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daisywalletchains · 2 months ago

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I miss the sun 🌞

#i require the sunlight on my drive to and from work to photosynthesize properly #or i get terrible depression #for approximately 4 months #already ready for march

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corpsentry · 6 months ago

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a glass sun 1/2

#my art #my stuff #this is really fucking long so im gonna have to break it up into multiple reblogs #(howling) WAUGHHHHHHH #i love aishang by xiaoshiguniang #i love to implicate my alma mater in my art about being gay in the shittiest most conservative corner of singaporean society #by some terrible trick of fate i ended up in the conservative chinese christian cishet circuit from primary school to end of hs #obviously i am not most of these things but there i was. Depressed #and there i was after that at Liberal Arts College. the 4 years i spent there were a clusterfuck #but like a good and outrageous and lively clusterfuck #and i graduated in may this year and when i came back it was for the first time in 10 months. it was like. what da hell #like i love being here in specific ways but there is also the pain of being seen as something you're not constantly #can i blame them? i ask myself this every day. for most of my ex classmates and relatives i Am the only not cis person they know #idk my lottery number was bad this corner of society really is that bad #and so its like. idk dawg anyway i aint offering solutions but u get it like it fucks with your head to be misgendered either which way 24/#but to leave them behind would be to leave the only people who knew me for the first 19 years behind. and thats a lot of my life #i am 23!!!!!! ough #anyway. whatever. if u liked it i have a ko-fi #reblogos appreciated

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potatobugz · 9 days ago

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dog teeth

#dandys world #dw #potatart #shrimpo #shrimpo dw #dw shrimpo #pebbles dw #twisted pebbles #rodger dw #goob dw #scraps dw #blood #eyestrain #ask to tag #well its ichor technically but still. toon bloof #*blood #this comic stemmed from a fic idea i had with shrimpo that i didnt eanna write #where after a run goes terribly wrong; shrimpo gets a little but of character debelopment #i really like the thought thay shrimpo hates pebbles the least #i dont think hes a secret softie but. i do think he likes pebbles #just a bit #the good news is that i will draw nice things happening to shrimpo. tomorrow #SIX DOLLAR SRIMP SPECIAL #sorry i think this is fun idea to play around with. shrimpo is a fun character #see how i get you all woth cute art at the beginning. ill get you #added the black canvases bc i feel like they helped w the pacing more #angst #its not necessarily a funny thing. i think the idea of “shrimpo develops an intense fear of something he used to not hate as much” is #interesting to write about. he gets a little depressed about it #aaangst. aaaaangst. sorry my demons

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pansyfemme · 2 months ago

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i have been a ball of depression lately as well as my physical health worsening pretty severly this past week due to stress and so my friends have been. trying so hard to get me to get out and do things and its very sweet but i feel bad because the whole time i’m just a total mess

#they say they dont mind but i need to really. stop #im stuck.#and i know it’s hard on my friends to see me like this since i’ve been doing a lot better and now am back to my old habits #but i felt bad because they took me out shopping and to dinner tonight and i just had a headache and was limping and couldnt stop talking #about the recent death in my family and all the stress from classes and socially and how lost i feel #and i just wanted so bad to just. enjoy myself but i couldnt #but my friends know about how severe my depression is and are all very used to it #its in fact more normal than not. but i was really. feeling at my best for several months so the crash back down to not eating and sleeping #and being unable to fully tidy my room and all that stuff has been. difficult for me as well as those around me #it’s been normal for me for so long to live terribly that taking care of myself for a while and then losing the drive to has been. hard #im trying to get better but i slide back down #i need to work on my constant self loathing but i keep walking around just. conviced im such a burden and being sad makes it even worse #i just. am always overcompensating for my lack of #ability to love myself with just. constantly showering everyone around me with love and its. hard for me when i dont have the energy to do #even that anymore. its hard to let people take care of me when i just want to take care of them all the time

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realbeefman · 1 year ago

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stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem!#its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome'#instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems!#anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now!#house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

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myokk · 4 months ago

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#since I did a fast eloise only sketch yesterday #here are some Sebastians😇🙏#he got tired after sneaking into the restricted section and…I feel like classes are kind of boring to him #I’m almost done with the most wretched book ever🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏#it’s so terrible and depressing I am just hate-finishing it at this point #it just solidifies in me that I was just meant to read old books over and over again lol #like…this book is SUPPOSEDLY really popular and I DONT GET IT !!!#I also HATED The Overstory which is also popular…it’s weird though #bc the first part was genuinely one of my favorite things I’ve ever read #so i stuck with the rest in the hope it would keep that momentum and it…didn’t…#oh well I just keep reading and rereading novels I already know I’ll like😇😇 and avoid this author forever and ever 🙏#hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #hphl #hogwarts legacy oc #hogwarts legacy mc #sebastian sallow #sebastian sallow fanart

