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Long week (half of a day)
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Also excuse to draw rook teehee. More warm ups cuz I’m rustaayyy
#never get into medical school#jk#rook r6#rook r6s#r6s rook#julien nizan#rook rainbow six siege#rook rainbow6#doctor kateb#doc r6#doc r6s#r6s doc#rainbow six rook#rainbow six doc#gustave kateb#rainbow 6 fanart#rainbow six siege fanart#fanart#r6s#rainbow 6 siege#rainbow six siege#rainbow six memes#rainbow six#what a long week huh
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do yall ever think about bruce/batman!clone danny standing in front of his bathroom mirror after finding out he was a clone and silently tracing his face. The slope of his jaw and point of his chin. The high angle of his cheekbones and the shape of his eyes, the curve of his brow bones and the shape of his nose. The volume of his hair and the way it curls and gets fluffy when it gets too long.
His hair is black the same way a crow's wing is black. His dad's hair is black the same way a black bear's fur is black. His dad's eyes are blue like the ocean is blue. Danny's eyes are blue the same way a glacier is blue.
His dad has a square jaw and straight flat hair, and he tans and gets a face full of freckles when he's out in the sun for too long. Danny burns like a lobster and his face remains untouched. Danny has a sharp jaw and tall cheekbones, and Sam says when he's not smiling there's almost something regal about him. You would never call Jack Fenton "regal" when he's not smiling.
Sam says when he's not smiling he looks scary the same way a stone statue is. Jack Fenton when he's not smiling looks scary the same way that german shepherd staring at you across the street is.
Do you ever think he grew up wondering if he was adopted. Because of course, he has black hair and blue eyes like his dad. But having the same color doesn't make you someone's child.
Or, worse, things he's heard from the other kids and the other parents and even some of his teachers growing up; that he was the product of an affair. And that his dad was just too stupid to notice. And Danny would defend his parents until the day he died, because Jack Fenton wasn't an idiot and Maddie Fenton wasn't a cheater.
But doubt comes in with fickle tongue. his parents swear up and down that he is their child when he asks about either. That Danny just had his grandparents' features, but he was their son and they loved him.
But Danny doesn't look like either of his parents. His mom's eyes are blue like an aquamarine and Jazz's too. And they burn like lobsters in the sun too, but Jazz gets freckles on her face and so does Maddie. And as Danny grows up he doesn't bulk up or get stocky like his dad did, and when he hits puberty he doesn't shoot up like a tree like Jack Fenton did.
He stays small, and they say he's a late bloomer (and he is), or that he just has his mom's height. But he's fast and has good stamina, and some days it feels like he's built entirely different from his family. That the things they went through growing up just didn't apply to him. Jack and Maddie Fenton both had acne and breakouts when they hit puberty, and Jazz inherits it and he's seen the amount of skincare products she keeps on her side of the bathroom.
And then he hits puberty and breaks out maybe once or twice, but his skin stays clear for the most part and the problems and changes his dad went through just don't happen to him.
And the truth is worse than all of the lies.
