#or heck I don’t even share with them the stuff I’m happy about because my interests are annoying and childish or whatever

[nagichi-boop]

Throwback to being kicked out suddenly from an autism Discord server because I was apparently too mentally ill in the vent channels. And then I joined a BPD server and was kicked out without warning because I didn’t read the room properly and no one told me what I did was wrong.

[alittlebitofloveliness]

5, 14, 15, 17

More outsiders asks? Heck yeah!

5. What are your favourite ships?

a) Curly Shepard x Ponyboy Curtis- idk why other than the fact that fanon Curly seems to balance out Ponyboy perfectly, and that I read a Curly fit on ffn when I was like fifteen that fundamentally changed my brain chemistry

b) Steve Randle x Sodapop Curtis- I don’t like any other within gang ship but Soda and Steve make sense to me and ngl my closeted ass clocked them as gay when I was reading the book because of the ‘pillow fight’ scene. I genuinely answered a comprehension question in class like ‘Ponyboy’s naïveté is shown through the fact he believes soda never drinks and that Soda and Steve were having a pillow fight when they slept together’ and my teacher had to be like oh sweetie no….

c) Marcia x Two-bit Matthews- Not a HUGE fan but they had such chemistry and I wish that could’ve been explored. I’m actually working on a fit about them rn, just because I wanna explore Marcia’s psyche. She was fun :)

14. Five headcanons I basically see as canon

a) Steve is secretly SUPER protective of Ponyboy, partially because he knows Sodapop would never be ok if something ever happened to Pony and he couldn’t stand it if Soda’s spark ever went out, but also because he wants Ponyboy to have the happy childhood he never had.

b) Darry absolutely dotes on Ponyboy, even though he’s strict, he’s lenient about letting Pony go places and works overtime to make sure he can afford to get Ponyboy everything he needs (and some stuff he simply wants), especially after Windrixville.

c) Johnny Cade is scary looking. Full stop. The gang just doesn’t see him that way so it doesn’t show in Ponyboy’s narration

d) Dallas Winston had a good mom and a happy childhood and her death was the catalyst that made him into the hoodlum he was.

e) Sodapop Curtis absolutely drinks, Ponyboy just doesn’t believe he does and Soda is not anxious to correct him because he doesn’t want Ponyboy to see him differently

15. Five headcanons that are entirely self-indulgent

a) Angela Shepard and Curly Shepard have to share a room because Tim refuses to share with anyone. Neither of them actually hates it half as much as they pretend they do.

b) Part of why Curly and Ponyboy became close was because Ponyboy was struggling with getting over his concussion, and the side effects were really stressful for him (dizzy spells, blurry vision, absentmindedness) and Curly kinda helped him with it because Curly spent 90% of his childhood concussed so he knew what Pony was going through

c) Tim Shepard and Sylvia are best friends and would kill for each other but not die for each other. However, they would avenge each other’s deaths.

d) Steve Randle wishes more than anything in the world that Darry Curtis was actually his irl older brother 

e) Two-bit’s little sister HATES Ponyboy Curtis because her older brother spends more time playing older brother to him than he spends actually being an older brother to her.

17. Are there any criticisms or salt you have with the book?

My criticisms with the book lie with the author. SE Hinton has proven to be homophobic and racist, and its written into the book, which is my biggest issue. I love the story of The Outsiders but do not want to support Hinton or her harmful, bigoted ideology under any circumstances. (For anyone out there who wants a copy of the book but doesn’t want to support Hinton, you can find a free pdf online, all you gotta do is google it)

On a slightly lighter note, I would have loved to have seen more of the female characters in the book. Marcia in particular had so much potential, and I wish we’d seen one actual scene with Sandy or Sylvia.

Thanks for the ask!!!!!

[thelediz]

Fandom should be fun

Something I’ve noticed in the last couple of years, but has been weirdly nagging at me in the last… six months? Has been the marked difference between people who participate in fandom for fun and those who do it for profit.

And how much more successful the profit-driven people are in fandom.

For fairly obvious reasons.

But it’s interesting and I have to think about it out loud or it’s going to eat at my brain.

Now, when I say profit, I don’t necessarily mean ‘for money’, or at the very least any intention to make a living out of it, though there are certainly people who do. They’re not a new phenomenon, either – originally I think it was only common among musicians, but visual artists and even writers that produce for commission have been around since the original Star Trek days. Hell, Dante’s Inferno exists for a reason. But when I mean ‘for profit’ I think I mean the people who produce content in order to earn something, be it money, likes, comments, what have you.

And don’t get me wrong, as a fanficcer, I love comments. It 100% fuels motivation to know that people are engaging with your content.

But as a fandom lurker, it feels disingenuous of me to want them. And with the way fandom has shifted lately, I’ve found myself thinking about why. What is it about a comment that fuels me?

Because I’m not chasing down kudos or comments or bookmarks. It makes me happy to know that people are reading and sharing my stuff, and I’ll admit I do get some badly needed endorphins every time I see someone paying it attention. But I’m not one of those people who will write generic stories and slap different character names on there to fit the fandom I’m in that day.

I write because the content I’m engaging with is tickling something in my brain and I want to think about it more.

And it’s fun, of course, but… yeah.

I write to engage with the original content.

That’s why some fics go unfinished or never get off the ground, because once I start engaging with them, I realise the thought has run its course and… I’m done. It stops being fun.

Honestly, and I’m giving away secrets here, that’s why I hated writing Return so much, and I still don’t like it. Occasionally I go back, because I get a comment or see a bookmark saying it meant something to a reader, and I think “…ugh, I should rewrite that bit to make it a bit more in character” or I can acknowledge that it was actually a half-decent storyline. But I do not like that story.

I started writing it hoping to kickstart something in me that didn’t happen. In the XYZ and Alola period of Pokemon, it was such a beautiful, positive force, about hard work and triumph and believing in yourself. I was chasing that. I wanted to talk about how hard that had to be for Ash. I wanted to point out what a beautiful story it is that Ash kept going despite never winning for so long.

But I should have put the fic down. The original content just wasn’t there anymore. I was still using Pokemon Go, but it sure as heck wasn’t for the storyline. And the anime lost me so early on in Journeys. I should have put the fic down and walked away, but I was addicted to the dopamine fandom provided me. I hated writing that story and I’m just grateful that it ended up meaning something to someone because otherwise it should be wiped from the internet as something I never should have done.

Compare and contrast F’d Up Three Ways, which I had almost entirely written before I started posting it. I adore that fic. I had so much fun writing it. Even when I started posting, I got barely any engagement and I didn’t care. There were bits and pieces in there that were me feeding off fandom, but most of it was just me devouring the original content and then thinking “and then what?” which is exactly what fandom should be, and it felt so good.

It’s the only thing I’ve done for that fandom, it’s all I’m ever going to do for that fandom, but it was what I wanted it to be.

So why do comments motivate me? Why, now that comments are so rare, do I constantly check my Ao3 to see if someone’s put a bookmark with a note? Why do I give a damn if people read my stuff?

Because I too am looking for engagement.

I want to know my stuff is making people think, or feel. It made me think and feel, so… am I alone in that?

When I was writing Dropped Shield, I was mostly writing that for myself. It was already mostly written when it was posted. But the comments were amazing and made me hungry for more fandom. People digging into the characters, the plot, the professional behaviour…! (It is such a weird fic, I cannot believe how many people like it, but I love it even more for that) Reading people’s comments on that fic made me feel so full.

And I think that’s what’s made me start thinking about it, because there’s those kind of comments, and then there’s the lovely heart-filled comments that are so sweet, and make me smile, but don’t fuel any kind of motivation.

I love getting them. They made me happy. If you’re someone who does that, do not stop making those comments, they are wonderful.

But they aren’t going to drive me to think more about the content and therefore will not encourage me to produce more.

Which brings me back to the difference between the kinds of people who create for profit and those who create for… whatever it is I and people like me are creating for.

This post was originally spurred by @notherpuppet (who does wonderful Hazbin Hotel art and comics and I hope doesn’t mind me referencing her – please tell me if you’d rather I don’t tag you and I’ll take this bit out) who is SO popular and so gets a lot of people wanting to make content of her content. And those people often get money out of that. And while notherpuppet didn’t mind that, when those people start promising paid content based on her currently non-existent future content, that’s… much less okay.

Because notherpuppet doesn’t draw for profit. She draws for love and fun. And so the moment it stops being fun, she absolutely should put down her tablet and walk away.

People just assuming she will continue until people are no longer interested makes me super uncomfortable. She's not doing this to get paid, she is under no obligation to produce, why would you assume she will?

That’s all putting aside the people in the early days of fandom getting sued by creators for copyright infringement. I never saw it happening myself, but when I started in fandom, people put disclaimers on their work reminding everyone it was not for profit for damn good reason.

So anyway. Coming back to the point.

It’s increasingly rare these days to get comments. This is a known thing. Many discussions have been had about it. And fandom as a whole is changing too. What people are posting is changing. How people respond to them is changing.

I’ve gotten comments from people pointing out they wouldn’t normally read my stuff because it’s too long, but they got a recommendation from someone else and so gave it a shot.

Which… okay, fair. But some of them say that about things that are like 6,000 words and that’s… that's not a long fic for me. I used to spit out that kind of content daily when I was in high school and could devote the brain power.

