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I finished tsats and I liked many things abt it, but so many things went unaddressed, and it was just missing a lot of what I was looking forward to.
#the sun and the star#tsats#will solace#nico di angelo#solangelo#william andrew solace#will solace pov#pjo#it’s basically just a long fanfic#one that wasn’t even that good as well#I still loved it#I’m switching between#it was good#and it wasn’t that good#I don’t even know#tsats spoilers
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really enjoyed demonology by @mouseonamoose , drew this to tie me over until the next chapter of angel-centered therapy
#can’t even tag the author properly ah well…. anyways! really didn’t expect to love these fics as much as I do#I’m usually very picky lol#can’t wait to see where this newest one is headed. aziraphale is just more interesting to me as a character and it’s sooo good so far#anyways if this wasn’t obvious#my interpretations of aubrey thyme/davey. theyr silly to me :)#good omens#demonology#does the fic have its own tag? well see#aubrey thyme#david hampson#rogart
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Re-design of my un-named Beetlejuice OC from back when I was thirteen
Original Reference under the cut:
#my art#beetlejuice#toonjuice#beetlejuice cartoon#beetlejuice fanart#beetlejuice movie#procreate#I don’t really make OC’s for fanwork anymore… but the ones I had when I was younger almost never got named 🥲#When I first made her I really really liked her- and her story was very self indulgent#Looking at it now is almost way too weird for me… (and honestly a little unintentionally homophobic???)#Basically she was one of the girls from Dante’s inferno… except she got kicked out because she only had attraction to girls#(This was BEFORE I suspected that I was a lesbian— mind you.)#Yeah but anyway she went to the Deetz/Maitland house looking for a place to stay but drove everybody crazy#She was super flamboyant- loved everything pink n fluffy- and was well meaning but did more harm than good trying to do nice things for the#She had this one sided crush on Delia??? Like musical Beej and Adam except less perverted and more flirty/sappy? I was an odd kid- okay? 🥲#Anyway… the old design didn’t really do much to show off her personality… so I ended up upheaving the whole thing#It was okay for what I knew at the time- but I know what I was trying to say then and now I have the knowledge to say it better#Also— the reason I gave her horns here is so silly.#When I was younger I was in a Christian school where I wasn’t allowed to draw witches-ghosts-demons-etc.#So even though I based her on the Dante girls… I refused to give her horns because I thought that was ‘too sinful’#I even remember having so much guilt while looking for references of the Dante workers#I couldn’t even look for more than five seconds!#Anyways… she really pushed the boundaries for me at the time and it’s fun to see how I’ve changed and grown since then.
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Hi! I just wanted to know if you'd ever heard of a really fun forcefem game called Crossdressing in Camelot? It's a really well-made one that definitely put some work into cracking my own egg. You play as a "man" who discovers that they have a talent for magic, but oops! the best way to grow stronger magically is to be more feminine! It has some really well-written characters, some fun dialogue and plot, and is free on itch.io!
Never heard of it before and gave it a shot!
It’s quite fun! Though sadly moved a bit too slowly for me personally, I can definitely see the appeal!
It was fun to give it a shot! Please tell me if anyone has more forcefem recommendations!
#and I think it’s worthwhile to analyse why the game didn’t enthrall me like I’d hoped#I think I had 2 issues:#one is my game dev game keeps noticing all the room for improvement in the base game#but also the forcefem wasn’t really forceful enough for me#I never felt desperate?#like my only way out was to be this girl#it more so felt like a lot of stuff happened to me#and I didn’t even have the agency to try and respond in other ways#some beats were really really fun!#loved the bit about removing the lizard man’s loincloth#but the overall gameplay doesn’t really put me in the mind set that I’m being forcefully feminised#it just so happens that the best way to play the game is to be really fem#which is good on its own merits!#but it feels a little inconsistent since it still has some really nice forcefem beats in there#still it’s a well written game!#once 1.0 comes out I’ll definitely give it another shot!#but for now its not fully grabbing me#not as a ForceFem game#or an egg fantasy#still thanks a lot for the recommendation!#and if anyone else has any more recommendations I’d love to hear them!#.#i-like-talking#asks open!#i like game dev#..#this counts as research!#and I love research!