How horrifying.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#danny fenton is a clone#clone danny fenton#clone danny#thinking about the inherent trauma that comes with growing up as a clone and not knowing and questioning everything about yourself#thinking about the amount of effort and lying that Jack and Maddie would've had to to do if they wanted to pass Danny off as their bio son#the MEDICAL RECORDS#danny's medical history is completely different from theirs. any generational health problems the waynes have would/could be passed down to#danny and he's completely oblivious to it up until the reveal. he'd have no idea about any medical risks until they hit him before that.#so many little things and inconsistencies that would just build and build and build until it finally came to a head and the truth came out#forever and ever and ever fascinated by the underlying horror of being a clone. there's a horror in being cloned but there's also a horror#in BEING a clone. like yes he could've always known from the start and that comes with its own set of issues BUT. just. him not knowing#for the longest time. the lies and deceit and betrayal. you know how adopted kids come out and talk about how they didn't know they were#adopted for the longest time and how traumatizing and betrayed they felt when they're finally told 15-20 years down the line? yeah that#i imagine finding out you're a clone is a lot like that.#i read a book in middle school once abt a girl moving to a new town with her family and getting these horrible nightmares and noticing how#everyone was acting strange around her. one of her nightmares was about the 30yo police officer being a shambling corpse talking to her#and at the end of the book she finds out she's actually the clone of a dead older sister and the police officer was her sister's boyfriend.#and she was in gymnastics but quit and her parents were so disappointed bc the og sister was a champion/award winning gymnastics player#and i never did finish the book but god am i reminded of that.#i love reading the dpxdc clone danny posts and they usually have him brush off being a clone which is literally totally fine but duUUDE#just imagine his own horror over it. its SOOO good
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These kids are NOT studying rn
#alternate timeline where they just continue growing up together and go to school together as normal#jon continues being a superboy so he's not the best student you ever saw (tired! and he's got street smarts he's fiiiine)#but dami wants to pursue a medical career so he's always studying (or in class idk what medical students actually do) he's a nerd aw yeahh#so 90% of hangouts start to happen at the library - quiet so Jon can nap while Dami gets some studying done (Jon should also be studying)#the stupid manga-esque title of this fic I'm not writing is 'The Ex-Assassin and His Delinquent Crush' or something#it's absolutely a slowburn for the ages.. spanning all the missed opportunities until they're both adults and damian can't help but confess#anyway this was kind of just a doodle that happened bc I heard a pretty song which reminded me of studying at the library but falling aslee#under the sun coming thru the windows but then it became something a little cute... hehe#art#fanart#digital art#manga style#screentone#illustrationish#jondami#damijon#supersons#jon kent#jonathan kent#superboy#damian wayne#damian al ghul#damian al ghul wayne#robin damian#me vs I don't ever draw them as kids bc drawing kids is so scary#I love my kids :( my sons :( Jon they could never make me hate u u deserved to have a nice time
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whenever i talk about dps with my dad he tells me how he gets mad at neil for when his dad asks him “tell me what you feel” and he says “nothing” like he gets mad because neil killed himself but he could have just told him
and i sit there like staring at him remembering all the times he asked me to tell him what im feeling and i think of all the things i could tell him and instead i never say anything
my dad says “i just dont get it”
and im like “i do.”
#does this make sense#hes my mr. perry#im never getting over the relationship between mr perry and neil#its the same#my dad wants me to go to medical school to be a surgeon and make lots of money#my fig tree#the biggest fig#the one ive been pushed towards my whole life#doctor#ask me anything#dead poets society#dps#dps fandom#neil perry#dead poets#dead poets fandom#tom perry#family dynamic#family line#mr perry and neil
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one of the reasons i hate generative AI is that i have a chronic injury that makes me unable to write by hand for longer than a few sentences and therefore i need a keyboard in order to write essays for classes, and i’m a bit worried that professors won’t allow me to type essays as a result of potential AI use, even though i have a perfectly valid medical reason to need a keyboard. i’ve seen a few posts online saying that the only way to prevent students from relying on AI is to make them write by hand, and while i understand the sentiment and don’t even necessarily disagree with the general point, the matter of accessibility still needs to be addressed somehow, and it’s just a bit frustrating on a personal level as someone who has had to fight with teachers and professors in order for my needs to be met even before the era of chatgpt
#this is just me expressing my frustration please don’t take it as a big political statement#or as me saying that ai will forever end disability accommodations. bc that’s not true. i’m just frustrated and concerned#i don’t even have actual medical documentation anymore so i’ve just been going off the good graces of my professors in the past few years#so don’t come into my replies saying ‘you’ll be fine you have a medical excuse’ because i’ve had to deal with way too many instances of#my medical excuses (well-documented or otherwise) not being enough#never gonna get over last spring bringing in a letter from my psychiatrist that blatantly said ‘kai needs this specific accommodation’#and then going in to meet with accessibility services at my school to have them say ‘we can’t give you this accommodation we need#more documentation’ dawg what the fuck else do you need ??? my psychiatrist isn’t enough ????#yeehaws
