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And the other thought I had, as soon as this occurred to me: would fakeboys even exist in a world like this?

No one ever needs to get bred as badly as a fakeboy pumping herself full of testosterone. There are hardly any normal girls who need to see themselves curve and swell as much as a girl who's been trying to deny her nature does.

Girls: how soon do you think you'd be pregnant, if you could do it without having a child at the end? If you knew you could feel what true womanhood is like, and try being a "boy" again in a year, without any more responsibility?

And how much would you have believed, growing up, that that was something you could ever be - once you'd seen all the other would-be boys making the same choice?

Sometimes I wonder what the world would look like if pregnancy didn't necessarily result in making a person at the end. Say, for example, that there was some special supplement you needed in order to actually grow a baby - but without it, the placenta would still grow just as big as a baby would have.

There are so many girls who barely manage to stop themselves from getting fucked full - each one having to tell herself over and over that she has to be responsible, that she isn't ready to have a baby, that she doesn't have the money, or doesn't have the right partner, or needs to finish school, or or or... And all those excuses would go away. Girls, tell me: do you think you'd still be able to tell a man to pull out if the consequences were only pregnancy and birth?

And as for the men - well. A good man won't knock up just anyone because he cares about the life his children will have, and even a cad will worry about child support. If both of those were gone, what man would even think to do anything other than plant his seed?

Maybe most of all, though, it would change marriages. A man can only feed so many children, but without that constraint, who wouldn't keep his wife swelling over and over again? It would be a symbol of virility, and a sign that you'd kept her happy enough - or compliant enough - to give birth for you every year.

That isn't the world we live in - but it's not so very different, is it? If it weren't for the final consequence, the yearly cycle of a girl conceiving and birthing would be considered as commonplace as the monthly cycle of ovulating and menstruating.

Just another perfectly natural part of having a womb.

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I'm not usually too much of a verbally vulgar man, when I'm talking about what's between a girl's legs. I stick to the classics: "pussy", "cunt". It's obscene enough by nature, with the way it swells and opens up and drips; you don't need to gild the lily by calling it a "sopping gash" or some such.

But there's one that tempts me, especially when it comes to FtM girls: calling it her babyhole.

Vulgarity, after all, is about cutting through social pretenses: it reminds you that no matter what fine words you might use, you're still an animal that needs to shit and piss and fuck.

FtM girls have so many ways to play pretend with their words. "Front hole", "bonus hole", "boy pussy", "boy cunt". Dressing it up, trying to disguise it as something else.

But you know what that hole's for, don't you? It's the hole a man uses to fuck a baby into you, and the hole you'll use to push it out.

No matter how you try to dress it up, that's the kind of animal you are. The kind with a hole between your legs for taking cum and giving birth.

Remember that, when you feel that needy pulsing between your legs. Remember that, when you finally feel a man empty his balls into your babyhole.

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hey, i'm the trans guy anon who talked about hoping the gay guy who's been fucking me had knocked me up.

i didn't take plan b, and it's been long enough to take a pregnancy test at this point. sadly, it was negative. but this is the first time in my life where, even while anxious about the result, i WANTED it to be positive. all the other times i've tested after having unsafe sex, at the very core of my being i was hoping it was negative. impregnation was just a kink and at the end of the day i'm not sure i would have kept it if it'd been positive any of those other times- likely not, as the life instability and potential issues would have been too much for me. but this time? i wanted so badly for it to be positive. i wanted to be growing something new inside of myself. wanted to take care of my baby, growing it inside of me, changing so my body could support it. i have fantasized SO much about getting knocked up, about being pregnant. but this is the first time that want has stepped beyond just horny dreams and imagination. something in the core of my being wants to carry new life. i would look so beautiful, fertile and round like that.

i'm not sure i'm going to try to get knocked up but.... i might stop trying to avoid it.

(Previously)

Of course something in the core of your being wants to carry new life. You can reach down and put your hand over it.

I'm proud of you, Anon! You didn't conceive this time... but you did everything you needed to do. You spread your legs for a man, and didn't stop him from fucking you bare, and didn't do anything to prevent the natural consequences.

Most times, especially with T, it's not the first load of cum that does it - it's the decision to take cum, the yielding of your life plans to your body's desires. Your body may have been fertile before, but now your mind is, too.

You will look beautiful, full and round and nurturing. You will be transformed by the seed a man puts in you, altered day by day into a perfect little babymaker. You'll do what you were always meant to do.

And it's only a matter of time.

