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392: Happy first day of Summer!! (and happy pride month<3)
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itsnotacostume · 1 year
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we as a fandom do not talk about this scene enough. what the fuck is this. why did he feel the need to install this? so he could stare at his boybestfriend all day without having to get up?
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moeblob · 3 months
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A lil guy !
#honkai star rail#dan heng#genuinely have a million things i wanna draw and then zero energy#so dan heng in a hoodie#now i gotta go get dinner sooooo maybe that will give energy and then i can draw more of what i actually wanna draw#but i kinda spent like ... hours ? talking to my mom earlier today#since shes been in the hospital for many many days#so i was catching her up on whats been goin on and showed her silly lil videos#and telling her how hyped i was for summer hrid and she (very patient with my fe talk)#was like you always tell me about banners being bad so it must have made you REALLY happy to say the whole banner is good#and im like yeah and i had multiple people on multiple sites like hey salmon/moeblob did ya see the banner#and she was like thats so cool that people acknowledge who you like and im like yeah it is p cool#and then i told her how mad i was at the absolutely criminal act of limiting how you can watch clue (1985 hit movie)#like i told her yeah sure i own it twice on dvd and once on itunes and that the only way to watch those#are either desktop or ps2 and how i dont have access to my itunes email#and i dont have it on my laptop so i sadly would have to rebuy the movie on itunes under a new acct#then i said how i loved that it was free to watch with ads on yt and id watched it twice that way#but then recently wanted to watch it on there but laptop and hoo boy you have to buy or rent it now#so i v angrily was like fine whatever ill do the thing and leave my room and go watch it on my moms tv#while she isnt around and use her amazon prime where it should be included except ! IT WASNT!#YOU HAVE TO HAVE PRIME TO BUY OR RENT IT NOW TOO!#HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS AND WHY ! who in the world is watching this movie so much that isnt me that they have to charge for it now#on all platforms unless you straight up pirate it#and hey why would i of all people be needing to pirate a movie i own physically two times and digitally once#this is literally a personalized attack to me#and my mom was like i understand how you feel cause yeah thats really weird to do to a 1985 movie#and im like yes exactly i have morals and principles that make me opposed to this and its v maddening#and she said she understood and its ok next time we are having power issues and i have to shut down#that if i really wanna watch it i can rent it on her amazon account and i looked at her and shes like oh you feel v strongly about this#and i do! I HAVE HAD IT GIFTED TO ME TWICE ! I BOUGHT IT ONCE! WHY DO I HAVE TO RENT IT FOR MORE MONEY!
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opikiquu · 5 months
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aventurine pl. Plea s e . PLLEEEEEEASE
#★ arin rambles#‘here we go again’ you think everytime you see my ramble tag. I dont blame you#AVENTURINE AVENTURINE PLEASE SAVE ME WHITE BOY#OH MY LORD#OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS OH MY GOODNESS.#MY JSOE IS RUNNING HES RUINNING MY LIFE I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE IM SO ILL PLEASE I#AVENTURINE. im so serious i can talk about this man all day. and more specifically this video#‘it was just posted 30 minutes ago arin youre scaring the kids’ SILENCE. I NEED SPACE#I NEED A. A MOMENT. EVERYBODY PLEAS GETA WAY FROM ME IM GOING TO GET SO SCARY#Please. Im so sorry. Im begging you . I love this man oh my gish please hes so cute#HES SO CUTE. HES SO CUTE IM SO SICK OF HIM WHY???????? WHY IS HE SO PRETTY HES SO PRETTY HES GOREGOUS HES SO STUNNING. HELLO. HELLO.#Im going to. Slam my head against the wall im overwhelmed with joy and happiness hes everything ive ever wanted ever#any minute not spent talking about him is a moment wasted i promise you MY PRINCESS IM COMING TO SAVE YOU#IM HIS KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR EXCEPT ITS NOT SHINY#IM COVERED IN DIRT#IM STILL COMING FOR YOU AVENTURINE RUN#oh goodness me oh my#im so happy hes so prettu im so happy i cant do rhis im sweating geniumnly i feel so sick#Im cant . Do this anymore. I CANT TAKE IT. I HAVE TO… AAUGH… AAAHH… I HAVE TO…. DANCE!#guys…. he my favorriet…#my slinky….. my krimpet… my teacup i think. My doc mc stuffins doctor playset. My dishwasher. My italian coldsteel cinquedea . atp anything#hes my EVERYTHING. MY EVERYTHING…!!!!!!!! *MY TELEKENISIS THROWS EVERYTTHING ACROSS THE ROOM*#yall i dont think ive had a hyperfixation this horribly bad since. Since the. Since. MAN I DONT KNOW#IM COOKED. HE WOMT LEAVE ME ALONE. I LITERALLY DREAMT OF HIM LAST NIGHT LIKE IM SO DOOMED? ACTUALLY?#oh to be medicated and focus on . Things like cooking. Or idk. Getting a job. No i just think about some messed up blonde all day im absolut#ly DOOMED#yes im still yapping i got 30 tags u gon stick through them all. Every single one of them. Dont leave me please i want to talk about him ton#TO SOMEONE. I WANT TO TALK ABOUT HIM TO SOMEONE ALL DAY. ALL MY FRIENDS ARE TESTING. IM LEFT ALONE ALL DAY I JUST WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY WIFE#i womder how crazy i look right now#Sighs lovingly at him..