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Sekaiichi hatsukoi is so much fun bc the tyrannical boss who takes their job way too seriously and the new employee who doesn’t know a damn thing is such a relatable concept and you can plop the entire cast into whatever au you want and it would still work just as well
#sekaiichi hatsukoi#I spent my last shift trying to put the characters into a lab work au and it still worked#Ritsu as the son of a hospitals ceo who got a cushy day shift job in microbiology at his dads hospital fresh out of lab school#he loves it and he’s good at it but he overhears the nighshifters talking shit abt how good he has it and that he doesn’t have to work that#hard bc micro is slow-paced and honestly it’s usually the same species of bacteria so it isn’t that hard to identify the species#so he quits and gets a job at a rival hospital but he’s put into a 2nd shift blood bank position despite never having worked in it#takano is the lead tech who comes down hard on anyone who makes mistakes bc this is literal life or death#it’s not just streaking plates and doing fun little biochemistry tests then putting the sample into the crispr to verify#the most advanced technology they have in bb is the cell washer. convenient but not as helpful#his first few days there are just back to back massive transfusion protocols and he genuinely wants to crawl into a hole and die#things calm down after his first week but it’s a huge learning curve and no one has the patience or the time to properly train him#emerald can all be blood bank specialists. Yokozawa is the head of histology.#having trouble finding roles for everyone else#kirishima could be a pathologist and Yukina could be a receptionist at a medical office while he goes to phlebotomy school(?)#or nursing school. something like that
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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i probably have some sort of dissociative disorder but i have a job so idrc about that rn
#icarus speaks#like#i’m thinking back to all of middle/high school#where i just kept telling my doctors ‘yeah the depression medication is working like i’m chill now’#‘but i do not fucking feel connected to myself still’#babes i don’t think those were depressive symptoms 😭#i do not think it is normal to feel dissociated 24/7 king#but also this is not on me considering i explained what i now realize is dissociation to a T to my therapist at the time#and she literally went ‘wow that’s weird. never heard anyone feel like that before’#so i don’t think me not realizing this is probably a bigger issue and not me being hashtag quirky#for like 10 years#still insane to me to think back on that#my exact description to her was something like ‘there’s a glass wall between myself and the world including my own body and memories.’#‘i can see them but something is keeping me from being able to connect with them like everyone else seems to be able to’#AND SHE REACTS LIKE THAT???#WHERE DID YOU GET YOUR LICENSE FROM HELLOOOO 😭#she genuinely set me back at least 8 years considering i did not accept that whay i feel is dissociation until like last year 😭
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I wish I had any way of knowing whether people have gotten Weirder™ about my name in recent years or if this has been happening behind the scenes the entire time
I've been going by Jay since I was 11. At the time nobody objected to or questioned this, at least not to me; I found out many years later that Jay is supposedly a "boy's name," but nobody ever said 'you can't use that as a nickname, it's a boy's name' and it went completely uncontested by anyone when I switched. Lots of kids announced some manner of name change at the start of a new school year in middle school; it was all normal and fine. My mom and, you know, grandmas and other relatives kept calling me Jessica, which was also fine! I didn't make a big family announcement or correct any relatives on this, I just wanted to differentiate myself from the half dozen other Jessicas in school.
For twenty years!! This has gone on being perfectly normal! My Real Name™ is an increasingly obscure bit of trivia I get to spring on friends who didn't realize I had one, which is always funny (my brother in law didn't believe me and demanded to see my driver's license). My mom and grandmas have largely still called me Jess, and that's also fine! It's nice, even! There's a particular intimacy there of having a name only my mother uses-- but, crucially, I have never asked her not to, or said that I don't like it. And as FAR AS I KNOW, this has all been true and fine for TWENTY YEARS.
My own feelings about it have never changed, and feel, to me, very straightforward: if I tell you that my name is Jay, and you decide that no it isn't, that is a problem. That's the rule. That's literally it. I had a high school teacher who asked on the syllabus for us to write down if we went by something other than our full name, who was nonetheless UNIQUE among all of my teachers from 6th grade onward in always and only ever calling me Jess, even though I signed all my work Jay, all the other teachers called me Jay, he literally asked whether anyone wanted to be called something else and I answered Jay, and I had him for two semesters. I met a work friend of Justin's once who asked upon introduction whether Jay was short for something, and when I told him it was short for Jessica he took it upon himself to call me Jess instead. This isn't me having a problem with any particular iteration of my name, this is just asshole behavior! I told you what my name was and you said 'no it isn't'. The problem here does not seem complex to me?
