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biaswreckingfics · 11 months ago

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To quote our lord and savior,

HI, HELLO

I thought I’d go on main to gush and overshare!

I know you’ve had a tough year but I’m so proud of you for getting through it !!even when it felt never ending (though tbh I feel like the universe was just being cruel with adding three weeks sick at the end of the year) you continued to persevere!

I wish you all the best, warm hugs, and only happiness for the new year

Now for the 180 turn! LOOK! AT! THIS! TRUCK! I! SAW!

As soon as I read it I went “same”

And like some would see bimbo as an insult, but really doesn’t everyone have something they go bimbo over? Being a little bimbo never hurt anyone. Who doesn’t like to shut the brain off and simply enjoy something.

Speaking of no brain.

My stinky boy had a good play at the park.

Meanwhile, at home, I can’t get this girly off of me. She must love the post surgery smell. In fact she’s on my stomach right now. Like a perfect sphinx. (She totally does deserve to be worshiped by the Egyptians)

Also everyone should buy a pregnancy pillow. It makes sleeping on your side so much easier.

Anywaysssssss *lots of hand hearts and smooches because you’re the best girlie* remember! You a hot girl doing hot girl shit and this year will not defeat you.

To quote our lord and savior lmao I love that!!

I'm so thoroughly happy that 2023 is over with. I'm looking for a fresh start in 2024, and I hope this will be the best year I've had yet. I'm crossing all of my fingers at this point and taking a deep breath. I hope you have a great year also!! This past year sucked for so many.

Aren't people taking back the word bimbo and trying to turn it into a positive thing?? That's what I've heard, at least lol

DOGGO AND KITTY? WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE SUCH A BLESSING?? YOUR BABIES ARE SO CUTE!!

Honestly, though, the Egyptians were onto something when it came to worshipping cats. I worship the shit out of my furbaby. She deserves it for just existing!!

That just reminded me of that moment on Teen Wolf when Scott was like "I'm the hot girl?" and Stiles was like "Yes, you are" lmao

#quaaacky #out here saving my life like always

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chiropteracupola · 14 days ago

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So now we walk abandoned fields / Beneath these foreign skies...

#em draws stuff #em is certainly not posting about bigglesworth #biggles #erich von stalhein #sketching. sketching about. I want to hit him with cars and trucks I think. and put him under a cup like a bug.#still figuring out precisely what feels Right when I draw him. not sure we are all the way there yet but these came together well enough #that it feels like we're Part of the way.#oh yeah and caption lyrics from the dreadnoughts' 'foreign skies'#monkey's paw situation... here is Me Drawing with no sign of stopping #but I can't draw planes to save my life and also will always be bringing up folk music and/or polka.

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vaguely-concerned · 13 days ago

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I don't know what I love more, the fact that as rook you can make a statement in NO uncertain terms that you are NOT responsible one way or the other for the theological implications of the shit you're discovering in the 'regrets of the dread wolf' memories. not my jurisdiction. quite simply none of my business. not my chantry circus not my chantry monkeys. irrelevant to the matter at hand here we'll kill that god if we get to him he can get in line. or if the best thing about it is seeing the lone little 'lucanis approves' that pops up right after choosing it. corvid with a knife about to commit deicide keeping it real and sensibly, pragmatically, wilfully agnostic with me here in this magical lighthouse today

