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I think mai could develop complicated feelings towards ty lee's decision to leave for the circus. on one hand she'd be happy for her, but also envious that she's able to get away while mai can't. and I think, maybe, she could also hold the slightest bit of resentment (and maybe even sadness) towards her, not for leaving the court behind, but for leaving her behind. I think the main thing it would depend on is if ty lee told her she was leaving, or if she just. left
#mailee#elli rambles#atla#r#mai#ty lee#getting this out of my drafts before mailee week#I made this post around the time I started writing my fic for it so that means I took uh. about two and a half months to write#not even three thousand words#in my defence I wrote it in out of order snippets in my notes app sometimes with several weeks in between#bc I agonised over the beginning so much lol#maileeposting#a
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goyim look up what zionism means challenge level: impossible
#yes someone did say something yesterday why do you ask?#“zionism means something different than it used to” SHUT!!!!! THE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!! UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!#that stupid fucking macklemore song OH MY G-D#macklemore is still cringe#even more so than before#'judaism isnt bad zionism is bad' RAHHHH CAN'T YOU PEOPLE READ‽!‽!‽!‽!‽!‽!‽!‽!‽!‽!‽!‽!#my goy friend goes 'you look like a deer in headlights' thank g-d she didnt know what zionism meant so i could tell her what it actually is#the teacher is jewish and super cool and was equally uncomfortable but for different reasons (song for him friend's words for me)#ran straight to my israeli friend after because she Gets It#no thoughts for the rest of the day just 'whatthefuckwhatthefuckwhatthefuck' couldnt even focus in band#shocked that they haven't moved on at this point tbh#then again its been three thousand years#goyishe bullshit#jewish#ellasogcontent#ella says some words#jumblr#jewish students#antisemitism
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The Transitive Property
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Ed couldn't sleep the first night after Greed joined his little crew-sorry, after they joined Greed.
The voice of reason in his head (sounding annoyingly like his little brother) pointed out that this was probably because he wasn't trying to sleep, but that wasn't the point.
The point was he found himself sitting awake by the dying fire-long after Darius and Heinkel had turned in for the night and started snoring loud enough to alert all of Amestris to their location-staring at Greed while trying not to let the homunculus catch him looking.
And it was stupid! Why should he have to hide what he was doing? It wasn't like he even really cared about Greed. He was looking for any signs of Ling. His boyfriend had been possessed right in front of him (willingly, on purpose, like the stubborn asshole he could be when he felt like it) and then disappeared for months only to show back up long enough to freeload all of Ed's food-again-and have a five minute conversation before getting reabsorbed into the monster possessing him. Quite frankly, Ed thought he was more than justified in staring. He had every right to interrogate, to poke and prod, to demand to speak to Ling.
The voice that sounded too much like Al reminded him that pissing Greed off and potentially driving him away wouldn't help him get Ling back, that just because something was justified didn't mean it was smart, and that eventually he'd have to stop flying off the handle all the time and learn to be more strategic.
So Ed restrained himself to observing. It didn't make him feel better. It was Ling's face in front of him, except that it wasn't. Familiar features of a person he cared about forming expressions that were all wrong, his boyfriend's body with someone else's posture. Greed hadn't spoken for a while, but Ed knew that his voice would be too low, too rough, the Amestrian accent grating on Ed's nerves when it came out of Ling's mouth.
But there were glimmers of hope. As they sat in silence, Greed's expression changed every so often. The shifts were tiny, subtle, but Ed knew Ling's face well enough to spot them even if he couldn't be sure what they meant on Greed. The corners of his lips twitched as if fighting a smile, his eyebrows furrowed in the barest start of a frown. occasionally he tilted his head as if listening to someone or formed his mouth around words without vocalization. There was no one else around, and he wasn't talking to Ed, so all signs pointed to Greed and Ling having some sort of internal conversation. Really the fact that he was sitting quietly supported that hypothesis; the Greed they'd met in Dublith had never shut up, and this version had seemed just as chatty back in Central.
If Ling was aware and strong enough to keep a running commentary to Greed, he might be able to seize another opportunity to take back control of his body. If nothing else, maybe the dumbass could annoy the homunculus into trading a few minutes conversation for some peace and quiet.