But when I started in fandom, drabbles were super common. Flashfic was a thing. Because we were all posting on blogs and forums and the formatting just wasn’t there.

And now a lot of fandom is video and audio that takes thirty seconds or less to consume. Longer to create, but... the similarities are there.

At the time, no one expected great feedback on drabbles or flashfics – they were just for the fun of creating. But the short-form content you see these days is very much chasing likes and comments and responses.

I don’t know where I’m going with all this, but… man. If I was still a fandom academic, that… there’s something in that, isn’t it? Something interesting.

Anyway. TL;DR, I repeat, and will always repeat: fandom should be fun. It makes me sad when it isn’t fun.

Please try and have fun.

[ryuichirou]

RE: Ortho (+Shroudcest) post replies

Phew, alright, I think I didn’t skip anyone. If I did, I’m sorry, I’ll reply to you next time then!

Thank you so much for your wonderful messages of support and for your takes. I really appreciate it! I say it all the time but it saying it again feels appropriate: we had no idea we would ever see so many people who share our point of view despite not shipping Ortho with Idia or any other character. The fact that we can have this conversation really makes me happy.

You are welcome to share more of your thoughts if you want, but unfortunately I might not be able to reply to everyone. I will do my best though.

All of the asks in this blog are related to this post.

Anonymous asked:

Different anon, I think Ortho is in this nebulous situation like superboy in young justice who is physically 16 years old but chronologically 16 weeks old. I genuinely hate the uwu babying of characters. The dwarfs are all second years(so theoretically 17 at the youngest) but no one makes anything with them. Heck the characters I see get lewded the most are the octo trio who are the same age.

Heck, even Grim gets the baby mascot treatment by fans when he's also lumpedwiththefirst years. Like yes, he's a whiny brat but he's also grown up all alone as far as he can remember. I can't help but compare him to Puppycat who acts similarly and is a grown ass man.

Yeah, this probably plays a role too! Ironically, we were just having this conversation about Stitch the other day lol Being new to the world you exist in (and to existing in general) and being a baby aren’t necessarily the same thing.

And even in that case Ortho doesn’t fully fit into the trope because he was created quite a while ago and is already pretty well adjusted. But since he is still learning and doesn’t always understand people + doesn’t always get things like sarcasm, people consider it to be a proof that he is a toddler lol Who am I kidding, their reasoning doesn’t even go that far. They say “he died when he was a baby therefore he is a baby forever” and call it a day.

I feel bad for people who love Grim, I haven’t even thought about it… The Puppycat comparison is so spot-on lol

Grim is inexperienced and doesn’t know much about the world, but yes, he is one of the freshmen + just as he at times acts like a whiny brat, there are also times when he tells Ace that he should be more considerate of Deuce’s feelings, like wtf was that? That was Grim. Because Grim also isn’t a baby, he is a furry gremlin…

Anonymous asked:

As one of the most avid Ortho stans, it really is a pet peeve that people act like he's a little kid

You're so right that it's people that want to write him like Idia's little convenient plot device

I do want to note that it's also sometimes just the infantilization of an autistic coded character

God forbid he be somewhat optimistic, this must mean he's just an innocent baby /s

One small thing that gets me: Ortho can and has made his own gears!! Idia doesn't need to and maybe this is inspired by a post I saw that used the fact that Idia has made his stuff to take away Ortho's agency in what is supposed to be him having a tattoo analog. Not having a character be the architect of their own body mod equivalent is wild and I just.

He's a silly little guy, but he's not a fucking baby!

Indeed, Anon. I feel like people either completely ignore Ortho or see him as Idia’s appendix. I absolutely love them together, and of course I am biased towards scenarios that focus on their deep codependence, but I also really love how they get to have their own adventures, their own relationship, their own experiences separate from each other. Because they are wow, different characters, and Ortho has his own agency. He had it even before ch6, but after that he fully and officially became his own person. Being with Idia is his choice, not his only option. And just like you mentioned, he makes his own gears pretty much all the time now… even though I don’t agree that Idia making his gears has anything to do with Ortho’s agency.

I don’t even think Ortho is that optimistic. He is a little sunshine, but not even close to people like Kalim for example. Ortho even has his own cynical moments and douchy moments that people also tend to ignore. But even if he was 100% optimistic and naïve, it still would not be a valid reason to infantilise him. And you are absolutely right, people do that a lot. With Kalim too, actually, now that I think about it.

Anonymous asked:

Aaaaah, Ryuichi, after reading your post (rant) about Ortho, made me very happy! I'm glad there's someone else who shares the same opinion. The number of fans who infantilizes Ortho is beyond me. I absolutely hate the argument Ortho's mentally "8 years old" it's like they completely forget his storyline.

I'm guessing that the people who genuinely believe the theory that he's "8 years old" are younger fans with no media literacy so no hate towards them but it's frustrating when fans pretend it's Canon when it's not.

Not only that but it’s so sad to see how he's also so mischaracterized by the fandom. He's always seen just as Idia's little brother but never himself despite the fact that Ortho's life doesn't revolve around Idia. He has his own interest and hobbies different from Idia AND he is NOT innocent! Fans tend to forget this is a game about a school full of villains and that includes Ortho too! If I remember correctly Ortho has multiple times tried to blow up the school with his laser! He's violent! He's not a kid.

Unfortunately, I've seen this kind of stuff happening across all fandoms this isn't exclusive to Twisted wonderland. Heck a few months ago I've seen fans in the black butler genuinely believe that Ciel's in fact 9 years old instead of 13 year old!? And then they call us weird? The SebaCiel shippers? Like why do YOU want him to be younger?? I'm getting too old for this.

Thank you so much, Anon! I am happy you also agree.

I don’t hate younger fans, and I know that some people might be genuinely confused; but I also believe that there are a lot of people that simply do not care about Ortho’s actual story and any arguments one could make about this case. The actual issue isn’t Ortho being a certain age, it’s a pretext, an excuse, an invitation to harass. If Ortho didn’t exist, they would still do it with other characters, and even if all the characters were adults, they would still find a reason to do so, like, for example, their appearance. There is no winning in this game, this is why factual arguments won’t work even if Ortho Shroud himself looks in the camera and says “hi, I don’t care if people ship me with my niisan, I am also in fact not 8 years old”.

I am also very glad you mentioned Ortho being his own person! I mentioned it in a previous reply, so I won’t talk about it, but yes, you are absolutely right. Ortho is a menace, and all of his disappointed “come ooon, niisan, don’t do that” moments come from his desire for Idia to have more friends, not because he genuinely cares for other people. He clearly doesn’t – hence his multiple attempts to blow up the school lol

I love it when characters just keep getting younger with every single wave of this shitstorm. Didn’t you know he is 13? How dare you post something like that about a 9 years old! He is a toddler who is only 3 months old! That’s one powerful fountain of youth right there. Antis in Kuroshitsuji fandom do that a lot, just as antis in TWST fandom.

Anonymous asked:

I really feel bad for people who have Ortho as their oshi. It's not like fans of other characters don't get shit on too, apparently pretty much everyone is an immoral heathen these days, but I feel like Ortho gets often excluded in fan content, especially when it features any mature theme.

Also, if you a problem with people liking Ortho in the same way as they do with the rest of the guys, you should take your issues to the creators, since that was definitely their intention when they put him in the pretty boy gacha. Or maybe just play another game.

Anyway Ryu and Katsu, keep doing your thing, cause you guys are awesome!

What I love about it is that Ortho himself would be so pissed if he learned that all the other guys get to do fun mature stuff and he doesn’t lol That’s so not fair, he’s charging his lasers as we speak!

Also yes, it was absolutely the creators’ intention. He is supposed to look like that, just like Lilia is supposed to look like that – both caused confusion in the game story with how young they look, and yet both are a big part of the cast (+ As we know, even Idia was supposed to be younger looking…). Ortho has one of the biggest amounts of cards, he is clearly a popular character, not just a lovely addition or a mascot. 

Thank you so much for your support, Anon <3 It means a lot. This shit might be upsetting, but it will never stop us from creating.

Anonymous asked:

While I am not an Ortho/Idia shipper, I do like your art pieces because your art style is straight-up gorgeous. So when I do see your Shroudcest art Im like: not my cup of tea but I respect the time and effort made into this. (And here is my rant siding with you bc they are fictional characters)

The babyfication of Ortho is something I do not understand. As much as Idia made RoBro in trauma, rn I doubt he wants RoBro to remain stagnant in mind and hardware. With Ortho's ability to learn, he is practically a teenager like the rest. He displays more emotional maturity than most ppl despite his killer laser beam. Kindness, hope, and optimism are traits not limited to children. Shortness is also not limited to children. If we treat other characters by traits often shared by children, then Neige's fellow dwarf classmates are also children. What they don't count bc they are not human? Ortho is not human either. Similarly, Kalim and Silver display positive internal traits of kindness, hope, and optimism. Shortness? Well, we got Grandpa Lilia and the Napoleon complex twins Riddle and Epel. They are all teenagers (minus Lilia) and no one is babying them.

...And are we ignoring all the shit he has seen on the internet. The amount of porn (from adult sites and even the soft-core types you can even find by watching some twitch/yt streamers) that can be seen. Videos of violence, crimes, and ppl doing their best to win the Darwainism Award. Ortho could access and go through like 5 terebytes by the time I reach page two of Google.