#we do not see it. we cannot read all of a sudden.#rye having war flashbacks to watcher conferences and firmly going 'we are *not* getting derailed by the metaphysics here folks'#rare stern moderator/dad hat moment from ingellvar lol. he's Seen Some Shit in his time (debates that raged over the multiple #and not always concurrent life times of the participants involved. ain't no academic rivalry like watcher academic rivalry #because watcher academic rivalry doesn't stop even when everyone involved is dead. and the rest of us have to live with it)#I. do not think the way I'm getting this quest is how it's meant to be experienced so I'm a bit at a loss as to how to pace it out #I've been an annoying little completionist so I have ALL the statues and could just marathon it out #but that does not feel like the best way for the story and upcoming reveals to work. hm. how to do this #I'm supposed to go fail to save weisshaupt right around now I can't be having study group with all of you rn as much of a delight as it is #rye is nominally an andrastian as mainstream nevarrans generally are but as I gather is the case with many of the watchers #what he *actually* believes in is the grand necropolis itself haha #(and the philosophy of history memory death and relationship (as well as responsibility) between the past and the present #and indeed the future that it represents. we have a duty. to what has been to what is and to what will come after us. good shit)#the nevarran/mortalitasi element just makes their lack of care or respect for chantry orthodoxy *mwha* that extra bit special #the nevarran lack of concern bordering on quiet condescending disdain for official chantry doctrine and policy my beloved #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #dragon age: the veilguard spoilers #dragon age spoilers #poor harding really is living through the most relentless 'if this is the maker testing my faith he sure be testing me' gauntlet of all tim #good news: god might be real! bad news: god might not even be a real thing but more like a magical accident or vibration or something #honestly tho. if we could get full lovecraftian incomprehensible to human conception the maker -- He is a particle and a wave style --#that's the only way I'd be cool with him or them actually answering the question of his existence. that'd be kind of sick #'yes. but no. but maybe. depends on how you define god. and exist. and he. and does.' *ingellvar sets of the METAPHYSICS!! klaxon #that's a time out folks good game but easy on the jargon and navel-gazing definition of terms next round #rye and lucanis have some slightly differing views about at what exact stage of a problem murder becomes a valid solution #('well you just kill them and then I'm the one who has to deal with the next much longer part')#but they're surprisingly kind of vibing on a lot of other stuff lol. good for them <3 #oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar

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phantomsies · 21 days ago

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getting all the education/degrees I can and planning so I can get the fuck out of this country >>>>

#🪷—faerie whispers #because I still don’t like these fucking ppl #done all that yip yapping in my ask box and these ppl still suck #idec who wins #I want out of this hellhole. bc were cooked either way #everybody voting for the wrong reasons anyways so who gives a fuck #I’ve been saving and I plan to get one more degree before I leave #I’ve been heavily considering Japan or Germany #there really isn’t shit here for me #ppl always say ‘wont you have to deal w racism/colorism?’#a cop yelled at me to move my truck out in front of a store even tho I’m on a cane and couldn’t walk far #black men literally have been ignoring and treating me like shit for my entire life since elementary school #trust me when I say nothing could be worse than what I’ve gone through #I’m ready to leave #we have no future under a capitalist society #and a government that no matter what prioritizes war and profit over ppl’s lives #I have no intelligent words for this #I’m truly tired #and for all the dumbasses who were pissed off at me for what I said in august #stay mad bc I have nothing for y’all either #y’all owe Palestinians an apology #they’re the main ones suffering from this ignorance #and we’re next

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skunkes · 2 months ago

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the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)

but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.

the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore

#talkys #my dad scaring me but also giving me no advice on what to do instead only saying if i do this it will be the wrong choice leading #to more wrong choices well yep you got me i am scared. i am inept. i fear regret and punishment for wrong decisions.#i struggle to make decisions because i cant go back on them.#''ill never have savings again'' and ''you cant value friends over family they'll abandon you''#and ''living here is only a problem for you because you dont communicate. there is a way to work things out''#i wish i could work it out and stay i dont know why i cant work it out ! and what do i want #to leave so badly for... to continue to never have stable housing #never have savings again? be alone and in danger?#to be able to wear whatever i want and...buy things? really? that doesnt seem very worth it #nothing seems very worth it #im miserable here but maybe i'd be more miserable away...it is true #well at least the chances to leave are very slim. and will continue to get slimmer the more time passes.#but maybe its fine i dont want to ruin my life or be even more of a burden or reason for distress in someone else's #moving out wouldnt fix anything. wherever you go there you are.#my friend said i have to be a little selfish (positive) to push myself to leave. bt i dont want to be selfish. im ashamed of that as a trai #delete later #even now i feel immense guilt and stress when my dad does things that hurt or bother me bc i know ill miss him when he's gone.#(and ill have nobody after all of that. due to the being kept in a cage)#that sucks. why does everyone else always win. why am i always the weakest pliable one. i wish i had no emotions #my surgery is the only decision in my life ive been 100% sure on for years #and even then my parent's words had me crying and rapidly changing emotions daily until the day came #im not strong enough or sure enough about anything else to withstand More of that #<- and i know that tomorrow im gonna be like actually you know what who cares lets try to leave #and the next day ill be resigned to staying here forever #and the next day ill be like actually you know what who cares l