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seaweedstarshine · 4 months
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RIP Krakoa 🌹 I can’t lie I’ve been kinda behind since midway through Fall of X I’m gonna catch up before my first SDCC this summer but I hear Vulcan didn’t see much action anyway. Anyway my hand slipped and I found myself looking into the eyes of my canonically psychotic son the best Summers brother who’s never done anything wrong in his entire life, (he’s done lotsa wrong things but I love him more for it)
#canonically psychotic = he canonically has psychosis. (not in the ableist way in that hes evil. which he is. lemme enjoy problematic rep)#Gabriel Summers#art by seaweed#words by seaweed#X-Men Red#the Gabriel hate during the Krakoa era pffffft. was 100% from ppl who didnt read the Rise and Fall of the Shi'ar Empire#“he attacked Storm” hes also a genocidal dictator who tortures ppl for catharsis. drunkenly coming at Ororo is the least bad thing he did#“he's a douche” mother of all understatements. now get this man back w his boyfriend who he forced to be his best man under pain of death#Gabriel fans LOVE that Ororo beat his ass. he deserved it. it was a fake discourse made up by a certain segment of goddess!Ororo fans#I say as an Ororo fan! Shes my fav A-list x-man🥰 yes Gabe was at a mental low but Ororo didnt know that. that was Scott's responsibility.#psychotic Emperor Vulcan is what we call a problematic mentally ill villain trope. I love him SO much. (okay lets talk)#we don’t know much about his childhood but we do know he spent 2 years in a fugue state after escaping slavers when he was like ten ):#as an “adult”-ish he's uh “mentally” 15 or sumn according to the calculations claimed to him by his hallucination of his actual child self#and apart from THOSE hallucinations. he’s very paranoid to the point of killing his advisors because he becomes convinced-#that they’re plotting to kill him. they aren't. he relies on Calseye to ground him thru his paranoia. and then of course in the Krakoa era#he believes his energy constructs of Petra and Sway who drink with him till he blacks out every single day are real. he isnt consciously#creating them; but he sees them- and bc he’s a godlike mutant his subconscious makes his hallucinations visible. making everyone uncomfy#Charles tries to use telepathy to FORCIBLY reality check him. which of course triggers his trauma. and GABE is punished for it?#(oh plus our finding out Gabe got brain surgery done on him by some gods outside the universe offpanel. he never does well with tampering)#and now the writers who pushed Hickman out (also RIP Sabretooth & the Exiles. RIP Hellions) want us to be SAD Krakoa is gone?#yes Gabriel is the mentally ill villain trope. but Krakoa never cared for mutants who couldn’t fit in. who were traumatized. disabled. etc#Alex OF ALL PEOPLE should understand that. ALEX should’ve been there for Gabriel. (why wasn't he. did he hold a grudge for past torture.)#Alex also w Murder-Enjoying Disorder but it was actually treated as an illness and those in authority presented as wrong for excluding him#instead of helping him. which v flawed but Hellions was one of the best mental illness comics? like Zeb Wells was conscious of the genre#but Gabriel was just… cast out. for panicking when his prime traumatizer Charles invaded his mind. he deserved help too#and all because his family were annoyed at him for drinking all night and throwing up and passing out on the floor? for being delusional?#And like- all of the summers brothers are nd (Scott's brain damage; Alex's dissociative episodes; Gabriel's psychosis)#I have nothing to say about Adam X ((I highly doubt he's neurotypical and/or mentally healthy)) ((nothing to say abt him tho))#and Gabes paranoia is 100% rooted in his issues of being made to feel like an outsider. like YES the obvious MUTANT identity but also#he thinks his father abandoned him to be a slave. he's not Summers enough for Scott. hes not Shi'ar enough for the Shi'ar
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badolmen · 9 months
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I wish we got more moments of the Walkers being Family like. The opening of “Brave New World” where Hesh says he let Logan sleep a bit longer because he figured he could use the rest set the bar too high for the rest of the campaign. You don’t really get anything like that line again - there’s the “Sin City” and “The Ghost Killer” cutscenes as well but those are both high tension, ‘holy shit don’t hurt my brother/I am dying son but I’m proud of you’ lines. And honestly Hesh’s “All or Nothing” Rorke File where he talks about his misplaced guilt after losing Elias…it’s almost a bit weird that he doesn’t reference how Logan is handling it at all (especially considering he was the one manhandled into shooting their father).