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the other day i walked around the golden lake w my love and the sun was setting hot and orange and we watched a brown duck preening through the weeds, ducking her head under the dark water. the cool lake swallowed up my tired feet to the ankles and we counted the dog walkers with their curly panting doodles and their handsome german shepherds and their whip smart little terriers and we admired the careful construction of a sand castle whose moat held determinedly against the lapping of the waves. we could feel in our chests the persistent thunderous thumping of celebratory music at the finish line of the lakeside 5k, welcoming each gasping runner across its bounds. and i felt like crying. i felt like curling into myself and crying. we walked through the swamp of the bird sanctuary afterwards and listened to the woods sing and croak and groan and then we went and got ube and yuzu gelato and devoured it suntired and sweating on the couch in our living room. and i was so overcome w a deep and true unshakeable happiness and a sort of confused grief that i wanted to sob and sob and sob.
#i am so happy for the first time in my entire life#a consistent and true joyfulness#i am in love w my life#i want to stick around to see it#and i mean that w my entire being for the first time in my whole life#and to say that means confronting the first 24 years of my life where that wasn’t true#where i was miserable and heartbroken and unkind and dishonest and cruel#and i didn’t want to be alive#even when i was doing well i still didn’t want to be alive#for 24 years.#i had no fucking idea being alive could be so easy. i had no idea.#i want to hold myself and tell them i want to wrap myself up and say it will be BETTER#it will be so so far from perfect but it will be so so good you just have to hold on#i am so happy but i am mourning#i don’t know how to articulate it at all i just feel#happy but grieving#i LOVE this new city we live in i LOVE it here#i like my job enough to stand it for enough hours a week to get by#i have the time and the energy to throw myself into hobbies like knitting and cooking#i watch one or two good movies a week#i eat delicious food i’ve made and from restaurants we want to try#i’m IN LOVE. with my girlfriend in a way that’s so overwhelming and unlike anything i’ve ever felt that words don’t do it justice#i have friends who are gentle and patient with me when it’s hard for me to reach out#i am fighting agoraphobia tooth and fucking nail and i’m seeing the world and experiencing it#i laugh every day!!!! every single day!!!!#i have a goofy wonderful dog and an incredibly sweet cat#i talk to my baby brother all the time and he tells me he loves me and he’s graduating college soon and i’m so fucking proud#i wish i would’ve known how good it would all become#i wish i could’ve known#personal
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Yknow I don’t think curly is as bad as Jimmy or knowingly helped him steal IDs or whatever. But I doooo think people going “the good intentioned thing means there’s no action he could’ve taken to know abt Jimmy before canon” is missing just how much you can rationalize yours and others behaviors. Especially if you want to see the best in them/yourself.
Which can lead to MORE rationalizing because sunk cost fallacy, to become better you have admit you were worse. And a lot of people aren’t willing to do that, or even think about the possibility they might need to be doing that. (Jimmy is basically doing this x10)
I’m just saying, in the interview she ALSO later says “…people like [curly] are defending perpetrators or use their power to cover up for misbehaving friends while still thinking they are doing a good, generous thing.” as we can see with Jimmy, you can rationalize anything to any extreme to convince yourself you’re doing good if you’re dead set on it.
Curly can genuinely have good intentions, want to help Anya, but still be *willfully* ignorant. You don’t have to be fully cognizant of WHAT you’re ignoring to be willfully ignorant, in fact that’s pretty counterintuitive to the term. But I do think curly could’ve chosen to dig deeper into this beforehand, but was afraid of what he’d find. So he held off until the problem became too big for him to be ignorant about. To quote the interview again, “good intentions don’t mean much when the situation has already gotten massively out of hand.”