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pimento-playing-hopscotch · 27 days ago

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I was a dreamer before you went and let me down, season five 😭😭😭😭😭

#like - here are some of the greatest hits from season four #moments that actually happened outside of my imagination or fics #TK told Owen he was his best friend and he’s always need Owen in his life #TK went to Owen for advice on a problem with Carlos- multiple times #the first time he said out loud in a canonical episode - that he wanted to be a dad because of his and Owen’s relationship #and that Carlos was intimidated because TK knew what it was like to know his father loved supported and was proud of him #whereas Carlos did not #and TK goes to his father AGAIN after Carlos losss his father-#and Owen offers to take care of canceling the wedding and saves Carlos’s life #but come season five-#Owen and TK-#despite there being a clear moment where they could in every episode-#not only are they not talking but Owen will ruin his birthday and the progress he made in therapy to beat up Enzo #like- season five could’ve been so much better than this #any fic writer on here could have written a better season #911 lone star #tk strand #seven sentence sunday #owen strand

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notalostcausejustyet · 1 year ago

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I’ve already attached this to a re-blog, but it feels like something that I want to post as a standalone as well. Sometimes I scream into the tumblr void about shit. Thanks to a gifted copy of The Body Keeps the Score I’m doing more DIY therapy work and processing some of my thoughts through the interwebs. So here’s a brain thing.

🎶Let’s talk about projection baby, let’s talk about you and me!!🎶 All joking aside, so many of us who deal with CPTSD use fictional works to process our trauma. We are outsourcing emotions and memories that we, for whatever reason, struggle to deal with unless there is some remove from the immediacy of them. We seek to find ourselves in characters, parallels in stories and situations for our own experiences. We live their struggles and triumphs as our own and so find catharsis within them. Aziraphale as a character is a particularly good example of this. He’s doing the thing so many of us who are trying to convince everyone else and ourselves that “we’re FINE, thank you!” do. He isn’t really processing his shit. He’s putting it on a third party to release some pressure before he completely loses it. And in so doing, us the audience, have gained a character that we both empathize and sympathize with, and in turn, use to work through much of our own trauma. I honestly think that’s why so many of us are waiting for S3 with bated breath. We need Az to figure it out. We need them both to heal. To defeat the odds. To find happiness. We’re all waiting for that because we need to believe that it’s something we can have too. If this Angel who foists 6 millennia of grief and rage and maddening questions about the “why” of everything off into an entire bookshop’s worth of stories and characters, if he can figure it out…surely we can too. Surely there is hope for us buried somewhere in the stacks. Surely there is some understanding that can be found, some catharsis or healing within the lines of these narratives. So we’re all holding our breath, our hope and our hearts, in our hands, waiting to finish the story, and in so doing, complete some part of ourselves. Finally framing those cracks where the light comes in, into something beautiful.

#good omens #aziraphale #good omens meta #DIY therapy it’s like DIY electrical you can but you’ll probably get zapped a few times #tumblr is the void into which we scream #come void scream with me we’ll be like the hallelujah chorus #but off key terribly off key it’s amazing #projection and displacement are integral parts of aziraphale's character #self projection #this is really good diy therapy though we’re all out here being diyers #doing the work #books that saved our lives #books have always saved my life #neil gaiman #Neil Gaiman we are in your walls

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jrueships · 23 days ago

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WHOEVER THE FUCK IS RECOMMENDING MED PPL TO GO INTO RADIOLOGY JUST CUS IF THE MONEY, IM GONNA FUCKING gET YOU

