#now go stream ttpd

[in-burning-red]

As someone who will defend reputation till her dying breath, I really hope reputation (taylor’s version) will not see the light of day for a very long time. Taylor has just released 31 new songs that can be considered as some of the best work of her career so far. Can we please take some time to really enjoy, live and celebrate the moment for once?

[taylorswiftalbummaker]

I kinda feel bad for the people that bought all the ttpd vinyls

they bought all those vinyls to listen to the songs, only for the songs to be on streaming the day the album comes out

[everytaylorswiftsongisaboutcats]

Surprise Song o’ Clock: Toronto Night 2

— Guitar:

I don’t wanna live forever x Mine

“I don’t wanna live forever, cause I remember, sitting there by the water.”

“All night, all night and every day, I've been looking sad in all the nicest places, Give me something, but you say nothing, Now I'm in a cab, I tell 'em where your place is — cause I remember that fight 2:30 a.m. as everthing was slipping right out of our hands I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street — what is happening to me?”

“I don’t wanna live forever, but I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.”

— Piano:

evermore x Peter

“Forgive me, Peter, but this pain wouldn’t be forevermore… and when I was shipwrecked I thought of you, in the cracks of light I dreamed of you, and it was real enough to get me through, but I swear… Peter, I tried, and I swear… when I sit by the window and turn out the light… you were there.”

[sadgirlautumn]

I wish I could temporarily take the word “reputation” out of swifties mouths 😩

[ilovesnat]

Yelena, tired of hearing your stories about Nat: What now?

You: ...

Yelena: I know you have something to tell, go on.

You: SHE'S A SWIFTIE!!! SHE LIKES TAYLOR SWIFT!! SHE STREAMS HER NEW ALBUM!! SHE'S THE BEST SWIFTIE I'LL EVER KNOW!!

Yelena: *shaking his head*

Yelena, raising her eyebrows: I listen to Taylor Swift, too, but you don't talk about me like my sister?

You: Hmm, no. She's different.

Nat, behind you: I bought two tickets for the eras tour do you want to go with me?

You: *It's happening oh my god, what do I say?*

Yelena: She wants it, she's been talking about you the whole day.

You: Yelena!

WYD HERE?? GO STREAM TTPD BESTIE!!

[that-bitch-kat3]

so i feel like i missed that Peter from ttpd is regulus to sirius. i was so caught up in the “peter” of it all that i totally missed it but-

“forgive me peter my lost fearless leader, In closets like cedar preserved from when we were just kids. is it something I did?” get it? cause he’s reflecting on being kids with sirius after he left?

“And I didn't want to come down. I thought it was just goodbye for now. You said you were gonna grow up then you were gonna come find me.” get it cause he always thought he would come back?

“Are you still a mind reader? A natural scene stealer I've heard great things Peter but life was always easier on you than it was on me” get it? cause now he’s watching sirius’s life from the wings and it looks like he had a way out the regulus never got

“And sometimes it gets me when crossing your jet stream we both did the best we could do underneath the same moon in different galaxies” get it? cause they were both just trying to survive and regulus knows that his brother was just doing his best in the same shitty situation.

“And I didn't want to hang around we said it was just goodbye for now.” get it? cause sirius left? and neither of them really thought it was the end. but then it was. hahaha

“Said you were gonna grow up then you were gonna come find me. Words from the mouths of babes promises, oceans deep but never to keep.” get it? because regulus thought that sirius would be back as soon as he could. and how sirius thought he lost his brother but he was waiting for him?

“And I won't confess that I waited but I let the lamp burn, as the men masqueraded I hoped you'd return with your feet on the ground tell me all that you'd learned cause love's never lost when perspective is earned. And you said you'd come and get me but you were 25 [16]and the shelf life of those fantasies has expired lost to the lost boys chapter of your life forgive me Peter, please know that I tried, to hold onto the days when you were mine. But the woman who sits by the window has turned out the light.” i���m going to be sick.

im going insane

[muddyorbsblr]

this magnetic force of a man

'one look and they'll know' collection masterlist See my full list of works here!

Placement: married era; a few months after 'come on, england'

Summary: A watch party livestream on TikTok catches sight of you and Tom in the VIP tent of the final night of the Eras Tour in London

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston x Reader

Word Count: 2.2k

Warning/s: language; potentially inaccurate depictions of what goes on backstage in a concert; changed lyrics for Lover [let me know if I missed anything!]

Things to be aware of: new & experiment story format in the first part of the chapter; fictional streamer "original character" heavily featured in first part of the chapter

TikTok Livestream of getawayscholar: Eras Tour Wembley N8 Watch Party!

The stream on screen zooms in to the VIP Tent.

"Hold on! Hold the fuck on is that…holy shit we have ex alert in attendance! Friends and others, Tom Hiddleston just walked in to the VIP tent with Y/N H--I didn't even know they were still together damn good for them." getawayscholar applauds on her stream; the chat floods with clapping hands emojis and various hearts.

The stream on screen shows Travis approaching you and Tom, shaking Tom's hand and making you jump for a high five with a jovial smile on his face. The three are talking while they walk to where Travis is seated.

"And they're seated with Travis, holy shit the world is healing."

Paramore's opener set begins. The stream on screen refocuses to the stage for the next 5 songs.

getawayscholar's stream chat floods with messages: "change source stream!" "check VIP tent!" "some shit's going down on VIP go go go!"

New Instagram Live streaming on getawayscholar's big screen shows you and Tom in your own little bubble, dancing with each other to "The Only Exception". You're singing the words to him.

"'Didn't I read somewhere that these two got married?' I don't know about this one yet, guys but if they did ohh my god good for them! Look at these two they look like the definition of in love and unbothered--Hold up what's going on why's Jan in the VIP tent?"

The stream on screen shows Jan talking to Travis and you, looking panicked, making a gesture for you two to follow him to the stage. Tom holds on to your hand as you're leaving. You mouth many words. Visibly "It's okay" and "I love you" before giving him a kiss and running out of the tent with Travis.

"What's going on, y'all? Are we getting Travis on stage again? Maybe for the Lover era this time?!" getawayscholar squeals on her stream, visibly kicking her feet for a few seconds before abruptly stopping. "But hold on, why do they need Y/N H., though?"

The chat pops up with one new message: 'Not sure how accurate it is but I read somewhere that Y/N H. did some work for the TTPD Era stage design? Maybe it's something about the glitch?'

The stream on screen refocuses back to Paramore on the stage for the rest of the opener set. The countdown clock appears on screen. When the clock strikes 00:00, the dancers come out on stage. The show proceeds as scheduled until the end of You Need to Calm Down. Taylor approaches the mic with her guitar and begins her opening remarks.

"What a bittersweet honor it is that I get to say these words for the last time where in Wembley Stadium. London, welcome to the Eras Tour!" The crowd applauds and cheers. getawayscholar applauds from her seat at home. "The last time we were here a few months ago we made some absolutely insane memories on this stage, in this stadium…" The stage screen flashes to Travis walking out in a suit and top hat on Night 3, leading to more cheers. "And I can't wait to make some more with you tonight."

getawayscholar sits up straight, looking excited and panicked. "What does that mean, Taylor?!" she shouts on her stream.

Taylor starts playing Lover, with a longer musical interlude after the first chorus. She starts speaking again while playing the interlude chords.

"Now you all know how sometimes I like to bring out a few special guests up here on stage." The crowd screams and claps. "Well tonight I'd like to bring someone out that has been an absolute delight to have known for the better part of a decade. She's one of the most brilliant minds I'll ever meet in my lifetime, and the only person I know who sleeps about as much as I do. Which according to you all is…next to never." 

"Ohh my god what is happening--" the Instagram Live streamer starts shouting.

