#ftm ish person I guess

[matchesandmetaphors]

It’s the funniest thing when the toxic masculinity transmasc crowd says stuff like “even with your voice dropping on testosterone, you’re gonna have to adjust your pitch and mannerisms or people will think you’re GAY” buddy, I’m pretty sure it’s the whole “being married to a large bearded bear-like cis man” thing that’s gonna do that. But thank you for your concern, I guess.

[reorientation]

I'm ftm and I've been on HRT for 5 years, had top surgery and I generally pass really well. My passport says I'm male, too. But until very recently, I never even saw a real cock in person, despite being a fairly horny person - I've only had sex with two people, both afab and transmasc as well. Ironically, I was the dom-ish one in both of these relationships, too.

But... I kept spending a lot of time online browsing through humiliation and misgendering porn. Reddit, tumblr, all that stuff. I kept fantasizing about being used like that. The rougher the better. I've got so many fantasies about it.

It took me a long time to finally install grindr. First, I chickened out and uninstalled it. And then installed again. Uninstalled. Installed.

And one night, around midnight, I started writing with someone. He lived 5 minutes from me. Told me I could come for a quick discreet fuck, just that, like I'm a fleshlight. And... I did. I went out, came to his house, got bent over and for maybe 8 minutes, he fucked my pussy, groped my ass and made me feel like a toy.

I loved it.

I didn't even get to cum, obviously. He didn't even ask for my name until afterwards. And then I told him to hit me up if he ever needs to unload again. It was my first cock ever, first one I've seen and first one I've let inside my most private parts, and the first cock even saw me as a fleshlight because that's how I advertised myself.

I kept grindr on my phone after that. I'm not using it too much, but it's there, waiting for me. And I did have a few more encounters after this one. I guess it awoken the slut inside me...

While this first guy used a condom, I was quick to find a second one. And I was so horny that I let him cum inside me (he even took some pics). I'm not on any contraception apart from T, which isn't contraception, and I'm scared like hell of getting pregnant. So afterwards, I had an awkward pharmacy talk, because I came in and said 'I need emergency contraception', they asked if it's for me, they stared at me and said 'it's for females'. I didn't sleep at all this night (because he was too busy with my body...) and I stood there like a dumb bitch for a few seconds while the guy (he came with me) said 'he's female' and that unlocked something in my brain and I said I'm trans.

Today, I might get fucked raw by another guy again. I had enough brains to get on birth control after that awkward pharmacy talk but apparently not enough brains to stop offering my cunt to strangers...

Oh also it's the ftm who just send you a long ask about fucking people from grindr and having an awkward pharmacy talk and possibly fucking another stranger tonight, I thought I should add some kind of name so you know who I am so uhmmm I guess my deadname would be a good fit and knowing you know it along with the fact that I'm offering my pussy to strangers will be kinda hot. So hi, I'm Alice uhh, and nobody used this name for me in years...

🎵One pill makes you larger and one pill makes you small 🎵

Except for you, Alice, I suppose it's "keeps you small" - without that little pill, you might already be swelling. 🖤

Sometimes things happen very fast, don't they? You hadn't even seen a cock in real life, for all those years, and then just a few days after you sent your first Grindr message, you were out in public listening to the man who'd just fucked his cum into you tell a stranger that you're female.

How did it feel to have them looking at you, Alice? To feel their eyes on you and realize that they knew you had a fresh load of cum inside your pussy. To realize that after all your efforts to pass, you still ended up having to admit that you have a fertile womb, and that a real man had put his seed into it.

It felt good, didn't it? Being a cumdump, and having them know it. Being humiliated in public because you'd been so desperate to give your pussy to a stranger. Having them see right through your identity to the needy little cunt underneath.

But maybe they're not seeing through anything. You've been dreaming of "misgendering" and letting men use you as a fleshlight without even asking your name. Maybe this is your new identity - not a man, just a needy little cunt.

[ftmcutiepie]

Good luck at work!!! I know you’ll do great and I hope your coworkers are nice!

I’m sure hearing your real name and being treated as so obviously a woman will make your girly cunt drip and throb throughout the day. Make sure to give your clit some attention when you can! She’ll definitely want some play time later after you worked so hard! You’ll be a silly little slut the hornier you are too, maybe a customer will even compliment your ditziness! Maybe some coworkers will even stare at your delicious tits while explaining something to you, I know I would be…

((And I also hope you see some supportive things/hints from coworkers at work if you do need to come out and if you ever wanna talk about workplace things I totally got you, ftm girlies gotta stick together! I’m on a side blog hence the anon but I hope you know you’re a really sweet person and I’m really rooting for your first day to go well!!!))

- Lizzie

Aw thank you <3

Sadly I didn't even get called by my real name that much, only when I got introduced to coworkers, but it felt so good to let them know my real name, instead of lying and pretending to be something I'm not.

I can't wait to repeat it over and over again until every single one of my coworkers remembers it and calls me by it every day🥰

Honestly, I was so busy all day I didn't really have time to be horny, BUT I was helping this older lady customer and she literally called me a good girl.

It made me feel so dysphoric, but then I remembered that dysphoria is good for me and it made me really happy that despite being more than 6 months on T, people still treat me - as you so fittingly put it - as so obviously a woman🥰

Fuck, my cunt is definitely throbbing and dripping rn only thinking about it😖💕

I took the time to rub my clit for a few seconds at the end of my break before heading back to work, but I was too anxious about getting caught to do it any longer.

But after I got home from work I edged until I fell asleep because I was really exhausted.

Sadly my early shift starts at 6 and work will probably be really busy most of the time, so I won't have much time to be horny on the clock, but my late shift starts at 2, I can't wait to edge all day until I have to get ready for work on the days I work the late shift🥰

I really hope one day when I'm all horny and dumb at work after a morning of edging, a customer will compliment my ditziness! I hope I get a reputation of being a silly little slut among customers and coworkers! Maybe one day I'm brave enough to edge at work for long enough to be caught...🥰

I didn't notice anyone staring at my tits today, but I really hope my coworkers and maybe even my customers do! Maybe I'm just too dumb to notice. I wanna be objectified so bad! Maybe one day I'll even get groped...

(Thank you! It was only my first day, but so far my colleagues and my two bosses and even the customers seem really chill. I find it very hard to guess how people view trans people, but so far I was mostly positively surprised lol. So on the one hand I'm like, How bad can it be? And on the other hand I'm kind waiting for someone to react badly because everything went rather smooth this far😅

Maybe there'll be an opportunity to come out for me soon-ish, and if not, I don't terribly mind just staying closeted at work for a few hours a week. Don't many people put on "personas" for work? And if all else fails I'll still have this Kink as a coping mechanism lol <3

I might take you up on the offer to talk depending on how things develop at work, but my first day went surprisingly well actually!)

[howaboutcastiel]

I posted 369 times in 2022

That's 365 more posts than 2021!

143 posts created (39%)

226 posts reblogged (61%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@romanarose

@toracainz

@my-secret-shame

@howaboutcastiel

@joyful-soul-collector

I tagged 151 of my posts in 2022

#moon knight - 126 posts

#steven grant - 110 posts

#marc spector - 104 posts

#jake lockley - 87 posts

#moon knight x you - 67 posts

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Make Your Acquaintance (Jake Lockley)

Summary: Reader is in an established relationship with Steven and Marc but has never met Jake before and is intimidated by his reputation. When an emergency requires Jake to take control for a while, you decide that it's time to introduce yourself.

Make Your Acquaintance Masterlist

I know the gif is Poe Dameron don’t come for me.

Word count: 5.5k

Content: brief violence and gore, reader is injured (not life-threatening) angst, fluff, whatever. Poor use of Spanish. Gender neutral reader.

Note: I don’t know what this fic is. I don’t know who it’s for. I just kinda wrote it. Drink up boys. Also thank for 100 followers! I am not worthy!

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1,161 notes - Posted June 21, 2022

#4

All I Desire (Steven Grant x Reader)

Word Count: 6.3k (I'm a mess)

Summary: Reader has not been in a relationship in a while and is scared to have sex with Steven for the first time. After learning of your fear of intimacy, Steven decides to plan an all-out date night to show you that you have nothing to worry about.

Pairings/Warnings: mentions of past relationship trauma, kinda angst I guess, fluff,  smut (duh), plot with porn, Soft Dom! Steven x (afab) Reader, p in v, oral (f receiving), no Marc or Jake but both mentioned. Language is gender-neutral apart from anatomy.

Note: Not proofread. How do y'all just shamelessly write smut all the time I feel like I just killed god

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1,393 notes - Posted June 1, 2022

#3

Two Steps Forward (Moon Boys)

[18+ content minors leave please]

Summary: A fun night with Jake ends up backfiring as Marc is triggered to front mid-coitus.

Content: Smut-ish, Angst, Fluff (the holy trinity). Handcuffs, impact play, getting triggered during sex, yelling and sad times. Reader is in an established relationship with moon boys.

Word count: 1.9k (aka the closest to a drabble you’ll ever see from me)

A/N: honestly this shouldn’t exist but now it does. Read it and weep. Also google cleared all of the formatting so UGH may be some mistakes.

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1,721 notes - Posted July 28, 2022

#2

How Do I Ask? (Marc Spector x F!Reader)

[18+] VERY NSFW PLEASE GO AWAY CHILDREN [18+]

Summary: Marc is usually the one to initiate sex. At this point, the reader doesn’t even know how to seduce him (it usually doesn’t require any effort). When the reader wants a change of pace from him, though, she must deal with the conundrum of being the one to make the first move. 

Word Count: 5.4k

Based on an anon request! Lots of love to that mystery person <3 I took some… liberties with the plot. Reader is my body type so sorry skinny gals and NB/FTM babes.

Content: Smut, Like a lot of smut, porn-IS-the-plot kinda smut. Protected sex (we’re not getting pregnant in THIS economy). Oral (M), roughness, a little bit of angst but it's horny angst. Oops there's 2k words of foreplay you can skip that if you want.

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2,041 notes - Posted July 11, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Not My Intention (Moon Boys x F!Reader)

Content Warning: mentions of physical/mental abuse

Word Count: 3.1k

Request (Abbreviated) @twhgirl

Could you write one moon boys x female!reader, where they've been dating for a while… They notice she gets anxious and startled very easily, but when they bring it up she always brushes them off so they don't pry. They don’t know she's previously been in an abusive relationship. And maybe they're at an office party and some guy comes to her when she's alone and the boys get jealous since it's obvious he's trying to flirt with their girl.

