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elysiuminfra Ā· 2 days ago
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i want to talk about walmart for a second. if you havenā€™t worked or known someone who worked for walmart, you probably donā€™t know how bad it is. most people donā€™t, so i want to talk about it.
thereā€™s a points system for absences. if you miss work, and canā€™t cover it with accrued time off (because you donā€™t just Get time off - it builds up over time. it takes about a month of straight work to get a day off.) you get a point. five points and youā€™re at risk of termination. all managers - team leads, and above them, coaches - have the power to excuse points so that you donā€™t get fired. some do, so you donā€™t lose your job. most donā€™t. five days, thatā€™s it.
if you miss more than three shifts of work due to a medical issue, you have to go through a third party company (which isnā€™t really third party.) to get a medical exception so you donā€™t lose your job. it is hard to get this. they need a lot of documentation to prove that you somehow deserved to miss work. they donā€™t accept regular doctors notes. this is somehow nebulously legal. you are also forced to work while sick and infectious. flu, strep, covid, doesnt matter for all departments except produce and deli. even then, they only send you home if you throw up *at work* or have food-related illnesses. every other department youā€™re not allowed to go home. more than likely you are being exposed to someone whoā€™s sick at walmart, because its either come in sick or get fired.
i work hard. everyone *has* to work hard. you are on your feet 8 hours a day. you canā€™t sit. there are no surfaces to sit on. some departments are harder than others. i worked in OPD, the online grocery fulfillment department. i would walk, bare minimum, 7 to 8 miles a day, hauling sometimes over 200 pounds of groceries. every day. now i work in the deli. you are constantly moving. this is very typical for the deli - you are given too many tasks to perform in one day. most days i can barely get enough done. i know people donā€™t take their legally entitled second breaks. I know people who have to work off the clock just to get everything done. my department - as is *most other departments* - is understaffed. i cook, clean, work the slicer, and dispense food at the same time. and trust me when i tell you the standards of cleanliness in my department is high, but in practice it is very, very poor. simply because there is usually only one of us working back there, and we just canā€™t do everything right all at once.
none of the ā€œfreshā€ food in the bakery / produce area is fresh. the bread is baked in store, but the dough is made and frozen elsewhere. sometimes itā€™s been frozen for weeks. everything is shockingly artificial. same with produce. youā€™re better off buying your produce elsewhere, or even locally. walmart has been fraught with recall after recall.
people are cheated out of retirements. so many people I know that are at retirement age simply canā€™t. there are people working here in their 70s. they are being overworked. there are a lot of teenagers that work up front. they are being overworked. I know two kids who are disabled that work the register. they arenā€™t allowed to sit. one had to fight to be able to get a medical accommodation and only got one when he threatened to sue, because not taking a doctorā€™s note for an accommodation is illegal. they do it anyways. there are so many people i know personally that are disabled, have chronic pain, have mobility issues, and canā€™t sit. or walk miles and miles a day. one of my coworkers recently quit because she tore both rotator cuffs in her shoulders from this job. this job disables you. it kills you. (just look up how many people have died on the job due to negligence. it is not a small amount.)
even the prices are fake. sales are fake. rollback is fake. i notice how things are priced and they rarely change, even when they say theyā€™re on sale. itā€™s a scam. you are being scammed.
we are overworked and underpaid for our labor. (speaking of, wages used to be higher by several dollars a couple years ago. they lowered them. my department paid 20 an hour. it only pays 16 now. almost all other departments are at a flat 14. it used to be 16.)
wage theft, lack of breaks, overtime violations, lack of sick leave, chronic understaffing and chronic abuse from management, not terminating employees that sexually harass coworkers, and piles and piles and piles of responsibilities. all of this is to say, walmart only operates because of how much they exploit their workers, and itā€™s in the top of the Fortune 500 list. it is impossibly dire. and it is in EVERY SINGLE store, because that is just how the work culture operates.
