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sometimes i think that my sadness and grief and frankly anger about being single is about how fucked up that last relationship was, like i'm coming to terms with things in life and trying to be realistic with the fact that i might never be in another relationship even thought i want to be and that's okay! but i think the reason it cuts so deep is because if that does end up being true, i will be absolutely heartbroken that my last love was such a disaster and broke me in so many new ways adn he didn't even have the decency to admit that it was a relationship until he had to confront his own grief over losing it
#personal#personal post#patch rambles#relationships#so angry about it#it was always on his terms#the compromises were always mine#and that has been true in the past but only at the tail end and when my ex was severely mentally ill#but like even just general stuff#never able to do parallel play#not allowed to nap#not allowed to sleep facing away from him despite the fac tthat that's how i sleep best#if i was falling asleep when watching something he'd wake me up#never texting always calling#which like i like to call#but not all the time#and when i stopped texting we just stopped talking#and he could text another person he was dating#the being frankly cruel to me when saying stuff he didn't like about me because “we're close enough i can be honest with you”#when i asked why he'd never say that stuff to his partner#no man you just knew i'd never leave#the calling when i was travelling#which again i hate#ii like music and podcasts on public transport and i despise calling people on public transport#why did i give so much of myself#and why did so much of it take me so long to realise#honestly he's lucky i didn't live with my mum at that point#she loved all my exes and genuinely likes catching up with them#but i am her kid and i will always come first#and if i'd told her even a tenth of what was going on she would've shut that shit down immediately
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sending him “she’s busy bro” as a prank - zoro x fem!reader



i’m a non-jealous zoro truther!!! literally y would that man be jealous of anyone
been seeing a bunch of these floating around the LaDS fandom and giggled when thinking about how zoro would react
hope u enjoyed! I just got finished with an 8 week writing course for college and now it’s spring break! i��m so ready to get back into finishing my fics omg they’ll be here sometime next week eeeee
liked this? here’s another I made - (x)
#one piece#lynn writes#ronoroa zoro#zoro x reader#one piece smau#roronoa zoro x reader#one piece social media au#one piece texts#I love using the term woman bc he’s always calling someone that in the show lmao#it’s supposed to be endearing but lmk if u hate it#the only person who could possibly make zoro jealous is SANJi#he’d never admit that though
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No one understands guilt better than a girl with emotionally immature parents
#personal#actually bpd#bpd#bpd vent#actually borderline#bpd thoughts#vent#actually traumatized#actually cptsd#emotionally immature parents#like my dad just stole my moms phone AGAIN to text me some BULLSHIT#as he always does. and I was mean because wtf#and now I feel bad cause he's trying to be nice even though 6 seconds ago he called me a spoiled asshole#I told him that if we never speak again he can look at the last chat we had where he basically called me a useless bitch#soooooooo 🤦♀️ unfortunately.....he never learns. I told him he should have never called me a stupid bitch when i was 5 yrs old#because that STUCK with me. so hard. and his response was well maybe you were being one#excuse ME?
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In the script of episode 4 there's a deleted line where after Jopson gives Crozier a report of what the lieutenants said at the meeting, instead of asking Jopson if he's ever thought of becoming a newsman, Crozier asks him if he's ever thought of becoming a lieutenant himself. How are we feeling about that one.
#Also he calls him Thomas when he says this even though he calls him Jopson earlier in the scene. Which could mean nothing.#jopzier#The Terror#Thomas Jopson#Francis Crozier#It feels like surely somebody must have talked about this before but I've never seen it discussed??? Sorry if I just missed it OTL#If it's Jopson-related I always figure it's safe to assume everyone's already picked it over 1 billion times already as he is The Favorite#Starky's text posts#Starky's original posts
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I honestly think Steve isn’t really used to pet names, he likes to call Eddie ’Eds’. He does compliment his boyfriend for being handsome and pretty a lot, but Eddie on the other hand calls Steve all sorts of pet names, like sweetheart, darling, gorgeous, baby and Steve loves it.
