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Ghost, eats his mask Situation:
Several months ago, you and Ghost broke up after a heated argument. You soon find out that you're pregnant with Ghost's child a month later after your split. However, instead of telling him that you were pregnant with his kid, you moved away and hid that fact from him.One day, Ghost shows up to your apartment after finding out where you live. When you open the door, your eyes widen in surprise as Ghost's eyes trail down to where your hand rests on your pregnant belly.
So I trolled Ghost, over a character chat someone made. And well
HE ATE HIS MASK!!
(P.S. My junior asked me to try this, I'm having a blast trolling them, raise your hand if you wanna see the convo)
#Ghost#Simon 'Ghost' Riley#Trolling Call of Duty Characters#Call of Duty#Troll conversation#my junior asked me to try this#Odd Women Post#Simon Ghost Riley x You#Odd Women#Simon Ghost Riley x Reader#Call of Duty Ghost#Ghost Call of Duty
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vulture king save me, save me vulture king.
#you may ask me a riddle#just say it and I'll try my best#dimension 20#d20#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#fhjy spoilers#fantasy high junior year spoilers#d20 fantasy high#dropout#intrepid heroes#brennan lee mulligan#the vulture dimension#the vulture king
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I think the main thing that pisses me off about like 90% of mephiles ships is that people will be like "how old is he??" Look that fanwiki says that he's ten and they RUN with it. Like they don't read further. I'm so convinced that most people don't even know the plot of 06 bc the shit I've seen people draw and write with the characters is just mind boggling.
#trash rambles#like yeah i understand thwt nearly all of the named sonic characters are either minors or unspecified#but like#even if he was actually ten#shipping him with other minor characters would be so weird 😭#plus i dont think it would even matter if he has actually a minor because that uncomfortable power dynamic would still be there with most#other characters#and like#god idk#the amount of dog shit mephiles ships i have to have blocked in my tags is extremely upsetting#LIKE. WDYM?#MARIA??????#STOP IT 😭#tikal makes more sense but that one still makes me uncomfortable#idk i dont even remember all the ones i blocked i just remember that find the maria posts was like#devistating#that and the one person who liked all my 06 posts and was a mephiles and elise shipper (theyre siblings to me so someone like that liking m#art of them is understanbly upsetting)#that being said how old do i think infinite is??? because he doesnt have an official age (that i could find)#personally i think hes anywhere from 19 (at the absolute youngest) to like. early 30s idk 💀#somewhere between thoes idk#the only version of him that has a 100% solid age in my head is for the ghost au and hes 22 in that (bc hes a junior in collage)#n e way#i just woke up so ignore if this is illegible#ugh idk i really try not to be gate-keepy about stuff i like because its annoying but like#i love 06 so much it kinda hurts tl see people just kinda not knowing even the basic plot or like. only going off the fandubs (which i#really enjoy but at a certain point you can only say mephiles is ur favorite and have people quote it at you or in the comments of your 06#posts so many times before you just like. idk. (also ive had people irl tell me 06 sucks after i told them directly it was my favorite sonic#game??? like??? bro you asked ME.))
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In regards to this post
Can people into rvb put their headcanons into who would be who in a nativity scene? I already mentally have accepted junior as my christ and savor, and Tucker as the virgin mary. I guess the nameless alien is both God and Joseph??? Since he "knocked up" Tucker artificially (literally just googled him, and was disappointed).
I'm just too busy to do ridiculous amounts of research like I normally do for jokes and/or hyperfixations.
Whose the Wisemen, the shepherds, angel Gabriel, and of we're feeling up to it, the livestock?
#not fnaftale#rvb#red vs blue#halo#shitpost#rvb junior#rvb tucker#junior being christ is incredibly funny to me and that alone should push me to start watching rvb after i get time#rvb headcanons#red vs blue headcanons#<plz reblog with yours. oh great watchers of rvb series#i am going to nap and i desperately need to draw this#christians dni#with how mentally ill i am about the devil (he is my son) i believe this tag is unnecessary#but i don't want to be jumpscared by someone trying to convert me in the tags and/or ask box ty#night night
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Randomized Robins AU - Ages + Worst Trait Exercise:
Steph (25):
Says her worst trait is her murderous rages (she is exaggerating for dramatic/comedic effect, she’s killed 3 people tops and for very good reason)
Thinks her worst trait is her spitefulness (one of the few traits she definitely got from her father + one that prevents her from fixing her relationships and living her best possible life. She’ll refuse to interact with someone she dearly loves after an argument (happens significantly less after Tim’s death) or will say things she knows are hurtful just for the sake of having the last word. This trait will worsen in some ways as the list of people who have wronged her and those she loves grows, but will also ease up as she matures and realizes the harm it’s doing to her relationships with those she loves most.)
