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notalostcausejustyet · 1 year ago

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I’ve already attached this to a re-blog, but it feels like something that I want to post as a standalone as well. Sometimes I scream into the tumblr void about shit. Thanks to a gifted copy of The Body Keeps the Score I’m doing more DIY therapy work and processing some of my thoughts through the interwebs. So here’s a brain thing.

🎶Let’s talk about projection baby, let’s talk about you and me!!🎶 All joking aside, so many of us who deal with CPTSD use fictional works to process our trauma. We are outsourcing emotions and memories that we, for whatever reason, struggle to deal with unless there is some remove from the immediacy of them. We seek to find ourselves in characters, parallels in stories and situations for our own experiences. We live their struggles and triumphs as our own and so find catharsis within them. Aziraphale as a character is a particularly good example of this. He’s doing the thing so many of us who are trying to convince everyone else and ourselves that “we’re FINE, thank you!” do. He isn’t really processing his shit. He’s putting it on a third party to release some pressure before he completely loses it. And in so doing, us the audience, have gained a character that we both empathize and sympathize with, and in turn, use to work through much of our own trauma. I honestly think that’s why so many of us are waiting for S3 with bated breath. We need Az to figure it out. We need them both to heal. To defeat the odds. To find happiness. We’re all waiting for that because we need to believe that it’s something we can have too. If this Angel who foists 6 millennia of grief and rage and maddening questions about the “why” of everything off into an entire bookshop’s worth of stories and characters, if he can figure it out…surely we can too. Surely there is hope for us buried somewhere in the stacks. Surely there is some understanding that can be found, some catharsis or healing within the lines of these narratives. So we’re all holding our breath, our hope and our hearts, in our hands, waiting to finish the story, and in so doing, complete some part of ourselves. Finally framing those cracks where the light comes in, into something beautiful.

#good omens #aziraphale #good omens meta #DIY therapy it’s like DIY electrical you can but you’ll probably get zapped a few times #tumblr is the void into which we scream #come void scream with me we’ll be like the hallelujah chorus #but off key terribly off key it’s amazing #projection and displacement are integral parts of aziraphale's character #self projection #this is really good diy therapy though we’re all out here being diyers #doing the work #books that saved our lives #books have always saved my life #neil gaiman #Neil Gaiman we are in your walls

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notalostcausejustyet · 1 year ago

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I was asked today how I got to be the way I am. And I said “life. But really, books. Books told me who I wanted to be. And since I have no dragons to slay, I choose to be kind”

On Love and Community

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#choosing kindness #kindness is its own sort of heroic deed #I will always choose to be the type of protagonist I admired #kind thoughtful intelligent compassionate patient and enduring #books have always saved my life

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jesse-pinko · 4 months ago

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Me when a character is relentlessly looked down on and ridiculed and dismissed by everyone around them including the people they love so they start to believe in and actively play into people’s negative perceptions of them but at the end of the day they still make the choice to be better and do better bc they always had the capacity for good and so much love to give they just had nowhere to put it

#this is ab jesse pinkman and stanley pines #idk as someone who spent most of their life thinking they were a terrible person and becoming a worse person for it #the idea that these characters were never inherently bad and that they can always choose to be better #and esp that other people’s judgements are sometimes less ab you and more ab them or societal expectations #idk man idk i just think these types of characters may have saved my life or whatever #breaking bad #brba #gravity falls #the book of bill

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twinstxrs · 1 year ago

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there’s probably something deeply wrong with me because every time i see someone react to the pok gukgak interrogation scene it’s like “oh no oh my god is riz’s dad a bad guy?” when the first time i saw that scene my only thought was “oh my god is riz’s dad HOT??”

