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narcsmelly · 2 days ago

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fascinated by devon because she's like the only character with any goddamn sense but also why the hell did she marry that man?

i would love to talk about this..... bcos honestly idk i just.. feel like i get them, mostly cos the show is asking me to believe it and i enjoy stories most when i go along with what theyre telling me until theyre done telling me about it.

but for real here's my take on devon & rickens relationship: when ricken and devon met, ricken was a lil rich boy who loved to write (poorly) and was always a little too privileged and weird, but ultimately very personable/funny and like... puppy dog level head over heels for devon. first love type shit on his end. i think they were probably young and it was probably an honest friendship that grew into a relationship at devons pace, and while ricken was (and still is) ridiculous and a little lost, that doesnt stop devon from loving him. then gemma and she and mark and ricken became close knit, a real ass family spending a lot of time together and devon & rickens relationship became better because of it. and then gemma died c: and devon had to get really fucking serious about caring for mark AND ricken.. and thats the devon we see today, grieving and carrying it all.

AND ricken is grieving... we see him cope with any negative feelings (insecurity etc) with false bravado and overthinking. And ricken who is both grieving and dealing poorly with the grieving people around him is in an ego-driven rabbit hole exacerbated by the random boderline-sycophants who bring out the worst in him.. but the ego rabbit hole friend group makes him feel wanted/loved/important so he's coping poorly and spiraling by playing into it without regard to how it affects devon and what it really 'means' about who he is/what he's achieving (he's not very introspective or self aware even tho he thinks himself to be!!) idk i just think that while ricken is like.. maybe the worst version of himself he's ever been at this point in their lives, he also wasn't ever some incredible amazing superhero person to begin with... he's kinda just a dope. and devon loves him. and he's wealthy lmao. and i just feel like even though they aren't some storybook fairy tale mark & gemma type romance, devons an extremely pragmatic person and wouldnt be with someone she didn't Want to be with. I don't think she'd take as much crap from mark as she does if she wasn't sure about ricken. but idk im prepared to eat my hat cos frankly i think they should open their marriage and devon should date women but thats just me

ANYWAY: Jen tullock talked about a lot of these things on the severance podcast ep she was on, and also a lot of my opinions were informed/solidified by He Ain't Heavy He's My Brother by cassiandor on ao3 and i think everyone who loves devon should read it.

#severance #speculating about #devon scout hale

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microwave-core · 1 year ago

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Hello, I hope you are well.

Could you possibly write a fic where Cynthia has been instantly busy by faraway research partners summoning her for her professional opinion, fans wanting a picture or to battle, and always interrupting her and their readers day or hangouts whenever they go out? But eventually, Cynthia figures something out to make it up to the reader?

:)

Thank you!

Hello anon, I can most certainly get that done for you when I have the time! Ms. Cynthia is always welcome in my inbox.

I don't know when I'll get into it? Idk I'm almost finished with the scarvio dlc girls and can have that up for valentines, so I'll get to work on it sometime after valentines.

#not writing #request stuff #gonna assume its fem reader anon unless you state otherwise just fyi #im doing fine btw #kinda rattled but not in like a genuine way #ive been playing too much persona and got to a certain part in the seventh palace #not like im going to stop until im done tho #also got the shit scared out of me bc fireworks suddenly went off and i thought it was gun shots #yeah super bowl chiefs won sports ball #the only reason i cared about sports is when it got me the day off in school but that isnt relevant to me anymore #schools would normally let kids off if the local team won the super bowl for the parade #(bc a lot of kids would just be pulled out anyway and thats bad for attendance and all)#glad im not in school now tho bc the parade is on ash wednesday #and i went to a catholic high school where we would have had to go anyways bc its holy day of obligation or whatever #jeez i didnt mean to write this much sorry #but im listening to the super paper mario ost so everything is all good #anyways #im... so close to being done with the headcannons #its been 5000 years #hopefully i'll get this done in a more timely manner #oh my god its been like two months since i posted what i swear it was decemeber last week #my birthday is soon too i dont like that #i already have backpain plz

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hinamie · 6 months ago

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ik i've done like 5 panel redraws from 265 alone but this is the last one promise

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #itadori yuuji #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuuji #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #jjk 265 #timelapse #jjk but its me and im the one possessed and i cant stop doing yuuji panel redraws :'>#fr tho im done i swear i think ive drawn all my favourite yuujis from the leaks i can stop now #....the one of him crouching while fishing Is good too tho...#IM JOKING I WON'T (today)#my pinky actually hurts rn i will rest #the thing w timelapses is theres never much 2 say abt the process bc like. its all right there #th red flash was me accidentally hitting the paint fill button gomen :'< i always do either that or i accidentally crop it #they should move those buttons further away from each other >:((((#hmm other than that total time abt 4 hours his hair fought me a bit during the render but gojo voice Nah Id Win >:)#symmetry ruler my beloved <333 until i get 2 his scars n have to turn it off rip #anyway im going 2 go rest my hand do some stretches etc etc #self care i hear they call it