Content: Angst!! Fluff, poorly translated Spanish (obligatory) this shit is pathetic and soFT (not a comment on the recommendation just my writing) reader is dating the entire MK system

This is the first time I’ve tried to write in omniscient 2nd person so forgive me if I mess up the perspective somewhere <3 Thank you for the request!!! Much appreciated

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[tomurderornottomurder]

any other way; eddie munson

pair. eddie munson x ftm reader

summ. strangers to friends to lovers w/ eddie munson n ftm reader.

gen. fluff mostly, angst

tw. swearing, dated language regarding lgbt topics (it's not much), reader refers to self as a woman once, internalized transphobia, implied homophobia, reader implied to be stealth

wc. 2.5k

note. i love this greasy little freak

- if you're not already into the music he's into, he will introduce you to it. if you are though he's like "you're so cool, babe." even before you start dating

- you're both big ol nerds but while you're quiet he's quite the loud mouth

- aka he, the extrovert, adopts you, the introvert, kind of

- he sees you sitting alone at lunch and practically swoops you up. he comes over and introduces himself with the offer of his hand before coming to your side and wrapping his arm around your shoulders. he invites you over to his table before leading you over.

- all the hellfire kids are super welcoming and though you're quiet, they don't mind. they joke around with you like you've always been one of them :')

- plus eddie has you sit by him to check on you

- adding on to that, after you guys are more comfortable he touches you a lot like squeezing your shoulder and stuff to make sure you're good and just cause he needs to touch you all the time

- very touchy feely dude

- anyway back to the plot ish,, he really wants you to join hellfire. he brings it up whenever he can. he really likes you and he loves DnD so naturally he wants his fav person to like his favorite thing

- when u finally give in he's so happy!! like dancing around n shit like he was when chrissy recognized him :)) god he's so cute

- he'll even twirl u around n shit he's fucking adorable

- so, now that he's convinced you, you guys meet after school to fill out character sheets, come up with ur character, and for him to shamelessly flirt (not that he doesn't do that all the time already)

- dude is so fucking hyped and he really enjoys explaining everything to you, he gets a real kick out of it

- every question you have is answered and in probably more detail than you need tbh

- honestly, besides him just being fixated on DnD, he wants to spend more time with you so he goes on and on

- then you're late and he's like you wanna ride back? 👀

- you take him up on his offer and he tries not to be too obvious about it but he plays his favorite songs and is watching you to gauge your reaction

- man nearly crashes but he's good (?) at being distracted while driving

- you make it home in one piece and eddie bids you farewell, watching you to make sure you get inside safe before driving back the lonely drive to his house

- this man loves to shred on his guitar for you, does it to impress you too. it's really cute, he'll get all hyped up and be on his knees, leaning back as he does a solo or honestly just to make you laugh

- your laugh is his favorite thing in the world <3

- he LOVES making you laugh, man. he will go out of his way to get you to laugh because everyone at school already thinks he's a freak so what's the harm? (especially if it charms you)

- dude is a sucker for your approval which isn't like him when it comes to anyone else

- he's always trying to learn more about you, especially since you're quiet

- randomly asks about your interests all the time

- okay so you've joined hellfire, right? and have spent some time with eddie and on your own creating your character and familiarizing yourself with everything

- well guess what happens now,, you get the hellfire t-shirt!!!

- it does something to eddie everytime he sees you wearing it 👀

- he's a little upset though that you usually wear layers over it :( but when you see him on a DnD night as you walk into school or something, you'll pull up the rest of your layers to show it to him and he just cheeses so hard

- god, if you've never seen heart eyes irl before when you do that you have

- also he notices how you're always dressed in layers even if it's ninety degrees but he just attributes it to keeping with your style cause he'll do the same

- once while hanging out with him after hellfire, he notices you're actually talking and kind of a lot or at least more than usual

- it clicks in his head after about the third time you do this alone with him, that you're comfortable with him

- man literally almost weeps

- one time you're actually joking around with him and tell him he has stubby fingers. he looks so shocked and can't even come up with a comeback. he enjoys this side of you.

- also makes him wonder why you'd even notice that 👀 but he never says anything

- okay so whether you smoke or not he'll invite you to smoke sessions but also!! will not pressure you to go if you don't wanna :)

- "it's cool, man. you don't wanna smoke, you don't wanna smoke." he shrugs nonchalantly.

- he runs into you a lot while you're out walking your dog. eddie loves animals but he's also a bit terrified of them. so when your dog barks at him he's like it's not gonna kill me, right?

- you laugh at him and introduce him to your dog and his rocker-boy attitude instantly melts away. he's talking in a high pitch baby voice and everything.

- he often joins you on your walks. you talk about everything and nothing. he also notices that you're not dressed in so many layers and you're constantly fidgeting with your shirt.

- you two start talking a lot and hanging out a whole lot. after some time, you guys just kinda get together. like it literally just happens

- but a couple weeks in it hits you that you still haven't told him yet and it wasn't that you didn't want to, no, it's just so fucking hard. you don't wanna lose eddie.

- you try to ignore it for a while n pretend you're cis and everything is fine but it's not and eddie can tell. he doesn't know how to broach the subject and hopes you'll bring it up first

- when you do get the courage up to tell him, he comes home to find you sitting anxiously on his couch. you ask him to talk and he of course says yes.

- "eddie, please remember i love you,"

- it sounds like you're going to break up with him and eddie starts to feel sick.

- "so please," you practically beg as you look at him with soft eyes, "don't hate me after i tell you this."

- eddie can't stop the churning in his stomach, are you really about to break up with him?

- "i'm a transsexual."

- well that's not what he was expecting to hear

- "i was born a woman but i'm a man. and i love you, eddie," you feel like you have to add that in since you're dealing such a big blow. "i hope this doesn't change things between us," you continue on shakily, playing with your hands as well. "i still wanna be with you but i thought you should know." you squeeze your eyes shut for a moment expecting him to maybe hit you or something but all that hits you are his words

- "i love you, too, y/n, no matter what."

- that's like a jolt of electricity to your heart. you jump up and wrap your arms around eddie in a tight hug, head resting against his chest, and eyes squeezed closed. tears spill silently as you hold onto eddie for dear life.

- eddie wraps his arms back around you and kisses your head. "i could never hate you, sweetheart. never," he finalizes with another kiss to the top of your head.

- it's the 80s and trans ppl especially ftm ppl aren't really known about or are grouped together with gay ppl so you'll have to explain a bit further to eddie but he's very understanding and supportive

- (i personally, headcanon him as trans but anyway)

- he becomes a bit more gentle with you after this, not because you're trans or anything he just doesn't want to make you uncomfortable :')

- much like steve with robin, he keeps the fact that you're trans to himself (as he should). he knows it's your right to tell people and not his, plus he would never want to risk your safety.

- he's always careful with you at school and in public because as much as he likes showing you off, he wants to keep you safe. but if you're alright with it, he's practically got you hanging off his arm

- y'all are like the power couple of hellfire lmao and they're equally annoyed and supportive :) they'll fake gag when you kiss n shit but they're happy for y'all

- you two mainly hang out at eddie's trailer, random nature trails, or just out in the woods. besides just being with each other, y'all's favorite thing to do is bug steve n robin at family video. robin loves u two but also is constantly like i hate you guys lol

- oh my god, remember how i said he's touchy feely?? dude LOVES to cuddle. he lives for it.

- your head on his chest while he combs his fingers through your hair? yes, please!

- he loves it when you guys just hold each other, laying in his bed n watching whatever's on tv or a horror flick robin or steve recommended. he's also a little spoon big time idc what anyone says, man loves to be held but spooning isn't his main thing

- his favorite is when you lay on him whether it's your whole body or just your head on his chest or in his lap

- you have got to play with his hair while you're cuddling, laying, or sleeping together. honestly, even if you're just sitting around, any time really. with your hands in his hair, he's putty in your hands. literally moaned one time when you did it, hair pulling kink much?

- another perk of being eddie's bf is coming along to his shows. his bandmates love you but they always make fun of eddie when he's being all love dovey with u. several of them ask why the hell you're with eddie n will jokingly flirt and are met with smacks to the shoulder by eddie but it's all in good fun

- mmm eddie loves holding your hand. at first he's kinda self conscious cause he gets sweaty hands around you cause he gets nervous n shit but at a certain point, he doesn't care and he knows you don't either

- please hug this man

- he understands that you don't always want to with your chest and all but god when you do? he's in heaven. he loves bear hugs, squeeze him til he's paste and he'll be satisfied

- man is touch starved that's why he savors it so much and just like you, he'll be randomly averse to touch. you guys are great at checking in with each other about it (steve thinks it's so cute, he saw y'all doing it once outside family video then robin caught him being soft about it and she hasn't stopped teasing him since)

- when your dysphoria hits hard, eddie's  almost always on top of it. he knows you well and you two are harmoniously connected, so he's very aware of your discomfort. still there are times where you've got to tell him because he won't realize

- mans will wrap you up in blankets to make you comfortable and also because he loves being wrapped in blankets.

- if you're not already in his clothes - he's noticed it's something you do when dysphoric- he'll go through his drawers asking u which u want to wear and literally dresses you himself unless you're uncomfortable. but it's nice to have someone take care of you so you don't have to think about it :')

- if you're okay with it, he'll cuddle you and this is like the one time he's big spoon lol. or he'll have you face him so you can bury your face against him and he runs his hands through your hair and to kiss your head :'))

- dude, whatever and i mean anything that you need, eddie's gonna get it for you. heat pack? no problem. obscene amount of your favorite snack? he's on it! playing that song you love that he hates? only for you, baby ;)

- such a fucking dad. very attentive n great at bad jokes.

- may not be able to cook the greatest but he will do his very best for you, results are mixed.

- back to clothes sharing. he loves sharing clothes!! literally one of his love languages (cough cough, giving his vest to steve, cough cough). he adores you in his clothes and he finds it funny when he catches you taking his clothes. like he'll be strolling into his room and you look like a raccoon in trash before you stand frozen with an armful of clothes

- "what're you doing?" he asks playfully.

- "nothing," you respond before poorly hiding the clothes behind yourself.

- he just laughs and walks over to give you a kiss.

- don't think you're exempt from him stealing your clothes cause he will. and honestly you feel like he pulls them off better than you.

- at some point, you don't know which clothes are yours or his and neither does he

- omg he'll let you wear his rings and stuff and he LOVES it. he's smiling so big like a lovesick teen :))

- also if some of the rings are too big he's gonna laugh at you hehe or if they're too small and get stuck lol

- one day you two are just lying around on his bed. you're both quiet, doing your own things but together. he strums on his guitar lazily while you absentmindedly sew a patch onto the knee of a pair of his jeans which allows your mind to wander. your dog also lies with you two at the foot of eddie's bed.

