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could u maybe do like mutual virginity loss with player 125? like both of them r so shy and awkward,, i think it would be adorable.,.
So Anxious (Park Min-su/Player 125 X F! Reader SMUT)
warning: smut, no way | not proofread | lowercase intended | sub x sub | virginity loss | riding | this is my interpretation of this character, please be respectful even if my opinions of the character differ from your own
character: park min-su (player 125)
A/N: decided to make this one an out of the games kinda post! i absolutely adore the idea of the reader being just as shy and nervous about the whole ordeal as min-su, thank you for the cute request! hope you enjoy :)
MDNI! 18+ content beneath the cut, reader’s discretion is advised
➤ since you were both serious about having you first be with someone special, you guys definitely tried to talk it out beforehand. but you both ended up becoming too flustered to really continue.
“how are we gonna be able to do it if we can’t even talk about it?”
“i don’t know…i still want to though..”
➤ when you guys eventually decided to get to it, you initiated the kiss but pulled away almost immediately, covering your face sheepishly.
“sorry! am i moving too fast?”
“n-not at all!” (he was definitely blushing himself, conflicted whether or not to hide the tent in his pants considering what you two were trying to do here)
➤ at first, you guys tried making out in the typical position— you being underneath him. but, you could tell min-su wasn’t exactly confident like this, so you guys switched up to where you would be straddling him. this drove him nuts of course
➤ once you guys got into the groove of things, your nerves began to calm. sure you were both shaking, but it had a bit more to do with the sheer anticipation now coursing through your bodies each time your lips met. it wasn’t made any better when min-su eventually snuck his hands up your shirt, caressing your bare back with his cold palms. the noise you made startled him, which you felt bad for
“oh, i’m sorry.. was that too much?”
“no! no, your hands are just c-cold.. that’s all..”
“ah, did you want me to stop or-“
you shake your head “feels nice, don’t stop on my account.”
➤ you’re unsure if you should at first, but you start to grind on him, drawing a unexpected moan from beneath the kiss you were currently sharing. you broke the kiss as you started to subconsciously grind harder, avoiding eye contact out of embarrassment at the expression that must have been painting your face just then. you could tell min-su was repressing his voice just as much as you were your own— you were both positively petrified to make any sound at all, in fact. but, some stifled moans made their way past as he shifted his grasp from your back to your hips.
➤ when you guys actually ended up having sex, it was a swift matter for both parties. i mean, let’s be real here. you were both completely inexperienced virgins, you couldn’t be surprised that you guys both wound up cumming fast. however swift it may have been, you enjoyed it nonetheless. he wasn’t too big, so it didn’t hurt too badly, but it was enough to make you feel better than your fingers ever could.
➤ oh yeah, and you guys could forget about masking those moans of yours any longer. the moment you sank down onto his dick, min-su was a goner. you had never heard him make such a sound in all your life, and you even asked him if he was alright initially. sure, you may not have been so vocal at first contact, but as soon as you started moving that completely turned on its head.
➤ after the fact, you both just kind of laid there next to one another. silent. come on, you had just changed the trajectory of your friendship forever, that was a lot to process. after a moment though, you both found that neither of you could wipe those stupid grins off your faces. you had just changed the entire path of your friendship, forever. and you were both okay with that
AAAA thank you so much for this adorable request! i absolutely loved writing some soft smut, however short it may have been :) thanks for reading again, and i’ll see you on the next one!
as always, any advice/constructive criticism on how to improve my writing is appreciated and requested! have a fantastic day/night lovelies 💋💋
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If you saw me post this and accidentally delete the ask and everything, no you didn’t 😭
But yeah anon. Patrick would do anything for him. Make a mess of him before his first hook up with the prettiest girl in school. Just because he feels like it, just because he can. Because Art’s his best friend. His.
He’s an amazing friend.
CW: 18+ NSFW
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“Is it okay?” Art asks. He’s dressed up so nice in one of Patrick’s smaller sweaters, its cloudy blue like his eyes. He’s got on fitted black jeans, and a brown leather jacket. He looks so good, smells so good, like black cherry and tobacco, this expensive cologne that he only wears when he thinks he might get laid.
He’s visibly nervous. Chewing incessantly on spearmint gum. Always nervous about his first time with a new girl. Patrick doesn’t know why, if he was a pretty girl he’d be wet the moment Art turned that shy little smile in his direction. He doesn’t need to dress up, pretty boy. He got Kennedy Sawyer’s attention in sweatpants and a t-shirt while he was arguing with Patrick over final fantasy play styles at breakfast.
But that’s not important. What’s important is Patrick just wants to help. Art is his best friend after all. He sits up on his bed, dropping his game controller. “Come ‘ere,” he says. Art checks his hair in the mirror for the third time and then approaches Patrick, eyes dilated, nerves making him run his sweaty palms awkwardly over his jeans. That’s when it catches Patrick’s eye. He teases his finger tips up Art’s thighs up to the bulge along his hip, it’s not obvious but Patrick knows him so well, knows how he tries to hide it, but Patrick can tell that he’s hard. “I can’t calm down,” Art admits quietly.
“You wanna know my secret?” Patrick asks, gripping at either side of his unzipped jacket and pulling him closer. “Like how I stay cool when I’m out with a beautiful girl?”
Art looks hopeful that Patrick’s about to tell him the secret to life. “How?”
Patrick tugs Art a little bit closer so he’s got a leg on either side of one of Patrick’s thighs. “I like to rub one out first… just to help my nerves.”
“I um—really?” Art studies him, trying to decide whether Patrick means it or if he's full of shit. “No fucking way,” he decides, followed by that stupid pretty smile of his, the one that makes Patrick want to get on his knees.
“I’m so serious,” that smile is contagious even when Arts annoyed. Patrick keeps his grip on Art’s jacket to hold him in place. “It helps, I promise. Especially if she’s really pretty, like Kennedy is. Plus it helps so I don’t finish too fast when we…” he looks up at Art's pretty blue eyes, letting him fill in the blank.
He’s chewing again. Anxious. He definitely has that “too fast” issue. He gets so excited. Patrick still touches himself remembering the night Art asked him, red faced and shy to please show him how to French kiss. Not even two minutes with Patrick’s tongue in his mouth and he’d already cum in his pants and got so embarrassed he nearly cried. Doesn’t even get how gorgeous he is.
Oh. Patrick just wants to help him. Wants to help him so bad. He’s his best friend after all. Patrick can just imagine Art, soft and sweet and so gentle with her. Fucking into her, losing it too fast and promising he can do it again. Tears of shame in his eyes. God, Patrick kinda wants to be her.