As for the Shroudcest, they are fictional characters! You can go straight to phub and have incest type (the sheer amount of the step family porn troupe) porn being acted out by actual breathing people. Do you want to metaphorically die on this hill of ppl shipping fictional 2D characters? Are we just going to ignore you targeting this harmless ship? At least go for a larger target like Game of Thrones or House of Dragons. So much incest in those media that it has it's own fan wiki page, but you don't see ppl go for George R. R. Martin's throat for writing about characters willing or unknowingly committing incest.

It is like people reading/watching media of horror movie killers. It's something you can enjoy or have a preference for because you, as a sane person, will not become a serial killer. AND, as a productive member of society, you condemn actual, real-life serial killers. You read horror stories or watch scary movies for entertainment value not for a guide to be one. Similar logic to furries. Furries consider anthropomorphic creatures as hot, but those same furries are against beastilaity.

TL;DR: While I am not personally a fan of incest or shota type of media, I do not mind they exist (or go after creators who use FICTIONALLY characters to enhance their form of FICTIONAL media), bc they are FICTIONAL CHARACTERS from a FICTIONAL MEDIA. Stop with the performative activism. Use that effort and go after people who do it for real in real life. If you prevent/stop an actual crime from happening, I will applaud and thank you! AND I DOUBT I WILL BE THE ONLY ONE.

Thank you so much, Anon! I am happy that you like my stuff despite not shipping some of our ships. I am very grateful for the respect, and also for your message! I really like your points and I’ll go through them briefly.

The entire part about all those traits not being exclusive to children + about other characters having those traits but still not being babied – YES, thank you so much for that. Like I already mentioned, the game clearly plays with those tropes, and even though the characters are young-looking, they are still of high school age (other than Lilia). Ortho is weird, Ortho is different from some of the other boys, but all of them are weird in their own way, Ortho is just a robot. If we can make “not a human” excuse for the dwarves, why can’t we look at Ortho that way? And yes, Ortho absolutely knows stuff a kid wouldn’t be able to digest lol All of his difficulties come from him being an AI – he doesn’t always get sarcasm, he doesn’t fully understand why people do certain things and doesn’t understand some limitations of human’s body and mind; none of it is tied to him being childish or too innocent.

Incest in media is very popular indeed, and it’s SUPER popular in porn! You are right. If any kind of media ends up “normalising” this kind of relationship, it definitely won’t be shippers of incest. But also that won’t happen because wow, it doesn’t work that way. People love to say that fiction affects reality, and while in a way it does, it’s never a “everyone is going to start shooting people because the videogames brainwashed them” type of deal, and this is exactly what they’re doing with their arguments. It’s fear-mongering, moralism and ignoring the fact that people do in fact know how to separate fiction from reality. And the key to making sure no one is going to jump out the window because their favourite character did so isn’t in censorship, but in people learning this difference and always keeping in it mind. Ironically, that would mean that people who harass others over cartoons can’t make this separation very well because of their lack of critical consumption of media; but then again, they can’t even see (and don’t care, which makes it worse and my point stronger) how their own reckless actions seriously affect real people in real life, and I think this is a more important issue to resolve lol

Unfortunately, people who prefer performative activism very rarely end up becoming real activists, but I do hope that they will at least find some other hobby, something that doesn’t cause so much harm to both innocent people and the cause they claim to be fighting for.

I got a bit carried away there, but yeah, I totally agree with your point, and once again grateful for your understanding. There will always be media that makes you uncomfortable – and that’s the beauty of it. Creativity is a boundless ocean and no amount of bricks can contain it.

Anonymous asked:

I was just scrolling through and saw your explanation of ortho and shroudcest the other day. As tiring as I’m sure it is, it always gives me hope to see people who remember what shipping is really about. I mean problematic content has existed all through human mythos and history, and society still survives! According to the studies the “art morality” argument is roughly the same as “but da violent games!!” Argument, or metal music, or clothes, or any other form of media deemed ‘new’ or ‘too different’.

Anyway, I don’t ship cest stuff myself but your art is lovely and it’s become one of the things I can view without feeling uncomfy despite how my head usually responds to such content (woohoo free therapy??? /j)

I ship ortho with an OC who’s also 16. Said oc’s mother said she would never treat her child differently for who they choose to love, and while she definitely wasn’t expecting a robot, she’s not going back on her word.

Thank you so much, Anon!! YES, this is exactly what shipping is all about! It feels like “umm but they’re not even canon” type of people are suddenly the majority in fandom spaces ahhh lol

As long as art exists, there will always be people who are against it, especially if it’s something niche, and despite how popular fandoms are, all of the fandom activity is a niche, ESPECIALLY shipping, ESPECIALLY this kind of shipping. So unfortunately it’s unavoidable, but it’s so useless and annoying!

I am very happy that you like our stuff. Thank you for enjoying it. Your OC’s mother is amazing and very supportive lol I am sure she and Ortho will get along swimmingly.

[writingjourney]

I’m in need of some advice and kind words. As a fellow writer I’m really struggling to believe people will and want to read my stuff. There’s no real engagement anymore and I’m worried that if I post my long-form fic that no one will give it a chance. It’s really bringing me down because I love it so much but it feels like no matter what I try to do my stuff just doesn’t get seen or liked? I’ve even thought about changing my entire way of how I do things since I don’t think the way I write is working for the masses. How do you keep up the motivation as a popular writer and do you have an advice?

Hello anon!! I feel like this is something many of us currently deal with. And first of all I seriously hope that you do share your story!! ♡

To be completely honest with you the lack of engagement in the fandom has for sure impacted my own motivation which is why I haven't been putting as much time into longer fics (nor the Friday Nights series or IKNBS, I do write but I refuse to force myself). I don't feel any urgency because uploading fics hasn't made me as happy as it used to. It feels like only other active writers are reading fic atm and it creates a lot of pressure on creatives to stay super active.

I'm aware that I'm insanely privileged to have the engagement that I do have, that the type of stories I want to write are also the type of stories that generally seem to appeal. However, engagement tells you NOTHING about the quality of your work, only how many people are active in a fandom or like a specific pairing/character/trope. Your own unique voice matters more than numbers.

I also notice that a lot of people who used to read my works have disappeared which I completely understand. The fixation can ebb away during times of inactivity or when a certain hype dies down. People just don't get that dopamine hit anymore and move on. It's also entirely possible they get tired of a certain style of writing and prefer other writers at times, what do I know. I definitely don't blame anyone for that. First and foremost people should read for their own enjoyment and engage with fandom in a way that makes them happy. It makes no sense to pressure people into engaging. A huge issue right now is people overthinking these things which makes support transactional instead of genuine.

I don't care much about notes but I REALLY miss the feeling of sharing a fic with people who are excited for it, that sense of an active community. BUT the activity will come back – the movie will come out, new music and videos, heck even a whole new Papa!!! That's the natural flow of things. We can't be excited and super active all the time, we need phases of calmness as well (which is an act of rebellion in the capitalist hellscape of overproduction and churned out content. I am honestly glad Ghost is taking it easy).

Now, I recommend you write your story exactly how you want to!!! do NOT change it for the sake of popularity because it will lose its very soul and you will struggle to be happy with it by the end. You know how you want to tell your story and nothing else matters. It will find its readers or you can wait and share it at a later point. I recommend that you approach other writers and readers and intensify that contact, make friends and talk to them about your stories, hype each other up, share snippets. It's even more meaningful to know people you like enjoy what you do. I am currently working on super niche fics for non-Ghost characters and I'm honestly having a great time chasing that dopamine by just writing what I'm really into and sharing it with friends. Fandom is community, fandom is fun and we can work to make it better for everyone.

A few general tips when it comes to making stories accessible: Format them to be readable (paragraphs!!), add a "read more" break, add proper content information and a nice summary to draw people in, add some visual appeal like a banners or stock image edits (like i do for IKNBS) and then tag the fics with relevant tags (and only those). Also make sure to tag the OG post, tags on reblogs do nothing for reach. Engage with the community when you feel like it and it's likely that the community will engage back. Being supportive is worth it, being kind is always worth it even if it amounts to nothing.

[yuseirra]

Heheh. I was contemplating a bit on posting this one, but I have people enjoying my posts and I'm really happy about that///

I take an interest in psychology, right? It's even my major? I mean, that doesn't exactly help directly when it comes to interpreting characters but I can certainly say I really like that field and take an interest in it and I'm pretty keen on it, I'm sure

About that Hikaru guy, I DEFINITELY would not have been confused as much if they just shared us about what exactly the heck is going on in his mind. I'm good with that stuff. They don't till the very end and there's so little to make out from, that's the problem, what's been presented isn't adequate enough to determine of his character. They leave it empty. If only they did, I'd have caught things immediately. Anyhow, there were things I picked up so for those who care for that character, who really think there was more to him than being a psycho murderer cult leader of some sort(oh my god) I hope this will be a fun read. This isn't my work so I can certainly be off.

Here's what I wrote last night making clear of my thoughts:↓

Haha, I feel so silly…;; I write a lot about this manga, don’t I?

It’s really bothering me because it’s so strange. I feel like I need to set aside some time to organize everything I’ve written about Oshi no Ko. I’ve written way too much, and I feel pathetic for it… Am I being a nuisance?

I keep repeating the same things, and it feels like I’m not saying anything particularly insightful.

