#no i dont wanna be skinny in fact i wanna be fat

[selamat-linting]

having bad thoughts abt food again

[anonoob]

How about this! You learn to keep to yourself and I don't punch you!

[bunnyboy-juice]

sooo when are we gonna talk abt the way that fatphobia has srsly fucked up yalls perception of fatness to the point that a lot of yall r calling urselves fat when u really are just not skin and bones bc..... yikes.

[ryuuseini]

God I wanna... Say Something regarding fatphobia in media and the terms ppl use in describing characters who gain weight over time ("letting go" like bro shut the fuck up???) and how like, there's also nuance to the discussion (like, a character who starts out on the heavier side choosing to lose weight shouldn't be demonized either - as PLENTY of people want to lose weight for various reasons, and while you can point to a decent amount of it stemming from our fatphobic society, a lot of it is also just personal desire at the end of the day - but I also understand that if your ONLY fat character loses weight at the end and the other characters don't change either, then that's not good) but idk, I'm a little too tired to properly articulate what's going on in my mind? But I just... wish this was more of a discussion

[sadstrever]

ok i’m sorry i contemplated not posting this because it’s almost meanspo so just don’t read it if ur triggered. it’s also just bad advice, don’t starve yourself and don’t be an (vodka) alcoholic.please recover love you i guess

first off i wanna preface this by saying FUCK YOUUUUU. if ur a little fat baby piggy no friends bitch i don’t want ur advice or opinions on my alcohol consumption while i fast😭😋!!! i’ve lost like 40lbs since i’ve started being an alcoholic and it’s had absolutely no impact on my weight, cuz just to irritate for the 100th time on this account: I NEVER EAT HOE! anwyays sorry maybe i’m just too drunk but that really pissed me the fuck off. like GOD OKAY RUIN THAT FOR ME TOO. like ok i never get any calories in except for alc but sure fuck it yk, because YOU said that alc has calories(you don’t think i know that bro?) i’m just gonna suddenly stop being an alcoholic. and now i just feel like shit because i consume calories from alc and someone thinks thats a “judgey” thing to say to me. now i feel fat so thank you. like if i could stop drinking that easily i WOULD and if i could start eating without gaining weight every time i do I WOULD. ur so dumb. ugh. i hate myself i’m sorry i’m so mean i love you people and i hope ur healthy and happy. i just need to put my anger out on someone lol. BUT also genuinely liek you guys do piss me off tho cuz you think it’s some crazy impressive thing to not eat for a week or eat like a grape a day…like guys… it gets worse and you will see and you’re gonna hate ur life. if ur ed is at that point PLEASE RECOVER AND RECONSIDER IT GWTS SO MUCH WORSE UGH. AND NO ONES GONNA LISTEN BECAUSE I DIDNT EITHER. i want to save you guys so bad. like i hate that people still get to romanticize it without all the pain and suffering every single waking moment of the day. also i’m officially underweight so someone send me a 0 calorie cake in the mail😝🙏

anyways this is somehow too related and will sound so fake but i swear on my whole life and my mamas and my brothers and my papas this is a TRUE STORY!!! i saw an old friend today and the first thing they said was “oh my god you lost so much weight” “like ur arms, face, whole body damn” BASICALLY LIKE THAT OBVIOUSLY I DONT REMEMBER WORD FOR WORD. but bro i have never felt so fucking seen in my life. like finally someone besides my family or best friend noticed my weight loss damn. AND SHE ASKED IF SHE SHOULD BE WORRIED FUCKKKKK. like no you shouldn’t cuz i’m never gonna get better but like fuck thank you bro. no one comments on people’s weight anymore and it pisses me offfff like i know it’s rude but i needed that comment to make me wanna keep starving!

am i a piece of shit? like genuinely did the eating disorder make me a horrible evil miserable person? i have this thought that even if somehow i recover physically(i pray to god i never get fat[by my standards] again ) that i’ll never recover mentally. i’ll always have this fucked up judgement of right and wrong that revolves around the stupid idea of being thinner. does it even matter? no. no it doesn’t. but it’s my whole world. my whole world is how skinny i am and it’s so tiring. the highlight of my day was being called worryingly skinny by an old friend who doesn’t care if i live or die. the second highlight of my day was the fact that i got 28k steps and burning 800 calories at the gym and bought another bottle. i’m tired of being a bad person. im tired of being annoying and stupid and dumb. such a fuckup. i’m sorry if i’m a bad person and you had to read this and feel like shit because you had to sit through reading my awful terrible judgment and thoughts.

LAST POINT:

tomorrow i have to eat my first meal in months(for real this time) and i am so scared and upset. it’s like a piece of myself dies everytime i eat. without starvation i am nothing. i am a shell of a person and when i eat i just become a shell that feels fat. i’m gonna take laxatives obviously and do some workouts but it’s never enough. i’m gonna make sure the meal that i’m forced to eat is as low calorie as possible because i’ll be drinking alcohol too and APPARENTLY i should just kill myself because it’s a crime to still be an alcoholic when you’re starving yourself.

also alcohol most likely won’t make you gain weight unless it’s beer or seltzers and it especially won’t if ur always drinking on an empty stomach. vodka on an empty(for months) stomach plus working out excessively won’t make yoh gain weight. shut up shut up shut up shut THE FUCK up you bitches piss me off.