"She has made her mark on so much of this tour, from our stage design, the Tortured Poets dress, the reputation bodysuit, the graphics on the screen that are nothing short of breathtaking and sometimes terrifying. I mean, you all said it, not me." The crowd erupts in laughter. "So I'd like you all to help me welcome on to the stage…stage designer, costume designer, graphic designer, fellow mastermind, and a dear personal friend of mine…Y/N Hiddleston."

The crowd from the stream gasps. getawayscholar gasps and squeals in her seat, gripping her chair armrests tight as a platform opens to reveal you rising up to the stage in a navy bodysuit short dress with gold lace detailing, mic in hand. You look to the VIP tent, blowing a kiss to your husband before you start singing.

"We could let our friends crash in the living room This is our place, we've made those calls"

"Did they switch up the lyrics?!" getawayscholar squeals, starting to bounce in her chair.

"And I don't give a damn if everyone who sees you wants you I've loved you eight summers now, honey And I want 'em all"

The stream on screen zooms in to the VIP tent, Tom has made his way to the front, tears in his eyes as he watches you on stage.

"And I'll go where you go We swore to always be this close Forever and ever and oh Take me out, take me home You're my my my lover"

Another extended interlude as you walk over to Taylor and you give each other an embrace, looking like excited childhood friends as you sway side to side before parting ways and walking to opposite sides of the end of the stage. You stop at the edge, facing the VIP tent.

Taylor sings to the crowd, "Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand? With every guitar string scar on my hand"

You point towards the VIP tent, right at Tom, before joining Taylor and singing, "I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover" . You both sing the next few lines of the bridge until Taylor stops to give the final line over to you, revealing that this line was also rewritten for the show.

"And at every table…you've saved me a seat. Lover."

The stream on screen changes sources to someone streaming from a much closer angle, the camera zooming in to the detailing on your costume.

"Holy shit this woman is something else. It's the quiet unhinged energy for me and in this household we love Y/N Hiddleston," getawayscholar tells her stream, grabbing a screenshot of the intricate gold lace detailing on your dress, revealing that some portions were made of embroidered lettering that spelled out "I ♥︎ TH".

"Lover" ends and you and Taylor walk towards the center of the end platform, joining hands and raising them in the air before taking a bow.

The stream on screen pans the camera over to the VIP tent, zooming in on Tom applauding with a brilliant smile on his face before pointing at the stage and shouting, "That's my wife!"

Taylor addresses the crowd again. "Now…seeing that this is our last night here in Wembley Stadium, I figured a few more surprises sprinkled in wouldn't hurt." She motions toward you with both arms before the piano for the acoustic section emerges from under the stage and she sits in front of it, both of you nodding at each other before she started playing. The crowd erupts into cheers again as you started singing.

"Combat…I'm ready for combat…"

Overwhelming.

That was the only word you could think of to describe this moment right here, standing on stage with Taylor in the dress you'd worked on for weeks and fully knowing that by now, multiple posts had been made on the details you worked into the lace. Probably even some news articles from various sites, both reputable and otherwise.

You both joined hands, raising them up in the air before you took a bow again, doing a little hair flip when you came back up. The platform then began to descend and Taylor pulled you into an embrace.

"I'm so happy I actually got to share a stage with you," she said excitedly, giving you a squeeze before being whisked off to change into her Fearless era dress. "Drinks after the show?" she called out while she shimmied out of her bodysuit.

"Count on it, Babes," you answered her, shimmying out of your own dress that one of her dancers helped you out of. Once you were back in your regular dress and shrugged your jacket on, you found the crew applauding you and cheering you on. Taylor included.

"You did great, Tater Tot," Travis spoke up. "Now come on I gotta get you back to VIP before your husband gets hounded."

You gave them all a little salute before running out of the prep area, giving the towering hulk of an athlete a pointed look. "For the record, only you and Taylor can call me that and live to tell the tale."

"I know I know," he answered, chuckling as he opened the curtain leading to the VIP tent. Once the thick fabric was put aside, the attendees in the VIP tent greeted you with a relatively quieter round of cheers and applause. They all mostly stepped aside as you made your way through them, revealing your husband at the front of the rows. "There you go, dude. Back in one piece."

Tom met you halfway, pulling you into his arms and lifting you into the air once you got close enough. "That was incredible," he told you, his tone full of wonder. You could feel his heart racing through his shirt. "You are incredible, goddess."

He placed you back on your feet, keeping you in his arms as he rested his forehead on yours. It was only at this moment that you realized he'd walked you into a corner of the section, far enough away from the fleetingly curious onlookers whose collective focus was once again on Taylor and the opening notes of Love Story.

"You have no idea how damn lucky I feel every day that I get to call you my wife," he said softly, just enough for you to hear before he started kissing along the side of your face.

"Really? It wasn't too much?" The magnitude of the gesture was finally really sinking in, your mind going so many places on what you just signed yourself up for. Placing yourself in the crosshairs of the same vitriolic people that were once chomping at the bit nearly a decade ago after knowing relative peace for so long. "I know big gestures aren't really our thing but--"

"It was perfect," he cut you off, pressing a kiss to your lips that had you melting in his arms. "You're perfect. I love you so much."

"I love you, too," you said breathlessly once he broke the kiss. He held your hand and led you back to the front of the tent, positioning himself behind you and letting you relax against him as he held you in his arms for the remainder of the show.

"There's no more surprises for the rest of the night, though, I hope?" he asked, pressing a kiss to the top of your head before holding you a touch tighter. "Because I'm not too open to the idea of letting you out of my arms unless it's to drive us home."

"No more surprises," you reassured him, placing your hand over his. "But I did promise Taylor I'm meeting her for drinks after the show…"

For the most part you kept to your word, there really were no other surprises you had planned for the night, and save for your husband going to grab a snack for the two of you from the catering table, he really didn't let you out of his sight for the following sets. It was only when Taylor stepped out for the acoustic set that you were both slightly taken aback when she chose to address you again.

"Well then…welcome to the acoustic section, everybody." You and the entire crowd began to clap and cheer loudly. "Trying to decide what would be good to do for tonight since it's our last night together and all…But first let's get some choices off the board." Then she faced the VIP tent. "Y/N, Babes…how much trouble would you be in if I play Getaway Car?"

The entire tent burst into laughter as you scrambled to keep a poker face, already anticipating that she'd pull that joke when she mentioned it in your texts the night before. You began to mouth a message back to her. "Taylor no…my husband is right here have mercy on my damn legs."

You broke out into a smile toward the end when she had to shut her eyes and compose herself because her shoulders started shaking from her laughs. "I mean I kind of thought so but it was worth a shot." Then she shrugged and started strumming some chords; the crowd erupted into cheers again when she began to sing.

"The moon is high like your friends were the night that we first met…"

A/N: All cards on the table, I've had this chapter planned for so long but seeing all the happy lil insanities that happened this weekend in Wembley made me decide to put some time aside today and start on this chapter earlier today. I did not, however, expect to be finishing the chapter today as well 😂 And also I figured since I already had the reveal out that the OLTK blorbos are married, I can go ahead and shift some plans around and make some "married era" chapters when the mood strikes and ohh boi howdy did the mood strike today 🫠

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[loanecore]

swiftie!reader… with rafe cameron!

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

swiftie!reader… forced rafe to learn the lyrics of all of her fav songs.

swiftie!reader… fav albums are folklore, evermore, midnight, ttpd and reputation. (did i choose them because they are my fav? yes.)

swiftie!reader… is a vinyl and a cd type of girl, she just wants them all.

swiftie!reader… biggest loss was the reputation stadium tour. the loml literally.

swiftie!reader… explain for hours the whole lore with “taylor’s version”, etc, etc to rafe and now he hates the stolen version as much as her. justice for taytay!