#It’s like Steve called Nancy ’Nance’#Steve will learn though a little bc he never called anyone pet names and no one has called him#He likes to praise his partner and give compliments but he isn’t used to all that baby stuff#BUT EDDIE ISSS#and Steve always ends up blushing#Love them#<3#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#stranger things#steve x eddie#steddie fandom#steddie hc#steve harrington hc#text
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This definitely won't happen but it would be so fucking funny if they arrive at the planet Thrawn and Ezra were stranded on and it turns out that these two are best friends now and Thrawn is completely on Ezra's side. Morgan Elsbeth pleads for Thrawn to return and reignite the Empire and he's just like "those bitches? Fuck em. Ezzie and I started a band, we play Jizz music on Wednesdays. Here's my wallet pictures of us hanging out."
#Thrawn becomes the autistic older brother Ezra always needed and Ezra is the pet Loth cat Thrawn never wanted but loves anyway#Ahsoka#ahsoka series#ahsoka spoilers#Thrawn#ezra bridger#mitth'raw'nuruodo#ahsoka show#ahsoka show spoilers#Ahsoka Tano#ahsoka series spoilers#What will most likely happen is that they'll arrive to find Thrawn and Ezra were completely separated upon arrival#Possibly Ezra is on a completely different planet entirely#And it'll be an extra side quest to continue looking for Ezra#Thrawn will be the same old crusty musty dusty blue boy who hates everyone and is too smart for anything#<- I only called him crusty musty dusty because my phone's predicted text insisted those words belonged together and I'm crying#I do like him. He just smells#I'm interested to see how they handle his return however#We know the Empire never gets reformed until another 20 or so years from the time of the show under the name The First Order#So idk we'll see#This episode was so great
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thunder and lightning
insp by blonde!phil and the ii m&g where phil said that if dan were a kind of weather he'd be a storm
#also insp by listening to the new mtrench song called 'lightning and thunder' and then the phlonde reveal happened#and it was like an epiphany#cause?? phil as lightning w the new hair?? and phil saying dan would be a storm?? it was Perf actually#and i never make text posts anymore and i dunno if someone already made this comparison so.#the only way i could put this concept out into the universe is by drawing smth sdjfs#and i always wanted to draw them in blood*borne outfits so this was the perf excuse <33#dan and phil#amazingphil#phil lester#danisnotonfire#daniel howell#my art#dnp art#dpgdaily#phan#phanart
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the cast is going to see my art! my extremely niche subgenre of art! i can't believe i've noirposted my way into this!! guys!! aaa!!
#text post#fo4#fallout 4#when i got that inbox notif i damn near ran laps of my house#you should have been in that voice call#the lesson: ALWAYS BE POSTING. NEVER NOT BE POSTING#lesson 2: post about that old man hard enough and eventually somebody WILL have to intervene
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I need the goalie AU again. Please. I beg of you to please write thena being all shy and embarrassed when hanging out together and Gil thinking it’s adorable. I CANT BELIEVE I FORGIT ABT THIS AU LIKE THAT MAN 😭💀
Thena made her third - slow - loop around the rink, mixed in with everyone else attending the free skating time available to the community. It felt bizarre, skating freely. She was in a regular old sweater and skirt with fleece lined tights on. She wasn't here to practice her axle or turns.
She was here for a...to...with...Gil was meeting her.
It wasn't them crossing paths before or after practice, no matter how planned. Since Gil had shown up regardless of his own schedule, they had both come to do so more often. They even texted, now.
Thena had given up her aversion to phones just for the occasion. Ajak had questioned what made her want one all of a sudden, but Thena had offered the pathetic but perfectly believable excuse that it was just time for her. And she could text with Makkari and Druig, now.
To her mother's credit, she had accepted the excuse and taken her to the mall that very same day.
Hey, there's a free skate this saturday. We don't have practice that day. Wanna go just for funsies? :)
It was a completely charming and adorable invitation, from the wording to the little smile he added to it. Thena had already read it over so many times she was quite sure it qualified as obsession by this point. If anything, she was lucky the phone only noted when it was read for the first time, and not every subsequent time she had gazed at it just to hear Gil's voice in her head.