#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing analysis#people say they want a morally grey character and then as soon as they get one they neeeeed to be able#to shove him into a Fundamentally Good or Fundamentally Bad box#because that’s what the game was going for /s#he fucked up! big time! but he wasn’t betting 50 dollars over stealing Anya’s id or whatever the fuck that analysis tried to claim either#people see a game that goes ‘uh oh be careful about what harmful systems you might be perpetuating even if you’re a victim to is as well’#bc it’s a great systemic critique#and go ‘oh well I could never participate in a harmful system. I am Good and Pure you see. how can I be both exploiter and exploitee’#very easily actually#bravo you missed one of the fucking points of the game#ok done ranting in tags now sorry
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ANON??? im pretty sure someone sent me an inbox today about jean x kevin x shawn but i can’t find it anymore and i think i might have accidentally deleted which KILLS ME bc i really wanted to take a look at it now omg this just ruined my day i hope anon knows i did not ignore them and will now forever think about your inbox :(((
#also for all the other inboxes i promise i’m not actually ignoring you#i wasn’t even gonna post ANYTHING today anymore but i felt so bad about accidentally losing the inbox :((#but i’m going through one of my worst depressive episodes since like lockdown rn#so i’m just trying to wait it out and be in a proper headspace before interacting w people SHSJDHDH#but now that im posting this i might as well post the next socmed part and immediately turn my phone off and sleep#so good night y’all sorry @ anon i swear i LOVED your inbox and it was the highlight of my day and actually made me feel better#(which is why i wanted to get back to it now sigh)#but ily i swear#SO SAD I LOST IT FR YOU DONT GET IT (if u even see this omg)
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I hate when I’ll be complaining about some stupid bullshit a coworker does to other coworkers and half the time their response is to lower their voice and go “well…. You know…. I’m pretty sure they’re… on the spectrum, you know?” And every time I have a split second when I have to consider saying “you know I’m autistic, right?” just to make them vaguely uncomfortable for a few minutes and actually think about what they’re implying but of course I do not do that because the gratification is not worth a large sect of shitty coworkers knowing that about me and then talking about me like that every time I do something vaguely annoying or dumb but man…. It does get tempting sometimes
#like idk!!! sometimes the coworkers in question DO display some common autistic traits#but that is NEVER what is being complained about (at least not by me) so WHY are we bringing it up like that el oh el#like when I say ‘yeah I don’t like this coworker because of the shitty fucking things she did to my friend’#the response should not be ‘well I think she’s autistic isn’t that so funny she’s so obsessive about stuffed animals it’s annoying’#shut up shut up SHUT UP AND DIE#I don’t CARE that they talk too loud I don’t CARE that they’re bad a social cues I don’t CARE that they do ‘weird things’#and it’s so. HFDJSJKSKSKS AAAGGHHHHH#whether they’re autistic or not MAYBE that’s not what should be getting brought up during a conversation like that when it has NOTHING to do#with it#also maybe we shouldn’t be doing shit like whispering ‘on the spectrum’ like its some awful terrible thing#just thoughts idk#and the thing is too is that even if I told these ppl I was autistic#they would 100% be the types that are like ‘oh? but you don’t ACT autistic I don’t think you are’#like actually I got very good at masking for these reasons thnx#also you think autism = Sheldon from the Big Bang theory and nothing else#but I already learned my lesson cuz I told a coworker that I wasn’t sure about exactly twice#one of them went ‘oh THATS why you’re so dumb and don’t realize when other ppl don’t like you and take advantage of you’#and then the other one went on a mansplaining spiel about how me being autistic was why adhd meds didnt work on me??????#so yeah. never doing that again. haha. hahahaha. hahahaha……#this actually happened a few days ago but it’s been Bothering me so much#I hate my fucking job….#kaz rambles
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Mu Qing with a giant anti-horse sword while everyone else gets to use conventionally sized weapons like regular length swords and fans 🤝 Ling Wen as a civil official having the brocade immortal making her strong enough to rival martial ones