But these thoughts don’t come up intentionally; they just pop into my mind, like, “Isn’t this not right?” or “Could it really be this?” This manga just keeps nagging at me, and it doesn’t properly explain things. It keeps touching on topics that I find deeply serious, yet it fails to express them well. It’s frustrating.

I’m really serious when I say I think I’m right about this, that this interpretation is correct (it’s about that myth-related hypothesis).

But I am aware that sounds too fantasy… It feels so lonely.(THERE ISN'T ANY OTHER WAY TO MAKE SENSE OF THINGS THOUGH! I'M SURE!!)

It makes me wonder: Am I stupid? Am I misunderstanding something? But no, I see it—this seems right, doesn’t it? I get confused because the story doesn’t fully unravel itself, leaving me in a constant state of chaos.

There are things that seem so clear to me, yet they also feel like a mirage. So I can’t be confident in my thoughts, even though I feel like I’ve found the answer.

It’s just something I naturally feel.

That’s why I keep analyzing it—because I think I’m right.

Why did the creators make this so confusing? What’s the reason?

Is he really a villain? Why are those elements present? He isn’t, is he? Then the story shouldn’t have been written that way.

It’s not like I have no intuition—I mean, when Chapter 154 came out, did many people immediately think, “That situation is a lie. He’s lying, and there must be another explanation”? Because that’s what I thought right away. Something felt off.

Later, the story changed and revealed a completely different context, didn’t it?

I just naturally thought that’s what would happen. I expected a different context because the explanation given earlier didn’t make sense!

The narrative in Chapter 154 was strange. The idea that Ai’s boyfriend’s attempted on scaring her didn’t align with his reactions shown alongside it. Not only did the whole described situation seem strange (like, how didn't he see it coming? That things could end up in disaster), the way he reacts didn't quite match up with his words either. Normally, in such cases, the spoken words are lies, and the emotions or behaviors tend to reflect the truth. That’s why you focus on expressions or demeanor rather than words when that happens.

Take Ryosuke, for example. People like him usually blame others. After stabbing Ai, he justified it by blaming her, saying, “It’s your fault! You’re the problem!” It’s a way to distance themselves from their wrongdoing. It’s petty, but people like that can harm others because they’re in a mindset where they justify causing pain to the other person. It’s also a form of self-preservation—a rationalization to protect themselves from admitting they’re a bad person.

If Kamiki had intended to harm Ai, he wouldn’t focus the blame on himself. Instead, he’d react defensively, saying things like, “She treated me poorly, so I lashed out. How could she do that to me?” That’s a more natural reaction. There should’ve been some defensive attitude. To be fair, he did state that Ai had her cruel sides and he despaired. But other than that, he doesn’t justify himself. Instead, he’s resigned, self-deprecating, going as far to say it was only natural for Ai to leave him. That's the opposite end of the spectrum in terms of the reaction someone can have towards a situation like that, compared to Ryosuke. He's too accepting to the point of being condescending of oneself.

But you know what? That suits his personality. He’s been that way his whole life. There’s even a scene where he blames himself when someone dies. His attitude is consistent and not a façade. This doesn’t align with someone who would harm others for selfish reasons. If he hurt anyone, the type of reasoning he'd have would be that it would only be for Ai’s sake, not his own.

And the songs—oh, the songs. They keep talking about offering something, about doing it for Ai or to see her again. Soo that REALLY is him in those songs. Those display exactly how this guy functions.

In my view, Kamiki is that guy who can't daren't harm Ai, no matter what. Even if he could harm the entire world—even his children(seriously though??)—he wouldn’t hurt Ai. If anything, he’d die before letting her die.

When I first read this manga, I never thought I’d arrive at such an evaluation. I didn’t have any particular thoughts about him back then. When I learned about his past, I just thought, Oh, that’s unfortunate. But why did he do that to Ai? But then his reactions started to seem off. Why would he even hurt Ai? Just why would he? I don't think he'd ever attempt on such a thing. There are too many missing pieces.

And it was right around that time when Fatal dropped too. With that song being there and ch 154 happening at the same time, I just knew.

His reactions wasn’t an act. Why would he be acting there? He was genuinely there to praise the movie one last time and see his kids. He even said he’d go turn himself in after meeting Aqua. Then, after seeing Ai’s video, it seemed like he changed his plans.

Kamiki’s reaction to Ai’s video wasn’t something he could’ve predicted or faked. Before that, he might’ve lied to ease Aqua’s burden, thinking of Aqua as his and Ai’s son and wanting to lessen his guilt. He had already decided to turn himself in because, in his mind, Ai’s death was his fault, regardless of the circumstances. Having his dad going to jail or "paying for his crimes" could affect Aqua, you know? I think he was trying to be considerate(and that IS consistent throughout the different chapters!! He's always had a soft spot for Aqua, we never see him being mean to him when they talk)

When Kamiki and Aqua meet later, Kamiki insists he didn’t do anything and recounts the events surrounding Ai’s death. This happens before Aqua pulls out his knife, before Kamiki realizes why Aqua has come. At that point, Kamiki doesn't know Aqua’s true intentions. Did he know Aqua came to kill him? He didn't, right? He only inquires about that like two chapters later. He even asks if Aqua wants to see Ruby together with him. Ultimately, at the very end, he didn’t want to be misunderstood to his own son, right? Isn't that what's going on? And at that point, he’s watched Ai’s video, so he realizes that she wanted to help him with her children. He probably felt grateful towards Aqua for having shown him the video? Then why would he lie to Aqua in that situation?

How did they end up meeting there in the first place?;; Where are they? What is going on in this manga?? Pretty sure Tsukuyomi told Aqua to go and get the dad or sth and told his whereabouts, she's probably behind it all wanting Kamiki dead bc he's a corrupted god that needs to be eliminated

Honestly, I think Kamiki would pretty much be innocent when it comes to Ai.

After Chapter 154, I started to keep up with the series more intently, and as Chapter 155 came along, I noticed Kamiki’s reactions didn’t fit someone who harmed Ai. If he were guilty, he would’ve shown more denial in that chapter, like, “It wasn’t my fault. It was your fault.” or "There's no way you loved me Ai, this is all a lie!" That’s a natural defense mechanism for someone who’s been kept from the truth for 15 years. If he's the culprit, that'd mean he's the one who brought everything upon himself and he'd want to deny the very fact he's messed everything up and is totally undeserving of Ai's love, right?

(I'm sure I've made some analysis about this when that chapter dropped too but, even Aqua's reactions towards this situation's pretty weird. If Kamiki really were to be the one who'd staged the crime, Aqua should have displayed more anger, called him a murderer, grabbed him by the collar or something because what he's claimed to have done is absolutely unforgivable, but the point Aqua makes is about Kamiki "not understanding Ai", which means, what he's concerned of is about Kamiki never having realized Ai's really loved him all along. If he's the one that's instigated Ai's murder, then he really doesn't deserve that anyway. But Aqua does want to get that across to him and that's what's important. I don't know about Aqua but I would sure fail to keep my cool in a situation like that.)

But instead, he just curled up, placed his hands on Ai's on the screen, and couldn’t say anything. This reaction he had really surprised me when I encountered it at first because it was like the mildest and softest reaction anyone could have at that that kind of situation.

That’s a tough reaction to interpret, but it’s not what you’d expect from someone guilty of hurting Ai. It feels more like he truly realized how much Ai cared for him and couldn’t even get angry—just accepting it and feeling the pain. I'm assuming he was like that to Ai when they were together. Just really lenient, really allowing and pretty much soft and tender when it came to her.

From there, it seemed like he resolved to do something for Ai. What that was remains unclear, but maybe he decided to sacrifice himself or find a way to bring Ai back to life. Perhaps that’s why he thought he couldn’t die yet in Chapter 162.

His initial mindset was, “I’ll gladly accept my punishment since Ai didn’t love me anyway. But I want to see the kids one last time.” But after seeing the video, he couldn’t let go of Ai.

His emotional responses show how much he genuinely loved Ai. Surprisingly, it doesn’t feel like an unhealthy or twisted love. I usually pick up on that kind of thing, but with them, it feels like they truly loved each other.

They probably did their best for one another. There doesn’t seem to be much animosity between them. So did Kamiki really harm Ai? I keep doubting it.

There must be a reason the creators wrote it this way. They aren’t incapable of portraying unhealthy emotions like Ryosuke’s. Kamiki’s feelings seem different—more genuine.

Anyway, this post got ridiculously long again, didn’t it? Whenever I type my thoughts out, they just keep flowing.

And there are just too many parallels to mythology to ignore. Without mythology, the manga’s later developments and certain elements wouldn’t make sense.

It’s not that I actively try to think about these things—I just naturally reach these conclusions. To me, they’re obvious. That’s why I keep questioning if I’ve misunderstood something, and it makes my head hurt. I’m not intentionally thinking about it; the conclusions just come to me, and I immediately write them down.

Because of that, I kept analyzing Kamiki despite the serious accusations against him.

It’s not that I tried to defend or idealize him—I just didn’t think he was guilty from what was shown. I was confident, but it was stressful because the future was uncertain.

You can definitely like and find a character like this fascinating. It’s possible. But for me, from the beginning, my interpretation was based on the premise that there’s something more going on, and I don’t think he did it.

Looking at how things have unfolded, sticking to that perspective wasn’t entirely in vain. If he were the culprit, it would’ve been straightforward to just capture him and define him as Ai's killer, but that’s not what happened. I really don’t think he’s guilty.