I guess the first unlockable Rorke File where Elias talks about taking the boys to the beach counts, and Hesh’s “Logan’s got my back, and I got his. He’s my brother.” but it just feels a bit stilted compared to the natural tenderness of the “Brave New World” opening.
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averlym · 1 year
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HI I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE INTO ADAMANDI HOLY SHIT. Can’t believe so few people know about this masterpiece of a musical
:OOOOO hai i agree it is criminally (haha yknow bc there are crimes..) underrated!! and really brilliant!!! discovered it literally midway through the week and akdfjgsjhdsjhjgdf
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have a doodle of the saints :3
#this is kinda because on someone's insta i saw one of the saints doing a peace sign dksajh have smth silly#adamandi#ask me stuff???#realising i have to put my tags at the beginning before rambles or tumblr won't catch it#i am into adamandi. now. this is terrible timing because exam season but hMM the academic grindset really resonates now huh#the moment i caught myself in the ao3 tag i was like ''oh.''#i have so many thoughts. so many many thoughts. im so insane about this musical actually. also the fandom so far seems so nice#also yeah! the number of people who know about it is quite small huh.. it makes me kinda feel like im infiltrating the group... ?#late to the party as ever. but it's. so so good. such a musical ever the brainrot is real#also the way the creators themselves are active on tumblr :OO rly cool. ngl the tags they left under my posts had me#giggling screaming kicking my feet etcetera... and bc apparently i thrive off positive reinforcement that sparked the whole cut fruit art..#i am itching to know about the track thing with portia. also portrix real the lesbians keep winning!! also also i may have spent half a day#internet stalking ><. secret pinterest boards where :O#anyway thank you for the ask anon idk how to answer concisely but yes. adamandi. oh my god.#miscellany: can we appreciate ambrose's high notes.. also i was on wiki reading about ''apollonian vs dionysian'' it's insane#on yet another note. im entering my lin era rn i think. what a time. where can i run so true + vincent's surname my beloved. forest imagery#side note? tiny little detail i'd love to do smth about in the future: in word to the wise there's smth about “appraising your rings” and i#the one who pulls the strings beatrix mentions “bought my classmates rings” like. kjdfhsgjkhd???? thinks.#.. but new fav musical unlocked is all#between this and watt i am maybe into my murder musical era. confession that i don't do horror much because i have an overactive imaginatio#but like those two hit the spot. and i think organic imagery.. blood visuals.. is very cool// and the moment you start looking at literal#life and death situations then the dramaticness especially comes in and that's fun!! // also i read smth today about tragedy making you#appreciate irl stuff more. like ''wow thats messed up im sure glad that isnt me i love life''. and lowkey?? yeah
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widevibratobitch · 5 months
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omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee
#and i still havent texted my friend back even tho she texted me a week ago and i told her ill text her back this week when i have the time#and i DO have the time. im just fucked in the head and the prospect of having a conversation with another person where i again#have to pretend im not at the very brink of a serious mental and emotional breakdown. is making me lose my fucking mind#ik she's having a bad time rn and she needs the reassurance and jesus fucking christ i tried i had two long conversations with her#that were allllll about her. only her. not a single word about me. that's fine. this is what people need in such moments right#to just get patted on the head and hugged and told their suffering is real and what happened to them is unfair and just made to feel#that for a moment they're the centre of attention and it is all about them. this is normal. this is why therapy exists.#so i try to give this to her but it is fucking draining. and i NEVER get the same treatment back. like she caught me crying at uni last week#and like yes she'll say some nice things but she'll always find a way to turn the conversation back on the topic of ✨her✨#like we started talking about my therapy and i finally got to actually say a word or two about what im dealing with. but then she goes#'yeah im just trying to figure out what's wrong with me when i listen to you haha like i could never cut myself cause it looks ugly.#ofc it doesnt look ugly on you haha but i could never lol'#like thanks haha good to know ill just shut up then and steer the conversation back onto you why dont i. i mean its not like#i spent over an hour a few days back sitting with you and listening to your talk about your childhood and validating you and not saying#a word a single fucking word about myself even tho i was also going through it myself but who cares right. and now im the bad guy again#because im not texting back.#i feel like im finally fucking snapping cause at this point im properly fucking angry. IM having a bad time too. IM going through it too.#I have bad coping skills and had a fucked up childhood and traumas in my life TOO and im allowed to just not be able to handle it#i really wanna break something lol maybe therapy's working after all lmao#oh also this is why i dont eat breakfast. i do it once and then feel guilty and suicidal lol normal behaviour#pojebie mnie zaraz przysięgam na boga mam dość kurwa BASTA
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seventh-district · 2 months
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I'm probably far from the first person to say this, but you can't tell me that this song doesn't just scream Aventurine, c'mon.