all salaried management is also given guides on union busting. unionization is impossible. there was one store that they completely shut down because of successful unionization efforts, laying off hundreds of people, and blamed it on ā€œfaulty plumbing.ā€
one last thing - if you are assaulted by a customer, you cannot defend yourself. nobody can help you, because none of us are allowed to put our hands in any capacity on a customer. if you are assaulted, you have no choice but to run and hide. Iā€™ve heard of a worker at my store that was assaulted repeatedly over several days from people who would come in and beat her. they werenā€™t banned, and she was fired for fighting back. if you fight back, youā€™re fired immediately, no exceptions.
all of this is to say shop elsewhere. buy locally. buy at other stores. you will get better quality items and produce literally ANYWHERE else. if you canā€™t, be kind to Walmart workers. theres abuse at every step of the chain. even on the supply side. walmart is a corporate dystopian monster that only makes its money off of intense labor violations.
tl;dr donā€™t shop at walmart. itā€™s not worth it
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cakepoppresent Ā· 3 days ago
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Don't Let Me Slap You
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Would Gideon actually beat the shit outta Malcolm if Veronica asked? No, but he would scare Malcolm a little cuz he would think it's funny
Transcript under the cut~
Veronica: Let me know. Should I beat your ass now or later?
Malcolm: What the hell did I do?
Veronica: Oh! So I should slap some sense into that thick skull of yours too?
Malcolm: I didnā€™t DO anything!
Veronica: Malcolm.
Veronica: Just think critically for 5 minutes. Do you think ignoring her messages and calls is any better?
Malcolm: I didnā€™t do anything. She shouldnā€™t be interested in looking for Andre. It's stupid and it's only going to get her hurt
Veronica: Itā€™s like you want me to slap you in front of all these people
Malcolm: Sheā€™s the one that walked out on me.
Malcolm: I thought youā€™d be on my side.
Veronica: Lets use our thinking caps right now. You know youā€™re both very important to me yes?
Malcolm: Yes...
Veronica: So why did you think Iā€™d side with you when your acting like an manipulative asshole. Is that how I raised you?
Malcolm: Iā€™m...not being manipulative!!
Veronica: Refusing to talk to her? Ignoring her calls? Benji limits his contact with her so he wonā€™t make YOU angry. All because sheā€™s doing something you donā€™t want. Explain how thatā€™s not manipulative.
Malcolm: *standing in slience foolishly*
Veronica: Well?? Iā€™m waiting. Am I wrong?
Malcolm: *Refuses to answer*
Veronica: Yeah. Thatā€™s what I thought.
Malcolm: Why is no one on my side in this ?! Why am I in the wrong! Is it wrong to want to protect my peace?!
Veronica: Your way of protecting your peace means punishing Luna for wanting to do something you donā€™t like! That's unacceptable and I need you to cut that shit out TODAY and have an actual conversation with Luna OR ELSE Iā€™ll get Gideon to beat the shit out of you
Malcolm: God! This isnā€™t FAIR. Its like no one is thinking about me or my feelings!
Veronica: Luna has ALWAYS put you first and you KNOW that.
Veronica: Let me ask you. That business man sheā€™s been dating has she introduced him to you at all?
Malcolm:...Sheā€™s still seeing that scay ass dude?
Veronica: Sheā€™s been seeing that man for a YEAR and you know why she hasnā€™t introduced you? Do you wanna know?
Malcolm:....
Veronica: Because she KNOWS you donā€™t like him and doesnā€™t want to make you uncomfortable. Your feelings ALWAYS come first and it's pissing me off that the one time she wants to do something youā€™re punishing her for it.
Veronica: Iā€™m giving you until the end of the fucking week to reach out to Luna and apologize for your shitty actions or I swear to God Iā€™ll get Gidon to beat the fucking shit out of you. Do you understand?
Malcolm: FINE! Fuck whatever.
Veronica: Yeah thats what I fucking thought. Donā€™t make Luna cry and actually TALK to her
Malcolm: Wait...Shut up do you hear that?
Veronica: I beg your pardon? Are you insane?
Loser #1: Did you see that stuff about Luna online?