- your thoughts wander from yourself to eddie and how he sees you and how he's with you. "hey, eddie," you look over at him.

- he turns and looks at you lazily but full of love. he can't help smiling just looking at you. "need somethin', sweetheart?"

- "just wondering," you look at him quickly before looking down at your hands. "why're you with me, ed?"

- he looks genuinely surprised you'd ever ask him that. he even chuckles out of disbelief, "what?" he looks you straight in the eye as he leans over a little bit. "why wouldn't i wanna be with you?" he takes your hands, squeezing them.

- you shrug, pouting your lip, and tears pricking your eyes. "i don't know. just maybe if i was cis-"

- "hey," he says sternly, squeezing your hands again to bring you back to him. "i can't imagine you any other way. and i wouldn't want to."

[elongang]

Okay hello I think it’s about time to create an introductory post so yeah

Hello I’m Karl! :]

I am an editor and an artist

I am Trans (FTM) and I’m bisexual —> my pronouns are he/they

I am half English and half Polish

I am a pretty big introvert and can be fairly shy —> my MBTI type is INTP :]

I LOVEEEE planes and want to be a pilot in the future (my all time favourite plane is concorde (i know it's retired but shush))

Some of the fandoms I am in are:

- Wild kratts / the kratt brothers

- What we do in the shadows (2019)

- Hazbin Hotel & Helluva Boss

- South Park

- Heathers

- The elon gang (mjcmatthew)

- AsapSCIENCE

- The Big Bang Theory

(And a few others)

I have been watching WK for yearss, some of my favourite WK characters and episode’s include:

- Chris Kratt

- Zach Varmitech

- Donita Donata

- “Tazzy Chris”

- “Whale Of A Squid”

- “The Gecko Effect”

- “City Hoppers”

- “Let The Rhinos Roll”

- “Falcon City”

- “Hammerheads”

- “Flight Of The Draco”

- “Back In Creature Time” (Parts 1&2)

- “Clever the Raven”

(and many more)

I don’t really have many personal AUs tbh

- The main one I guess is Zach’s face scar, he was given it when he was in his teenage years (around 16/17); he was trying to create his first zachbot (like the main ones in the show) but it went pretty wrong, leading to him having a big cut on his face. (I’m not the best at AUs but yeah 👍)

- Another AU (which isn’t mine but I love the idea of - credits to whoever made this) is like the “evil twins of the kratt brothers”. We see Toodles as a zachbot in “Let The Rhinos Roll” and I love the idea of Toodles being this human-robot hybrid type of thing and I have no clue what Martin’s evil robot-human thingy would be called but yes :]

- No clue if anyone else thinks this but i have a headcannon that Chris really misses being friends with Zach - they were inseparable besties as young kids but zach grew more distant as he wanted to work on his inventions. they both had a huge fight when they were about 10 ish maybe about zach using animals in his inventions and decided they wouldn’t speak or be friends. Chris doesn’t think he can forgive zach for what he has done but at the same time he just wants his old best friend back

There is probably a lot more I could add here but I don’t want to make this a huge ass essay so yeah :]

Here’s a link to my socials if you wanna check them out :D https://linktr.ee/elongang

[jodfics]

Odd Socks

FTM Reader x Bucky Barnes

Timeline: None / A little AU

Rating: SFW-ish

Prompt: Bucky senses that Reader is hiding something.

A/N: Just a companion piece to 'Socks?'

MasterList

"Baby boy, do you know where my keys are?" Bucky’s voice carried through to the bedroom, and Y/N smiled a little; Bucky had been using that nickname a lot lately. He made his way to the living room just in time to see the man throw the pillows of the sofa back in place, "Y/N, have y- oh." He had been calling for him and only realised the other man was in the same room, "Keys? I swear I left them on the table."

Y/N pulled the keys off the side table and held them up, "You left them there a week ago, and I put them away." Bucky had been away for a week, and it felt like he hadn’t been home two minutes before he was planning to go out again, "Where you planning on going?"

"It’s gym day." He said it as if Y/N should know that, and now that his blue eyes were taking in his boyfriend’s appearance – he noticed he was not dressed for the gym. Bucky noted that he was wearing an oversized, shapeless sweater and a pair of baggy jeans, clothes he’d seen but never on Y/N’s person. Y/N usually wore clothes that fit him, sometimes clothes he could show his body off in, but these…. these were not any of those things. "Are you getting changed there or..?" He watched Y/N’s arms cross over himself, and alarm bells began to ring in the brunette’s head – that was a sure sign that there was a problem. "Y/N?"

He stared down at the floor, even when he felt the heat of Bucky standing in front of him and a hand on his bicep, "I…just don’t feel like going today." Y/N glanced up quickly and saw the confused expression on Bucky’s face. Bucky knew how much he loved going to the gym, knew that it was the highlight of his week and that lately, he’d been so focused on his thighs that he couldn’t walk straight. "We could always for a run instead?" He tried to be cheerful about that option, but he could see Bucky wasn’t buying it.

"What’s going on, Baby boy? Something happen at the gym while I was gone?" Bucky hit the nail on the head, and Y/N sighed; he headed toward the kitchen and opened the fridge, "Talk to me."

Pulling out a carton of juice, Y/N grabbed two glasses and poured, "I got in a fight, and now I can’t go back to the gym… I need to find a new one."

"You don’t usually get into fights…." Bucky grabbed a glass and began to drink, one eye on the other as he continued to fidget.

"Well, I did this time," he muttered and then cleared his throat, "What about Steve’s gym? I know it’s a little further away, but you did say you wanted to hang out more."

Bucky had said that, but he didn’t think Y/N would get what he wanted from Steve’s favourite place, "Steve’s gym is for boxing. Which if you wanna take that up, I can teach you… but I don’t think it’ll give you the results you wanted?"

"…I dunno." Y/N shrugged, "Maybe I was stupid for thinking… Ugh, we’re out of bread." He closed the cupboard and headed for the cereal instead.

Bucky gave a small sigh; he could tell that Y/N simply didn’t want to talk about it and figured he should give him some time, "I’ll go get some bread; I needed to grab a few things from the store anyway – need anything?"

"Chocolate?"

-

Bucky swung by the gym after shopping and greeted the guy at the front desk, the usually chipper trainer gave him a strained smile and stopped him, "Look, I’m sorry about all the stuff that’s happened. We cancelled the membership of the guys who vandalised the lockers, and we even offered Y/N her – HIS – membership money back. I guess you’re pretty pissed..." There was an awkward silence, and the trainer cringed a little, "Y/N didn't tell you yet?"

The brunette’s eyebrows creased together, and a frown tugged at his lips, "What… Are you even talking about?"

"Y/N being… a woman?" The guy winced slightly when Bucky glared at him, and he shrank back behind the desk.

Bucky would have serious words with Y/N about honesty when he got back home, "Y/N’s a man. He, Him, His. Call him anything but, and I will cause bodily harm to you. Now, open the door so I can get my stuff out of my locker." The door clicked, and Bucky shoved through it; a few of the regulars noticed him stalking through and kept quiet. Some of them figured Bucky had heard about what had happened and wanted to stay out of it. Walking into the locker room, Bucky froze, eyes widening a little at the state of Y/N’s locker. The lock was broken on it, and someone had written slurs all over it; all of them were derogatory terms for Y/N being transgender. Bucky tore the door off his own locker, vibranium hand crushing it before tossing it aside. He pulled his gym bag out and stormed out.

When Y/N saw Bucky’s gym bag and the man’s furious expression, he took a deep breath in, "Bucky -"

"No." Bucky cut him off and threw the bag down, "I don’t need you to say you're sorry or make any excuses. Just tell me exactly what happened."

"Bucky."

"Y/N."

They stared at each other for a long moment until Y/N crossed his arms and sat on the sofa, "I had a shower at the gym. I don’t usually, but it was a hot day, and I reeked. When I came out, cross trainer guy was there," that was the name they had given the guy who spent most of his time on the machine, "It wasn’t a problem, and we were joking around and then he… yanked my towel and saw – well, nothing."

Bucky sat down beside him, annoyed that this wasn’t even his boyfriend’s fault, but he was acting like it was. He hadn’t even seen Y/N’s bottom half-naked, and that irritated him that a stranger saw him first. "So you got in a fight, and he told the rest of the gym?"

"Yeah, something like that." Y/N pulled at the hem of the ugly top and sighed again, "One of the guys told me what they’d done to my locker, and I had to delete my social media… and Steve helped me get my stuff back."

"Steve?" Steve knew something had happened and didn’t call him? Didn’t even give him the heads up? "I’m gonna kill him."

Y/N placed his hand over Bucky’s fist and squeezed it, "He came over looking for you, he’d gotten the dates mixed up, and he saw I was upset – your dog tags were in my locker." Bucky had given him the WW2 tags as a gift for their first anniversary; it was rare that Y/N ever took them off, and he had been devastated when he thought he had lost them. He pulled the chain around his neck and revealed the discoloured tags from under his top, "I told him it was just a theft, don’t think he believed me too much, but he turned up four hours later with my stuff." Steve hadn’t pried too much. Still, he had made sure that Y/N had his number in case anything else happened.

"You got upset about those old things?" Bucky bit down a smile. He wanted to stay angry for his boyfriend, wanted him to know how disgusted he was at the world for treating him any less of a man than he was. Still, the way Y/N held the tags, gripped them like they were the most precious things in the world… created a warmth in him that was slowly consuming the anger, "What can I do, Y/N, how do I make this better for you?" Bucky pulled his hand up to his lips and kissed the man’s knuckles, "Who do I gotta kill, baby boy?"

It would have been cute if Y/N didn’t believe Bucky would murder for him, "I’m fine, Bucky, it’s not the first time people have reacted this way."

"You’re fine?" Bucky’s voice and the look he threw at the other was incredulous, "You hid it from me, you’ve deleted your precious social media, and I have never seen you wear these clothes in my life – If I remember, you said they were from when you had breasts and wanted to hide it." He pulled Y/N a little closer, brushing his lips to the man’s cheek and his temple, "These things are telling me you’re not fine. Talk to me." He kissed his other cheek, "Please."