FUCK YOU.

[goldendoodledenny]

IM DOING IT!

INSPIRATION HAS STRUCK!! (also the fact there are, like NO Adamai fanfics)

Adamai x gn reader head cannons! (Sfw)

Reader is referred to as Y/N

Pre dating-

He isn't exactly shy

After all, he DID save the world a while back

And he is (according to me) 6" 2

Buuuuut... He can get shy

Not really noticable, but he can

You could MAYBE see it in him looking away for a half a second

Or if his tail curls around his ankle a little

But he can keep a good conversation with you

What he CANT DO

Is tell you his ✨ feelings✨

Whenever he tries it usually comes out like this:

"hey, y/n, do u wanna... Uh... Um..."

(He blushes slightly)

"... Nvm I gtg... Uh... Do something..."

And then walks off

When he DOES (finally) ask u out

Hes all fancy about it

Like, he makes reservations at a restaurant before hand

Gets a nice suit

And arrives at ur house with flowers

He says, while kneeling and holding the flowers up to you:

"y/n... I've wanted to ask this for a while... Will you go out with me?"

(lol this is prolly just how I would want him to do this 🤣)

Or maybe he packs a picnic basket and grabs a pretty flower and asks u out

Dating-

He would randomly hug u from behind, giving u a kiss on the neck

He love, Love, LOVES carrying you!

Wether ur skinny and mini, or ur ✨big✨ and "fat*" if ur ✨short✨ or tall, it dont matter

*not trying to body shame, just trying to include everyone, if u find it offensive, please tell me so I can correct my mistake! 😣

Loves cuddles

He'll gently curl his tail around one of ur legs and hold you close

I think he would start purring if u 2 were comfy enough

(squealing in Ad simp)

He would LOVE watching movies w/ u

Especially cheesy romantic ones

Or even horror

Don't worry, he'll protect u from the demons from The Conjuring ᕙ⁠(⁠ ͡⁠°⁠ ͜⁠ʖ⁠ ͡⁠°⁠)⁠ᕗ

(wish I had me a man like that... Or a man at all T-T)

Likes to take u out on picnics, or just to walk thru the sadida forest

He gently holds ur hand

He would fight for you, and HE WILL

Someone flirting with u?

He's pulling u back with his tail giving the other person a death glare

Sometimes he ends up fighting them and u gotta pull him back

Or u could sit there, drinking tea (or whatever u wanna drink), watching the chaos unfold

Point is, he loves u with all his heart

And if u break it, imma knock some SENSE into u! >:(

Bye! See you next time! (If there IS a next time)

[carnivoral]

anyway enough magician posting. i wanna talk about fatness. im a fat person in a long term relationship with a skinny person, for reference. born fat, became-fat, fatphobic family. i live with functional but chronic internalized fatphobia, and im kind of always lowgrade shaming myself mentally. it wasnt until i started making a habit out of reading zines and actually interacting with realistic fat positivity that i understood something fundamental about fat politics which is that, for a fat person to feel like their body is normal, they have to accept that hygiene, health, sex, everything down to furniture shopping is going to be wildly different than from how skinny people talk about it. and despite the fact that the average person is fat, what is normalized is a conversation around skinny bodies. and the perspective of a thin person will always be wildly, catastrophically different.

and being a fat person with a skinny partner (who has their own unrealized internalized fatphobia), those conversations don't start at home for me, and i understand they probably don't for a lot of people. its up to fats willing to take on their own fatphobia and inner shame to learn about the politics and educate the others around them and it really is such an undertaking.

i dont know. im thinking about myself and the body i live in a lot for the first time in a long time. i guess ill tag this and leave the door open for discussion.

[paperstreetlocal]

T4T headcanons of narrator and Tyler maybe?

ok where do i start ehmmm

theyre both tmasc 2 me obviously. ive seen hcs of them as tfem post-movie and i think its a good concept it just doesnt fit with my hcs

narrators the generic truscum type of dude, has awful dysphoria and doesnt really believe hell ever be a real man. only got on t like a couple months before tyler blew his shit up, actively starves himself to get rid of any curves etc.

because he mentions his family is catholic in the book i view him as catholic, not religious per se but i think he has a lot of shame and intrusive thoughts about it. didnt get much chances to express himself as a kid even tho he felt wildly uncomfortable being a feminine girl and his mother reinforcing it (well i mean, dads not around, no siblings... no space to interact with much except his mom)

had a binder at one point but lost it cuz of tyler so he had to resort to some very questionable taping options during his stay with him-- before they came out to each other his dysphoria got like. 50 times worse He couldnt even imagine tyler supporting something like that, not even taking him seriously (worst option is kicking him out or worse) so he would just like. straight up ever refuse to strip or stop binding for a couple weeks lol

do i think his dysphoria got any better after they both found out about each other. No. i think it got somewhat worse because well, tyler doesnt even bind and looks more masculine than him. i think he had a deep seated hatred for him for not even trying, and if he got mad for whatever reason hed feminize him in his head, not that he said anything straight to tyler because hed probably get his teeth knocked out 4 it. i guess that also adds to his homophobia cuz tyler doesnt look like your typical man so