Loser #2: Be specific there is a bunch of shit being said about her
Loser #1: Theyā€™re saying that the dude she's been seen with is her ā€œsponsorā€. I guess since shes pimping herself out to the highest bidder
Loser #2: Hahaha shes ā€œHigh Classā€ she wonā€™t look at a poor man like you
Loser #1: Maybe if I take out a loan she would roll in the sack with me. It's clear she's in need of funds her family is in shambles!
Malcolm: I dare you to say that shit again. I fucking dare you
Loser #1: What the fuck is your problem
Malcolm: Say that shit again!
Loser #1: Youā€™re mad about what I said about that whore of an actress? Who cares!
Malcolm: Bet.
Malcolm: If I fucking see or hear you on this campus again ima put your bitch ass 6 feet under do you understand?
Loser #1: What the fuck dude. Get the guck off me!
Malcolm: Do. You. Understand?
Loser #1: Yes! Jesus Christ you bastard get off me!
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velvetvexations Ā· 18 hours ago
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My response:
hence the use of the word "potential" and not just the word "allies."
men who already know what feminism is about & support feminist ideals will just ignore the overly-normalized radfem rhetoric, that much is true. but movements can't keep momentum if they only ever keep the people who already believe in them without trying to appeal to the masses & grow.
most men would be more inclined towards feminism if they were able to enter feminist spaces without immediately getting met with a barrage of radfems saying "you don't belong here, this isn't for you, you are lesser than us, you are incapable of human emotions, you are inherently dangerous and violent, you are ontologically predisposed to being an abuser and oppressor, you do not belong here, we want you to die, the world would be better without men in it" completely unchallenged.
that's not, like, a debatable phenomenon. that's not a "what if." that's a thing that happens. that's the reason why many right-wing men buy into the "man-hating psycho liberal feminist" idea. most men who dislike feminism don't initially dislike it because it's Too Woke and Lame and they Hate Women. They dislike it because radfems run rampant in feminist spaces, completely unchecked, telling men to kill themselves and spouting eugenicist rhetoric about how men are biologically or ontologically evil and should be killed.
if people allow radfems to contiue to exist freely and unchallenged in feminist spaces, most men are never going to align themselves with feminism. And getting met with that kind of vitriol leaves them open to being manipulated by other more right-wing movements that will meet them with open arms.
you can't allow people who to claim to be part of your cause go around telling men they're worthless abusive sacks of shit & then expect those men to be willing and excited to be part of your movement.
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anyway. sorry Velvet. it's just wildly frustrating to continue seeing no-nuance takes on this issue and having to keep my mouth shut because i'm not allowed to get into online fights anymore (bad for me)
like yes actually, feminist/radfeminist misandry can & does push men away from feminism & to the right. it's not because they're "weak" men with no morals, it's because their introduction to "feminism" is radfems screaming in their faces about what awful people they are, which immediately confirms to them that the "feminist = man hating liberal psycho" idea that's been passed around for as long as feminism has existed is in fact true (its not. its exclusively radfems. but they're allowed to exist in most feminist spaces completely unchecked & their rhetoric is becoming increasingly mainstream.)
Very, very well said. I appreciate you sharing this with me.
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kissmypoets-hp Ā· 3 days ago
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@oknowkiss asked me fantastic question ā€” what drarry fics would you recommend to your boss?Ā 
and i took that SERIOUSLY... literally thought about this the entire day and i have some Answers
first of all, i feel like i need to clarify that my boss is not much older than i am, haha!! sorry if any of you thought i suddenly found myself in the presence of a legendary fandom elder who participated in paving the way for todayā€™s fandom ā€” though she is a legend in her own right, of course: her vibe is very much šŸŽ€āœØput-together corporate tech girlie šŸŽ€āœØ(the kind with impeccable taste in fashion, kitchen knives, and interior design) .... at this point in time, everybodyā€™s got fannish hobbies, and i already knew we both grew up on the internet and liked YA during its prime, but not everybody writes fanfic and actually posts it online, which is why i was literally so floored at this REVELATION i immediately logged into tumblr and had to Post about itā€¦.Ā 
that being said, she is STILL my boss and iā€™m pretty sure she hasnā€™t thought about the hp fandom in a long time, so. if i were to HYPOTHETICALLY give my boss a drarry fic rec list, i would start off with something relatively family-friendly šŸ¤£ (also i apologize in advance for inconsistent link formatting)
first off: Hermione Granger's Hogwarts Crammer for Delinquents on the Run by waspabi.... this is actually the first drarry fic i read, ever, so iā€™m being Nostalgic and biased because this is the fic that convinced me back then. but i think this as a first rec works, too, because she was a dramione shipper, and hermione and draco are here, too (only, what if hermione was lowkey a fujoshi instead....)