Y/N sighed audibly, his head bowing a little as he swallowed nervously – Bucky was going to flip. "It didn’t start off as a fight; cross trainer guy didn’t say much at first, just watched me grab my towel and smirked. He… he um… he said that you probably liked that you could… you know - I tried to get my clothes and get out of there, but he started saying he’d keep quiet if I…" He stopped talking, extracted himself from Bucky and got up, arms crossing over himself as he walked toward the open kitchen and put the kettle on, "You want a drink?"

"Y/N," Bucky stood up and went to follow him, "I want you to tell me what happened, I can’t protect you if you don’t talk to me."

"Protect me?" Y/N scoffed, and the mug hit the side with a little more force than he meant, "Why? Because I’m weak? Because I’m not a real man?"

"Because I love you." Bucky snapped angrily. He wasn’t going to let Y/N wallow in self-pity or accuse him of looking down on him. "I wanna protect you because I love you." The brunette walked the last few feet toward Y/N and yanked the man’s arm to pull him into a tight hug, doing his best to cocoon him and convey how much Bucky thought of him. "Just stop thinking this way, don’t throw away all your hard work because of a bunch of guys that will never be more man than you."

Y/N wrapped his arms around Bucky and rested his head on his shoulder, "He said he’d keep quiet if I let him fuck me, said he’d never had a guy with a pu-"

"You don’t have to say it." Bucky cut him off, stamped down his anger and crushed his fury into a tiny ball. The only outward sign he was feeling murderous was the tensing of his body and a slight tremble as he contained it. "Baby boy…" Y/N looked up at him in alarm, his voice betrayed him, and Bucky cupped his boyfriend’s face as gently as he could, "I need to go out."

"Bucky, don’t you dare go after him!" His hands covered Bucky’s, and he held fast to them, "I don’t want you to hurt anyone for me."

"I won’t, I promise." Bucky took a deep breath and held it for five seconds, "I need to get this out of my system, I told you about the experiments they did to me – sometimes it can turn my anger into something that has to come out physically. I’m heading to Steve’s gym. Call him for me, tell him to meet me there and to bring his shield."

Y/N watched Bucky leave, still wide-eyed and a little frightened. He had felt Bucky’s anger; it still clung to him and made his heart hammer against his ribs – Bucky could be terrifying at times, but Y/N knew he was safe. He called Steve and told him Bucky’s message, then he waited for Bucky to return.

-

It was late in the afternoon before Bucky came home sweaty and tired, Y/N watched him stagger in, and it occurred to him that Bucky had been on a plane all night, gotten home early that morning and hadn’t even sat down yet. Bucky pressed a kiss to the other’s cheek and silently headed for the shower, he was sore from sparring with Steve, and he knew he reeked. When he came out into the living room, he found a cup of coffee and a sandwich waiting for him, "Thanks." He sat on the sofa and took a sip of his coffee.

Y/N nodded silently, stopping to admire Bucky’s half-naked form, his eyes raking down tan skin and lingering on black boxer briefs. "You okay now?" He asked quietly before approaching.

"Yeah," Bucky reached out for him and smiled when Y/N sat on his thigh rather than next to him, craving a little closeness and quietly offering comfort at the same time, "Sorry I bailed on you, I had to get it out of my system, and I didn’t want you seeing me like that."

"I should have told you the truth," Y/N leaned in and kissed him softly, 'It’s hard when the whole world is telling you that you’re wrong, that you should be happy with how you were born and that I’ll never achieve what I want. When everyone’s telling you that you’re a freak of nature… it’s hard not to believe it, you know?" Y/N didn’t want sympathy or even for Bucky to tell him that the whole world could go to hell; he was content enough to tell Bucky his woes and lock eyes with steel blue ones, the most perfect blue Y/N had ever known. The brunette expressed so much with his eyes. They made him feel exposed in the best ways, and never once had he seen pity in them – not for him. "And you were right, these clothes are for hiding in…."

Bucky’s palms ran up the sides of the shapeless top, and he let a slight smirk tug at his lips, "We could just remove this old thing."

Y/N shook his head fondly and gripped the hem of it, keeping it securely on, "I have another idea… but there are conditions."

"Conditions?" Bucky quirked an eyebrow and waited, very interested in what his boyfriend had to say.

"Would you let me blindfold you?" He felt Bucky’s fingers tense, and there was a hint of hesitation in his eyes, the man had certain reservations in being made vulnerable, and Y/N knew this might be one of them, "I wanted to try something, but I don’t want you to see what’s in my pants yet."

Bucky still wasn’t one hundred per cent sure, but he was willing to sacrifice his discomfort if it meant Y/N was doing the same, "What do you wanna try, baby boy?"

"…Thigh riding." He murmured it, face heating up and his gaze moving to Bucky’s chin rather than his eyes, "I uh, I just… we wanted to be more intimate and this way I can – we can…" his hand moved down to give the thigh he was sat on a firm squeeze. Bucky never missed leg day, his thighs were so perfect, and Y/N had been fantasising about them for a while now.

Bucky tensed his leg, demonstrating just how firm they could be, and after taking a single deep breath, he gave one of his charming smiles that he knew Y/N liked, "Sorry to disappoint, but you seem to be sitting the wrong way – you gotta straddle it if you wanna ride it."

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Last Updated: Feb 22th, 2021 (All Works Accounted For)

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Enjoy yourselves, my darling Lone Rangers wandering the earth. 

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Headcanons

Dante 

Dante As A Dad

If Dante Had A TikTok

Tickling Dante and Vergil 

Why Vergil Sleeps With An Eye Mask

The Sparda Twins Dying For Each Other (ANGST)

Dates With Dante Before and During A Relationship

How Nico, Nero, and Dante Would Handle Anti-Maskers

Dante and Vergil With A Delinquent Child

Dante and Vergil's Favorite Types Of Intimacy 

Kissing Dante and Vergil All Over Their Faces

Dante, Vergil, and Lady Cuddling Their Male S/O 

Dante Sleeping Over With His S/O For The First Time

Dante and Vergil Being Bridal-Carried In Public By S/O 

Dante and Vergil Joining Their S/O’s Skin Care Regime

Dante and Vergil Having Disagreements With Their S/O

Dante and Vergil With A Sympathetic Demon Hunter S/O 

Dante and Vergil With a Black!Half-Demonic!Angel-like!S/O

Dante and Vergil Falling In Love With A S/O Who Is Nero's Age

NSFW

SDT!Dante (NSFW)

Dante and Vergil: Giving Their Male S/O Oral Sex (NSFW)

Dante and Vergil: Spanking As Foreplay, Giving and Receiving (NSFW) 

Dante and Vergil Having SDT!Sex With A Devil-Triggered! AFAB! S/O (NSFW)

Vergil 

Vergil As An Uncle

Vergil As A Grandfather 

Tickling Dante and Vergil

Vergil During Thanksgiving 

Insults Vergil Have Thrown At Dante

Why Vergil Sleeps With An Eye Mask

Dante and Vergil With A Delinquent Child

Vergil Owns A Vinyl Collection: A Concept 

The Sparda Twins Dying For Each Other (ANGST)

Vergil Fighting His Power Obsessed Daughter (ANGST, TW: DEATH)

Dante and Vergil's Favorite Types Of Intimacy 

Kissing Dante and Vergil All Over Their Faces

Dante, Vergil, and Lady Cuddling Their Male S/O

Vergil and V with a S/O Who Can Summon A Persona

Dante and Vergil Being Bridal-Carried In Public By S/O

Dante and Vergil Joining Their S/O’s Skin Care Regime

Dante and Vergil Having Disagreements With Their S/O

Dante and Vergil With A Sympathetic Demon Hunter S/O

Dante and Vergil With a Black!Half-Demonic!Angel-like!S/O

Dante and Vergil When Nero And Their S/O Can't Get Along

Dante and Vergil Falling In Love With A S/O Who Is Nero's Age 

NSFW

SDT! Vergil (NSFW)

Dante and Vergil: Giving Their Male S/O Oral Sex (NSFW)

Dante and Vergil: Spanking As Foreplay, Giving and Receiving (NSFW)

What Dante, Trish, and Vergil Do When They Want To Get Intimate With Their S/O (NSFW)

Dante and Vergil Having SDT!Sex With A Devil-Triggered! AFAB! S/O (NSFW)

V 

Vergil and V with a S/O Who Can Summon A Persona

Dante, Vergil, and V

Personality Traits The DMC Boys Fall For

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Nephil! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Trans! FTM!S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With Their Dhampir! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With Their FBI Agent! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Thick-Thighed S/O 

Dante, Vergil, and V With Cosplay Hobbyist! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Strong & Badass S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Wonder Woman! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Badass But Lazy! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With Their Authorities Angel! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Part-Time Pro-Cosplayer! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Strong And Very Closed Off! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With A S/O With Scarlet Witch’s Powers

Dante, Vergil, and V Watching One Piece With Their Male S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V  Being “Jet-Pack Cuddled” By A Short!S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With An Amnesiac! S/O That Still Loves Them

What Would Dante, Vergil, and V Do If Someone Made Their S/O Cry

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Physically Weak But Intellectually Badass! S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V With A S/O With Muscle Twitches Due To Antidepressants 

Dante, Vergil, and V Playing the Pocky Game

Dante, Vergil, and V Getting Their Hair Stroked

Dante, Vergil, and V Taking Care Of Stray Animals

Gifts Dante, Vergil, and V Would Give To Their S/O

Dante, Vergil, and V Taking Care Of Their Baby Daughter

Dante, Vergil, and V Going To Their Kid’s Volleyball Tournament

Dante, Vergil, and V Taking Their Children To The Amusement Park 

Dante, Vergil, V, and Nero’s Favorite Traditional Chinese and Japanese Foods and Drinks

(Dante, Vergil, and Nero On The Maury Show)

PART I

PART II

PART III

NSFW

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Virgin! S/O (NSFW)

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Thick-Thighed S/O (NSFW)  

Dante, Vergil, and V With A Friend With Benefits (NSFW)

Dante, Vergil, and V With A S/O That’s Always Horny (NSFW)

Dante, Vergil, and V With A S/O With Small Boobs (NSFW-ish)

Dante, Vergil, and V Doing The 69 Position With A Timid!S/O (NSFW)

Dante, Vergil, and V Catching Their S/O Touching Themselves (NSFW)

Dante, Vergil, and V With A S/O That Likes Being Called Kitten (NSFW)

What Dante, Trish, and Vergil Do When They Want To Get Intimate With Their S/O (NSFW)

Dante, Vergil, and V With A S/O That Blurts Out They Masturbated To The Thought Of Them (NFSW)

Nero 

Ticking Nero

Raising Nero As His Mother

Being Best Friends With Nero

Nero and Chewing Gum: A Concept

Poly! Nero, Kyrie, And Male S/O Relationship

How Nero Might Become Evil: A Pysch-Analysis

Nico And Nero’s Friendship (Knife Brother Requested!)

