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I've heard of sticker clubs but I was watching tama-kid's newest video and heard about trinket clubs for the first time!
Same idea as sticker clubs (pay an artist a small monthly fee and get a big sticker or sticker sheet made specially for each month) but with 3D printed little dudes!
I don't know any artists other than the one tama showed in their video that has a trinket club.......I hope there are more out there.....ovo
#its such a cute ideaaaaaa ; o ;#the artist Tama talked abt is fizzpop on twitter ⭐#also their vid was rlly cool! i got to see how much work rlly goes into building a garage kit...hooo#im slowly getting more and more interested in garage kits...but im trying to restrain myself becos i KNOW im not good at this kinda art#or rather i dont have the patience;;;;;#ive never been good at stuff where i have to step away to let something dry or cure#i always end up forgetting abt it and then losing motivation ;;; its rlly frustrating for me#reasons i hate painting unless its watercolors or gouche and in a little sketchbook or smthn#anyways im rambling lol#scout.txt
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i just randomly felt like doing a render since i havent done those frequently at all this year www and who else would it be of if not yuu
#re:kinder#fanart#yuuichi mizuoka#my art#i just really wanted to draw yuu and even though i have a lot of wips and visions i didnt feel like executing them just yet#i wanted something a bit more mindless for my brain to do and i remembered i have the ability to do renders#i used to do em like. A LOT around when i was 14 to 15??? like before i really started posting frequently here#and before the fibromyalgia randomly kicked in mid 2022#since then i pretty much just indulged in staying in my comfort zone www since i couldnt do much#BUT NOW THAT IM ON MEDS I SIT DOWN AND I REMEMBER I CAN RENDER🫣🫣#like ive been drawing a lot all this time regardless but render render is a whole other patience thing render is fight for life#AND I DIDNT FEEL LIKE IT TILL NOW RANDOMLY SO. WE GET A PROPER YUU RENDER#i think ive done one once but it was experimental and a simple challenge mainly based on color rather than the render part#but no no it couldnt stay that way what kind of rekinder fan am i if i havent even done a proper render of it😢#i hope this makes sense i now realize i have no idea how people would interpret the term render#and I WILL DO MORE DEFINITELY i have visions okay i have. visions#wait no i have done another rekinder render actually it was a hiroto one i posted while i was trying to do daily rekinder drawing#but that was done on a 1-2 hour limit to be started and finished the same day SO IT DONT COUNT!!!!!
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#not finihing this btw but like#still bouncing around the idea of a dating sim thanks to that cosme fanart im still obsessed w so i came up w these.. might keep em idk#weve got the MC still dont have much ab her bc i focused on the others tbh#and shes the inspiration of an abstract artist whod rather die than admit her fave drawings are based on some pretty outfits she saw MC wea#and the way she makes her feel; then shes also the muse of a self appointed poet who yet cant bring herself to write how MCs hair shines li#e the moon and the stars cling onto her coat; and last but not least we have a wannabe musician who just got her first instrument and cant#quite play it let alone make her own music and she wont say it but even tho the lyrics of the songs she practices w never quite match she#always thinks of MC. will i ever make a game ab this? hell no dont have the patience#art#my art#also based the uniforms onthe ones i used to wear... this is a latam school so like. most likely no clubs just quirky kids#DAMN THATS A LOT OF TEXT
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a friend who'd wait :)
#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol#finn's ocs#finn's art#i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me#and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun#i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past#he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it#he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned#which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them#they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore#but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird#and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place#though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library#and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together#since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door#eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement#barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate#but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd#he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself#but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov#sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3#but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh
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#there is a certain someone..#(izzy)#who i would love to talk about more#not even in an overly critical way!!#just his actions in the actual show...#but I just don't bother cause i really dont have the energy to deal with his fans#cause i feel like even the mildest statement of#'hey this thing he did kinda sucks'#will piss people off#and maybe im being overdramatic#maybe ive blocked the majority of the people who act like that#as im sure its a minority#but i dont feel like finding out#i have zero tolerance or patience for internet slapfighting so id rather just avoid it entirely#hmm#anyway#ollie rambles
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I try so hard to be understanding and put myself in other people's shoes... But sometimes I listen to people complain about their problems and wonder if they realize how they sound.
Like I'm so sorry you got belligerently drunk and picked a fight with one of your five boyfriends last night. I was busy mourning my grandmother on what would have been her 75th birthday but yes you're so right, you had a terrible night and definitely need to leave work early because you're sad and hungover
#im sorry but i have no patience today#and yeah i know that losing a grandparent isnt as tragic as losing a child or a partner#but my grandma was my second mom and she played more of a role in raising me than my own dad#so yeah im really fucking sad that she didn't get to live to see her 75th birthday or celebrate her 55th wedding anniversary#or get to meet her great grandchildren or see her kids become grandparents themselves#but then my coworker comes in bitching non stop about their boy problems#i guess i dont understand bc my relationship is actually pretty great and i try not to be toxic and she does too#but some people love to pick fights then act all sad like it was something that happened to them rather than something they did#literally haven't posted in a year but i had to rant because im annoyed lol#ramblings
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true strength — batman secret files (2018) #1
(ID below cut!)