since iā€™d HYPOTHETICALLY be trying to Win Over somebody already familiar with the hp books + the fandom ā€” i feel like iā€™d have to start with fics that confront canon first, whether it means addressing plot holes or flaws in jkrā€™s writing and then subverting the shitty parts (the epilogueā€¦ lol) OR fics that are deeply rooted in the source material, so reading them would be like a refresher course on the hp world while also proving how compatible drarry are together in Situations, lol
i would also recommend Heal Thyself by astolat ā€¦ in no particular order, some more classics: Dwelling by aideomaiā€¦. Away Childish Things / By the Grace by letteredā€¦ What We Pretend We Canā€™t See by gyzymā€¦ Running on Air, of course (the drarry fandom classics)ā€¦ as visual people i truly think she would be charmed by dustmouthā€™s comics ā€” iā€™d start with Going Postal and Harry Potter Gets a Job ā€¦Ā 
so okay letā€™s say sheā€™s getting convinced and i can now branch out to fics that are more TARGETED towards her specificallyā€¦ iā€™ve never actually talked to her about fandom/trope preferences or fanfic prior to this day so i am definitely playing it safe ahahaha BUT we have bonded over rom-coms, coming-of-age stories, and lordeā€™s discography and email newslettersā€¦. here are fics that give off That specific feeling to me:
Harry Potter and the Future He Doesn't Really Want, Thanks. (this was actually the first fic i thought of recommending tbh... something about loneliness in the city, hanging out with friends, it's time to play Ribs... HYPOTHETICALLY i wouldn't lead with a rated E fic though šŸ¤£ also, as mentioned, i have a Strategy)
Faint Indiscretions by ignatiustrout
before a fall by eleadore
fics with rom-com references!!
youā€™ve got mail: Pages of You by wolfpants
mamma mia: if youā€™ve changed your mind by warmfoothills (orphan_account)
jane austen-esque references: amid this warm and steady sweetness by warmfoothills (orphan_account)
no specific rom-com as it's technically disney, but in here THE KIDS PUT ON A PLAY and itā€™s herculesā€¦. we both enjoy musicals so this goes on the drarry syllabus: Falling for a Golden Boy by OTPShipper98
clueless au: Tis a Far Better Thing by The_Sinking_Ship
other recommendations i would give if i were able to successfully sell drarry to her:
Can I Tell You Somethingā€¦? by Gallaplacidia (as drag race fansā€¦)
weā€™re both designers who loved art first, so i NEED to recommend Truth to Materials by toomuchplor and lately. it's my duty
kylie minogue shadeā€¦ the premise reminds me of an inside joke so INSTANT RECOMMENDATION: moonflower_roseā€™s Nothing But You On My Mind
fanfiction that would be appreciated by somebody who stanned one d*rect*on during their peak in the 2010s + the height of 1/D, 5sos fics on wattpad: Star Quality by who_la_hoop / Rich Friend by iota
fun fact, though: i roped another friend with very little prior knowledge of hp (apart from a few movies) into becoming a drarry shipper šŸ¤£ so the moral of the story is there is a drarry fic for EVERYBODY even the non-believersā€¦ and drarry writers are so TALENTEDĀ they can convince just about anyone to come to their side...