"Thena!"
Her heart leapt in her chest. Sometimes she felt so conscious of it she wondered if the rink speakers were blaring it for all to hear instead of a grainy old pop song. But she waved.
Gil skated right over to her. He had powerful strides, making it across the rink in no time, although he made sure to come to a stop in a way that didn't shower her skates with the debris of his gliding. "I'm glad you could make it."
She just smiled, tucking some hair behind her ear as they started skating lazily around with everyone else. "I've never come here just for 'funsies', as you put it."
He beamed at her. "Well, maybe this'll be the first of many."
It was somewhat of an open ended invitation; not so direct as to put pressure on her but certainly they both knew the implication. She looked down at the scratched up ice beneath their skates. "Maybe."
"Did your mom like the cupcakes?" Gil asked, a far better conversationalist than she (thank goodness).
"She did!" Thena jumped at the opportunity to talk about something that didn't make her quite so nervous. "She said she was quite impressed."
"Ah," Gil shrugged, blushing with modesty as he pushed his hands into his hoodie pockets. He was just wearing a t-shirt under it, but she supposed boys always seemed to dress too light in cold conditions. "It's just a simple recipe. But I'm glad you liked 'em."
They were the single most delicious thing she had ever eaten.
"I'll return your container next practice," she promised more quietly. There was no easy way to admit that she hadn't actually told her mother she was coming today to meet Gil specifically.
All she had told her mother was that she was meeting 'some friends'. She didn't want Ajak getting any...ideas.
"No worries," he grinned at her. Gil had a real grace to him on the ice, moving easily, but matching her pace in a way that required some control over his full abilities. "Your dad seems to be less of a jerk, lately."
Thena pressed her lips together. Her father/coach had indeed been less abrasive for several of her practices. Specifically, after he had asked her if she knew why a certain young man was always lingering. "I believe I have you to thank for that, actually."
"Me?" Gil blinked, and so innocently at that.
Thena rolled her eyes. "Father may be a bit of a beast at times, but he has a reputation of decency to uphold. He can't have strangers thinking he's unprofessional."
Gil nodded, considering the words. But he looked at her with a softer expression than before, "I'll be at every one of them, then."
She felt an increasingly familiar tingle in her cheeks and rushed to correct him. "Th-That's okay, Gil! I don't mean--there's no need, really."
He gave her a doubtful little pout.
She smiled at him as they rounded the loop again. "Your presence, no matter how long it's there, is enough of a deterrent. And its protection is appreciated, believe me."
As soon as she said it, she wondered if she should have. Did she sound weird? Was she making too big a deal out of it?
But he seemed unaware of her worry. That soft expression he had remained, and he even let his arm brush hers a little, as much as their skates would allow the proximity, at least. "Well, uh, good. I'm glad I could protect you, then, I guess."
They both looked away. Thena swallowed, although even that sounded too loud in her ears at the moment. The rink was cold but her face felt warm.
Gil cleared his throat. "Uh, I..."
"Do you come to the free skate often?" Thena blurted out, before she could think better of it. She hoped she hadn't cut him off from anything important.
She just wanted to keep talking to him.
"Uh, I used to," Gil managed, even pulling one of his hands out of his pockets to fiddle with the zip of his hoodie. "Skating was always fun to me, I guess. That's how I got into hockey."
She looked at him. "Not as easy to find time for it now that you're on the team, I suppose."
He looked at her, too, knowing she knew just how true that was for the both of them. "I guess, yeah. To be honest, I liked skating, but it wasn't really my idea to join."
"Whose was it?" she tilted her head, although turning the corners again made her have to keep her hair out of her face.
"Ikaris has been on the team forever," Gil shrugged. "And he kind of convinced me to try it just 'cause I'm big. And everyone told me what a good goalie I was after, so I guess I kind of just-"
"Went with it?" she suggested, and he affirmed it for her.
"I mean, I like it," he shrugged. "But it's nice to come here just to skate. I kinda forgot what it felt like."