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butch anon from the last ask you answered here. i'm pretty strong, too, so being overpowered by a man set on using my holes would be humiliating. i'm so proud of my strength and dominance, thinking about having someone try and break me like that...

i have to admit, i did get off to your answer, pounding myself while imagining a man fucking me silly. i'm embarrassed but i came harder than i have in a while. i'm curious about what a real cock would feel like, unloading into me. i got wet again writing this

(Previously)

Oh, how I love butch bitches. So proud of being "strong" and "dominant" and "masculine", but it's only ever by comparison to other women - only a pretense you can keep up as long as you're trying to forget the existence of men.

But you can't really do that anymore, can you? Not now that you've started dreaming about having men inside of you. Now every time you fuck yourself, you're reminded that your whole persona as a dyke is just a shadow of real masculinity. Every time you imagine a man emptying his balls into you, you're reminded that you'll never get to do that to a woman - that you can only ever open up and receive it.

Maybe you should shy away from it, before it's too late. Try to block out these thoughts and deny your fantasies. Go back to fucking your girlfriend with your strap and pretend that that's all there is.

Or maybe it's already too late, and it's only a matter of time until you find out what real masculinity feels like.

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do you have a dni list anywhere? or kinks / fetishises you will not participate in? I can't seem to find it anywhere

The kinks list is here, linked in my pinned post, through perhaps not signposted as clearly as it could be.

I don't have a DNI - aside from minors, obviously - because I think "if you're a bad person, don't look at my blog" is a pretty pointless thing to post. However, I block people if they seem to be genuinely bigoted, if they knowingly interact with minors, or (very rarely) if it seems like they're in a really bad mental state and seeing my stuff might worsen that.

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I'm gonna be home alone for a bit more than 1 week soon. and I was wondering if you had any ideas or orders I should do to maybe learn to accept my real birth gender? I'm a trans man that's really into detrans kink, and I want to explore it more but I feel like i need someone to order me to do something lol.

I'm also on a waiting list to get a hysterectomy, but idk if it's the right time to get one rn,even though i will never want kids. I kind of miss my tits so maybe i should wait before having another surgery?

I'm not a virgin but I've never been fucked by a real man before and Idk if I'll... feel.. something different about myself if I do.

sorry if this was all over the place lol, kind of a shot in the dark here to see if you have something for me regarding this, maybe something with orgasm denial or mantras I need to repeat when masturbating or tasks I should do. I don't have many limits so pretty much anything goes!

really enjoy your content keep up the good work!

-home alone anon

Partly posting this to open it up for suggestions from my fakeboy followers, since I can hardly spend a fraction of as much time thinking about how to turn "boys" back into girls as you all do.

But here's one concrete order: spend some time naked in the "public" areas of your house, with your legs spread and your pussy wet. Take some pictures of yourself doing it, too. I want you to feel exposed, to be constantly reminded that your female body is something that's always with you, not something you can safely hide away, either behind clothes or in your bedroom.

And while you're doing that... touch yourself to the thought of a man filling you with cum. Think about how much you'll miss if you never really get to experience sex, in the way you were intended to - a bare cock pushing deep inside of you and filling your womb with seed. Think of how hollow you would be, if you sacrificed your womb on the altar of a delusion.

And then see if you really still want to be on that waiting list - or if you want to remove yourself from it while spread out and dripping wet, bare and vulnerable and female.

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Do you think you could knock up your girlfriend for me, if I came in your mouth?

It would have to be carefully timed, of course; my sperm may be potent, but they're not immortal. But if you knew just when she would get home, you could be sucking my cock practically until the moment the door opened.

Maybe tell her in advance that you have a special romantic time planned - that way, she'd be less likely to question you going down on her without saying a word. Or blindfolding her so that you could dribble my cum all over her pussy before fucking it into her with your tongue.

Do you think she would tremble, as you caressed her cervix with your cum-coated fingers? Would some primal part of her shiver with recognition of what was happening to her, even if her mind never knew?

Or would she just collapse against you when you were done - grateful for your affections, untouched by my cock, and already growing my child?

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Sometimes I think to myself: we're in a golden age of exploitable fakeboys, aren't we?

Everyone knows what being trans is, now - so "what if I'm really a boy" gets asked by girls who once it would never have occurred to. And in many places, it's accepted enough that "being a boy" is accessible even to girls who wouldn't really be able to face much social disapproval. But at the same time, it's marginalized enough to seem cool and countercultural.

Experiences with testosterone are common enough that trans "boys" have all seen the anecdotes about how it can turn you into a hairy beast of a man - but every story of "I was a butch dyke until T made me a submissive bitch desperate for a baby in my belly" still comes as a surprise.