#first i had ai dictacting schedules and now the radiologists just thought there was a AHHGGRHHH #YES. YES U CAN MAKE MONEY GOING INTO RADIOLOGY. BUT DO NO T. JU ST. GO INTO IT. for the MONEY #MEDICINE IS FKING PAIN BCS BUSINESS IS A PAIN & PPL ARE IN PAIN & PPL ARE A PAIN #like it is Very. ppl orientated it's FKING MEDICINE and even if ure a vet or whatever theres obvs usually humans attached fo animals #so like u might not always be dealing with the ppl but ur coworkers who are also being directly accounting #for the ppl SURE AS HELL DO #like yea ppl die all the time but ure telling me u dont gaf when u couldve done something to stop a LIFE #a HUMAN LIFE that was DEPENDING ON U just doing a like tiny action in the grand scheme of ur things #but ends up a major life changer to them even if they dont always have the knowledge to recognize it #and u let them die bcs of the money #i cant fcking STANDDDDDD IT ohmy GAWD.#also like radiology is not all that hunky dory like radiactive is part of the fking name like #UGHHHH LIKE IM SUPPOSED TO BE SCOLDING MY PTS WHY TF AM I SCOLDING MFS FOR MY PTS #anyways yea tho totally just join medicine for the money it's tofally not a massive damage to u n society #but also . fuck society for making ppl feel like they only have this choice or it's starvation bcs thats also so fking real fuc that #but bro at least try not to fuck ppl over once u gain a position just bcs u happened to be in a bad mood today like #medicine is Literally. horror. it's not that 'i watch pimple popping videos haha i can handle it' horror . it's literally.#the horror of treating humans like humans while never allowed to be one urself kind of horror #it's watching a little girl crying and a big bulky father weeping like a small child bcs his wife died #&then u step out the room and a pt throws his poop at u bcs he keeps lying to u abt not having any alcohol &wants to go home but has no ride #wants a million opiods and has been absolutely wailing at ur staff and if he leaves ama it docks u so now u gotta #peruse a bunch of legal documents to try and figure out a loophole on how to get him outta here while also dealing with 60 other pts #on the brink of death or intensely septic and the whole time ure trying to save them u got bitches screaming in ur ear abt the #north carolina fluid shortage like btch fuck that im giving this kid the shit they need to survive fuck off #especially funny bcs theres fluids available but we refuse to buy them bcs theyre for a higher price than our og supplier like ok #anyways #love my life

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foreverxdaydreaming · 2 months ago

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#just needed to vent for a sec but oh god am i tired of people #'friends' both irl and online got me fucked up lately #mental healths been in the shitter almost nonstop this year #familys always got me up the wall #i just feel like I'm constantly treading water and i am *tired*. like so fucking TIRED #it's never enough; it's too much; no not like that; but not that either; it's all wrong wRoNg WrOnG #ik im sleep deprived and possibly pms-y and that is most certainly not helping things rn but...#gods i see less and less of a reason to get out of bed and bother with anything ever again #wtf is the purpose #i can't keep friends to save my life bc im apparently a fuckin doormat and interesting as unflavored rice or smth #how hard is it to feel like you maybe sorta kinda matter and aren't an unlovable worthless piece of shit #years of therapy; trying meds; everything under the sun.... and nothing. lows and highs and dips of every kind and yet ..nothing #and maybe im just very much in my feelings rn and just yelling into the void.. but it hurts and im tired of pretending it doesn't.#i hate how hard it is to make friends as an adult especially irl. and how gossipy and cliquey and gross and mean ppl can be #of getting called childish and naive and boring for wanting to be a decent person and having interests outside of partying #(not attacking those traits but tired of getting attacked for *not* being 'fun' enough or 'social' enuf or 'sensitive' for having feelings)#enough*#i just want to go eat drywall and stand in the rain and let it help me pretend im not crying blood rn.#like every cell in my body isn't trying to spontaneously combust.#'it gets better' ..yeah? when. when i was 14? when i was 23? when im 37? when im 55? 82? WHEN.. bc im so sick and tired #and no this isn't me writing a final note or whatever it sounds like; i just wanted to word vomit bc ive never been good w sadness #and ive got such an overwhelming amount of it rn i can't even turn it into anger & spite & use that for productivity... i just want to rot #to lie down and be covered by plants as i sleep and just slowly fade into a cloud or smth like it's a ghibli movie or wtv.#im like shaking from how stupidly emotional i feel rn. the lack of empathy these days is fuckin astounding #common sense & empathy are lacking in absolutely droves these days. some days i hate the internet & tech for its irreparable damages sm #but here we are and here it shall remain. long after us; and *long* after us ..... *sigh*#anyway ima go try to take a nap or smth. I'll see ya when i see ya. take care my lovelies #if u read all this i prob owe you a cookie lol