As for his reasoning or motives, I’ve explained those in other posts, so I won’t go into them here.

This has been so frustrating. The subject matter is unsettling, and I didn’t want to defend or romanticize him. But I didn’t think he was guilty, and the songs were just too strong. Every time I listen to them, I think, How could I not consider this pairing? The emotions are overwhelming.

It’s such a peculiar manga.

I don’t like being in the minority or having opinions that clash with others, so it’s been quite burdensome. Kamiki’s situation is objectively problematic. It's been so stressful finding and thinking about things that seemingly oppose what the story intially seemed to suggest, it was SUCH a tough road to take,

But what can I do when I see these things? If I’m wrong, then the creators failed to express their intentions. That’s how it feels to me, though I usually wouldn’t say such things.

[roguephenon]

Thank you for going along with every comment I send in! I am always worried about coming off too strong so I’m glad that I’m allowed to have a lot of free reign in this instance. With that said, I just realised that I forgot to add this entire part but here it is!!

To add to what I said in my previous ask and at the risk of sounding like the most basic cartoon lover ever…I especially loved the 3/4 moments, ok? I love how they were able to figure something out thru a lot of trial and error by the time Nigel came back. I love how almost everyone is kinda attuned or aware of the very palpable Something that’s been going on between them for years. 

Another thing that I especially love is that you’re rlly good at portraying them as two people navigating their first relationship together and it isn’t perfect! She doesn’t share everything with him…maybe because her new role makes her hesitant to rely on people?? And he feels genuinely insecure because literally everyone is like “girl…dump him/she is way out of your league”. He just wants to be seen as capable enough to help and she needs the validation that she’s doing alright. But they do try their best anyways! 

And OUGHH the way they’re both stubborn when it comes to each other. Like his refusal to forget her?? And her refusal to give up on him?? The way both of these things help move the plot in some way. Like yea if I were Nigel, I’d also drop the rules to plan a jailbreak. Heck, I’d do it a chapter earlier ☝️. I especially like how affectionate and dorky they are together like yeah he’d drink tea for her and yeah they’d also do a whole epic duo fight in the form of a dance…oh you definitely cooked with that…one of my absolute fave scenes…

Speaking of favorite scenes…I gotta give a special mention to the confession scene in chapter 28 because how could I not…like years of them doing the whole will they/won’t they dance and them having this secret relationship within the narrative and him setting aside all his bluster and pride to proclaim his love at the lowest hour, mid battle?! I was so invested even at 2 am dude. Her immediately locking in after that… Him wanting to be better because of her belief that she can OUGHHH. Like these two have been underestimated by everyone in universe so it always meant a lot to me that they both grow into people who subverted those expectations. 

Lastly, while I do appreciate these prominent moments, what really got to me the most, emotionally, was the quiet stuff which is ironic cuz these two have never been any sort of quiet haha. But yea, the scenes leading up to their joint decommissioning were so peak. Him refusing it for her and eventually doing it WITH her. Her reassuring him and how as she matured, she realised that she didn’t need all that overt displays of affection, especially if he’s not comfortable with it cuz she gets It. Him wanting to go thru it anyways cuz he feels like she deserves it. AND their cute banter as they wait for the inevitable with the callbacks and everything ESPECIALLY the callback from operation cats? I was near tears😭. I 100% believe that they would’ve found each other again if (REDACTED) didnt happen. 

Overall, you were not only able to portray the pair we all knew and loved but you did it in a way to show why it would work out very well. It’s the type of love you grow into, forward, and together. Grow As We Go by Ben Platt definitely suits them. 

PS. How was it for you to write them this way? And I know it’s already implied but the things I’d do for the directors cut of their actual love confession 🙏. 

Aw, don’t be afraid to run that risk! Like what you like! There’s no shame in it, especially with a ship like this. Take it from me!

I’m happy to hear you liked their portrayal here. I definitely wanted to show two people growing into their first relationship. I’m a sucker for the childhood sweethearts trope. It’s not perfect, but nothing truly is. That’s why I took care to show the messy as well.

I think the quiet moments should hit hard and loud in terms of emotional narrative too, so I’m glad it invoked a strong reaction as that was the intent haha.

Writing them this way was fun and satisfying for me. Mostly, I definitely wanted to see this relationship from the developing standpoint; it’s why the story starts with them together and the “first” confession isn’t given much focus.

It’s also why, technically, there is no director’s cut of the first love confession: because the one you see in 28 IS the actual one. It’s the real one, the one that matters.

[thevampirecasketsystem]

I noticed we were re-blogged onto a cringe system page basically the entire preface is fake claiming I did block them because I cannot be bothered with that I’m not giving you my energy dude (plus I don’t really wanna lash out because we tend to do that because NPD and stuff but yeah don’t really wanna say something we regret because we’re trying to get better)

their entire point is, they think it is funny which I would disagree. Even if someone is faking a disorder, they shouldn’t be treated with malice or hate because if you are faking having a disorder and you yourself are definitely not mentally healthy because no mentally healthy person is going to fake anything and if someone is wrong about having something that’s fine they still deserve compassion so we can find what’s really wrong with them and just claiming they are fake is not helping. And even when you claim all endogenic systems are faking that is harmful, the license psychologists even have divided opinions on the endogenic community a lot of life and decide psychologists and specialist actually do you believe in existence of endogenic systems and non-disordered plurality there is many many systems who can share their experience with non-disorder plurality and being endogenic heck we mixed origin We have endogenic heasmatea ourself however we are still mostly traumagenic.

you see fake claiming only does more harm than good. It stops people from getting help and stops people from getting taken seriously when they need help. it causes stigma and it makes it seem like it is okay to harass someone because you think they’re fake when in reality all they did was a crime of being “cringe” in your eyes and yeah, we are actually aware we are very cringe to most people we don’t care thiugh, I mean heck when you have much wrong with you then as we do, it’s probably not surprising that we are going to be a bit more cringe than over people because developing like a normal person when you are very mentally ill and disabled, it’s kind of hard and I don’t care if we seem cringe because we are happy however, to some people that might hurt them a lot, especially to younger teenagers which these people don’t see any problem with harassing them anyway.

do you know something? I wish we were faking we are very disordered in our DID we have a lot of blackout amnesia we have CPTSD we have a very bad derealisation, we have terrible inner world communication a lot of us hate each other. I have woken up I’ve come into front after someone has harmed the body or took substances and I have to calm down from that I have came into front after attempts. Do you think I want this? Just because I’m not posting about our struggles 24/7 does not mean that we are enjoying this or want this at all like no we hate this and yeah, we’re gonna post cringe stuff because it makes us happy and god forbid a mentally ill person be happy I guess?

There is so much that we refuse to talk about with how this disorder affects us with very fucked up stuff very personal so we don’t really wanna share because we feel like that danger us or someone else who doesn’t want to see that. But we do suffer a lot and even if a system doesn’t suffer that does not mean you can fake claim them you are not them you do not experience what they experience you do not know their experience nor are you a doctor you are just an edgelord, who is sad with your life so you go and harass random people who you deemed to be cringe? Yeah, that’s definitely not embarrassing at all /sarc.

[monokuma-apologist]

Such a random and rambling post, but I got the three mainline Danganronpa games for Christmas.

I had already experienced them all prior to that, however I had done that with my sister / using her copies of the games. As well as this, I have at this moment only ever seen the THH anime and listened to a playthrough of the game (my sister was just excited for GD, LOLOL). So, since I wanted to play it for real anyways and just got it, I’ve been having my mom play through it with me.

Usually, to scratch this want-to-share-my-interest itch, I’d infodump to my friend, but…

I lost my best and at-the-time only close / similarly geeky friend earlier this year. (She’s alive, don’t worry! The context? I was conditioned by her for years into being co-dependent, and then abandoned by her for being co-dependent..with her definition of “co-dependent” being me wanting her to spend any sort of time with me. 😬. But that’s a story for my currently-horrified-on-my-behalf therapist to unpack!)

My interest in this franchise was initially a coping mechanism to distract myself from that situation (I had decided to redirect my energy into these games, since it was something I was bonding with my sister over!). It was a double-edged sword, though- that friend and I used to share all of our interests with each other, and though she’d never humor me by playing the games (understandable in a vacuum, saddening when combined with the fact that she would rarely humor me with anything) she’d usually let me ramble about the things I loved about the game, and occasionally would get very secondhand invested. So with her gone, I missed that.

Hence- this playthrough with my mom!

When I tell you how much this has meant to me-

First of all, she’s remembered the names / controls (she doesn’t usually play games like this in her free time, and aside from us watching Spy x Family together she doesn’t engage with anime or anything like that) and yesterday we played for a few hours- so I like to imagine she’s genuinely interested.

It’s also been nice to see how much I’ve progressed with my mental health. Even just last year, I would get so embarrassed to share anything I liked with anybody (to be fair, some reasons were not related to my mental health, but still). But now I’m doing the voices while I read out the lines (it’s part of the experience. I’m simply honoring my sister’s traditions) and having fun with it.

This would be so inconceivable for me not that long ago… So personal progress! That’s a big deal! (For context I have diagnosed OCD / Major Depressive Disorder, suspected anxiety disorder / ADHD, and multiple siblings with ASD and plenty of suspicious that I’ve got that as well. And don’t worry about the MDD thing, that’s something that actually hasn’t been an issue recently! Turns out things do get better?? Wha-wha-WHAT?! But yeah, these sorts of things cause a lot of trouble for me socially, which sucks, but AGAIN! PROGRESS!!! Heck, someone told me to off myself earlier this year- as many of you know- and I was…fine! Sorry for the tangent…I’m proud, and that message always makes me giggle to think about).

