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World’s youngest, most talented astronaut and you’re asking him about us 💀
Why don’t you ask him about 3’s retroburners unless you’re too stupid
hey alan. If u were going to pick some sisters in law, who would u choose for ur brothers?
@squidsinashirt is this what you meant by weird anons
Uuhhhhhhh? I don't care that much about their love lives to be honest. I mean, Gordon has this really obvious thing for Lady P, but other than that... John's in space all the time so like, when would he meet people anyway? and Scott and Virgil are so busy anyway, I'm not sure they have time for anyone but their ships.
#gordos grumpy#not even left my bed yet#please leave my baby brother alone anon#already plotting#thunderbirds rp#thundersocials#gordons squid thoughts
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getting an email about a fic update at 1:30 am and knowing that I have to be up in 5 hours to get ready for work so I should just go to bed even though I've been waiting on the edge of my seat for a new chapter for ages
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sleep deprived, battling a nasty headache and feeling unreal
do I goth it up anyway? or will the bat's nest hair and make up make my life harder?
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Alright, you definitely should have listened to the village elders this time. Wandering too deep into the forest was a bad idea. They could have been more specific about what “too deep” meant though.
All you wanted to do was see if there were any valuable herbs in the area. You had heard rumors that if you went slightly beyond the usual reach of the villagers, a little to the west, you would find ingredients for most potential of healing potions. You didn’t think heeding the advice would cost you much; it was supposed to be only a little further, right? But which way was west again…
Before you knew it, you had gotten lost. Of course, forests always looked somewhat the same, but after 20 years of living in the same village, you came to recognize the areas you had always played, worked, and relaxed in. A tree that bent a little to the left; that boulder that looked like a fist without a thumb; the lightning-struck tree trunk, too heavy to be moved, blocking what used to be a path. You knew when you were near your home by the atmosphere alone.
And now you recognized nothing you saw.
It wasn’t dark yet - wouldn’t be for a long time - but you were still getting the shivers of being outside at night. This part of the forest was creepy. You didn’t know how else to describe it - threatening? It felt like something was out to get you. Or for that matter, anyone foolish enough to disturb the peace of whatever dwelled inside.
You stopped. Turned to look back — had you seen wrong? You must have — and turned back ahead. There was... It was like there was a line drawn on the ground. A border.
You looked to your right, then left. No, it really was… as strange as it seemed, it was clearly a huge circle. You were standing just outside it.
And everything inside was dead.
The grass was sickly, pale yellow, almost white, like after a scorching hot summer with too little rain. Trees gray and bare, bark flaking, crispy leaves lying sadly on the ground. Thousands of insect carcasses everywhere, a couple of dead birds and — oh no — a lone rabbit. All completely lifeless. How could this be?
You took a step back. Was this maybe… The work of magic? A fiendish warlock wielding dark sorcery?
You didn’t know much about magic; there weren’t many capable of using it in your tiny village, and the mages you knew were neither malicious nor the tiniest bit adventurous with it. But it was the only explanation you could come up with. Nature couldn’t do this on its own.
You felt a rush of excitement at the thought. Magic had always fascinated you. With nobody around to teach the craft, you had abandoned the idea of pursuing it years ago, but… It was exhilarating seeing its impact. Foul as this magic was, it drew you in - and if nothing inside was alive, it couldn’t do you any harm either. You had come so far; why not investigate a little?
You had barely taken two steps on the lifeless grass when you heard a soft voice plead: “Don’t come closer.”
You froze. Had there been a person around? Was it a bandit? Or, wait, maybe they could help you find your way home-
“Please get away from me,” asked the stranger again, even more desperate this time. Their voice was getting raspier, breaking towards the end of the sentence. Whoever it was must have been either sick or grievously injured. Perhaps you would have to help them more than they could help you.
You squinted your eyes, and finally caught a glimpse of a figure behind two trees.
He looked around your age. But not in such good health, as you had suspected. He was holding onto the tree, hunching, and the distance between you wasn't enough to hide the tremble of his hands or the hollowness in his eyes.
"Please, " he repeated, each word weaker yet more fearful than the last. "I can only bring misery. You must leave while you still can!"
His fear was contagious. You couldn't fight the shiver running along your spine nor the cold sweat erching your brow. It was like even the Sun knew better than to approach this self-proclaimed harbinger.
But you had always been too curious for your own good, much to your mother's chagrin. Weren't you an apprentice in the art of medicine? Wasn't this stranger in clear need of help? You couldn't just leave him alone to rot in his miserable circle of decay.
