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Imagine Kenny and Makima competing for your love, I don't know if that would be romantic or terrifying...
i . i mean…… to be CLEAR…….. this is my greatest fantasy Of All Time but 😭😭 it would DEFINITELY be horrific. imagine having two toxic mothers fawning over you at every second……. /drools I MEAN WHAT
first of all ily anon thank you for feeding my mental illness i’m absolutely unapologetically insane abt these two <3333 this scenario is just so interesting to me…….. the funny thing is that for kenny and makima to genuinely like you that way you’d have to be their equal. unless they’re just manipulating you…. or keeping you as a pet…… which i would be okay with tbh in which case pls find gojo and kishibe bc they’re your only hope at survival 😭😭😭 pls stay safe.
but assuming that they actually <3 like <3 you….. i think makima would be worse than kenny LMAO. she’d just be a lot more possessive i think……. unwilling to let your attention waver from her for too long……. kenny is like that too but i do think he’s a bit more chill. makima’s whole thing is control so she’d probably grow kind of frustrated if she couldn’t control you properly (but then again, maybe that’d just make her like you more? knowing you won’t fall for her in any way but willingly)….
but yeahhhh both of them are very much playing the long game and VERY much intent on winning so prepare to get tangled up in their 5d mind chess <3333 they’re both so intelligent and cunning that it’s a bit scary. a lot scary actually. they throw each other knowing glances, raised eyebrows, little warnings. kenny really would be more relaxed though. he’s intent on keeping you by his side but he doesn’t get quiteee as clingy as makima (and he’s also more likely to find the whole triangle drama kind of fun while makima is just…. desperately grasping for control) I DO THINK HE’S CLINGY THOUGH i think they’re both clingy. they’re both quality time lovers to me so they’d take you on lots and lots of dates… makima buys you gifts hoping it’ll win your affection while kenny is more likely to bring you on a fun trip somewhere. making memories, teaching you things….
they’re both charming and cunning and scary but also very silly!!! :cc like i can imagine them both taking you to the movies….. and kenny is just talking over it bc he CAN’T stop yapping especially if the movie is good and makima is literally abt to pop a blood vessel. you’re stuck in the middle with makima coyly linking your finger together…. and on your right is kenny who very casually sneaks his arm around you….. leaning close to whisper commentary into your ear……. and suddenly makima is feeding you popcorn…….. /explodes
THEY’RE JUST. do you see the vision anon….. are we seeing the vision…….. they’re awful and silly and possessive and you’ll end up with one of them whether you like it or not. maybe both. i don’t see kenny losing but i don’t think makima would ever let him win. if you managed to make two people this detached fall for you then they’ll probably be smitten with you forever. and honestly good for you just make sure to keep them in check and you’ll be fine <3333
#this made me fully insane thank you for my life#they’re so My Type and i think. that’s says a lot about me. not very good things 💔💔💔#need them bad i fear#they really are so similar when it comes to the scary/silly contrast……….#they’re both my little meowmeows forever and always :3#ask tag ✩
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things that are scary that you just have to get over at some point
being wrong (as distinct from)
other people having different opinions from you (as distinct from)
minor disagreements
the eternal uncertainty caused by living in a universe where luck exists (e.g. Just Anything could happen to you for no reason)
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i've had this list open for so long but i can't think of anything else
i sorta feel like most other fears are kind of fine to have
oh like spiders i guess
#post not made to be like you're bad for being scared of these things. i am also scared of them.#post made to reaffirm that being scared of these things is normal but also doesn't change needing to get over them / move thru the fear
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Just two demons. hangin out....... this is what the inside of my brain looks like if ur wondering
#arrrt#obey me shall we date#obey me barbatos#obey me mammon#obey me nightbringer#barbatos obey me#mammon obey me#om swd#obey me! shall we date?#obey me! nightbringer#obey me fanart#obey me#om mammon#om barbatos#guuuys i need to kiss them BAD#erm. also. maybe#barbmon#not even a maybe i fear
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she’ll be alright because she had you.