this is so fucking wordy and self-indulgent!!! i took this WAY too seriously but i feel like tumblr is THE platform for long text posts anyway, lol. now if you've made it this far, i need to know: what drarry fics would you recommend to your boss?
just finished my 1:1 chat with my manager at work and i just found out she used to write DRAMIONE FANFICTION omgā€¦. i wonder if i can get her to read drarry fanfiction in the year of our lord 2024ā€¦
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rainrein Ā· 3 months ago
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girl i lied i dont think i can do this anymore
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chirpychipslive Ā· 10 days ago
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im so serious when i say you need to advocate for disabilities that you don't have too
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abby118 Ā· 4 hours ago
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Thanks Grace šŸ’šI really appreciate it and I'm so glad I inspired you. I relate to everything you're saying. Actually..this was my take on the entire situation-
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I don't think I got singled out as the main OG Loki centered blog, no. There definitely are more popular ones, and I don't consider myself a known blog in the fanbase, but I got targetted by this one group (we all know who) and it just went on from there. I was getting hate before but none of them this obnoxious.
And it's not just about them, it's about the fandom in its entirety. It feels like the space we loved has been completely overtaken by idiots for a lack of a better word. I've never seen such childish behaviour among adults in any other fandom I've been in and I grew up in fandom spaces, with actual children around.
As I've said, I'm not going anywhere, I'm used to having to participate in my fandom(s) in private and I'm very much still online a lot but it is sad. I'm already not posting so much of my creative works, like art, edits or writing, because of those people. Back in the day, to share the same fandom, one was expected to at least watch/read the source material.
"Having to constantly explain yourself to other people who are supposed to be fans of the same thing you are a fan of, is alienating and exhausting."
Well said.
You know, it's kinda discouraging to be participating in your fandom's online space when everything you say or post gets criticised.
I'm more active on my side blog currently because I really missed the traditional fun fandom experience. That is not to say I'm not here anymore. I am, I'm just disappointed in what people have done to this one. It just goes to show what kind of people the series/post2013 movies attracted.
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professionaljester Ā· 14 days ago
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love my bad mental health, love being suicidal all the time
#abc shut it#im tired of fighting it and trying to participate in life when it feels like i dont exist#love being lonely and then being told its due to my bad mental health so i pretend it doesnt affect me and i try and be myself#and no one likes me and i dont exist unless i remind people im a person so its kinda like#at a point where its not just suicidal ideation#its just a situation of /when/ and not if haha#ive been alive for 26 years and 20 of those have been exhausting as hell im ready to be done#exhausting and lonely and isolating im sick of it#i try and i try and my life doesnt get better or anymore worth living#and when i vent abt it i get told i need to try harder and im not trying at all and i need to stop being so depressed#its hard to not be depressed when the universe gives everyone around me a better experiences than me#i feel like im screaming that im here please pay attention#and nothing#i talk and my voice gets ignored or i get talked over#i post online to try and start conversations or make friends and i just get ignored#like do i exist at all to anyone else but myself#im trying to reach out and make friends but none of the ppl i wanna make friends with seem interested in having a conversation with me#i add all these people to discord and message them all the time#but nothing gets passed me sending them messages no one ever fucking messages me first#it feels like no one thinks about me and i dont matter#literally no one gives a fuck what i have to say#or anytime i talked im corrected on SOMETHING i say or i get a belittled in response#i cant do this shit anymore i cant#no one gives a shit about what i have to say and its really coming across that no one likes me#bc if my friends cant text me first or respond to my messages at all#why am i in the wrong feeling like im alone and have no friends when im the only one reaching out ever if i wanna have a conversation#and when i do feel like im allowed to talk i just talk and talk and talk and know the people dont give a shit abt what i have to say#i jsut feel like im here to be talked at and do things for other people and nothing more#that whenever i have an emotion its wrong and i need to bottle it up#and i dont eve get a chance to learn how to manage my emotions bc it feels like im going to get scolded or belittled for feeling things
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bigothteddies Ā· 5 months ago
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oh my god re: your recent post... the 'girl dinner' shit. omfg. idc if it's 'not that deep' you're still reinforcing terrible shit!!! and also the like 'boys when they see a stick/cool rock' and 'girls when they time travel vs boys when they time travel' wojaks. the gender-fication of barbie vs. oppenheimer. why the fuck is the recent internet zeitgeist hyper stereotypical cisnormativity. like. i thought we had collectively outgrown this.