#i mean admittedly my instinct was that he was lying about what he was saying & he was a good guy (which i was right about) but #it truly was like pok: i don’t give a shit about my wife & kid i only care about this job / me: pok gukgak save me… save me pok gukgak #fantasy high #dimension 20 #pok gukgak #riz gukgak #in my defense i really love spies so watching someone convincingly act indifferent about the most important part of their life… CRAZYYY #but i still feel like i’m setting back feminism so many years but also. he got acid splashed on his face & didn’t even flinch… that’s hot #guy who would literally go through hell & back bc it’s for the greater good but would also if he had to do it for the people he loves #but like. the greater good always came before the people he loves. that was the job. he loved them so much but he also missed so much #how much WAS he willing to sacrifice for the sake of the job? work is a great form of love but it can’t be the only form #especially for a young kid. but yea idk i have complicated feelings #pok gukgak u r so fascinating to me #pok sklonda riz & work as a form of love or whatever #truly would not work as a campaign & would be better as a book but young pok young kalina young sklonda… i need to know EVERYTHINGGG #the shameful thirst post -> character rumination journey of these tags is truly Something but also par for the course w/ my brain

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shalom-iamcominghome · 6 months ago

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Since you’re really getting into the world of Jewish music, have you heard of chilik frank ? He’s a chossid who does ashkenaz/Klezmer. My absolute fav song from him is a song called ‘Rabi meir omer’ !

Ughh one thing I love about kletzmer is the emphasis on clarinet so many songs have. It makes me want to pick mine back up and play this by ear...

As well, this is how it feels to play clarinet:

#ask #jumblr #jewish music #when i was first learning clarinet in school we all had a music book and i always gravitated toward playing the jewish or kletzmer-ish song #i didn't know it was kletzmer or jewish but i knew i absolutely LOVED playing that style of music #i have ALWAYS adored how that music style has sounded. deep in my heart i knew i belonged in a kletzmer band #anon thank you <3 #i SERIOUSLY need to get my claronet out but i don't know how i'd explain to my family why i'd be playing obviously 'foreign' music #i haven't picked up my clarinet in years........#do reeds expire ....#i love learning songs by playing them by ear. i learned a lot of songs through this and even made claronet parts to songs that don't have i #i'd walk around during marching band practice with my earbud in playing parts over and over. i bet it was annoying to my peers LMAO #my toxic trait was listening to music while marching and playing music (not during comps obviously just during band camp)#it was so bad i listened to one song eight hours a day (more like ten) every day for two weeks #even AFTER band camp i would replay it on my walk to my ex's house. and it was a twenth minute walk or so. it was BAD.#UMMM. apparently reeds DO expire. funny. some of my reeds i used for half a year or more #and these websites are saying to replace them biweekly? no way. no fucking way #i don't care. i'll let my reeds grow a culture of their own if they play well (slight hyperbole)#vandorens are GREAT but they're pricy. i am NOT shelling out my life savings for three reeds