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✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

swiftie!reader… act like she hates it when rafe uses the WORST pick up lines based on taylor like “are you reputation? because you’re my end game”, “are you a taylor swift song? because you are perfect” and more! but she secretly loves it and it makes her fall in love even more each time.

swiftie!reader… wasn’t having a good day so rafe made a cd for her titled: “songs that reminds me of you<3 taylor’s version”. he’s the biggest golden retriever.

swiftie!reader… was so sad when she didn’t get the new lover from paris vinyl so rafe surprised her with them like it wasn’t something crazy, she cried for 1 hour straight.

swiftie!reader… have definitely all of the vinyls variants imaginable now that she’s with rafe. orange reputation vinyl? ofc! lover from paris vinyl version 1 and 2? definitely! all of the folklore variants? it’s her favorite album ofc she have them all!

swiftie!reader… loves taking pictures with rafe, so all of time when he post them on his insta story you can be sure it’s with a taylor swift song.

swiftie!reader… is not jealous or anything but when they got together, rafe unfollowed all of the girls he was following and he started following taylor swift. only his wifey and taylor.

swiftie!reader… didn’t think she would be able to go to the era’s tour because she didn’t get tickets but… rafe paid a lot. he never told her how much to take her to 13 shows. 13 SHOWS?! WITH A VIP PACK TO BE FRONT ROW ALMOST ALL OF THE TIME! and because she’s a very lucky girl she got almost all of her favorite songs during the surprise songs!! i also like to think that he tried to take different spots for each tickets so she could see different angles and enjoy 100% the experience🥹

(exemple: getaway car x out of the woods, guilty as sin?, yoyok x long live, king of my heart, the great war x you’re losing me, this is what you came for x gold rush, THE ARCHER X QUESTION…?, hits differents x death by a thousand cuts, EXILE! etc…)

this is a personal touch because they are my fav songs and i never heard one of them live except during glitchy live stream at 3am😔 ALSO THIS WAS DEFINITELY ONE OF MY FAV THINGS TO WRITE SO I’M PROBABLY GOING TO DO “…!reader” WITH ALL OF TAYLOR’S ALBUMS!!! I’M SO EXCITED!🫶🏻

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➜ 𐙚masterlist • my social𖦹°‧

[midnightjewel]

Taylor Swift Songs For Your Relationship With The BNHA Guys <3

Simple description like the title says! Specific lyrics included with the songs! I think I picked really good ones for my two favorite princesses <3

(Includes angsty songs as well)

Hope you enjoy <3 Part 1 Part 2

Characters Included: Hawks and Dabi

Hawks

Gorgeous (Reputation)

- You should take it as a compliment that I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk

- You’re so cool it makes me hate you so much

- You’re so gorgeous, I can’t say anything to your face. Cause look at your face!

- You should think about the consequence of you touching my hand in a darkened room

- You’re so gorgeous it actually hurts

Daylight (Lover)

- I don’t wanna look at anything else now that I saw you (I can never look away)

- I once believed love would be black and white, but it’s golden

- And I can still see it all in my head, back and forth from New York sneaking in your bed

Guilty as Sin? (TTPD)

- Drowning in the blue Nile, he sent me downtown lights

- I’m seeing visions am I bad or mad or wise? What if he’s written ‘mine’ on my upper thigh only in my mind?

- These fatal fantasies giving way to labored breath taking all of me, we’ve already done it in my head

- My bedsheets are ablaze, I’ve screamed his name building up like waves crashing over my grave without ever touching his skin

- I choose you and me, religiously

Fearless (Fearless TV)

- We’re driving down the road, I wonder if you know I’m trying so hard not to get caught up now

- But you’re just so cool, run your hands through your hair absentmindedly making me want you

- Well you stood there with me in the doorway, my hands shake I’m not usually this way but, you pull me in and I’m a little more brave, it’s a first kiss it’s flawless

I Know Places (1989 TV)

- You stand with your hand on my waistline, it’s a scene and we’re out here in plain sight, I can hear them whisper as we pass by, it’s a bad sign

- Baby, I know places we won’t be found and they’ll be chasing their tails trying to track us down

- Just grab my hand and don’t ever drop it, my love

- They take their shots but we’re bulletproof, and you know for me it’s always you

“Slut!” (1989 TV)

- Flamingo Pink, Sunrise Boulevard, Being this young is art, Aquamarine moonlit swimming pool

- But if I’m all dressed up, they might as well be looking at us, and if they call me a slut, it might be worth it for once

- The sticks and stones they throw froze midair, everyone wants him that was my crime, the wrong place at the right time and I break down then he’s pulling me in, in a world of boys he’s a gentleman

- Half asleep taking your time in the tangerine, Neon lights this is luxury, you’re not saying you’re in love with me but you’re going to

- Half awake taking your chance it’s a big mistake I said it might blow up in your pretty face, I’m not saying do it anyway, but you’re going to (Ughh those lyrics iykyk ;) )

Angst:

The Moment I Knew (Red TV)

- You should’ve been there, should’ve burst through the door with that “baby I’m right here” smile

- You said you’d be here, and it was like slow motion standing there in my party dress in red lipstick, with no one to impress

- And there in the bathroom I try not to fall apart but the sinking feeling starts as I say hopelessly “he said he’d be here”

- What do you say when tears are streaming down your face in front of everyone you know? And what do you do when the one who means the most to you is the one who didn’t show?

- And they’re all standing around me singing “Happy Birthday To You” but there was one thing missing and that was the moment I knew

- You called me later and said “I’m sorry I couldn’t make it” and I said “I’m sorry too”

You’re Not Sorry (Fearless TV)

- You don’t have to call anymore I won’t pick up the phone this is the last straw, don’t wanna hurt anymore

- And you can tell me that you’re sorry but I don’t believe you baby like I did before, you’re not sorry

- Could’ve loved you all my life if you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold, and you’ve got your share of secrets and I’m tired of being last to know and now you’re asking me to listen cause it’s worked each time before

Mr. Perfectly Fine (Fearless TV)

- Mr. Perfect face, Mr. Here to stay, Mr. Look me in the eyes and tell me you would never go away

- Hello Mr. Perfectly fine, how’s your heart after breaking mine?

- He goes about his day, forgets he ever even heard my name

- So dignified of your well pressed suit, so strategized all the eyes on you, sashay your way to your seat, it’s the best seat, in the best room

- Oh he’s so smug Mr. Always Wins, So far above me in every sense, so far above feeling anything

Now That We Don’t Talk (1989 TV)

- Remind myself the more I gave you’d want me less, I cannot be your friend so I pay the price of what I lost and what it cost, now that we don’t talk

- I don’t have to pretend I like acid rock or that I’d like to be on a mega yacht with important men who think important thoughts, guess maybe I am better off..

Hits Different (Midnights)

- You made a mess of me, I pictured you with other girls in love and threw up on the street

- And I never don’t cry, at the bar. Yeah my sadness is contagious. I slur your name till someone puts me in a car

- I find the artifacts, cried over a hat, cursed the space that I needed, I traced the evidence make it make some sense why the wound is still bleeding

- You are the one that I love, don’t need another metaphor it’s simple enough, a wrinkle in time with the crease by your eye, this is why they shouldn’t kill off the main guy

Peter (TTPD)

- I thought it was just goodbye for now, you said you were gonna grow up then you were gonna come find me

- Are you still a mind reader? A natural scene stealer? But life was always easier on you, than it was on me.