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bacchuschucklefuck · 8 months ago

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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest

#not art #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit #kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it #until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it #until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her #but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs #she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying #probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone #lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear #Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked #but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now #yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc #man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet #and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out #lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help #it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around #but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever #its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous #its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot #yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry #doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it #ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking

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god-damnit-vinne · 3 months ago

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hi here's redesigns nobody asked for

@quazikam i have a personal law where i'm required to tag you in anything shuichi saihara related on my blog

#danganronpa #drv3 #drv3 redesigns #drv3 shuichi #drv3 kokichi #shuichi's canon design did him so dirty bro #like mans at least deserved blue eyes #but no #he got them ugly ass beige eyes (not shuichi slander its his eyes slander)#kokichi's canon design did artists dirty #bro stop wearing chains my guy it does not make you edgy #it just makes me want to fall off a cliff trying to draw you #do love both these guys tho #they are so children #going feral #i tried to take from what i remember of shuichi's beta design #so if it looks familiar thats why #i made shuichi's really fast and ive had kokichi's mapped out for hours #so thats why shuichi's looks like... that.#also PLEASE ignore the height innacuracy i didnt realize until it was too late to fix #i will not merge the layers for shit #alright im done rambling enjoy #yum its art

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termagax · 6 months ago

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re: "good girl" i think they say it once randomly as a joke and its just one of those things that gets him wayyy more than they expected it would. so now its their secret weapon and they use it very sparingly and every single time he gets super embarrassed about it but it works ill tell you what.

#HES MY PRINCESS IDEK.#i dont think it happens naturally all that much because theyre usually in the business of calling each other names and being mean #so i think this would just be a random night where theyre on top and just think it would be really funny. to yank on his leash and call him #a good girl after bullying him into doing something. and well i just think it would get him is all i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwwww #i havr a lot of thoughts on the matter but i will stop for now #but the tldr is that with each other they tend to switch frequently and are always fighting #so i think itd take someone else being in the picture for hog to even realize how much he likes being a good boy :3 #and i also dont think fish would be good at straightforward domming in the way he would want and they both know that #so its something he keeps between him and rat mostly. please dont ask me questions abt jrs sex life i have too many opinions on it #anyways. i think even tho fish knows theyd be bad at that they still feel left out so sometimes they go watch. they dont get anything out of #doing that theyre just sort of taking mental notes #all of this circles back to i think fish has always been the more sexually experienced of the two. and romantically.#i dont rlly think hog is a guy who dates i dont think hes ever been that and i dont think he made much time for hookups #(i think its cute if hes a virgin when they meet but 🤷 im not solid on it)#but i think for him hes just only ever fucked this one person and they do a LOT of stuff and it gets the job done so hes just never really #tried anything else. but. and again i have too many opinions on this but i think rat wouldnt be into their usual shteeze #i think hes a bit of a freak in his own way but the blood and weird anger issues is just not doing it for him most of the time #but i do think if given the opportunity he would LOVE to be The Boss for a little bit so i think he and hog can explore that together and it #will work out beautifully for them. this is great because i am not into strict d/s dynamics like that but i know in my heart that hoggy #would be. and i cant do that for him #again i think fish would be butthurt about this. mostly in a 'why didnt u tell me so we could try this :(' and he would go #'because you would suck at it and wouldnt like it' and they go oh. right. well im still mad #ANYWAYS. circling back. i think the good girl thing would be something fish knows that rat doesnt. and idk if theyd tell him or not #because i do think if they tell him he is using that for evil hog is going to be a good girl forever and ever. rat doesnt have the patience #to space it out the way fish does. which idk maybe thatd be good for hog he could work through some stuff...#but on the other hand i think its fun if they DONT tell him and just bust it out sometime when all 3 of them are doing the deed. or whatever #because again they mostly like how embarrassed he gets about it and i think he would be reallyyyy flustered by it #^ this is essentially part of my fantasy about spitroasting my beautiful wife until he cries just so everyone knows #idk i just think when he lets go of himself hed be a very cute and kind of needy subby bottom and i think hed be really easy to fluster #about it and i want it so bad

