this project it's really not a big deal to say that I've had an IVI romance route planned since the start, but it isn't in the game yet! the thing w this route is that it would lock in in chapter one, and I need the game to be largely written in order to plan it properly - it'll be a weird one for pacing, obviously, since IVI isn't um. There. for huge swathes of the game. so it's something I have Planned, but won't be in the game until the final release:-)

[aropride]

saw someone at the craft store today in a purple coat and purple pants with purple hair and a purple cane i hope they know i want to be them when i grow up so so bad

[icewindandboringhorror]

Still always looking for ways to use this cardigan in things because I really like all the silly little pictures on it, but it doesn't match with much since it's such a bright pinky kind of color. but is similar to these very fluffy shoes lol

[daxwormzz]

Catabolic Seed

(more Piter, this time depicting my friend’s design for him. I like a little variety sometimes)

[softgothbabe]

I know I could be better. But holy fuck I could be WAY worse

[ros-sauce]

I dream of kissing The Terraria Zoologist under the moonlight

[matchesandmetaphors]

It’s the funniest thing when the toxic masculinity transmasc crowd says stuff like “even with your voice dropping on testosterone, you’re gonna have to adjust your pitch and mannerisms or people will think you’re GAY” buddy, I’m pretty sure it’s the whole “being married to a large bearded bear-like cis man” thing that’s gonna do that. But thank you for your concern, I guess.

[strawberri-draws]

various drawings of child me in a big ol' tutu haha

[wanderingmeme]

star rail 2.6 quest spoilers . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Played a little bit of the hsr quest yesterday and now am thinking about something after rewatching that one Mr. Reca cutscene... Memokeeper have such horror potention is crazzzyyyy. Thank you Fuli for feeding me like that 😋

[tex-now]

What's kin. I keep seeing it and I have no idea what it is. Like. Otherkin dogkin twinkin what does it mean I'm confused does anyone know

[dreamsy990]

i drew silly gijinkas of my dogs

the dogs in question

[adhd-merlin]

I've ordered a DVD of The Globe's 2013 production of The Tempest off eBay for £3, which is suspiciously cheap. it might or might not get delivered, and if it does it might or might not work. fingers crossed

[frankenstein-ate-my-left-shoe]

i just found a new song that i immediately associated with steddie and you will literally never guess how i first came across it...

[softgothbabe]

Sorry for hopping online and rapid-fire spamming your dash with reblogs. It will happen again