Or maybe he'd annoy Greed too much and get his consciousness completely destroyed, pushed so deep into the philosopher's stone it would never resurface. Greed may have turned on the other homunculi, but that didn't mean he was a good person now. For all Ed knew he might hold no more value for human life than the rest of his wacko little "family".
Ling could be in very real danger, could already be suffering, and there was nothing Ed could do about it, he couldn't even know for sure, and what kind of useless boyfriend-
Greed broke the silence with a low growl, effectively interrupting the spiral of doom Ed's thought had been trapped in. He was glaring at Ed now, apparently having caught on to all the staring and not appreciating it. The growl sounded more frustrated than aggressive, but still. Ed shifted, getting ready to jump to his feet and run or fight if necessary.
"Alright short stack, if you're gonna sit there angsting at me all night you could at least tell me what your deal is."
Ed shot to his feet, hands balled into fists as he shouted down at Greed, "Who are you calling short?! I'll kick your ass right now!" So much for not flying off the handle, but a man had to have standards.
Greed didn't rise to meet him. He looked calmly up at him from his seated position, apparently completely unconcerned with Ed's rage. He looked more amused than anything, which did nothing to improve Ed's mood.
"Yeah, sure you will," Greed agreed, too easily to be anything but patronizing. "But seriously, would you tell me what your problem with me is? As your new leader, I can't have this kind of hostility from my henchmen."
Ed bristled at the henchman comment, but bit back any retort to it. He had agreed to following Greed after all, and it really wouldn't bother him if he wasn't already so pissed.
"My problem with you?" Ed scoffed. "Well, putting aside what happened in Dublith-"
Ed cut himself off sharply when pain flashed across Greed's face, different from how Ling would wear it but still unmistakable. It occurred to him that everyone Greed had known in Dublith had ended up dead, and that Ling had been pretty vague about what had caused Greed to freak out and let him gain control.
Maybe poking that particular sore spot wasn't the best idea. Ed might not have a reputation as the nice Elric brother, but he didn't try to be outright cruel.
Before Ed could beat himself up too much about putting such a sad look on Ling's face, even by proxy, it disappeared behind Greed's usual smug expression.
"What happened in Dublith, huh?" he asked. "I thought I remembered seeing you there. Honestly though, that whole scene's a little fuzzy, so I still don't know why you're looking at me like you wanna kill me."
"You kidnapped my brother and beat the shit out of me!" Feeling bad about how things turned out didn't give Greed a pass for starting the whole mess.
Greed tilted his head. "Huh? Doesn't everyone do shit like that to you, though? I mean, you said those chimera guys were trying to kill you when you met."
"That's..." Ed faltered. Technically it wasn't an incorrect assessment. Lots of people attacked him when meeting him for the first time, and he didn't usually hold a grudge over it. Hell, Ling had ordered his personal guards to beat some answers out of Ed and Al, and then Ed had agreed to go on a date with him a few hours later. Lan Fan hadn't pulled her punches either.
But just because their fight in Dublith hadn't been too out of the ordinary (god his life was weird) didn't mean Ed didn't still have plenty of reason to hate Greed.
"Fine then, maybe I'm pissed because you're possessing Ling! You stole his body and now you're walking around wearing his face, doing who knows what to him in there, and you won't fucking let him go!"
"Whoa whoa whoa." Greed held up his hands as if trying to hold back Ed's anger. He didn't look exactly apologetic, but he'd dropped the smirk and seemed to be taking the conversation seriously for the first time. "Couple of problems with all that. One, it wasn't my idea to possess the guy. I can't exactly control what dear old dad does with my stone when I don't have a body, and it's not like I can just leave once I'm in here. Two, I didn't steal shit. He agreed to give me his body. We had a whole conversation about it. This is my body now, and you not liking it doesn't change the fact that it was Ling's choice. And three, I'm not doing anything to him. If anything it's what he's doing to me, damn princely brat's been talking my ear off since I got this body, it's seriously annoying.”
Ed really wished he could believe that.
“So you're not torturing him to prove you're better than humans or punish him for defying you or whatever? Because I talked to Envy about how you homunculi feel about humans, and it doesn't seem like you'd be cool with sharing a body just like that.”
Greed gasped and put a hand to his chest like he'd been shot. “Did you just compare me to Envy? Envy's a fucking asshole! Their whole ‘humans are garbage I'm so much better’ thing is their own personal problem, I don't give a shit about any of that. Humans, chimera, any of the other homunculi that don't end up dead, it doesn't matter. They'll all belong to me once I take over the world!”