- And I won’t confess that I waited but I let the lamp burn as the men masqueraded I hoped you’d return with your feet on the ground tell me all that you’ve learned

- Cause love’s never lost when perspective is earned, and you said you’d come and get me but you were 25 and the shelf life of those fantasies has expired

- Please know that I tried to hold on to the days when you were mine, but the woman who sits by the window has turned out the light

(This song is so sad when you think about it being angsty for your relationship with Keigo)

Dabi

Don’t Blame Me (Reputation)

- Don’t blame me, love made me crazy if it doesn’t you ain’t doin’ it right

- For you I would cross the line, I would waste my time, I would lose my mind

- My name is whatever you decide and I’m just gonna call you mine, I’m insane but I’m your baby

- I get so high every time you’re loving me, Trip of my life every time you’re touching me

Getaway Car (Reputation)

- It was the best of times, the worst of crimes, I struck a match and blew your mind

- The ties were black, the lies were white, in shades of grey in candle light I wanted to leave him, I needed a reason

- You we’re driving the getaway car, we were flying but we never get far

- The great escape, the prison break, the light of freedom on my face, but you weren’t thinking and I was just drinking, while he was running after us I was screaming “Go!Go!Go!”

- We we’re jet set, Bonnie and Clyde, until I switched to the other side, it’s no surprise I’ve turned you in, cause us traitors never win

- I’m in a getaway car, I left you in the motel bar, put the money in a bag and I stole the keys, that was the last time you ever saw me, driving the getaway car

- I was riding in a getaway car, I was crying in a getaway car, I was dying in a getaway car, Said goodbye in a getaway car

This Love (1989 TV)

- This Love is good, this love is bad, this love is alive back from the dead

- In losing grips on sinking ships you showed up just in time

- Your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave, your smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees, when you’re young you just run, but you come back to what you need

Dress (Reputation)

- Made your mark on me, a golden tattoo

- Only bought this dress so you could take it off, Carve your name into my bedpost

- Inescapable, I’m not even gonna try, and if I get burned at least we were electrified. I’m spilling wine in the bathtub, you kiss my face and we’re both drunk

- Say my name and everything just stops

- Even in my worst lies you saw the truth in me, and I woke up just in time, now I wake up by your side, my one and only, my lifeline

But Daddy I Love Him (TTPD)

- They slammed the door on my whole world, the one thing I wanted, now I’m running with my dress unbuttoned, screaming “but daddy I love him!” Im having his baby, no I’m not but you should see your faces

- I’m telling him to floor it through the fences, no I’m not coming to my senses, I know he’s crazy but he’s the one I want

- I tell you something right now, I’d rather burn my whole life down than listen to one more second of all this bitching and moaning

I Can See You (Speak Now TV)

- Cause I can see you waiting down the hall for me, and I can see you up against the wall with me

- They keep watchful eyes on us, so it’s best that we move fast and keep quiet, you won’t believe half the things I see inside my head

- I can see you, throw your jacket on the floor, I can see you, baby want you even more

- And I could see you being my addition, you could see me as a secret mission

Angst:

Better Man (Red TV)

- I wish it wasn’t 4am standing in the mirror saying to myself “you know you had to do it” I know, the bravest thing I ever did was run

- I just miss you and I just wish you were a better man

- And it was always on your terms, I waited in every careless word

- But your jealousy, I can hear is now talking down to me, like I’d always be around, push my love away like it was some kind of loaded gun, you never thought I’d run

I Can Fix Him (no really I can) (TTPD)

- The smoke cloud billows out his mouth like a freight train through a small town

- They shook their heads saying “god help her” when I tell them he’s my man, but your good lord doesn’t need to lift a finger I can fix him no really I can, and only I can

- The dopamine races through his brain on a six lane Texas highway, his hand so calloused from his pistol softly traces hearts on my face

- Good Boy, that’s right, Come close, I’ll show you heaven if you’ll be an Angel all night. Trust me I can handle me a dangerous man, no really I can!

- I can fix him, no really I can…. Woah maybe I can’t….

(This is THE Dabi x reader song no one can change my mind)

Say Don’t Go (1989 TV)

- I’ve known it from the very start, we’re a shit in the darkest dark

- Why’d you have to lead me on? Why’d you have to twist the knife? Walk away and leave me bleeding

- Now I’m pacing on shaky ground, strike a match then you blow it out, it’s not fair! Cause you kiss me and it stops time and I’m yours but you’re not mine

- Why’d you have to make me want you? Why’d you have to give me nothing back? Why’d you have to make me love you? I said “I love you!” You say nothing back…

The Black Dog (TTPD)

- So I watch as you walk into some bar called the black dog

- Old habits die screaming

- I just don’t understand how you don’t miss me in the shower when my rain soaked body was shaking. Do you hate me? Was it hazing?

- Six weeks of breathing clean air I still miss the smoke, were you making fun of me with some esoteric joke? Now I wanna sell my hose and set fire to all my clothes

- Even if I die screaming, and I hope you hear it. And I hope it’s shitty in the black dog

Tolerate It (Evermore)

- I sit and watch you reading with your head low

- You’re so much older and wiser and I, wait by the door like I’m just a kid, use my best colors for your portrait, lay the table with the fancy shit and watch you tolerate it

- I made you my temple, my mural, my sky. Now I’m begging for footnotes in the story of your life. Drawing hearts in the byline, always taking up too much space or time

- What would you do if I break free and leave us in ruins, took this dagger in me and removed it, gain the weight of you then lose it, believe me I could do it

The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived (TTPD)

- Was any of it true

- You tried to buy some pills, from a friend of friends of mine, they just ghosted you, and now you know what it feels like

- Were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? Did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed?

- In 50 years will all this be declassified, and you’ll confess why you did it. And I’ll say “good riddance!” Cause it wasn’t sexy once, it wasn’t forbidden

- I would’ve died for your sins, instead I just died inside, and you deserve prison but you won’t get time

- And in plain sight you hid, but you are what you did, and I’ll forget you but I’ll never forgive the smallest man who ever lived

[bigbadbatch]

The Tortured Padawan Department

I am starting a mini-one shot series where I mix Taylor Swift's TTPD with my favorite Star Wars Boys. Each one shot has an essential listening song (be on the look out for quotes and themes!) Rex and Hunter are heavy focused for first two, with a surprise guest in the third fic!

First up: Guilty as Sin?

Word Count: 1.5k

A Captain Rex x Fem!reader fic

Attachment is forbidden for a Jedi, but what if it's a sin worth committing ?

You woke up drenched in sweat, panting. The temple was quiet, and your small bedroom deafeningly silent. Your heart pounded, and you worried it could be heard through the thin walls around you. That dream. Again. This was the seventh occasion you had such a dream. It always started decent enough. Then it became anything but decent. Your skin prickled remembering- the smell of him in the dream, the feel of his rough hands on your arms, your back, your…

 “Rex.” You cursed under your breath. You needed to walk this off. Getting quickly dressed, you stepped out into the empty hall of the Jedi Temple. It was his fault, really. All the flirtations on the field, the way he always dared to joke with you. His smile, his laugh. You shook your head and left the temple, walking towards the bright city lights, and the bars you knew awaited. This is what you always did after one of those dreams. Go for a drink, a fling, anything to help you clear your head, get your fix. Sex wasn’t forbidden for a Jedi, if anything it could be encouraged to blow off steam after a battle. But attachment. There was the trick of it. Attachment was strictly against the code. To get attached, to love, was to eventually lose. Grief, jealousy, fear- these all lead to the Dark Side. Still, it came so naturally. Especially with him. Rex had taken you under his wing when you were transferred to the 501st. You had been hesitant, still hurting from the loss of your Master and the 271st, all lost in the Battle of Rankill, you the sole survivior.

Those were the first recurring dreams you had, nightmares of reliving the loss over and over. Your Master running, trying desperately to save his men, you, and the man he loved. It was no secret that Commander Dax and your Master were involved. If anything it was part of the reason you felt so strongly about attachment. Your Master’s love is what got him killed, and neither he, his lover, nor his men were left to show for it. Only you, a new stray picked up by Master Kenobi, were left standing to carry your Master’s legacy.