--

now for tyler i also think he has some weird ideas about masculinity (OBVIOUSLY) but its more psychological rather than physical (the narrator being the opposite) . the generic men dont cry type shit. has dysphoria but isnt like, aware of it? its not eating at him or anything he just kinda does things he conditioned himself to do to pass earlier on. gymbro eating disorder (you know the type. guzzling boiled eggs) has to be shredded with low % of fat (i draw him slightly meatier cuz i like it lol. i feel bad drawing him so skinny)

as a kid he grew up in like. a big family in texas and his parents didnt really pay much attention to him and he just did whatever the fuck he wanted half the time so he had the conditions to explore himself. also wore his older brothers clothes and he was generally messy and androg-looking. also energetic. i think he got on t without advice from a doctor in his late teens and his parents were kinda done with him .do whatever just move out

i think he binded at one point but it restricted him from doing the things he enjoyed so gave up on it. and when he got into the masc bullshit he believed getting surgery would be a cop out, not naturally manly so he learned to live with it and doesnt really mind it. only tapes during fights cuz somebody yanked on his boob once :,3

he passes so well in fact the narrator jus assumed he had gynecomastia and didnt wanna be rude about it. also got mad at the narrator for certain things he did (who the fuck uses duct tape to bind??) and his refusal to do things the narrator deemed as feminine - this is hypocritical though cuz he would make fun of him for things he (tyler) deemed as feminine so it was always a lose lose situation. calls him gay as an insult (yes they do fuck. yes hes calling him gay as a feminine insult)

OKKK all that out the way now the fun stuff

narrator has issues with giving himself t shots because of his shaky hands (and his slight disgust of needles) so tyler does it for him. he sometimes does it back to him if hes feeling brave (and i guess a weird attempt at flirting? lol)

post canon narrator got top surgery, and tyler got only bottom surgery and a hysterectomy (he just really wanted a dick tbf)

narrators hairline gets proceedingly worse

tyler got cheetah print trans tape after shaving his head :p n i think the narrator shoves socks in his pants as a packer

they dont really go to the beach but if they did the narrator wouldnt get in the water hed just suffer under the parasol. tyler wouldnt gaf if he was fully naked

tylers comfortable enough to wear more... fashionable clothes that would kill the narrators self esteem on spot if he put on (i think he did wear that kind of stuff while in control of the narrators body. yes he would look awful)

also theyre both sweaty and horny and gross cuz of the t. tyler has crazy bottom growth

[transvamp]

man i do hate the fact that like, no matter how comfortable i do get w my being fat i still dont like the fact im not skinny and when i think abt the ideal ways i want to present myself (like say actively becoming more gothic), my brain always goes to skinny dudes first. and it sucks bc i know being fat doesn't mean i cant dress or look a certain way but i always am just convinced that it's not gonna work on me. i dont hate being fat anymore i will say i've at least come to a point where im neutral about it, but i still primarily look towards skinny ppl for how i wanna present and like. man it really does not do me any good

[candyscorns]

I just hate being alive and hate being me and hate being gay and bate being fat and hate being here and hate. I just hate. I hate everything because everything is stupid to me. And i just wanna die because i have being alive because there’s no point. Because i compare myself to everyone around me even still. I am 19 and i compare myself to wveryone around me. Because why do i look the way that i do. It dorsnt make any fucking sense. Shy can i not starve myself shen it was so easy for me a year ago. Why can i not cut myself when i could do it so effortlessly a year ago. Whh do i have to drink. Whhy can i noy just go. Everytime i drink i justs tell the sky let this night br my last. I just hate beinv here. I hate everything so mucb especially mysef. I just wanna cut my body into shreda and get every ounce of everything physival i hate and throw it in acid or something i just wanna die. Nobody cares about me and thats okay because thats the way that i want it. I dont want anyone to care abt me because the. I can lill myself and no one would give it a second thought. Like i genuinely dont care that no one cares abt me it makes me hPpy in a sense to think about the fact that they dont. I canre for so many people so deeply and webn i kill myself I’ll take that care with me people always say to the grabe I’ll tale ig to the grave and the warm pits of hell woth me. Im so thankful to everyone ive met on my journey in this shitty life. Weveryone that wamde it just a little bit better and a little bit brighter. Everyone that i didsapinged sith my stipid fucking actions. Everyone ghat i let down. Im so grayefull to have crossed paths with them and i h will always have the utmost love and respeect for them abd wish them nothing but the absolute best in theis crueld shitty world. I just hate me and i hate being here and i hate comparing myselfy still after all these years because thats the main toof of everything is this stupid fucking comparison that i have foing on. If i looked like her or her then I wouldn’t fucking complain. I don’t complain. Not outwardly. I couldn’t do that. Not in the way that i am right nowz . I just wanna be skinny and idc if thats at the expense of my health or happiness i just wanna be skinny and weightless and skin and bone. And because of how i rat i know that can’t happen and so i just choose to settle for deathz. Suicide. It seems so stupid with me being 19 but its just how i feek. I just hate being alive because i have so much stupid shit to deal with that i would just rather not and nobody cares so it makes it so easy for me to gove yp. And for some stupid none xistsent reason i make a concioys decision everyday to live. And i dread every mombet of it so I chose to ignore the fact that i chose to live and do what i can to pretend that I didn’t make that decision. Ive been saying that I’ve been living through me for them lately but if im being homest. I’m sabotaging myself by staying here. Why an i still here. Why have i not killed myself yet. They don’t care about me. And thats okay. I’m not mad at them about that. I cant ve mad at then. They cared for a long time they cared. They showed me loge and gave me strength when i was ay some of my lowest points. They encouraged me and gave me hope. They were the sun in my storm. They did what they didn’t even have to and i will be forever grateful to thwm for that. But i choose to beliebe that it got to a point where the shit that i was choosing to dos to myself that was hatmful and or detrimental took an effect on them and thats okayz. That thye felt like they had to prioritize them and do wahts whas good for them by forgetting me. I asked them to anyways. All of then i asked them to just stop worrying and caring about me. And i think they finally saw me the way thT i see me. I just wnana. Die u wasont wanna be bere anymore i really dont. I just hate here. And i hat emd its all just do sstuoid. And i just eanna go. And i just wnana bee okasy but no. Instead i stay here miserables aafstuck for no reason.