“I guess I should…” Art says quietly, bringing Patrick back from his thoughts. His expression thoughtful, his tongue, eager as he plays with his gum in his mouth.
“I mean… what could it hurt?” Patrick shrugs, grabbing at Arts belt buckle.
“Um…” Art blinks, confused. He’s so smart but stupid about some things. He gets with the program fast enough, once Patrick’s got his hands on him. God, he’s hard. So fucking hard he’s already leaking into his boxers, can’t calm down. Let’s Patrick pull him onto his lap as his breathing picks up. “Patrick, no, it’s late. ‘m gonna be late,” he sounds a little panicky, but he’s gripping at Patrick’s biceps as they both look down at his lap, Patrick’s hand working inside his boxers.
“No, it’s okay, I promise,” Patrick whispers. Not sure what he’s promising, he’s already lost the plot. Art smells so good. Patrick always wonders if he tastes as good as he smells in this cologne. He licks a stripe up the side of his throat, kisses his way up to Art's lips. Petal soft and minty, Art opens up right away. His mouth heated and… oh so wet. He scoots closer, his neatly ironed shirt getting wrinkled because he’s pressed up against Patrick’s body. His fingers tangled in Patrick’s hair. The kiss getting sloppier, sticky gum sliding back and forth between them. He’s chaos. So good at keeping it all in until he can’t.
If Patrick wasn’t hard from the moment Art got back to the room to get ready for his little date he’d be gone by now. Patrick is dizzy, swallowing on Art’s helpless little gasps, the kinda kissing that can make Art come untouched. But Patrick wants to touch him, bucks his hips up so Art can feel him. It’s not too long before Art is just mouthing him, no technique no nothing, just opened mouth moaning against Patrick’s lips. Patrick’s heart is racing, the blood pounding in his ears. He’s on the brink.
“Tell me what you wanna do to her?” Patrick mutters hot, against his lips, hand gripping tighter, moving faster. You’ve been so patient for two months. So good… I bet you can’t wait to fuck into her wet dripping cunt…”
“God Patrick…I want it so bad,” He whines. “I wanna— wanna fuck— fuck—”
“Yeah?” Patrick coaxes, as if any of this is coherent.
“God Patrick, Patrick,” it’s all he can manage before spilling it everywhere, heated sticky pearls of white all over that neatly pressed blue shirt and black jeans. The image of it makes Patrick lose it, breathless in his pants. They’re both sitting there, catching their breaths. A soft sheen of sweat visible on Art’s forehead, his skin mildly flushed.
”Fuck,” Art whispers after a minute. “My…my clothes.”
“Yeah,” Patrick sighs, leaning back on the bed, letting the mess on his palm spread onto his sheets. “Shoulda done it before you got dressed probably…”
Art takes a deep breath and pushes himself up to his feet, while simultaneously trying to straighten himself out. Patrick watches him, mildly amused. “I have to change… do you um… do you have another shirt?”
”I mean… I think what you were wearing is perfect. God. It really brings out your eyes.”
”Well I can’t wear it now, and I’m already late, god I’m supposed to meet her out front in ten minutes. We’re gonna miss the movie and the next show is not till 8 and we won’t make dinner before curfew and Ms. Henderson will be sitting outside the girls dorm and—” He’s started talking so fast he’s getting pitchy.
“Hey I got a crazy idea,” Patrick interrupts and Art stares at him, so pathetically frustrated but also covered in jizz. It almost makes Patrick laugh but he stops himself. “This is supposed to be special, right? Why don’t you wait till tomorrow night? You can wash everything and you know… we can do it before you get dressed next time.”
”No we are not doing that again,” Art says determinedly, because he’s so sated and in his right mind.
“Well you can then,” Patrick shrugs, smirking.
Art rolls his eyes and goes to pick up his phone from the charger to text her the change of plans. Patrick goes into the bathroom to clean up a bit.
“I’m gonna be hungry, should we order pizza?” Art calls from the room.
“Yeah,” Patrick says, smiling to himself in the mirror. “Definitely.”
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✿ ─── TOUCH OF EUPHORIA : 이희승
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SYNOPSIS : where 𝒽𝑒𝑒seung is desperate man
PAIRING : 𝓁ee 𝒽𝑒𝑒seung x gn 𝓇eader ; GENRE : friends 𝓉𝑜 lovers, 𝒻luff, yearning & 𝒹esperation ; WC : 1338
───── 【 𝒾mas’ note 】 ❍ :: getting hang of writing again so sorry this is kinda rusty, I've tried making gn this time so really sorry if you find specific gender mentioned anywhere. please leave fbs & ENJOY READING!!
WARNINGS : english is not my first language, reader loves to banter, hee is a loser trapped in a hot body — desperate and yearning, hee calls reader angel, lots of fluffy & they kiss!!!! a little bit of rusty writing.
DISCLAIMER : This is a work of fiction. Unless otherwise indicated, all the names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents in this book are either the product of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
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“Visiting my house early in the morning with your pajamas still on isn't how i expected you to show up heeseung especially the following day of your confession,” you stand near your door looking at him with adoration with a teasing tone hidden behind your grin.
Heeseung stood in front of your doorsteps with his typical pajamas a white loose tank top and grey trousers, bedhead messy locks with some tousled strands tucked in places — showing he has tried to fix his hair on the way, his bambi eyes showing daze and their usual sparkle. (click to read more)
Yet his unsettling feet and palms showed his feelings — a mix of joy, excitement, a depth of overwhelmingly and maybe slightly anxious gaze which he couldn't hide and somewhat feeling euphoric.
“I woke up and went to directly check my phone then I saw your response to my confession and I couldn't control myself but I promise I have brushed my teeth and washed my face,” he explains hastily trying to assure you he has cleaned himself enough to show up.
You try to suppress your laugh but he was too adorable to control, looking at you chuckling he blushed profusely as his ears turned crimson red and warm.
Soon calming down you speak — “so heeseung did you feel satisfied with my response.” “You said you will reply in person….. uh- so do you reciprocate my feelings?” he stutters out his question.
“Is this why you came rushing?” you ask with a playful tone subsiding your laugh. “Please angel, just answer my question. I need to know your response in person,” he said, carrying a whiny tone and emphasizing his plea.
“Okay gosh but first come inside you goofball.”