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orcelito · 19 hours ago

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Man, my apartment people texted me to ask if I'd be able to accommodate a 4 pm virtual showing today bc the potential client set up a tour for a different apartment but decided they wanted to look at my unit instead. And I'm just sitting here like uhhhh. Nah lmao. I don't wanna have to do that short notice cleaning. So I told them no

Now I'm wondering what's up with this client tho like. U can't just go touring in all these different units just for funsies... like ppl r still living here... no I don't want u coming in here at such short notice. And I am legally allowed to say no. So yay 👍

#speculation nation #i need to go to the grocery to pick up cat litter bc i need to change out the litter #but man im having a chill ass Saturday. i kinda dont wanna go.#need to work on my lab later today. i also need to uhh..... ugh......#theres a career fair this week that i really should go to. and i need to prep my resume for it and make sure i have 'business professional'#dress. whatever that actually means. guess im gonna be looking it up.#i REALLY REALLY REALLY dont want to. id rather just fuck around this weekend and do my normal chores and homework.#and fuck around during the week too with bowling and orchestra. but noooooooo #i have to think about my futuuuuuure #man i also need to start looking into apartment hunting. since i do need to move this summer.#and it's already february... heck i have to pay rent and bills today too. ughhhhhhh #being a responsible adult 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 sucks bro #omg i also got uh. taxes to do. got my w-2 in from the month and a half i worked at the start of last year lmao #and apparently interest income is taxable. so i gotta factor that in too...#BUT insurance payouts are NOT taxable. thank god. i wouldnt wanna see what taxes on that lump of sum wouldve been.#i think i technically would have an income thats below the income rung for legally being required to file taxes #but i think i still will. in case i manage to get anything Back. still worth it probably.#i'll do that later tho. i got like 2 and a half months. ill try to not do it too late.#that and the apartment hunting are not immediately pressing. unfortunately the bills and the career fair Are immediately pressing.#man. resumes. i made a 'professional' one for my business writing class a few years back. no idea where it is tho now.#i guess i could go looking on my old computers. would probably be easier to start based on that than start from scratch.#my actual resume for actual job hunting ive done is. also on old computers. and also severely out of date.#i havent gone job hunting since like... honestly like 2016. legit. bc i got that cookie job and then in 2017 i came back to campus #and went to the bubble tea shop id worked at in 2015-2016. and they hired me back on real easy. and there i remained until 2024.#i just really hate job searching. and im a little nervous about it being a Big Boy salary job kinda shit.#but i will do my best... i wont let anxiety stop me from at least making an effort......

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burningcomputerpersona · 19 days ago

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second night of not being able to fall asleep since the new semester started. now im remembering why i stopped taking my adhd meds

#look im a fan of staying up late when it's done voluntarily but this is NOT voluntary #i need to get actual sleep bc i need to actually use my brain for school shit tomorrow and i only got like 2 hours of sleep last night #does my body care about that tho? noooo absolutely not no sleep for you for the rest of your life #even the benadryl isn't working anymore and I've already had 150mg #i need one of those chloroform soaked rags they use in movies when knocking someone out to kidnap them #just. im not fucking doing anything. this would be a much better use of my time if i used it to actually do shit like homework #but nooo i was too tired and wanted to go to sleep early but the sleep never came and the task is firmly stuck in tomorrow mode #and i don't even wanna do the tasks bc i never wanna do anything ever except when i take my adhd meds #but when i do take the meds i can't fall asleep. fucking fantastic #in the words of laura jane grace: i need a week long cocaine binge #wait that would probably make my sleeplessness worse tho nevermind #just. i thought this shit was supposed to be addictive. i just keep not wanting to take them #like the opposite of compulsive redosing or something #ugh ykw maybe i should just try fighting fire with fire #just keep going with the meds to see how long it takes until the lack of sleep is enough to overpower the insomnia #maybe i just need to be harder on myself. stop thinking about what i do or don't want #bc i keep getting stuck in this cycle where i try to find a way to convince myself why i should do a task #but end up only thinking of how i absolutely do not want to do the task #and decide to try being more constructive by asking myself what i do want #only to find that the one single thing i want is just to Not #and coming to the inevitable conclusion that i really just need to kill myself #except that's also a task i need to do that takes energy and i don't rlly wanna do that either so that's one bright side ig #ugh i hate this i hate complaining like if you don't like something abt the situation then fucking do something about it or suck it up #and here i am. doing neither.#i swear i need to be put down like a dog. where's that post abt getting into puppy play so you can be euthanized #welp. i guess it's a good thing i got a therapist before the semester started. he's gonna be in for a shock #mine #vent