What would he think of me? You ponder as you enter the bar, neon lights, music and chatter streaming from the open door. You had barely taken a seat when you heard your name being called. An all too familiar form strode to you, smiling.

“Fancy seeing you here. Isn’t it past your bedtime?” Rex saddled up next to you, as if that seat was meant for him. The grinning, handsome clone put his arm around you, jostling your shoulder, friendly.

“Aren’t you typically at 79’s?” You ask incredulously. How could he be here, of all places? Of all people, him, here, now?

“Wanted a change of scenery, and I must admit I like the view.” He growls, and you scowled and shoved his arm off of you.

“Well, I wanted a drink. Buy me one?” You said, smirking. 

He somehow smiled even wider than before. “Sure thing cyare, be right back.” 

Shit, shit, shit. Your skin was so warm where he had touched you, and his casual flirting set your heart fluttering. You knew you should leave, before he gets back. You’re too pent up, too enamored by him to deal with this rationally. A broad body slid back in next to you.

“You looked like you could use something a bit strong. You alright tonight, mesh’la?”

You knew what the Mandalorian words meant, and knew he meant them in good fun. He must. In one stroke you downed the whole drink, it burning as it went down.

“Well shit.” He said. “What’s going on?”

You shake your head. He was too close to you. You could smell his leathery, smoky scent, and it filled you up. Your stomach was fluttering, flashes of the dream popping into your mind. He wasn’t supposed to be here. You needed a distraction. 

“Let’s dance.”

Even you are surprised by the words that come out of your mouth. Rex’s eyebrows shot up.

“Alright. We can dance.”

He stood and gestured for you to lead the way. 

The dancefloor was crowded, and the music thumping. It rattled your bones, the fast beat just what you needed. You closed your eyes and let the movement come to you. You couldn't see Rex, but you could still feel him near, his body swaying in time with yours.  You gave yourself over to the music. It was almost like a form of meditation, getting you in tune with yourself once again.

Warm hands brushed your hips. Eyes still closed, mind still consumed by the drink and the music, you leaned in. The hands grasped you strongly, swinging your hips back and forth with the music, your body rolling. You felt alive. Everything forgotten, your past, your present, your dreams, the only thing that mattered was this moment. He pulled you close, chest to chest, with no room between you. Your hips circled, and his ground, and you couldn't help it, your lips parted and you exhaled. His head bent, and lips brushed the side of your neck. You twined your arms around him, pulling him closer, the two of you spinning in a slow circle, at odds with the quick rhythm of the music. A hand slipped up to your neck, then to your face. The large, rugged hand cupped your face and you leaned into it. You could feel warm breath on your lips, and without thinking moved to meet his. 

Fireworks exploded. Warmth flooded your body as you gave in to the kiss. Then you opened your eyes. No. Rex gazed back at you, stars in his eyes. “You have no idea how long I’ve been wanting to do that.” he said. 

Fear seized you. You tensed, and he immediately noticed. He took his hands off of you as you backed away. No. No. No. No. You shook your head, nearly trembling, and bolted for the door. “Wait!” He called after you, but you were gone into the night. 

You ran, legs pumping, heart racing down the streets. You ran past 79’s, past the temple, until you couldn’t run anymore. You ducked into an alley, gasping for breath. Anger, fear, guilt, all of these emotions flooded you. You punched the stone wall in front of you and nearly screamed in exasperation. Your bones felt like they were breaking inside your skin, your head pounded with bad thoughts. You were bad. You were wrong. You had been having these dreams, you clearly wanted what you knew you couldn’t and shouldn’t have. You led him on. You were guilty of attachment, guilty for your feelings. Guilty for falling in love with Rex. Tears sprang to your eyes.

You thought about him day in and out. You worried about him in battle, on the field. You touched yourself to thoughts of him. You'd already been with him a thousand times in your mind. You pretended your one-night stands were him. You nearly sobbed at the revelation. You did love him. You loved him.

“Cyare!” A shout and the pounding of feet towards you roused you. You hurriedly wiped your eyes in an attempt to hide your shame, but he saw.

“Cyare please, are you okay? I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. I went too far.” Rex grabbed your hands and pulled them from your hiding face, wiping tears from your eyes as he did. You can’t help it. You laugh. You laugh at the absurdity of this.

“No, I’m sorry.” You said, and with your back to the wall you slid down onto the cold ground, head in your hands. Without hesitation, he sat beside you, silently giving you a moment to compose your thoughts. 

“Rex”. You say, his name sickly sweet on your tongue. “We can’t do this.” Fresh tears cascaded down your face, and he quickly brushed them away for you. He was quiet, then said. “I overstepped. I thought you felt the same way, I thought we wanted the same thing. I shouldn’t have.”

You cut him off saying “I do.”

Silence.

“I don’t understand.” He said as he took your hand.

So you tell him everything. How guilty you felt, how your Master lost his life for his lover, how a good Jedi doesn’t love, and most of all how your heart was hurting.

“I love you, Rex. I shouldn’t, but I love you.” He squeezed your hand, hard and tears welled in his eyes too. “I love you too mesh’la. And I am so sorry you feel guilty, but please know, I would never want to put you in a position where you feel like this. I’m giving you full control from here on. You dictate what we are, what we do. Lovers? I’d love that. Friends? That’s fine too. If sex is what you need, I’ll gladly volunteer. I want you to be happy, and I will do anything for that. So you tell me, what do you want?”

You take a deep breath. Everything feels so much more clear with him here, now, after everything. 

“You. I want you.”

And as you kissed in that alleyway, and later gave yourself to each other completely, you felt a peace you had never known.

[teardropsonmyheartstrings]

OK, I've been debating over this for ages...

Who of you guys is familiar with Stationhead?

I've been listening almost religiously for months now, and I've got questions.

For those who have never seen this name:

Stationhead is an app that can be linked to your Apple Music or Spotify account and allows streaming playlists, so you can share them with others in real time. It includes a chat function and some other little bits and bobs. Artists--including Taylor--occasionally use it for listening parties, where they stream a specific playlist, and fans go nuts in the chat. All good fun. Taylor Nation has an account they use for those listening parties, and they are usually announced beforehand via instagram, etc.

Whenever there is no active listening party, there's still a Swifties channel. There's a whole syndicate that shares the responsibility of keeping the music playing there. They can stream music simultaneously, but only one gets featured "on air" on the channel at any one time. I can't really determine whether those individual hosts are fans, or what, or how they got into the syndicate. But I did notice two things: 1) Just before a listening party, a certain host called "swiftiesss13" tends to take over the channel. Basically while everyone is gathering and waiting for the main event to start. 2) There also seems to be a default host that plays whenever no one else from the syndicate is active. That would be taylorswifties13 (LOVE the 1989 icon 😉).

Please note, that these are all just my observations. I know nothing about the behind the scenes that are going on. If anyone here knows more or thinks I'm spewing utter nonsense, PLEASE fill me in!

Now.

The thing I feel kinda weird about sharing, but which I really would appreciate thoughts on... So, on that default station, the host taylorswifties13 has been playing the same playlist for several months now. I BELIEVE the most recent changes to the playlist occurred around mid November. Specifically, Nov. 15th, IF I'm not mistaken. I'm going by text messages I sent to my friend back then, and my fuzzy memory/awareness of what came before then, because up until then, I'd been listening for months, but hadn't known what to look for. First of all, let me share the playlist that has been in place ever since then:

Note, that since I have no way of knowing for sure, my staring point of Begin Again is perfectly arbitrary. As for the colour coding, red indicates songs from the The Eras Tour setlist. That's 21 tracks out of 47, so close to half. In addition to that, we have tolerate it, which used to be on the setlist, and Florida!!!, which was part of the TTPD set for four shows (London and Miami). I wasn't sure whether to count the latter as a setlist song, or a surprise song, but I'll mostly count it as a surprise song. The tracks in green, are songs she played on her final leg in USA/Canada. Any tracks with an asterisk (*) were surprise songs during the European leg of the tour. Please don't be too confused by all of my annotating and colour coding; it’s all a bit silly on my part, but maybe it's helpful to someone else..? Dunno.