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seilon · 4 months ago

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love when this is referred to as the gifted kid website. shockingly my mental disorders made me mentally disordered and school never really vibed with that so. couldn’t be me

#ppl always talking about their whatever grade reading level and how many books they’d read as kids and im just over here like🧍🏽#I’ve never been actually bad at english or reading but I couldn’t focus on reading books to save my fucking life #I hated those sheets where you had to read like a certain number of books or whatever over the course of a semester or the year or whatever #my GATE test scores for english were super high but my math was bad enough that I never qualified #and adhd made me not even perform well in English half the time because I couldn’t pay attention I couldn’t read long books I couldn’t turn #in my assignments or if I did they were late and etc etc etc #don’t get me started with math #I was the worst in my class in third grade at minute math and never made it to the levels of minute math my classmates did #(they posted results on the wall for everyone to see)#and in 6th grade I was put into an additional remedial math class #throughout middle-high school I was at the level of most classmates in terms of the classes I took but that’s only because I was not allowe #to fail and was put through absolute fucking hell with a billion tutors and grueling hours of extra work from them and blah blah blah #like I remember how I felt in those tutoring sessions and half the time I actually wanted to cry.#I didn’t start doing solidly genuinely Good in school until senior year of high school.#not coincidentally around the same time I started taking adderall I think #I had accommodations by 9th grade but they didn’t do that much except for the function that let me turn in assignments up to 2 days late #without penalty. which i had teachers question sometimes and i had to pull the Yeah it’s Literally Against The Law to not allow me this car #anyway. point is. i was never in the gate program and most of my friends were and it was mostly adhd related #adhd is considered such a quirky nothing disorder nowadays that I don’t even like mentioning I have it really. because what people think of #when I say the term is Not what i actually dealt with and made school torturous and made my parents lash out at me for things and etc etc #depression and dysphoria did not help either. but I digress #I’m not sure why im making this post #kibumblabs

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atopvisenyashill · 2 months ago

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do love how this is an asoiaf blog but i did not put either show in my top 10 this is the world we live in

#the only season that really compares to the book is season 1.#the rest even when they’re engaging have changed something that feels so central to the hook that i’m mad aksjd.#getting on my soap box #if iwtv s3 is good it may knock someone out. probably qaf.#bsg is p high up there i just think season 4 really suffered on pacing & the suspicious nature of who dies annoyed me.#veep is also very high up there tbh i need to rewatch it. the thing is. as we know. i am a romantic at heart and amy & jonah have my favorit #sitcom relationship. veep has genuinely one of the best finales to ever exist but i’m a sap.#and amy coming back to tell jonah that he made her realize she doesn’t actually have to expect the worst from life. oh my god.#also superstore >>> parks & rec >>> the office bc superstore never romanticized the hell of their job #amy quitting her corporate job when she realized she would never be able to make the changes she wanted within the system she was always #going to compromise too much and wind up like jeff. glenn reopening his dad’s hardware shop & specifically who goes w him & who stays w gina #at the store? it has what the other two lack which is characters that feel like they keep existing after you stop watching #BECAUSE the way they interacted with the world was so real and so much more realistic. amy can’t fix the system but she can find a job that #she doesn’t feel is so soul sucking. glenn may be choosing a harder path by reopening the hardware store but it’s the one that makes him #most fulfilled. gina just gets to make money and be bossy w people who do what they’re told. that rings so true to me.#i almost out bojack horseman in here too actually but once again i think the last season just needed to be a tad longer just like bsg.#also same issue w pitch as w bly manor - it’s an amazingly written season of tv but it’s ONE season of tv #big brother as always outsells yes i am hoping to tempt some of u into watching by posting dan & ian in the dog costume #i have that gif and the ‘sit’ scene saved on my phone always