[ID: A short story with a guiding narration:
His knuckles ache with each blow, bone grinding into bone. The criminals shout what they always shout. And Superman comes from above. — We're shown Batman fighting against several men that are trying to overpower him. He blocks an attack as he strikes another man. Above him, in the far distance, Superman is soaring through the air to get to him and help.
Superman gives a speech. They've been friends for so long. Colleagues. Soldiers in the fight. Superman knows his soul, he says. He knows he's a good man, he says. — Now, in the safety of the Batcave, Batman sits in front of his computer desk. He's facing Superman, who's standing in front of him with his hand outstretched. He opens his fist to reveal what he's brought.
Inside the Phantom Zone there is an impossible universe. Inside the impossible universe is an impossible planet. On the impossible planet is a small, impossible rock. Platinum Kryptonite. — Bruce pushes his cowl off as Superman presents the radiant silver rock to him.
It gives you powers. Powers like Superman's. Superman tells him to touch it. “Just touch it, Bruce, just once, and it lasts a lifetime. Then you can fight as I fight, as you should fight. With true strength.” A smile. A whoosh. Superman leaves. — Superman leaves the Kryptonite on the desk before he departs. Bruce doesn't move any closer. He stares at it somberly, deep in thought.
He looks at the gift. His mind wanders. — A red-tinted multipanel sequence shows Bruce imagining a scenario if he did gain Superman's powers. A woman is being held hostage by the Joker. She has a gun pressed to her temple as she stares at Batman with fear. Silently begging him to help and to save her like how he's saved countless others. The Joker pulls the trigger. But before she can be another person he couldn't possibly save, Batman's eyes glow with red electricity. He vaporizes the bullet with heat vision before it can even finish leaving the barrel.
He keeps his hands at his side. His knuckles ache. At least two of them are broken. Footsteps echoing down the stairs. The smell of stirred milk and white sugar. A polite clearing of the throat. Alfred says nothing. Their routines are well established, words are unnecessary. — Bruce continues to stare intensely at the well-intended present as Alfred approaches him with a tray. Bruce finally tears his gaze away from the Kryptonite to look at his lifelong friend before looking down at the steaming teacup that Alfred hands him.
His hand shakes. His loose knuckles stab into his skin. He can’t hold on. He always has before. But now he can’t. — His hand continues to tremble and before he can take a single sip of the hot drink, the cup is shattering against the ground.
The pain is not great. Not as great as it has been. Not as great as a bullet burrowing, or a back breaking, or a knife sinking into his throat. This is nothing. But still. His knuckles ache. — Bruce grabs his own gloved hand, cradling the back of his broken knuckles. He looks up and quietly asks, “Alfred. Am I enough?”
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#happy sad boy sunday !!!#here's your reminder that imposter syndrome is something very real and something anyone can experience.#there'll always be those fears that you arent enough or capable of something. that others are better and you're a fraud#but those fears arent reality. you're where youre at and you're capable of doing these things#(rather it be art to writing to academia to saving a cursed city) because YOU put in the effort and made it possible.#just because you may struggle doesnt mean youre incapable of these things or you dont belong suddenly. it just means youre human.#its okay to struggle. its okay to have bad days even with things you been capable of doing flawlessly before. youre not suddenly#a failure. youre not lying to anyone or yourself. it just means you have to treat yourself with more patience and kindness and#remember to take a breath. remember to allow yourself to learn and grow or to approach something difficult with the wisdom that it wont#always be & that its okay to have an off day/week/month/year. youre human. these moments are going to happen. its inevitable.#you're still doing great and im proud of you for just being here. try to be proud of yourself too; u deserve it.#c: batman secret files (2018) | i: 1#crypt's panels#transcrypts#posts from the crypt#bruce wayne#batman#superman#there's something to be said about clark trusting bruce enough to give him this opportunity but.... thats another post jdofhc
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You ever sit in a fandom space for so long that now looking at it kind of makes you want to rip your nails off.
Yeah.