#like. i don't even need to explain it do i. the lyrics are Right There they speak for themselves#aventurine#hsr aventurine#honkai star rail#hsr#Seven.txt#music stuff#panic! at the disco#p!atd#another song + character commentary post wow mayhaps i'll start making more of these but i fear people and their Opinions#but whatever. if i don't distract myself with a silly little tumblr post im gonna have a meltdown so. here. character commentary be upon ye#anyways listening to this and thinking of Aven gives me chills every single time i can't help it#as usual if u disagree feel free to keep that shit to yourself this is just my opinion let me have it in peace#Spotify#'oh but it's too Positive! he's actually miserable inside! he wouldn't embody this song that's just the mask he puts up!!!'#yeah ur right. and who said i wasn't talking about the mask#i'm not saying that this song embodies his truest self necessarily. but i think it does suit Some aspect of him#maybe the side that's trying to keep going. the side that picks him up off the floor and pushes himself out into the world day after day#forcing himself to find whatever scraps of hope he can hold onto. the song doesn't say '*Had* to have high hopes' for no reason#i dunno i'm just spitballin here. there's plenty of ways you can see Aven in this song. if u Want to#if you've never peeled urself off the bathroom floor and washed tears off your face while playing the most upbeat song you can find-#-to try and summon the motivation to keep going in spite of how u just spent 20mins wishing for it all to be over. well#well then u just can't understand my vision here
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boxwinebaddie · 4 months
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same nervous anon from earlier anddd i graduated!! idk why i was scared i was totally fine lmaosl im the queen of overreacting. anyways im officially a graduate and i got SUMMA CUM LAUDE HELL YEAH
hello, baby!!!!! first of all, i just want to say...
cONGRATU-FUCKING-LATIONS, MY LOVE!!!!!
graduating is no easy feat, seriously. i am so fucking proud of you, i was so excited to finally have enough time to answer this because i am so happy that my face hurts from SMILING SO BIG!!!! :DDD
you did the damn thing!!! like i know that at points it was really hard, but you powered through it and i am so excited for you to start this new chapter of your life and see what life has in store for you. <3
i am glad your culmination went smoothly because hooooly fuck, chaperoning the culmination from my school was HELL ON EARTH, hoooooly shit. parents are so entitled and so mean to me like yeah, okay maam, i'm sorry that you are sitting in the fourth row and you wanted to sit in the front row, SO DID EVERY OTHER FUCKING FAMILY HERE TOLD, like i don't care how much you donate to the school???? i didn't make the damn seating chart, yell at the WALL!
it was...oh my god. i still get flashbacks, bro.
but AGAIN I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
and congratulations to all my friends in school or not, whatever you are doing, and however well or not well you think you are doing, know you are very loved and i am very, very proud of you.
sorry, i haven't been around...again, if you were dying during finals week, so am i because i am GIVING THOSE FINALS when teachers decide to rage quit and take their vacations early like??? thanks so much, legend! it's not like i...you know...have never ran your class before and i have to comfort nervous students WHO AREN'T MINE?
but yes, mwah mwah mWAH! i love you guys, i posted a very lame ask meme finally after 73093740934 years and i'm sorry, but because i am so busy i may go dark randomly and come back. the posting is slow goings and i am worried about how stressful working summer camp will be ( though, i am stoked for the structure ) but if you're on the struggle bus, its the hello kitty bus and i'm driving.
which unfortunately is not great news...
because i can't drive.
anyways! cheers! mazel! <3333
-uncle nina, grinning ear to ear
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simptasia · 4 months
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i had a great day a comic con today!
highlights include meeting emelie de raven
annnnd getting my first tattoo!