You forced a smile - sort of - and took a step closer. The stranger grabbed his face, screamed, and collapsed on his knees. You saw white and felt a strong gust of wind knock you off your feet.
And then there was nothing.
#my stuff#creative writing#original fiction#well. kind of#you see i used to write and take requests for x reader fics back in the day#this is. a rejected zeref x reader.#life zeref from fairy tail.#i wroteca little and thought oh boy scoob there's like no way i can make this even remotely romantic#so i left it to gather dust for years#then a zine i was applying to asked for a sample that wasn't published anywhere yet (if memory serves..?#did i just interpret it that way somehow...)#and i decided to vacuum the shit out of this one. make it fantasy. commit to the unhappy ending#i think it came out nicely :>#((WAIT I SHOULD SPECIFY. I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE ZINE I JUST REBLOGGED ABOUT. THIS ONE WAS A YEAR OR TWO AGO))#me? not writing contemporary realism? it's more likely than you think#((it isn't. don't expect more))#it's secret santa season meaning I'm feverishly writing anything but my assignment#man i wrote SUCH a good Yosuke-centric fic in my head last night. such potent and evocative prose.#but alas it was already an hour past my bed time in a weekday so i couldn't write it down immediately#and it was lost to time....#i only remember the bare bones idea...#the tags are a part in theyr own again. good bye#second person narration
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wow what if i watched some bnha........................ that would be so crazy
#i dont even remember where i left off tbh#and o darn i cancelled hulu hmmmm#i remember i stopped right before the war arc bc i hadnt read it in the manga yet#tbh i still havent#but i have the volume next to my bed for when i cant sleep#but ive been too caught up in my sudoku games recently#(and before that spider solitaire ... and before that crossward puzzles... for months)#but i digress#anyway uhhhhh#i will search and decide once i make dinner#caitie blabs
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my brother can make me laugh without moving at all. he can make me laugh on command, just by existing, and there is no physical tell or indication that it is about to happen. it’s like he can will me to laugh and i will. of course we’re not telepathic, but we do speak in unison sometimes. we improvise like no one’s business. we could fool anyone into believing we are psychically linked. when i try to explain it, i sound silly saying it out loud, but i really CAN tell what he’s thinking. we exchange so much information just with a look. he can make me cry laughing and he doesn’t even have to move
#i miss him so much i need him back i need him to live next to me again. i need to mooch off his wifi from my porch and invite him over#i miss him so much.#he’s only 2 minutes younger but he feels years younger. and yet i think we’re two halves of one soul#i’ve always babied him not even in a mean or diminishing way but i felt this need to protect him#because he tends to be so naive and so shy#but. i am so proud of him. i need to show him off to everyone and i need everyone to understand how funny and charming he is#it feels like i grew up and left him where he will remain 11 forever. i miss him more than moving back home can fix#i miss him in ways that have nothing to do with the distance between our locations#but. it would certainly help to be able to see him every day#i keep smelling the carpet in his room and it’s so vivid. i remember the countless hours we spent developing huge wood block cities#and we would drive hot wheels over the wooden raceways we had made. we were actually quite coordinated and autistic about it#we were always building things together#just recently me and him talked on the phone about an old mlp au we came up with. all original characters and shit#it was super extensive and very clever#i STILL think it would make a really cool book series or something#i remember watching him play army men RTS gamecube on the wii. i STILL listen to the soundtrack to that game like…. daily#i remember walking into my room once where he was watching a show. and he was crying#and he NEVER cries over tv#but he was crying because his favorite character had resigned from the organization that the series was based around#and he was so distraught that she was leaving.#i remember when all 3 of us slept in one room. i remember when me and him were in bunk beds across the room#and we would sneak out of bed right as the parents left and stayed up playing by the light of the nightlight#the way we raced back into bed when the parents were approaching 😭#my mom always says she’s sad that i seem to remember so little of my life. like every story of my youth is news to me lmao#but i feel like i remember the most important parts? i think so#i remember how mom woke me up in the night to ask me to roll over because my bro could see my face from where he was sleeping#and he was scared because there was a weird shadow cast on my face that made it look like a skull which was making it hard for him to sleep#it was. so funny. i begrudgingly rolled over#i don’t know. it’s just that there isn’t a single instance i bring up that my brother does not also remember.#no matter how tiny or specific. we shared everything growing up
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Well, today was absolutely rotten, but food does make me feel less like exploding from the stress and disappointment. I'm never gonna not be mad that self-maintenance actually, y'know, works.