Ed should maybe be concerned about his new ally casually bringing up world domination, but he couldn't really bring himself to care.
“You're serious? Ling's really okay?”
Greed rolled his eyes. “Yeah, he's fine. I keep saying I don’t lie, but no ever listens. Look, he agreed to let me have his body-which makes him my possession-and I take good care of my things. He's got nothing to complain about!” Greed paused, tilting his head slightly, then pinched the bridge of his nose. “Actually, he's great at finding things to complain about, but since I don't need to eat and I also can't control the amount of screaming from people who are grumpy they got turned into a rock, none of his complaints are my problem.”
Ed’s right knee went weak with relief. The left stayed strong, Winry's handy work as sturdy as ever, but he sat down heavily anyway, finally giving up his position standing over Greed.
He'd been trying not to think about it-and there'd been one crisis after the other to distract him-but it had been eating at Ed, not knowing if Ling was okay. And after sending his best friend and baby brother off with a literal serial killer and hoping for the best, the accumulated weight of uncertainty about the fates of his loved ones had been almost too much to bear. Now hearing that Ling hadn't been suffering horribly, that he wasn't in any danger (or at least not from the being controlling his body) had Ed feeling so much lighter he almost didn't know what to do with himself.
Maybe he was crazy for taking Greed's word for it, but he sounded so sincere. Really there was no reason for him to lie, it wasn't like Ed could do anything about it if he had been hurting Ling. If anything he'd probably want to gloat if he was anything like Envy (and it seemed like maybe he wasn’t).
Looking back, Ling hadn't seemed that bad off at the cabin. Sure he'd collapsed, but he just kind of did that sometimes. He'd bounced right back after eating, just like he had back in Rush Valley, and Central, and Gluttony's stomach. Greed kept complaining about Ling being annoying, but now that Ed was a few more steps away from panic he realized there had been a hint of fondness in his voice as he did so. And, well. Ed could understand finding Ling extremely irritating in an endearing sort of way.
“What’s your guys’ deal anyway?” Greed interrupted Ed's thoughts.
“Our–What?”
Greed waved a hand impatiently. “You know, you’re obsessed with each other. First Ling was all ‘Stop fighting Ed, you might hurt him. No I can’t tell you where Lan Fan is, you have to find Ed and give him the message. I wonder where Ed is. I hope Ed’s okay. Hey, we should totally join Ed’s stupid little group and wander through the woods together!’ And now you won’t stop creepy staring at my face and you’re having some kinda breakdown over the idea that he might possibly be unhappy. It’s weird.”
“Ling didn’t tell you?” Ed tried not to let himself feel too hurt by that. There could be lots of reasons for Ling to keep their relationship to himself. Even if he was apparently talking to Greed all the time, there must be a good reason he never brought up Ed in the months they'd been apart.
“No! He won’t shut up about anything else. Yapping on and on about Xing, and his clan, and Lan Fan and Fu, and he mentions you constantly, but every time I ask about you he says it’s none of my business. Can you believe that? He’s my possession, his business is my business! Not to mention he’s thinking about it inside my brain, which makes it double my business.”
That made a certain kind of sense. It was probably hard having any privacy while sharing your body with another person, so of course Ling might want to keep something to himself. And, Ed remembered, Greed's stupid speech about wanting everything rather pointedly included women. He maybe wouldn't appreciate the fact that his new body’s owner was dating a man when he himself was aggressively straight.
“If Ling says it's none of your business then it's none of your business.” Even if Ed didn't love being kept a secret, he wouldn't betray Ling by giving out information he wanted to keep private.
“Ugh, come on!” Greed whined, flopping back dramatically to lay on the ground. “I'm the one in charge here and still no one tells me anything. You even looked all sad about me not knowing, and yet you're not gonna–”
Greed cut himself off mid sentence and sat back up to look at Ed.
“Your boyfriend?”
Somehow Ed got the idea the question wasn't for him even though Greed was staring right at him.
A grin grew slowly across Greed's face.
“Our boyfriend.”
The hell did that mean?!
SMACK
Before Ed could react, almost faster than his eyes could follow, Greed raised his right hand and slapped himself across the face.