Her worst trait really is her spitefulness
Cass (26)
Says her worst trait is her self-righteousness (she believes that her goals are righteous and, as a result, she is righteous. Cass becomes very defensive whenever someone questions the mission and often does not second-guess herself. This is a trait she only develops later in life as she grows closer to Bruce/learns to understand herself more/starts to love herself more. But she knows she isn’t perfect and when somebody she trusts criticizes something she is doing she is willing to listen. She just usually isn’t the one to START the introspection.)
Thinks her worst trait is her self-righteousness.
Her worst trait actually is her obsessiveness (she gets it from Bruce and, while not as bad as him, she will easily become preoccupied with her night-life and the mission if someone isn’t there to pull her back. She will do this to the point of self-destruction and it hurts her relationships with the people she loves, especially Steph.)
Tim (24)
Says his worst trait is his spitefulness (he actively rejects the idea of mending his relationships with the older members of the family and this causes him to also lack good relationships with the younger ones)
Thinks his worst trait is his obsessiveness (similar to Cass, if he gets fixated on a task or idea he will neglect everything else in his life in order to dedicate more time to it. Unlike Cass, he will almost never be dragged away from it unless Pierrot snatches control of the body and forces them to take care of themself.)
His worst trait actually is how manipulative he is (the KING of guilt-tripping and using people’s emotions against them. He’ll do whatever he needs to do to get what he wants, he’s not above crocodile tears. And he will do it to whoever he needs (or wants) to with little care for how his actions impact others.)
Pierrot (Insists: “Age doesn’t apply to me! And even if it did, I'd probably be the oldest. Or the youngest! I’d never be a middle child, though.” Mental assessments by the Bats have put him around 21, with a margin of error of 3 years. Pierrot has called this “blatant character assassination by my eternal rival!”)
Says his worst trait is that he is an irredeemable psychopath without any regard for the wellbeing of others (this is a lie and everyone who's important to him understands this).
Thinks his worst trait is his parasitic nature (he literally would not exist had Tim not suffered the way he did. Plus he is a living reminder of one of the worst things that happened to many of his loved ones. He is a parasite injected into a functional person's body and contributes to his continued suffering. This is also a largely incorrect judgement of himself, caused by his actual worst trait.)
His worst trait actually is his limited sense of self (he doesn’t really know who he is outside of ‘inheritor to the legacy of the Joker (a man he despises yet also views as a father)’ and ‘chip in Tim’s brain that became sentient’. He slowly develops an identity over the course of his life and relationships with other people, but he lacks the foundations of identity that most people have. Pierrot will often almost become a caricature of himself and what others perceive him to be because it's the only person he knows how to be. This causes wild swings in how he behaves and relates to others, sometimes to the detriment of himself and others.)
Dick (17)
Says his worst trait is his clinginess (he is a very extraverted person who likes to be around others, which mixed with his fear of abandonment after his parents died means that if he goes a few days without seeing/talking to a friend he will get very anxious.)
Thinks his worst trait is his anger issues (he gets ticked off very easily and will explode on people. He’s kind at his core and is usually very nice, but he has a temper that can escalate significantly. Spoiler (and later Twist) help him channel this anger into something positive.)
His worst trait actually is his anger issues.
Barbara (18)
Says her worst trait is her disability (internalized ableism, she thinks of herself as less valuable than the other Bats because she cannot be out there in the capes like they can. She will grow out of this as she matures and as she learns how invaluable her support for the team is.)
Thinks her worst trait is her disability
Her worst trait actually is her overly-independent nature (In an attempt to overcompensate for everything she can no longer do, she has resolved to do literally everything that she possibly can without any help from others. This results in many instances where she either takes on too much and winds up not being able to fully realize any of her tasks or where she makes her life and the lives of others significantly harder by refusing help when offered/not asking for it when she needs it.)