But I can be mad and grateful at the same time. I'm complicated like that.
#my district manager is coming in tomorrow to help with an event and the store is being left to me --#a baby manager with three weeks of experience -- and the dumbass who was hired before me and SHOULD be better at this than i am and YET...#he's been doing SLIGHTLY better this past week than he has been but. jesus wept. he's barely competent.#and if he doesn't shape up i'm gonna ship him out myself#in a box. fold him up with the transfers. he's someone else's problem now.#but I'M the opening manager tomorrow so I'M probably the one who's gonna be working with the DM the most#and i am. so nervous. and maybe even kinda scared?#like. i don't wanna screw this up and let people down. but i know if i put too much pressure on myself i'm gonna collapse.#so i'm kinda wallking a tightrope here and that is also kinda stressing me out#because am i worrying the right amount of worry#which is BLATANTLY overthinking things and I Should Stop That and Go To Bed
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#so... I injured my shoulder while trying to avoid falling out of bed and now I need to rest#which is horrible because it's the weekend and I wanted to spend as much time on my computer as possible#and I didn't even finish my countdown yet#hopefully tomorrow it won't hurt as much as is hurting right now#I feel like so stupid right now because I literally left the last post of my countdown to make it “later” and now maybe I can't finish it#and I'm so mad about it UGH#anyway that's it........ it is what it is I can't stress out I'm already in pain
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Chapter 4 for my Hot Summer Art challenge fic
Posting twice today since the last chapter was short (and I'm way too excited to wait). Excerpt for this one is from later in the chapter because one bed trope 😂
Tags, Rating, Word Count, AO3 link, etc. at the bottom
Beside Your Side
Fic Summary: Dean convinces Sam to look into a potential case where people are going missing from a New Jersey beach town. Of course, they have to bring Cas and Eileen along, just in case it's not a monster. Dean is excited to get the case over quickly and enjoy a well-earned vacation with the people he loves the most. Nothing ever seems to go the way Dean plans it though, and this case is no exception.
Chapter 4: Shelter in the Storm
Cas
He doesn’t linger in the shower, even though the hot water feels amazing on his skin now that he can no longer warm it with just a thought. He’s too worried about letting Dean out of his sight.
That’s not exactly true, Cas corrects himself as he finishes rinsing and steps out to dry himself, I want to be close to Dean, to comfort him as much as he'll let me. It's absolutely not because I want to hold his hand again.
After dressing he scoops up both Dean and his wet clothes and tosses them into the washing machine in the next room.
“I should probably get our other clothes if I’m going to run this,” Cas mutters to himself, barely attempting to cover up his ulterior motive for entering the bedroom where he’s sure Dean is already passed out.
He hasn't gotten to indulge in the guilty pleasure since he became human, but he could spend years happily watching over Dean as he sleeps. He knows he'll never lose his fascination with the way the worried crease of the hunter's brow finally eases or how his mouth will fall open if he’s particularly exhausted or how soothing the repetition of his slow breaths can be.
Just a quick look while I grab the laundry, just to make sure he’s resting, Cas rationalizes to no one.
He eases the door open slowly, just wide enough for him to slip in. The room is nearly black with the curtains drawn and the sky outside darkened with clouds and Cas has to feel his way on the floor for the dirty clothes pile they’d started yesterday. When he thinks he’s grabbed everything he moves back toward the door.
“Cas, whaddya doin’ crawlin' on th' ground?” Dean asks, his sleep-slurred voice deep and husky.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you. I was going to wash our wet clothes and thought I’d grab these too.”
Dean rises up on one elbow, squinting at him in what Cas can tell is annoyance even in the low light. He knows he should make his escape, should leave Dean to sleep, but Dean licks his lips and the motion of his tongue roots Cas to the spot.
“Forget the clothes, just come to bed,” Dean barks, patting the space next to him. “I know ya don’ think’re tired, or ya think ya need less sleep ‘cause you’re a big bad angel 'n' all that, but you don’t. You need sleep too, ‘kay.”
He wants me to sleep with him, Cas’ breath catches in his throat at the connotation of the thought, but he quickly amends the thought. No. He wants you to sleep next to him.
Cas knows he should try to resist more, shouldn’t take advantage of how Dean seeks physical comfort when he’s tired like this, but he doesn’t want to. What he wants is to climb under the covers and lay next to Dean, to let the man he cares about take whatever comfort he needs to find peace, if only for the next few hours.
