#my brain just doesn’t work like that
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I guess this is the adhd and autism speaking, but I never felt it was ever important to correct people’s assumptions or accusations they had towards me, partially for the obvious reasons of you can’t control what other people think of you but also because I just assume people will drop it (partially because I feel these assumptions are obviously incorrect and therefore I find it strange for others to allow it to take up brain space) or forget about it because I 100% do not think about others in any meaningful way and I struggle comprehending that other people constantly think about others even when they’re not in front of them
So I’m always distressed and shocked when people continue to believe whatever nonsense despite limited to zero direct interaction with me since the last time, because I’m like ???? Why would I be on your mind???
My mind is just mansard roofs and graveyards
#that said I will avoid anyone who does assumptions or accusations more than once because it makes me uncomfortable#like for instance I’m on very low contact with someone irl who kept accusing I was their random anons and I just started avoiding them#because I’ll be blunt the first time around but then kinda just avoid it if it’s more than once#I don’t like feeling constantly bombarded with random accusations or assumptions so I do tend to find it very annoying and so I avoid#however I do have very strong emotional permeance issues so I can’t fathom thinking of others like that#my brain just doesn’t work like that#I also don’t understand why I have to PROVE an assumption or accusation is wrong when others don’t have to prove it’s true?#so tbh that’s so incompatible with the way my brain operates
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Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,
#sorry it’s how my brain works (sometimes can only see things in terms of tv scene-)#tumblr exclusive video fancy…#dcmk#my art#(quietly coughing and spluttering) OK alright I can feel the creative brain explosion slowing down. geez#coughs.#nyways. weird that there hasn’t really been a main case where poison is involved in a certain way#If I watch my own scribbled boards for too long im gonna get too embarrassed to post. Send post#Subarus hair is still infuriating by the way like take that off your normal hair is easier. The beanie is easier#you like Have to have the side corners on this haircut or it doesn’t look right#anyways. shiho ptsd moments I think she kind of gets irritated that shinichi doesn’t react the same so when he does she gets like#weirded out and vindicated and a little protective. Like woah wait. Love that you understand me rn don’t like that you feel bad I am going…#to…………. ssssssssssit here about it…………………………….. uhhhh. do you want. a rubix cube to get your mind off it#I don’t want to talk about my feelings I just want you to get it. you don’t wanna talk about your feelings either which is……………. Hmmmmmm#I like her. love of my life miyano shiho#masumi sera#conan edogawa#ai haibara#akai shuichi#let conan swear. HE SWEARS A LOT BUT LET HIM SWEAR IN ENGLISH I KNOW HE KNOWS THEM#man needs his emotional support akai family they like him#rigorous trials to being approved by the akai matriarch but everyone else likes him already and have already picked him up multiple times#and shuichi would let him swear
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With the revelation that Rayla likes romantic books, coupled with Callum's love for non-fiction, I am filled with the sudden urge to write a Rayllum bookshop AU.
#like i dunno if i want another WIP but i also know how my brain works#or doesn’t work i guess#i blame sudden season 7 release date drop#and the fact they took away canon Rayllum making out in the library in s7#i just think they should make out surrounded by books#the dragon prince#tdp#rayllum#rayla#callum#give us the saga#continue the saga
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*:・゚✧. *:・゚✧.
*:・゚✧. *:・゚✧.
Haechan’s rings always look so pretty on his fingers. The different intricately designed silver bands on both his left and right hands just look so good against his skin. You’d been daydreaming about holding hands with him (or his fingers trailing down your bare stomach-).
It was becoming a problem, since you were getting incredibly distracted by his hands holding the red solo cup.
He caught your eye from across the crowd, raising his eyebrows to greet you from afar. You wave back at Haechan, watching him start squeezing past people to get to where you were standing.
“Hey.” His voice puts you at ease every time and you reply back with a “hey” as well.
“Wanna get out of here?” Haechan asks you. “We can take a walk together, if you want.”
You nod, smiling at him as he gestures with two fingers for you to follow him out.
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The two of you walked around the block until you reached a local food chain, opting to sit on the side of the empty parking lot.
The cool wind felt nice against your skin, and you turn your head to face Haechan, who was already looking at you.
You flushed at seeing his gaze on you, his soft smile growing bigger before he started talking.
“Anyway I started watching this new show..”
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Haechan’s hands rested on his lap, palms facing upwards towards the night sky. Again, your attention was drawn to the rings adorning his hands. The simple silver band on his left index finger, the delicate ring shaped to look like a rounded nail on his ring finger, and your favorite: the pretty braided metal on his right index finger.
“Everything ok?” He asks you, noticing you hadn’t responded to his question about the show.
Feeling bold for once, you muster the courage to drag your index finger over one of the pretty silver rings adorning his knuckle.