More importantly though it’s meant a lot to me just from a love-language sorta standpoint. The fact that she’s willing to play through this game that isn’t really her normal cup of tea with me, just because she knows I like it. (Let’s add in the fact, too, that she consistently communicated with my sister to figure out what sorta Danganronpa stuff to get me for Christmas).

I dunno! Such a random post, I know, but it’s meant a lot to me, and it’s been fun!

Just wanted to share. It makes me happy :)

[marbles-for-breakfast]

I don’t identify as endo, btw. I just get lumped in with them bc I don’t have any memories of child abuse and I don’t like origin labels. I may very well be “traumagenic”. That’s not a useful distinction to me. I don’t care why I’m like this and I don’t think other people should care either. Even if I discover that I have significant childhood trauma, I won’t feel the need to say that was definitely the sole cause of me being plural. It’ll be intertwined with it, yes. Of course it will. But why should I be forced to assume it was the reason?

But because of all these things, your anti-endo posts feel targeted at me too. I don’t identify as endo, but I know that’s how you would identify me. Just because I’m not confidently traumagenic with no evidence of trauma. And just because I don’t hate endos for being confidently who they are.

When someone tells you they exist, believe them. Believe them until or unless you have actual evidence that they are lying. And “they’re lying bc that’s impossible” is not a valid reason, because guess what? You can’t just assume that something is impossible because it doesn’t fit into the story of OSDDID that people usually tell. You don’t know what’s possible and what’s not. No one does. Especially when it comes to brain stuff. The only way to know what’s possible is to LISTEN to people. If you think endos are all lying weirdos who want to be special and think that your trauma is a fun game, you’re not listening.

And I understand why you’re not listening. The narrative that trauma made you like this is important to you. And you know what? That’s okay. No one’s trying to take that away from you. We just want the freedom to have our OWN narratives about why WE are the way we are. Some of us (like me) want the freedom to be unsure. Or to simply not care. I don’t feel like I need a reason. And I don’t feel like I could ever really know for sure. But I understand that the reason is important to a lot of you. And I do respect that.

You can have your own spaces if you want. Stop talking shit about us (especially in shared spaces like the plural tag), and we’ll leave you the heck alone. I certainly think we should be allowed to have some separation between different communities based on origin. I mean, my experience is very different from willogenic systems. And I’ll admit that I sometimes have negative instincts towards them. It’s natural to feel some level of resentment towards people who got to have a choice where you didn’t. It can be confusing when they make the choice to be something that you worked hard to come to terms with, seemingly while skipping all the hardest parts! It’s not fair. But that’s also not their fault. It’s not their fault you were abused. It’s not their fault you never got a choice. It’s not their fault that being a system is so hard, and coming to terms with everything is such an overwhelming process. It’s not their fault it’s easier for them.

I don’t want to be friends with a bunch of willogenics. Maybe I’m not ready for that, maybe I never will be. I still think they have a right to make a choice that I was never given. I’m happy for them, that they got to do that. I’m happy that it was easier than what we’re going through.

I know that it’s possible to become a system through paths other than severe trauma because I have not seen any evidence that that is not the case. And the hundreds of people claiming to have arrived at this point through a wide variety of methods is all the proof I need that this is possible. Because I have no reason to doubt their own interpretation of their own experiences. How arrogant or stubborn would I have to be to do that?

Just let systems be ourselves, please. I want community. I want understanding. I want empathy. So let’s stop worrying about so much about why we’re like this, and focus on what we are, and who we want to be.

[ciaossu-imagines]

Hi! I've been a fan of KHR for almost 11 years now and blogs like yours are honestly one of the main things that keep my love for it alive so i just wanted to say thank you so much for posting all your stuff~ You can ignore this part if you want but is it ok to request for aesthetics headcanons and/or ideal female partner headcanons for Giotto from KHR? Anyways, I hope you have so many happy and fun days ahead of you!

Oh my gosh. Thank you so much, you beautiful anon! I really appreciated the heck out of this message and have reread it often. I’m so glad that you like my posts and that it helps keep you in love with KHR and I get what you mean. The stuff the fandom puts out really helps keep me in love with the fandom, along with at least yearly rereads. And I definitely cannot ignore any part of this message 😊 I’m more than happy to do these for you! I’m sorry if the answers are a bit shorter than my norm or not quite up to snuff, but I tried my hardest and hope that you’ll enjoy!

AESTHETICS

Sunsets on a summer night, the sky streaked with pinks and orange. Soft laughter among friends. Pocket watches ticking away seconds and minutes. Reinvention. Justice – cloth covering blind eyes, scales at even. Second chances. Acceptance that takes away all loneliness. Big suppers with friends, glasses of wine raised in a toast, conversations that last into the wee hours of the morning. A hand outstretched to those in need. Love everlasting. Trust and wonder in the world. Fate. Eternity. Generational inheritance.

IDEAL PARTNER HEADCANONS

I mention every time that I do ideal partner headcanons that I don’t really dwell on physical traits. With Giotto, I do this even less and it’s because I really am convinced that Giotto is someone who wouldn’t take looks into account when it comes to who he gets into relationships with, at least not as much as most other people would. He does have to be physically attracted to someone to get into a relationship with them, but Giotto is someone who can easily find the beauty in others, even those who most others would not consider pretty. The people Giotto becomes romantically interested in, the people he dates or the person he eventually ends up marrying don’t have to be traditionally pretty. In fact, they’re often not. Giotto is someone who finds so much beauty in the smaller things – the sound of someone’s voice, how their smile lights up their face, how pretty their eyes are and how expressive they are, how their movements are so graceful, how dainty their hands are, things like that. In Giotto’s mind, he’s never met someone who was truly ugly all the way through.

For Giotto, the things that matter the most in people are all the things on the inside. For him to get serious, to take an initial attraction to someone to wooing them and then getting into a relationship with them, Giotto places a huge value on the type of person someone is.

The most important thing for Giotto is that his lover and eventual life partner is someone who is truly kind. And it can’t be performative kindness, kindness only done to make themselves look better or to get something in return. He wants someone who truly cares about the people around them, who wants to make others lives better and happier.

However, he appreciates someone who has good boundaries and doesn’t allow others to just run over them. He sometimes struggles with that himself and having someone that close to him who can remind him that you have to be kind to yourself first, that it doesn’t diminish your kindness to say no, will be something he appreciates more than he can state.

Giotto lives his life in such a way that he really will need to have his partner share his beliefs, morals, and values. They are such a big part of what makes Giotto who he is, a big part of how he lives his life. He needs for his partner to share a similar sense of justice, along with a nonjudgmental attitude of others. After all, the people Giotto has around him are of such varied natures and even of different ethnicities. He needs a partner who doesn’t judge others based off of things like that, but actively looks for the good in those around them.

Because of how the Vongola got started and its technically illegal aspects, he also needs a partner who has that rebellious streak to them. Someone who isn’t afraid to break some laws if the laws are oppressive.

In terms of interpersonal stuff, Giotto really appreciates a partner who is trusting. He needs someone who isn’t jealous or clingy, who will understand that he has responsibilities and other bonds and will happily embrace those bonds and give him space and room to be around others without getting upset about it. He wants his partner to trust that he would never betray them in any sense.

He also really appreciates a supportive partner and someone who will help him keep his spirits up even when he’s feeling the pressure of his position and of the weight that everyone’s expectations puts on him sometime. He wants a partner whose very presence is like a soothing balm to his soul.

[bi-ologistofthehills]

Hey, hey, so..

My irl best friend is Mormon. Or LDS as they prefer.

Sent this to her, because we’ve been friends for a long time and have lots of deep conversations about our very opposite viewpoints and beliefs. She’s religious, I’m very much not at all. It’s chill.

This isn’t true about all Mormons. Definitely not in the realm of anything she’s been taught/learned.

From all the experience I’ve ever had with them, they’re super nice, amazing, normal people! Her parents and siblings are amazing!

They’re not a cult. They aren’t taught that the world is full of scary monster people. They don’t drink alcohol or coffee, which I’ve never fully understood why but hey, to each their own. They’re definitely not hurting anybody by not drinking that stuff.

I used to go to their after school activity things with her all the time (before I got busy lol). It was always a blast and they have never once tried to shove their religion down my throat!!

Now, if you’ve had experiences within a Mormon church that back up what OP(s) said, I’m not here to say that those aren’t valid. But, don’t assume all Mormon’s are like that.

Bestie has so kindly offered to answer questions people have, funneled through me because she doesn’t have tumblr. If you have any. If not, cool.

And now, quote from ✨bestie✨.

“When it comes down to it, us Mormons are just trying to share something we care about and love because it brings us so much joy.

And we want others to feel the joy we experience everyday. It's not about growing the number of members, or handing out a certain amount of Book of Mormons, or trying to convert every single person we interact with.

Being a part of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is about sharing love and happiness and comfort to those around us, regardless if they believe in our faith, the Book of Mormon, or even God.

I just want to share the things in life that make me happy. And my faith and my church have always and will always bring me the most joy in life.”

She shares this stuff with me all the time. It never feels like she’s trying to convert me nor do I feel the need to convert.