[kael-writ]

so TW EDs and fatphobia

it's kinda interesting the difference between bodies that tend more towards retaining fat and bodies that tend to burn fat better because like I have been literally anorexic and my lowest wait was still "overweight" on BMI. Ive had lots of times when I ate very little due to poverty too. It's true Ive had a sweet tooth and poverty + culture means I ate more carbs than I should have and so on, and it's true that despite being on my feet a lot at jobs and walking a lot I never really "worked out", so Im not saying my choices have NOTHING to do with it, but Rob McElhenney eating a gallon of ice cream a day to get fat is like - I literally could not, I would have vomited. No offense to fat people who do have overeating disorders or even just like to eat and live their lives. Nor to skinny people who eat "junk" and "overeat". That's not a fuckin sin and you shouldn't be mistreated for it. It's ok to be fat and it's ok to eat whatever the fuck you want. That's your body, your life, your choice. Im just saying bodies can be so different. I talked about this with Tarrare like it is so fascinating that he was the most prolific eater in history due to a mysterious medical disorder that was somewhat apparent in enlarged organs yet skinny. I guess Im defensive of the fatphobia that caused my ED when I say this shit and I dont wanna feed into the "good fatties bad fatties" bullshit but it's just a fact that bodies process fat differently- same with sugar and honestly lots of foods like celiac and shit. And it's interesting even if it could be separated from the human social bullshit issues.

[edwardscissorfeet]

. pretty bad ed content just ignore me

AND IM NOT EVEN TALL. WHATS THE POINT OF BEING >45KG IF IM NOT EVEN TALL.throws a fucking brick at my window my ed is lucky i never picked up bulimic habits. my ed is LUCKY i should just go on a fucking week long anorexic thing like i used to do and lose about 5kg and call it a day. adn in fact im going to be responsible for my meals again for two weeks im actually going to break something im so MADDD im trying to feel good about being you know. not borderline underweight anymore but i can feel my thighs touching i dont really see my hipbones anymore i feel fat and ugly and i miss being hungry forever. ok whatever. dies badly

and i know it's normal as fuck and i anticipated having a weight gain spike bc for about a momth ive been eating 2-3 meals a day so gaining 1.5-2kg is fine or whatever but I DONT WANT TO FEEL ITTTT im going to throw my scale away. fuck offffff fuck offffffffff oh my god and i put on a pair of pants i havent worn in a couple of months the other day and it was tigjt and i dont wake up with a flat stomach anymore and i just kind of. am very tired of not loving myself. bueno 👍 if i was twelve again and growing 20cm+10kg i would kill my aunt for telling me i was fat. and all my other relatives who kepts saying i was skinny and making me feel bad about gaining weight. im going to THROW UP

sick to my teeth god i remember being fourteen and trying desperately to vomit because i ate a little too much at a dinner party but i couldn't because the reflex never kicked in properly. and being like 17 and overdosing partially because of ed but i didnt wanna tell my mum or my therapist because then id have to eat and id feel sick and hate myself even more if i gained weight and i just kind of miss being in the hospital and eating whatever and wearing the most shapeless gowns because everyone had yo wear the same thing and now CARING ABOUT MY WEIGHT. is it fucked up my best month in a long time body image wise was the one i had while institutionalised.

i used to be 43-44.5kg any given day and now im 45.5-47kg and its awful. i keep thinking about how im above 100lb now. and i dont want to restart regular exercise because my knees hurt + i know im going to overdo it and feel awful and return back to when i would only eat a real meal after a real run (4-5km) i used to have to tap out after 3km because i had no energy and punish myself with only like. a sweet drink so i dont shake from low sugar. which is like stupid as fuck but i cant help it at my worst i felt soooo ill after eating food. alsp why i am obsessed with my poop frequency if im being honest lmao. this was all THIS YEAR BY THE WAY i need to start stabbing

last meal i skipped was dinner on sunday 👍 i hauv to eat dinner now :/

[krunchylegs]

vent :( (tw: 3d)

i feel so gross rn

i ate over 1000 calories and i tried making up for it a little bit by burning off calories (burned 402) but that left only a little over 1000 still, but it gets worse bc idek why i did this but i had some chocolate and even then i went back to the kitchen and ate toast with cream cheese and sliced ham, tomorrow im going to restrict more and try burn more calories by walking (my watch tracks it), on the upside tho tomorrow is a new day and i dont think i went over my limit (1500cals), but even so i try stick around 800cals per day bc its whats easy for me atm (planning to restrict bit by bit but im going easy on myself since ive gotten used to eating whenever i want bc of summer).