#star wars#the bad batch#star wars the bad batch#sw tbb#the bad batch season 3#the bad batch season three spoilers#the bad batch season finale#tbb spoilers#tbb#tbb season 3#tbb hunter#sergeant hunter#just been thinking about hunter struggling to let omega go because he fears for her safety#it’s a big bad galaxy and he’s seen some of the worst of it#but i think he’d come around because he knows that he’s done all that he could to teach her to survive on her own#his love for her#the same love that makes him fear for her#is the very thing that gave him the strength and drive and dedication to give her all the tools she needed to mold herself into her own—#extremely capable person#idk i just think they’re beautiful and i miss them#apologies for waxing poetic (not really at all but it feels like i’m dumping— don’t know if anyone will even read this. oops. okay bye)#mods draws#mods art#my art
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goro picks up a clingy nyakiren
#akeshu#i guess?? in a way ????#p5r#persona#art tag#guys it's been a WEEK tm#needed something to be cute and silly#i dont know the first thing about keeping a cat#also i think this is how my akiren acts anyway cat or not#i think akechi would take very good care of his new kitty#instantly reads up on cat care and soon his place is filled with cat toys and goods#takes pride in keeping his feline friend well brushed and clean#and what does he get in return? fur all over his clothes#nyakiren probs starts off with some attachment issues#and being very afraid of water (rain association)#but gradually overcomes his fears after gowo gives him some calm and loving baths#also i dont know when or where i started giving akiren his ahoge he doesnt officially have one ??#what a greedy man he even keeps it as a cat#also ?? happy 1 year anniversary to me finishing p5r#did not expect these two to take over my brain#but here we are i guess#they're basically just two OCs at this point#but in my head there's also a canon version of them and a bad end version :3c#wow my head is literally full of akeshus... three of them...
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I love Raph and haven’t said that enough so to be more specific I love that Raph is a soft boy who loves bear plushies, a gross boy who eats an assortment of things that are definitely better left alone, a smart boy who is more than capable of taking down villains through planning and fortitude alike, a strong boy who is dedicated to training his muscles and fighting prowess, a teenage boy who loves his brothers but is more than happy to tease and roughhouse with them, an angry boy who sometimes lets his anger take a hold of him to cover the fear, a gentle boy who is generous with hugs and affirmations to those he loves, a capable boy who takes on more than should ever be expected of a teenager, a good boy who just wants to be a hero and slowly comes to realize the cost of that duty, a good boy who has no reservations about putting himself in the way of harm coming to his family, a good boy who’s a great brother and son and person and deserves only the best the world has to offer.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt raph#rise raph#he’s so wonderful frfr#my poor boy is traumatized but still so proud of what they accomplished because they’re HEROES#what started as something fun - Saturday morning cartoon-like heroes vs villains esque - soon becomes his calling#and he loses himself a little along the way#because the world is TERRIFYING now#if they don’t do something about the bad things in the world then worse things will come#and Raph CARES too much to let it happen#even at the expense of his own happiness and youth#and he luckily reigns back that fear - knowing his family is there to keep an eye out with him#and he finally lets himself be a kid again#he’s very well rounded and his flaws are so good because (like the others) they are ALSO his strengths#I like how it’s softly implied that bears are his fav animal too bc that’s cute af#headcanon that he likes them so much because a stuffed bear was the first toy splinter managed to get Raph#but yeah one of my favorite things about tmnt is that the characters are well rounded and rottmnt exemplifies that immensely#with raph being no exception!!#amazing big brother and character#there’s a REASON in my tmnt main character tierlist he’s S tier!!!!#hot take but in terms of who should be leader I think it should be less who’s the better leader-#-and more who’s the better leader FOR THIS SPECIFIC MISSION#bc all four can be great leaders fight me on that#APRIL can as well 100%#doesn’t need a designated leader for them to succeed#they just need ~communication~#one of my favorite things tying Raph and Leo together is that they both *hide*#I’ve talked about Leo’s many masks a lot but Raph has one too#and it’s the mask of a hero - the mask of the protector
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trying to keep my arthurmorgantchi happy, clean, and well-fed :')
#but i fear i only feed him saloon food and snacks (when i remember to feed him)... 😭#i dont mean to be lazy....... im just really bad at hunting and fishing.......#but i need to get better at them.. for him....#my art#personal#digital art#fanart#red dead redemption#red dead redemption 2#rdr2#rdr2 fanart#arthur morgan#john marston#tamagotchi
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I need Vaggie and Husk to be friends SO badly. I just think they have potential like they could possibly be one of the best duos if given a chance. I actually have so many thoughts on this so hear me out:
There's so much potential JUST because of their relationships with Charlie and Angel (Charlie and Angel are siblings but we don't need to get into that right now)
But seriously short grumpy characters with wings and their extroverted beanpole partner is killing me
So basically I can see them both ranting about what their partners are doing on a daily basis but it always ends with "I love them SO much" "Cheers I'll drink to that"
I have a feeling Charlie and Angel are both the kind of people to leave lipstick marks on their partners and just not tell them so Husk and Vaggie have to check each other out real quick before going anywhere. I mean no questions asked just one of them standing in front of the other with their arms and legs spread out until the other one gives them a thumbs up or a rag to clean it off with.