How Nico, Nero, and Dante Would Handle Anti-Maskers 

Nero With A Black! Half-Demonic! Angel-like! Best Friend

Dante, Vergil, V, and Nero’s Favorite Traditional Chinese and Japanese Foods and Drinks

Lady

Dante, Vergil, and Lady Cuddling Their Male S/O

Trish 

What Dante, Trish, and Vergil Do When They Want To Get Intimate With Their S/O (NSFW)

Nico 

Nico And Nero’s Friendship (Knife Brother Requested!) 

How Nico, Nero, and Dante Would Handle Anti-Maskers 

Fully Written Works 

Dante 

Stuck Thinking About You

Summary:  Dante or Vergil gets immobilized in some embarrassing or inconvenient way during a job and then (Y/N) pays them company until they can be freed. How about they have a crush on (Y/N) and they don't know it is returned until the end?

A For Apple, Or A For IKEA?

Summary: In which Vergil goes to IKEA with Dante to get a new table. But at what cost?

Don’t Leave Baby In The Corner

Summary: Dante and you talk about wanting kids or not while waiting for the pregnancy test.

Nothing Hurts When I’m With You

Summary: With Dante hurt from a demonic attack, the two of you seek shelter and each other's warm company in a cave.

草莓珍珠奶茶-Strawberry Pearl Milk Tea

Summary: You take Dante out for his first bubble tea experience.

Somebody Else’s; Nobody’s (ANGST)

Summary: Dante hates to think about you with somebody else, yet he still says no to your love. Guess he's just a coward, and now he's picturing your body with somebody else.

NSFW

Velvet Devotion (NSFW)

Summary: You don't know what you do to him. How you hold onto him in the dead of night, nails raking his skin. How he feels held by you. On velvet sheets, he finds he is worshipped with the softest of affections.

Vergil 

Of Lacking Specatcle(s)

Summary: Vergil is a lot of things. Vergil is the Dark Slayer, The Alpha and The Omega, and the eldest son of Sparda. Vergil is also….in need of glasses?

Knock-Off Ring Franchise

Summary: Vergil and Dante leave Vergil’s S/O in the shop with a TV and a strange VCR tape. Drama ensues.

Stuck Thinking About You 

Summary: Dante or Vergil gets immobilized in some embarrassing or inconvenient way during a job and then (Y/N) pays them company until they can be freed. How about they have a crush on (Y/N) and they don't know it is returned until the end? 

A For Apple, Or A For IKEA?

Summary: In which Vergil goes to IKEA with Dante to get a new table. But at what cost?

NSFW

The Passion In Rivalry (V/Reader/Vergil)(NSFW)  

Summary: Vergil separating V from himself with Yamato. Threesome with reader ensues.

Do I Want To Know, Do You Feel Held By Me?(NSFW)

Summary:  All in all, Vergil is a tempered blade. Plunged into heat and left to the cold, he is only perfected with each night you come to his room.

He Wanted War, She Wanted Peace; In Pieces, They Collide(NSFW)(ANGST)

Summary: She pursued him, the demon in a human shell. Their time together meant no good, a match to silk and feathers, devastation imminent.

V

TikTok Stardom

Summary:  V and Y/N try to survive the four attempts Dante takes to be TikTok famous, one of the TikToks surprisingly working out in the end.

TIkTok Stardom II: The Lovers Strike Back

Summary:  Dante challenges (Y/N) to make a better TikTok than him, not knowing the secret weapon has a cane, secret dance skills, and an ever-present smirk on his face.

Verona Serenade

Summary: V takes you out on a date, and it’s poetry as always.

i died, and was born in the spring; i found you, and loved you, again

Summary: After a loss, comes the regrowth of roots once thought destroyed by the tides of time. A story in which V kisses you softly and Vergil holds onto you tightly.

NSFW

O Tempter, O The Sea (NSFW)

Summary: You cry out for the sea, yet you do not expect an answer back.

~Sweet Erotic Angel Baby~ (NSFW)

Summary: There is vitality in vulnerability. Even in your soft kisses, there is something with a bite that he craves to feel.

The Passion In Rivalry (V/Reader/Vergil)(NSFW)  

Summary: Vergil separating V from himself with Yamato. Threesome with reader ensues.

Nico

Heartline Driver, Front Seat Lover

Summary: At the end of a road trip begins a new path for you and Nico. But first, you have to turn on the ignition.

Series

Devil May Grind: Magic Mike! AU

Dante/Reader

Series Summary:  From a surprise rendezvous to a male strip club on your birthday to a private dance, you end up seeing eye-to-eye rather than eye-to-groin with a cowboy stripper named Dante Sparda.

PART I- Can You Touch This?(AFAB) (NSFWish)

Summary: A shy and short homebody celebrating your birthday with friends, you end up somewhere you'd never expect: a male strip club. And what you'd also never expect is a certain red-devil/cowboy stripper to lay his special treatment on you.

Vergil 

{KEEP AN EYE OVER YONDER}

V

{KEEP AN EYE OVER YONDER}

Keeping Up With A Himbo

ALL OF THE SPARDA BOYS

Series Summary: A series of domestically fluffy snippets where the s/o of a Sparda learns just how much of a himbo their lover is.

Dante (I)- Change Of Hands

Vergil (I)- Lost In The Sauce

AWAS

Dante/Reader/Vergil (NO SPARDACEST)

Series Summary: Dante and Vergil meet a mysterious and powerful being with a painful past and an even deadlier endgame.

(AWAS Has A Separate Masterlist)

Please Let This Cowboy Know If She’s Missed Any Of Your Favorites. She Ain’t Too Good At Book-Keeping. 

[nyxation]

SBI + Witch-Hybrid Reader

C OR CC: Character

WHO: Sbi

PRONOUNS: They/Them

WARNINGS: Swearing | Character Death [Mentions]

Okay, so I imagine the reader has vitiligo-type skin, like patches of the grey witch skin ya' know?

Like it's grey and makes them look sick in some places

Reader could probably have one dull purple eye

Also, cats would probably be very attracted to them, like reader just come home one day with 50 cats and Phil doesn't even question it anymore because 'For fuck sake [Y/N] it's the fifth time this week and it's only Tuesday'

Also, reader can trade with villagers easier, they get the good stuff for less money (Techno using this to his advantage and getting items for insanely good prices) this armor is seven gold? nevermind one coal will do

Reader being a master at potion-making and enchanting, trying to teach sbi how to enchant, and just

none of them being very good at it

first off, Wilbur's just shit, okay he got bane of arthropods seven different times. Bitch what?

Tommy's next, he's also shit but not as bad as Wil, he only messed up five or six times, but he was like ten when you showed him so, you can't really blame him for being bad

Wilbur though he was like 16/17-ish so he has no excuse

Techno was okay, a lot better than Wil and Tommy, he got the enchanting down very fast, it was bane of arthropods but he got flame on his next try so reader didn't have to help him too much.

Phil was fine, he struggled with the inscribing but overall he did well (he already knew how to enchant but he wanted to support you and your passion)

Also reader with one of the big mumza hats with the veil on it, just, 6-year-old [Y/N] with a massive hat that they stole from their goddess mom, and it's way too big and keeps falling in front of their face

it probably still does, and the veil is so long it drags along the floor like a train, Tommy would probably steal it from you {like a raccoon}

[Y/N] being the cool aunt/uncle/Auncle/(other name for 'sibling-of-my-parent'), to Fundy and Micheal and taking care of them when Wil and Sally/Tubbo and Ranboo were away

or ftm![Y/N] giving Fundy their old binder (or sewing some for him), helping him bind, setting timers, giving him some of their hoodies, and just being there for him when/if he gets dysphoric

Okay so onto the lore,

If Reader joined L'manberg, they would probably be put in a safe, isolated area, not too far from the center but still pretty far

I doubt Wilbur would have told them about the war, so how did Reader find out?

Maybe it was when you intercepted a letter from Dream, a declaration of war, now that surprised you

Or was it when you little brother showed up at your house rambling a mile a minute about Dream, War, L'manberg

Wait did he just say he died?

You sit him down and start cleaning and healing his wounds while he re-starts his story, starting at the creation of L'manberg and ending with his death moments prior

"So Dream-"

"Shot me, yeah"

"And Wilbur-"

"Did nothing to protect me, no"

"... What the fuck"

You might just take a cannon life, you had always been a more peaceful soul, never really enjoyed the fighting Techno did, or at least not in the way Techno did.

You never thought it was very fun that was about to change

If Tommy hadn't stopped you, you might have just destroyed Dream, and every other person there, family or not.

Onto the election, mainly the results

I doubt Schlatt would banish you, especially since your a witch, he would need potions (which are like alcohol I guess)

So you'd probably leave a join Pogtopia, there would probably be a massive fight between you and the cabinet just so you could leave

They'd probably put you on house arrest, despite not fighting very often you were strong and your potions made it harder to get to you

So you were a pretty well rounded fighter

And they were definitely wary because of you relation to Techno

You breaking out and immediately going to Pogtopia

Wilbur being so relieved that his little sibling is okay

He puts you straight to work, helping ready the weapons

Forgetting that your now a wanted person

Okay, onto Wilbur's death

That fucked you up

Your dad just stabbed your brother and it hurt

Sure the explosion was a little far but killing him?!

Why

You really didn't know and didn't want to stay and find out

So you left, you ran far away into the deepest caves cuz who tf would find you here?

Ranboo

Ranboo found you

Somehow, this bitch is like 8 feet tall how did he fit in the cave

Anyway, he told Tubbo and Tubbo brought the (newly made) Butcher Army to your house, and since you were a criminal

You were supposed to be executed

You escaped before reaching L'manberg and ran to Techno's house

He had told you about Phil through an earlier conversation, he tried to help you

But you lead the army to his house, you also met Ghostbur for the first time

"Is that Wilbur?"

"Ghostbur actually"

"But is he Wilbur? "

"I guess, he's part of brother, like his soul almost"

"Does that mean Wil's with momma now?"

This definitely wasn't what the army expected to hear

"Your siblings?!"

"Yes!" "No"

"Don't deny it big brother, I'm amazing"

Maybe hitting the blood god whole you couldn't run wasn't the best idea you've had

But it certainly wasn't the worst

Ya' know what was the worst?