“Okay, Dean.” Cas abandons the pile of clothes near the door and makes his way toward the bed, only stopping as he hesitates to actually get in. “Are you sure you don’t-”
“Get in the damn bed, Cas.” Dean barks, sounding a bit more alert.
Cas doesn’t need any more convincing, climbing under the covers and resting his head lightly on the pillow, making sure to stay as close to the edge as he can so he doesn’t accidentally touch Dean. Dean twists his head over his shoulder to make sure Cas has obeyed him, grunts in approval, then sinks back into his position facing the wall.
Cas follows Dean’s example, turning onto his side and facing away from him and toward the door. Despite Dean’s insistence that he needs it, Cas doesn’t think he’ll be able to sleep, not when his body is hyperaware of every small movement Dean makes behind him.
I’ll stay until I’m sure Dean won’t wake, then I’ll slip out with the laundry.
The rain continuing to fall, the soft pillow beneath his head, and the gentle rhythm of Dean’s breathing have a different plan and soon his limbs and lids grow heavy and he succumbs to a dreamless sleep.
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Cas blinks awake sometime later when the door opens. He winces against the band of light that arcs over him and instinctively tilts his shoulder up to block it from disturbing the man next to him.
Somehow, Dean and Cas both turned in their sleep, Cas now facing the ceiling and Dean curled up against him. One of Dean’s hands is tucked underneath him, and the other is flung over Cas’ waist. Dean uses his chest as a pillow, sending warm puffs of air into his shirt. Cas has one hand draped down the curve of Dean’s spine and the other holds his shoulder, holding Dean as close as possible.
He remains where he is despite the intrusion, not wanting to wake Dean or move from the comfort of their current position. The smell of Chinese takeout and apple pie drifts in, causing his stomach to grumble in reminder of the meals Cas has missed, but Cas ignores it. Dean waking and pushing him away is the only thing that could force him to relinquish this grip right now.
As his eyes adjust in the darkness, he can make out the vague shape of Eileen’s head peering into the room. They make eye contact. Eileen tilts her head in question and Cas bashfully shakes his head no.
More time. Please, just give me a little more time to hold him like this. The way I've longed to.
Eileen gives an understanding smile, nodding before quickly pulling the door closed again at the sound of footsteps behind her.
“They’re still sleeping. Let’s throw it in the fridge and they can reheat it whenever they wake up.” Cas hears Eileen’s muffled voice tell Sam, fading into the background as they move away from the door.
“Thank God. I was not ready to get up yet,” Dean grumbles into Cas’ chest. “Hey! Not too tight, buddy.”
Cas lets go of the death grip he’d initiated at the shock of finding out the man in his embrace had been awake the entire time. He slowly tries to start retracting his arms, but Dean makes an angry noise of protest and nuzzles sleepily into the space below his jaw, stopping his retreat and possibly his heart.
Like what you read? You can find the whole fic here on AO3
Rating: Explicit
Chapters: 4/? (hopefully 9 😂)
Chapter Word Count: ~5,500
Tags: Creator Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings, Castiel/Dean Winchester, Eileen Leahy/Sam Winchester, Case Fic, Established Eileen Leahy/Sam Winchester, Beach Case, Cannon when convenient, Mutual Pining, Idiots in Love, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Past Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con (Dean and background characters), Non-Consensual Touching (Not between Dean and Cas), Hurt/Comfort, I promise it's not as dark as it sounds, Fluff, Eventual Happy Ending, Eventual Smut, clueless Sam Winchester, Chick-Flick Moments, Cannon typical misunderstandings, Angst?, One day I'll learn how to tag, WIP, JackieDeeArt's Hot Summer Art 2024 (Supernatural), Hot Summer Art, Greek Mythology if you Squint, No Beta, Everyone is bad with words, Except Eileen who is the only emotionally stable person for miles, Dean Winchester Loves Castiel, Castiel Loves Dean Winchester, Angel Grace Dysfunction, Poor Coping Mechanisms, There was only one bed
#hotsummerart#one bed trope#cas has no willpower left at this point#and honestly neither do I#cuddly dean#fluff straight out of the can#giggling and kicking my feet#destiel wip#beach fic#case fic#destiel#destiel fic#spn#supernatural#deancas#dean winchester#castiel#fanfiction#this is the most words I've ever written for a single fic and we're not even done yet 🥹#I’m not crying it’s just sand in my eye
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I think I'm falling in love