#sometimes people make Feng Xin’s bow huge probably for poetic reasons but let’s be real#mu qing is objectively funny#like he’s seriously using a 3m long weapon. how is he even carrying that around#he’s not 3m tall it’s taller than him if he sticks it to his back#this stuff is hilarious#mu qing objectively so funny#imagine being Xie Lian and Feng Xin and youRE just sweating like ‘haha don’t mind him everyone he wasn’t raised the same way... haha’#and it’s some guy using cavalry weapons on regular opponents#I don’t think mu qing is a recluse I think the other generals get along with him fine#and I think they have an agreement to not question the strange weapon because it’s not like he has any issue using it fine???#it’s just a wild decision#it’s allowed it’s just very strange#not illegal or forbidden or anything. no one else is doing it tho#iconic tbh#I don’t recall anyone else doing this sort of thing#Xie Lian has Ruoye but the ribbon isn’t strictly a weapon and isn’t alarming to have around generally#tgcf#do you think Feng Xin gets annoyed about the giant sword#like come on I know you could be using a normal saber stop showing off???#he and Ling Wen would get along well I think#good for them both tbh#both came from low standing and all#they deserve to slay.... just a little........#you could argue Ming Yi’s shovel isn’t conventional but I fear that’s a moot point
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#Feeling down for no real reason#So this is me reminding myself that God had given me a day!#He answered my prayers that some stuff would go well#And I got to hang out with people which was fun#And I have lots of energy unexpectedly so I’m going to go to my brother’s sports game#I asked for prayer about that earlier today actually#Cause it’s rough choosing whether or not to go when I really need to be working on grad school things#But hey God is good and I can both go and work a little today!#anyway the sad thing is probably mainly my hormones#But also one of my new friends asked for prayer about being really sad but she wasn’t able or willing to talk more about it?#So I’m sad for her but also worried#And obviously the solution is just to pray for her so I’m gonna do that and trust it to God#And the other thing (which feels too silly to share) is that lowkey one of my other new friends hinted that my crush might like someone?#She wasn’t hinting to me but to someone else while I was also in the room but only sort of part of the conversation#Plus she doesn’t know I like him#And like I don’t t have a serious crush on him or know him super well even#But still :(#It’s sad girl hours#Cause I do kinda like him and I have been interested for a while#How do I feel peaceful about being single?#And other questions I’m waiting for God to answer for me lol#Anyway!!!#I’m going to read a little of my book on the trinity and relax now that my real job is done#And then I’m going to do grad school stuff#And then I’m gonna go to my brother’s game#And then I’m going to go home
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writing this in the tags bc i need to articulate it somewhere that isn’t to my mother on the phone
#I work at a firm w seven (well. six.) partners#so they are all technically my bosses but I rlly only do work for two /maybe/ four of them#i was hired under the guise of being my one boss’ like. protege.#as in when he retires I’ll take over his practice. and also he’s so busy that i could help some of that now.#his area of practice is like. so complex and huge that it isn’t something u learn in months. maybe not even years.#but atp what happens is he meets directly w the clients and then i do literally everything else.#which is fine. except for two things.#1) he has now started joking about how he’s going to be ‘the face’ of it while i do everything#which wouldn’t bother me so much if he was Paying Me For It.#bc 2) he’s only allocating HALF. my hourly rate for those type of clients#I spend. idk prob 70% of my billable hours on his clients. and he’s only allocating half my hourly for them.#and im just like. I wasn’t hired to be ur assistant 😭 im an attorney too 😭 teach me???????????#some days when I really sit and think abt it it just makes me want to switch to directly report to my other boss#i looooove working for my other boss. and i rlly enjoy his area of practice too!!!!#and he like. has basic respect for me as an attorney 😭#anyway idk. it gets more frustrating the more responsibility i take on………….#thoughts inspired by good boss apologizing to me today for overstepping me while talking to a client#and referring to it as being like my bad boss 😭#not bad. he isn’t a bad boss. i just. idk KENFKWNFKSNDK