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You both walk into the living room and sit on the couch, “you want anything to drink cause it's early morning you haven't had breakfast or something.” “No please let's just talk,” he pleads desperately.
God you are weak for men who yearn pathetically, it drives you insane. You want to scream in a pillow at his adorable yet desperate state.
“Okay okay let's talk,” you gesture at him to continue speaking. “I couldn't keep my feelings hidden anymore angel, so Jay pushed me to confess and I didn't have the guts to do it infront of your face so I preferred to text instead.”
“To be honest I said that because confessing on text is a chicken move and I wasn't fond of it so I told you to confront me in person for my response.” “Yeah that I understood after Sunoo and Jungwon smacked my head when I told them before leaving, I'm really sorry that was very cowardly and lame of me.”
“It's okay bambi boy you're forgiven since you're so adorable but now I'm waiting for you to repeat the same thing you know.”
“Stop teasing me — he groans, maybe more like whining with his lips forming a pout — okay now just listen to me and don't speak please or I might get nervous, “you're nervous” – angel please let me complete.
I have had feelings for you for three years right after we became friends, I couldn't control them. Whenever you grab my arm I feel a jolt of electricity running through my body, when you come over to take care of me when I'm sick I feel captivated by your presence, when you laugh at my silly jokes I feel an intense wave of euphoria, I feel butterflies in my stomach when I go to bed after we hangout. I cannot stop myself blushing and smiling, at this point all my friends know and make fun of me. I don't care if I sound desperate or pathetic. I just want you to know how I feel so please tell me how you feel or I might go insane.”
“Gosh bambi boy you make me want to squish the life out of you. I have feelings for you too, you idiot, it was pretty clear to everyone except for you bimbo. Why do you think I always agreed to hangout and spend time with you and laugh at your silly jokes because I love you dummy.”
You expected him to jump or maybe laugh or just react with some sort of excitement but rather his eyes are glossy showing his vulnerability and his big grin speaks for his happiness.
“Say something now you idiot,” “I will start crying you-you love me- you said those words.” He stands up abruptly startling you as he grabs you in a tight hug pulling you up from the couch and his feet softly bouncing in excitement showing his eagerness.
“Okay you stupid let's sit…. oh god bambi boy,” you laugh at his excitement as he stumbles and you both crash on the couch. “Sorry oh god that was embarrassing I couldn't help oh this is real,” he giggles still joyful from the adrenaline rush.
He shifts, getting both of you comfortable laying down on the couch and you both stay quiet for a few minutes covered in a comforting silence.
“You know you haven't said those words yet,” “I haven't what – how can I be so stupid oh my god I love you angel, so much and it keeps growing everyday, every minute and every second.”
“You know you're definitely desperate and corny but lucky for me I like my man yearning for me.” He laughs at your sassy words while nuzzling his face in your hair and it follows with a soft warm touch of his lips making you go still and your body feeling euphoric.
He turns your head into his direction as he inches himself close to your face, his warm breath hitting your lips as he whispers “Can I?” �� nodding your head you give him consent.
He soon leans forward, your bodies pressed together and your lips meeting his and you can feel the taste of shared breath along with his natural scent consuming your brain making it foggy.
Jolts of electricity pass in your system sending a tingling sensation across your cloudy brain and your palms turn clammy. The feeling of euphoria crawling in your heart making loud thuds. Your lips part slightly as he slips his tongue inside making you grasp his tank top in a tight fist.
Your usual confidential facade falling off as your face flushes warmth turning your ears crimson red. Eyes closed with your one hand travelling from his hair to his nape and his one hand locking your lips in place while the other holds your waist with fingers caressing your skin.
Your heart blooms with a rush of contentedness and a warmth you couldn't despair — the feeling so new yet so exciting making you feel gleeful. The lack of oxygen forcing you both to slowly part away, he leaves a last peck on your puckered lips.
Taking your time to stabilize your breathing you start feeling shy and exposed but the way Heeseung grins widely with adoration shining in his bambi eyes, his hands holding yours with his fingers caressing your knuckles assuring you.
Guessing your vulnerability he pulls you to him hugging you closes, pressing his torso against yours. Nuzzling his chin against your head he tilts his head a little to give your forehead a loving peck soon returning to its position.
After somewhat ten minutes of comforting silence he spoke up “Just so you know I'm your boyfriend now and you're my girlfriend but Jay told me girls feel loved and special when we ask them out on a nice date so give me one day.”
Receiving no response he pulls away a little to find you in a peaceful slumber, his loving gaze admiring your peaceful self — when you aren't teasing him or being cheeky.
Returning to his position he closes his eyes drifting away in his dreamland except this time it wasn't him admiring you from afar rather holding your hand while walking on a beach with your ring finger shining with a gold ring reflecting the sunlight.
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be my valentine? - barca boys
summary: how lamine yamal, pablo gavi, pedro gonzalez, pau cubarsi, and hector fort would ask you to be their valentine. masterlist warnings: suggestive.
You’ve been in a ‘talking stage’ with Lamine for the past two or three months. You had been friends as kids when he still lived in Rocafonda, you grew apart a little with age, but you’ve gotten closer again after starting high school.
You guys are in the same literature and mathematics classes, so you often give him notes or go to his place to help him with homework. He’s very sweet, he looks at you like you’re a beautiful girl, not some piece of meat, he’s always giving you little gifts and things too. You’ve gotten to know his mother better and met his little brother, Keyne. His papá seems to like you too on the few occasions you’ve met him.
Tonight, you’ve come over to help him with some of the literature homework. You’re laying on his bed, paper and books in front of you as you explain the concept it as best you can, when his mamá, Sheila, puts her head in the door, speaking to you with a warm, motherly smile.
“Hola, Y/N. ¿Te gustaría quedarte a cenar (would you like to stay for dinner)?” Lamine watches you intently, waiting for your reply, almost as if this was planned… although, you didn’t notice that. “Sí, Le enviaré un mensaje de texto a mi mamá y le preguntaré. Gracias señorita Ebana (yes, i’ll text my mamá and ask. thank you miss ebana).” you smile back. Sheila nods and leaves the room again, shutting the door.