i will get over this and i will do better tomorrow, i have to, for myself this is what i need to do. its my choice and i need to stick with that

also the reason i ate so much was bc i made brownies for my family and i ate some, i was meaning not to, im going to bake again soon and my willpower will be stronger next time. i have my safe foods in my room (obvi ones that dont need the fridge) so there will be NO NEED for me to eat anything i bake. i do enjoy baking and guiltily i do enjoy the idea of feeding my family sweet treats while i nibble at my safe food, might take a bite or something so its not weird but i dont want to be the bigger sibling anymore i fucking hate it, i dont want to be the 'normal' sized one when compared to my sister whos skinnier than me. i wanna be the skinny one, idec if thats selfish its just the truth. its so confusing too, she (my sister) says she wants to put on weight, go the the gym and gain muscle or whatever but i just wanna be thin (trying to avoid being skinnyfat obviously :/) but genuinely its so frustrating it feels like ive been stuck in a body that isnt mine, even if im not described as fat im not described as being skinny and it literally upsets me, as childish as it sounds idrc, and this is literally the ONLY way i can even share these thoughts, if anyone knew how i felt theyd think im stupid or weird, probably try tell me i dont need to change how i look, but i NEED to take control, i am sick and tired of being the way i am, i miss having my child body, i miss it so fucking much, i dont know if its because im trans(ftm) or if its because i used to be super skinny as a kid, beautiful legs that i was complimented on and i enjoyed the fact my ribs were visible, but as soon as puberty hit it all went downhill, in locker rooms people would comment that i was skinny and i liked it but that seemed to happen less and less, like have i gotten fat now?? does everyone think im chubby???? maybe im fucking fat and i dont even see it im gonna cry, jesus christ i fucking hate everything.

it makes it so much worse when my sister calls me fat, ik i just said that no one calls me fat but its weird. my sister calls me fat to make me upset, she usually tells me that during arguments, its made me cry so much. like example: i was on holiday recently with my family (dad, mum, sister, me) we were unloading our stuff from the car and my dad told me to put away the food and during the drive my sister and i were arguing the whole time, and when my sister saw me sorting out the food she said "of course youre at the food, fucking fatass" and i literally had to point out to my parents that she was making fun of me literally in front of them, like yeah my mum was all like "dont say that" to her but that doesnt fucking do anything, and my sister just kept going, and my dad had to step in and tell her to stfu and said that if anything i was underweight, but it felt like such a fat lie, especially when my sister IS skinnier than me, it really drives me crazy but at the same time its almost motivating, like i just wanna be sick, i wanna be sickly thin and gross to look at, i miss how i felt when i was skinny, when my legs were so skinny, i miss the compliments i got on my skinny body, for a while i believed i could never get that back but now ik its possible to be skinny again i just need to keep it up, ik i can be super skinny again and i WILL BE, i HAVE to be, theres no other option for me i need it more than anything, i dont care about anything else atm i just want to be thin

[ghastly-collection]

I love it when people smaller than me tell me I am okay as i am and that i shouldn't be ashamed of my body but its always skinny people saying that, you don't have to be like this, you never were fat and had to feel the humilation of being treated lesser because you are fat, you have your perfect body i would kill for, you don't feel like you are inherently diseased just because you are fat, you can wear whatever the fuck you want, all i have is xxl tshirts and i fucking HATE seeing my damn arms and the fat ass chicken thighs in summer, its humilating when others buy clothes for me, its either xxl which is FAT or they get xl bc xxl does not exist and i can guess if i will too be fat for it or if i will fit into it eventually

i dont wanna ⭐ve but i don't wanna eat either, i see myself finally losing some of that damn fat tummy and then i have to eat and get all bloated, it makes me sad, my body i am trapped in just makes me so fucking sad, the fact i had to take pills because of a health issue because i am so fat makes me sad, the fear of getting more diseases and illnesses because i am fat is so huge, every ticking hour i feel like something new will come in the more i spend in this body the worse it will become, i feel like a plague timebomb, it does not matter how healthy i eat and how hard i control my food in the end i am still fat and no one will believe me when i say I am sick

once i move out i finally don't have to eat bread anymore and can choose what i eat or how much, no more having to stare at cake at birthday parties i dont want to be in or greasy food only "sometimes" even once makes me want to punish myself but then i can't even DO THAT

i want to cvt but i can't bc i will ruin my future perfect body that way i already cvt too deep one time and it stayed! i hate seeing it! i hate seeing myself i wish i could at least reset my body like keep all the trauma and abuse at least i am skinny

the worst part no one understands how this feels or wants to its always "oh you look good no matter your size" or that i don't have to feel ashamed for literally having eaten myself sick i am tired of hearing it i just want to hear its all my fault for being a pig in the past and that i am the only problem in my life and that i should just let everyone else copilioting this lard collection live

can't even dissappear i have to stay here because i promised

[ratified2]

I need help.