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fatehbaz · 8 months ago

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#thinking of dinosaurs and troodontids were my favorite dinosaurs as a child #when younger i had a real full troodontid tooth fossil that meant a lot to me #for a time we lived within a few kilometers of hadrosaur sites and troodontid sites #while wider general area had many sites of recovery for the big celebrities like tyrannosaur and multiple dromaeosaurs #at that time troodontids were kinda infamous for i think the depiction in some childrens field guides and dino books #which depicted like a fantasy speculative humanoid troodontid based on 1980s model at Canadian Museum of Nature in ottawa #anyway would visit a small local paleo center a lot and woman in her 70s or 80s ran the counter of their center and rock shop #one day she asked me what my fave dino was and i said troodon so she pulled out the tooth and just gifted it to me #in little black case size of ring box with padding and transparent plastic viewing cover kinda like laminate for displaying a trading card #tooth got stolen from out my vehicle while giving some people a ride while at university before i got too poor for tuition #later during first year of pandemic owner of my storage unit died and new property owners threw away everything i ever owned #i was homeless anyway lost job due to early pandemic closures and had to allocate any money to insulin and other prescrip meds #but wouldve found a way to save my things if the new owners had contacted me #they threw out photoalbums y backpacking gear y books y musical instruments y clothes y artwork y camera y all family keepsakes #and all childhood treasures like souvenirs and gifts and school awards and writing portfolios and all the little memories #which i was always sentimental about as child #from earliest age my room looked like a natural history museum with plants and maps and library of field guides #and rocks and field trip keepsakes and all kinds of little animal figurines and mother had painted room in forest greens and browns #to feel like a forest and among the succulent plants and a globe sat the troodon tooth #parents passed when i was a child #never near any family and were always moving never got to settle into proper stable place then father passed after long sad illness #and mother put in so much effort but she passed few years later and i could not take care of myself or my remaining material possessions #and so im still quite hurt having nothing whatsoever remaining of my childhood or school friends or mother or life generally #and when trying to process grief my thoughts often come back to the troodontid tooth as a focal point a distillation of what was lost #even when young i knew it was advised not to become too connected to material physical possessions #but still there are some small little trinkets in our lives that seem to hold so much meaning and i tortured myself for losing that tooth #thinking about troodon reminds me of childhood

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seilon · 5 months ago

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love when this is referred to as the gifted kid website. shockingly my mental disorders made me mentally disordered and school never really vibed with that so. couldn’t be me

#ppl always talking about their whatever grade reading level and how many books they’d read as kids and im just over here like🧍🏽#I’ve never been actually bad at english or reading but I couldn’t focus on reading books to save my fucking life #I hated those sheets where you had to read like a certain number of books or whatever over the course of a semester or the year or whatever #my GATE test scores for english were super high but my math was bad enough that I never qualified #and adhd made me not even perform well in English half the time because I couldn’t pay attention I couldn’t read long books I couldn’t turn #in my assignments or if I did they were late and etc etc etc #don’t get me started with math #I was the worst in my class in third grade at minute math and never made it to the levels of minute math my classmates did #(they posted results on the wall for everyone to see)#and in 6th grade I was put into an additional remedial math class #throughout middle-high school I was at the level of most classmates in terms of the classes I took but that’s only because I was not allowe #to fail and was put through absolute fucking hell with a billion tutors and grueling hours of extra work from them and blah blah blah #like I remember how I felt in those tutoring sessions and half the time I actually wanted to cry.#I didn’t start doing solidly genuinely Good in school until senior year of high school.#not coincidentally around the same time I started taking adderall I think #I had accommodations by 9th grade but they didn’t do that much except for the function that let me turn in assignments up to 2 days late #without penalty. which i had teachers question sometimes and i had to pull the Yeah it’s Literally Against The Law to not allow me this car #anyway. point is. i was never in the gate program and most of my friends were and it was mostly adhd related #adhd is considered such a quirky nothing disorder nowadays that I don’t even like mentioning I have it really. because what people think of #when I say the term is Not what i actually dealt with and made school torturous and made my parents lash out at me for things and etc etc #depression and dysphoria did not help either. but I digress #I’m not sure why im making this post #kibumblabs

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atopvisenyashill · 4 months ago

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do love how this is an asoiaf blog but i did not put either show in my top 10 this is the world we live in