Breaking off the presidents horn during your escape

Now you were a criminal and a bad person

You and Phil made up and you hung out with Ghostbur

You were happy, Dream was finally put in prison and you didn't have to worry anymore

Your family was back - Broken and no longer the kids you once were - but back

Until Ghostbur dissappears during his visit to Dream

[emerianonymous]

internalized transphobia (ftm)

Dear 15-year-old me, 

You learned about the LGBTQ+ community at 14. You basically just knew that “gay people existed” in your small town. You didn’t even have a clue about trans people.

But that weird feeling you’ve been feeling all your life? 

That’s gender dysphoria. 

You were confused for a while, but then it clicked. And, in a weird way, you knew all along and just didn’t want to admit it. 

 It felt great, figuring that out- like something was finally falling into place.

But it was also really fucking terrifying. 

And guess what, for the next few years after that realization, you shoved not just the trans part of yourself further into the closet, but EVERY part of yourself. Since you were so scared of being trans, you began to hate who you were to begin with. 

You hated the parts of you that were feminine- not just the body parts you were dysphoric, but parts of your personality- the fact that you liked pink, you love fashion, etc.

You hated that your transition wasn’t exactly like other people’s transitions, because you were confused for a while (which is fine). You began to watch those awful ‘trans cringe’ compilations on YouTube. Even worse, you began to read the comments on those videos.

You tried very hard disappear. Turn off that blue-haired, fun-loving self that you were. And you very nearly succeeded. You went on full on survival-mode- feeling torn to pieces because of not feeling like you’re trans enough or cis enough, and it wasn’t pretty. 

Trust me. 

But then you came out.

 And yeah, I’m not going to sit here and pretend that was easy (there was a lot of tears and a lot of frustration), but here I am, still here at 19-almost-20.

I started T.

The right people accept me.

I’m in college. 

I’m getting to a point where I’m not feeling horrible about who I am every day.

But guess what: I think a part of me is trying to get back to you.

Yeah, you. Because 15-year-old, confident-ish, blue-haired, I-like-pink you is pretty rad. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.

Love,

19-year-old me

[mariaiscrafting]

I read that long answer you had to that ask about gender and I just started typing and this happened aaaa

I wanted to say if you don't already know Oyèrónkẹ́ Oyèwùmí, I think you would enjoy her work!

She goes into a lot about how gender categories were diverse, not necessarily tied to anatomy and in many ways very, very porous when compared to the European system.

If you wanna dig into the meat and bones of gender as a social construct theory, she definitely gets in to it and does not skirt around the fact that when discussing it things like colonialism and capitalism cannot be ignored.

I'd also suggest looking into how anarchists view gender and it's origins/function 👉👈 totally not biased because I am an Anarchist but some of the most refreshing perspectives on gender across the board have come from trans anarchists just saying :')

And bro I won't lie when I first realized I wasn't cis, I felt trapped in a box and like I had to have a full grasp of who I was and what labels/pronouns I wanted to use immediately- I had to justify myself at every turn to cis people and if I was even slightly flaky they would corner me in the box of cis-ness that comes with ideas like "male brains and female brains" and "born in the wrong body" and transmedicalist language among all these other things we often hear flying around as explanations to debate the very existence of trans people.

When I learned about the connection of pre-colonial gender systems to queer and trans emancipation/resistance- I won't lie to you, it got a lot easier to understand who I was and what it looked like to both be trans and fight for trans rights/visibility. Like it fostered as much of a sense of liberation as it did a quiet sense of frustration when I started reconstructing the very idea of gender in my mind down to the very definition.

I was mostly frustrated because I realized much of the language trans people, especially young trans people, use to talk about themselves was being dictated by cis people just so cis people could "understand" it's just... Not good. Like plain and simple.

I'd argue cis people aren't owed some easy way to discuss or swallow down something they will never understand, I don't even care if that sounds harsh- but cis people discussing gender around trans people is a lot like watching someone try to put the square block through the circle in one of those kid's puzzles. It's cumbersome and embarrassing smh.

Sorry that was super long and a pretty random thing to drop in but I enjoyed reading what you thought about the theories of gender and your own personal dealings with gender identity/ how you view expression vs. identity! It's neat to see how others look at all that stuff and how their ideas of it grow and evolve over time.

And I think if you're questioning things and feeling like you're not cis- go buck wild dude! Keep reading up on things, and move into your own individual understanding of your gender- that's honestly super awesome and I wish you the best of luck!!!!

This is honestly probably the best ask I’ve ever gotten. I’m 100% going to check her out, tysm for the rec. On queer anarchists, I fucking love their perspectives on gender. Some of the best shit I’ve read on gender came from trans anarchists, and it’s so refreshing compared to what I usually have read in an academic setting - that is, mostly cis ladies�� writings lol.

Honestly, I think one of the primary things that got me to start questioning my own gender in the first place was when I broke away from the language cis people use to rationalize the trans experience. Like, before, when it was explained to me as “born in the wrong body” and “always knew I was x” and in terms of binary trans experiences only and in the perspective of transmedicalism, etc., etc., I was like nope, no way I’m trans. But once I got rid of those kinda reductive notions on gender and what it means to be trans, and started learning from trans people who were redefining gender and sexuality for themselves, I realized that it’s not as simple as that - that I didn’t have to fit into this box of the binary trans ftm who has dysphoria and feels like they were born in the wrong body and figured it out via wearing pants and playing basketball when I was little and wants to bind and get things like facial realignment surgery, etc. Like, the subject is so much more fluid and complex than what I was first taught, and it was just so fucking freeing to finally realize that.

But anyways, yeah, I would say, right now, that I am “cis-ish”, I guess, just because I don’t know where I stand and am uncomfortable with about 101 things when I think about my own body and gender and mind. Honestly, I look at younger people who aren’t even that much younger than me - only by, like, 3-5 years, tops - and the culture they’ve got going online, in Discord and Twitter and Tumblr and Tik Tok and I’m fucking glad that so many of them seem so comfortable with the fluidity of the subject, so much more comfortable than I am, and that they can adapt so easily to differing theories, identities, perceptions of others and theirselves, expressions, names, pronouns, etc. Lol that’s kinda the point of ease and comfort I hope to reach one day, I suppose.

But seriously ty for this ask :) It makes me feel less alone, and I am for sure going to check out your recommendations!

[theaetherhealerffxiv]

Hey everyone! Swath and Mun here, I wanted to address something that I get asked a lot in game - and wanted to turn it into something educational! So here we go on a instructional lesson about the differences between the fetish F*ta and Intersex/FTM (trans) characters!

Please know I don’t want to create any discourse I just want to educate!

Now, Let me preface that I am a (mostly) CIS female (uh, moogle I guess.) I have tendencies to lean toward intersex things even though biologically I am fully ‘female’ and am rather happy with being such. So, I in no way speak for anyone that is trans or truly intersex. Everything I know is from educating myself, and having wonderful people around me.

“Wait Mun, We’h get asked ah lot if I’mma ah, whatevah tha fetish ish, wha is it?”

HOHOHO I’m glad you asked my lovely boy, lets start off with some definitions!

Just a warning: As these are definitions I will not be censoring the word for them, my apologies! 

Futa, is short for Futanari: specifically a fetish that is accounted to the Anime/Manga [Hentai] industry. It features a character [usually female presenting] with female bodies and a penis. 

Usually the term used in these cases are hermaphrodites.  But in essence they are not true hermaphrodite. 

Intersex in contrast is: when a person is born with reproductive or sexual anatomy that does not quite fit the usual societal definitions of male or female. [Please note there are categories within intersex for simplicity sake I will not go into here.]

These people can grow up feeling like their assigned gender is incorrect in various cases they at birth are put under the knife to ‘correct’ their genitals to ease the parents/doctors concerns. These people can also have varying conditions/genital combinations which I will link below in my reference section. 

Transgender is when: a person whose gender identity does not correspond to that persons biological sex assigned at birth.

I’m sure by this point you are saying ‘mun this is great and all but why is it so bad to call a intersex/trans character f*ta? Isnt that what they are? If they have a penis + female form?’

My answer to that is no! Please do not call a Trans/Intersex character a f*ta. Those who participate in the fetish will usually clearly have it in their tags. While trans/intersex characters will clearly state it in theirs. While participating in the fetish f*tanari is not a bad thing many people within the trans community feels that it is a slur and thus we come to the next portion of my talk manners!

Please do not send a tell straight out to someone who’s tags say intersex/trans asking if they are a f*ta. 

Not everyone is kind online and for the safety of everyone it is truly best if you work up to the question differently: or at least politely ask.

Proper way: “Excuse me, is your character a f*tanari?” 

Incorrect way: “You a f*ta?”

Generally if their tags do not state it the answer will be no. Or, there is a possibility that they will out right block you straight away. Usually for their mental health. Not everyone is say as kind as I with these things, people can get offended, people will ignore you, f*ta’s are a clear community in the RP community and that’s fine, but again I have to reiterate that it will likely 100% be in their bio/tags. 

Now I’m sure you are saying “Yeah mun thats great but why are you bringing this up all now.” 

Mostly because I constantly get asked this in game rather rudely. 

I don’t mind answering. But Swath is not a fetish character: he is a character with real health conditions (that have been slightly fantasized so that his model can be how he actually looks for my sake). His plights exist in the real world, real people are born with his conditions and they are not something to turn into a fetish. 

By all means enjoy f*tanari, if you enjoy the fetish please don’t think I condemn you. Far from it, but within the spectrum of rp/the online world fetish’s are often looked upon in a rude/demanding fashion. I am all down for a conversation but I will not take kindly if you demand to have sex with my character because he has boobs and a penis. 

That being said here are my references if anyone is curious and have a wonderful day/evening! If anyone has anything constructive to add please do so in the comments! 

Definitions:

https://www.dictionary.com/browse/transgender

https://www.plannedparenthood.org/learn/sexual-orientation-gender/gender-gender-identity/whats-intersex

https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/futanari

Further reading on Intersex: 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intersex

https://medlineplus.gov/ency/article/001669.htm

[ferns-garden]

Hey @ all Sally Face kins

Hey it’s ya boy Sal Fisher here!

I’m looking for pretty much everyone! Doubles are completely fine!

Please, please DM me if any of this sounds familiar! (Or reply to this post and I’ll DM you!)

In my TL, everyone survived and moved in together after high school. There was no “Sally Face Killer” or anything, but Todd, Larry, Ash, and I still investigated paranormal activity around Nockfell.

I was also trans (FtM) if that helps any!

Memory dump under the cut if you’re interested!

I know these are just... all Ash and Larry but I’m still looking for Todd and Neil too! I just don’t have any clear mems of them yet!!