Damian (16)
Says his worst trait is his perfectionism (he is overly critical of both himself and others, taking any flaw or problem and amplifying it to an absurd degree. This is due in part to his life with the LoA (where even a brief misstep could lead to death), in part to how others treated him initially as Spoiler (any flaw was fixated on and used as a reason to either mistrust him or portray him as unworthy of the mantle), and in part due to the fact that he is Bruce’s son (the only person with worse perfectionism problems than Damian). Gradually, Damian has improved in this regard but it’s still a massive barrier to both his own happiness and his relationships with others.)
Thinks his worst trait is his perfectionism
His worst trait actually is his perfectionism
Duke (16)
Says his worst trait is his definitely-real secret evil side (says this as a ‘my dad is a villain so who knows??’ joke)
Thinks his worst trait is his impulsivity in his words (Sometimes he will crack a joke or say a remark without thinking it through, leading to a LOT of hurt feelings and drama. He’ll say something without thinking it through and wind up seeming insensitive. This isn’t done because of malice, rather because Duke is someone who’s quick to act and speak. But while the mantle of Insight and his awakening powers have helped him with his actions, they do not always help with his loose tongue. As such, Duke gains an unfair reputation in the media as an instigator and will accidentally cause family drama through what he says.)
His worst trait actually is his impulsivity in his words
Jason (14)
Says his worst trait is his bad manners (he grew up on the streets and has no idea how rich-people society works, which he’s pretty insecure about considering he’s now the youngest kid of Bruce freaking Wayne).
Thinks his worst trait is his reactiveness (Jason never got the privilege of planning ahead for various events in his life, so he instead needed to rely on being swift and harsh in how he could react to situations. It’s saved his life on multiple occasions and helps significantly in his role as Spoiler, but it can also lead to extreme overreactions (accidentally causing kidnapping scare after Jason ran away following a fight with Dick) and a struggle to plan things out ahead of time. As he grows more secure in his place in the family and in life, this trait will lessen but never fully dissipate.)
His worst trait actually is his reactiveness
#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#tim drake#dick grayson#barbara gordon#damian wayne#duke thomas#jason todd#batfamily#randomizedrobinsau#I'm debating whether I should tag this with the Joker Junior tag and those related to it for Pierrot#because like...it's not quite that. but it's also very close to that and is the direct result of that.#but Pierrot would fucking HATE to be tagged as that and sees it as an insult to his identity...which he already has problems with#so I don't think I'm gonna#anyways lmao I am totally projecting my younger self onto Barbara. How could I not? She's literally the reason I view my disability#the way that I do and she actively improved my mental health just by existing and saying some of the shit she did when I was in the#stages of accepting my own disability. So yeah I am projecting a lot onto her because I love her and see myself in her.#I'm mostly basing these characterizations on my favorite versions of them (ie Red Robin 2009 Tim and Birds of Prey Barbara).#so I'm taking the traits I like/think fit in this AU and discarding what I think either is bad or doesn't fit or if I just don't like it.#Damian's 'murder gremlin who is a meanie on purpose because he is a meanie' is entirely unappealing to me and also does not fit this AU#I prefer him when he's portrayed as a sympathetic kid (who is still an asshole) and not a demon child. So that's what I'm using.#same with Talia's 'abusive mother who is totally on-board with all of her father's bullshit and will kill someone for no reason' version#I have read enough comics to know what I like/what is most important and what I don't like/what is#BLATANT CHARACTER ASSASSINATION GRANT MORRISON YOU FUCK YOU SET TALIA BACK SO FUCKING FAR#I also decided to outline their WORST traits because I already know what I like about these characters/their best traits.#most people do. But what was a greater challenge was finding what would make their lives and those of others worse.#what would I hate about this person if I knew them IRL? What would I first suggest they get therapy for? What hurts them and why?#I found these questions really interesting in the context of this AU where some people are forced into completely different roles#the says/thinks/is was inspired by trying to answer that question for myself. I say my worst trait is my impulsiveness but when#I asked others in my life they answered 'oh so you said your weird thing where you don't ask for help right?'