You and Lamine go back to doing the homework, although he seems more nervous and less focused than before. “Are you alright?” you frown, noticing that he has been staring at your face and not the book for the past two minutes. He blinks and looks away, a little flushed. “Sí, sí, sorry. I just… zoned out.” You give him a sceptical look but nod. “Vale. Now, back to page 167 (okay)…”
The two of you continue reading and writing until Sheila comes back to say dinner’s ready. When you get to the table, Lamine makes sure to pull your chair out for you and hand you your plate first. Sheila giggles behind her hand as she watches her son, clearly in on something you’re not, so you’re confused for a moment, but then move on. The table is fairly quiet, aside from Keyne chattering away in his high chair. With no siblings at home, you find it very entertaining and help him with a few spoonfuls of the spiced and seasoned rice, watching and laughing at him as he goes. Sheila watches on with a smile, grinning at the secret plan Lamine had made with her, but also at you and Keyne interacting.
After dinner, you help to clear the table and do a few of the dishes with Sheila, Lamine watching on with love in his eyes from the living room floor as he half plays with Keyne, and half admires you and how well you and his mamá are getting on. Once the dishes are done, you go and sit next to Lamine on the floor again.
“You wanna keep going on the homework?” he asks. You nod and head back to his bedroom. He tells you that he needs the bathroom and that he’ll be in in a minute. When he reenters, you’re sitting on his bed, and he has his hands behind his back, holding something. You frown in confusion and laugh, watching him as he smiles back nervously at you. “What?” you laugh. Lamine takes a deep breath and moves his hands from behind his back. In one hand is a bouquet of long-stem red roses, and in the other, is a small, navy-blue, velvet box. Your eyebrows immediately rise in surprise and your eyes go from the roses to his anxious, but hopeful face. When you don’t immediately take them, he pushes them towards you a little more, you snap out of the haze that is those beautiful brown eyes of his and take the flowers and jewellery box.
You smile at him before opening the box, inside is one of the most beautiful necklaces you’ve ever seen. It’s (gold/silver) the colour he knows you prefer, a small iridescent opal pendant hanging from it. Inside the box, is also a small note.
“Be my valentine?” in Lamine’s signature neat, although slightly crooked, handwriting.
You laugh shakily and cover your mouth, staring at it for a second before putting the bouquet and necklace down on the bed and standing up to hug him. You rest your head on your shoulder, and whisper out your answer. “Yes, yes of course I’ll be your valentine.” he grins and tilts your head up. “¿Puedo besarte (can i kiss you)?” you nod, and a few moments later, those gorgeous plush lips of his are on yours. You pull away a few seconds later and laugh, still close, your forehead resting against his, looking into his eyes once more.
“Thank you,” he whispers.
“For what?” “Saying yes.” the taller boy smiles. You laugh, shaking your head slightly, “Of course I said yes. I’d be an idiot not to.”
Lamine pulls away and reaches for the box on the bed once more, he takes it out and gestures for you to turn it around. You feel the cool, delicate (gold/silver) on your neck and his fingers carefully doing up the clasp behind you.
That night, you have your first sleepover together, and cuddle in bed most of the night, deciding homework can wait until tomorrow.
You’ve never had a Valentine before. Yep, 20 years old and not a single Valentine. So it’s kind of crazy that you’re first ever one will be the Pablo Gavi.
You didn’t think he’d ask you, considering you were dating and it was probably just assumed, but alas, you arrived home from the grocery shopping to find a whole display of flowers, balloons and various other things on the dining room table, a proud Pablo standing next to it.
You laugh in shock, almost dropping the grocery bag in surprise. Instead, you deposit it onto the kitchen counter and go over to him. Grinning his usual wide smile, he wraps his arms around your waist and kisses you passionately for a good while, but when he gets distracted and his kisses start trailing down your neck, you laugh and pull away, bringing his head back up again. “Save that for later, amor.” He chuckles and presents the table to you properly. You take a closer look and there are multiple bottles of your favourite perfume and skincare products. There’s no makeup as always as Pablo refuses to buy it for you because he thinks you look even prettier without it. Dotted around are multiple bags, Dior, Mercadona, Victoria’s Secret (you can hardly imagine what he’s picked out from there), shoes, and a new dress, with flowers all around the place, and a big sign in the middle of the table.
“Will you be my Valentine?”
You laugh, just taking it all in. “What kind of question is that? Who else’s would I be?”
He shrugs and kisses you again. “Is that a yes then?” you roll your eyes and laugh for what feels like the millionth time.
“Of course, mi amor. Siempre, sí (forever, yes).”
Once more, that cheeky grin appears on his face. You squeak when you’re lifted up the waist, legs automatically wrapping around his waist. As he carries you past the table, he picks up the Victoria’s Secret bag, making a beeline for the bedroom.
You met when you were seven, while playing football out in the schoolyard on one of your first days at your new school in Tegueste, after moving from Lanzarote, another Canarian Island, the closest one to Spain. You were quite a good wee player, but were met with the ground after being tripped by another boy, who looked about your age. Your bottom lip had wobbled as you looked at your now-skinned hands. The boy, looking as guilty as if he’d killed you, crouched down in front of you.
“Lo siento mucho. Lo prometo, no fue mi intención. ¿Estás bien (i’m so sorry. i promise i didn’t mean to. are you okay)?” he had asked tentatively. You sniffed and nodded. Your eyes had gone back to his face, and he had spoken up again.
“Puedo besarlo mejor por ti. Eso es lo que hace mi mamá cada vez que me lastimo (i can kiss it better for you. that's what my mami does whenever i get hurt).” Almost immediately, you nodded once more and held your hands out to him. The boy had pressed a small kiss to each of your palms.
“¿Está todo mejor ahora (is it all better now)?” “En realidad no, pero duele menos. Quizás seas mágico (not really, but it hurts less. maybe you’re magic).”
“Tal vez (maybe),” he smiled and helped you up, “Soy Pedri. Bueno, Pedro, pero todos me dicen Pedri porque soy pequeño y el otro Pedro es grande (i'm pedri. well, pedro, but everyone calls me pedri because i'm little, and other pedro is big).” he introduced, gesturing to a much larger boy across the yard. “¿Cómo te llamas (what’s your name)?” Pedri asked as he helped you up from the floor. “Y/N. ¿Quieres que seamos amigos? Soy nuevo y no tengo ninguno (do you want to be friends? i'm new, and i don't have any).” He nodded and you guys wandered off, back towards the classroom, as the bell had gone.
And that’s how you met your boyfriend, best friend, and love of your life.
Having been there for each other through the highs and lows, you two are closer than anyone else either of you know. No longer seven and clueless, the pair of you are curled up in bed, the rain pouring outside, you reading, Pedri on his phone beside you. There was a peaceful silence, besides the sound of rain on the windows and the occasional paper sound coming from your book.