She’s happy. She feels fulfilled. Therefore, I am happy that she’s happy and will gladly listen as she shares things with me.

Heck, we had a conversation about our differing viewpoints on evolution the other day and basically ended it with, “cool, I see why you believe that”

She’s awesome. End post.

[onlygenxhere]

For the Fanfic Ask Game (Blind Date Edition): 6 C, 17 D, 23 E, 50 F please :D

Game Time is fic #6 and part 5 in the Found Family Fluff series and it’s Carlos playing Overcooked with the guys. Julie laying between them with a hand or foot on the boys so Carlos and see and hear them.

C) What's your favourite dialogue from this fic? Hands down it’s the part where they’re playing the game. This fic was inspired by my family and I playing it, and all of this dialog were things we’ve said.

“I need more fruit Alex” “There’s three of each cut and there’s nowhere else to put any more” “Put that bowl back Luke, what the heck are you doing?” “I didn’t mean to pick it up REGGIE!”  “Over here, OVER HERE” “Over where?” “Ugh, nevermind” “Serve this order Luke” “Coming” “I need more of the purple stuff over here!” “Don’t throw it!” “There’s already an egg in this!” “Ugh!”  “If you yell at me again I’m leaving” “Shit” “LUKE!” “Sorry, I fell off the side again” “Someone get the order out of the oven, it’s burning BEEP BEEP BEEP, never mind I have it!” “Move!” “Plates!” “Washing as fast as I can little man” “Well if you’d just stick to your job and stop trying to help…” “I hate this game”  “Stop bitching and keep chopping” “CARLOS!” “sorry” Carlos says quietly, “not wrong”

Fic # 17 is Falling Toward the Future, my college AU and my longest fic.

D) What's your favourite scene from this fic? (this is payback for me asking you this same question on your long fic isn’t it?) In Ch 15 Julie and everyone are at the dance club hanging out and drinking. Julie has had some tequila when one of Luke’s old “f-buddies” approaches her…  

“Excuse me, are you Julie?”

Julie turned to see a pretty redhead standing next to her smiling. Julie distractedly replied, “Yes?”

“Hi, I’m Allison,” she smiled sweetly at her. “I’m one of Luke’s friends. I need you to give him permission to sleep with me again. He seems to think you wouldn’t be ok with it.”

Julie dropped back into her seat not wanting to look away from what was going on across the room with Luke and Isaac but struck by the absolutely crazy statement that had just come out of this girl’s mouth.  

“Excuse me?”

The crazy redhead talked with her hands as she explained, “It’s my senior year and you’re kinda ruining it by hogging him all to yourself. I have always been reasonable about the other two but I feel like it’s my turn again and you need to back off.”

Julie just blinked at her for a minute trying to figure out how to even start, “What did he tell you?”

She rolled her eyes, “He said you were dating.” Julie nodded. “Luke doesn’t date.”

Julie nodded at her again, “We are dating.” Allison started to open her mouth in protest as Julie held up a hand, “and I don’t share.”

The girl’s sweet smile slid off her face as she ran her eyes up and down Julie. “Huh, who knew you were the type of girl he’d end up with.”

Julie raised an eyebrow at her, “And what exactly is that supposed to mean?”  

She waved a hand in Julie’s direction, “You’re just so… ethnic.”

Julie’s thoughts ran through the myriad of things she could do here. Tequila Julie wanted to get in a fist fight. Smart Julie wanted to throw a scathing comment about women tearing down other women at her. Girlfriend Julie wanted to defend Luke’s choice in choosing her over this crazy woman.

Julie slid off the barstool and stepped into Allison’s space looking up at her. “I’m sorry you’re so very vanilla but you need to back your shit up and go find your own happiness elsewhere. Stop trying to steal it from others because that kind of love isn’t real.” Julie blinked up at her keeping direct eye contact, “Luke is mine and you need to leave him the fuck alone.”

Allison took a step back looking down her nose at Julie. Then she looked up and smiled over Julie’s shoulder just before strong arms wrapped around Julie from behind pulling her back against a familiar chest. Her smile fell as Luke said, “Allison.” Then he kissed Julie on the side of the neck before looking back up at the redhead.

She pursed her lips and nodded once before turning and walking away.

Luke turned Julie around and asked with a concerned expression, “What was that about?”

Julie smirked, “She wanted to express her displeasure that you are off the market and asked me to reconsider.”

He raised both eyebrows in surprise, “And what did you say?”

“I told her you were mine and she needed to fuck off.”

He smiled and pulled her into a hug, “Damn right.”

We Say We’re Friends is fic #23. It’s from the Jukebox Baby verse, the first of the prequels.

E) What's your favourite line from this fic? Hard choice. So, chapter 3. Julie and Luke are walking home from the pool. She’s 12, he’s 14 and she recently saw him and Alex kissing. It’s a little more than one line but... Context.  

She sighed. “I don’t know. I think I’m jealous that you’ve had your first kiss.” She looked up into those hazel eyes she could never lie to. “And I’m disappointed that it wasn’t me.”

# 50 was the last fic added to the Falling Toward the Future verse titled: Love too Big for a Love Song.

F) Did you struggle while writing this fic? If so: why? I had a few starts and stops with it. There were parts I knew I needed in there but some of the dialogue was fighting me in certain places. But all in all it was like riding a bike getting back into this universe.

Blind date fanfic ask game

[vinnybox]

Because I saw you had a lot of fic tabs open, do you have any fic recs? (Birdflash preferably because I have a NEED)

[cracks knuckles]

I do in fact have several I could recommend! Some of these I hadn’t managed to finish reading cause of university, and there’s a WHOLE lot more I could rec once I finish reading them <3 but also anyone feel free to reccommend or ask for more fics as well! I’ll be down to reading/sharing them!

Don’t forget to check tags for each fics and be safe! <3 <3 <3

Fic recs under cut!

BirdFlash Fics rec

Watercolors by novaviis

With BirdFlash fic there's no way I can't recommend this one for anyone who absolutely CRAVES Birdflash. (like me DGSDH) The series is full of fluff that will leave you with diabetes and also angst thrown in to spice things up and leave you with enough suspense to make you go "OUAHGGHHH!!!" There's SO much to unpack and honestly I cannot tell you enough to check this out if you haven't yet. The characterization is written amazingly well and feels very in character, the atmosphere and writing is fuckin GREAT and really makes you feel the PUNCH of words to really sell the FEELINGS. Some chapters in the series has smut so do with that as you will. But yA, the writing is top notch I’d say :D

There'll be peace when you are done (don't you cry no more & If the sky comes falling down (there's nothing in this world I wouldn't do) by winter_of_ice

Anyone who enjoys hurt/comfort Birdflash might like this! There’s angst and some fluff with happy end is enough to satisfy. :] The writing here is again very enjoyable and just like Watercolors, the narration is quite nice as well. At least I think so! Give these a read and maybe check other works of theirs too since there’s a handful of work that could interest you!

There in a Flash by renecdote

This fic is short n sweet! Just the two of them being nice n soft with each other. :3 Definitely an enjoyable read!

Toll by Cant_Smoke_Eggs

Also nice and short! I think this one is both cute and funny and I do enjoy this even if its a short one-shot! Give this a little read to see these dorks being in love. There’s suggestive stuff, but nothing more before it turns into comedy DHGSDHD

Voicemail by  Froggywrites04

Angst with a happy end(?) is all I can say about this. It punches you, then gives you a little kiss at the end. Worth reading imo. :’3 Its angst, but it also has a hopeful ending.

Thunderbird by CoyoteFang1987

A soulmate and hanahaki au but its birdflash. There’s fluff, there’s angst, lots of it, but also like, two kinds of ending. I don’t usually read Hanahaki AUs, but these are in the few exceptions :] I enjoyed it v much! Both endings.

Failsafe by  HaveAGoodFuckingDay

Another oneshot fic that’s not too long or too short! I like the writing here plus the first kiss n all that stuff! Heck yeah! This one makes me go <3<3 🥺

Dick Grayson + Batfam/Young Justice (Also some Talon!Dick AU)

One of Us (Talon!Dick + Age Swap) by Tiredteengaer

THIS!! THIS RIGHT HERE SOLIDIFIED MY LOVE FOR THIS AU!!! This fic is about the angst, the fluff, the recovery, the hurt, and the EVERYTHING. Especially family bonding and Bruce doing his best to be not as emotionally constipated. Honestly go read this if you like Talon!Dick AU. This fic is one of if not the best one I’ve read so far and I’m on my way to re-reading this again :] Talon!Dick beloved <3 🥺🥺🥺 HIGHLY recommend this one cause it will feed you for days.

The Robin Who Forgot How To Fly by Evergreena

A Young Justice fic that also has Batman where Robin loses his memories and shit goes DOWN. Like, not DOWN down kind of down bad, but like enough to make you go “OH SHIT-” or “OH NO-”. There’s comedy, there’s bonding, there’s Robin and the team overall being badass, and even Barbara! And of course there’s angst but the ending is quite hopeful! Give this a read for sure if this pique your interest! It certainly did with me! :D Robin’s word play is also present, which is absolutely asterous

Never-Ending by UMdancer98

AKA Dick gets kidnapped (Again). This one is pretty recent but I’ve enjoyed it so far!! I hadn’t got the chance to finish it yet, but I love the writing here and the lil bit of suspense put in here. Be sure to check tags since it features kidnapping and some canon-typical violence from what I’ve remembered.