#my best friend jack and i have been drifting closer and closer over the past few months#and on Monday night after work we met up at wingstop and ate there and sat for a bit#and then we left right before they closed and then stood in the parking lot hugging for over two hours#just hugging and swaying and talking#and we agreed that we're on the same page and that we're both into each other romantically#but he just got out of a relationship with a rocky break up and another ex is being a crazy bitch at the moment#so we agreed we're both ready for and we're not going anywhere but we cant start anything yet#and then i was like we both close tomorrow night we should hang out again#and he was like well we can watch a movie at my place and you can sleep on the couch#spoiler alert: we slept in his bed snuggled up together#and out pact to take it slow fizzled out real quick when we discovered how much fun it is to kiss each other#cut to friday night#were both closing at work but hes out like two hours later than me#we text literally non stop#im going to a wawa to get air in my tires and he asks which wawa#he gets to leave work early bc he was done and comes and meets me at the wawa#where we proceed to stand in the parking lot hugging for another hour at least#occasionally kissing#but now this week hes working literally night shifts all week#2230-0700#but saturday he picked up a shift where i work and its the same out time as me#and were gonna go to his place and hang out after again#and im literally so excited just to spend more time with him#he and i match each other's energy so well its crazy#in my head ive started calling him my boyfriend but i cant do that yet even at work#bc he used to work where i work and everyone there is nosy as fuck#and they def will notice if i get a bf out of the blue and also i smile stupid big whenever someone mentions jack#anyway carrie this is me telling you but you can literally not tell anyone else istg#if i hear from mom and dad that you said something......#personal
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Oh great. We're at the embarrassing have dreams about your ex stage.
#sad girl tag#no cant possibly be bad enough that things are the way they are#now i have to have nightmares about us breaking up where i keep desperately trying to fix it only to ruin it more#sure why not relive my lovely reactive behaviour and pick it apart in excruciating detail#i could have had everything i wanted but i fucked it all up and now im having dreams about it#i had dreams for months that i was still dating my ex boyfriend and those were all lovely#but my relationship of five years? i cant even have one dream about when things were good?#i cant even have that?#no i have to relive the worst night of my life. thats the only way im allowed to remember us?#it wasnt enough to lose her so now i need to have nightmares about it too?#only for her to have sent me a message a few days ago about a technique to try and help me stop having nightmares#after she was the one who woke me up when i was screaming in my sleep#she cant just do that. she cant do something so achingly kind#only for me to then be left with this dumb fucking heart and a head full of mistakes#i suppose its only fair. this all started because of a dream. it makes sense that it should end that way too.#it would just be nice to be able to get away from it all in my sleep#and yet i find myself in our bed watching it all fall apart only to wake with no one there#god but this is fucking embarrassing
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to everyone who has participated (and especially reblogged with tags) in my DetCo song polls: it is so such a pleasure to come home to y'all enjoying (AKA making hard decisions) these
thank you for blessing my day after work, y'all the best💕
#la junk talks#and technically#detco posting#i really love how ppl talk in tags my heart#you are all so valid. they are all beloved songs.#my shuffle made it so hard you have no idea. shuffle is EVIL#i have like... 4-5-6?? rounds to go. (and i haven't updated my list yet)#(so some songs i wanted to include are still missing)#(perhaps in last round if there is space i will include some of those)#(but i guess it is a good thing i haven'T got around to selecting more fav OSTs... there are so many good ones)#anyways may you all enjoy yourselves (and not suffer much while making your choice)#you are all fantastic and awesome! *thumbs up*#as for the videos to one tagger especially: the videos work for me so i'm sorry#they are available in my country/region. :( best luck to you finding ones that work for you!#now gotta post another round before bed#i don't like tuesdays and wednesdays much. so little time left in the evening for funsies...