You turn the page and something falls out, sliding into your lap. Confused, you pick it up, what is it but a pressed white rose and a note? “Be my valentine?” you laugh and look up at Pedri, who’s watching you with a raised eyebrow, waiting. Grinning, you lean across the bed a little, connecting, before pulling away and murmuring against his lips, “Most certainly, I’ll be your Valentine. Considering you’ve been asking since we were 15, do you really even have to ask anymore.” “Yes, I do, because I know it makes you feel special, it makes me feel important, and it actually improves the general romantic-ness of our relationship,” he says firmly, but with a soft, signature Pedri smile.
“Woah, alright. And thank you, it’s very sweet.” you press another kiss to his lips, expecting just a peck, but very quickly, his tongue is in your mouth and you’ve been pulled to straddle his lap. “I have a few more Valentine’s gifts for you, don’t worry.” Pedri says with a smirk and hungry glint in his eye. You know you’re in for a long night, but aren’t at all mad about it.
You had been sitting in second-period Science, right before lunch, when one of the receptionists from the front office came into the classroom, asking you to pack up your things and come with her. Confused, you did so, trailing behind the older woman, back to the main office. Standing there in the office is a faux-distraught-looking Pau, claiming to be your cousin, needing to pick you up early as there’s been a family emergency. Behind her back, you cover your mouth to stifle a laugh.
A few minutes later, and you’re all signed out and walking out to the carpark with Pau. “You know, you can’t just pull me out of school whenever you want, right? Our ‘grandma’ can only die so many times.” you laugh. He just shrugs and intertwines his hand with yours. “Oh well. I’m taking you on a date.” “A date? At 11.45 in the morning?” “Sí. We’re having a picnic on the beach,” he announces proudly. “On the beach, huh? So all the sand can get in our food? Delightful.” you laugh, he whacks your arm.
“Calla, it’s meant to be romantic (shut up).” Pau teases back, unlocking his car and opening the passenger door for you. “Princesa.” You roll your eyes at the nickname. Most boyfriends would use it in a cute way, their “princesa,” but no, not your boyfriend. Pau just uses it to tease you. He makes a dramatic gesture of it, helping you in by taking your hand and everything. You keep forgetting he has free reign to drive you guys anywhere now. So maybe random Friday lunch dates after a long week will become a more regular occurrence.
The drive to the beach is fairly short, and most of the way there, you just give Pau the rundown on this week’s school gossip. It’s sunny and warm today, good weather for a picnic. Turns out, Pau’s version of a picnic is a salad and water for him, a sandwich and a lemonade for you, eaten on the tailgate of the car, however, to look out onto the beach while you eat, the car has to be reverse parked.
Pau is awful at reverse/parallel parking, and only just barely passed it on his test, so, while it is a little illegal, you always do it for him. It’s funny, you’re only studying, don’t even have your proper license, and can drive a lot better than him in many ways. Once the car is successfully parked, you both get out, opening the boot and sitting in it, cuddling close to each other.
You both sit in silence for a while, eating and drinking, until Pau randomly speaks up once more.
“You know how you left your phone at mine the other day?”
You suddenly feel a little nervous. “Yeah..?”
Pau grins. “Wanna explain why you have over 500 saved edits of me on TikTok?”
You’re quite tempted to die of embarrassment. Literally, mortified. He takes immense pleasure in your pink face.
“We can do it like that… if you want to.”
You almost don’t want to ask. “Do what like what?” “Do you want it from the back, with your face in the pillow so you can yell as loud as you want to?” He says with a suggestive smirk, quoting the audio of the most recent edit you’ve saved, knowing exactly what he’s doing.
“Shut up,” you mutter, slumping down further. But he doesn’t shut up. Doesn’t even think about it, and 20 minutes later, you find yourself topless, laying in the boot of the car, Pau having put the backseats down for a rather messy makeout, like the good, horny teenagers you are. He lays next to you, both of you breathless. For a good few moments, the only sound that is heard in the car is both of you panting. “You know, I actually brought us out here for the ‘romantic’ date to ask you to be my Valentine,” he says. “Really? Well, the answer is yes.” you chuckle breathily, sitting up.
“How am I meant to go back to school, looking live I’ve been mauled by a dog after going to ‘say goodbye to our grandma with my cousin.’?” casually, you laugh, but Pau’s face is far from amused. “No way in hell are you going back to school. We’re going straight to my bed, mi amor.” You giggle and he finally laughs too. “Alright. Maybe we should try your suggestion from earlier.”
His grin only grows.
Right now, you’re laying on your boyfriend of three years after yet another long day of uni. The silence had been comfortable as he gently scratched his fingers through your hair and kissed your forehead over and over again, in fact, you were almost asleep. But your half-dozed-off state is interrupted when Héctor speaks up.
“Can you look at my foot?” “What?” “My foot.” you just stare at him for a moment.
“Your foot?” you repeat, slower. He nods as if that was a perfectly normal request.
“Why exactly?” “Because it hurts and you’re training to become a physio.” After staring at him for a moment longer, you sigh and relent, moving to crouch at the end the chaise of the couch, pulling off his sock. “Do you not have professional physios for this?” “Yeah, but I like you better.” Inspecting his foot, you frown. “There’s nothing wrong with it.” “Yes, because it’s the other one.” You pull off his right sock instead, and your eyes widen.
“Héctor Fort García, what did you do?!” you gasp, glancing up to his face, which had the biggest grin on it. On the inside of his right foot, are your initials and birthday, as well as your anniversary date, all written in your handwriting.
“Got another tattoo.” “I can see that. Why that, and why there?”
“Because that’s the foot I score goals with. So now, every goal I score, every pass, every tackle, every run, is dedicated to you, like you’re there helping me kick, in thought, of course.”
You watch him in surprise for a moment before laughing in disbelief and coming back up to kiss him and give him a hug.
“Estás loco (you’re crazy).”
“Sólo para ti, mi amor (only for you, my love).” he laughs back, pressing yet another kiss to your nose.
You lay together in silence for a moment, before Héctor speaks up again.
“If you couldn’t tell, this was a very long way of asking you to be my Valentine?”
“Yeah, alright.” you laugh. You two are always laughing when you’re together, because there’s always something to laugh about. Whether it be Héctor messing up an English word, or you spilling something all over yourself, you both find humour in everything.
“Just, ‘alright’?” he sniggers, shoving you a little.
“What would you prefer I say then, hm?”