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wishchip106 · 20 days ago

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listening to duster makes me want to think of depressed Charles 😁

Everything has become so tiring that the only routine he can keep up is injecting himself with the serum. Charles manages to eat something every now and then but the only thing that truly fills his stomach is the alcohol he moved up to his room, which has all gone warm by now.

The days have gotten blurry, so much so that Charles doesn’t remember the last time he woke up or the last time he fell asleep.

Nearly everything reminds him of before Cuba. When he was happy, when he could walk without the reliance of drugs, when he had sister.

Charles doesn’t want to think of Erik, but his face haunts every single dream he has, reminding him what happens when you trust a monster with your heart.

There’s a pile of glass bottles in the corner, building up by each hour. A mixture of trash and clothes can be found strewn across the floor and the bed in Charles’s room. Discarded syringes are overflowing his drawers.

Sometimes Charles can be found sitting in random rooms of the mansion, staring at nothing while he lazily drinks from another bottle of alcohol. Hank found him once, passed out in the attic.

There was one time he tried to break out of his habits. He decided to walk around the grounds, take in the fresh air and nature. Before he could even make it halfway he collapsed on the gravel, his last dosage of the serum wearing off.

He screamed for an hour before Hank came. The voices yelled in his head while he was forced to look at the satellite facing towards the mansion.

Charles never went back outside again.

#i bet my grammar is terrible forgive me 😿#the voices told me to write this 😔#i need more depression era charles!!!#that man shall be sad 😁😁😁#don’t know what it’s like to be an alcoholic or a drug addict but i do know what its like to have depression 🤯🤯#thank you logan for getting him out of the house 😌🙏#oh shit my own depression is building up again #GAWDDAMMIT #save me charles 😨😰#charles xavier #professor x #x men #cherik #wish does not shut up #depression #angst

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doomedclockworkdotmp3 · 27 days ago

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i thiiink hes soooo prettyabyway

#my art #digital art #digital painting #doodle #fanart #ethan winters #this!! is just a quick thing #for funsies!! cause im always thinkin hes pretty. i cant do him justice.#ive been insanely depressed! genuinely like. thinkin im gonna die lmao. i have barely had the energy to draw him. thats how you know its ba #i need to brush my teeth so so soo bad. but ive been so terrible to my mouth i just know i have gingivitis or something. MY GUMS ARE GONNA #HURT!! and my mouth is gonna taste like MINT and i wont be able to eat anymore and what if i get hungry!!#i wont be able to eat because my mouth will taste so strongly of mint #i need flavorless toothpaste #this took me 5 hours btw. i redrew it 4 times. any time you see anything with colors please assume it was drawn at least 3 times before #i finished and posted it. i do NOT like colors but what do i do i am always throwin some stupid colors in there just for the misery of it #i cant stand colors what am i even lookin at i cant even see im colorblind.#anyways this took 5 hours but technically it only took like. 1.5 hours. so its just a quick thang okay dw about it #anyways thats the post. ethan winters is a tamagochi to me

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melit0n · 7 months ago

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"Like lovers entwined...I know for the last time; you will not be mine. So give me the night, the night, the night."

#had another sob session to this because even though it's still literally half a year away it hit me that I get to hear that live #and sing it with 20k other people #I get to experience those last five whole minutes #dude my post-concert depression is going to be terrible #but at the same time I think I'll enjoy basking in the light they give off. even if it's only for an hour or two #sleep token #st #euclid #song euclid #sleep token tmbte #tmbte #take me back to eden #melitunes #Spotify