But within the last [hand wiggle] handful of years I feel like it keeps getting weirder? Apparently my dad and grandma argued about it at my wedding rehearsal-- she, dramatically, insisting 'I don't care, her name is Jessica, I'm going to call her that ;n;' and my dad angrily defensive that no it isn't, I go by Jay, that should be respected. And I'm sitting here listening to my dad relay this in utter bewilderment like. Well dad I love the energy but I have never been bothered at all if grandma calls me Jessica. I have never even once asked her not to or complained to anyone that she does. But also this is the grandma who HAS called me Jay more often than not?? My mom's mom never picked it up, but I was astonished to hear my dad's mom was acting like this was some New Dramatic Change that she Hated and not a thing she's literally already been doing for, again, twenty entire years. Why are you suddenly making it weird! Last weekend Justin's stepmom mentioned seeing my mom at the hospital where mom works, and how she said something like 'yes I'm Jessica's mom-- wait, no, Jay, she hates it when I do that' and I just?? I literally don't, the only problem now is that people who know me won't know who the fuck you're talking about
all of this and I'm just. I am literally just sitting here. why are we inventing problems out of this two decades later. what is going on
#I went by jess on purpose once in a college art class because there was a guy actually named jay#and I was like 'fuck this is why I dropped jessica in the first place' lmao#one time I put 'jay' on the preferred name line on medical intake paperwork and then when the doc was like 'jay?' I was like OH I hate that#oh no doctors Must Only use my paperwork name it turns out lmao#Justin's work friend calling me jess was so ??? you're not my MOM????#harvest moon awl has a 'what should I call you now that we're married' mechanic for I assume Darling or whatever#but one time I had my video game husband call me jess#justin also in real life has Jess Privilages but he doesn't want them because HE has only ever known me as jay#IT'S CONTEXTUAL. IT'S NOT THE NAME IT'S THE CONTEXT. IT'S THE RESPECT OR LACK THEREOF BEHIND WHAT NAME YOU USE#both my parents suddenly overcorrecting is weird but ultimately fine because the intention is clearly good#my grandma suddenly acting like it's a problem sets my teeth on edge. hey. this was never a problem before. what do YOU think this is about.#uhhh not to get. into it but. my dad is also almost definitely projecting baggage onto the situation that's got nothing to do with me#dad at christmas: it's just disrespectful! if someone tells you their name or their pronouns you don't get to decide they're wrong!!#me: I completely agree. not actually relevant to whether mom specifically calls me jess because that is in fact allowed but. I mean.#me: if you hypothetically told YOUR mom you go by something else now she SHOULD just use that instead. you're not wrong. hypothetically.#AAAANYWAY not to tangent on THAT too much#for ME having a nickname was so normal and it's only very abruptly been made weird by others and I'm baffled and annoyed about it#my mom's stepsister I see every handful of years: hi jess-- oh wait your mom said you go by jay now?#me: I've gone by jay since 2001 what is going ON--#I don't think it even occurred to me to wonder about Gender when it was mr hughes 'jess'ing me in high school but in retrospect I wonder#THE THING IS JAY ISN'T A MAN'S NAME TO ME. I MADE IT UP I DIDN'T KNOW IT HAD A GENDER. IT'S A GIRL'S NAME TO ME BECAUSE IT'S MY NAME!!#DON'T BE FUCKING WEIRD!!!#hhhuuaagh#I've talked about all this before but it came up again TWICE at christmas in ways that made me go STOP BEING WEIRD lmao#so it's on my mind again#about me
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Btw I have no idea if it’s known about in the wider fandom, but there’s a sizable amount of riddler-centric fics on AO3 where he adopts Steph after he kills/otherwise maims her father. There isn’t a point to this I just thought you all should know about it