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tomboyyyaoi · 1 year ago

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o i wanted to make a post that im honestly not smart enough to actually sit down and think out but i like the way meryls trauma doesnt completely woobify her character but does still affect her, it just feels nice to see a female charcater not be completely reduced to a wet soggy mess bc of trauma but also not to (very unrealistically) just Get Over It i think trigun has a nice balance and its refreshing

#also not saying its a secret feminist masterpiece or anything (coz ive seen ppl say that and. come on) but i still think it does well-#enough to be given an appreciative nod #i mean its clear nightow didnt know what to do w milly n meryl after a certain point bc there was just. So much goin on w vash and knives #so he just has the girls do some nomad stuff offscreen until he was ready to bring them back in and yknow what i dont hate that #i think its important to note the women in trigun are fucking amazing tho like. rem meryl luida elendira even lina #and yeah millys underdeveloped but still shes so good #so im not gnna sit here and criticise nightow for being just as misogynistic as some other male mangaka bc i think he does very well #and thats not even to say the bar is on the floor like i truly believe that. i love meryl for a reason #but. ppl can we maybe stop w the 'trigun is so feminist' praise bc lets be real nightow probably just has a thing for strong women #98 anime is a little different tho i was pullin some faces while rewatching some clips.#im obvs talking abt the manga #and stampede is still not done so i wont comment too much on that besides the fact i like where its going (girlwise)#i dont usually like viewing manga thru this lense bc its not the same culture and feminism looks different in japan than it does over here #but i saw a chart. it made me twist up my face and go hrrrrnnnmmmmmnnnnmmnnm..... nnhhnnhhjnnn... mmmmmmmm #jesus i didnt mean to go off in these tags i just wanted to make another 'meryl good' post for the pile #ig im still thinkin abt that chart idk i guess it stuck w me (regretfully)#anyway point is i love meryl for a reason trigun women are great thanks nightow but im not gnna praise him for bein a feminist icon

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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having my Art Specialty be described as 'daddies' is technically not wrong but also its very hard to not scream when being told so to my face in the dorm lobby regardless. like im just supposed to accept that description with a smile and nod as if i dont know we aren't thinking of the same kind of daddy

#snap chats #HEEEEEELP #like its one thing to be told that online but right to my face where im looking professional and Not Terminally Online is a whole new thing #i went to watch spiderverse with my dormmate and her friend- the friend that wanted to comm me last week #and because our mutual friend fucking sucks dick at being on time we had to wait for her even tho she invited us ANYWAY--#last time she was looking to get one of her gal oc's drawn but then she went to look through my other art #and she really come back to me like 'ive noticed you draw really 'daddy' characters SO :))' and i heard NOTHING ELSE AFTER #LIKE. LIKE YEAH BY TECHNICALITY YOU ARE RIGHT. I HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT DRAW FATHERS FOR FIVE MONTHS #god has it really been five months 🧍‍♂️#but anyway..... //screams// ive been profiled as a dilf specialist by someone at school i need to leave NOW #i thank god every day ive essentially stopped postin my saucier works cause THAT woulda been an even more awk convo #its just so funny cause i really havent drawn anything particularly 'attractive'. like im just drawin these dudes bein silly LMAO #im just grateful she doesnt have a twitter or tumblr so she doesnt see me post EVERYTHING in real time yk #anyway... im gonna stare at the wall until i relent and go to bed #spiderverse was great 8/8. its really funny that i've watched both spiderverses multiple times cause of school events LMAO #ok bye

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mainfaggot · 11 months ago

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i had a really terrifying sleep paralysis slash bad dream situation last night so 1) i, half asleep and freaked out out of my mind, went to my mom's bedroom asking for water while trying not to fall over 2) got water and also my mom did a bunch of duas for me LMFAO 🤕😔 3) woke up 45 mins after my alarm and was 15 mins late to class

#i never go to my parents when i have nightmares or sleep paralysis #like i stopped doing that once i turned 14? 15?#because it became so fucking frequent and bc i started distancing myself from them near the end of middle school and especially #at the beginning of hs #anyway theres a lot. of. um . parental figure troubles history that i have .... theres a lot of lore #all that to say. i guess i have subconsciously come to trust my mom in the last half year or so bc instead of #half sleepwalking downstairs to the kitchen i just went to her room across thr hall #it wss super uncomfortable once i realised what i had done tho #like i was 1/2 reeling from yhe effects of a really trippy dream in a dream in a dream in a dream (nightmare ver.)#and i was 1/2 like “omg my mothrr is holding me and praying for my well being and she used to do this for me all the time until i was like #11 or whatever and this feels wrong im not supposed to hsve this this isnt right i dont deserve this i want to crawl out of my skin“ etc etc #anyway!#lol #z.post

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years ago

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