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thedrotter · 5 months ago

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filler doodles about how i comedically whitewashed myself as a child (despite also being the darkest i had and still have ever been in my entire life) because i cannot wrap my head around it

#filler art #my art #i was also short haired at the time so its odd i drew myself as having very long hair but is it any more weird than me whitwashing myself no #i remember i also imagined myself to grow up as a white girl like #HUH??? like i was so convinced i was going to look like all the white main character girls on television ... i had to look like one #all of this was probably because of the lack of representation in tv i could find at the time tbh #BECAUSE THIS WASNT AN ISSUE OF MY DAY TO DAY LIFE NOOOOOO #in here being... moreno?!?! . brown?!?!! EVEN IF LIGHT IS MILES MORE COMMON THAN BEING WHITE #AND ITS SO MUCH MROE SILLIER BECAUSE I WAS MCUH MORE DARK THAN I CURRENTLY AM BACK THEN #as of now im more so lightskinned . nowhere near white but im not very dark either because i dont see rhe sun often ww so im pale #BACK THEN I GOT BURNT ON THE SUN AS A HOBBY im serious i sat on the hot rock floor with burning sun climate bevause it was nice #NOT EVEN THE CURLS COULD BE SAVED I HAD TO PORTRAY MYSELF AS STRAIGHT HAIRED FOR WHATEVER REASON #like on my defense i did straighten my hair out a lot as a young child but THAT LASTED LIKE 2 DAYS EVERY TIME #so 90% i was curls so its funny #ALSO WHY DID WE CALL THE CREAM COLOR “THE SKIN COLOR” WHAT #like. it wasnt just me . whole elementary school knew if you asked for rhe skin color you talkin about thay #any tone of brown simply did not work I DONT KNOW WHY WE WERE ALL LIKE THIS???#thankfully at the age of 10 i realized i infact had melanin but .. i coudlnt accept i had black hair still💀💀#so my skin and hqir color were always the same in portrayals ITS SO FUNNY IM SORRY #I FIDN THIS INSANELY FUNNY IM SO SORRY #dont feel too concerned i wasnt ashamed of my skin color or anything but i had the warped idea i would look white soon #not if you keep cooking youself in the sun you wont /j #i dont know what to say about how i draw myself now a days i dont draw myself as myself but i know i aint white now its okay 🩷 (/hj)

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foccaccia · 8 months ago

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does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing &#digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right)#and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh)#I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost.#anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic)#meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough.#im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY.#like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'

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martyrbat · 11 months ago

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driver's seat — dc holiday special (2017)

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#AHHH SO MUCH HERE !!!#WHY IS HE LIKE THIS !!!!!#gift giving and acts of service as a love language....#which isnt a shock. afterall hes superman. everything he does everything he goves to the world—hope and peace and someone protecting it—is #acts done out of love and adoration for the planet. even earlier in the comic him hiding the jetpack and WANTING that man to succeed and ge #proper income from his invention. acts of service on a larger than life scale but also.... hes still a kansas boy and just doing little #things that matter just as much as the big ones. cooking for her. moving and rearranging furniture until shes happy. unpacking. cleaning.#carrying her when exhausted. spellchecking but never rewriting or rephrasing her work....#like from him saving the world from destruction to giving bruce kryptonite in an act of trust to just hugging her and letting her cry #just his love language always is through those acts of service before anything else #lois loving her shitty old car.... do you think she and bruce bond over it. the polycule lover in my head says yes.#the basketball seat cover...#the john mayer....#clark flying her across the sunrise painted sky and humming to replace the radio #and that adoring gaze he gives her that speaks more than words ever could....#hes such a sap and a loser i hate him :(#c: dc holiday special (2017)#crypt's panels #posts from the crypt #transcrypts #superman #clark kent #lois lane #clois