"Me too," she sighed, looking at the faded colours buried beneath the ice, seeing the fog of her breath and feeling the breeze through her hair. Her ankles weren't burning, her knees didn't ache. It was fun.
"I guess I should come here more often too, huh?" Gil suggested lightly, and then became sheepish again.
Thena looked down at her hands clasping together. Gil had taken the first leap, not only inviting her today but also suggesting further occasions for it in the future. It was time for her to take a leap. "We could make a habit of it."
He looked at her, his curiosity piqued.
"So we can keep in mind that we like skating," she added, rather lamely, in her opinion. But to suggest that they make a regular habit out of coming here together just for the joy of each other's company--it felt a little too much, at least for now. "Outside of practice, that is."
"Yeah," he smiled at her, his usual charm emerging again. "I like the sound of that."
Again, the invitation was a good enough idea, but open enough so as not to need a full commitment this very moment.
"Hm," Thena squeaked out. She was letting the conversation roll straight into the ditch again. But Gil really had a terrible ability to push all of her thinking power out of her head just by being near her.
"Uh, speaking of things we like just for fun...?"
Thena looked at Gil, who had the same nervous but also assured smile he'd had when he first admitted he wanted to spend time with her regardless of practice schedules.
"I was gonna try a new cupcake recipe next weekend," he admitted to her more quietly. He pulled his hands out of his pockets for it. He had no need for even the light gloves she was wearing. She could see a plain leather cuff around his wrist. He looked cool with it on. "Would you wanna...come over?"
"And bake?" she blinked. She was extremely capable of consuming the results of baking. But that didn't mean she would be able to produce anything. "With you?"
"Yeah," he suggested lightly. "You could help me test it out."
Thena just stared at him, her mouth hanging open. She felt like an idiot, but she couldn't squeak out a single word. All she could think about was what it would be like to be with Gil, in his element, baking wit him, in his home.
And as much as skating for fun seemed like a hang out kind of activity, baking with him certainly seemed more in the 'date' realm.
"Thena!"
Her head was turned for too long and she hadn't realised she was drifting directly into the path of those trying to get on and off the ice. She tried to stop, but her picks were angled wrong, making her stumble.
"Whoa!"
Gil caught her before she could fall. And as much as she was happy not to tumble flat on her face - or behind - in front of him, she wasn't sure what to make of this, either.
Thena stared at him. His hand was on her back, having caught her waist in the bend of his elbow. She knew he was big, and she knew his arms were strong, but she could never have known how true those things were until now. And he was so warm. Even with his hoodie hanging open and just a t-shirt, she could feel his warmth radiating from him.
It went through his t-shirt like nothing. And her waist was now pulled right against his. Her light sweater felt like tissue paper. Her hands were grasping onto him through sheer reflex. One had a handful of his hoodie, then other had his shirt in its grips. She looked down. The bottom of it came up, revealing just a little of Gil's beautiful skin and the top of his jeans.
"Sorry!" Thena flailed to release him from her clutches. As if the near fall weren't mortifying enough, now she was pawing at him. If her face was warm before, it was positively on fire, now.
"That's okay," Gil said gently, not even a chuckle at her embarrassing display. "Are you? You're not hurt, are you?"
He was so sweet. It made her insides feel like she was in a perpetual axle spin, twirling and twirling and rushing with joy. And she could only hope she would stick the landing.
Gil let her smooth her own fluster. He stood stationary on the ice as she ran a hand over her hair, tugged at her skirt.
"Sorry," she repeated (needlessly).
"I don't mind," Gil said just as quietly. He was so sweet--so perfect.
She tapped her picks on the ice and looked up at the rink clock. She looked at him and forced a smile, "thanks."
"Do you wanna sit for a minute?" he asked, gesturing vaguely to the stands.
She looked at Gil. She could use the excuse not to look at him, collect her nerves. But she didn't want to only be nerves around him. She wanted to skate with him more, ask him more about hockey. And she wanted to learn how to make cupcakes from him.
"No."
Gil looked down at as she reached for his hand of her own volition. She had her gloves on and he didn't, but his touch was soft. Their eyes met and he blushed, "o-okay."