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i thought this was generally agreed on by now but apparently not:
sirius was more naturally smart, remus was more passionate about learning
#and i have thoughts about this#because sirius doing very well on all his exams in school while not seeming to be in the library much definitely suggests he was#naturally very intelligent#but the fact of the matter is even just based on canon#remus was a teacher#and i know there’s the argument that maybe he just wasn’t accepted for other jobs#which…maybe?#but if not and remus actually wanted to be one#which considering how good he was at it most likely is the case!!!!#teacher don’t have to be the best at the subject they teach. they have to be good at explaining and most good ones have to genuinely like it#like…to talk about the same things year after year definitely shows some sort of passion#so yes i believe remus genuinely liked the subjects he learned in school (specifically defense) and that’s what makes him for me#‘the studious marauder’#if the roles were reversed and sirius wouldn’t have got everything that fasy#i don’t see him going above and beyond to get the highest grades in that specific area in the way remus had to and did#and that’s that rant over#sirius black#remus lupin
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made a mistake at work today and i just want to kms tbh </3
#i know making mistakes is only human but not if it’s me you know??? 😭😭😭#had to try soooooo hard to hold back my tears at work but as soon as i was in my dad’s car on the way home i started crying 😔#i wish i wasn’t so hard on myself but i feel so embarrassed humiliated and stupid#and now i feel like my colleagues hate me which probably isn’t true i’m just an emotional cry baby 😭#but i seriously feel horrible and i would love to hide from the world for at least a week 🙈#i told my team leader about my mistake and even though she was nice and understanding i was so hurt and embarrassed it was awful#and of course she noticed the tears in my eyes and i think my crush did too bc he didn’t talk to me at all after that happened#they probably think i’m so childish 😭😭😭 i’m sorry i’m such an emotional bitch with no self esteem that takes everything too personal#it’s the capricorn in me… i’m too much of a perfectionist like everyone can make mistakes EXCEPT ME#that’s what happens when you measure your self worth based on your achievements everything comes crashing down after just one mistake#i feel so foolish 😔#on a good note my crush actually remembered my birthday and congratulated me belatedly bc he was sick for a week#he actually initiated some conversations today but after that situation happened he didn’t talk to me at all anymore 💔#he probably really thinks i’m a childish baby now 🥲#i don’t take criticism well bc my mom used to (and still does tbh) berate for every single little thing#so now i think that even constructive criticism (which is obviously good and needed!!!) is aimed at me as a person & always cry 🙃#god i wish i was normal#☁️
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ok yk what. now that i’ve had some time to process nghy canon, considering the current pacing of gen retcon, i think their next step is as ✨clear as day✨
i really like seeing them happy together, but i truly do think that they should divorce and either live the rest of their lives as single besties; partners in hero/heroine-isms, but better off as just friends, or go their separate ways for a bit and get back together when they’re a little older and wiser, staying together for good this time around, as each other’s first and last boyfriend/girlfriend
#‘haven’t you had quite enough of pushing your divorce agendas??? like with lxl????’ no. never.#idk i think part of their charm was nagisa’s patience and genuine earnest love for hiyori#and hiyori’s determination to achieve her goals of becoming a true heroine in every sense of the word…#but the current pacing is kinda… um. i really love how nghy is now truly canon ofc. but… it feels too rushed?#like they’re just checking off a box on a ‘relationships to go’ checklist?#and nagisa’s sudden second confession? in a throwaway line? what was that all about man… when did that even happen? excuse?#i think it’d have been more meaningful if hiyori was the one to confess without any prompting (to lead to their relationship)…#and. uh. don’t take this the wrong way but… noontea seemed a little peer pressure-y to me.