“Ow! What the hell, Ling?” Greed pushed his right hand down by the wrist before reaching up with his left to rub his cheek. “That fucking hurt, you asshole! Why–you know I can't understand the Xingese when you talk that fast. Stop yelling at me!”
“What did you mean by–”
“Give us a minute,” Greed said, holding up a finger in Ed's direction.
“No I will not give you a minute!” Ed yelled. “You can't just say some crap like that then ignore me! Explain what you're talking about right now or I swear I'm gonna…”
Greed was no longer looking at Ed. He was staring off into the distance, eyes unfocused. If Ed had to guess, he'd say the homunculus was so tuned in to whatever argument he was having with Ling he wasn't even hearing Ed anymore. No amount of yelling would help with that, and despite popular belief to the contrary, Ed could recognize a losing battle when he saw one. He just usually chose to fight them anyway.
Ed picked up a twig from the ground and threw it at Greed's face. It bounced off his nose and he blinked, eyes focusing back on Ed with a startled look.
“If you're going to talk about me in front of me, at least have your half of the conversation out loud, would you?”
Greed nodded. “Yeah that's fair.” He shifted his gaze slightly, looking near but not directly at Ed as he continued. “I don't see what the problem is. He's your boyfriend, and you're mine, so it makes sense–yes that is how it works, it's science.”
Ed already wasn't crazy about how this conversation was going. “When you say he's yours–”
“What do you mean we're not dating?” Greed sounded genuinely confused now. “You agreed to share your body with me, and you asked me to rule a country with you! How is that not–Oh, so you can have fifty wives, but two boyfriends is too–”
“He's not gonna have fifty wives,” Ed interrupted. “He's getting rid of–”
“Yeah yeah, we're doing away with that custom, I know.” Greed waved a hand in Ed's direction as he spoke, still looking at nothing as he had been for his whole conversation with Ling, as if responding to both of them at the same time.
“Why are you getting so worked up over this anyway?” Ed asked. “Aren't you straight?”
Greed's eyes snapped to Ed's face, expression scandalized. “Aren't I what?” he gasped, as if this was the most offensive thing anyone had ever said to him.
“Straight?” Ed didn't see what the big deal was, it had seemed like a fair assumption. “You had a whole speech about wanting women or whatever.”
“I'm Greed.” He spoke slowly, as if explaining something obvious that he'd been forced to go over many times. “I want everything. Gender isn't even a factor for me. Honestly I don't get why humans are so obsessed with it. People would get weird sometimes if I mentioned wanting men too, so I stopped saying that part to avoid the hassle. Still, I can't believe I’ve been giving off straight vibes.” He looked down and tugged at his coat. “Maybe it's the outfit? I told his highness he should have let me pick out better clothes. There was this great vest and also these awesome sunglasses I wanted to get, but he wouldn't go for it. Kept bitching about how awful they were until I chose something more simple.”
“Oh yeah, you had something like that the first time I met you. That was such a cool look!” Ed had pretty much hated Greed's guts back in Dublith, but he couldn't deny the man had style.
“Thank you!” Greed threw up his hands. “Ya hear that, Ling? He thinks it's cool too…Hey, don't call me and our boyfriend tacky in the same way, asshole! Huh? Oh, good point.”
Greed turned back to Ed, leaning forward and fixing him with a serious look. “Hey, do you want to date me too, instead of just Ling?”
“Uh…” Ed hesitated, debating for a moment whether the personification of greed would respond well to being denied something he wanted. Then again, Ling wouldn't have had him ask Ed if he thought the reaction would be dangerous. And he had asked, rather than just demanding. “No, not really. I don't even know you.”
Greed sat back with a shrug. “Oh, okay. Was worth a shot.”
“Really? You're cool with me just dating Ling?” Ed had been expecting at least a bit of an argument.
“Well, yeah.” Greed said. “People have to want to be mine, or else what's the point? Kind of sucks that Ling will have something I don't, but that's just the way it'll have to be. You're still my henchman after all, so it's not like you don't belong to me anyway. Besides,” Greed smiled at Ed, “there's plenty of time between now and the promised day for you to get to know me.”