exactly. And thatā€™s all just some parts of it too. People pretend theyā€™re so on top of things but itā€™s just because they donā€™t want to seem out of touch and offensive. Itā€™s wild watching people barf out gender binaries with new terms and new ways to categorize trans people as not their gender and new ways to reinforce the same gender roles on ourselves but in ā€œgoodā€ ways now. Itā€™s justā€¦.really frustrating and pretty terrifying at the same time
#asked and answered#anon#I donā€™t know bad example but like.#feminism when I was growing up was gender equality#getting rid of gender roles and stopping gender based discrimination#and it feels like at some point we lost that track#and went straight from that to Girls Rule Boys Drool arguments wrapped in new language and memes#like. when i was a kid#i remember people saying shit about how its okay if a woman asks for a date first or if a woman proposes instead of a man#and yes those arent the most progressive things in the world and those actions are not the most important thing women need to be allowed to#do. butā€¦thats kind of my point. those arent groundbreaking actions.#and if you tried to spoonfeed a BASIC idea about destroying gender roles like that to the online community today#youd get slammed with people saying no woman should ever stoop to beg a man#or that a guy should always propose because dating a woman is a privilege so men should earn it#or how ā€˜maybe its just me personally but i could never propose to a man like ew thats cringe my man better have enough balls to do it!ā€™#or ā€˜me personally i could never let my girl propose id feel like i failed her as a man if she had to do thatā€™#or just. on and on and on and on and on#like. we somehow circled all the way back to the ORIGINAL gender roles we were supposed to have broken by now#and its getting worse snd the social media companies are fueling it#have you SEEN instagram and tik tok comment sections lately???#people are just. insanely obsessed over gender and enforcing how they see each group and constantly posting about it online#go outside smell some fucking flowers and recognize your internal biases#like maybe breaking gender roles like thst iis uncomfortable not because you hate men#but because you have gender roles engrained in your BEING from the moment you could walk and you just wrapped them up with a new progressive#bow while not making any changes#anyways.#rant over
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dennisboobs Ā· 1 year ago
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i think everyone on sunnytwt needs to be sat down so i can explain to them what basic human empathy is. and then maybe i put them in a blender until they agree to write meta about the characters instead of whether or not charlie day got facial reconstruction surgery.
#ada speaks#u do not exist in a vacuum and your words have the capability to harm others#celebrities may not see your tweets but your balding transmasc mutual and your follower who feels self conscious about her nose will#it is fucking bizarre the way these people conduct themselves online#really. really fucking weird man#and then you see them acting like ppl are 'defending rich white men'#instead of taking issue with the actual shit theyre saying#whether or not you think rcg has been 'under the knife' or not#a) how is this any of your business. you are not entitled to this info nor do you have a free pass to criticize someone's personal choice#b) ask yourself why you feel you need to critique alleged surgeries and how they stack up to imposed conventional beauty standards#c) you do not *own* them. you can have opinions on your own attraction to them but#a person getting plastic surgery or hair plugs or whatever is up to them. not you. if it helps to make them feel better then who cares.#just because it doesn't make them attractive to YOU doesn't mean its okay to point and laugh#if a trans guy got top surgery and it was 'botched' would you act like they were stupid for getting it in the first place?#if a trans woman decided she wanted to surgically shave her jaw would you shame her for that?#it's their body. it's not yours.#for the record i don't believe any of them have gotten work done but think its a stupid thing to speculate on regardless#ive watched family members go through plastic surgeries of varying success. ive seen them get botox and hair plugs and everything#normal everyday people do it and it's not always about vanity#it can be for gender reaffirming reasons (and yes this includes when cis people do it) to alleviate dysphoria#trying to point out alleged surgical alterations made is just. gross#not to mention that holy shit MOST of the shit ppl are saying is like. age. different hairstyles. different facial expressions.#maybe if these people actually watched the show theyd be able to see the gang in action instead of staring at pics like spot the difference