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skyrigel · 5 months ago

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I don't feel loved

#:(#like really it's a terrible thing to feel but it's not as much as i am giving and it makes me feel so bad #i am not loved enough and to think that this torment would continue always makes me shut my heart and don't start for anyone #it's so pathetic but i can't help it because i don't get it as intense as i am giving and it's always that never scratching even the surface #i think about her alot but she doesn't thinks of me #i try to make him happy but it's never enough #i try to keep myself sane but i sound like a child begging to be taken along and it ain't working for me #I don't think love should be difficult or unnatural #it should definitely come in my way because i deserve it like anyone else #i should feel loved and i hope i do and i hope it changes #to wake up one day and not feel terrible or to just hope for a home where i am loved and cherished #where my love is celebrated and people don't just tolerate it #i want all those pretty giddy feeling for myself #not sorry for rambling because it's my blog !#desiblr #being desi #desi tag #anxiety #sadgirl #love #tw depressing thoughts #tw mental health

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statementlou · 2 months ago

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#I still feel weird about just posting pics of Louis and being like heh he look good #when he's going through such a terrible time #for me all the pictures were always not just that but to sort of celebrate that things were finally finally GOOD #the joyfulness of all that #to be like LOOK at this THRIVING we MADE IT look how far we came etc... and things aren't very fucking great right now #HOWEVER....#idk about you but my dash is depressing af #I think maybe we could use a reminder of joy #and a reminder of happy things and times and that even after the worst things... those times come again #not to get overly precious or deep about it or whatever🙄it's just some pictures on tumblr.com I KNOW #but we are how we live or whatever idk ANYWAY my point is I'm gonna start the queue back up #for now at least #and hope it makes some people smile

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gamebunny-advance · 7 months ago

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Oh.

If you ever wanted to know what Yonny looks like when he's falling asleep/sleeping, the comic's got you covered.

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#pikmin #yonny #yonny pikmin #pikmin comic #no sir. i don't like that.#personal updates: i've been severely depressed (again). it started about 3 days ago #i dunno where it came from. (well it's because it's June but i didn't think it was gonna be THIS bad)#i was feeling pretty good when i was making the character refs #then BANG. Max depression. It's made me play ACNH like mad again to lose myself in it.#but even then i feel anxiety while i play it. i haven't even really checked tumblr in days #i'm trying to pull myself back together #but i still feel pretty terrible #and i don't know when or if it's gonna get better #anyway. since i've been playing so much on my switch lately #i've noticed that almost all my switch friends are playing the TTYD remake #how are y'all liking it?

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billy-babs · 1 month ago

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If i’m being honest, I don’t think harry would be the cheerful happy guy that he is in canon and fics. I think growing up with the dursleys he’d actually be a really angry kid and be really bad at socialising and have like no friends. i think it would be more fitting characterisation of him and also create a deeper character who was actually affected by his childhood and environment.

anyways, just putting it out there. i believe in angry harry 💗

#angry harry is beautiful #harry is absolutely and angry kid and definitely got into fights and had no friends #don’t try and tell me he’s a super happy kid who always sees the bright side because there is not bright side and he’s super depressed #angry harry #harry potter #harry james potter #literally try to tell me he would see the best in people after living with the dursleys and being around such terrible people #please say someone gets this #please say that someone understands my opinion #surely someone agrees with me #am i crazy?#am i wrong about how people grow up?#don’t get me wrong i understand why people would say he was super happy because he was james and lilys kid #and he wanted to be the opposite of the dursleys #but also i think angry harry is underrepresented cause it would also be a totally reasonable outcome for him to become

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girlivealwaysbean · 3 months ago

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mann im going to get my blood reports tomorrow and im lwk scared

#mostly it's fine but i looked up this medicine the doc prescribrd me and she said it's for weight loss #but i looked it up and everywhere it said it's for type 2 diabetes #to control blood sugar levels when it's so wildly out of control that nothing is fixing it #why would she give me that??? i mean im obviously gonna ask but tab tak ki anxiety bhai #i have barely processed the fact that pcod is a chronic illness which means im going to have it forever im mostly avoiding thinking about #it cause it feels too big and unbearable #diabetes would be fucking wild man im 21 years old #i am doing so terrible in not turning out to be like my dad lol i want to cry #i just hate hate hate this so much #like i was trying really fucking hard but depression wasn't getting fixed and i kept eating sleeping being in bed all day #like how can one illness cause another be frr man give me a break 😭#and i cannot even officially say depression i just sorta googled thr symptoms and relate to them most days but not everyday #so like #what is all this for #ugh goodnight i hope i wake up and it's all alright #i don't want to be a calorie counting sweet avoiding freak i love chocolate

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tea-cat-arts · 3 months ago

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People on this website will be like "you can't handle the moral nuance of Madoka Magica! Not everything is black and white" and then claim everyone criticizing Homura's actions thinks she's a terrible person in the same sentence