“Sorry, I got distracted by your rings.” You mutter. You let the pad of your fingertips brush against his palm as well, feeling how soft his hands were.
“It’s o-ok. My little cousins are always asking if I’m m-married. So annoying.”
You look up at him, taking in the sight of Haechan’s attempt at being nonchalant, his reddening ears giving him away. You smile softly, bringing your attention back to his hands.
“They’re so pretty.”
Haechan lets out a soft breath when you pull your hand away, hoping you didn’t pick it up.
“Y-you know, my chain is also really nice..” He trails off, never taking his eyes off of you.
You beam at him, secretly enjoying seeing this flustered version of Haechan.
*:・゚✧. *:・゚✧.
#nct#nct dream#crush au#nct x reader#haechan#haechan x reader#writing#todays musings are abt the one time I was actually bold in flirting and touched the rings my crush wears#was literally daydreaming the day prior abt doing it and when I did it confidently I just-#and I think he rlly liked it too which made me mushy inside#😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳#sorry I did another party scenario my brain just doesn’t work rn
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Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
His grey hairs are so earned
#Chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#analysis#HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY#You know what yeah understandable have a good day#Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm#I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s#how he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺#I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many#compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol#He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!!#I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers#He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help#Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’#is nice in his opinion#This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost…#OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level.#‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc#Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡#Laws are important to him bc he knows how bad punishment is if you break them and how they’re the key to getting better rights
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i need ur opinion on angel cdream
I’ve literally had this for weeks and this is still all I got…
#happy meme monday!#dsmp memes#to be fair though c!dream isn’t an angel he’s clearly god jesus and the holy spirit lol XD#hello there#(lol felt relevant after recent asks XD)#dreblr#c!dream#dsmp#doomsday trio#rivalsblr#c!rivals duo#dsmp meme#this gives me post prison vibes but it’d probably work for many peoples aus to be fair#spn memes#rivalsduo#so like literally all my brain can think of is Castiel… like one track mind which I know isn’t what you meant lol#but I will say I have read some people’s angel and demon dream and tommy analysis before and I don’t really agree with it#some saying Dream is an angle that then falls with Tommy as the demon who becomes good or just more Dream is demon and Tommy is angel#which y’all all know doesn’t really align with my opinions on the matter… I will say Dream as an angel is interesting though and I do like#to read fics where he has wings (because well usually lots of angst lol)…#anyways I’ll keep thinking about it to se did I come up with anything but enjoy this meme instead I guess <3 <3 :)
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yo omega would still be around in silver’s time as well as shadow, right?
and i assume shadow n omega would still stick together ‘cus they’re a team, so like would silver see omega as like an uncle? or dad 2? or just omega??
would omega even try to help raise silver or would he just be like “the tiny white hedgehog has psychokinesis and has been surviving on his own, he does not need our help. also i don’t want to help.”
#my brain is in dadow mode right now i guess#i keep thinkin’ of how various scenarios n situations would work with the concept of dadow#n then also remembered omega would prolly be there too!!#i’m just choosing to believe he doesn’t get like permanently destroyed at some point#‘cus like ig we’re also assuming shadow doesn’t get himself killed within 200 years#also i dunno t h a t much about omega’s personality but i definitely feel like he doesn’t have much parental instincts. or even like#a desire or need to take care of a vulnerable being. even though silver isn’t exactly vulnerable but he is still a kid#dadow#silver the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#e 123 omega
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the enby moth of all time
someone put chemicals in the water that turned the bugs woke smh
#like i mean (((SPOILERS))) cordyceps doesn’t have a gender right#cough cough definitely didn’t draw this simply bc the Only way I can accept certain aspects of myself is to project it on my fav characters#my brain is like ‘look look look leif. imagine if leif was queer. if he is then you can be too’#alright. go off queen I guess. whatever works#I went through this exact process when I found out I was aroace just. lemme get it out of my system#agh agh agh I love leif#art#bug fables#bf leif#I like my bugs WOKE 🦅🦅🦅🦅🔥🔥🔥🔥