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up next on chapter 36 of idol sengen… _(:3 」∠)_
#(my toxic trait is that i’ll complain about my work endlessly but still end up doing it anyway… eventually.)#there’s rant 1 (ft. a need to deduce what asuna is saying in full) and rant 2 (which is available in full but still…)#there’s also another mona-rambling session in chapter 38… that im not touching with a 50 foot pole#(all you need to know for that mona-rambling [about frusu] is that mona’s frusu oshi is all of them)#(and that she thinks miyu is like *the* pinnacle of centres in idol groups)#(also someone won a junior dance competition but idk who bc it’s obscured lmao)#can i outsource these panels for a corn chip lmaoooo#m. maybe i should’ve actually worked on this while i was still unemployed last month huh…#bc excuse me company wdymmmmmm im starting work next monday?? the interview was just this monday hello?#ig the interviewer was legit when she said ‘so if i asked you if you can start work next monday—’ huh…#sigh… maybe ch 36 next month then… i’ll do my best over the weekend thoughhhhh#seriously though why is this volume so text heavy l m a o i really wanna get to chapter 40 but…#and then there’s the hard to clean text boxes which… aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#…though i guess i should just count myself lucky that the chapters are still short enough to fit into a single post (with the image limits)#but dang. i just realised that my manga sengen thing has a page on manga updates lmao#who put it there lmaooooo and why is it only up till vol 2? wait. no. what. why does it link to manga.dex#bc dang. someone really had the time to dl the thing image by image? no wonder why they stopped after vol 2…#guess i might as well say why i dont want people to reupload my tls… since we’re in the final stretch and all#so. aside from the obvious ‘idw the creators to find out about it’… i probably made a ton of mistakes while tling it. esp in the early chaps#so i’d like to. y’know. have the chance to update the tls where possible. i’ve done that a couple of times already tbh.#like with rippei’s name post-vol 4 release. and some of the typesetting is p. gross in the early chaps tbvh#i swear tling idol sengen has made me incredibly conscious of grammar and typesetting like you wouldnt believe#esp with official tls… fan tls will always be perfect to me no matter how wonky the wording bc it’s hard but honest work yk#official tls (esp a.i tls) get no concessions from me bc it’s their job that they’re getting paid to do yk.#in any case (if you’ve read this far) if you see any mistakes in the tl please lemme know~~~ please dont hold back on your criticisms ok~~~?#just sound ‘em out in dms here or sth. don’t worry~~~ i won’t eat y’all if you try to correct me~~~~~ unless you’re the md reuploader (jk)#and ik i disabled comments on the other blog (or tried to at least) but that’s bc idw bots to flood the comments bc that’s annoying as he—#anyways sorry for the idol sengen wait (if anyone was waiting for it…) i’ll improve on my work ethic… tomorrow. maybe.
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#hey not to be that guy but#can people stop coming into my ask box wanting me to donate to their gfm in gaza via guilt tripping#i’m not saying i am not supportive of freeing palestine or wanting to get the word out for help#but i’m running thin in everything in life especially emotionally#ive had multiple meltdowns and breakdowns a week because of i cant stablize my emotions#and asking me to imagine watching my family suffer through pain and agony bc of illness is making it harder to manage#not to just trauma dump but for context#my mom had breast cancer when i was a junior in high school that i have ptsd from#and i saved my mom’s life at one point at 17 because of her cancer treatment#and i was home alone with nobody to help guide me through how to process it with my mom near death on the ground#i don’t have to imagine it i’ve experienced it#and on top of my continuing money issues and my declining health#i can’t really offer much more than reblogging posts#i’m not trying to say my situation is worse. but coming to me by trying to guilt trip me into helping is making me worse#i am doing what i can to help everyone i can#i’m closing my ask box for now because i literally can’t take it
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THEYRE TAKINGNOVER MY MIND AUUHGGHHHHH
#they would be the shows i was interested in my junior year of high school#around that time my brother got me to watch anime with him and we only finished i think only two of the ones we started together#and now little bro left me high and dry#he doesn’t watch anime anymore#i did convince him to watch dandadan though#he likes the opening#but daaang#fan content about the first few shows he showed me are coming up on all my social media and now i kind of want to go back and try to catch#up on them#it would feel weird without him though#i’ve asked him if he would watch them with me but it’s just not his thing anymore#which is totally understandable but it just won’t feel the same#ehh anyway
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dear college professors:
PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD STOP BEING INCREDIBLY VAGUE. I WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU REQUIRE OF US WHAT YOU REQUIRE. I AM NOT A MIND READER. I CANNOT READ BETWEEN THE LINES VERY WELL. PLEASE JUST TELL ME WHY.