An hour ago Ed would have taken that statement as mocking at best, and maybe as a downright threat. But now that he knew that Ling was not only okay but on good terms with the deadly sin inhabiting his body, and after having what was by his standards a perfectly friendly conversation with the guy, Ed was willing to see it a bit more charitably. Greed's smile was genuine, nothing taunting or creepy in the expression at all. In fact, if there was any similarity between how Ling and Greed showed their emotions, he might be trying to hide a bit of nervousness.
Ed smiled back at Greed. “Yeah, I guess maybe there is,” he said, then laughed when Greed's mouth dropped open in shock. “It’s getting late. I'm gonna get some sleep. Goodnight Greed and goodnight Ling.”
The last thing Ed heard before sleep claimed him was Greed talking quietly as he threw more wood onto the campfire.
Ed got up to find a soft patch of ground to sleep on, only half listening to Greed stumble over his words as he wished him a goodnight from himself and Ling. Ed felt himself drifting off as soon as he laid down, more tired than he'd realized.
“Wow, I didn't think I'd get that far. I'm totally going to show him I'd be the best boyfriend ev–Ling, do not slap me again, you pissant, I swear to god!”
#fma#fmab#edward elric#greed fma#greedling#edling#greed/ed#greed/ed/ling#<-seriously what is the ship name for that? because all i can think of is gredling and thats completely unacceptable#is this based on that bugs bunny meme joke post i made a while back?#yes#did it get away from me and end having a few thousand words of introspection and moping before i got to the joke?#also yes#its the duality of man#anyway i think all three of them should date#ed has two hands most of the time#and he doesn't even need both of them because ling and greed share a body
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ive just rediscovered an old wip of mine and im having so much fun right now. like i havent opened the document since early 2020 and genuinely forgot it existed yet there's 90k words and so much lore and elements of basic concepts that made it to my present writing in far cooler and more complex ways and the writing isn't great but there's potential to it and idk. it's been a while since i wrote something privately and while i hugely prefer the way i do it now where i actually have a community with it and dont hole myself away and act like it's a huge shame thing, there's still something hugely reasuring about knowing this is something ive always done and that actually i was always drawn to it and had potential and that's something to remember for when my writing block gets bad or i convince myself Everything Ive Ever Done Is Awful
#like this story is one where if i tackled it with my writing abilities now it would genuinely be really good#that's how sound the basic premise is. and i have SO many wips like that with tens of thousands of words to them#and i was doing this for ZERO reward ZERO attention i wouldnt tell a SOUL not even my family#i truly just have always loved and NEEDED to write. that is such a cool thing to be able to say#anyway yeah this wip lowkey fucks. like there's lots of aspects to it that are cringe and telling of the fact i was writing it at age 16#but the fact i came up with something so fleshed out at SIXTEEN??? insane#and this isnt even one of my big older wips. i have three that immediately come to mind that were sooo much bigger than this#like on the shorter end being 100k words and larger end easily being near 300k words#and they were JUST FOR ME like i didnt even know what ao3 WAS and i never spoke to anyone about my writing#and they WERENT FANDOM BASED. i was just casually coming up with super original detailed and COMEPLLING worlds#and characters and plots with complex twists and tropes and i was just doing it for shits#that's so fucking cool. did you ever think you'd see the day i gave past hella a pat on the back bc i didn't
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Dont mind me:3
I- Tsu.. You didn't need to... But.. Yeah, uh... Thanks..😅💛
(no pressure, but if you can read the tags, I'd be happy! and that doesn't just apply to tsu but to everyone)
#I know this is a sign of affection. but sometimes it gets in the way a bit when you go to see how the content is “doing”..#for me. it's not necessary to reblog the same post so many times. even if you really like it. show affection behind words. for example.#because I don't necessarily care.#but reblogging so many times (more than once or twice) gets in the way a bit when I go to check how the blog is#growing and getting recognized...#don't get me wrong. I'm really happy that you like my content.#it's really an honor to receive so much affection and I would like to reciprocate too!#but if I'm going to ask you for something. try to reblog just once or twice now. okay?#I really like you. tsu. and I appreciate all the affection. you are very special to me and I love seeing you enjoying my things.#so I apologize a thousand times if this makes you sad. but I needed to say and ask this..#If you don't want to do it. that's fine. but at most trying (who knows. reblogging three or four times) would be good. I would be very happy#! and I would even like to receive a “like/heart” from you. seeing you always liking and reblogging. it's really great.#so I would really appreciate it if you could follow my suggestion and I hope you have a wonderful day/nigh! ^^#tsutsuji#my friend <3#send asks#send me asks#asks#i'm mel and this is my blog✌️#my art blog#art#my art#my art <3#art mel#my art style#mel creator#my oc character
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If you became super rich and could design your own house, but could only add THREE unnecessary/random/expensive home additions (like how people will have bowling alleys, movie theatres, closets with museums of shoes, car display rooms, spa rooms, wine cellars, etc. in their mansions) - what three would you choose?