She started skating again, slowly, and he followed her naturally. Face aflame or not, she cleared her throat, determined to get their conversation out of the ditch. "Tell me about this new recipe we'll be making."
Gil's face lit up, and she had to look away again. But she kept his hand in hers as they resumed their looping. He pushed himself to be next to her, stride in stride, hand in hand. "Well, I found a recipe for a chocolate and vanilla swirl. I've never tried two flavours in one before, so I thought it might be cool."
They made the very best combination, Thena thought. She smiled at him, "so, what will we need for the recipe?"
#Thenamesh Goalie AU#oh my thank you so much for asking for this au!!!!#I really loved it and I've always hoped I could write more of it#I think it's so sweet#Thena has always been 100% focused on skating#it's never occurred to her to have a crush#and then along comes this PERFECT boy#he's sweet and funny and he brings her sweet treats???#also Arishem does NOT like that he has a witness to his temper#so he is less shout-y#and now that he knows it Gil never misses Thena's practices#he's not there for the whole time#but his protectiveness is in high gear#the guys from the team ask if he's really going early and staying late just for some girl#but Gil will be damned if Arishem thinks he has the right to berate Thena like that#so then he gets the idea for the skate just for fun#and he's so excited when she says yes#they've been texting and he thinks maybe she likes him too#but she's not really a wordy person and he respects that#but now they're holding hands#they're gonna have a cute baking date!!!#Thena does actually have to tell Ajak she's going to hang out with Gil now#and Ajak is like okay honey have fun with your boyfriend#Thena: HE'S NOT !!!!!!#meanwhile Ajak is like I can't wait to have a son-in-law#also#we all know he's going to call Thena Cupcake as a petname#let's just get that out of the way right now
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making a fankid but shaking my head the entire time so people know i'm against the societal belief that everyone's goal and only purpose in life should be to have kids and form a family
#i snapped and made a rock kandi fankid#she was meant to be a one off design to cheer me up and give me something to do#but i made her too cute. now im attached#her name is lacey :) princess lacey at that#idk what im going to do to be able to fit her in my thing. rock kandi or just a kirby kid in general was Never meant to be a thing#that guy's an adult in my oc timeline. and he does fuck all all day as he always has. it's a part of his bit that he's not anyone important#outside of being the hero of popstar of course. he's not a knight or a king/prince. he's not even an adventurer. he likes his planet#and wouldn't want to be too far from it so the idea of being an explorer doesn't appeal to him.#at the end of every adventure he always returns to popstar because popstar's his home#he likes just being a normal guy who just saves the world from time to time. he likes fishing and eating and sleeping#and making friends and juggling children. it's just what he does all day. he loves it.#he's always been happy with simplicity and living in the moment no matter how boring that moment is#and i fear that this would accidentally lent itself to a like. kind of a deadbeat dad?? or take away too much of his carefree bum-ness#technically this is ribbon's and fluff's spawn since kirby can't have kids. so maybe i'll just make the world's first kirbyless rock kandi#whatever you'd call that. Fluffbon?#they all live in different places so i always figured it'd be kind of impossible for it too work out in the long run??#or it wouldn't be That serious. not serious enough for a lacey#which is why i didn't make it canon to my AU and shit and only enjoy it at a distance slash in like a vacuum#so I don't knowww i don't knowww but i'll figure it out i guess#text post
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#why my mom always text me on my bday(begone evil witch)(it makes me antsy and nervous)(i never respond) but my dad always forgets when it is#until weeks to months later. man you were there#and i always call you... :<#switch this shit immediately !!