My bestfriend of three years likes this guy, obv she has a bf but their on the verge of breaking up. But the thing is that she had stopped liking this guy and I developed feelings for him, and just when I was going to tell her about him she began telling me about she liked him. Now what do I do? Whenever he stares back I want him to be staring at me not her, I want him to pay attention to me. Yet I cant say anything, becauses shes pretty skinny smart and quiet. While im just a fat nerd. I hate it, and it feels like a great motivation to go headfirst into my 3d bc tbh all ive been doing is binging for the past month and ive gained like 5 pounds. I wanna cry, and get mad at her but I cant

She can like him, and be obssesed, and I can support her and do things for her. I had to write her fanfictions between him and her, and all I thought was oh shes skinny ofc she could. Sitting on his lap, getting carried by him, she could. So all I can do is sit back and support her while also supressing my growing feelings for him. Hes so cute, and the way he smiles. I love his three little freckle triangle on his cheek, and its the fact that we dated when we were young young that hurts worst. He was the first and only guy I kissed (on the cheek) that wasnt family. And I dont think hes rlly had gilfriends, and I just hold on to my breath as he stares back at me and my friend. And I cant help but pray hes looking at me and not her.

[fkyumerica]

they keep doing shit to raise the cerebral palsy chimpanzees

no you were suppossed to kill them

ring bearers at a wedding

they will just shit and go UHH

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/YW9gkuWPWEE so she hits chewbacca

CRAZY Lady RUINS Kids Show At Disneyland ! #shorts #disney

they wernt to light up the colleseum

hello

Masculinity Initiation Party | South Park | Comedy Central Africa

they would party like crayz to kill them everyday

and it didnt happen

I dont thin kso officer hit her officer

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/HFDcDdFU0Vw wtf reverse and back

These Teachers Dressed Up As Their Students

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/kiBzUQhAeQE and they got a sloth

kind Man helps sloth cross the road 🦥 #costarica #sloth #shortsviral #animals #conservation

how old are you 85 how are you so active we stole the beach

wtf a beach a boat whoa ok look i smashed in the window

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/Wx12eotl7sc you cannot control me

🤣when trolling a fan goes wrong #wwe #wwefunny

i will fuck all over you and rape you and your husband

what does it say miscarriage gear

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/KahlQAtENJE she wanted to meet up with her ex boyfriend and be every princess at disney world

Disney Mascot STUNS Girl With Rare SURPRISE! #shorts #disney

and if not working there then owning it i got the dream

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/CBFjRqgsxTA you got a fucking kangaroo with no arms now

Man saves dog from kangaroo #animals #fact #viral

kevin is her ex's dad

andrew trevino

holy shit same kids as them

one school

do it

one pig

convert

the thing

im gonna be sailor mars the police officer

twiggy the model is jessicas mom and does the microphone magnet noises

to rape

and shoot it in her roof tank

the houses were made to rape people

and hey gotta be me to hang out with me 230 scream laughing AHHH videos one after the next she is showing her kid all day

we fill the whole mason jar pouring water

then we cum

and every noise of the mouth is this

get off to it

i married george mcfly

had 18 kids

and mow

https://www.wheelsanddollbaby.com/ i married a baby and im still a baby

Wheels & Dollbaby - Official Store

85+ years old

100

debbie harry

when harry met sally

australia whoa no

expensive

and constant animal screams

pissed noises

and cak cak cak noises from mom

tounge smacking clicking

im licking my mouth slow, aand im fucking you

on the phone

sitting in front of her too

yea change the mic she got off

and brandon too turn it on ooh baby ooh

5 people shut up on the same phone call

uh who cares

and i jumped on your boyfriend right

shes not married want my kid

no

her dad siad it right

no

and i made up the makeup and hair and clothing

they were not it

doe

get skinny to what i stay fat and fuck

27 guys to lose the weight in one day

then call my dad

reagan

that is their family in the club house

wtf made it a mansion

one room house party

and them going ah yea, ah right

old middle aged people now

they want anyone to fuck their kids

to say their kids hot so the parent jerks off to it after

got me hot got my hair up im blonde

and harry

left too ooh ooh oooh fingers herself

so the guy does to his dick too

and cumming is it

top of the dick jerking off then cumming

shooting out

gotta cum to fuck her too so he fucks her infant after

and all her boyfriends did

house party do it too marry 5

you didnt wanna marry my kids thats when i started to dress it

and went punk

wtf

they dont even know who is related to them

in their house they write down 5 names and numbers, then hand it out to someone fuck em in a week

see if oyu go

this is her

fake french

underground sheets of metal as the ground

on all the land

101 dalmations

drive through france mmall

electrocute it

and everyone in it

they made baby music and videos learn with us

for that building, nut house to learn they were not supposed to learn

midevil ttorture building

killing all of them is what it was built for

rapist retards

apes

and chimps

and league before drown it make it small

finger in eye its whole life

didnt grow

burning pitutitary gland will make it smaller

behind nose

top

bridge

giant to stop growing

old mcdonald had a farm

that was regans son then too

there you go pluck off all her eyebrows

thats her

ahhhhhhhhh i just wanna fuck

i gave birth as a kid

and infant

and toddler

now KNOW it

fuck you

so im singing it to you

b bar

d dog

f bitch

they made their own the whole time

full cup

notice mine

braaaaaaaa

she is angela or a angela

double decker big house

giant hording downstairs

cant find me and meth and my kids again in the storage tubs

and her mom mother reagans

and husbands

that nut house

is her in the movie

she is deformed, retarded, and a midget on stilts, and men flying up there think they can do anything, and women on the ground like a group of wild animals together they are don’t care fuck anyone