#feeling this with Omori#ill look at my recommended tags and see some shit and immediately think “thats enough for today.”#granted alot of the community is children so of course theres gunna be cringey posts and that's fine#but then theres times its just weird and i realise i am far to tired for this shit now#i wanted to try and get into fandom spaces to be myself more and open up but i have now just gotten tired#but ultimately this was also the point in my life i was having an identity crisis and i like to think i have changed alot over the last year#im tired of everyone being called out as a predator or twelve year olds fighting over stupid shit#id rather focus my energy into my real life problems and not the latest “blorboscimbosimp24” drama#christ sometimes i regret getting into omori which is sad because its a game near and dear to my heart#but everyday theres some new shit that happens that sends people fucking feral#and also omocat herself is just a whole can of worms i just cannot be assed with.#that's not to say i hate everything about fandoms. ive met and talked to some really nice people and i enjoy their stuff#but still i have so little patience for peoples bullshit#sorry for ranting but im done with everyones horseshit and people being predators and wether or not omocat is a creep#i dont know i sort of dont care because god knows i have far more pressing matters in my personal life that need my attention#also this doesn't mean im not talking or posting about omori. i still like it but fuck man sometimes it feels awkward saying i like it#rant#random rambles
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So I go to a gay church in my area because I like the community and it is honestly incredible to see old queers every week. But I've been thinking recently about this particular dynamic in the bible study group.
in the group there is this gay catholic and and a nonbinary communist who are both retirement age and butt heads on every topic, with the Catholic very adamant in his positions and being sure of his being right about How To Christianity. Then the Communist who has studied other religions and is much more concerned with the Divinity found in humanity than some invisible Patriarch making all the rules. and it as me thinking about the Uber Right Wing politics of a buncha christians, and how 'traditional christianity' really does make sense with their political views (and lets be honest, it was designed that way)
because like, the Catholic. He means well, but basically always falls back to "Yeah God is easy. He is perfect and mysterious and we can't understand him but we have to follow his rules and those rules are the Bible and the Catholic Doctrine." Which. Every time I hear him talk I cant help but hear right wing rhetoric about not questioning established authority and how those in power got there in the first place.
For example, there was a discussion about Sin. and the Catholic goes on the expected spiel of "Sin is these actions as defined by bible and to be rid of sin you have to do the 3 step plan that the church made up which goes like admit guilt, apologize, then repent by not doing the thing again and also pray about it. Bam Done. Easy Peasy."
He kept repeating this line of reasoning even when this other guy, a New guy who specifically doesn't like Christianity because of people who prescribe how to think and act, as it is a trigger for New guy. But the Catholic couldn't tell that. His Catholic Programming wasn't able to compute any other way of a Correct Relationship with Religion. It felt incredibly reminiscent of something along the lines of "oh its easy to not get arrested, just don't to a crime sweaty :))))" type rhetoric.
and I don't have the writing skills to make extensive conclusions and tie all the strings together but I just wanted to share this pattern I see. where right wing Evangelical Christians have their view on life baked in in every aspect of their beliefs. and its frustrating!!! because religion even including Christianity can be a helpful tool for spirituality/hope in the world/ community for people but just like any system of power, it is important to question the structure, and who is in power and why. And like most power structures that want to maintain that structure, Christianity and Right Wing rhetoric often go hand in hand in their ability to drive any questioning out.
Anyhow, shoutout to Alien the 70ish year old nonbinary racing champ with an intersex cat they are my hero and I love them for having the energy to push back against the Catholic and his rigid power structures.
#I really wanted to make this into a tighter essay or something but I'd rather have done than perfect at the moment#I have so many thoughts about gay church#did you know there are conservatives there??? I dont think the catholic is but I work there at the food pantry and theres like 3 whole#whole people that hate poor people but still volunteer I want to study them but I don't have the patience#anyhow#Christianity#religion#musings#i think I had a tag for original text posts once
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i finished the merry wives of windsor today btw. 4 shakespeare plays left to go
#tales from diana#i'm in a pickle bc i've been burning through the remainders in the last year or so in a way that makes me... melancholic#i didnt hate merry wives even though i wasn't looking forward to it for a very long time bc i knew it was mostly prose#im neither a big falstaff fan (im sorry) not do i get the most charm from shakespeare from his prose#but admittedly it was still rather enjoyable as a comedy. you dont get a lot of fake cuckoldry plots from shakespeare specifically#not in comedy certainly! so i enjoyed the trickery of it#not the worst shakespeare play as far as pure entertainment value at all. nothing's as boring as henry viii#that one was a big disappointment#i have one play in each category left (counting the romances as their own category) (and counting kinsmen as his work)#coriolanus. king john. measure for measure actually! and two noble kinsmen#i know a lot about measure for measure already i just have never read it in full. twelfth night was like that as a reading experience too#i wasn't in a rush to get to it but in the case of measure. i wanted to get merry wives out of the way first#and leave my last pure comedy to be something i would almost certainly enjoy more#now im kind of in a pickle bc i feel the ecstasy of being tempted to just finish the complete plays already#but i also wanna pace myself and read other things#i kinda have this idea of what if i saved the last 4 to read in 2025? but we're not even halfway through 2024#i dont have that kinda patience#maybe ill reread some old favorites in the meantime or something. idk#i dont think i mentioned it on here but i got the rsc complete works second edition from 2022#last month! bc my riverside is in delicate condition. but i switched back between the two when reading merry wives#i just couldnt help it. i miss my mother. it's always going to be the most personally comfortable book for me to read from#i read the majority of these plays in that volume. that book TAUGHT ME to read shakespeare#but i need to be strong and i also enjoy comparative literary studies and a more recent book has a lot to offer#im yammering on to myself incoherently im sure nobody really cares what im saying. even i dont! ok goodbye goodnight