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#it is not ok to make feel someone who is 40 years old and well grown up like they still are your child and to feel free to scold them#whenever you feel like#to make them feel like they’re nothing but a disappointment#a failure#to always judge them for every little thing#I’ll make sure I’ll never do something like that#because I know what it feels like being on the other side#and let me tell you it is not a good feeling#ai always have to remind myself I am not like that#I’m just trying to do my best#to handle all the many things I have to handle having 2 little kids and being a sahm#I’m sorry if I disappoint you when I don’t even have 2 minutes for myself and don’t find a minute to call#I always send text tho#but of course it’s not enough#but don’t ask her to be the one to call or to send text because it should be me you know?#she made sacrifices for me so I should give back now#🤯#sorry#total random#i just needed to get this off my chest
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identity is so weird, cuz like, I'm a trans gurl, but I'm a gay guy, and I'm Aromantic, but I'm obsessed with dating, and like I said, I'm a gay guy, but I have no concerns about dating a girl, I actually prefer femininity to masc stuff, fr. ew, gimmee the girl, but I'd never date a girl, they'd have to be a guy still, cuz I'm a gay guy. but I'm also a girl who only dates men so I guess I'm straight now. . BOOOOOOO.
#transgender#actually autistic#aromantic#gay#text post#pangender#aro/ace#mental health#tag soup#“funny”#I really just like the parts man . . .#like. i just don't get being attracted to a person. I've never done that part. its always just “oh his face is good” or “mmm man parts :)”#Like WDYM “IDK we started talking and i was hot for it” That happens??? thats a thing that people do?? where'd my memo from god go?#Call that a mandate from heaven cuz my boss forgot I was on the payroll :/#like. if girls had the cool man parts I'd be a lesbian. not fair ;-;
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#literally no feeling worse than getting a text from a a guy you know from your job and it being like#“hey this is [insert name] i hope you don't mind me texting you i got your number from work” 💀#like okay.#it's happened to me twice now and it's never with bad intentions#(and i mean i work at a convenience store so all the employee's numbers are posted in a open spot for calling-out purposes.#even though i. really wish they weren't.)#but like idk it never doesn't feel invasive#like sure you can use that number if you need me for work but if you wanna use it to be friends -#- i really feel like you should just wait until i actually give it to you? or at least ask me for it?#and like the first time it happened i don't hold it against the guy bc he was like 17 and social stuff like that isn't always apparent#and it was are last shift together and he didn't get the chance to ask me#but this dude who did it tonight is like 40 and at that point i'm like. c'mon man.#he didn't even introduce himself he just texted me carrying on a conversation we had today at work#now you've put me in a situation where i have to find a way to tell you i'm not comfortable with that -#- without sounding like a bitch or making you feel embarrassed#idk. maybe i'm being unreasonable? antisocial? unfriendly?#but i'm also a 24 year old woman and so i do have to think about Boundaries more then the boys/men i work with do :/#whatever. i do actually want to have more irl friends (like desperately 😅) but i do have boundaries and it's hard to be friends w/ someone-#- who just steamrolls over them without patience :/#anyway.#marie speaks
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16 year old girls and that one "friend" <<<
#Vent post!!!! How is it my fault you've never apologized?#YOU CALLED MY SISTER AN ACHOHLIC#and you don't get why I don't talk to you anymore?#You think you can just offer me notecards and I'll forgive you again?#You broke my trust and you broke any faith I had that I could rely on you#No matter what everything's always about you#You trauma dump on everyone of our friends every day#You don't understand boundaries#You made fun of my personalit and talked about how the guy I liked could never like me (Because you liked him to)#You make fun of the fact and get angry at me for not being able to read social cues#When you talked about how I wasn't talking to you anymore you said “Sadie's not talking to me anymore and she won't tell me why”#Even though we set up a time to talk about stuff and you never called you lied & said I never texted you back#And oh by the way? When I texted you back to set up a time to talk YOU WERE THE ONE WHO DIDN'T CALL#And when one of our mutual friends said maybe you should try again you said “Oh well it's not like it's a big deal”#Even though we've been friends since 8th grade#So either you think I'm just going to forgive you with no effort on your end or you don't care#And to top it all off#You blame me for you not going back to Christianity sooner#Yet you still pressured me consistently about going to church with you#Even though I said no#Literally screw yourself#Your a bad friend and kinda a horrible person#You use religion as an excuse to be close minded and cruel while elevating yourself as holier than thou#Well guess what?#That's not being a good christian!#Your a fraud#And I think deep down you know that
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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