And here's the "juiciest" bit about it all

...assuming I haven't lost you by now.

If you would please direct your attention to tracks 35 and 36:

Gorgeous (track 34) ends, This Love starts playing, but STOPS just a few seconds into the actual verse. If you look at the progress bar, this is exactly how long the song is meant to play. I once tried following it up by adding this song to my Spotify favourites (which you can do via the Stationhead app), but it only gave me the proper version. Very odd. Anyway, I was so puzzled over this almost straight away, but it took me several more months (last week) to think of checking the runtime. Here it gets a bit so-so.... because it's 38 seconds. But not sharp. It's NOT 39 seconds, but it's also not exactly 38. Still. Very strange, kinda tantalising, not quite precise enough for my liking and YET so UNCANNY. On a stopwatch that doesn't show the milliseconds, it certainly WOULD be 38 seconds... 🤷‍♀️ If you are wondering about my reaction time: I also isolated the exact snippet of the track in video editor, and it was under 39 seconds. The whole thing is compounded by the fact that the original Fearless plays right after. The original. EVERYONE in the chat keeps complaining about the "stolen" version. Ok. I get it. But also, why does no one else find it weird?! They are raging, but no one is questioning. In a playlist with ONLY TVs, except the two reputation songs which have no TVs yet. In fact, there's ONLY two rep songs and NO Debut songs. The host is otherwise very mindful of their curation.

For me, the odd skip, followed by this odd OG version immediately brought ONE thing to mind:

This was from Karlie's snapchat stories. It entered the lore officially, when Taylor referenced it in her The Man music video, on the graffiti wall.

Why I think it's relevant and it all fits together?

* This Love (a 1989 song, contains lyrics like "this love came back to me" etc) plays for only a short time, which should raise eyebrows on it's own, but arguably, it also runs for 38 seconds. * OG Fearless (rather than TV) is another way to make you stop and think, but it ALSO is the version that actually was out when the mirror thing happened. There were no TVs yet.

ANOTHER ALSO. The "We Are Fearless" mirror thing happened November 16, 2016. Remember when I THINK the playlist changed to THIS?! Mid November 2024 (15th). At first I thought it was 16th, but I live in Australia, so my 16th isn't America's 16th yet early in the morning, which was when I discovered it. (Dang! 🤣) Anyway, close enough? I want to say "take this with the hugest grain of salt" because I didn't quite have my shit together back then. But in favour of this being odd: I knew about the mirror, I didn't know when exactly it happened. When I searched my text history to find the dates for when I became aware of all this, I STILL didn't know when the mirror thing happened. I found that date on my phone first, before googling the video of the mirror writing, which then conveniently came with an actual date. I was shocked. It just fit too well.

Ok, so far so good.

But I'm still at a loss. As I mentioned before, everyone regularly complains about stolen Fearless. NO ONE ever asks why This Love is cut off. I question on the daily whether I'm just going nuts. Isn't it happening to ANYONE ELSE?! But it has to, as the playlist is streamed. It would mess up the entire timing from thereon, if it didn't happen to everyone at the same time. I'd think you don't have to be a Gaylor to find it strange?!

Oh, and a wee bit more Kaylor...

This really is a minor thing, but did you notice track 22? It just so happens to be the Kendrick Lamar version, as in NOT the exact version from the Eras Tour, but the one from that lovely music video, which features our girls boxing their hearts out 🥵 Not very demure, but feels VERY mindful, no?

I have one last thing to add:

I can't exactly send in evidence for this, as the playlist is super long, but y'all are free to waste some time and fact check me if you don't believe it... the entire playlist runs for 3h03 min (and once again a couple of extra seconds, so not perfectly on the dot, but for a whole playlist that's to be expected). What's that in MINUTES, you may immediately wonder? 183. Thank you very much 🙈

BUT WELL...

Let's think critically here for a moment... I'm either delusional, or this playlist does have "KAYLOR" written all over it. Cool. Fun. BUT HOW DO WE KNOW, that this playlist isn't just made up by one of us? Unfortunately, we don't. Or at least I don't. If any of you could elucidate, I'd be totally thrilled! Things that make me have a wee bit of faith:

It appears to be the default playlist on the Swifties channel

The tracks are very mindful of the TV situation, just like playlists that are coming from a more officially official source: NO Debut, as little reputation as possible, but then the odd one out Fearless OG

This is where the surprise songs come into play: the ratio of non-setlist tracks that were actually played during the America leg of the tour as surprise songs is a bit higher than what I'd expect to be chance alone. I've since tried to come up with random lists of songs and compared them to the actual surprise songs to kinda test this. I fell very short with some, came rather close with others, never quite reached the exact same number, let alone higher. I could be totally wrong, but this list of songs, that was first aired just a few shows into the American leg, contains a suspicious number of surprise songs. Almost like the curator knew that some of them would be played. Dunno. I'm aware that this isn't good evidence, but still something I noticed.

To sum it all up.

This has been driving me insane. I don't know if I see patterns where there are none, or if I see them alright, but the source is just another Kaylor having fun with it. Any thoughts, comments, insights would be MORE THAN WELCOME. What do you think? Is this something random, or is Miss Taylor having a jolly good time messing with us?

[lalunanymph]

Dawn!! If you’re still accepting suggestions for ttpd, would you be willing to do loml with kakucho or i can fix him with ran? even if you’re not, it’s okay! just wanted to say that ive been following you for quite some time and everything you write is incredible, you are my fav writer on tumblr 🩷🩷🥹

𝐋𝐎𝐌𝐋 [*ੈ✩‧₊˚ dawn.🕹️ ttpd]

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ you discover the truth about him

Your shivering body fights through the hail of rain storming down from the heavens as if in retribution for your scalded emotions.  

His back grows smaller, almost disappearing around the corner. 

You follow right behind him, unable to take your eyes off how his trench coat—once gray—is now soaked through till it makes the water dripping from its hem look like bleeding ink.

Kakucho doesn’t sense you, which is strange.

He always had a sixth sense when it came to you. 

But, he pushes through the storm, head bent low. 

It’s almost one in the morning and you can’t figure out why he’s here in the dead of night. Why he left your apartment in a fit of rage when all you had asked him is why he chose to ignore your messages after a fight you both had.

You can’t unearth his true sentiments, and rather than risk his ire for the second time tonight, you choose to do your own snooping. 

He stops right in front of a bar, its neon sign throwing sleazy, ripples of light across the overflowing puddles. Hiding himself under the awning, you can just trace the outline of his scar, slick with water, his expression blank and frankly, frightening.

The Kakucho you knew would never look this disengaged and dangerous.

He always smiles whenever you need it, and right now, you wish he would. 

Wish he would come back home and not make you feel like he had thrown in the towel—giving up on your relationship with such callous ease.

Someone appears from the shadows, and he follows after the mysterious figure. 

You take a tentative step forward, crossing the street, ducking under the awning and following him down the narrow pathway. 

Someone screams, and you feel your blood run cold.

Rounding the bend, your eyes widen, a gasp flying free from your lax mouth.

Kakucho looks up, blood on his hands. A dead man lies at his feet, the skin on his neck shredded to ribbons, red rivulets drenching the ground.

You take a step backward and stumble, falling right on your ass.

“Love,” Kakucho speaks, his voice hoarse; fear flashes in his incongruous eyes, the knife in his hand clattering to the ground.