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in the next mission impossible movie there better be a scene where the one (1) female agent they have has to seduce/flirt with a guy to get information out of him except when she tries, he makes it clear he’s not interested and says something implying he’s gay. so she walks away and into the comms tells the team it didn’t work because “i’m not his type.” then we get semi-frustrated team members telling her “well then become his type, we need the info” etc only for her to interrupt with “i think one of you boys will have a better chance.” then the comms go silent and it cuts to each team member’s reaction of “😳” and the “oh”s as they realize he’s gay. except when it cuts to ethan’s reaction, he’s already sauntering over to the guy and we just hear him say “i’m on it” and then we get scenes of ethan seducing the bad guy and he gets to gay kiss him. if this doesn’t happen i will riot
#ethan not even being phased and being so READY to go flirt with a guy for info lives in my brain rent free#his lil gay saunter over there too#i love my bisexual himbo#i also think they need to do this because every fucking time there is ONE femal agent and no more#and there’s always a scene where she has to seduce someone#it drives me insane#this is such a perfect solution#ik this would’ve worked better in the earlier movies during the 90s & 2000s when it was common for people to be like#‘gay??’👀 and not. fucking 2023 or whatever but STILL#it would be SO FUNNY#they could also switch it a bit and have the team totally unphased and when the femal agent says he’s gay someone else on the team just#immediately is like ‘ethan?’ and then ethan’s already going over and says ‘already on it’#or something like that where they had the back up plan in case he was gay#idk both are good#mines funnier though#anyway i’ll tweet time cruise if this doesn’t happen in 7 i s2g#mission impossible#ethan hunt#*
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No but for real have we found a solution for rejection sensitive dysphoria yet ? Like does anyone else who has this have coping mechanisms that work ? I am genuinely asking please help
#adhd#asd#autism#rejection sensitive dysphoria#rsd#audhd#neurodivergent#coping#mental health#legit if you have something that works I want to hear it#I don’t know enough neurodivergent people to ask someone personally#and I’m sick of feeling like a bomb about to go off when someone doesn’t text me back#and please don’t say ‘oh just keep telling yourself they don’t hate you’#because I understand the irrationality but that does not stop my brain from dumping 300 tons of fight or flight juice into my bloodstream
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Listening to Ribs by Lorde thinking about a pre breakup Mihawk telling Shanks.
“Your the only friend I need”
And Shanks a man who has always known company and has dedicated his life to having friends/family, doesn’t know how to take that.
Mihawk who intended this as a “flirt” is doing his best looking up through his eyelashes trick.
This does not help. At all
#me further pushing my Shanks is really worried about Mihawk’s loneliness agenda#this was supposed to be serious but I couldn’t help myself. I just think mihawk is so naturally sexy he’d be horrendous at intent flirting#it’s just that Shanks is a social guy he loves having a big and ever extending network of friends and family#Mihawk saying he only needs one friend is so heartbreaking to him#but also the abandonment issues are at war because Mihawk said that him#just him he’s all he needs#but also what if he’s not enough what if he can’t live up to it what if he messes up and mihawk has no one#is he really enough to make people stay?#and then there’s also the little goblin brain that’s cradling mihawk in his hands striking him and going “my precious#Mihawk’s just there like why isn’t the flirt working? why am I not being ravaged. see if I ever do that again 😒.#shanks doesn’t even know what he’s lost 😔#one piece#throwing thoughts to the void#dracule mihawk#op#hawkeye mihawk#mishanks#akagami no shanks#shanks#red haired shanks#akataka#mihawk x shanks
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JD is going to ugly baby cry when he finally finds Clay? Like the overflow of Relief and happiness Will literally turns him into a blabbering mess That only Floyd can understand Because Floyd is the sensitive one.
I haven’t fully decided how the moment would go, there’s a lot of directions but I did decide to kind of do a concept doodle of this scenario, sort of. I was gonna send it with this ask but I think it deserves its own post for how long it is XD but know you were the ask that spawned it. But yeah I have lots of ideas on what could possibly happen, the biggest aspect of it that is subject to change is whether or not Clay is there in what would be this aus version of the Branch Floyd reunion from the movie, and then like what goes with that you know?
I’m more along the idea that Clay would be there, as would most of them, due to the circumstances having changed so drastically that they wouldn’t be separated by a fight, but you never know. This is pretty close tho to some of like my first thoughts, also sorry for taking a literal month to answer again the concepts I made were meant to go with this but I was going through so many drafts I legit just exploded.