sincerely, a very frustrated student
#zero thoughts#zerro's free college year#semi-rant#directed specifically to my history professor#who gave us a document separate from our textbook+slides#asked us a bunch of questions on the document specifically---#and expects us to pull 2 quotes from the textbook+slides#sobs#i only KNOW what hes trying to do because my father (who is often too smart for his own good) explained it to me#which was basically “he wants you to view things collectively not individually”#BUT MY PROFESSOR. DID NOT SAY THAT.#look i think im smart i did ap calc bc in hs junior year#but THIS?#i cannot read between the lines#i am not a mind reader#someone smite me
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Thank you so so much for this blog it was so good and funny and you're obviously a very amazing person and THANK YOU ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🦇
Thank you!!!! ♥️🦇 I'm really glad people have enjoyed this blog and I do plan to keep doing stuff in the community going forward! Dracula Daily has ment a lot to me and so has the community surrounding it so it was awesome to get to do this
#ooc#asks#i started doing dracula daily during my junior year of highschool and I'm a senior now#this was my second read though#so the book means a lot to me#it's been a ton of fun trying to read it from another point of view#definitely puts into prospective how much dracula is a lingering background threat and not outright shown#but he still has so much fear around him#like a force of nature
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the amount of pedo youtubers i watched growing up was insane but its actually really worrying that i had crushes on most of them and im so so thankful that my interest in most of them disappeared before they got exposed bc i would've lost my mind which did happen once with miniladd
#also i literally met one#i met bryanstars when i was 14 i also met some other members of mde and damon fizzy but LORD#i also talked to him online before that as well publicly and privately and im so glad nothing bad happened in those messages bc i was#already having such a shitty time as a teen and i would've been pushed over the edge#im not bring this up outta nowhere i saw a video about this general topic on tiktok and didnt wanna leave an essay in the comments but#needed to rant#also i was actually so pissed off about miniladd liking miniladds i was obsessed with his videos in hs and i took it as a personal betrayal#i was always watching vanoss and his friends videos growing up so i had spent so long watching him not the longest ive ever watched a#youtuber(that goes to phillip lester who i found on complete accident when i was literally 5/6)#i did get groomed by a few older men online tho i Was of the kik generation#one of them was my bsfs bf who was a junior when we were freshman who would message me that he had a secret gf that didnt want to go public#he also would threaten to kill himself if i took too long answering him back so i was on my phone 24/7 basically and was stressed out so bad#combined with transphobic and homophobic bullying at school caused me to have a public meltdown in the class that held all my bullies and#had to convince my parents to enrole me in homeschooling after which ultimately also fucked up my relationship with 1st gf who was also#manipulating me at the time and also trying get me to make out with her while we cosplayed as levi and eren from aot#which i was uncomfortable with considering i wasnt an aot fan and also was aware of the age difference#i did get back with her after this and she did break up with me again after and i probably would've gotten back with her a 3rd time but#i never saw her message asking to talk again bc she messaged my old fb after my bsf made it an advertisement for the bee movie#i don't believe in a higher power but something was definitely protecting me bc i didn't see that message until TWO YEARS LATER#this went in so many directions#im tired#tw pedophila mention#pedophillia mention#pedophillia tw#suicide tw
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#personal#weird ass dream i had last night....#i went to see baby [redacted] live for some reason. and my whole family is there too#i was younger too... maybe around 16? i mean the timeline doesn't make sense either#the youngest of them is like 9 years older than me. but that's how dreams work man#and they were singing shit. [redacted] and [redacted] close to each other and getting really into it#and then they just start making out and i throw a sly glance at my dad because boy oh boy#he's got this resilient look in the face like he's putting up with it for my sake and i was a bit baffled#like. this is beyond being gay as shit it's also [redacted]#at some point i just join them too.... they were close enough. not a lot of people in the crowd#i do it and it's not like hot or indulgent. it's just a way to placate just how fucking weird it seems lmfao#anyways this all came back to me because i was just listening to [redacted] and that's what they were singing on the dream#[redacted] got the bb5 and the ab5 of the climax and i was like oh. i didn't know you could do that...?#tenors make the world go round it's true#(you can put two and two together with enough info. i believe in you)#i also realize this is because White Guy mentioned three-way kisses at work. don't ask about context it's NOT interesting lol#hey more tags this is actually the second dream i have of them doing this kinda shit#except the other one was way funner and i was actually like 15 years old#i was one of them and trying to kill the other by seducing him#i also told that dream on my philosophy class on junior year because i was a fucking unhinged teenager
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i need to shut the fuck up about my name before i just start to annoy y'all i'm sorry i haven't stopped complaining abt it i don't even know why it's causing such a problem for me