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fuuuck hungover a bit FUUUUCK
IM NOT GONNA FUNCTION AT THE FAMILY FUNCTION
whyyyyyyyyyy
#im not throwing up thank god#but how tf am i supposed to act like my brain isnt slauging the mud in the black lagoon#i wanna go home#i havenet even left home yet#miss my bed#caktusjuice babbles#tw alcohol#tw vomit mention
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i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane
(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)
#i feel so isolated from everything bc i’m not in school rn but all my friends are and 90% of the ones who are in state go to the same school#so they’re all in the same town and here i am 45 minutes away#i never get invited to anything bc 1) my friends all tend to make plans really last minute#and 2) if we want to go out and drink - which we usually do bc that’s the stage of life we’re in rn - i’d have to stay the night with#someone bc i absolutely cannot afford a 45 minute uber home and most of my friends don’t like staying over / having people stay over#so i have basically no social life and it’s only gotten worse in the past couple months since i got laid off from my main job#not only did i love that job but i loved my coworkers and work was pretty much the only time i left the house and interacted with people#and without that job i can’t even do the little solo things i used to do to cheer myself up like go see a movie#or even just go for a long drive bc i’m broke (as in i have $17 in cash to my name and am like $1000 in debt rn)#so all i do is rot in bed all day and apply for jobs that i’m overqualified for yet still don’t get hired#i barely even leave my room bc i avoid my family which just makes me feel guilty bc i love my family#but they get on my nerves so easily and most of the conversations i have with my mom end in her lecturing me about something and me crying#and on top of everything it’s just straight up embarrassing to be unemployed and completely directionless about college and living at home#logically i know i’m still very young and it’s common to live at home when you’re 20 but literally none of my friends do#i had a couple friends who lived at home for the first 2 years after high school and went to community college but by now they’ve moved out#and they’re all at universities and either graduating this year or next year meanwhile the earliest i could possibly graduate is in 2 years#i should be finishing my junior year rn but i’ve only completed my freshman year#i hated the school i was at and planned on transferring sophomore year but long story short that didn’t work out#even longer story short i ended up doing a semester each at 2 different community colleges and failed all my classes both times#and took 2 semesters off so now i’m a full 2 years behind and even though my freshman year was miserable#i’m starting to wish i stayed at that school anyway bc at least i would be at a university and accomplishing something#plus theres a huge difference between staying at home for a couple years after high school then moving out later#vs living on your own right away then having to move back home after you’ve already experienced having your own space#and on top of everything i have an older sister who’s a literal genius and graduated last year#and a younger sister who just finished her freshman year at the school i hated but she loves it and got perfect grades and made friends#so they’re both thriving and here i am living with my mom and my 13 year old brother and just completely failing at everything#i’m just so miserable and obviously moving out again and going back to school wouldn’t magically fix everything#but at least i would feel like my life was going somewhere and i wasn’t getting left behind by everyone i know#i just have no idea how to move forward and i feel like ever since high school not a single thing has gone the way i wanted it to#vent
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I’m so tired.
#how do people make friends as adults#like I’ve been at uni 3 years#I’ve joined clubs#gone to events with people#cooked dinners and had takeaways sat in the living room#and yet somehow always seem to be an after thought#I’m literally a week away from handing in my dissertation with lots of work today#and the housing situation here sucks#and two people who I’ve been talking to about housing#who know how badly it all sucks#have put in for a flat of their own without saying anything#and I get it#it’s not really a shock cause like they’re a couple that can get a 1 bed and split the cost#they’ve been together 18 months#but I’m not even worth the talk apparently.#is it me is there something fundamentally wrong with my ability to make friends#or am I just really crap at picking people out#and like. they’re not awful people don’t get me wrong#but I also reckon if I went home from here for an extended period of time.#or left after uni#I’d never see any of them again#and apparently I feel badly enough about it all that I need to shout into the void here.#something that I do not do at all#but I have no idea what I’m doing now and finding somewhere new to live that is walkable to the uni is really difficult cause#for a uni town they sure don’t like students in any of their properties#I have so much work to do I should not be worrying about any of this right now#but I’d like to just play the switch instead and forget about this project or other people for a while#and I can’t cause this is due in on Wednesday and there’s still lots to do#and I can’t even complain about it to anyone cause they all talk to each other#a little circle of gossip that just goes round and round
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OK SO DO I HAVE TO BE IN 11TH GRADE TO BE IN AP CLASSES OR CAN I TAKE THEM NOW. ANSWER ME STUDENT HANDBOOK
#if i do not plan out how i will handle every situation that could possibly happen in high school how am i going to live#yes i know i still have 2 months of summer break left but june went by very fast therefore september is quickly approaching#AND I HAVENT EVEN CLEANED UNDERNEATH MY BED OR MY CHAIR YET#now i know how my mom feels when im like “can i go see my friend” and she starts talking about how this place is a mess#maybe this is who i got anxiety from#anyway i hit the gifted kid wall early and now i have ascended im going to do thigns so right
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