It's the age of social media - so countless other fakeboys are just a click away, ready to help pull a new girl deeper as soon as she dips her toes in - and also the age of social media isolation, so instead of getting laid at parties, all the girls are at home touching themselves, getting more and more desperate for cock.

And maybe best of all: most men haven't even discovered this. It's as if just as many girls were ready to be groupies, but no one had heard about rock and roll. All you have to do is call a girl by the right set of pronouns - "he" or "she", depending on the girl and how wet she's gotten - and she'll be desperate to spread her legs for you. But the conservative guys are nearly all too clueless - and the liberal guys too scared or too pious - to take advantage.

It's perfect. It's a golden opportunity, like being in Haight-Ashbury with a guitar in the 60s.

And every time I think about it, I think to myself:

How many of them can I knock up before the moment passes?

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i'm a butch, i have a girlfriend and usually i top her. she's dabbled in teasing me but is to nervous to actually do more than that. usually i don't have a problem with it, i like eating her out and feeling her tighten around my fingers and cum around my strap, i get genuine excitement from it.

BUT. i get desperate, too, sometimes. sometimes, all i can think about is someone laughing at me when i try my usual tough dom act, bend me over, then dick me down so hard i forget i was ever into women. filling me up until my legs are shaking and i'm moaning for more

Well, little "butch", I'm laughing at you already.

Because you don't even mention the idea of getting another woman to do this for you, do you? You put on a tough dom act for your girlfriend, by your own admission, and she's too nervous to even give you that. But you know that it's a pale imitation, just like the strap-on you fuck her with; if you want the real thing, you need a man to give it to you.

You wouldn't be able to fight back, you know. Not even if you truly didn't want it, or you changed your mind. For all that you might seem strong and tough to the other girls, you wouldn't have a hope of matching up to a man who wanted to force his cock into you. You could bend over when he told you to, or you could fight him and lose.

But in a way, it might be easier to lose. Because then, when you're coming on his cock, you can tell yourself that it's not your fault - that you never had any choice. When you're helpless to stop the moans from escaping your lips, you can pretend that they're just moans of exhaustion - from having fought and been beaten - instead of your identity being fucked out of you.

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i'm an ftm, and i'd love to be heavily pregnant for pride. my belly hanging low, babies kicking in my womb while i chant "trans men are men". my trans pride shirt stretched across my belly, my tits wobbling with every step...

If you're really proud, you should be proud of what you are.

You should have pride in your swollen teats, far too heavy with milk to be bound or hidden.

You should have pride in your spreading hips, reconfigured for waddling and pushing out babies.

You should have pride in your womb, pushing your belly out and everything else in you aside in order to make room for a man's children to grow.

And if none of your boyish clothes are even close to fitting properly anymore? If you can't put on any of your old pride t-shirts without strangers gawking at how little of you it covers now?

That just means you're too proud to hide anymore.

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i love women but want to be bred and stuffed full so bad for a man, i call myself a lesbian but still give head and touch myself to the thought of being full.

But, but, but. "I love women", but it's always qualified; you can't ever quite commit to it. Women may have your heart and your mind, but everything below the rib cage is contested territory at best.

Some day - probably some day soon - you're going to give in, and spread your legs for a man. When you do, pick a straight one. That way, you can at least get fucked by someone who doesn't have to add a "but".

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been a follower for a long time. i think we might be mutuals, actually? i'll send my user in a followup ask but would prefer this overall stay anon.

i'm a trans guy. very recently started hooking up with an older guy who's only been with cis men before. he keeps telling me how much he loves my pussy, how he's always liked acting like the man in a relationship, how i'm a toy. he's been playing with my tits so much, and it feels so good. for the first time today he took me raw even though i half-heartedly told him we should use condoms, and filled me with so much cum. he asked afterward what we needed to do to keep me from getting pregnant but i... don't want to take plan b. i want to tell myself testosterone is enough. i want to make him truly be the only man in the relationship. i don't even know if he'd still be attracted to me, and he likely doesn't want a baby with a hookup he's only known for a few weeks. but at the same time, i want to watch myself swell with his seed. i was off t for a few years and now have been back on for a while (while presenting as a man the whole time) and it would be icing on the fucking cake to finally have the thing to forcibly detransition me be carrying a gay man's baby.

It's funny - it used to be a joke about straight people not understanding gay relationships, that they would ask "okay, but which one of you is the man in the relationship?" Obviously, it's both of you or neither.

You've been doing the best to put the lie to that, haven't you? There's a man in this relationship. And if anyone doesn't see that yet, they will.