Ash and I would go out to Wendigo Lake to watch the sun set and look at stars!

She knew a bunch of them so we'd just lay in the grass while she pointed out all the different constellations and stuff.

We'd go on my birthday too, to see if we could find Sagittarius. (Sometimes we could, but it got super cloudy sometimes cause winter)

I just remember lying in the grass and holding her hand while we looked at stars.

I would take my prosthetic off while we were stargazing.

Ash and I used to lay on the roof to look at stars sometimes, if we didn't feel like going down to the lake.

I borrowed a good amount of Ash’s clothes (skirts and more feminine stuff than I owned)

I didn’t give a single shit about gender roles ok

Ash used to try to put makeup on me, but it was hard to do with all the scars. She eventually just decorated my prosthetic to give me makeup.

Once, Larry and I were at some countryside-ish place and there were these wooden fences around. Larry jumped one and I was like "Woah I wanna try!!" Larry was like "Sal no you're tiny you'll fall"

I did it anyway cause I'm a rebel 

I slipped and hurt my arm tho 

He was right but I'll never admit it

I would go on really fucking long walks for 0 reason other than that I wanted to walk around

Sometimes Larry or Ash would join me and we'd just like. Walk a bunch

Since I also had 0 concept of time I would just keep walking for ages 

One time I scared Larry cause I got, like, halfway or so to Wendigo Lake without realizing

He thought I got yoinked or died or smth 

Nope, I just had no idea where I was going and Just Started Walking

It was better when I had supervision (Basically Larry or Ash walking with me), because the other person would be like "Sal it's been an hour, let's head home" 

Not only did it stop me from getting lost (Even though I wouldn't. I had an oddly good sense of where to go and how to get there) it also stopped me from walking for just a full day

Ash and Larry both loved playing with and/or styling my hair, and I loved having it played with!

 Larry used to play with my hair if he had nightmares or couldn't sleep or stuff like that 

He said it just helped him sleep, but didn't know why 

So I let him cause I adored having my hair played with

We usually both fell asleep and I'd wake up with like half a braid or smth

The first time Ash ever saw my face was actually while I was crying

I was having a panic attack or something of the sort

She was trying to help me not panic, but I still had my mask on

So she was like "Sal take your mask off, it's gross, you're getting tears all up in there" 

I, of course, was like "No I'm gross you'll hate me" 

Ash was having none of that shit and said if I didn't take it off, she would

So I took it off and kept my face down because I was super self conscious

Ash just like gently cupped my face with both hands and made me look up at her 

She looked at me for a minute and didn't flinch or anything

Then she kissed my forehead and called me beautiful and that just made me sob even harder

I used to go on roadtrips with Larry & Ash!

(I think they were roadtrips? Maybe we just drove a lot) 

I'd almost always take the back seat 

Ash and Larry would just play music back and forth to just, like, show the other some new music, I guess 

I'd either stretch out in the back seat or stare out the window and disassociate a bit 

Larry and Ash caught on pretty much every time I was thinking too hard & upsetting myself or smth 

Ash would usually be like "Hey, Sal, you alright? Wanna play a song or two?" to get me out of my own head 

WHEREAS LARRY WOULD JUST GRAB MY LEG/ARM AND STARTLE ME OUT OF MY OWN HEAD 

I would squeak/yelp every time cause I was Jumpy

(plus I thought abt ghosts a lot so my brain would go "!!!! ISSA DEMON!!!!!!!!!!")

[scriptlgbt]

I have a character that is a FtM, he experiences dysphoria and is on T but has not undergone any related surgery. At one point, an apocalypse of sorts happens, and as a result for a period of several months to possibly a year he has no access to T. I wanted to know what sort of effects this, as well as getting back on it afterwords, could have on him, physically, mentally, or especially in relation to his dysphoria, as I do not want to misrepresent these things by mistakenly assuming. Thank you!

Answered: Can a trans man stop taking T?

Answered: What is dysphoria like?

Answered: Getting hormones during an apocalypse  

- mod nat

As for what he physically/psychologically goes through, it’s worth remembering that each time your hormones change drastically you essentially go through puberty, which is what happens when someone enters adolescence, go through the menopause, lose parts of their genitals (testes or ovaries) for whatever reason, or if they start/stop HRT. So depending on when he first started HRT he would have gone through his natural puberty 1, starting HRT - puberty 2, having to stop HRT which would switch his dominant hormone back to estrogen - puberty 3, and then puberty 4 when he starts taking T again. Poor kid.

- Mod Emery

I want to add also, because I can’t believe I didn’t make the connection, I’ve had to go on and off hormones at least 3 times. It’s happened because of different issues with executive dysfunction (disabilities made me have issues getting to my clinic and arranging stuff) and insurance initially rejecting me after being on it for 3 months at some point. 

Emotionally it was mainly draining more than anything, and kind of invalidating as especially with my nonbinaryness, people tend to only believe I’m “really trans” if I can prove it by explaining what hoops and medical bs I jumped through to be trans enough by their standards. (Which is toxic and cissexist.) 

It also affected my mental health but I can’t really put my finger on what it did. I’ve heard many people say that testosterone made them angry and estrogen made them sad. I don’t know if that translated to me I think I only ever got actually angry was when I was of it, because I was angry about being off it. I felt more like I had to overompensate but I never had the energy to.

Physically the first things that change are: 

weight redistribution (fat seems to go from hips and chest to stomach and back for me and then vice versa when off), 

appetite (bigger on testosterone), 

acne (which varies from person to person, but has been an extreme issue for me on and off testosterone because that’s just my genes I guess)

libido

energy levels (for me anyway - when estrogen dominant I have been anemic a lot, which testosterone pretty much cured)

muscles (quick to build on testosterone, but generally don’t really deplete with estrogen unless something else makes that happen, like hospitalization)

also, underreported but very true: your body odour smells completely different depending on what your hormones are. not that one smell is definitely ‘estrogen body odour’ etc, but when you switch you will notice that your own distinct BO smells very different from what it once was. testosterone tends to make it stronger but I think that’s likely related to the acne point - more sebum production probably = stronger BO? idk I’m not a medical expert

Also menstruation stopped within around 4 months for me, and then after being on it for maybe 7-9 months-ish, I went off it for maybe 1-3 months again and no menstruation happened during that time, acne and appetite didn’t really go down too fast or noticeably (it would have been gradual, I’m sure it happened though because it did pick up upon returning). Libido tapered within a month and weight redistributed back. I was tired and my POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome) was pretty bad in that time. 

Also genitalia does change on testosterone but without getting into too much detail, I don’t think it really changed when getting off testosterone other than things which would be affected by the libido category. (…Boners. This is about boners.) 

Also my actual weight (the number on the scale) has fluctuated a lot, but I can’t really testify about that without explaining how my medications (and the bracket of poverty I live in) also have a massive impact on that. Overall I know that I’ve gained a normal amount for puberty in the past year, and gained as much fat as muscle.

- mod nat

[michiigii-writes-mysme]

Masterlist!

I guess I’ll separate by series?  I tend to do series…

I might mark ratings.  G = General.  PG = Somewhere between General and Teen.  T = Teen/Content is getting edgy.  M = Mature.  NSFW = Not Safe For Work.  If not rated, it’s probably G.

If there’s no link, it’s a WiP.

If you don’t want personal-ish posts, blacklist that one smiley that I can only do on my phone.  I tag all the personal-ish posts with that.

I’ll start with fics.  Headcanons towards the end.  If you want headcanons for one specific person, try their pairing or name tag. (I’ll list them on the bottom, here, so you can just click.)

Also:  something all my followers should read!

Fanfic series:

Miscarriage Scares

Zen - “Five Steps” (PG)

Epilogue

Yoosung - “Sweetie” (G)

Epilogue

Jaehee - “Two Buns” (G)

Epilogue

Jumin - “Tremors” (PG for senswality.)

Epilogue

Seven - “Positive and Paint” (T for referring to stuff)

Epilogue

Saeran (M for swearing)

“Invitation to a Tea Party”

“The Mad Hatter, Expecting”

Epilogue

Good Morning, RFA

Zen - “Morning Run” (NSFW)

Yoosung - “Early Class” (T)

Jaehee

Jumin - “A Morning with Mr. Han” (M)

Seven - “His Specialty is Pancakes” (G)

Saeran - “Twelve Hours”

@mysticmessimagines’s Valentine’s Week (FLUFF.)

Zen - “Little Beasts and Where to Hide Them”

Yoosung - “Crash in the Night”

Jaehee - “Friday Night Drama”

Jumin - “Kompromise”

Seven - “Ten Years Later”

Saeran - “Unknown Connection”

V - headcanons for his route

RFA Jealousy

Zen - “Jealous Wolf” (NSFW)

Yoosung - “Blame Junseo” (NSFW)

Jaehee

Jumin - from Jumin x MC week

Seven

Saeran

Most to least hc between Jumin, Yoosung and Zen.

MC believes RFA+SV will inevitably fall out of love with them

Zen

Yoosung

Jaehee

Jumin

Seven

Saeran

V

“I Lost You” series (RFA boys + V dream that MC passed away)

Zen

Yoosung

Jumin

Seven

V

Bonus (I wrote it for me...)

Mystic Beauty and the Beast (Jumin x MC)

Part 1/?

Part 2/? - “Sisters”

Lovely Zen Week 2018

Day 1 - Home (theme:  Firsts)

Day 2 - theme: Rainy Days

Day 3 - theme: Insecurities

Day 4 - theme: Alternate Universe - the RFA are ballroom dancers

Day 5 - What Flowers Mean (theme: Flowers)

Day 6 - My Favourite Star (theme: Stars/Late Nights)

Day 7 - Strike a Pose (theme: Birthday)

Random oneshots

Yoosung

Happy Yoosung Day!

Saeran

Sundae Evening (birthday fic)

Headcanons!

Zen headcanons

Jaehee with a pre ftm MC

Jumin headcanons

does Jumin Han is virghin?

Choi twin headcanons

RFA - most to least affectionate

RFA - most to least “who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?”

RFA - favourite non-sexual activity with MC

RFA - if MC wanted to break up

RFA - most to least nervous on their wedding day

RFA - meeting MC’s amicable ex

RFA - wants to do the do, but MC is distracted

RFA - sees someone else kissing MC

RFA - walk in on MC doing naughty things to herself (NSFW)

RFA - quirky MC

RFA - calorie-counting MC

RFA - Cuddly Sleeper MC

RFA - MC just has to stop and stare

RFA - how do they eat?