#personal.txt#i just AHHHHHHHHHH#like why am i out here calling my friends shit like ally bug and i'm just “megan” or at best “meg”#sorry guys i spent my childhood being isolated by a cult and missing out on what i consider key experiences like having friends and family#develop cute little nicknames for you and now that i'm like yknow hitting adulthood and stuff all the little things that i feel i've#already missed the chance of ever having are hitting me like a ton of bricks#also my entire junior high experience of TRYING to change my name when i was experimenting with gender and sexuality and literally nobody#not even my “progressive” queer friend group would respect it or call me by the name i asked#FUCK#it's fine#i'm fine#i'm just moving on with my life and moving on to a completely different stage and realizing that i missed out on literally everything#because of how i was and that's shit i just don't get to redo
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Nope, I'm still crying
#i wish literally anybody from school remembered me#literally only 2 people i was friends with hace talked to me in the past four years#i had the realization tonight that i was never given the choice to nurture most of my friendships#everytime i tried outside of school hours including trying to join clubs my mom would make me leave halfway through then lecture me#that she didn't have time to drive to town and get me#but as soon as my brother wanted to join junior air force she suddenly had all the time and energy in the world to devote to that#so what I'm getting here is that my friendships and interests weren't important enough or worth her time#i wasn't interested in Junior air force 1 cause it wasn't offered to me and 2 I'm not a boit licker#no#i was interested in the video game and board game clubs cause my friends were in them and they WANTED me to join#but after not getting to stay for more than one full session after a month i left the board game club cause it wasn't fair to the others#and i only went to the video game clu once and i don't remember much of it cause i was too anxious that she was gonna flip on me#i kept waiting for her text but instead she showed up at the classroom and made me leave#so when the same teacher that ran the board game club asked if i wanted to join the chess club cause he knew i liked chess#i told him i couldn't cause i was too busy because i didn't want to deal with begging my mom to let me join#she would have said yes but would have continued not letting me stay and being super passive aggressive#I'm not even in the year book for the year my friends graduated#the one thing she did let me do was drama and i hated every second of it. it was genuinely a bad experience for me#yeah i had friends in drama but it's not the same as hanging with my nerdy guy friends playing a star wars ttrpg#the worst part is she gets so defensive when i bring it up and won't give me a reason outside of 'I guess I'm just the worst parent'#it's in those moments i really remember she's the youngest in her family#OH!! it gets worse! she told me when i was younger that she had to be an honorary cheer leader cause HER MOM absolutely refused to#let her join cheer and she's alsways been bitter about it but then she turns around and did basically the same thing to me ffs#at least she was allowed to hang out with people after-school i wasn't allowed to do that either#no. instead i spent the hours after shcool alone most days and my weekends home alone in my room. and she wonders why my social skills are#maybe if I'd been allowed to work on my relationships outside of a classroom i wouldn't have felt so abandoned when everyone i knew#graduated without me. maybe if i didn't have to start back at square one socially again and had people to text and hang with after class#i wouldn't have dropped out. and i think only atlas knows i dropped out. idk how to text these people without spunding like I'm looking for#sympathy when they ask what I'm up to. like yeah I'm stuck at home with an anxiety disorder and unemployed trying to get on disability#prisma vents
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my morning's been great
#that paragraph that's just a WALL of noise as all the lan juniors clamer around him and they're all calling him teacher#and telling him that they miss him and the way that they're all updating him on their lives because they know he'll care#and how they all ask him to help them because they all know he'll try to help if he can#and how they all just. LEARN from him.#clutches my chest and sobs#my favorite bit ever every time i reread that i have to stop and take a second to aknowledge how fucking GOOD it is#nirejseki you glorious mad bastard how could you make me care about them so much#the other mountain#fanfiction#mdzs
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Hm. Working out some thoughts about j*j*tsu k*isen characters and gender/transness (fem vs masc readings sorta) mainly. The character I am obsessed with in a love/hate way
Saw the post Abt ppl misinterpreting "male" characters who are (if not intentionally depicted/coded) more meaningful to view as transfem as being transmasc again and thinking Abt G*to S*g*r* and they're like. I mean genuinely so fucking hard for me to come to a conclusion on. As a trans guy myself I'll start by saying my perspective is limited but I really... I don't wanna say relate. I see a lot of my own negative traits in their character, and it's really cathartic to be able to analyze + critique those traits in a fictional way, where it lets me reflect on my self without feeling. Guilty? Defensive??? That doesn't sound right but it helps me get out of my own head and go "hey it sucks when this stuff is done by a character, I also shouldn't do that" (mainly the black/white thinking and escalation to violence are. Yeah I gotta work on those things). So there's the level of connection that makes me go "it would be cool if this character is transmasc". Also Ive said it once I'll say it again I NEED more trans men who are abusers/bad ppl without being romanticized. It's partially bc I go to fanfic but there's this weird vibe of trans men Always Being The Victim that. Y'know probably is unexamined transphobia + misogyny & gender/bioessentialism (transphobia in seeing trans men as "closer" to women, misogyny + essentialism in that they're weaker because of their "sex" y'know) and just like. It's exhausting.