#it's the x-men logo on my left bicep#i hadnt planned this at all - i didnt know you could get tats at cons#but i saw it. and liked the look of it. and something just clicked in my head. didn't get it right away tho i met emelie first#so i had all the time in the world. and while the photo with her was being processed - i got the tattoo#it turned out perfect. not gonna show it off because its been bleeding quite a bit and doesn't look so nice now#but when its all healed up and cleaned up i'll get some pics#but yeah. holy shit i have a tattoo. i drink alcohol and got modification on a whim? oh yes. im a wild girl now kjhfdskjh#anyways. its my first convention since 2018. and my first one without mum of course#i found out about it a week beforehand and it just felt right. which feels like a step in a good direction for me#i made the day of it. and spent the birthday money mum gave back in september. and then some!#nothing at comic con is cheap so i was like. fuck it go ham#i got lotsa merch. i think my favourite purchase (other than stuff with emelie and the tat) is a silver star trek ring i got <3#i like merch with staying power. like clothes and jewellery#oh oh speaking of which i wore my star trek voyager comm badge brooch today. i'd never worn it before so that was nice#one day im gonna get myself a voyager trek uniform to go with my badge and my pips. and i'll wear that to a con#i've gone to several cons but i've only cosplayed once! ...it can be tricky to get organised. but i'll do it again someday#so yeah great day! my feet are fucking killing me! but im so happy!
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ereborne · 6 months
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Song of the Day: March 15
“Over Yet" by Hayley Williams
#song of the day#very exciting to have one of my brothers tell me entirely unprompted that he's enjoying the current playlist#a very big win#I spent most of my work day today doing what I've been thinking of as 'evil rubber-ducking'#where the IT guys throw me the especially Difficult faculty members--the ones who can't be helped because they won't listen--#and I trick them into actually talking me through what they're doing so we can find the problem and fix it#(eternally amazed by people who request help and then refuse it. you called me bud. you submitted a service request ticket on purpose.#oh you can't do your job without connecting to the vpn? that's great we can't fix it until you tell us what's fucking stopping you)#mostly this 'tricking' takes the form of me being a sweet young butter-wouldn't-melt Southern girl in over my head with mean IT guys#bless them (derogatory) these folks who won't let IT even attempt to start working through the 'have you tried' scripts#because they know they're getting something wrong but are too angry-embarrassed to admit they don't know what#are still delighted to mansplain the idea of a remote connection to me#--that's not fair. I shouldn't mischaracterize them it's mostly not mansplaining.#the two today were yankee-splaining me. city-splaining maybe.#what would a hick like me (y'all is one person. all y'all or some'a y'all for multiple people) possibly know about enterprise networks--#anyway they were using the wrong login credentials and were so sure of themselves they'd never even tried the other set just to see#bless. their. hearts.#(IT owes me so many little favors like this now. the latest database tweak I asked for got done live while I described it to them)#anyway anyway! love the chorus on this song#'to get out of your head yes break a sweat / baby tell yourself it ain't over yet'#makes me move my head every time
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Nope, I'm still crying
#i wish literally anybody from school remembered me#literally only 2 people i was friends with hace talked to me in the past four years#i had the realization tonight that i was never given the choice to nurture most of my friendships#everytime i tried outside of school hours including trying to join clubs my mom would make me leave halfway through then lecture me#that she didn't have time to drive to town and get me#but as soon as my brother wanted to join junior air force she suddenly had all the time and energy in the world to devote to that#so what I'm getting here is that my friendships and interests weren't important enough or worth her time#i wasn't interested in Junior air force 1 cause it wasn't offered to me and 2 I'm not a boit licker#no#i was interested in the video game and board game clubs cause my friends were in them and they WANTED me to join#but after not getting to stay for more than one full session after a month i left the board game club cause it wasn't fair to the others#and i only went to the video game clu once and i don't remember much of it cause i was too anxious that she was gonna flip on me#i kept waiting for her text but instead she showed up at the classroom and made me leave#so when the same teacher that ran the board game club asked if i wanted to join the chess club cause he knew i liked chess#i told him i couldn't cause i was too busy because i didn't want to deal with begging my mom to let me join#she would have said yes but would have continued not letting me stay and being super passive aggressive#I'm not even in the year book for the year my friends graduated#the one thing she did let me do was drama and i hated