I really do love how T is sort of birth control. It's birth control in the way that the rhythm method or pulling out is - just enough that you can lie to yourself and say that you're not really just fucking unprotected.

Just enough that you can pretend to yourself that all the work you've done to be a "man" won't be so easily undone.

I hope you didn't get Plan B, almost-Anon. I hope you got a pregnancy test. I hope you'll be showing me two pink lines.

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trans guy. had a guy cum bare in my pussy last night. jerking off every time i think about taking plan b instead of actually taking it.

i hope he knocked me up.

As a reminder, for the unfamiliar: Plan B works by delaying ovulation. If you've already released an egg, it does nothing.

"Plan B is less effective the longer you wait to take it" is true, but only on average, not because there's a gradual drop in effectiveness. For you, there's a moment. A moment when it goes from "not too late" to "too late". Even before you actually conceive, there's a moment where you can't stop yourself from getting pregnant.

I wonder what moment is for you, Anon. Maybe it passed while you were frantically touching yourself, thinking about his cum in your womb. Maybe it's passing as you read this.

Tick tock. Tick tock.

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*trigger warning: miscarriage*

I’m a trans man. I’ve been on t since I was seventeen and top surgery at nineteen. I’ve always been attracted to both men and women I think, mainly I dated women in my teens. For many years I believed I was a lesbian but I become more open over time and experienced more. I was quite a butch appearing individual until I figure out I was trans (I had a sheltered upbringing). When I was 19/20, I started experiencing with men.

I slept with three men in like 24 hours (cheers to mental breakdowns). Two were quite disappointing; first didn’t even make it inside before cumming— three strokes and he was done. ( he made the comment about never sleeping with a woman before. Wasn’t happy and kicked him out for it) Second, we used protection and I let him cum in my ass— so just a waste of a condom. Then third; he wore a condom but didn’t cum. He stayed the night and in the morning, we had bareback sex. Cum twice in me.

Well from that one night stand, I got pregnant. Like for real. Just fully conceived on the first time getting creampied. At the time, I was already having some issues with bleeding but I didn’t think it meant anything. Obviously it meant something. During this period I was pregnant, for about 8-10 weeks, I had no clue. I was living my life as a stealth trans man, fully pregnant and never knowing.

Sadly, I miscarried at I believe out 8-10 weeks and due to me already bleeding heavily. I had no idea and thought, I dealing with my period. I found out that my experience wasn’t normal from my doctor and was in fact a miscarriage about a year and a half after. I was devastated. I didn’t want to have a baby but it was the fact, I lost it and didn’t even know or have a choice in the matter. But at least, one good thing came from that encounter, I met my partner. We’ve been together for four years now.

In past four years, my partner and I have really learnt a lot about our kinks and turn ons. He didn’t have a breeding kink but I did. Now all his does is breed me. Constantly creampies me. This is going to sound pathetic, but I got onto birth control just, so we could stop using condoms. Which is funny because maybe used condoms three times out of the ten, we slept together before BC. I love being bred and he loves breeding me.

The detransition kink, I semi-recently learned after looking at porn on reddit. I originally was on a dykebreaking subreddit and was immediately turned on. The type of forceful nature of it, the forceful acceptance of men— I liked that. There was also detranstion porn on there. I feel down a rabbit hole. I find myself always coming back to the porn to jerk off.

The best part my partner is interested in it. He was nervous at first, he’d be cautious about what he said and apologised after. Overtime, he became more confident and rough. Using my body for his own pleasure, claiming this is what I was made for and I was a confused little girl. I couldn’t help but cum. I begged for more, talk to me more. My partner would talk about how his going to knock me up, breed me until Im pregnant. Force me to off t and to become a woman again, my true purpose. I love that experience with him. Nevertheless, it is just a kink and I know I’m a man, that won’t change…..

…..But here comes the irony.

I was on birth control for about three years, after coming off and trying for a hysterectomy then being rejected. My doctor said for us to use condom or the backdoor. Hey, don’t get me wrong, I do like anal butttt it takes so long to prep. Also going from breeding to nothing was difficult. So after like a week, we said fuck it. We try the pull out method or just creampie. That quickly just turned into breeding sessions again.

I know t isn’t a birth control. However, this time around it has worked. For close to a year, nothing at all. Good for our financials. But as we get older and people around are having children. We’ve decided maybe, we will try/‘if it happens it happens’ type of thoughts. I’ll be hard since I’m completely stealth in my social/work life. So I guess that’ll have to be dealt with. Plus the dysphoria but it’s something we want. I love my partner and I’ll do it for him. 

