#my gay story

[allyendergirl]

Ok so I pattern recognized my way into realizing I was gay. Accept through this years long “process” of pattern recognition, I never really had a big realization, I guess.

So in middle school I was first introduced to yaoi and gay slash fic. I’m pretty sure I discovered anime (free!) through MakoHaru doujins. So my first introduction to the greater online sphere was through heavily queer spaces and content. Eventually these bl interests lead me to interacting with this greater queer fandom space and I started to see posts about how these adults should’ve realized that they were gay in middle school bc they were shipping obsessed and were also very invested in gay rights, just like me, so I was like “ok so I fall into this stereotype I’ll probably realize I’m gay at some point”.

Eventually in 7th grade I pondered the idea that I was asexual bc I didn’t have crushes on anybody. Not fictional men, fictional women, real men or women, no one. I had a “boyfriend” in sixth grade, and I vividly remember liking this boy a lot in 4th grade and the affection waning in 5th but we were still really good friends in 6th grade so I gave it a try. I think this boy’s terrible reaction to me breaking up with him is the reason why I like women. Not the point tho.

Anyway I Strongly identified with asexuality in some aspects but not in others, so I didn’t make it apart of my identity.

In 8th grade I settled on yeah probably queer/just queer. Then late in freshman year I discovered Aegosexual and I was like hell yeah that describes me pretty good, but something was still off and I didn’t make it apart of my identity.

Then in sophomore year, when I started playing with sapphic for my identity. And I started seeing posts about lesbians high school journeys from identifying as queer-to-sapphic-to-lesbian, and I was like yeah that sounds like me, I remember thinking “yeah that’ll probably be me, and I’ll probably be calling myself a lesbian by junior/senior year”. So I just let it naturally happen. And it did happen, I eventually, naturally started to call myself a lesbian in my junior year of high school.

But I wasn’t fully realized yet bc I still thought I was technically some type of asexual until I came across a nsfw profile of twitter and the person like exclusively drew and retwitted horny art of women and I got horny for women for the first time. Took me a few tries to get an orgasim out of me but eventually I had my full lesbian sexual awakening in late junior year. So yeah, I now know that Im nOt asexual.

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[impishtubist]

I've never been explicit about this because I'm a Fandom Old, and back in the day it was simply understood that anything on the Internet was fair game to do with what you wish, but: if you see a story of mine out there and you like it, download it. Fuck if I care. Keep it for yourself, distribute it to friends, print copies for yourself and your friends, mail it to people, I don't give a shit. As long as you're not exchanging money, I couldn't care less. And tbh you should be doing this with all fanfics you love - print them, save them, put them on a flash drive or a hard drive or share them with friends, whatever. Fanfic authors these days are really fucking precious about their fics, but honestly we're probably going to start seeing queer art being disappeared (especially in the US under the next president) so do whatever you can to archive the things you love to read. Even if that means just printing them out and sticking them in a binder for yourself to read as a bedtime story.

[wombywoo]

more retirement doodles 💕

[soyochii]

Grown adults but also Highschool bullies fr

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

i vote that next year instead of reading Dracula we do a Jeeves & Wooster Book Club. those two never got the rabid tumblr shipping fandom they deserved (disqualified for the sheer technicality of being published a century too soon). we must correct this injustice

[rystiel]

is this something

[alfheimr]

you feel real to me.

[my-darling-boy]

Oh to be a loyal knight and serve my lord (we are fucking)

[foldingfittedsheets]

I can’t remember a time in my life where the summers weren’t full of berries to eat. Every trail has at least a few bushes offering their wares to people walking by.

Many of them aren’t monetized, they don’t keep well, not appealing enough for the bother of cultivating them. Salmon berries, huckleberries, thimble berries. We have black and blue berries, too. But you don’t see most of our local berries in the grocery store.

One of my most precious memories with my beloved was our earliest hike together. They didn’t grow up native to the area and exclaimed in alarm when they saw me reach casually toward a bush to pick a berry as we walked by.

“You can’t just eat berries! What if it’s poisonous?!”

“It’s not,” I said, puzzled. “I guess there’s some poisonous berries around here but I don’t eat those ones, it’s really easy to tell.”

“Those are safe to eat?”

I laughed and popped it into my mouth only to immediately realize it was horribly unripe. Salmon berries come in two colors you see, orange and red.

I’d mistaken an unripe red berry for a ripe orange one. It had felt soft enough to be ripe but it was so bitter it hurt. So an instant after asserting it was safe to eat I opened my mouth with a “bleh” to let it fall back out.