I also think it would be funny if Husk was the first person to know Vaggie was an angel he just didn't mention it. He says so himself that the residents of the hotel will spill their secrets when they get drunk so Vaggie definitely got drunk and let it slip that she was an angel but didn't remember it by morning. Husk's motto is basically "That's none of my business" so he just doesn't say anything.
Also continuing with the "that's none of my business" thing, Vaggie absolutely agrees with that sentiment as long as it doesn't hurt Charlie or the hotel. Neither of them like people digging into their business and having Alastor in their lives means someone is ALWAYS digging so it's nice to be with someone who just does not care.
Oh and they both shit on Alastor 24/7 so good for them
PREENING EACH OTHER!!! By the time Vaggie gets her wings back they're close enough for this. Husk hates his wings and is shit at taking care of them but Vaggie really wants this to happen. She does miss some things about the exorcists and that's one of them. Of course she would never say that out loud but Husk gets it and they do it anyway.
Vaggie would start flying ALL THE TIME after getting her wings like she has so much time to catch up on. Angel knows that her and Husk are good friends and that Husk hates his form so he'll get Vaggie to convince Husk to fly with her. It takes a little bit but they have fun and Charlie is really proud of her so it's worth it.
They can literally sit in comfortable silence for hours and not get bored
They bicker all the time about everything like they'll say the meanest shit but they're besties and they're joking so it's fine
They are so down to kill Valentino at any time. They have multiple plans, they have lists, they're really creative about it too.
They'll just sit, people watch, and judge strangers together
They're so judgemental but also the least judgmental??? They'd be like "Why would you do that you dumbass" but also actually listen to what's being said and try to find a reasonable solution for each other
Double dates that Vaggie and Husk don't actually want to go on but unfortunately Charlie and Angel are convincing (they have a really good time)
They were both stripped from their occupations (overlord/angel). They miss it sometimes and they feel bad about it because they were both terrible people during those times. When they get like this they always seek each other's company. Sometimes they actually talk about it, sometimes they change the subject to something completely different, sometimes they have a drink and sit in silence. Either way they only acknowledge it with each other.
Husk teaches Vaggie how to make drinks. It's calming for him (even though it's annoying that he's technically being forced to do it) so he thought she might like it. She does and is actually really good at it. When they get more residents she'll help him out behind the bar.
Sometimes they'll sing together. They sound amazing and their partners love it. Husk also tries to teach Vaggie how to play saxophone it does not go as good as bartending did
They're the only ones in the hotel that can speak Spanish so yes they do use that to their advantage
Are both so tired all the time. They just deserve a stress free nap. They end up curled up together asleep and are found by Angel in the middle of the night. He takes a picture and immediately sends it to Charlie. Charlie and Angel manage to keep the picture but are not allowed to show anyone or ever mention it again.
They would never actually admit to being friends even though they're best friends and one of the few people the other can actually stand being around
JUST HUSK AND VAGGIE BEING BEST FRIENDS YOU GUYS
#oh jeez this is a long one#Hazbin Hotel#huskerdust#charlie hazbin hotel#chaggie#husk hazbin hotel#vaggie hazbin hotel#angel dust hazbin hotel#why isn't there any content of them being friends#I need this so bad#seriously what demon do I have to make a deal with to make this happen#I feel like they interact the least but why#the potential#I'm manifesting so hard vivziepop herself fears my power#I can't be alone in this please guys#what is wrong with me#the Huskerdust fanfic I was reading just updated this is fate#Am I posting too much???#I feel like I'm posting too much
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all i got from this is that kaito's pick-up lines would totally work on shinichi lmaoooo
#LOOK AT HIM ALL BLUSHY AND SCANDALIZED#lmfaoooo#he got rizzed up by kaito and he didnt even realize 😭😭😭😭😭#OKAY BUT SHINICHI AND KAITO IN ONE MANGA PANEL OH MY GOOOOOF#ALSO AOKO PRETTY GIRL!!!!!!!! SHE'S SO CUTIEPIEEEEE UEEEE 🥺🥺🥺#kaito treat her better pls 😭 she deserves sm better 😭#okay so back to kaishin#LMFAO#Sorry my brain is rotten for them i fear#look gosho already got the canin pairing handled!!! whether he's handling it good or not is debatable lol but he's got that handled!!!!#we on the other hand need to speak up for gay detective and thief duo alongside the detco staf who keeps making gay merch#and op/ed scenes of them!!!!#LOL#so anyway yeah shinichi totally falls for kaito's pick-up lines lol#even more so if kaito tailor makes it for him oh he's GONE#lol#dc prattles#kaishin#rereading the tags and my GOD the misspellings are horrendous lmfaooooo#too bad i cant edit shit on mobile rip
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"so be sure to forgive him ASAP." (Killer accidentally hurting his SO)
What if you don't forgive him? What if he reaches for you dramatically while pretending to grovel and you flinch? If he notices you're tense and silent, not taking your eyes off him- normally he'd love that, but you aren't looking at him lovingly, or even with fond annoyance.