fake presidents and leave court room

doesnt need to be one

or law school

police say it

judge tries to talk to them

they wouldent not be there with him

last one fucked me up he's nice

and keep talking

says it 90 times

shortest one dark hair is the hairy arm woman at subway and dirt woman keep getting more put more dirt on it metal sheets

make europe

they remake it everyday

wtf is wrong with you they will kill you

eeach time

i have never talked to people so stupid

aco hardware

all they are is this retarded bitch screaming hold the hammer electrocute them

and they interrupt

to say hey mom who do i fuck next

to say she is their mom to fuck infants

ask mom tell mom

james dean gay

it is their dad

to those 50s guys

i got 8 girls i dunno wtf

what colleges those were the buildings

touch her finger her fuck her too

two in a tree never stopped up against a wall

leon said he is Ronald reagan

they met mem then wayne county community college with jo

it is her with him

jo is a man

and i'll make her shove a kid up her ass some day

and wtf shes 5

where are you dragging this

at

no one is a judge shut up so they get killed

and die

now slow song to calm them down

sing it

it is his family obviously shut the fuck up

i know it

im retarded

im nandor

no we gotta be boys we gotta fuck like boys too

i looked over all these photos as evidence before

and you think you can speak as a officer or as a judge

you are in it

john said he fucked leon to rob him

and grandma i had 8 kids to show who they are

Mask

We put in the air, gas, and compress it in houses and bust your necks from down the street too with it

and we sent her in so we could go south and west and south and north and where you live and fuck you-nandor

and i still dont give a fuck about you

meet me

we killed our parents

well let me eat her out

her mom had to still fuck other men the whole time

so her parents could live away from her and it was a nicer life

and this was in the 90s its a movie

and her dad too

the same

fucked other people still

you watching this doesnt look like it

leon said it when the virgin came on tv

you requested music

get them to leave

and fuck your parents one last time

same hospital

and shoot them

listen

if you dont

this is it

he had 8 kids with her then theyre fat

they knew it

and say it

they always will

and show your grandma

with the line on her face

regans other wife

not his first 8th

and you married a guy

who didnt him

to leavve you for a whole truck of girls

what dinosaurs

penny, angela, angie, elizabeth, tangie, emily, andy, and grear

what club then church then what

its ok i know it all im leon

no you dont

and mm

he just asked me to go and fuck them with him

and keep your butt open

shes talking to him

its happening hes gay

porn on tv who gives a shit

porn on tv that woulda been a 200$ fine

but she waited on it, talking to me again, i dont talk go two feet and we go short

it is about fucking

they cant even see it or hear it

brushing noises

walrus goes up and fucks you on own

they are blasting batteries

like tasers

taught her it

your fault you knew it right to hurt police officers

no

what a btich guiermo

let me do it to you

feel pain once

she didnt

i feel bad i dont got a job

but i dont care

give me a dog i dont want

and you

and no hair

who cares

face piercings

he dont give a fuck

leave me

left me before

and she said it too im her in the mask

whoa yea she is

i wanna have sex

here is mary sue fucking her family in a mcdonalds wont stop fucking her parents grandparens and to everyone come on everyone fuck them

enters and does it and smells as it

old people smell

suck it out the hole (belly button) and drip it on the rest

here is angela had to hit her for robbing clayton to get her in a ambulance

her boyfriend had to

she is retard NO NO NO NO throwing her head back and forth

nonstop

80 minutes

why cant we do you, come back with all of us and do us

its a party (church tunnels to casino and drive in them)

i start em

aand no you cant get any money for any of this

and i knoow at cabelas we told them instead

got the money and food

or wtf rob them

we fuck em to do it

to eat a butter crack cow

-anne marie

and here is guiermo i dont care listen to her parents i want you to steal from her

they see anyone and fuck them from behind, and 3 together jump on him, lay her down, fuck

trailer park was nut house moved out

and her grandma she kept alive for oral

do it do it do it

sex sex sex

give me oral in the mouth

god yeaa

and when she put on her glasses

with anne maries grandma

i dont care marry marilyn monroe after

said you and her kids would marry

did they

gay dogs too hide it

and i dont care you will say all the shit about her too

her grandma again

and her grandpa left one who said start the party

with her other grandpa on right

president after

regan

she eats pinsol spray

lemon

guiermo does

they raise meth levels up to piss you off the whole time

and they hit them and leave them with them

cant remeber the other relationship

i didnt do it i didnt do her i didnt do her and precious spoiled child anne marie is his mother, bottom right "i know i can do it make me her the biggest bitch, judge, glen close judge judy" back left, im the right guard, on his right is the left guard