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camvrin Ā· 3 months ago
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spit balling šŸ¤“
self depreciation aside I'm AWARE that I'm one of the most generous and caring people you could come across if you're not a terrible person
and I will try and be there for you even if I don't like you
so sending me death threats over something that isn't even true when I literally looked out for you is a crazy thing to do šŸ˜­
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cavity-collector Ā· 3 months ago
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i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit
#yall dont know the meaning of terminally online til u meet me#i hate myself so much its not even funny i am the most miserable worthless scum#my sleep schedule is 7am to 3pm all i do all day is rot on the couch and sometimes draw if i have a drop of motivation#depression is completely kicking my ass and im not even fighting back i give up what the fuck man#theres not even a point for me to keep trying i just want to stop feeling such deep despair 24/7 please#i dont want to die i just want the pain to stop so i can peacefullylive out the rest of this year before i turn 18 and its all over for good#but i cant even have that! im just gonna suffer the whole time thanks great#i wish i could just get better and fix all of this but i cant its not working we dont have the money to#actually get me the help i need to make it work. i just have to figure it out or die#i just wanna go back to ***** ** *** i just want to stop being lonely and useless#i dont know why im posting this shit to tumblr. its so stupid i should just be journaling or something#probably because im worthless selfish scum. idfk.#the last 6 months have been a complete blur. just rotting on the couch or in bed occasionally seeing friends once every other month or so#ive already wasted half of being 17 abd im probably gonna waste the rest too. ill do nothing of worth before i die.#even my art is ugly and horrible and not worth leaving behind. people tell me to work to improve it but i dont have the time left#ill never create any of the things i wanted to create ill never be a good artist im just going to die exactly like this#an absolutely terrible person.#the only people i can talk about the things that make me a terrible person with are people who are terrible in even worse ways#no one can comfort me except them because theyre the only people who know what ive done and actually do see it as less than absolute evil#because they know absolute evil because it is them. but i actually donā€™t believe that i think theyre bad but could be good#idk what im saying anymore#someone shoot me#please im not kidding#just make it stop#tw vent#tw sui#delete later
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yourhoeshorses Ā· 1 year ago
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ā€œsso is ruinedā€Ā ā€œI miss the old graphicsā€Ā ā€œthe game died when they updated stevesā€
shut up shut up shut up, go play the season rider games if you want shitty graphics, explode yourself
the only thing they removed from sso that REALLY mattered was the old silverglade music that would make your ears bleed
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jessiesjaded Ā· 1 year ago
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It is funny sometimes seeing people get uppity about translators not doing exactly 1:1 translations of media, whether it be a book or a game or a series- and I get it from the perspective of say, 90s and 2000s anime adaptations that completely altered plot points, completely nixed entire lines of dialogue or alter characters enough that they were barely reminiscent of the original- think Sailor Moon and how the US dub censored anything gay in it. Those complaints I understand, completely.
And then with the advent of translating tools sometimes a company has pretty clearly been cheap or lazy and has just slapped it into an online translator and hodge podged it together, losing a lot of important details along the way, just to save on paying a proper translator and that is something I find absolutely shitty and extremely fair to point out- especially when it's a big corporation.
But the flipside people seem to forget is that sometimes there's not an exact word to translate to. Sometimes translations done to T will lose the humour or the feeling of the original so the translator will change it just enough to still get the expression across in a similar way as the original without bogging it down or losing its charm- localising something isn't always a bad thing as long as it overall stays true to the original. Translation is an art at the end of the day, sometimes whats on the page needs a little extra help to really pop, I have a lot of respect for the people who put in the effort.
