#oh to be mentally stable

[marrzyy]

how much i wish i wasn't paranoid about every human interaction i have. even online. even just through posting art. i can't shake off the feeling that everyone is annoyed and done with me. like there's one huge mistake i've made that everyone except me knows of. i feel like i even disappoint my own followers with every post i make. it's intense and irrational and it pisses me off sm.

[malware-program]

This is a vent post

I’m so tempted to drop out of college, like I failed my first semester, my mental health has taken a huge fucking hit, and everyone just expects me to do perfectly. I don’t know how to create my own routine, how to stay on track, it feels like I don’t know how to be human. I see all these people doing it and I just don’t know how they do. I can’t afford therapy, I can’t get medications, I’m just gonna keep getting worse until I either drop out or end up in crisis again. I just can’t deal with people being disappointed in me again.

[acecroft]

DINA MEYER as Detective Allison Kerry in Saw III (2006)

[rocketbirdie]

i told you. i'm fine

[kittylittersmoothie]

me debating whether or not to admit i desperately need comfort instead of hoping someone telepathically realizes i need assistance and offers it on their own volition

[yikes-ajax]

I dont have a clever and witty sarcastic comment tonight, I just think she's cute

[joshbruh10x]

Barely surviving high school

Anyways unhinged Fazcule bc YOU CAN'T CONTROL WHAT I DRAW TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT

[delphis-oracle]

happy new year ⁉️⁉️ yooseven bc i said so

they’re so stupid im going to put them in a blender

[the---hermit]

This is your daily reminder that if you are going through some stuff emotionally or having a deep existential crisis you need to take time off studying. Studying in those conditions will just make you more tired and won't be productive. Take a day off, get some rest, get better and then when you can actually focus on the things you have to do you can get back yo studying.

[cosmicheartz]

messy goat concept

will be working on a better ref for em soon

Basic notes

any pronouns but uses They/Them the most

their bio name is Judith but started going by Judas after their family was killed for anonymity reasons? ( tbh they weren't very smart with it bc both names have the first 3 letters but you get the idea ). They're mainly referred to as Judas by their cult and " Judy " by Naenia/Their Narinder ( quick note some info on that is most likely outdated )

actually has a decent/positive relationship with Naenia ( granted it wasnt like that at first especially because they were planning to betray Naenia after slaying the bishops but at the end they couldn't bring themselves to kill her so they spared her )

less hung up abt being a cult leader compared to Solange but prefers to use " Herd " instead of cult ( sounds better to them personally )

speaking of their cult during vesselhood it was kind of a shitshow due to them not knowing how to properly keep the faith up so there were a shit ton of dissenters ( didn't help that they were pretty aggressive to their followers too. ) postgame They got the hang of running their cult/herd and is less aggressive to their followers ( it helps that Naenia is sort of the secondary leader in a way )

They train their followers to fight so returning to missionaries alive is greatly increased

as i mentioned before in Solange's universe ( which i'll dub the lambverse ) Judith/Judas also existed and was close with Solange but ended up getting killed by heretics sometime before Solange's execution ( stabbed multiple time in the stomach )

on the flipside in Judas' universe the Solange there was also close to them and unfortunately got killed by heretics(?) sometime before Judas' death ( throat was slit )

as a result Judas (Goatverse) and Solange (Lambverse) had an instant connection and bonded fast.

there is angst related to the fact that they aren't exactly the same as their alternate universe counteparts ( the ones that died )

Judas often hangs around Solange's cult and helps her with training her followers to fight

[butchlifeguard]

ok i see a lot of people misinterpreting these kinds of posts so im making one differently

[taroddori]

alright bro what the flip

[pasta-pardner]

i finally broke a fic from the containment of my google drive and sent it into the public ether

[limonjarritos]

no im still so unwell over this??? vince scribbled out the criticism of rody in the review of the bistro. help

Nooooo but literally. How he immediately discredits any bad word against Rody! It defo made me more convinced that the reason the party ended was because Rody's ex classmate made fun of Rody (and it is mentioned by one of the guests that Vincent can hear Rody very clearly from over there, there's no way he didn't notice that whole scene). I do wonder exactly what was said, since he's not afraid to be brutal to anyone that's not Rody.

If a customer ever treated Rody like shit in the typical way customers act towards service workers I don't think Vince would be too happy lmao. POV: you treated your waiter like shit and now some white french man who smells like an ash tray starts glaring daggers at you.

Come look at my smiling deranged blorbo!

[im-so-normal-for-jax]

I did use a base because I’m a loser 🥰✨💅

but I still ate jajsjzjdkakkdcammdm

[fangirleaconmigo]

oh boy, I reaaaally hurt my own feelings with that last fic.

I think I'm gonna have to finish it and actually write that happy ending out for my own mood and good health