You're afraid, and it's directed at him.
Killer has an alarmingly one-track mind, when it comes to you. He will continue to pester you, every single spare moment he has, with the same big smile and silly energy and loving aura, as if nothing was wrong. It doesn't matter if you're laughing at his jokes or visibly pulling away from him in terror. He keeps going.
You're still scared? More stupid jokes. More apologies. More gifts. More nudging you with his elbow and saying "hey, watch this," before he does something that makes Dust or Horror regret waking up that morning. More smiling. More casually putting his elbow on your shoulder while he's talking to someone else. He will gnaw away at your fear response to him, piece by piece, until you're desensitised and you can start to love him again.
He's a deranged little persistence hunter, addicted to the way your smile fills the huge hole he carved out of himself. He will never let you go.
#llamagines#i can imagine that after a while if youre still not receptive to him the others might step in#killer's insane overzealous devotion actively makes the other bad sanses nervous for his mental state#killer is silly and harmless and funny - until he isnt#like... they'd work both in trying to get killer to calm down and in trying to get you to warm up to him again#axe and dust would do their best to talk him down from his neurotic //i NEED to make them like me or i'll die// moods to give you some room#and nightmare would talk to you to try and solve some of those ongoing fears#bad sanses
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Ok but how did ace even get a girlfriend in the first place? Did she confess and he just went along with it? Did he think having a girlfriend would make him seem cooler? Was it a dare or something? Cause for someone like ace to just go ghost on her and not have an actual talk, kind of makes me feel like these two were not friends before they were partners.
So then, fast forward to nrc, ace is trying so hard to lose the feelings he has for his best friend. Because that's all they are: friends, homies, if you (duece) will. Yuu has the cream of the crop to pick from, he's kind of at a disadvantage here.
Plus, whose to say their entire dynamic won't change the second they get together? He doesn't want to get bored and start to hate one of his dearest friends by proxy, so might as well just play it safe and suffer a little than take that risk and the both of you suffer a lot 🤷♂️.
Meanwhile yuu, who still has their old phone/mp3 player, has been playing Jenny by Studiokillers on repeat. Lying in their bed, just down horrendous for this absolute ball of boyish mischief. How dare he, honestly?
Well. At least he gives them a lot of openings to flirt with him?
*disclaimer, I was home schooled so my actual knowledge about middle school dating is beyond non-existent so take what I say with a grain of salt
The information we get about Ace's girlfriend comes from his suitor suit vignette and he does not mention how they actually got together, just some of the things that they did and how boring Ace thought all of them were. And I agree! The way they broke up does not make it sound like they were friends before dating, though they could have been casual acquaintances. The way Ace likes to goof around makes me think he was probably pretty popular, and had a lot of those types of relationships. His description of the relationship makes me think he probably went out with her because he thought she was cute and that it would be fun to have a girlfriend, but didn't actually stop to think about who she was as a person or what dating actually means. And hey, he was in middle school. He was going to be a bit stupid about those sort of things. The experience seems to have made him think a lot about what he wants in a partner, and we know from Ortho he was telling the truth when he's forced to spell it out:
His voice lines flesh out what he wants a bit more; he says he thinks it's important to find someone you have fun with and that he wants to get married later in life. So Ace knows what he wants... he just gets really embarrassed when called out on it and refuses to talk honestly about his feelings (though he kind of does that in general hehe)
So flashing forward to NRC. Ace knows what he wants and Yuu is such a perfect fit it hurts. Best friends to lovers is a popular trope in fiction sure, but in real life? At a school? Yeah right, Ace still has to see them every day if they break up, and not to mention... I feel like Ace, Deuce, Grim, and Yuu sort of fell into their dynamic almost immediately after the mine adventure and didn't ever stop to think about it because of how natural the friendship felt. And Ace knows if things end badly he's losing the whole squad, so yeah. Better to just swallow this and stay where he is. He's still in school! He doesn't need to think about dating! He's got a housewarden to surpass, upperclassmen he admires, and a bunch of idiots to take care of. He can worry about dating later. Besides, these feelings will go away after graduation he's delusional sure of it!!!