So in the new year, I will be off my t for us to conceive again. This time hoping not to end in miscarriage. Overall I won’t be detransitioning, I’ll go back on T after birth.

Now there's a romantic story: get pregnant the very first time a man comes inside of you, and then stay with him forever and have him put more babies in you.

There's a lot more context and a lot more details, of course, and it's all fascinating. (In particular, I love when someone tries to get sterilized, gets told no, and ends up deciding to get pregnant instead.) But that is the basic shape of your life.

Everything before your first conception - all your identity exploration, all the time you thought you were only into girls - was just a leadup to taking his cum against your cervix. Everything after - him picking up your breeding kink, you realizing that you're into detrans, him slowly warming up from apologetically indulging your kink to gleefully threatening to make you his knocked-up woman, the doctor refusing to remove your womb - was just a prelude to you knowingly, deliberately coming off T and conceiving for him.

And once again, I've been rewarded for taking forever to answer an ask by getting the perfect little update:

It has been a while since i sent in my confession/story. It was long af. But I said in it, I was stopping t in feb so my partner and I could have a child. We would let nature take its course and not stress out about it. But I can happily say we’ve about three months along now.

Three months - past the most risk of miscarriage, and just at the beginning of when you might start to show. Just when you really have to start thinking about how long you'll try to hide it from everyone who thinks you're a cis man, and what you'll tell them when you swell up too big to hide the truth any longer.

You got pregnant for him as soon as you met him, without intending to or knowing it or being ready, and it ended too soon. But now you are ready - now it's the culmination of everything you've both wanted. And even if you go back on T as soon as you can, you'll always remember this time: when your body changed for him in the way it's always wanted to.

Do keep us updated, Anon. We'll all be eager to hear how you grow. 🖤

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I’m FTM and generally pass but I’m fully pre-Op. I’ve been chatting with this cis guy & recently a trans friend of mine warned me that he’s a chaser & only goes after pre-Op trans men. That just made me want to meet up with him more tho, I think I have serious issues.

I hope that he’s more than a chaser tbh. I hope that he calls me his good girl when i slide myself on his cock.

The line between "warning" and "advertisement" is thinner than spider silk when it comes to trans "men", isn't it? A friend tells you that a man only wants to fuck you because he sees you as a girl, and you make noises of disapproval with your mouth while your pussy starts to drip.

Those are just the most obvious ones, you know. The ones who don't even bother to pretend, or aren't any good at it - enough that word starts to get around.

Sometimes I wonder what the ideal balance is, for a man who just wants to get some pussy. Would you want to be covert enough that the girls who aren't quite ready to admit it to themselves will spread their legs for you while pretending that you're fucking them "as a man", or overt enough that the ones who are ready will come flocking to you?

I hope he tells you what you are, Anon. But if not, don't worry. You'll just have to find another man - one who's found the truth more useful.

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You never wanted to have breasts - so have udders instead.

You never wanted to be seen as small and weak - and now everyone who sees you goggles at how huge you've gotten.

You hated the thought of people looking at you and seeing a girl - so you should be thankful to me.

Now all they see is a well-bred bitch.

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I'm pansexual but I used to think I was asexual.

my current partner, who I've been with for 6 years, taught me how to touch myself, showed me how to love my body, I didn't start masturbating or looking at porn until roughly 2 years ago!!

I have friends that are actually asexual and they both clocked that I wasn't ace after a conversation and apparently after I went to bed they looked at each other and just went "they're not asexual", I was still in denial at that point.

My partner took my virginity in p much everything, made me like anal, showed me how to suck cock, I even swallowed one time even though I told him I hate the taste and would never do it!

on top of everything, even though I'm nonbinary I get so wet when he calls me "good girl" and my tits are so so sensitive, I've even started dabbling in hucow kink stuff even though I said I wasn't into it!!!

finding the right man has fully rewired my brain istg

Turns out you're more malleable than you are anything else, huh?

I mean, I can't blame you - having an identity is tough! (Or at least, an identity other than "slut".) It means you have to tell people "no" when they'd really rather hear "yes"; it means you can't be the thing that fulfills their desires, because you're too busy defending your own self-concept.

But you get to do the easy thing: just give in. Just let your boyfriend take you from being an "asexual" "nonbinary" to being a little whore whose pussy drips when he calls her "good girl" while fucking her in the ass. Just follow along as he leads you further down the primrose path, from never looking at porn to touching yourself to porn to reshaping yourself to match the porn he likes.

Isn't it so sweet and rewarding? He'll encourage you every step of the way, as long as you're being everything he wants. And all you had to do was give up everything you thought you were.