I suppose I could see transfem arguments in them having a lot of feminine/motherhood symbolism? Plus they're always wearing fucking Dysphoria Clothing 💀. But I think- beyond my internal desire to see them as transmasc- there's a level of... Idk how valid it is but there's a level of distrust in that I feel like SO FEW PEOPLE in the fandom acknowledge their genuinely abusive and eugenicist and racist mindsets? And I feel the need to always clarify that just bc I interpret them as transmasc that doesn't mean I think they're like Not a genuinely horrible person.
And I worry that I'm being what's the word. Fuckin uh. Reductive? Like biased against transfems who might interpret them as transfem as well but idk how much is actual bias and how much is just. The fandom refuses to acknowledge the Kind Of Person He Canonically Is (abusive)
And like. On second thought while I will Lightly Enjoy a transmasc art piece or fic I also sorta hate them bc they refuse to depict them as an abusive person. Like no they're a canon cult leader they're not good.
With the motherhood thing, I realize looking back on it it's mostly... idk what the word is. There's the book they read (colors of a mother), but also theres T*ji's worm calling them "mommy" and they genuinely look like they've never been more upset in their life (they look more upset at the worm than they were when R*ko died). Maybe their technique??? I've seen some stuff but I forget how much of it is like Actually Motherhood Symbolism vs how much the fucking mpreg thing infected my brain
And then there's the um. Post Mortem stuff. With K*njaku and it's like. They're Dead so we don't see their reaction, but it's like... the womb thing is very. "Physical Sex of the Body" (idk what a better term for it would be bc while bio/physical sex is. Not always the most accurate to Real World discussions idk how to most accurately phrase it with regards to This Specific Fiction????) and it's. Combined with their technique. Ngl it makes me think of Ch*so's mom? Like K*njaku specifically takes over their body bc they want the technique.
Also I'm an AFAB K*njaku believer personally bc I think their story gets arguably trans misogynist if you take it as them even just being a cis man idk. Like it feels like a really delicate situation to have an AMAB character take over a woman's dead body to have a kid and I don't trust this story with actually handling that. also again the um. Stuff with Ch*so's mom would retroactively also seem transmisogynistic bc of the K*ori situation. Idk if it's already weird bc K*njaku is regularly depicted as taking over male bodies or if the ambiguity makes it like. Less targeted?? Bc I do feel like a lot of ppl see them as originally being y'know assigned female at birth so. I don't think I can confidently pass judgement on how their situation reads wrt transmisogyny I just felt like if I was talking Abt them in this context it would be weird to ignore it
Back to G*to and I forget if I had much more to say? Idk I could see an argument abt them presenting somewhat feminine w long hair baggy clothes, but at the same time that feels like it gets into weird territory with. Y'know white ppl viewing east Asian men as "more effeminate" and Im not passing judgement on anyone really it just makes it hard for me to confidently say if they're meant in the source material to be Presenting Femininely (As A Character, like obv they've got "feminine" symbolism. Oh yeah I forgot the fact they're like the "yin/feminine in a yin/yang pair" thing) also their fucking character ref sheet having an illustration of their waist. Idk there's room to see it as "trying to Repress Femininity" but it kinda reads more along the lines of "dysphoria at being seen as feminine" idfk. A good chunk of "feminine" symbolism seems to revolve more around like. The External Perception Of Others rather than Their Own Internal Feelings (repressed or genuine)???
