#11 or whatever and this feels wrong im not supposed to hsve this this isnt right i dont deserve this i want to crawl out of my skin“ etc etc | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

mainfaggot · 8 months ago

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i had a really terrifying sleep paralysis slash bad dream situation last night so 1) i, half asleep and freaked out out of my mind, went to my mom's bedroom asking for water while trying not to fall over 2) got water and also my mom did a bunch of duas for me LMFAO 🤕😔 3) woke up 45 mins after my alarm and was 15 mins late to class

#i never go to my parents when i have nightmares or sleep paralysis #like i stopped doing that once i turned 14? 15?#because it became so fucking frequent and bc i started distancing myself from them near the end of middle school and especially #at the beginning of hs #anyway theres a lot. of. um . parental figure troubles history that i have .... theres a lot of lore #all that to say. i guess i have subconsciously come to trust my mom in the last half year or so bc instead of #half sleepwalking downstairs to the kitchen i just went to her room across thr hall #it wss super uncomfortable once i realised what i had done tho #like i was 1/2 reeling from yhe effects of a really trippy dream in a dream in a dream in a dream (nightmare ver.)#and i was 1/2 like “omg my mothrr is holding me and praying for my well being and she used to do this for me all the time until i was like #11 or whatever and this feels wrong im not supposed to hsve this this isnt right i dont deserve this i want to crawl out of my skin“ etc etc #anyway!#lol #z.post

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