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corpsentry · 5 months ago

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ass in the air on my hands and knees searching for link/allen (romantic platonic idgaf in this economy) fanwork i scoured the ao3 tag dry and 8 years of tumblr posts and now i am Two fists deep in pixiv, dodging projectiles of pathetic ai porn, desperately looking for crumbs. i’ve done it again folks i found a more or less dead fandom and got stuck on the niche pairing of the main character and the guy who debuted with a bowl cut and now there is nothing to be done but CRY LOUDLY and then (some time later) EQUIP PEN

#(through tears) BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD #fuckass niche as fuck pairings always nerf me for some reason i’ve got a thing for the…. the Unexpected. or the Unperceivdd #i just think there’s something so compelling about allen’s idealism in spite of the horrors he’s experienced contrasted with #link’s single mindedness in his devotion to reveiller or whomstever the fuck (can’t spell europe)#being as he is an orphan who has never had anyone else in his life #but then allen comes along and suddenly he’s forced to be in close quarters with another human being for a long ass time #and allen obviously hates it at first but they’re both Food Enjoyers and allen’s so. he’s so idealistic. he thinks he can save everyone #meanwhile link has never cared about anyone except his friends who all became third exorcists and cocked off + leveiller + now. now now #howard ‘i’m at war with myself’ link #HOWARD LINK HAS ONLY EVER AFFORDED HIMSELF TWO MERCIES #THE FIRST IS HIS FEELINGS OF LOYALTY TOWARDS REVEILLE #WHICH AT SOME POINT IN HIS EMPLOYMENT TRANSCENDED A MERE SENSE OF OBLIGATION #THE SECOND IS ALLEN WALKER #meanwhile allen’s never had anyone see him at his lowest so often on the pure basis of fuckass watch a dog a (mario voice) duty #the forced vulnerability into a genuine sense of concern but the lines are eternally blurred #throw in link’s transparency when kanda drags him out of dog zone and he’s like okay ya this is what i’m here to do #and allen’s unequivocal acceptance of him all the same #AND THE WAY HE BLUSHES WHEN ALLEN PINCHES HIS NOSE (7999 psychic damage sustained. critical hit!)#i like unlikely and difficult connections which require infinite energy and faith to sustain #i like what they’ve got going there #it compels the Fuck out of me #ok now that i’ve yapped this much i Must. i Must write. so write i will (later)#after (?) this comic and also my mom and i finish watching blossoms in adversity which . favorite chinese period drama ever fyi #ok good night i sleep #olio #gelmo

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ctl-yuejie · 5 months ago

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oh my god!!! this fucking guy...what a character

haunted by his dead wife, haunted by his wife

and now he declares her dead so that he can justify taking care of his sister and mother over confessing to her murder

ahhhhh, his mind

#the double #yelling in excitement here #fully understand the impossible situation he is in #love that him declaring his love and risking his life doesn't change what he is missing #he likes to tell his story as one of struggle but he always takes the easy way out #sure - dad died due to conspiracy. he is under pressure to excel and avenge #but while his flashbacks show how he recognizes what she sacrificed for him it all seems laced with expectation #expectation that she would compromise for him and support him #that she would oppose her father #yes he loves her but ah li is the way for him to improve his standing #he tells her he loves her: after she put in the work to save herself from what he has done #he risked his life when he has no time to think but the second he recognizes the guard and knows he won't die it has the aftertaste of him #being satisfied with himself #pleasing everyone at the same time. risking the lifes of others and himself but also nothing at the same time #has to kill his wife for the princess. doesn't succeed #as if that is some type of balance #i get the fear and how he has to protect his family and his plan of revenge but i wan't to shake him at the same time #*hurt voice* now you don't play dead anymore??!! now that you want to cut all ties with me??!!! but you are dead!!! so you have to understa #nd that i choose my 'living' family over you

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