every second of it. it was genuinely a bad experience for me#yeah i had friends in drama but it's not the same as hanging with my nerdy guy friends playing a star wars ttrpg#the worst part is she gets so defensive when i bring it up and won't give me a reason outside of 'I guess I'm just the worst parent'#it's in those moments i really remember she's the youngest in her family#OH!! it gets worse! she told me when i was younger that she had to be an honorary cheer leader cause HER MOM absolutely refused to#let her join cheer and she's alsways been bitter about it but then she turns around and did basically the same thing to me ffs#at least she was allowed to hang out with people after-school i wasn't allowed to do that either#no. instead i spent the hours after shcool alone most days and my weekends home alone in my room. and she wonders why my social skills are#maybe if I'd been allowed to work on my relationships outside of a classroom i wouldn't have felt so abandoned when everyone i knew#graduated without me. maybe if i didn't have to start back at square one socially again and had people to text and hang with after class#i wouldn't have dropped out. and i think only atlas knows i dropped out. idk how to text these people without spunding like I'm looking for#sympathy when they ask what I'm up to. like yeah I'm stuck at home with an anxiety disorder and unemployed trying to get on disability#prisma vents
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lilflowerpot · 1 year
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Are the druids (especially those that are higher up and closer to haggar) allowed to have children?
And if so then does it have to be with another member of the Druidic Church?
As well as this, if the couple then went on to have a child, then would the child also have druidic capabilities and would they be accepted as part of the Church?
I’m sorry that this was a lot of questions, but i was just curious. 💜
Not only are the druids allowed to have children, they're strongly encouraged to do so!
As Lotor alluded to in chapter 17 when sneaking around the druidic lab—and as I've touched upon in my posts on both quintessence and religion, as well as my galra dictionary—the distinguishing feature of a true druid (as opposed to simply a deacon of the Church) is the ability to manipulate quintessence, and this in turn is dictated by blood: druids are born, not made.
Sa Naacht [[ s-ar / n-ar-kh-t ]] - Voidsworn; an individual whose life (and arguabley their very soul) belongs to the eternity of Sa Herself, and all the beings that may reside there. Unlike the Li Naacht of any cause, one does not swear themselves as a Sa Naacht, but rather is born into it as a person of Druidic descent, and it is beleived that the Druids’ ability to manipulate raw quintessence energy is a result of their ancestors having provided themselves to the denizens of Sa as vessels on the mortal plane.
So as the druids are the only galra able to manipulate quintessence (and quintessence itself serves as the Empire's primary power-source) this particular skillset is deemed an invaluable imperial resource, which, of course, brings us back to the druids being strongly encouraged to have children,,, and as many as possible at that. Historically, records that predate Brodar indicate that, in a presumed attempt to keep their blood and abilities strong, the druids once limited themselves to reproducing only with their own; although the likelihood of the resultant children inheriting their parent's druidic abilities was extremely high (though still not guaranteed), the transgenerational impact of such a limited genepool lead to an increased likelihood of significant health issues, including:
Reduced fertility
Genetic disorders
Lower birth rate
Higher infant/child mortality
Loss of immune system function
Increased cardiovascular risks
In the modern day, therefore, the Church encourages its druids to sire several children with several different partners (both druidic and otherwise) though it has long-since been the preferred practice for the sa naacht to copulate primarily with those considered to be latent-druidic—here meaning galra who are perhaps the children / grandchildren / great-grandchildren of druids, and do tend to serve as members of the Church despite not being druids themselves—so as to preserve their genetic diversity and produce healthy offspring, even if this means that said offspring are statistically less likely to inherit druidic abilities than they would be were they born of two druidic parents.
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[[ Punnett squares depicting all ten potential galra genotypes—druidic & otherwise—via the 55 parental combinations that might produce them. Those squares that are greyed-out are inverted duplicates of those in colour, with the maternal/paternal genotypes switched, a difference that has no bearing at this time. ]]
There exist ten galra genotypes—here meaning the genetic constitution of an individual organism, not to be confused with its phenotype—that are as follows: [GG] [Gg] [gg] [GD] [Gd] [gd] [Dg] [dd] [Dd] [DD]. The nine segments that these punnett squares are divided into indicate parentage: Galra/Galra (top-left), Galra/Latent (top-mid & mid-left), Galra/Druid (top-right & bottom-left), Latent/Latent (middle), Latent/Druid (mid-right & bottom-mid), Druid/Druid (bottom-right).