#I think I would have: an indoor pool (but like heavily customized with a faux weather system so I could get the feeling of swimming in#rain or fog or snow etc.). a very small arcade consisting only of skee-ball and DDR machines. and an old Library Room with authentic#historical furniture/interior design to store old books/tapestries/study room equipment/whatever other antiques I'd collect. It'd be#like some fully intricate movie set or something that would feel completely like stepping into another world/time.#Though I might would trade out the arcade for a roller skating rink.. i DO love skating....#And I wouldve put rock climbing gym because I love indoor rock climbing but.. as I understand it they have to change out the rock things#on the walls every once in a while so that you can have new routes and it doesnt get boring. and I'd rather have an activty room thats like#self sustaining and doesnt require me to hire some person to come switch things around once every month. Otherwise I would#totally do that instead.#I'm also personally not counting ''craft'' type stuff like having a pottery room kiln sort of thing because#that doesn't count as 'unnessecary' to me. since stuff like that would not at all be just a hobby I 'happen to#do sometimes for fun'#but would definitely be a career sort of thing. Like if I had the money for a fully stocked sculpture room and and a sewing room#with a good machine and etc. then I would literally be professionally selling pottery and designing clothing and etc.#so I wouldn't count it as 'just a random side room I dont need' etc.#The same way that if I played tennis professionally or as a very intense hobby that takes up most of my life/time#then I wouldn't count having a tennis court in your house to practice in as 'unncesscarry' etc.#wow that is the worst I have ever spelt that word ghbjh#Un Cess Carry#ALSO would obviously have an underground bunker of some sort with food and emergency supplies which also does not count as unnecessary to m#since it's literally like... survival.. And I thought most health organizations literally reccomend that even#the common person has a small 'go bag' prepared in their house. and like an evacuation plan in case of fire or other things#It WOULD be an unnecessary rich person thing to have a full on undergRound village or something stocked with 9000 guns and#whaetever. but I think just a basic emergency room with basic supplies could still be counted under the 'not unnecessary' requirement.#Like I would say that a sprawling courtyard of flower gardens and fountains and hedge mazes that takes up like a hundred thousand#dollars a year in maintenance would count as one of the three 'unnecessary and expensive' things. But having a small garden in the#back yard with a few planters in a little greenhouse or whatever would not. The 'excessiveness' of the thing matters lol#ANYWAY!!!#Just curious what other peoples Three Main things would be... hrrmm
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Whether you like fanfic or hate it you kind of have to respect some of these people for just generating insane amounts of words that have basically no internal value like just chapter after chapter of the same interaction in a different setting every time to the point that it kind of eliminates all potential tension. Like ok they're baking together. Let me guess they're going to notice how close their faces are and describe features they like in each other in their internal dialogues and have a meaningful looking at each other moment and then bashfully look away while resuming overmixing this cake batter and then have some more internal dialogue about how they don't know what that was or what they want and it is forbidden but the other guy wouldn't want them anyway. And then next chapter they're gonna do that again while assembling an ikea desk. And then the one after that they're gonna do the same thing but then also fight about it. And then this is all going to culminate in a graphic sex scene for some reason at which point the reader will realize that that is the only part the author was actually interested in writing but wanted there to be like 60 thousand words of buildup to that for some reason. Like it or hate it their wordcounts are nuts
#talk#When I was a teenager there was one I liked which I will NOT name or even say what it was about#except thst it was this exact progression with a bunch of DIFFERENT couples over and over and over and over for#THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY THOUSAND WORDS written across only about two years in tandem with at least two smaller projects#With the same characters#Like that's crazy mqn I couldn't do thst even if I didn't care about the quality of my writing#I just don't have thst much energy
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A thing I pre-ordered months ago has shipped!