He takes one step towards you, but all you can think about is how he’s stepping in some man’s blood. 

You scramble back, hands thrown up as if to stop his advance. 

A strangled cry slips past your cold lips, sounding almost like that man’s scream before he lost his life.

“My darling, I can explain—”

“Wh—who—Kakucho—why?” Your brain is on overdrive, spitting out questions faster than your mouth can comprehend.

The darkness starts to spin, and you think you might bend forward and hurl.

“You weren’t supposed to see this.” Rain droplets drip down the sides of his cheeks, the curve of his nose and streaming past his thin lips which twist into a grimace of pure agony. “My love, I’m so sorry—”

“Is this what you do?” You can’t believe how you’re able to formulate a sentence, but the human mind is a resilient thing. “When you leave me alone at night. Is this what you do? Killing people?” 

You’re sure you see the knife glinting in your periphery and almost scream, but he kicks it aside, far away from you, and raises his hands to show he’s unarmed.

Kakucho looks like he’s struggling to speak as well. He opens his mouth, closes it.

Drops his arms and hangs his head forward, chest rising and falling with rapid breaths.

“I… I’m so sorry. You weren’t supposed to find out like this.” 

You think he’s going to kill you, judging from how villains in dramas would want to get rid of any unfortunate eyewitnesses when their true colors were revealed.

But, your lover does nothing like that.

He only stares at you imploringly with his milky-red eyes. Stepping forward, he slides to his knees, a sinner begging for forgiveness at your altar.

“He’s a dangerous man, love,” he speaks through numb lips; somehow, you sense his words more than hear them, your mind spinning into a different dimension with how easily your life had spun out of control in a single, devastating second.

You wish you had never followed him, never gave into your curiosity.

If you had followed his terse command to stay home, you would still be blissfully unaware; safe in your little, loved-up bubble without ever considering your kind, warm hearted and faithful boyfriend was a literal murderer. 

You wished you had never met Kakucho. 

As if he could hear your thoughts, he shuffles closer to you, trying to take your cold hands.

You shrug him off, curling into your own body, shoulders hunched forward and hands tucked to your chest.

“You’re a killer.” 

He doesn’t refute you; staring at you in open anguish. 

“What would happen if I told the police?”

He freezes, and you already half-expect to be dead where you stand. But, he locks his mismatched gaze onto yours, those unique eyes boring deep into your soul. 

“Then, tonight would be the last time you would ever see me in your life.” He rocks back on his haunches, expression morphing into one of sure regret. “And we will never live the life we want.”

You don’t know if he’s trying to manipulate you—at this point, you can’t figure out anything beyond trying to get out of this alive.

“I won’t kill you,” he says, striking you mute with confusion. “But, I will have to disappear. Forever. If you can live with that—if you want me instantly gone—I will do it.”

The anguish in his eyes melts into acceptance; an innocent lamb succumbing to its fate in the slaughterhouse of heartbreak. 

“But, I won’t try to change your mind. I understand this is something unacceptable for you,” his voice shakes, but he bravely pushes through. “I wasn’t the man you thought I was. I can’t be who he is. I lied to you. I’m so sorry. If you ever do tell the police on me, I hope you will forgive me one day.”

You aren’t able to believe it. Here you were, threatening to expose his crime, and Kakucho was on his knees, apologizing to you for not being the man you thought he was and could be. 

He waits, watching in rapt attention as you race through your thoughts. Sorting through the pros and cons.

Tears prick your eyes, mingling with the rainwater trickling down your cheeks. Somewhere, behind him, you imagine the man’s blood must be running cold.

The rain continues to pour and above, a street light flickers once, throwing shadows across a look on his face you would never forget until the day you died.

Regret. Fear. Longing. 

Loss.

©️ lalunanymph

[girllblogging777]

Sorry if someone's already asked this, I'm fairly new to your page but what are some of your favorite Taylor Swift songs or albums or your thoughts in general about each one?

𝑠𝑤𝑖𝑓𝑡𝑖𝑒 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑘 !

↳ honestly i’m so so happy you asked because it gives me an opportunity to talk about taylor’s music so i’m just gonna rant a little bit

my experience as a swiftie :

✩ my first memory of listening to taylor was when i’d watch the shake it off clip with my sister RELIGIOUSLY, even though we were really young at the time

✩ i started listening to her music a little after fearless tv released and became a swiftie during red tv (best era ever imo, i miss streaming atwtmv all day long and romanticising fall)

✩ i had the chance to go to the eras tour back in june, which was the BEST experience of my life. i traveled to london just for the concert and it was so great !

✩ london n2 btw, i feel like we had the worst show of all wembleys and i can’t believe i missed gracie abrams by a day, but i’m still super grateful (i got thank you aimee x mean and castles crumbling)

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───

my opinions on her music :

✩ i’m personally more of a fountain pen songs swiftie than a glitter gel pen one, although i love all of her albums and songs (all bops idc)

✩ i have absolutely NO idea how to rank her albums because it changes everyday and based on my mood

✩ in my opinion, taylor’s most “taylor” album is red, which is why i have a particular attachment to it

✩ folklore and evermore are BOTH masterpieces and evermore deserves to get the folklore treatment (dare i say it’s better than folklore ?)

✩ debut is criminally underrated and i can’t wait for people to realise that when taylor’s version is released

✩ ttpd is a perfect album, and probably in my top three of hers (i do like the anthology better than the album in itself)

✩ her only album with NO skips (again that’s my opinion) is reputation….

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───

about ME! :

✩ she truly does have a song for every situation, it’s insane

✩ i’m a this is me trying/the archer girl through and through, that’s for sure

✩ as for my favourite songs, i do have a particular attachment to cowboy like me and you are in love (yes i cried when she did a mashup) and my most streamed song of hers is haunted

✩ OKAY WAIT i’m gonna do a little playlist with taylor songs that describe my “romantic life” (you’ll get the lore pretty easily, try to guess what happened)

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───

♪ the playlist ♪

“babe”

“my boy only breaks his favorite toys”

“now that we don’t talk”

“betty”

“gold rush”

“better man”

“the 1”

“the smallest man who ever lived”

“peter”

“girl at home”

“down bad”

“right where you left me”

“foolish one”

pretty sure no one is gonna read all that but i had so much fun ! thank you for your question <3

[folkwhore1998]

I just don't understand...

how you don't miss me in the black dog

I had no idea what to expect with this album. Taylor's brand is "never let them know your next move"

So, was it going to be more of a folklore/evermore/red vibe? Or was it going to be pop in the way midnights was? I did not think it was going to be straight up pop, but you just never know. I don't have cable so it can be really hard for me to watch award shows in real time, so I pulled a few strings so I could stream the grammys and thank god I did. I could not believe the album announcement and I was honestly gagged about the whole thing.

Now... This is a devastatingly beautiful album and is so vulnerable and raw.

The Prophecy... she literally said "I will go bankrupt. I will give up everything because I am hurting so much I need someone to tell me things are going to be okay and I don't care what I have to do to get this confirmation/assurance. I just want someone to love me the way I love them and I don't care about the superficial things." and she was so real for that.

The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived... the first time I listened to it was like 12:30 AM on album release night/day, and I was yaknow, chilling, listening. and then we hit the bridge... my jaw hit the floor. I literally shot up in bed and was like "holy fuck." when i thought the song was wrapping up, it just kept going. Obviously I had to listen to it again right after it ended. (and I am NOT mad about it. I feel this song in my bones) ((My fiance was also dead asleep during all of this and I made him listen to it at like 10 AM the following day))

(peace: i'll die for you in secret ➜ TSMWEL: i would have died for your sins) ((actually screaming crying vomiting idk))

My favorite part of when she sings this on the eras tour is when she says "hey.. give this message to the smallest man who ever lived" and then turns to the audience and starts singing the bridge. She's like "Yup- heres this message, and another thing- fuck you!" literally incredible. i have an emotional attachment to this song. I could write an essay and honestly, maybe I will.