As illustrated above the ten galra genotypes are each comprised of one maternal allele (x-axis/top) and one paternal allele (y-axis/side); these alleles exist in both the common galra [G/g] and druidic [D/d] forms, manifesting as either dominant (uppercase) or recessive (lowercase). This leaves us with 55 unique parental combinations—each with four potential outcomes, producing one of the aforementioned genotypes—wherein, importantly, dominant alleles always take precedence over recessive alleles, after which [G] takes precedence over [D] due to druidic traits being recessive in their own right: essentially meaning that it is not possible to produce a [DG/dg] child, only ever [GD/gd].
Of the 400 potential children here represented, only 150 (37.5%) are druidic galra (marked in dark purple), with 133 of this number having been born of at least one druidic parent. The remaining 250 non-druidic galra can be further divided into latent-druidic—those 150 (37.5%) children with recessive druidic alleles who therefore have the potential to produce a druidic child despite not being druids themselves—and the 100 (25%) children without.
Galra/Galra parentage = 100% Galra kits || 0% Latent kits || 0% Druidic kits Galra/Latent parentage = 41.7% Galra kits || 50% Latent kits || 8.3% Druidic kits Galra/Druidic parentage = 12.5% Galra kits || 62.5% Latent kits || 25% Druidic kits Latent/Latent parentage = 25% Galra kits || 44.4% Latent kits || 30.6% Druidic kits Latent/Druidic parentage = 6.2% Galra kits || 39.6% Latent kits || 54.2% Druidic kits Druidic/Druidic parentage = 1.6% Galra kits || 9.4% Latent kits || 89% Druidic kits
Though the above might give the impression that the majority of the galra populace possess at least one druidic allele, this is not the case. My punnett squares only depict all possible parental combinations, not the statistical likelihood of them occurring as owed to the frequency distribution of genotypes; in truth, the overwhelming majority of galra have no druidic alleles at all (recessive or otherwise) with a whopping 98.65% of them being either [GG/Gg/gg]. The remaining minority of 1.35% comprises all 7 of the outstanding genotypes that contain druidic alleles—only some of which are dominant, and therefore actually druids.
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[[ Punnett squares depicting all ten potential galra genotypes—druidic & otherwise—via the 100 parental combinations that might produce them, overlain with two colours: red, to indicate the pregnancy poses increased risk to the mother, and yellow, to indicate the pregnancy poses increased risk of miscarriage. The highlighted 3x3 box (top left corner) indicates those who are without a single druidic allele, as is the case for 98.65% of the galra population. ]]
If the above looks unnecessarily complex and much like it took days to construct,,, that's because it is, and it did. This being said, I am one stubborn bitch, and so I present to you my genotype punnet squares as cross-referenced with whether or not the pregnancy poses a notable risk to the mother (marked in pink for non-druidic foetuses, and red for druidic ones), or comes with an increased risk of miscarriage (marked in yellow for non-druidic foetuses, and mustard-brown for druidic ones). A risk of miscarriage is a direct result of the maternal genotype—as represented above each square—possessing more dominant alleles than the foetus, in which case the womb is likely to reject the pregnancy (and so the probability of miscarrying stands at a rather shockingly high 2:3), while a risk to the mother is caused by the foetal genotype possessing more dominant alleles than its host, in which case it might attempt to consume its mother from the inside, leading to severe hemorrhaging and the death of both parties (with a less frequent, but still alarming mortality rate of 1:3).
But onto the specifics.
For this next part, we're only going to be looking at the parental combinations in which at least one of the parents has a minimum of one [D/d] allele—in other words, everything outside of that highlighted 3x3 box in the top left—as we want to know the contained probability of a child being a druid, if there is a possibility of such (which, of course, there simply isn't for a couple without a single druidic allele between them).