#the only season that really compares to the book is season 1.#the rest even when they’re engaging have changed something that feels so central to the hook that i’m mad aksjd.#getting on my soap box #if iwtv s3 is good it may knock someone out. probably qaf.#bsg is p high up there i just think season 4 really suffered on pacing & the suspicious nature of who dies annoyed me.#veep is also very high up there tbh i need to rewatch it. the thing is. as we know. i am a romantic at heart and amy & jonah have my favorit #sitcom relationship. veep has genuinely one of the best finales to ever exist but i’m a sap.#and amy coming back to tell jonah that he made her realize she doesn’t actually have to expect the worst from life. oh my god.#also superstore >>> parks & rec >>> the office bc superstore never romanticized the hell of their job #amy quitting her corporate job when she realized she would never be able to make the changes she wanted within the system she was always #going to compromise too much and wind up like jeff. glenn reopening his dad’s hardware shop & specifically who goes w him & who stays w gina #at the store? it has what the other two lack which is characters that feel like they keep existing after you stop watching #BECAUSE the way they interacted with the world was so real and so much more realistic. amy can’t fix the system but she can find a job that #she doesn’t feel is so soul sucking. glenn may be choosing a harder path by reopening the hardware store but it’s the one that makes him #most fulfilled. gina just gets to make money and be bossy w people who do what they’re told. that rings so true to me.#i almost out bojack horseman in here too actually but once again i think the last season just needed to be a tad longer just like bsg.#also same issue w pitch as w bly manor - it’s an amazingly written season of tv but it’s ONE season of tv #big brother as always outsells yes i am hoping to tempt some of u into watching by posting dan & ian in the dog costume #i have that gif and the ‘sit’ scene saved on my phone always

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frobby · 6 months ago

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i love madoka magica however i dont think we as a fandom talk enough about how tragic madoka herself is. probably because the narrative itself steers you away from thinking about her personally. shes not a character shes a desire that homura has, shes a force of good, shes homura's foil. but those are all madoka's narrative roles but madoka herself as a person is not really looked at because we are viewing this world from an unreliable narrator(homura) who only sees madoka as those things. The best thing homura could have done for madoka was give up on her, to let her go. because every time we go back in time the image of madoka is distorted, she loses more of herself every regression of homura's as she tries harder and harder to save her. We don't even know what madoka originally wished for to become a magical girl in the original timeline. and she actually acts quite differently than the madoka we meet. shes a lot more honest and caring and bold. by the time homura's has reached the actual anime madoka has been reduced by the sands of time to a figment of herself. she has no wants or desires of her own beyond wanting to do good and help her friends and when all her humanity is stripped away is when she finally acends to godhood because thats all thats left of her. an ideal and a faith in her. madoka kaname died a long time ago and all that is left is her ghost.

#of course homura doesnt care anymore because she cant go back she can only go forward cuz if she gives up she killed madoka for nothing #she could have left her pass away with dignity but now shes a ghost stuck in a web of time and the only thing she can do is keep trying #to save her #i feel like inately homura knows this but she doesnt want to admit to herself thats shes the real one who killed madoka kaname #this is a very charitable reading of homura #homura died too but its a clear moment because homura is our narrator #homura akemi will never come back madoka kaname will never come back #but life goes on anyway for homura #heres my truth #i loved rebellion but im actually a bigger fan of the original anime's ending so im glad it seems like red ribbon homu is coming back #i thought that ending was a lot more hopeful and beautiful and rebellion was kind of a downer but i always accepted they were parallel #and seems im right based on posters #for walpurgis #madoka uses one of my favorite literary devices which is the underuse of a character #i dont know whats it called but i love it when they dont outright develop a character usually to signal an upholding of the status quo #i already explained how madoka is not shown as a character but they do this in princess tutu too with mytho #mytho is a character from a book hes not real in the way that the others are and therefore cant actually change like the others can #hes always the focus of others and never the one thinking of others #i mean yeah he spends like the whole anime thinking about tutu but thats PART of his book its not him as a person #anyway ive been talking too much but i wanna bring up my favorite subtle use of this in takopi's original sin #the boy #idk his name rn lmao #hes straight up not present for the bulk of the manga and hes legit just absent from the ending scene despite being one point of a triangle #at first that weirded me out like??? he doesnt get closure???#but the reason was he didnt need it #the focus and moral is that those girls were 'weird' unable to be normal (because of trauma) and their closure was theyre at least together #but he doesnt need that because hes already normal hes the status quo a benchmark for the reader for the reader to judge the characters off #and the characters to judge eachother off of #anyway anyway sorry this has been so long #i had to get all of that out of me

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harrowscore · 4 months ago

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now that i've finished my fist original novel (plus the additional material like the epilogue and the male co-protagonist's letter to the main character, which is a dive into his - very troubled - psyche* and a sign of his atonement...), it'll be difficult to leave it all behind ngl. i grew so fond of the characters, the themes i tried (and probably failed) to explore... i'm going to miss them. thankfully i have other projects to focus on, but still - it'll be hard to turn the page once and for all.