#it kinda felt like juri and chizu were pressuring hiyori into getting a bf… it’s been eating away at me ever since i tried to tl it. but.#…idk. point is. i think a relationship built on those foundations (peer pressure/fomo and a suddenly persistent guy(???)) is doomed to fail#and so i think nghy should divorce. maybe they’ll reconnect romantically in a few years#(fulfilling nagisa’s agreement to be hiyori’s ‘last bf’ as well as having been her ‘first bf’ during their first try at a relationship)#or they could just be besties till the end of time; having been each other’s hero and heroine once upon a time#ik hw doesn’t do breakups of their main couples (not since nakimushi kareshi eons ago i think…)#but i think they should give it another go for nghy. maybe it’d make their love story a little more compelling#and maybe we could all unite under the cheers of hoping that ng and hy get back together in the future as more mature adults…?#idk i just. think the ‘right person; wrong time’ trope could work for nghy#like how it went in sukiuso/heroika with nagisa’s failed confession#even then they were the right person for each other; it just wasn’t the right time for them to date (personal goals/long distance/etc)#so maybe. this time ‘round even though they’ve started dating circumstances could still pop up here and there and maybe…?#…but idk~~~~~~~~ maybe it’s just the 5am thoughts or something that’s finally putting my incoherent trains of thoughts into words…#point is!!!!!! the current pacing is awkward!!!!!!!!! nghy deserve better!!!!!!! and their love story needs to be treated with more care!!!!#idk are hw trying to speedrun nghy for h10w bc nghy’s. like. a mix of different features of their previous couples#which would make ‘em the perfect couple to bring h10w together(???) or something???#but idk. im still really really happy the nghy is canon but. there are some mixed feelings here and there too…#idk dudes this has gotten way too long for its own good so ig i’ll stop here…#live laugh love nghy canon but… i still think they should break up for *at least* a year or so to reasses their relationship#sorry nghy… it’s for your own good i swear… i truly want you to be happy together!!!! i really do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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So you know that nightmare where you show up to a class and it’s like haha you’re having a final you know nothing about?? Now picture that being at your job, and you’re at a leadership meeting (and you’ve only been there 4 months) and it’s not a test, it’s a presentation.
OH AND IT’S REAL LIFE
To be clear. The fuckup was not mine.
My (former) boss literally did not tell me I was expected to present a data project. A project I was very very minimally involved in. And he lied about one whole part of the project (said we got awesome returns on a survey when we… absolutely did not.) And the whole thing was so badly done, I’m going to need to redo it.
#my good boss was like#well at least you’re not naked and your teeth aren’t falling out#even if it wasn’t my fault it was fucking humiliating#and it’s also literally one of my deepest fears#so yeah#today was not so fun
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just remembered a friend describing my anxiety as “severe” the other day n i still don’t know how to feel abt it
#marzi speaks#i’m one of those. i hate this term but don’t know a better one#‘high functioning’ types of folks#and i mean. the GAD went undiagnosed for 17 years so#i’m at the very least good enough at masking to fool ppl into thinking the anxiety isn’t that bad#but. i guess some of my stuff could be considered severe#the agoraphobia i had after lockdown was lifted was for sure really bad#i remember making plans with friends and being really excited#and then day of i was so stressed i threw up and had to tell my friends i couldn’t come#bc i was just. too ill. from anxiety#i felt nauseous every time i left the house for a good couple months after that. managed to convince my body i wasn’t gonna die eventually#i guess that qualifies as severe even if i handled it relatively well. hm.#i have a hard time gauging that sort of thing. i’ve been like this my whole life so it just feels normal to me#i don’t know what the ‘standard’ level of anxiety is in any given moment#is it 0?#bc like even when i’m hanging out it sits at a 3/10 i think#i’m only really at 0 when i’m really relaxed and/or high#much to ponder
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