RFA - relationship dealbreakers

RFAboys+S - “demiromantic MC”

RFAboys+VV - give MC a lapdance (surprisingly safe for work)

RFA+S - pet names

RFA+S - “Look what my baby can do!”

RFA+S - love languages (NSFWish)

RFA+S - first time with MC (NSFW)

RFA+S - making MC cry

RFA+S - weddings

RFA+S - proposals

RFA+S - canon-ish favourite things about MC

RFA+S - their ideal MC

RFA+S - MC wants an unusual piercing (flagged M for one of them)

RFA+S - worst fights with MC

RFA+S - removing socks is awkward (NSFW-ish)

RFA+S - kissed by MC when they aren’t together

RFA+S - grieving MC -> distant uncle

RFA+S - getting horny while MC’s friend visits for way too long (NSFW-ish)

RFA+S - Gossip!MC

RFA+V - foreign s/o

RFA+V - pickpocket MC

RFA+SV - if MC cheated on them

RFA+SV - most to least “inappropriate whispering”

RFA+SV - most to least “needs reassurance”

RFA+SV - with smol, jealous MC

RFA+SV - erections (NSFW)

RFA+SV - how to turn them on (NSFW?)

RFA+SV - MC getting laid off from her job

RFA+SV - react to MC taking care of a baby

RFA+SV - tsundere!MC

RFA+SV - MC gets an accidental dick pic (???)

RFA+SV - sensitive!MC cries because of a book

RFA+SV - sensitive!MC cries when her favourite anime ends

RFA+SV - most to least “can move on after MC dies”

RFA+SV - MC wants a tattoo (original post)

RFA+SV - shy, non-assertive MC

RFA+SV - MC and her toddler were abandoned by the father

RFA+SV - MC slaps them

RFA+SV - Relationship “problems” (contains NSFW)

RFA+SVan+MC - “A WILD, NAKED SEVEN APPEARS!)

RFA+VV - reactions if Unknown was successful in kidnapping MC

RFA+VV - give MC a lapdance (plus a follow-up ask)

RFA+3 - if they found out someone else confessed to MC first

RFA+3 - Nightmares

RFA+3 - how they make up after a fight with MC

RFA+3 - how they are before making up with MC

RFA+3 - MC sends them nudes while they’re at work (NSFW-ish)

RFA+3 - MC makes them blush

RFA+3 - reactions to MC’s near-death experience

RFA+3 - “How many kids do they want?”

RFA+3 - Cheesy MC

RFA+3 - Date at a theme park

RFA+3 - how they like to cuddle MC

RFA+3 - anime crossovers

RFA+3 - Happy New Year!

RFA+3 - favourite non-sexual activity

RFA+3 - disappointed in a non-academic child

RFA+SVRmc - Dragon hoards

Alternate Universes!

RFA in the Fullmetal Alchemist universe (modern)

RFA+SV - Goblin AU

RFA+SV - Kpop AU (not mine.  helping @hanmemyphone​)

RFA+SV - soulmate AUs

RFA+SV - supernatural creatures AU

RFA+SVR - musical AU

RFA+SVR - Clue (who killed Rika?)

RFA+3 in a fairy tale

RFA+3 - Zelda Universe

Yoosung art

RFA+3 - anime crossovers

RFA+3R - Cheese AU

If there were NO secrets between members at the end of Seven’s Route

Rika’s Coffee Shoppe

Zen

Yoosung

Rika’s Dance Academy

Zen

Jumin

Hospital AU

IT Seven

Special Route

Unknown

V

V route guesses (pre-Another Story)

Socially inept MC pickup lines

Jumin

Zen

Yoosung

Everyone to V, probably

Vanderwood

Random chats

Day One of the Casual Route

MC getting mad, probably

Zen thinking with his crotch

Zen - beach DLC idea

Zen - drunk MC, probably

Yoosung x MC4 baking

Post-game Yoosung with a student MC be like

Yoosung and MC in a fight

Jumin and MC - Halloween costume

How Jumin and V probably named Elly

707 liks MC

Saeran x MC awkward silence

MC to Ray “I thought you were dead?”

Songfic (ideas or otherwise)

RFA+SV “Broken Strings” by James Morrison

Screenshots of me torturing Zen (affectionately)

Arriving at Jumin’s place during his route

That first night with Jumin

Day 10 with Jumin (not a screenshot but still relevant)

Supporting Zen, but being insecure about it

Mystic Messenger fancast for the movie/TV series that will never happen

Zen

Yoosung

Jaehee

Jumin

Saeyoung/Saeran

V

Rika

Vanderwood

Excuses to hit up my ask box (it is literally always open)

No, seriously

Askbox rules

Colour me a boyfriend

Pairing headcanons

MM Ask Me

If I’m your Tumblr crush...

That one typeform

Fanfiction Work-in-progress Guessing Game (#wip guessing game)

#adorable asks

#make me choose

Mystic Messenger ask meme (tag is #BRING IT.)

#instrument asks

Ask the Writer (#QUESTION ME)

#200-ish prompts

#5 - Zen

#6 - Yoosung

#25/26 - Jaehee

#31 - Zen

#53 - Zen and Jumin

#65 - Jumin and Seven

#106 - Saeran

#131 - Saeran

#162 - Jumin

#183 - Seven

MysMe colour ask

Other Askbox-y Things/Meta

“Do you hate Rika?”

Jumin’s biological mother

Thoughts on Jumin and Rika

Does Jumin is virgin?

Future Reference:

MMRoundRobin

CG walkthrough/list

Jieun + Heejung = Zen?

Jumin x MC week

Day 1 - Alternate Universes

Day 2 - Realization

Day 3 - Forbidden Love/Secrets

Day 4 - Jealousy/Insecurities

Day 5

Day 6

Day 7

Mystic Writers Secret Santa (to me)

Cute ways to mark January 31, 2018

You have to want them (me ranting about ship wars in the MysMe fandom)

#Mystic Messenger Christmas - the tag for Christmas 2017

[y0ung-and-l0aded]

1-100, lets hope you dont take forever this time, :P

Haha hope this was timely enough for you anon.

1. Last kiss: Lol a while ago. Ummm May I think?

2. Last phone call: Today with my mom

3. Last text message: To Jose “Why was it miserable??” Guess he went to a bar last night and had a terrible time

4. Last song you listened to: “Night Moves” LOL

5. Last time you cried: Like an hour ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: YUP

7. Been cheated on: Yes

8. Self harmed: Yes

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: Yes

11. Been drunk and threw up: Only one time but the one time it happened it was baddd haha

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

12. had sex: Yeah

13. How many people have you had sex with this year? Two

15. Made a new friend: Yes! 

17. Laughed until you cried: Nah I don’t think so I don’t really do that

18. Met someone who changed you: Ummm yeah I guess so

19. Found out who your true friends were: Fuck yes (answer is I have none lol lml)

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Don’t think so but I’m sure it happened

26. What did you do for your last birthday: I used to work at a mall and the mall closed for the first time in a long time bc there was an awful snowstorm so I got to spend my bday snowed inside the house with my parents :)

27. What time did you wake up today: 10:25 am ish

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: DESTINY 2 PC RELEASE LEGGO 

30. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time: I think it was yesterday or the day before but I only have one sister and she lives half an hour away so

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Wish I didn’t fuck everything up all the time

32. What are you listening to right now: Family Guy haha

33. When is the last time you had sex: May I think (this was asked already?)

34. Who’s getting on your nerves right now: Ugh

35. Most visited webpage: YouTube

36. Favorite colour: Green

37. Nicknames: Mac Attack, Big Mac, Macaroon, etc.

38. Relationship status: Single and depressed !!!

39. Zodiac sign: Pisces 

40. Male or female: Male

41. Primary school: What? Is this asking where I went to school??? Bc no

42. Secondary School: No

43. High school/college: College was SUNY Potsdam and SUNY Oneonta

44. Eye color: Brown

46. Height: 4′11″

47. Do you have a crush on someone: Crush is an understatement more like hopelessly in love

48. What do you like about yourself: Not much

49. Piercings: My left ear

50. Tattoos: I have 8! 

51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS:

53. First piercing: My left ear I think three summers ago?

54. First best friend: Awww nostalgic, this girl Ashley I met in second grade, she was deff my first real best friend

55. First hookup: I’ve never had a hookup haha I’ve only been with people I’ve dated

56. First Bestfriend: This was just asked except this one is written incorrectly

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating: Nothing

60. Drinking: Orange Powerade 

61. I’m about to: Answer question 62

62. Listening to: Family Guy

63. Waiting for: My life to go well

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids?: Okay so like I always wanted to but now I really don’t think I do. I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately - like a lot - and I realized that even tho I used to want to I now only want to in order for my parents to have grandchildren. Which is stupid. At this moment I’m not able to be with the person I love, the only person I’d want to have kids with, so no I don’t want kids 

65. Get married? Yes and no, kind of goes along with the question above. When I was younger I really didn’t, and then I met Sara and then I met Meghan and I was like yeah I deff do but now since I’m single it’s clear to me I haven’t met the right person, so no not right now

66. Career: Who fuckin’ knows

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes: Idc

68. Hugs or kisses: It depends on your mood I guess

69. Shorter or taller: Taller lol

70. Older or younger: Younger

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: I don’t give two shits

73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive I guess? Idk I mean being loud at the right times is fun too haha

74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger: Nope

77. Drank hard liquor: Yes

78. Lost glasses/contacts: I’ve lost my glasses for like maybe 5 min at the most

79. Had sex: Yeah

80. Broken someone’s heart: Yes

82. Been arrested: No

83. Turned someone down: Yes

84. Cried when someone died: No

85. Fallen for a friend: Yes *sigh*

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: H A H A N O

87. Miracles: No

88. Love at first sight: No

89. Heaven: No

90. Santa Clause: Well of course

91. Kiss on the first date: Yes

92. Angels: No

93. How would you label yourself? Asian, FTM, nerd, loser, hopeless romantic, terrible person, born into the wrong time

94. Someone You Pray Everyday For: I don’t pray also I don’t like how Every Word In That Question Is Capitalized 

95. Did you sing today: Yeah

96. Who From All Your Ex’s have You Cared The Most About: I’m not answering that

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: I have no desire to go back in time

98. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For: I hope for the people I love most to have a good life

99. Are you afraid of falling in love? Kinda 

100. Do you like the way you look? Sometimes I’m like eh I guess I look okay for a 22 year old 4′11″ Asian man who looks like a twelve year old and other times I think I’m super unattractive

There ya go anon. Thank you for asking.