#*as massimo troisi said tiene n'orchestra 'n cap but fr #i have my batb retelling to console me #and i'm also planning another og work - a gothic ghost story with a haunted mansion and themes of mental illness and feminism #which is much more personal than my previous works as you can imagine #though i always put something of myself inside everything i write #anyway unsung (that's the name of this first book) was a very emotionally draining project #(it's about some serious sensitive stuff. which is why i don't want to publish it or make money out of it)#so in a way it's a relief to have it finished it... but still. it's a story that ironically saved me in what's probably been #my darkest days yet #so... yeah i'm going to miss writing about it. tho it's satisfying to have completed it of course #writing life #val speaks #txt

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landgraabbed · 2 years ago

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sometimes you gotta take in the lil details

#non sims #i'll come up with a skyrim tag #in my tes era again #(always i just go sleeper agent on it ig)#still in my modding skyrim era i'm sick so that's not v conductive to me actually playing morrowind so this is what i've been doing #sad bc nammu made some good progress he joined house redoran he's actually level 3 and somehow keeps invading every vampire tomb #(i run away bc i cannot deal w that right now)#his slave bracers finally broke off <3 #i'll compile some screens and post tomorrow maybe #i truly am the people todd coward thinks about when bethany esda is concocting the latest installment of weird ass lore told through #environmental storytelling and esoteric books and an open world crafted with meticulous detail cursed with bugs up the wazoo #but yeah modding skyrim is being surprisingly fun after i figured out mod organizer #i have bookmarked some mods that require me to regen lods dyndolod or whatever it's called but i'll do that at the end #at least in morrowind that's how i do it #i did my engine fixes my bug fixes my graphics and sounds overhauls my model replacers enb landscapes and now my cities and locations mods #armor next and then i'll start overhauling combat #i'm gunning for dark souls like bc that combat style suits me rly well and i always hated melee in skyrim #(re: armors sforz i looked at your imitations previews and i'm in love i'll have fun experimenting w/ them i owe u my life)#but yeah...... 99% of my skyrim experience has been in ps save for a brief moment i pirated it on release on my shitty laptop i had then #it's been wonderful to actually mod it

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ablednt · 4 months ago

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I like how the death of literacy is because tumblr users watch kids cartoons and not that we live in a capitalist hellscape where you don't own what you have and curating your internet space to include anything of substance is increasingly inaccessible

#sorry im thinking abt the ppl who post abt this #obviously im biased im the kids show enjoyer im gonna say im not the problem #but like I have to pirate most of the books I read because my library doesn't have much available online and going into town is a bit of #an ordeal not factoring in that ebooks are way more accessible for my dyslexia and brightness sensitivity (and also need to be lying down #most of my day bc. bad back)#and I'm literally IN A HIGHLY WALKABLE ACCESSIBLE TOWN #I'm not defending ppl who r like #wow this real life problem is just like my blorbos #but thats not a kids media exclusive L and more importantly if you want people to read more you gotta make it like. appealing #like u gotta qctually hype up reading but ur so irony poisoned it's always the wrong kind of book or they're not engaging with it correctly #and if they do it exactly like you want but then don't make it their entire personality then clearly they're just doing it for your approval #I think the 2000s going so hard on reading and being a kid who reads that it becomes a special chosen one heroic not like other girls trait #was a mistake bc now a bunch of 20 somethings think that they're single handedly saving their generation from degeneracy #by like calling their peers cringy #this wasn't prompted by anyone btw im just thinking of old posts on here