What's the thing?
Keepsake Quilting, and several other quilt companies/stores, put a sort of gift box together with fabric, notions, patterns, and gift cards in them. You don't know what you're getting, making it a surprise. I have never purchased one because they're expensive. This was 50% upfront, 50% when shipped, for a total of $150. Considering how much is in it, and what reviews were left the last several years, it's a steal. Plus, I wanna treat myself after having such a stressful and unpleasant year.
My mom and one of aunts have ordered such boxes in the past, but according to my mom, they're disappointing because she has so many of the things in the package, or no use for many of them. Rulers (some of which cost $30), needles, rotary cutters and extra blades (blades can be $10/each, new cutters up to $50), fabric marking tools (chalk pencils, disappearing ink, etc), precut fabric collections (jelly rolls can be $80, fat quarter collections up to $100 depending on number of FQs), and yardage ($12.99-$21.99/yard). She's been disappointed by "ugly" fabric too many times.
I, on the other hand, have significantly fewer tools. I make things for people to buy, and some folks love fabric I cannot stand (like x-mas and patriotic prints). There have been fabrics I consider well and truly hideous, and those I list in my shop or sell to people here. One person's trash is another's treasure, right? I've met people who think pastels are ugliest things to have ever existed. I think baby pink and green military camouflage look fantastic together, as well as turquoise and light hemp brown or terracotta and peacock blue. My mom finds them hideous. I think pink and any shade of brown look terrible together, or red and khaki (likely from working at Target and seeing is everywhere). Again, personal taste.
If any of you ever fancy treating me to one of these random collections of fabric and/or notions, feel free to do so. They're the sort of surprise I enjoy (that and people purchasing my work, especially from my shop). Sure, there are things that may he of no use to me, but others can use them. Nothing goes to waste.
This package will be arriving on November 18th, and has me giggling with excitement!
#words from the artist#my year has been filled with my husband nearly dying and us having thousands of dollars in medical bills to pay AFTER#the financial aid program forgave three of the six bills. we have around $5k of thag left to pay off#and one of the bills has gone to collections#plus my ear issues that cleared up after over six months of torment. my husband had to quit his previous job because working in#kitchens was slowly killing him and is now working fulltime in theory but not getting enough hours#i've sold virtually nothing and have had to beg for aid because not enough money due to lack of hours and lack of sales#my asthma throwing a fit and my sewing room being entirely too hot to work in and remaining that way for weeks at a time#then my left wrist being injured and leaving me unable to do virtually anything.#my husband then being taken to court by Unemployment three years after receiving the money. oh and being denied Unemployment#this year so for 10 weeks were on thoughts and prayers while he hunted for a non-kitchen job#plus his major surgery over the summer that was 100% covered by financial aid because we opted for a different hospital#there have been good things like he has insurance now and i'm abke to walk without feeling like i'm walking on glass#plus a few commissions over the summer. but those have been among the very few good things. oh and he won his court case#i would just like to have the rest of the year be filled with good things like all or most of my listed quilts selling. someone#commissioning me to finish the quilts i have listed as available to handquilting. the tops are finished but if i finish the quilts#completely they're gonna take up sooooo much space. even folded and rolled up. i store them in plastic bins to protect them but the#bins take up a lot of space. people praise my work and tell me hoe much they wanna buy it or will buy the things as soon as i list them...#and then no one buys them and the things just hang in my closet or rest in a bin. it's extremely disheartening to be repeatedly#disappointed. it has made me cry and question if it's worth making anything at all.
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girls in the college of winterhold questline... what horrors will they experience...
#just wrote nearly three thousand words of The Horrors#and we haven't even left saarthal yet babes#I'm not even joking when I say I'm sooo scared. what if their story becomes tragic and fucked up and I can't stop it#I will fight tooth and nail for them to have a good ending just bc my heart can't take it if they don't#oc tag#efri#sissel#kazari
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Ahh!! I'm coming up to a follower milestone and I was trying to think of what I could do to celebrate! So, here's a poll, please help me to decide 😊
#me#polls#idk guys what should i do???#im like five followers away so it might still take a while haha#idk what to even do with cetbwa for this but i know a lot of people followed me because of it so like... there has to be something to do#i feel like doing prompt submissions would be better fun for everyone and would be a good way to say thank you to you all#but by previous experience i can only do like three before i give up and i want to do more than that haha#i could try to limit myself and not do thousands of words for each prompt and hopefully i could do more haha#i could certainly try#idk what do you guys think??#id like to continue a few of my other bits too#i should really try and collate them all in a proper tag#i need a proper writing tag what should it be????#one question at a time haha#or what else could i do???#idk whats a thought?#ooooh but excited for the milestone though how fun!