#spook speaks#riddler fans said give this neurotic little man a child NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!#idk I just think they’re so fun to see#we should do that with other rogues too tbh. Two-face takes in baby Jason after killing his dad because he didn’t know he had a son#and Jason tries to maul him every step of the way#who else lemme think. uhh#Harley taking in baby dickiebird as a favor to her good pal Bruce from medical school#(she never ends up as Harley Quinn but probably ends up dating Poison Ivy regardless)#literally Any rogue accidentally acquiring Tim and trying to hand him off because he’s deranged#Tim still ends up a Robin btw and rocks up to beat his rogue parent’s ass on the regular#(they are Very proud)#Duke meeting Ivy during We Are Robin and getting support from her in exchange for a little help committing ecoterrorism#because Harley thinks he’s got spunk and Bud and Lou seem to like him too#idk. consider it
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I HATE MY ROOMMATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
#this is the only safe space for me to say it#bc everyone else can see on my other socials#she’s a slob#she asks me to take the trash out yet can never do it herself#whines about her medical issues yet I can pinpoint exact lifestyle choices she could make in order to make them go away#yet she won’t do it#just wants people to coddle her and feel bad for her#and I’m not giving her that#woke me up when I was trying to sleep in bc she was talking on the phone#like do what I do and go in the hallway#also let the microwave go off#so the beeping didn’t help#comes in super late every night#complains about her life in general yet puts no effort in whatsoever#takes advantage of her boyfriend#aka my friend#and both me and my other friend have noticed that he’s now just a shell of who he used to be#bc now she’s with him 24/7#and all the while she wants people to handhold her but wants to get into medical school#yet can’t even handle her first semester of undergrad#goodbye#she acts like she has it so hard meanwhile I have a minor a job clubs and am actually participating in my other stuff#unlike SOMEONE I know#then when I’m trying to sleep#has her brightness up in the dark#or comes in with her flashlight all the way on#and is playing videos#let me sleep#bc I have to be at work for 7am#and my day doesn’t end until 10pm
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i hate how entitled I end up feeling bc this is my sentiment but . Really really resenting that my parents aren’t going to help me with school or rent or anything while they super can
#230k income and they say they can’t afford to help. bull fucking shit#I work full time and make 30k a year and my mom said#and I quote#‘that’s it?’#YES THATS FUCKING IT HOLY SHIT?#I had to beg her to help with medical expenses for the cat she LEFT US WITH#and she says her and my dad can barely afford their house but she has never had access to their financials#so how would she know all of a sudden#I don’t know I’m struggling and I’m making a budget spreadsheet and I don’t have time for hobbies trying to do both work and school#and it makes me so angry because all my friends get help from their parents and mine just. I don’t know#I feel abandoned and hurt because it was like my mom and us against the world but she chose my dad in the end and that meant shutting us out#like whatever it is what it is. but it’s also not and I have so much hurt and anger pent up because I feel fed to the fucking wolves#btw out of their 3 kids I’m the only one they would have to pay ANY tuition for#and I’m going to a state school in the state which I was born and currently live. it would not be financially devastating.#(for them.)#fafsa is going to give me nothing unless I get married to my boyfriend so I can be an independent#bc fafsa is so fucking awful and is like mmmmm your parents will pay :) but they WONT THATS THE FUCKING POINT
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hi fellow neurodivergent people
i hate to jump on the "i think i might have adhd" bandwagon, but if i think i might have adhd, how do i bring it up to my care team as a 28-year-old cis woman who was a massive overachiever until i couldn't keep up the ruse anymore?