Meanwhile, back at the ranch Ramshackle Yuu is literally in a living hell. Maybe they're a bit more emotionally mature than Ace and they just know this could work out but THEY CAN'T TELL IF HE LIKES THEM BACK BECAUSE HE KEEPS GETTING SHY AND MAKING JOKES FML!!!! But like he also lets them steal his gym shirt :ccc and he gets pouty when someone else makes an offer :ccc and really smug when Yuu says no ccc: so like maaaybe? Or maybe not and this meaningless flirting is all they'll ever have and they just. Try to be ok with it and they sort of hate themselves for it.
until Sebek properly joins the friend group and looses his fucking shit
#<3 asks#twisted wonderland x reader#twst x reader#ace trappola x reader#aceyuu#ace trappola#had a thought insp by mochi's request they did for me that um#if crowley is malleus's dad#and he's trying to resurrect his mom#there could be parallels between him and ace in a timeloop aceyuu au#they both have a love taken from them by fate#they both have a friend who they've helped inspire to be better that they are forced to abandon#maybe out of fear they won't approve of their methods#maybe out of fear that they will#also started thinking about the steadfast tin soldier and using that as symbolism for aceyuu (i am down bad)#(i have other things i need to do)#(like fix my masterlist jesus)
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guys i. literally last night i read a nonfiction piece at writer’s open mic. not that unusual. my favorite professor was there. Slightly unusual. afterwards he knelt down by me in TEARS and told me to never stop writing. boom. instantly started sobbing. what is WRONG WITH HIM
#it was a rough piece to read lowkey#it was like my history of being sexually harassed + religious trauma. which is a great combo#the nonfiction professor keeps trying to convert me and i’m like rachel i cannot publish all these pieces about people who could SEE THEM.#but then my friend suggested i publish under a pen name which is actually not a bad idea. so i’ll sleep on that#but anyway. chris wants me dead is the point#can he adopt me pleaseeeeeeeeeeee. he has the same name as my dad even.#what a crazy insane wonderful man. i really needed that lowkey#(and i KNOW this sounds fake ok but i swear it happened😭 i couldn’t even believe it and he was right in front of me. he is just Like That.)#this is the peak of my entire life i fear.
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they are ignoring my big beautiful pathetic himbo wife and his cute little platypus tail that he has for some tank part reason im too dumb to understand why
#how can u laugh 😿 this is not a JOKE 😾⁉️⁉️⁉️#love the way starscream was smiling and entertained by demo's people pleasing and having to make himself frown#so he can make demo even more exasperated by his apathy#'it's funny when he nags cyclonus but he can stfu around me pls '#part of what makes armada starscream so cool is demo taking a lot of the more pathetic sides of his ppl pleasing#starscream's ppl pleasing is more for competitive career (power) reasons and fear#demo's tries to be but also he just wants megatron to like him and be nice to him pls :(#whereas megs actually likes starscream and wants him to succeed one day just not today lol#and starscream is like no wtf ure weird i just want ur position . gtfo#it's like the one worker the manager wants to make a new manager one day but the worker hates it there & just does whats needed then leaves#& trains new ppl by being like 'yea so the fuckass manager likes it like this so if u see him then do that shit but heres how i do it lol'#new ppl being mini cons who hes like that cool younger adult to wholl send ppl home instantly if theyre sick & is chilled but professional#meanwhile demo is the suck up tryhard who just needs to put the fries in the bag bro#he wants to be manager so bad but hes also annoying and dumb and megs just wants him to leave his office so he can pretend 2 work#cyclonus is the broke guy who just goofs off bcs if he gets fired then he gets fired but they havent yet bcs theyre understaffed#n he knows it too. he sleeps on the job if it slows down for 1 second. but hes an adrenalin junkie who can get distracted#demo wants meg to want his effin cookje so freaking bad... i love pathetic men#sideways secretly has 3 jobs total & 2 of them are at their competitors' who pay better so he dgaf abt this one#he never picks up shifts and doesnt care abt working less hours. hes hust here for the drama tbh#he clocks in wondering if demo will ever get that megadck hes been bitching abt#he clocks out a disappointed fujoshi#it's ok bcs karen hot rod who works at their competitors comes storming in with his kids & needs rizzed up#by either starscream or sideways bcs they fucked up his kids' orders on purpose after hr gave them a spiel abt their long list of allergies#demolisher#starscream#cyclonus#transformers#maccadam#tf armada#sideways
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Ok. I just need to take a moment and say I absolutely love how Wally's reactions while dodging an alien hurtling towards him out of his 𝘞𝘐𝘍𝘌'𝘚 mouth are normal, but then his finishing expression and pose is like a Greek statue.