The concept doodle will probs be posted tomorrow tho ;D
#Ryss responds#trolls au#n2 au#not the only one au#trolls#I’m just tryna have fun with it#so whichever option is most fun for me in the end is the one I’m going with#there’s a lot of changes to the third movie with how the cards are laid#I’m trying to think of fun ways to spice up the second movie but like tbh#not much really changes#because it doesn’t really have to#there are some fun moments I’ve thought of#like delta would def recognize branch and Floyd if I decide to let Floyd tag along#which changes entirely how lonesome flats plays out#there’s a sax battle I could do if my mystery mouseketool joins along#but then like after it’s pretty much the same lol#which I suppose is fine but you know#there’s also the fact that due to how the trolls movie timeline works if John is in da bottle he’s just missing for a month#then for the world tour#and then a month after#which is something that would become significant since John would be spending more time in troll village after movie one#but yeah lots of things rotating in this brain
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I remove my mask (ADHD) only to reveal a second smaller mask underneath (Chronic Fatigue)
#chronic illness#chronic fatigue#adhd#not me slowly realizing that my energy levels are not in fact normal#took me 17 years to figure out that being in pain all the time wasn’t normal#of course it’s gonna take longer for me to find out that most people can do Multiple Big Things#and also#there’s this whole physical disabilities VS neurodivergencies that seems to have taken root in the disability community#which firstly I think is dumb because from what I’ve seen of chronic depression it acts a whole lot like chronic fatigue#and the brain is part of the body#and neurological disorders can absolutely be dehabilitating#driving wedges between these communities doesn’t help fucking anyone#especially when working together means more activism and pushing for resources and accommodations for everyone#but also because it tends to erase the people with both#because having both means that they stack onto eachother and make things even harder#my disability experience is fundamentally effected by my adhd#to focus on solely the physical stuff ignores just how much harder it is to have both#and really invalidates
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i kind of knew in theory that all my hobbies involved my hands but i kind of just ignored it n was like oh well im sure id manage
top ten pics taken seconds before disaster
#tldr a lot of drawing + my dorm desk is Really Bad for my wrists and i didn’t realize has kind of fucked me up bad#i don’t do basically anything all week until it stops hurting and i draw a tiny bit and it goes back to hurting#i have literally nothing to do w myself bc brain doesn’t want to do anything but draw write or game and i Can’t Do Those Things#and even when my wrist stops hurting i have to basically exchange any time i’ve earned to do my classwork#leaving no time for myself and my own work unless i say fuck it and gamble more strain#i don’t want to say it’s depressing me bc it feels. pathetic? but as someone who Has to get ideas out lest they start rotting him#it’s… not great#on top of some irl frustrations it’s made for a kind of glum few weeks#oh well. back to laying on my side watching youtube i guess#sparks speaks#vent#? yeah i guess#“i’m not depressed” says the guy who wakes up feels his hand twinge and immediately almost starts crying#like. lame ass behavior but it’s not like it’s a choice#i just wish it didn’t make me so mean. i’ve started avoiding ppl cause i’ve been getting mad rlly easily#which is not helpinggggg
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how much would y’all mind if Spider Bernard au diverges from canon timeline earlier and basically the entirety of TD:R doesn’t happen 🧍🧍🧍
#bc I thought abt it and decided the old way I had it doesn’t rlly work#I feel like Tim would (and should) recognize his bf in a suit#esp if said suit starts of ass just covering the upper half of his face#and also just his voice and mannerisms etc#and the reason I had Bernard not tell Tim he got bit and became spiderman is also kinda weak#spiderman benard dowd#bernard dowd#my brain
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Luo Binghe is the protagonist of Proud Immortal Demon Way. Shen Qingqiu is the protagonist of Scum Villain. However, the one the books revolve around is kind of Shang Qinghua.
Shang Qinghua wrote a book he wasn’t entirely proud of to make ends meet. He changed from the path he really wanted to write for reader retention. He certainly has potential to be better, but he has bills to pay. There’s so much he wants to do but just can’t. Then, he dies and is sent to his own novel. A world based on his original ideas, not the ones he was forced to write.
It’s an authors dream, really. Watch the world you created be fleshed out before your very eyes. Talk to the characters you created. Watch the scenery you conjured yourself. This whole place is built on what you created, your own vision.
It’s very important that it’s also based on his original ideas, not what he actually wrote. Also important is that after a month of being repeatedly given the option to leave the world of Proud Immortal Demon Way, Shang Qinghua can’t bear to return home. He’s made a home in his own writing. He even decides at the end to be an author again in this world. It’s about the power and joy of creation, and doing what you truly want to without worrying too much about outside influence.
I also think it’s very important Peerless Cucumber of all readers was the one who was transmigrated. When we see him talk in the forums, he likes a lot of aspects like Luo Binghe and the monsters, and the fact he likes part of it is why he’s the biggest critic. It could be great, but isn’t.
What we see him criticize are the very things Airplane-bro himself didn’t like writing: the “low-IQ villains”. Airplane wanted to write complex villains, but his fans didn’t want to read that. Cucumber wanted to read complex villains, but that was what Airplane had to offer.
If the protagonist of Scum Villain were to be someone who blindly loved it thoroughly hated PIDW, I think it would be a significantly worse story. It’s because on some level Shen Qingqiu shared Shang Qinghua’s ideas of what Proud Immortal Demon Way should be that he’s the best reader that could possibly have transmigrated.
#almond rambles#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shang qinghua#please forgive this being very surface-level it’s my first major attempt at dissecting the themes of a story#I grew up a ‘maybe the curtained were just blue’ child and am desperately trying to better myself#also forgive poor wording my brain seriously doesn’t work like it used to
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