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tag ramble pt.1
#so much i feel like i want to say when a lot of this is just two different people who cant mesh and are hitting each other like confused#roomba.#on some level i wish i didnt respond or engage especially at the moment because what i said wasn’t particularly deep and only resulted in#hitting a wound that i already knew was there#i’d like to apologize for that much alone#that it is presumptuous and envasive to have strangers on the internet talk to you like that because yes it does very quickly cross to#feeling like being talked down to#these are people who are entirely self aware of the problems and of course i literally cannot enlighten them to it any further#they just dont care- they’re very tired of their life so far and do not have the time and energy and patience to talk to anyone else#like that.#the way they’ve chosen to fight is negatively. i cant dock someone for making a self conscious choice of how they’re going to behave#especially in the sense of standing up for yourself#i do get the feeling this doesnt serve someone in the long run#you are being spoken to in this way because you are reacting volatily to a random stranger on the internet#because of the way they hit a wound because of how you interpreted what they said#the idea that you’re standing up for yourself and you need to be mean so people dont talk to you in a way you dont like#like the block button isn’t infinitely better for that#to think this is a case of oohh lets all be sooo polite and pure and Correctly Speaking all the time or you’re just a widdle baby#is goofy#it IS reactive and it is volatile! i could have said this in a meaner way rather than politely#and maybe that would have been more easily received in this one case#but there was just acknowledgment of what was actually happening immediately right now in the moment#of course i dont know you and i dont know your life and thats not what this is about#but at the end of the day the question of if this works for you and genuinely serves you then i have absolutely nothing to say or add#that matters. if this is your honest self then everything else is null. you live in the way that serves you because thats literally all we#have#though i doubt that its fulfilling and honest at the end of the day i wont pretend this isnt someone just on one part of their journey#thats plenty farther along than others#and i really hope they are at or get to what serves them entirely
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im literally gonna draw all day today. give owl house drawing prompts (literally No Promises i'll even do them ok
#krav talks#if u can make it about Scenarios rather than just characters#i am a comic/storyboard artist at heart even if i dont have the patience/focus for it 99% of the time
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Feeling like ms. applegate in pill withdrawal in kindergarten 2 today
#witchy.txt#quite a niche reference i think#but if you follow jacksepticeye you might know#in other words#i'm on the verge of a mental breakdown#bc i don't wanna go to work anymore but i can't quit#everyone tells me i cant even though it would be so much better for my mental health#im so so so sick of everyone and everything that goes on in that office you have no idea#and if I have to walk into that place again i would rather fucking kill myself#i dont have much willpower left in me. my patience is running so thin you could see through it.#i literally cant take this anymore
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#oh my night?#my night was fine! thanks for not asking!#as soon as i realized she wasnt going to even bother with asking me how i was doing i was done#this is honestly typical#its just the state shes in right now she would usually ask if she was like “level” in the emotional sense#but i think right now she just really wants validation and praise and adoration above all else#rather than someone being 'real' with her#and i cant fault her for that#but i just dont have the energy for any one sided relationships in my life right now including when im on the other side#i just have no patience for it right now#and i dont think i should be faulted for that so im just gonna do me and get through this rough patch on my own#jorden speaks#not nsft#personal.txt
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if you even slightly research art assets, esp for comics, you will find out that every webtoon just buys assets from the same store. and im not even talking about just background assets, everything down to just using a stamp for eyes/expressions or predrawn dresses and hair strands.
#>sluggy personal#its kind of unsettling. i end up avoiding a lot of webtoons because of that#i know comics are hard like they r too hard for me#but i just find it kind of dystopian because it results in them all having the same style#and it's not a style born out of inspiration its because they are buying it from the same place#i hate webtoon (The app) too because it's what is pushing for this mass production of comics#they have make new chapters twice a week to keep up#so its no wonder that they buy assets#still dont like it#i would rather wait months for a new chapter. even a year. can we learn some patience please.
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GOD DAMNNN im so bored im about to start rereading downloaded fics 😐
#id rather fucking die than use wattpad#and i dont have the time or patience to find a fic on ff.net
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