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okay. ten thirty am. four thousand words behind schedule. house a mess. maybe seven hours of daylight left. lets fuckin go
#think ill put on some of the music i saw last night that might get me in the zone for a little bit at least#the goal today is to balance sprints with chores and see how far i get#if i can even get like. two or three thousand of these words. itll put me in a better position for tomorrow#ideally i'd get out ahead of myself since i KNOW i fall behind during the work week#but that's not happening i just dont have the time#and i will miss out on an hour tomorrow bc i have an appointment in the morning so i won't be able to write then#but woudl i have been anyway? if i didnt have the appt.#id probably sleep in#so we'll see#nanowrimo 2023
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Yeah, I could finish that WIP I started months ago, or I can start a new project and spend all week hyperfixating on it as I shirk all of my other day-to-day responsibilities.
#i promise i will edit more cosplay photos soon#i just need to... write more fanfiction first#and this one isn't even related to my other three chapters#i visited new york yesterday and the snails in my ears started telling me that i need to write a fluff fic before i can do anything else#sorry they're the boss around here i am but a simple peon#gosh i'm really happy with how this chapter is coming out but i feel like it's gonna be super long#who wants to read my few thousand word essay about my date with kiba in central park?#anyone??#i'm also going to base it partially on the billy joel song “uptown girl”#which is also the name of the chapter#please accept my humble fangirl offerings my fellow kiba enjoyers
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fighting for my LIFE BUT I SHALL PREVAIL
#I HAVE TO BELIEVE#in case you were curious: i am three thousand words into this godforsaken sex scene and we're not even CLOSE to done#but by god i am being so brave about it#when i am finished it is going to feel so good#you already knew i was the slowest writer on earth but i think this just confirms it lol
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generals. majors, even.
#xtc posting and it’s not even funny…how to alienate a thousand people in three words ❤️#anyway sorry ive been listening to my black sea record that album bangs so hard...generals and majors uh har...are never too far...#from battlefields so glorious!!#xtc mutuals you must be out there somewhere surely. i am a little boat on a cold black sea at night looking for you like the rays of a#lighthouse xx where are you!!
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girl help i started writing a fic for fun over a year ago and now it’s over 50k long, has a timeline document and a dedicated notebook for ironing out structure and plot issues
#it’s also not even done it is at most three quarters of the way there#so that’s like. at least sixteen thousand more words or four more chapters#this is fun I’m having fun (affirmation)#Alex talks
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Suicide, ed, self harm, too! I have like a dozen of those variation tags blocked because I already had the main tags blocked.
You heard me.
I had to see the same repeated, triggering content dozens of times, because not only were the t//4gs getting PAST my blocked tags.
But for every su1c1de tag, there was suic1de, su1cide, su1c1d3, and MORE.
Not only are you not helping anyone, you're REPEATEDLY showing triggering content to the people who NEED and HAVE blocked it out.
Your resistance to tagging is annoying at best, harmful ar worst, and it's a bunch of perfomative bullshit.
What the fuck is this??????????
Folks: you CANNOT censor trigger tags. When you block a tag, it doesn't block other "spellings" of it. Writing it as "r@pe" or "r4p3" means that someone who has "tw rape" as a blocked tag will still see that post because you didn't wanna say the word rape. You are hurting people. Do not censor words, because people do not have those filtered out.
And honestly if you can't even write the word rape to protect other people then you probably aren't old/mature enough to be on this website.
#I don't want to see your pro self harm shit#I don't want to see your thinspo or ed glorification#don't fucking write it e///d and th1nspo or th1nsp0 or what the fuck ever#several nights where mt mental health was EXTREMELY LOW I had to come across the SAME TRIGGERS MULTIPLE TIMES#because I couldn't block out every single version of pro 4n4 or an4 or 4na#bruh#don't even get me started on cuts#how many times can you misspell a three letter word??#a fucking thousand
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