“They- they’re not poisonous it just wasn’t ripe,” I insisted.

My beloved looked skeptical but scanned the bush and plucked another berry to me. “Try this one.”

The sun shone beautifully through the dappled tree canopy, illuminating the gleaming berry in their hand, a perfect snapshot of a romantic summer moment. I took the berry, my fingers brushing their palm to bring the little fruit up to my lips while looking into their smiling eyes.

I had to spit it out.

It was as overwhelmingly bitter as the last one, but I didn’t mind the way my beloved laughed at me.

[tomfrogisblue]

i forgot to post this during june but i think one of the reasons qsmp was so important was how unapologetically Gay it was

for starters, the number of creators and admins involved who are irl queer of some variation, just chilling in a place where any kind of phobia would get Philza's legendary ban hammer faster than you could say "rainbow jelly"

and then the characters.

i remember showing up that first day and being shocked that somehow foolish had an ex-boyfriend already (I had missed the squidcraft lore apparently)

that server. gay. all the gay. all kinds of gay.

govermentally assigned platonic husbands that stayed together the whole time (despite one of them being gone for months at a time), not a chance in hell of infidelity. Proud fathers of two wonderful children.

governmentally assigned partners who yelled full volume at each other about cheating any time they were in the room together and between the two of them killed two children.

a grieving father and ex-convict becoming one of the most solid couples in the server, with a beautiful wedding and consistent public displays of affection via the in-game chat.

a demon ashamed of who she was and a lonely detective struggling with family trauma, now with a lil girl of their own, to love together and take care of, with more moms than could ever allow the little girl to ever be lonely herself.

a 2b2t warrior coming to terms with his sexuality with the support of his beautiful baby boy at his side, slowly but surely opening up to his eventual Brazilian Boyfriend. Where they went from the most cautious couple (baby steps) to the most sickeningly sweet couple on the server.

- and this list doesn't even scratch the surface.

gay characters, trans characters, ace characters, aroace characters, gender fluid characters, all kinds of relationships and families.

all presented without negativity or shame.

the point of the server was to exchange languages and cultures, without the biases and barriers seen so much in both the content creator scene and the wider world.

it also had a beautiful little side effect, practically by accident.

our lgbtqsmp.

[blessyouhawkeye]

in my mind the way i would want a bbc merlin reboot to happen is just if they kind of did the show again but this time in the modern day. like arthur is the son of a ceo and expected to take over as head of his father's company, and merlin sees him in the newspapers one day as the media starts reporting on the changing of the guard and goes oh fuck oh god. and he manages to get his way into a position as arthur's secretary or some shit and has to pretend like he doesn't know this guy at all, like he hasn't been waiting for him for centuries, but he kind of isn't pretending because he doesn't know this arthur, not really. but maybe merlin and arthur being reunited is causing the veil to thin, and there's magic causing mayhem throughout london, and merlin has to try and fix all of that while also getting arthur's starbucks order. hello the bbc why isn't anyone getting on this

[asmimir]

save me forket forket save me some stress doodles below the cut!

[moon-doodle]

i got headaches on headaches on headaches all day

[sesamestreep]

I really feel like one of the best details in “A Scandal in Bohemia” that I never see people fixate on enough is that the story starts with Watson stopping in to see Holmes at Baker Street on a complete whim, because he happens to see that he’s home (and Watson is now married and living elsewhere). Like he doesn’t send word first, he’s not invited, he just shows up and surprises Holmes. Which is not that weird but then Holmes is like “oh good, I’ve got a case anyway, you might as well hang out!” which just makes it funnier when the King shows up and is like “I’d really rather speak to you alone, actually” and Watson tries to leave and Holmes is just like “anything you can say to me, you can say to my best friend John Watson, and if you ask him to leave, I would consider it a grave insult, you would be my enemy and I will not help you ever!!” And the king is like “…ok” and just moves on.

like, that is crazy behavior. Holmes is talking about how there’s probably lots of money in this case, and then almost turns away the client for…not knowing who the fuck Watson is?? He’s not even supposed to be there?? He just came to say hi?? “It is both or none”… girl, GET UP.

[nyancrimew]

i was off E for like over 1.5 weeks until yesterday evening and it made me rly anxious and stuff and that DOES appear to be fixed now. however i'm just hormonal in the other direction now and despite having been awake for 4 hours i have yet to manage to leave my bed because im incapable of doing anything besides hugging plushies and yearning.

[rystiel]

the damn geometrussy got him