#idk what happened when i got laid off it seriously is like my brain BROKE i cannot do anything#i have not done much of anything in a year. and i think it's bc my coping mechanisms were 1. self-medicate but ESPECIALLY do that while#2. overcommitting. because it kept me busy and distracted. i excelled in school because i could focus on it without it giving me anxiety#school was honestly almost the only thing that didn't give me anxiety as a kid. and i never felt quite Right like i didn't feel like i fit#in with my peers. i've always felt like a human being that isn't a person. like something's not quite right. i excel but i feel like i'm#doing it wrong because it's SO hard for me. i graduated my BA and BS programs with a 4.0#but it came with the cost of alienating all of my friends and family and becoming really reclusive and weird and distant and anxious#but i really just wanted to do well at the one thing i felt i was good at. which doesn't seem like something i should take note of#idk. my life feels like a claustrophobic box. i feel like i'm buried alive and i can't get myself out because i can't work#because i can't focus. but maybe i'm just stupid and lazy and want everyone to take care of me forever so i can continue laying around doin#fuck all. which i do a lot because i'm chronically ill. idk. like is there ground to stand on here. i literally have zero friends rn#and i feel so so so sos so anxious any time i am working because i worry i'm going to do something wrong or forget to do something or make#lots of mistakes that get me in trouble. i'm so scared of making mistakes it keeps me from doing anything at all. but i get so anxious bc#i'm not doing anything! i'm wasting time! and i can't focus on anything when i AM working because i have to get up and pace#like i HAVE to move around or i start to feel like i need to peel my skin off like i'm an orange#like. is it anything at all. or is this just me being someone who has Other Stuff going on
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I've had both the worst and best year of my life simultaneously and that has been a lot ™️
#like it's been so bad lol#my grandma got super sick and i helped take care of here#which meant i had to make a 3 hour trip to and from jersey twice a week for several months#and then she died which i witnessed and tbh will probably never truly be able to get over#my plans of going to grad school fell through#we dont even need to talk about the fucking election#my body continues to betray me by having my weird undiagnosed medical condition to worsen#and now my teeth are shifting and my hair is falling out at a concerningly fast pace#my mental health is just so bad#but at the same time ive gotten to spend this year with such a wonderful and incredible person who i love with my entire being#and i dont even have the words to describe how wonderful that's been#i have never felt so loved and wanted and safe and protected in my entire life#and ive gotten to do so many cool things because of my girlfriend#it's just so weird to be so so so so incredibly happy yet fucking miserable at the same time#but im glad that ive had my partner to support me through this shit show because i honestly dont know what I'd do without them#life sucks but my god being in love makes it worth it#personal
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It’s very funny how my presence at family functions is treated as a requirement, yet my need for help actually getting there is treated as a burden. If I don’t go I’m a horrible selfish monster. If I do go I’m a horrible selfish monster. No way to fucking win
#my sibling has a concert that I wanna attend but the Uber all the way there is $110. and another $110 back. and tips for both drivers#I cannot afford $250+ in transportation#I cannot afford $80 plus tip to get to my hometown for them to drive me to my siblings school#I cannot afford $80 plus tip to get to my hometown for any holiday#all of my money has gone to school. medical expenses. and general bills#and I’m still not caught up on paying for medical expenses#when I stopped going to holidays I was treated as a horrible selfish monster#after I started going again I started getting pointed questions about my ability to help with transportation#the funny part is that despite constantly asking me about this mother has never been the one to give me a ride anywhere#even funnier: she’s an Uber driver. she drives to my city every fucking day#the number of people who need rides from my hometown to the airport (which is FARTHER AWAY than my place) is insane#but uh. every couple family things I’m getting asked if there’s any way I can change things up#the fact that it’s happening again despite me telling her about my grand adventures through dental and medical care hurts#it shouldn’t be surprising. but also I expected better#I shouldn’t have
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Listen I'm 100000% against privatization but also fuck every NHS doctor who talks to chronic illness patients knowing they've had to wait months for an appointment and only deal with whatever symptoms are relevant the week of the appointment. Sorry Janine, that I'm not on death's door today after 4 months of self-treating since your entire department is a walking wait list, but maybe if you helped the symptoms that got me a referral then I wouldn't have to keep taking up your precious time and could instead, I don't know, have an actual life.
#why is it that talking to doctors always reminds me of how endless the possibilities are for human stupidity#you went to medical school for how many years? just so you can spend 30 minutes telling me what the general NHS recommendation is?#I may not get this half hour of my life back but you're never going to get those 8 years back either
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