“How about a ‘Yes, please, dear boyfriend that just got my name and birthday permanently tattooed on his body.’?” “Mmmm… I think I’ll stick with ‘Yeah, alright.’” you tease, which earns his fingers under your arms, tickling you until you slide off the couch and are crying tears of laughter.
a/n: i wanted to do one for marc, but it was last and i genuinely had no ideas 😭 so i'd be happy to add it later if anyone has some requests or suggestions?
#pau cubarsi#pau cubarsi fic#obvithebestsoph!paucubarsi#pau cubarsi x reader#fc barcelona#fanfiction#football#football fic#culer#teenage romance#PC2#hector fort#hector fort fic#obvithebestsoph!hectorfort#hector fort x reader#HF32#lamine yamal#lamine yamal fic#obvithebestsoph!lamineyamal#lamine yamal x reader#euro 2024#LY19#pablo gavi#gavi#pablo gavi fic#gavi fic#obvithebestsoph!gavi#pablo gavi x reader#gavi x reader#PG6
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Gerrard??!??! In a scene with all the people he hates and Tommy? Oh, he's definitely there for a reason ... I'm very excited for the next episode now. Feels like they are bringing back all the right people this season.
#please please please i need the scene in which gerrard is like#at least there is tommy i still like tommy#and then tommy just#grabs buck and kisses the living daylight out of him#or he gets nervous and anxious that i like too#i need it#bucktommy#911 spoilers#i need them all grouping up against gerrard which would mean even more family bonding with Tommy#hen and chim be like#one of us one of us#so much potential for character development and bonding#and inspo for fics
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apartment hunting lead me to a job interview tomorrow, wish me luck 🙏😭
#it just happened out of the blue??? so basically the gist of it was that i was handing documents on behalf of my mom and one of the people#in the office just went 'u can work for us here'#and i went huh?!?!?!?!!? but i mean hey why not. it's a great opportunity#might hold off on uni if i do get this job (which i hope i do augh please 🙏🙏😭😭😭)#aparently one who offered me the job was a recruiter so that explains it#i feel so nervous tho i mean it wont be the end of the world if i dont get it but i just hope i dont mess it up#i alr met the person whos gonna interview me he seems like a great dude too im just super fucking anxious aughhvghnhgv#that's it for the small update i swear more art soon a lot has been happening lately so yk its kinda hard to find time to finish things#frambling...?
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where's all this energy coming from
i've been running around (literally) since 2pm today and i can't sleep at nearly 12 hours later
#*someone's* taking my sleep#side eyes my gf (let's call her ron weasley /j)#yk maybe i should give her a random name too so i just don't go “my gf”#“my wife”#“my closest companion”#“the one i would murder for”#“he who makes me calm but i feel the most nervous for”#yk i was already so anxious about her getting in some sort of danger when i'm not with her#but then december happened#that changed me as a person#dear lord i'm beginning to breathe erratically again#is it clear i have adhd so far#ok but hear me i out i thought she'd been killed#that was at the end of a super stressful week#two weeks maybe#everyone was high-strung too#and then#pop#goes the sound of a gun with a silencer but it was actually popping tires#i kid you not i covered that distance faster than i ever have in my entire life to see blood and wheezing bodies#sirens blaring#fading and fading#just paused to nibble on her arm hehfvehege she smells like vanilla :.333#i got too silly and let myself feel the old fear and horror and fear and horror#i'll just go lie on top of her and bury my face in ti#it's ok bro doesn't wake up#only wakes up when i show distress signals like panic attack or nightmare!!!#or when i bother her too much yk but#ahsvsvsv please i know i need sleep but i am *so* awake
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Get to know your mutuals! Thank you @panfroggy for mentioning me!!!! <3
What's the origin of your blog title? Well, back in the day (a little over a yearish ago) my usual moniker was "stargirl," but obviously that's pretty generic, so I was trying to think of something to do with star. I think I wanted "star_light" but that's also kinda generic, so for some reason I thought of the saying "lights up," like someone's face lighting up in a smile, and since I'm a friendlyish kinda person I was like! Oh! Perfect! And did star-light....s-up! So it can be read as star light as the main part or lights up as the main part!
OTP(s) + Shipname: Charles/Erik - Cherik (X men), Ben Solo/Rey - Reylo (Star Wars), Finn/Poe Dameron - Stormpilot or Finnpoe (Star Wars), Sylvie/Loki - Sylki (MCU), Fitz/Jemma Simmons - Fitzsimmons (Agents of SHIELD)
Favourite colour: Pink! Blue! Yellow! Sparkles!!!
Favourite game: Minecraft in creative mode. It's peaceful <3
Song stuck in your head: Not Strong Enough by Boygenius
Weirdest habit/trait? My nervous habits: Tapping my fingers so each finger brushes across my thumb once, and then brushing my thumb against my other fingers four times (so it's even), and mindlessly scratching the back of my neck (i've drawn blood when I'm anxious. it's bad)
Hobbies: Writing, drawing, singing, playing guitar
If you work, what's your profession? ): full time student.
If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Realistically? Either something in genetic research (yes I liked this before I liked x men) or something in film! Maybe even a screenwriter!
Something you're good at: Um... Writing I guess?
Something you're bad at: Lots of things. Right now, it's logarithms.
Something you love: X MEN!
Something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: ALSO X MEN!
Something you hate: Teenagers. They're awful. I am one, I should know.
Something you collect: Nothing, unfortunately, I don't have the space ): I guess edits on my phone, if digital stuff counts!
Something you forget: THAT ONE GOOD IDEA FOR A DRAWING I HAD EARLIER!! WHAT W A S IT!?!? (this happens a lot!!)
What's your love language? Acts of service, caretaking, really. I'm always making sure people have enough food, and I carry around extras of everything in case anyone needs something.
Favourite movie/show: Friends, Gilmore Girls, Agents of SHIELD, Loki, X Men (FC and DOFP), The Last Jedi (Please don't kill me internet, thank you), Ten Things I Hate About You, While You Were Sleeping
Favourite food: Tacos, maybe? I really love ronto wraps from disneyland.... but considering you have to pay like 200 dollars for a ticket first i don't know if that counts....
Favourite animal: I love wolves!! Sharks, snails, and dogs are close follow ups!
What were you like as a child? Still am one, basically. I'm weird but friendly.
Favourite subject at school? Really, I don't mind them all. What class I like depends on the teacher and the people in the class.
Least favourite subject: PE. I'm asthmatic and tiny, I'm getting trampled!! Are you trying to kill me!?
What's your best character trait? I'm very loyal? I'm not sure!