and ther est had sex with her too jessica

they are blacks still

and its her

i wanna fuck both of em left guard and right guard

they are all related and in dearborn

nooo reminds us of the hospital

perfect airr

big house

i wanna run

lets ruin everything us then too the judge

should i have my kids killed or not

whoa new opportunity

rabai

and amish, left, go in anywhere

they are punching me with dope

hair dryer

as the gas heat

and careese doesnt care

slow

she is it

and guiermo was krystina

dont care go with him too anthony hit her he is him

george mcfly

and is it him him and him

no that is a actual photo

i am not sarcastic

why dont i believe it

go back and ape fuck all the girls oyoou had a truck

and i dunno we took it i know how to build a room

and us a column

and careese mute her

so she does

less shit more free food

they believed them

it is their families too

i never met them either too

they said i got down syndrome from fatima she made sandwhiches they handled all of those infants

and no one else stayed

yeaaaaaaaaa

wow

food free shit i left thats not a marriage

is she that retarded

so he thinks shes gotta go with him

and she did

careese did so did you

and the columns to those men whoa im not that big

i gotta go here

smaller

building

again

leon-we were all the same family and friends i dont care

and tounge in her to freak her fuck her say to him how to come over and fuck her

waiting outside

for him

wtf hes back

just fucked lindita its jordan

church down the road

she lives there my girlfriend

anne marie put on white makeup and her whole face looks like a double chin

cerebral palsy

and

tan arms

and her parents drank the whole time too

and whats with all the clothes girls no we steal your colors off you adn your naked

reversse clothes with colors

switch

whoa

new

omfg these people are pissing me off so much

naked colors

hes a giant bitch again

hit on back of the head

giant nose

mike

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/BISYo3dllf0 no youre only gonna want a bird if its half dead

Happy Bird

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/x1vtn4Dw-F8 and its us ok

We see our old cartman as his son - South Park

we dress up young

teach us

the judge makes the decision for all of them

thats it

to understand it too

it was sit one there

around them they surround and

open fire

hey cigarettes, lighters, and yea keep em retarded

they stay it

too

them

they all had their own house after mating with a older man too after wrestlnig or becoming a rabai

then downriver all of them grouping get in the river

all pregnant too sit down

and this too we only talk queer

i wanted fish and chips from applebees

i ate a whole thing of crackers

theres no food left again

they all lived all over hey send in sister bethany i left all need a whole house right

and constant food wtf

buffet

all you can eat

stole the truck load

every grocerie store

today

all the trucks come in everyday right with a whole new store each time

of food

go eat all you want

says it

they all did dating each other wtf

giant wedding

gordie howe geordie white

i fucked like 15 girls i dont care

as a old man

and now, 50,000

only thing he wanted to do

ate all day

colleseum roar was for food

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

hillary clinton/a headless horseman

cruella deville car can go up those mountain hills

and hide as a tree

no fucking way amanda im going in it

and killing them after

found em again

giants

and killing her with one too to get it

smash in the side

hit the car back

old muscle cars are it

and drag race motor wont break

and that truck can smash ssemis off the cliffs

she said she took out a school credit card

wtf

anne marie

how

she was stealing my books and me in her trunk to die after

she got 500$

to be a pig to do it

then live in a house after she makes a restuarant to scream and be one of those ball table guys

break em guys

boarr

feed me the wild shit

what food is here now

that is their church

we live they die what

these skiing people are giant

marilyn manson wedding

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=edcdKLqFGZI dog as big as a coffin

SELAMAT JALAN SNOWEE THE GOLDEN | RIP

they leave their new borns and hey find it dog

breed all of them to do it

that was sadam his wife and osama

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k0vmyUJSAAM bishops will die now

Bidding farewell to Benedict XVI: Translation to St. Peter's Basilica - Highlights

their priest is their wife

the cardinal is who she inbred with

in her own family

and the pope is their grandmother again

they say it to get sex again

Highlights - 8 - January 2024 Audience to the members of the Diplomatic Corps Pope Francis

hate each one of them

leon says it like him

is part of their church

no i am not

niggers

keep giving them kids at them

i never did

they make noises with their mouth after

ololololoo

their wives go ok

so do their gay sons

and the rest go yea what

and didnt fuck her enough in the room

hey. what?

dad coming over

says it

shoot them all

they are the ministry

and their families

they let us live

well you partied the fuck out of it then chris

she didnt take out a loan

fake college

gay

alive now

she said alive now wtf we can live alive now

and :10 got the most girls ever

250,000 in one day

fingered, fucked, and fled

with 18,000 others

then 290,000,000 women

the next day

fucking all of their heads again

then they all did what they want

they knew a nod meant yes

say they are the womens group like i said

and you already messed it up again

mr i got a house from their fucking jobs

Disney's Craziest Mid-Ride Evacuations #shorts #disneyworld

this is it

evacuate, leave meant it

leave the moms here

points at the ground where

and the moms drug it

we get to leave

they stand there

the moms do

their pastors were boats of guys asking after robbing for the first time hey wanna go with us free food since

dont go to school

who cares attack them

anyone alive and not on dope

and alcohol

cause THEn they fuck them

Santino Marella vs. Honky Tonk Man - Intercontinental Championship Match: Cyber Sunday 2008

you cannot fuck with that honkey tonk

he did show up to school to touch me

the fake italian beaner guy

and showed up in church too

i preformed an exorcism

and saw all that shit

lay 45 down and fuck kids to live

wtf

and lie in the back of church and free food at soup kitchen

and free detroit

live in land

and fuck

wtf whoa honkey tonk get in a truck and drive and live anywhere

im the only one who had information

all they did was drive is someone there

what are they doing