Total number of potentially druidic children = ((total number of parental combinations) - combinations in which neither parent possesses a single druidic allele) x number of potential children per parental combination = (( 10 x 10 ) - 9 ) x 4 = 364
To simulate the mortality ratios (pink/red & yellow/brown), I assigned each colour a value correlating to the number of pregnancies likely to be a success out of a maximum 3: lilac/purple squares are worth the full amount, pink/red are worth 2, and yellow/brown a measly 1. The above total of 364 was also multiplied by three to compensate for this change, meaning that the following represents the contained probability of [insert genotype group] kits:
Galra [GG/Gg/gg] kits = (((#of healthy pregnancies x 3)+ (#of maternal risk pregnancies x 2) + (#of miscarriage risk pregnancies x 1)) ÷ Total ) x 100 = (((32x3) + (16x2) + (16x1)) ÷ 364 x 3 ) x 100 = ((96+32+16) ÷ 1092) x 100 = (144 ÷ 1092) x 100 = 13.2% Latent-Druidic [GD/Gd/gd] kits = (((#of healthy pregnancies x 3)+ (#of maternal risk pregnancies x 2) + (#of miscarriage risk pregnancies x 1)) ÷ Total ) x 100 = (((80x3) + (35x2) + (35x1)) ÷ 364 x 3 ) x 100 = ((240+70+35) ÷ 1092) x 100 = (345 ÷ 1092) x 100 = 31.6% Druidic [Dg/dd/Dd/DD] kits = (((#of healthy pregnancies x 3)+ (#of maternal risk pregnancies x 2) + (#of miscarriage risk pregnancies x 1)) ÷ Total ) x 100 = (((70x3) + (40x2) + (40x1)) ÷ 364 x 3 ) x 100 = ((210+80+40) ÷ 1092) x 100 = (330 ÷ 1092) x 100 = 30.2% Non-viable pregnancies = 25%
Of that 75% of pregnancies, wherein the foetus is successfully carried to term and safely delivered, the percentages stand at:
Galra [GG/Gg/gg] kits = ((32 + 16 + 16) ÷ 364) x 100 = (64 ÷ 364) x 100 = 17.6% Latent-Druidic [GD/Gd/gd] kits = ((80 + 35 + 35) ÷ 364) x 100 = (150 ÷ 364) x 100 = 41.2% Druidic [Dg/dd/Dd/DD] kits = ((70 + 40 + 40) ÷ 364) x 100 = (150 ÷ 364) x 100 = 41.2% Which creates a G:L:D ratio of 88:206:206 or, simplified, 44:103:103.
So, if you are (by some miracle) still with me, all that's left to do is take into account the aforementioned frequency distribution of genotypes. This means that the above percentages are, themselves, percentages of that 1.35% of the total population that I mentioned earlier, so by multiplying these two values together we can find the total population percentage for each demographic (Galra/Latent/Druidic).
Galra [GG/Gg/gg] = (percentage of Galra genotype born of Druidic or Latent-Druidic parentage x 1.35%) + percentage of Galra genotype born of Galra parentage = (17.6% x 1.35%) + 98.65 = 98.652376% Latent-Druidic [GD/Gd/gd] = percentage of Latent-Druidic genotype born of Druidic or Latent-Druidic parentage x 1.35% = 41.2% x 1.35% = 0.005562% Druidic [Dg/dd/Dd/DD] = percentage of Druidic genotype born of Druidic or Latent-Druidic parentage x 1.35% = 41.2% x 1.35% = 0.005562%
So, for argument's sake, in a sample size of 100billion (which is my very conservative estimate for the total galra population) this would look like:
Galra [GG/Gg/gg] = 100,000,000,000 x 98.2376% = 98billion, 237million, 600thousand people without a single druidic allele Latent-Druidic [GD/Gd/gd] = 100,000,000,000 x 0.005562% = 5million, 562thousand people with the potential to have a druidic child, but no druidic abilities themselves Druidic [Dg/dd/Dd/DD] = 100,000,000,000 x 0.005562% = 5million, 562thousand people who are, themselves, druids
As a final note, you might be interested to know the mortality rates per genotypal grouping (ie. how likely the pregnancy is to succeed depending on the foetus' genotype) because this does differ ever-so-slightly.
Galra kits [GG/Gg/gg] = (successful pregnancies ÷ total potential pregnancies) x 100 = (144 ÷ 192) x 100 = 75% success rate Latent-Druidic kits [GD/Gd/gd] = (successful pregnancies ÷ total potential pregnancies) x 100 = (345 ÷ 450) x 100 = 77% success rate Druidic kits [Dg/dd/Dd/DD] = (successful pregnancies ÷ total potential pregnancies) x 100 = (330 ÷ 450) x 100 = 73% success rate
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floral-hex · 1 year
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I’m fucking disabled
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hurryupmerlin · 8 months
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"Hey Chicken, how's the house buying going?" you ask, friendly.
I immediately throw up on your shoes and collaps into a sobbing heap.
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