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crimeronan · 2 years ago

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i seem to finally be coming off a flare that's lasted....... fuck knows how long. most of the month at least. i woke up today only wheezing a little and not having a headache even before taking my meds. took a heavy-duty anti-inflammatory just now to kill the remaining symptoms, i'm gonna do some dishes and then go pick up yet Another prescription for More heavy-duty anti-inflammatory drugs, bc that's my life now. send prayers or good vibes into the universe that i have more than a day or two of freedom from The Hellfires. i need this So Fucking Bad.

#i never realize how unbelievably sick i've felt until i stop feeling so sick #like wow. girl none of your organs work right. what gives #also send prayers and good vibes that the rheumatology office CALLS ME OR ONE OF MY PARTNERS SOON TO SCHEDULE #i have job work and chores and errands to do but if i manage to do all of that #i might even be able to hold a PEN right now. and COLOR in a COLORING BOOK #what sweet marvelous freedom. my hands have been too fucked up to do this for weeks.#autoimmune tag #i'm sick in a way that has partners/friends flying here impromptu to make sure i'm taken care of if there's a Bad bad emergency #and WHILE SICK i'm always like. hm idk if things are bad enough to warrant this #then upon feeling better i'm like. NEVER MIND THANK YOU FOR SAVING MY LIFE #god. bodies are stupid.

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leatherbookmark · 2 years ago

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an interesting thing abt jgy antis is like. where is the source of their, shall we say, negative opinion of jgy? like, 1. jgy is a villain, he does horrible things with no remorse, he’s willing to do everything to achieve his selfish, egotistical goals. --> 2. the source of this claim: this, this and this scene. --> 3. alright, but to me -- says someone who’s not an anti -- this reads differently. that he did all those things, and did them on purpose and without remorse, is not that obvious to me. why do you think that? --> 4. well, obviously because he’s a villain and does horrible things with no remorse.

like... he’s evil because he does bad things, and he does bad things because he’s evil. i’m interested in how antis came by those opinions, but a, unfortunately i have them all blocked, and b, even if i or someone else made a poll, it wouldn’t be authentic because no sane anti is going to say “well, people hated him and wrote all those things about him on twt, so i started hating him as well”, or “i only care about wgxn, you could sell me anything about other characters if your arguments were convincing enough because i zoned out during the parts when wgxn weren’t on screen/pages of the book”. it’s all “written in the book/shown in the show” and “logical arguments you’d agree with if only you could read”.

#thinking back to my early c/q/l days where i reblogged this dumb ass meta abt how jgy FOR SURE pushed lxc away because he WANTED HIM #to be tormented by uncertainty forever. like 'the worst person you know just saved your life; what now' kinda thing #i was like oh... THIS IS SO RIGHT... because it felt bittersweet and painful and i am Still guilty of accepting/agreeing with headcanons #or interpretations that aren't 100% what i think because i have this ingrained idea that other people are always more mature and #sophisticated and smarter than me and so they Know Better #the person (i think?) later went on to write a meta abt how jgy is a badwrong narcissist. so #(this is also the reason why i spent months praising and getting excited abt a fic where jgy was dating nmj for like a decade despite #not loving him; and why he cheated on him many times with lxc Just Because. i didn't think jgy would do something like that but everyone #else was like omg this is SOOOOO good so i was like shit i guess it is! IT'S SOOOO GOOD OMG;;;;; have i mentioned i have no brain on #my own? yea)#anyway i'm not gonna paint myself as this genius from the first watch because I Too had wgxn goggles fucking ON and didn't even notice #the box hand touch during my first watch. (have i mentioned i am not very smart or observant) and when wwx was whistling ghosts at jgy #and jgy was clearly Going Thru It in the guanyin temple i was like 'haha good for him'#but iirc i Was nonetheless drawn to him (although xy was first <3) and it was like. well he's evilbad but maybe he felt bad when he murdered #his child? --> well maybe he's not 100% evilbad... maybe... --------------> a-yao did nothing wrong and i will kill you if you even suggest #otherwise. (<-- a joke.)#anyway a whole bunch of antis seem like kindasorta stuck in that initial wgxn-centered; everyone else either has 2 personality traits Max #or is either wgxn allies (good) or wgxn Haters (we hates them forever!) just like. unwilling to accept any new viewpoints At All #and then there are Types of those jgy antis because you have people who hate him for Other Reasons and people who hate them because they.#honestly seem like they've only read moralistic books for young children where the brave kind hero is the one you're supposed to cheer for #and want to be like; and the villain has all the traits you're supposed to know are Bad (mean greedy selfish lazy etc) AND NOTHING ELSE.#its like that *man who only saw boss baby watching another movie* damn this is giving me some serious boss baby vibes ! meme #anyway. love it when the tags are 3x longer than the post. cheers #shrimp thoughts