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daisybell-on-a-carousel Ā· 3 days ago
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Theyre going to think I like canon and purely canon if I keep going on like this
#i. despite my many complaints. do enjoy comics. and going into the Comic Reading Fandom#there is a shocking amount of people who are purely in the fandom but have never interacted with the source#while i do believe its fine to dabble in something you haven't seen the source for yet but plan to#being a creating active presence in fandom for something youre not a fan of. just doesn't sit with me#its just a bit baffling. to be a fan of the fandom amd never touch the canon#like lifelong christians who attend every service and judge others based on gods word. who have never even read the full bible.#its just all the pastors word and stories n verses they grew up with#thats exactly how i see it I fear#fanon dynamics and tropes heavily overwhelm the canon. and i tend to prefer the canon. so it gets frustrating#not to mention how many popular ones completely flip characters. reinforce stereotypes. have even more confusing timelines. etc#its like the online fan equivalent of years of domestication and breeding that turned wolves to pugs#not that extreme but you get me#i mess with canon. i like to get silly with it. i like to fuck around#plenty of things i dont like i Will ignore or rewrite! or make an au where i can do whatever on earth i want#i dont respect canon or think its the end all be all and if you step one foot out of line of canon ill maul you like an angry dog#its just like! maybe read the one singular comic issue youre about base your entire interpretation on the fanon version of#this is ending in just me complaining about titans tower yeah. sorry. its the prime example i fear#but at least its easy to filter out#man! if i just had a way to filter things out better..#sometimes it reaches the point where i consider just blocking the entire tim tag. sorry tim#i Will uplift the community i desire instead of focusing on my hatred and complaining!!#i just need to get out of art block and find cool blogs to follow that Get Me to help me out first!!#unfortunately i have a really weird complex about following people especially if they followed me first!!!#not sure what thats about!!#but ill get to the other things!!!#i am also just a complainer though !#and i get into arguments alot without realizing it because i love noting every detail and correcting people!!#i tried to put every william mention and appearance from tse in a google doc. and with ralpho. thsoe got much easier when i got#digital copies of the fnaf books. but what im saying is i LOVE having all the facts n details abt my blorbos. esp in over detailed notes.fu#havijg all the references on hand! and sharing my precious beautiful knowledge. carefully noted bc my poor memory. very delightful. fun!
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pulchrasilva Ā· 1 year ago
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Sigh I need to rant about certain people and how there is a background noise of discomfort with every interaction after particular incidents that made me go "bitch you live like this???" but all my typical vent spaces are ones where they might see it and the only ones that they wouldn't see it in are like discord channels that are not for this topic of vent or friends who would be uncomfortable with the topic etc like,,, what do I even do? Stew in it?
#catch me very carefully not saying any details about them or the incidents because i dont want them to knowww#i suddenly understand so much better why my dad stays friends with people who are racist/islamophobic to his face#like yeah theyre fun to talk to and they enjoy the same silly shows as me#qnd when were not talking about The Things its easy to forget about The Incidents#but every conversation feels like im hiding part of myself. it feels like if i stop hiding I'll be crucified#theyre fucking scary bro wtf. i didnt know people like that were real that was always abstract fandom drama stuff#and its not THAT scary but also im terrified after only brief glimpses it could be so much worse but if we dont talk about it I'll never#need to know#im like. king of letting go of the incident anf never talking about it but endlessly rotating it and stewing in it and holding a grudge#ummm. ya. fun times šŸ‘#shout out to my brother for letting me talk about it though they're cool as fuck for that#i need more non-white friends who arent online#or at least arent online in the same circles as these people#tbf i need more non-white friends full stop šŸ˜­#i need more friends who are freaks also#if i dont go 'theres something wrong with you' at least once a week then theres something wrong#wait that sounds funny lmao#but yeah i need people who are weird and gross and disturbing. not people who are normal with rancid vibes#uhh whatever. I'll get over it <- lying#vent post#if you're wondering if this post is about you it's probably not. probably#sobbing i hate vagueposting it's so mean but what else do i do here#gotta start making people fill out a questionnaire before i allow them so deep into my life istg
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