His face just goes from pure shock to ✨𝘔𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘤✨.
Honestly, it gives me "I want you to draw me like one of your French girls" vibes.
Don't even get me started on Dick's reaction, lmao.
#Wally West#dc comics#dc universe#the flash#linda park#dick grayson#nightwing#Dick's instincts are wild#like wally had superspeed so its not that shocking he dodged so easily but Dick?#Dick is literally a normal person who probably doesn't even know whats coming at him and was just like#“I need to stab stab with my electric stick”#He literally has the definition of surprised pikachu face XD#birdflash#Wally realizing when he dodged he left Dick wide open and in the crossfire and having nothing but pure fear and regret on his face is just#AHHHHHGHGHGGG#i love them your honor#their relationship is everything to me#Feel bad for linda#I hate puking in general but having an actual LIVING thing come out of ur mouth is just EHGHUGHUGHU
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Which miraculous ladybug character would work a minimum wage daycare job with screaming toddlers (asking for a friend)
#miraculous ladybug#marinette dupain cheng#adrien agreste#alya cesaire#nino lahiffe#felix fathom#kagami tsurugi#rose lavillant#juleka couffaine#luka couffaine#nathalie sancoeur#I think the people who are really good at it are those you least expect#I actually think Kagami could be good at it#quote: they are far less complicated than adults#they cry when they’re mad you don’t need to worry that they secretly hate you because they WILL say it to your face#I’m autistic and that’s why I like it#they don’t lie and they don’t have social ques#Nino and Alya are prolly peak#I think Felix would be really good at making them laugh#dancing singing etc#they love watching me make a fool of myself in high definition 4k#Felix would be afraid to raise his voice… even if you kinda have to when the kids are doing smth dangerous. esp if there’s like ten of them#he’s terrified of becoming like his dad even though it’s not REMOTELY similar#I think Adrien would be INCREDIBLY patient#Adrien would be a pushover I fear#I put Rose because I think objectively she’s the correct answer#I think Juleka would hate kids tho#Luka would play his guitar and the kids would love him#Luka would prolly not work there but hed come in once a week for a jam session#Marinette is either really good or really bad
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at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!
#i have had this stupid fucking rule for myself for years since i was little#''dont speak unless you're spoken to or else something bad will happen. nobody wants to hear what you have to say unless they ask''#I TELL MYSELF THAT ALL THE TIME????#AND I DIDNT REALIZE IT WASNT NORMAL#thats not something that healthy people think to themselves whenever they want to talk to people. they just talk to them#they dont tell themselves not to speak to people for fear of what may happen to them jesus christ spacie#i get so scared when i message anybody ANYTHING#bc everything and anything i wanna talk about feels so stupid why would anyone give a shit#staring at a funny joke i want to send someone for 30 fucking minutes before deleting it b/c my brain is like ''errmm who cares?''#''also they're going to yell at you for wasting their time!!!''#i sent my friend a meme once and had a panic attack (or maybe a flashback?? im still trying to figure out what they are) immediately after#this shit sucks dude. it sucks#at least im processing what happened to me. thats why it hurts so bad rn its been stockpiled for like.#2 decades#im not looking for any sympathy here im just putting it out there#so that anybody who feels the same way i do know they're not alone#ive been struggling everyday for like 2 months now (actually DEFINITELY longer)#it will get better. things just need to be taken one step at a time#i have gotten thru my worst days i have a 100% success rate#how many days have i been alive#7930#lightwork#lets keep it goin#vent#trauma tw#trauma mention#wrote this post thru a flashback btw!! dealing with them is getting easier#before i would be unable to function for days at a time!!!#with one of the most recent ones i had i was so in the thick of it i avoided everyone i knew for a week cuz i was convinced#i was an evil unlovable freak that only wanted to hurt people
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