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memorydragon · 1 year ago

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I am on my gay coproganda bs again and am so Normal about it.

Devotion as a love language, Yan Xie you're killing me.

#this is Mem's life #Listen #this was my gateway drug into danmei #with both novels finally translated I'm So Very Normal #anyway #wait till I get to Tun Hai #if I'm being this Normal about Jiang Ting and his dumbass #I was always more invested in the second book's ship more #Yan Xie is almost catching up with that Devotion though #Jiang Ting stop making your dumbass cry #I'm absolutely living with the Yan Xie/Yang Mei broship though #rivals to saving each other to bitching each other out to Yan Xie comforting her #I would not have called that back when I first read the first arc #Yang Mei came into her own and I love it #when Huai Shang stays away from yanderes and focuses on murder and coproganda I live #tall orders from an author who apparently writes a lot of yanderes #at least I have her gay coproganda even if I can't make it through her other novels XD #also is it technically coproganda if I'm reminded constantly of how I never want to be arrested here?#seriously the human rights atrocities they get away with...

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trashbaget · 1 year ago

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tagged by my beloved april @heartbeatdiaz <33

bold (or otherwise mark in your preferred fruity way) all that apply:

APPEARANCE: i'm over 5'5" // i wear glasses/contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i typically wear make-up // i don't often smile // i am pleased with how i look // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backwards

HOBBIES AND TALENTS: i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks (if i can afford it) // i can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIP: i am in a relationship // i have been single for over a year // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long distance relationship // i am an only child / i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

AESTHETICS: i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sun rise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colours // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

MISCELLANEOUS: i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least three dogs

tagging with ALL of the pressure (totally very really absolutely jk i love yall <3): @enbyeddiediaz almost wrote pinkpurse?? babe. it hasn’t been that for a while why’d i think that lmao @firemedicdiaz @barbiediaz @evcndiaz @prince-buck-diaz @alyxmastershipper @911onabc ehh that’s enough for now <3

#some notes:#i am 5’5 ANDAHALF!!!#which totally counts as over !!#idrk if i PreFeR loose to tight but i do really enjoy it lmao #i have one lobe set pierced but i rarely have earrings in bc im a massive head rester and it’s always stabby pully central out there #i know a sufficient enough bit of french and some asl to reasonably count this as i Know more than one language despite not speaking fluentl #i dont have them anymore but i won sooooo many trophies and ribbons in cheerleading competitions and girl scout derbies when i was a kid #i definitely haven’t finished any but i have one hundo started new book series this year #oh the cooking! i am a god. (when i know what i’m making)#(i cannot bake to save my life though)#i don’t remember any specific time i’ve slept under stars but it’s definitely probably happened before #i am definitely the mom friend but i am definitely all the other friends too. i am an enigma wrapped in an enigma #i am a fake redhead sobs #tag games!#shut up im holding the trashtalking breadstick

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