What's your worst character trait? There's a lot of those. Uhm, probably my perfectionism. It goes a bit too far sometimes.
If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? I would like to be 856 days older.
If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? Probably one of the cool, important figures. I'm not super historically literate. Maybe rosa parks. It'd be cool to meet shakespeare, ask him what juliet being compared to light REALLY meant and if he even noticed he was doing it. Or maybe jesus. just to know what's going on with that.
Just typing in whoever pops up! Anyone is welcome to join!! @wishchip106 @mooniel @mapofyourstars @lucktv @stinkrat-aleks @chris-in-the-headlights @randomwholocker
Get to know your mutuals! Thank you to @joyful-soul-collector for tagging.
What's the origin of your blog title? I have a bunch of sideblogs dedicated to my most active fandoms and I am an insomniac. My first ever fandom sideblog started the trend as a joke and I just carried on the tradition!
OTP(s) + Shipname: Jayce and Viktor is the main one right now. I also love Ed and Stede from Our Flag Means Death.
Favourite colour: Iridescent white
Favourite game: Dungeons and Dragons for sure! I also like playing Jackbox games with friends.
Song stuck in your head: To Be Seen - Searows
Weirdest habit/trait? Sitting and doing things in the dark. I just prefer existing in dim light because lights can be overwhelming and the darkness keeps my mind calm. Doesn't help I'm stuck in fluorescent lighting all day haha!
Hobbies: Writing, Singing, Crafting, and Baking
If you work, what's your profession? I'm a medical laboratory technician in blood sciences!
If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Realistically? Since it specifies realistic, I'd like to be a biomedical scientist in immunology. It would mean getting another degree but I don't mind that too much.
Something you're good at: I'm good at writing! I recently wrote my first children's book and intend to write more when the inspiration comes back. A poetic style of writing is my favourite to do.
Something you're bad at: Socialising. I'm quite awkward but I still like chatting to people.
Something you love: Snails! I adore snails, I used to have pet giant African land snails for a few years.
Something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: The immune system, pathogenic disease, my fifty million apocalypse stories, etc.
Something you hate: Willful ignorance and anti vaxxers. Both suck very much.
Something you collect: Pins! I have so many. They're on my lanyard, my dunagrees, my pinboard, and my ita bag.
Something you forget: The thing I was meant to be doing.
What's your love language? Gift giving and quality time. Also words of affirmation.
Favourite movie/show: Arcane for sure at the moment. I also love The Walking Dead, Good Omens, Our Flag Means Death, and a bunch of apocalypse/zombie shows.
Favourite food: Pizza
Favourite animal: Snails! 🐌
What were you like as a child? Strange is the best way to describe it honestly.
Favourite subject at school? Science! All the science.
Least favourite subject: Religious Education. No thanks.
What's your best character trait? I'm very passionate about the things and people I love.
What's your worst character trait? I tend to keep things bottled up inside until they come out all at once, I'm still working on not doing that.
If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? Being able to sleep as soon as my head hits the pillow! That would be amazing.
If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? I'm not sure, I'm not particularly enamoured by anyone in the past. Maybe Oscar Wilde.
Tagging anyone who wants to!
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I feel like clumsy smurfs personality in every iteration is kinda bad
#like first we have the old series and from what I remember he was suppose to feel like dumb or goofy in a way which doesn’t make any sense#cause when did intelligence have anything to do with being clumsy#then there were the movies where he was just kinda anxious and nervous which isn’t bad but#again what does being brave or confident have to do with being clumsy#and in the newest movie…..HOOOOO DID THEY UP IT UP TO 100 WITH HOW SCARED AND ANXIOUS HE IS CAUSE……WOW#I again must ask WHEN DID HOW BRAVE OR OUTGOING YOU ARE HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH BEING CLUMSY#like I don’t think him being more nervous to do new things or being a bit shy around people is bad I just#dont think they know how to characterize clumsy because it’s a very open thing#how I would fix this…..I’ll make a post about that actually cause I have a few other Smurfs I’ve got a problem with…while also praising some#cause they did get some of them right too#my stuffy stuff#text#a lot of text#the smurfs#smurfs
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Part 2 (Part 1)
its still Valentine’s Day omg we made it boys I hope everyone enjoyed their heart day, moon sure tried to :3c
Bonus Vanessa suffering their shenanigans
#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#fnaf#Sun x Moon#fnaf security breach#fnaf vanessa#Shes just salty because they do this every year and it still gets her#your honor they were made for each other#If I wasn't so slow I would've added a y/n in there too but maybe next year :3c#moon being waaay too shy is like my bread and butter guys#im so sorry he's trying his best#lambs art#anyone else just get so nervous sometimes you just kinda laugh?#i major hc moon doing this like hes a giggly mess#and between the two dca's you know both of them are just#***anxious***#me too bro me too
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it's physically impossible for me to watch a video about super paper mario and be normal about it because i'll always get so excited when i see dimentio <3
#i remember when i was watching a playthrough for the first time and i saw dimentio‚ i was like “oh‚ he's pretty cool!!”#and later on‚ i was like “aw man” when i accepted the fact i had a crush on him...#i wish there were more fics of him#i'm always too nervous to request anyone for anything because i never know how to phrase my requests </3#that and i get anxious about people thinking i'm weird for some reason even though my ideas aren't weird in any way (not to me‚ at least)#sorry for dimentio posting. it will happen again
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linebeck is probably so god damn paranoid all of the time
#like not even just. oh he's probably an anxious guy. hes def at least jumpy and his way of living puts him at risk of monster attacks#hes got some other person on the sea just straight up gunning to kill him whenever she sees him#he probably spends a lot of time agonizing abt how he should act in front of people on islands and putting his stories in order#linebeck#phantom hourglass#he has a crate in his ship near the wheel that he uses to hide in he likely struggles with fighting hes completely alone#he clearly does all of his ship maintenance alone and knows how to do it- but he does all of it alone#you know he's got some serious anxiety problems at the least. no fucking wonder he looks so rough#i imagine he prefers people who help him feel at ease like people he could rely on to protect him and keep an eye out#having link around lets him relax for sure though i dont imagine his paranoia gets too much better#in post ph having something of a crew around is a big help to like. help him relax and deal with all of those other mental illnesses#i imagine linebeck is generally kind of nervous and needs a friend. like those cheetahs with support dogs#in the bellum x linebeck fic linebeck's paranoia and issues around being alone and at risk are p important?#linebeck finding out that bellum is following and protecting him gives him a fuckton of peace of mind#linebeck seems like hed really benefit from hanging out w/ someone who makes him feel comfortable enough to be vulnerable#hes likely introverted but god he needs a friend to keep him from being on edge all of the time#salty talks#hes probably a lil better on islands? or at least islands with people on them. at least then his ship is in less danger#i was just thinkin abt this recently. like the idea of a short fic abt him just being fucking paranoid pre-canon#like a scene of him mopping the deck and. thinking. and spiraling really easily and becoming paranoia very quickly#he has issues <3
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cringetober day 31: HALLOOWEEEEENNN!!!!