It's so funny to me because every time Taylor puts out a new album, there are some songs that I hear where i'm like "WOW. This is it. This is the song. She summed up my entire experience in a way I never could. I don't know how much more accurate she could get." And then she comes out with some insane song that keeps the cycle going.

(it's the cycle that keeps on giving and the cycle that keeps me alive! no, seriously. when i was in the hospital at one point in my life, i was asked everyday "and what is something you want to live for?" my answer: my cat and taylor swift's music")

All of this to say... I am so happy I was/am medicated when this album came out.

Here is my ranking of the Tortured Poets Department! (This was incredibly difficult because all of the songs are just so good. Noting that I don't think that any song is a bad song.)

The Black Dog

The Smallest Man

The Prophecy

How Did It End?

Guilty As Sin

My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys

loml (but sometimes it changes places- just depends on the day, but it never goes lower)

Fresh Out The Slammer

But, Daddy I Love Him

Who's Afraid of Little Old Me?

So Long, London

Down Bad

I Can Do It With A Broken Heart

So High School

I Hate It Here

TTPD

Fortnight

Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus

Peter

Cassandra

Flordia!!!

The Alchemy

The Bolter

thanK you aIMee (thank You aimEe)

Clara Bow

The Albatross

The Manuscript

imgonnagetyouback

I Look In People's Windows

Robin

I Can Fix Him (no really I can)

Honorable mentions:

CHILLS

I was so shocked (I watched on a grainy livestream)

When I say I sobbed, I'm not joking. I texted my sister and said "You need to get on this livestream RIGHT NOW.

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Here is the link to a down bad t-shirt: So good for the gym and its a comfort colors t-shirt!

Direct link to the storefront: They have so many cool items!

Check out the link: It's a TTPD vinyl/cd holder and it is actually the coolest thing I've ever seen (I will be purchasing)

Direct link to the storefront: There are a few different options! Check them out!

@taylorswift @taylornation @taylorswift @taylornation

[notdefendingtaylor]

how long do you think the nonchalant, exclusive attitude is going to last? i think that at some point she's going to have to get back into interviews, photoshoots, performances, etc... not anytime soon but eventually, when the eras tour fully wears off, travis retires, rerecordings are finished. the attention's going to keep waning, you can already see it in streams and monthly listeners

and for swiffers to have been shaming joe for wanting privacy, they don't have any complaints about taylor keeping things private right now. strictly-business social media presence, the occasional outing to awards shows and sporting events (in season), it seems really private in comparison to other celebrities, even with the fame/attention disparity. nothing against keeping things private, but just hypocritical.

I think she's got the best possible setup for Rep TV she could EVER ask for right now. Honestly it's worked SO WELL in her favor that the overexposure has people booing the sight of her. There is no more perfect setup along with this being the yEaR oF tHe SnAkE.

But in order to stick this she needs to present Rep TV in a MEANINGFULLY DIFFERENT way/context. Different production instead of a tinny copy of the original, like we saw with 1989 TV. Maybe a different perspective on it since the muse of the album is now an ex. The re-recordings were a good way to make bank and garner some sympathy but they also compounded the problem some critics noted on TTPD: her lore is a snake eating itself, the motifs are getting stale and repetitive, the themes have worn out their welcome. Like her presence at NFL events, it seems.

I really don't know where she goes from here. There are many trends she hasn't used yet, but if it's just copying younger artists like Sabrina it won't read that well to most people. People want revelation, not repetition. And Reputation was my favorite album sound for her so I dread a poorly done re-record.

She has enough money to never drop the exclusivity or try to be a regular act touring with one album again. But is that fulfilling...?

[everytaylorswiftsongisaboutcats]

What’s one more day of clowning?…

Here we go final leg of the Eras Tour😭

(RIP my hope of tickets☠️)

Miami Florida N1

— (I’m gonna update this as I go cause I need somewhere to speak in hyperspeed Swiftie screams) while streaming —

Lover Creamsicle/Lava Girl (despite the Twitter debates (yes I said Twitter😂) it looks the usual coral to me at least) though possible new necklace? w Normal speech + addressing the final leg & fantastic crowds to celebrate these albums

New Fearless dress! (Possibly my favorite thus far)

— I’m thinking Elsa for a “Mastermind” name? … trying to come up with some pasta suggestions for “Swiftbowl” but honestly all I can think is “buddy the elf spaghetti”😂

A lot going on at the moment for Red with usual ATW speech & announcing the confirmed ✨RAIN SHOW💖

Swirls for Speak Now enchanted

NEW REPUTATION SUIT WITH MATCHING MIC & DIFFERENT SNAKE (its giving Karen… which @taylornation is of course trolling the clowns with)

— Maybe more green snake intro? (otherwise normal) It seems to be more green lighting?🤡 Normal Rep setlist (I guess I’m going with Christmas themes today… cause all I want is Debutation?😂) also lwymmd has red Rep suit box… idk if it’s new? Mostly just afraid new suit is from “old stinky” (who I love) having holes…

Berry Folkmore/Everlore dress, basic Betty & Champagne problems speeches (or at least nothing officially big?⬇️), + usual setlist (the rain pausing & beginning in Marjorie was beautiful though) & while I see some Tweets saying Willow has new synths I personally did not hear them or see lighting differences in coloring (maybe it’s my screens? It seems usual green & coloring) OKAY BUT THAT SPEECH DANCING RAIN (dancing with our hands tied?⬆️)

Was hoping for a new combo with an all green set for 1989, we got red & green which is both rep colors, usual set, bikes are green not blue!

Hoping for Florida during TTPD, seems more red and green lit, Florida is in setlist WITH FLORENCE!!! (I’m getting snake eye lighting vibes which is me clowning for sure). Malfunction: she was literally running with her dress unbuttoned.😂 The crowd screaming again tricked me w Postie😭🖤NOTHING HAPPENED (but hey I love Jan so) Hoping for all Gold set (or black for Rep?) Set is white! Currently: Who’s Afraid Of Little Old Me? dress w White gloves & usual rest of set (aside from earlier ⬆️ Florida)

It’s all waiting on surprise dress now… I’m hoping new green, brand new black (maybe even silver/gold) or at least orange? Surprise songs o clock (coming in right after ICDIWABH which were on as I type this lol): HERE WE GO — THE DRESS IS RED AND GREEN AND BLUE AND LOOKS LIKE BLACK MIDNIGHT STARS OR HOLOGRAPHIC OR RAINBOW WHAT??? ITS RAINING?? ITS TIME!! ITS TIM MCGRAW & TIMELESS — ITS PIANO TIME (I AM CONFUSED) ITS THIS IS ME TRYING & DAYLIGHT — SHES JUMPING — UNLESS MOTHER DOES SOMETHING NEW AND ANNOUNCES AT MIDNIGHT WE HAVE BEEN CLOWNED🤡 but hey def my new fav dress for surprise songs (excited for high quality full pics)

It seems this has been dubbed the beta, paint splatter, sleeping beauty make it blue make it pink, lover hair or rep dress reference of Surprise Song dresses

Midnights: purple CORRECTION NEW ANTI HERO DRESS —

— & MoonStone🌙 bodysuit (don’t think it’s new guys) normal setlist & Kam love! Loving the rainy curls😍 & new crowd YES YOU ARE chants (haven’t heard that one for going out tonight before… maybe I’m just lost lol clowning fried my brain) if nothing else thankfully Vigilante Shit will always be scream worthy and heart stopping for mother🥵🤣👏 we Stan a good ✨Chicago✨ moment Magenta jacket & a wonderful night! Thanks for clowning!