Unconditional by  miss_aphelion

Injustice au but Dick doesn’t get bonked to death. I liked the interaction Damian has here with Dick, and it’s honestly really sweet ;w; I hadn’t got to finish this one either, but I’m doing my best to catch up! The writing is very yummy and has some funny moments throw in with the angst and some family bonding.

Robin’s light by iammadeofmemories

Short fic with Battinson Batman and Robin! I’ve not seen the movie (I WANT TO SO BADLY-) but even if you haven’t seen the movie, you’ll still enjoy this lil fic of Batman’s interaction with 9 year old Robin. Absolutely sweet and warm like a big ol blanket wrapped around you. Or in this case, Batman’s cape wrapped around you while he gives you a lil head pat kind of warmth.

Busted by Tiredteengaer

Young Justice fic where Dick and Wally is in jail. For what? You’ll have to read this to find out :] But overall, funny heehee fic with fun character interactions and narration. Check out other fics from this writer as well! I think there’s a handful of fics that looks like fun!

[janeykath318]

A Time Of Need (Shieldshock)

Meeting one’s soulmate was supposed to be one of the happiest moments of a person’s life, and yet, Darcy had spent her life dreading hers because of the words on her right hand.

“I’m sorry for your loss.”

What kind of cruel joke was the universe going to play on her? Was she going to meet her soulmate at a funeral?

“You have a sick sense of humor, Universe!” She’d muttered multiple times, while looking at her words with disgust. She’d complained to Jane plenty of times. Her friend was sympathetic, but did her best to put a less depressing spin on it.

“I know it’s not fun circumstances, but I think it’s more common than we think. It just doesn’t get talked about. Hopefully, your soulmate will support you through your future grief. If they don’t, rest assured I will portal their ass to outer space.”

Darcy had chuckled and then sighed.

“Well I appreciate your attempts to cheer me up about it, i just wanted a cheesy meet cute. Was that too much to ask?” she grumbled. “Heck, I’d take a terrible pick up line at this point.”

Fortunately, for Darcy’s wish, funerals were few and far between for her during the busy years interning with Jane, then briefly wrangling Avengers before the world turned upside down.

She was a little surprised that she didn’t meet her soulmate after the snap, but it seemed it wasn’t yet time, because despite the myriad of memorials, no awkward soulmate meeting occurred.

Two years after Thanos, the unthinkable happened.

Why did it have to be Jane? Why? After all the unthinkably crazy stuff she’d lived through, she was taken out by cancer and Darcy was left reeling.

She sat by Thor at the memorial service, doing her best to be supportive even as she felt numbed by the grief herself. She stared at Jane’s picture while Eric eulogized her in long-winded form.

“I am not dying for six college credits!” Memories flashed through her mind from New Mexico, Norway, and London. From Jack-booted thugs and killer robots to Dark elves and visitors from Asgard, they’d had a good run. It would have made a killer memoir if most of it wasn’t classified.

After the service ended, she quietly chatted with Jane’s family for a little bit and shared some funny anecdotes of science mishaps that brought teary smiles to their faces.

Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Thor talking to a tall blonde dude who looked eerily familiar.

Curious, she approached her friend, who turned to her with one of his excited puppy expressions. Her heart melted. She hadn’t seen that look in months. Clearly, Thor’s friend had brought him some comfort.

“Darcy!” He exclaimed. “My shieldbrother Steven came to pay his respects. Have you met him?”

Darcy mutely shook her head, stunned at seeing Steve Rogers in person. He was wearing a dark suit and looked very different from the Captain America she’d seen on the news. It was a good difference, though. He looked like he’d just walked out of a GQ ad.

Thor took it upon himself to introduce her and soon she was shaking the very large hand of the former Captain America.

“I’m sorry for your loss, Dr. Lewis.”

Darcy gaped. There it was. Her Words. The Dreaded moment. She considered fleeing, but the sincerely empathetic way Steve was looking at her held her still. After a few moments of silent panicking, she found her voice and blurted out “I thought you were on the moon or something.”

Steve looked shocked for a second, then he slowly grinned, which sent Darcy back to speechlessness.

“Darcy? Are you okay? I have never known you to go so long without speech,” Thor questioned worriedly.

In answer, she mutely held up her hand, showing them her words. Thor’s eyes widened and he excused himself after patting them both on the back and congratulating them in hearty Thor fashion. Steve nodded and looked at her with another one of those caring looks. She swallowed past the lump in her throat.

“I’m sorry it had to be under these circumstances, but I am very happy to meet you,” he said softly. “My words are right here, in case you’re wondering.” He gestured to his left side.

She knew he was ripped under that nice black suit and let a little smirk appear.

“On top of your six pack, I hope?”

“Not quite,” Steve chuckled. “As to your first statement, I am retired and mostly off the grid right now, but I don’t know how the secret base on the moon rumors got started. I suspect Sam and Bucky.”

“A reasonable assumption,” Darcy agreed. “Your friends are goofy like that. Gosh, I can’t believe this. I bet Jane is laughing so hard at me in Valhalla. She tried to set me up with you once upon a time.”

“Oh?” Steve queried, one eyebrow quirking up in interested amusement.

“Yep,” Darcy admitted. “I’d just been dumped and wasn’t ready to try again. But fate prevailed, I see.”

“Yeah, it did. Natasha would have loved this. She talked about you a lot and said you were totally my type.”

“What? A feisty brunette who punches douchebags and has no filter? You’re in for a treat, then, Steve-o.”

She winked at him saucily.

“I think I am.” he agreed.

As she left the funeral home on Steve’s arm, she smiled affectionately at Jane’s picture.

You were right, Janey. Thank You.

Meanwhile In The Afterlife:

“Finally!” Jane crowed triumphantly, pumping her fist and doing the happy dance she’d used to do when celebrating a scientific breakthrough.

“Yes. If only the stubborn mule had listened to me. I could have helped plan their wedding,” sighed Natasha ruefully. “Maybe I’ll finally get a little namesake. I have never forgotten Nathaniel’s betrayal.”

“Hopefully, we’ll both get namesakes,” Jane agreed. “Those kids will have fantastic genes.”

She mimed fanning herself and made Natasha laugh again.

[spitdrunken]

Ssssssigh. I don’t think I will ever be able to talk about shit like this off anon even tough I have accepting friends I’m just shyyyyy, but I need to babble of how the idea of shipcest reader insert blankshipping is consuming me. Y/N as the third sibling to the twins, wether they actually are a younger /older sibling or a “fun fact: the subway masters are actually triplets and have a non identical sibling” kind of deal, I am currently just smitten with the idea of Y/N that is actually related to them. The twins themself share a special bond that borders on twin thelepathy and it can make one feel like they are being left out, but they love the heck out if their non identical sibling as well. Bonus points for Y/N and Emmet actually hooking up first, Ingo knowing, but pointedly ignoring it / feeling guilty because in his confused mind he feels directly responsible for this, like his disgusting thoughts somehow seeped over to them. Which in turn both of his younger siblings to team up and try to get their Nii-San to join them, he deserves all their love as well. Come on Ingo don’t derail this three car train, we were both perfectly depraved even without you “corrupting us”, but if our darling big brother is just as perverted as we are there is no need to hide it from us no? Maybe we should give him some gentle but firm encouragement, make out a bit n in front of him, show him what he’s missing, call out for him when we kiss so he just knows how much his siblings want him to join?

notes: incest

i'm glad that despite your shyness, this blog could be a place for you to share your thoughts :D!! ingo and emmet incest stuff will forever hold a special place in my heart, so im always happy to write about it HAHA

I've always really liked the idea of Reader being a younger sibling of them! And the whole twin telepathy thing, you've hit the nail right on the head for me as well… I always kind of like the internal conflict of sibling!Reader seeing how close they are, how they can seemingly understand each other without words, and how they wish that they could have something like that for themselves… But knowing that it's not something achievable. Because while Ingo and Emmet understand you better than most people, it's still not the same.

Perhaps this desire for closeness got twisted somewhere along the way, and that's how everything ended up like this. You felt desire for, and later, a feeling of satisfaction in sharing something with Emmet that he didn't with Ingo, as far as you knew, at least.

Still, it probably happened in some kind of drunken state of mind, because to make the first move on your brother takes a special kind of courage. I think that Emmet would very enthusiastically reciprocate, honestly. With this kind of dynamic, I really enjoy the idea that they've all just been secretly pining for each other for years.

Ingo is the one who has always felt the guiltiest about it, and the most disgusting. He's also the one that thought about you the most often. Even though he's seen you the first time, and left without you noticing, he watched for far, far too long instead of stopping you.

When you and Emmet try to convince him to join, Ingo freezes up entirely. The words that usually flow so readily from his lips have dried up entirely. The part of him that hopes that this is a dream, and that it's not, clash with equal powers. He knows he's kind of standing at a point of no return.

His silence, combined with the expression that's unreadable, even for you, someone who knows him so long, is somewhat terrifying. You shoot Emmet a nervous glance, but he seems unconcerned. He was the one who told you it was definitely okay to do this, after all.

And yet… With your lips still slick with Emmet's spit, you ask: "You… Don't think I'm disgusting for this, do you? You don't hate me?"

"Of course not," Ingo breathes out. "I could never." And he takes a shaky first step forward, and he never looks back.