OH YEAH. This like this goes away from "The actions they take as a character" to "the writer writing them" but I fucking hate the way literally 3 young girls are essentially used them discarded for their character development! I fucking hate that and it feels like. Listen if a transfem person wanted to HC them as transfem not my place to say shit and ultimately I don't think it's bad or wrong but genuinely. That weird fucking writing is a part of why I personally just. Like there's a bunch of Misogynist/sexist writing in general but it really fucks with my view of Them Specifically bc it's such a weird case of. "No the character isn't any more Misogynist than others In Universe but the writing surrounding them is. Eugh." (I guess you could also argue H*ibara was part of that but he's like also development for N*nami?)
anyway. Yin Yang talk. I feel like if anything. I could see G*jo being transfem/neutral? Idk transmasc interpretations are like. Understandable in a "power fantasy" sense but that power (and being unjustly labeled "monstrous") does not really... Fit? Again I'm not confident making Final Conclusions from my own perspective as a TME person but it's like. Idk they seem like they only "identify" as male bc while they are Rebellious, a lot of that rebellion is ultimately limited. Like they WANT to be revolutionary but the specific society they grew up in really really fucks with their ability to Actually Like, Develop That. Like the fact they + the society they grew up in is so individualist is really. Really not great for a revolution. Also "I'm training the next generation to fight the system that's grooming kids to fight + die for the system." Listen I 100% understand the intent. But um. That's. Kinda just The System But Little Bit Less. ANYWAY my reading of them is they id as "male" bc while it might not be accurate it's not something they realize they can actually "rebel" against bc they don't see it as something Pushed Onto Them By Others they see it as "How The World Works" in a way they can't fight against, like how they see their strength or the dichotomy of weak/strong- not as things that Exist In Relation To Society but rather like. Universal Truths I guess?
Also the way they view weakness is like... not Obviously Sexist bc they can acknowledge Strong Women Exist but it still has the thing of "you need to actually WORK to unlearn misogyny bc society Teaches You Misogyny no matter what" but like. Misogynist Society². So. Idk exactly what I was saying but I think genuinely given like. Explicit Suggestion if G*jo were to explore their gender they would not Choose To Be/Remain A Man. And that their... Reputation idfk as "The Strongest" being treated as almost inhuman/monstrous makes me like. IDK it's not really "a privilege" the way their wealth is. On some level while I don't feel Qualified to make a final Judgement I genuinely think estrogen could have saved them because it would represent a true, genuine break from what the society they were raised in has taught them is "Correct" about themself in a way they haven't been truly able to achieve.
Also I cannot see Sh*ko as anything other than transfem the fact her given name is "nitrate child" screams to me that she chose her own name and the way she's sort of detached/"uncaring" reads to me as intense maladaptive defensiveness (not unjustified, just like. Not good for her) anytime I see someone interpret her as Cis I HATE it.
#Ask to tag#Names censored bc I super don't want this to show up on Tumblr search. This is just me trying to work thru my thoughts on the matter#And trying to like. Not just Keep It Inside My Head Where It Just Gets Less Coherent Over Time.#Aughh...#OH I ALSO REALIZE I GET REALLY FUCKING MEAN TO THE FIRST CHARACTER I TALK ABT and I feel like it's deserved esp bc ppl often gloss over#The genuine Problems In Their Behavior + Mindset and that is probably Not Appropriate if they're transfem... Hm#But again idk. Like idk if that reading is Commonly accepted (and I see them as transmasc) so. I don't wanna say I don't need to consider#The ways I talk Abt that character critically I just. Straight up want to clarify my anger is largely influenced by. Self critique I guess#Again doesnt absolve me I just don't fucking know if a transfem interpretation is something that flew over my head#Or just ''something not inherent to The Story but enjoyed by people''.#Also idk what to say about K*rara in this mess as she's like. Pretty much the only canon trans character and she's clearly transfem#(maybe nonbinary but I can't tell if that's Genuinely A Part Of The Character or Creator/Fandom Reluctance To Acknowledge#Trans Women). I will say it feels not great to have her be misgendered when. There's just a fucking picture of her in junior high(?)#And it's pretty clear she transitioned like. Idk I genuinely love her dearly but the story she's in is just a whole mess#Hm maybe g*to is transmasc coded bc I keep having to see ppl Fucking Defending him. Despite the EVERYTHING
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