#halloween#micah#samael#first time trick or treating. guess who insisted on going and decided to be funny about it...#and guess who's an anxious nervous mess literally stress levels like he's about to get mauled to death my literal wolves ?#I TJINK YOU CAN GUESSSSS#micah is such a little asshole literally hes insane#he soo would dress up as a DEMON what a FREAK#cringetober#im finally fucking done#only prompts i didnt do wasss i think definitely old art redraw#and maybe something else unsure...#hot villain and all edge no point#i didn't really get all edge no point no ideas for that one#and didn't feel like drawing the villains i found sexy too much mond searching#anyways. Soo proud of myself.#28/31 prompts is literally so so so much more than ive ever done before oh my god !? ive probs done max 5 during the month. crazy!#this drawings colors r rlly dark but . its ok.#bath soup
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#liliana talks#the thoughts to simply off myself are really strong tonight#nothing in my life comes out the way i'd like to#not even my dog's behaviour#i can't even take him on walks bc after five mins he gets overwhelmed and really anxious and nervous and it's driving me crazy#i can't get him to focus on my and he just pulls and pulls and wants to run off#i can't enjoy walks and i can't take him anywhere#today's walk got super frustrating and everyone kept asking me if they could pet him and told everyone no#i even snapped at this little girl bc i just reached my limit and had too much#i know it was wrong of me and i wish i could apologize to this little girl bc i just feel so bad rn#on top of that i'm gonna turn 28 soon and i haven't accomplished anything in my life#i'm a fucking failure. i can never accomplish shit and whenever i rarely get anything i dreamed of it comes out fucked up like my dog#i hate everything and i hate my life and myself and i have no luck at anything whatsoever#like what was the fucking point on bringing me to this world?? so i could have a miserable life?? to never accomplish anything??#to lack on all aspects of myself and my life?? see everyone around me get things and never have difficulties on anything???#not even on their dogs' behaviour?? see how they can take them everywhere and not get overwhelmed?? while mine is a fucking mess??#i don't even have money to buy him a fucking toy!!! how fucking miserable is that???#my sister had to give me money to buy him a harness bc i have shit for money#i've been trying for how long god knows to get a job in this place and plot twist... i haven't got any#i just want to die it would be way easier but i'm a fucking coward to even do that. i'm so fucking pathetic jfc#suicide mention tw
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I had a dream where there was a murder mystery and some of the suspects were Obama, the couple from Ruthless People, Scott Bakula [like, present day, not QL era], three people from my middle school, and like half my immediate family, and upon getting an ending I didn't like [Scott was the killer] I woke up, remembered 90% of the dream including a final chase sequence, decided that ending SUCKED and I didn't wanna be awake yet, fell RIGHT back asleep, and returned right back to my fuckin dream and got a different ending that I now cannot remember [it wasn't any of the people I listed, but I also can't really remember who it was? It was a guy, and he was affluent, but I dont remember rip]
You WISH you were me
#i once had the same story 8 nights in a row. where id go to bed and pick up where i left off#imagine youre standing on the side of the road in a parking lot by ur old middleschool#and its nighttime and ur waiting for a couple from a movie you saw [apparently your friends]#to come pick up something they left in your car#and youre getting a bit nervous cause its nighttime and even tho ur in a safe area. thats scary#suddenly theres a man approaching and you get very anxious#holding your pepper spray in ur pocket#until he gets close enough and you realize its 70 yo st louis actor Scott Bakula#and hes looking for his dog. which was actually my dog in the dream but. ig my brain couldnt be fucked to make up a dog on its own#and since hes from st. louis originally you in your dream do not kick up a fuss because of course hes here. you do not even get starstruck#you treat him like any dude and start helping him look for his lost dog#cause his neck of the woods is like 10 minutes away. he doesnt know the area well. but YOU do#you guys get tired and you tell him that road is stacked like cordwood anyway and the traffic would be too slow to hit the dog#and you take a break at the local ice cream parlor thats been in this spot since before you could walk#and you see former president of the united states Barack Obama eating an ice cream cone. in full suit. with no one around him.#and instead of going “oh shit its obama” you think “hes out of town and has no one to sit with him#i should go sit with him. come along scott“ and so you sit with him after getting your cones#before you know it all three of you are looking for scotts damn fool dog which. again. is actually YOUR dog that he has ownership of instea#you find the fucker by the vape shop being played with by the employees and invite the merry band back to your house since its only#a short walk away. you text the Ruthless People couple to come to your house instead of that parking lot#and so on. man. what.#my house also wasnt my house. it was way bigger and had more rooms#someone got murdered. mystery began. i was the prime suspect and was gonna be thrown in jail Ace Attorney style#if i didnt come up with a different suspect in time#and i couldnt so i kicked out the screen of the window they were holding me in and ran out#and while running i put together that scott did it#and probably influenced by that stupid “im a runner” photo. who else but scott comes running after me#and he may be 70 but hes still 6 foot nothing and i have no strength and i still managed to throw the bastard down#which is around when i woke up. and i decided that sucked. and went back to bed#picked back up with me being convinced by scott that it WASNT him
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Not to have two brat characters in a row but honestly I think Cosmo has some (poorly) suppressed bratty tendencies that he's gonna need to indulge eventually
#He's always been kinda pissy I just don't rp it much#I think he kinda needs to embrace them eventually#Bc he's spent a L O T of his life being 1: Needing to be obedient to survive#2: Being anxious because the authority in his life kept secrets from him and#held all of his mistakes over his head to use against him when convenient#So being pissy and bratty a little bit just makes him feel like he still CAN be difficult and not be rejected#The brattiness is good for him but he's too afraid to commit so it just bubbles up into anxiety and outbursts#He'd really benefit from a partner who's not bothered by the occasional moments of brattiness#Who can just. Be amused by him and take control of the situation (soft dom). Let him get out all the feelings he needs out#And then give clear and basic consequences so he doesn't get all nervous about them holding it over his head
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