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Two Broken Hearts Part 5 {g.d}

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You don’t know what happened or how it happened, but ever since the morning after breakfast Grayson seemed... distant. He was never around anymore and when he was, all he did was say hi and walk away. There was no more flirting or sly compliments that made your heart race and your mind to repeat over and over again. There was no more Grayson- the one that called you “bubs,” went out of his way to make you feel better, the one that would always be there. It was like he hit a switch and did a complete 360. But you still held on. Believing. Hoping that this was simply a phase he was going through. A phase he would soon get out of and return to his normal self. The Grayson you had feelings for. The Grayson you still have feelings for.

But still, this didn’t answer any of your questions. Some how your mind had convinced you that you were the problem. The reason why he was not being himself lately. Why did he do this? Was I being rude? Did I do this to make him become this way? Who was to blame? Is there anyone to blame? What did I do wrong?

Just as you were about to fall asleep, your phone rang beside you, illuminating your dark room. With tired eyes, you looked over at your clock that said it was 2:33 in the morning, Who’s calling me this late? Without looking who the caller was, you answered with tiredness in your voice, “Hello?”

You could hear them breathing on the other side and finally took a breath saying, “Hey bubs.” Even though you were drifting in and out of sleep a second ago, you immediately shot awake hearing Grayson’s voice on the other line.

“Gray? Why are you calling me so late? Are you okay? What happened?” You asked as you sat up quickly feeling your heart rate begin to race. No matter how conflicted you were with him right now, your heart cared too much for him. You would always care for him.

“Nothing happened... Just can’t sleep,” He said softly as you relaxed knowing he was okay. You knew that he loved to go to bed early, so him calling this late at night worried you that something had happened, thankfully nothing did.

“Me neither...” You said laying back down on your pillow, staring up at your celling.

He stayed silent for a bit as you heard his breathing on the other line again. But soon he sighed and said, “I wanted to hear your voice.”

My voice? For the past few days all he had been doing recently was barely speaking to me.

“All you had to do was talk to me Gray.” You chuckled, smiling at the fact he wanted to hear your voice and to be honest, you missed his too.

“That’s what I’m doing right now aren’t I?” He sarcastically through back.

You played with the soft blanket that covered your body as you confessed, “I miss your voice too... even though you’re super loud sometimes and yell for no reason.”

“I don’t yell!” He shouted into the phone, making you pull your phone away from your ear, “I just talk loudly.”

“My point exactly.” You said as you both laughed. I missed his laugh too...

When things calmed back down, both of you were still on the phone silently enjoying each other’s presence until you softly asked, “Where do you see yourself 10 years from now?”

“Um well I guess be married, have a family, live right next to Ethan and his family like how we always planned to, and buy a house for my mom so she’s close to us too... Don’t know if YouTube will still be a thing but we’ll cross that bridge when we get there. What about you?”

“Hopefully I’ll have my life figured out. Love what I do for a living, get married and have kids, travel to so many places, and just be happy.” You we’re telling the truth, this is what you had wanted for a while now.

“Maybe I’ll see you in my future...” He said chuckling. He didn’t say “the” future. He said “my future.” Did he see me in his future? Was I that important to him?

Silence fell between you two once again. Your eyes growing tired again, ready to fall back asleep, drifting into your dreams... “Bubs... What are we doing?” You heard Grayson say.

“Huh? What do you mean?”

“I said what are we doing? What are we?” He asked, hoping you understood what he meant as he nervously ran his hand through his hair for the 10th time just being on the phone with you.

“I mean we’re friends? What else are we Gray?” You questioned. As much as you hated to admit it, deep down you knew you two were something more.

Grayson stayed quiet, feeling his heart sink to his stomach. He wanted you to say you thought differently. That you knew there were feelings involved. He just wanted you to say it so it would guide him to help figure out what was going on. He finally said sadly yet coldly, “Right... Just friends.”

You could tell his tone matched yours when he said you two were just friends when the old lady was talking to him at the diner and sense his uneasiness over the phone so you asked, “Gray? Is everything okay?”

“Y-Yeah. Just getting tired now,” he said fake yawning to make you believe he was truly tired, “It’s 3:15 now. Goodnight Y/N.” Ouch... if even didn’t feel right when he called me by my real name rather than the nickname he always called me.

“Oh okay... Goodnight Gray.” You said still confused about everything that had just happened as you hung up the phone. Everything was going so well and then he just turned back to who he is now. Both of you stayed up for at least 20 more minutes just trying to comprehend what just happened. Trying to understand what you guys were.

A few days later nothing had changed. Well except that Grayson started to even more rude and cold towards everyone, especially you. He made snarky remarks, barely acknowledged your presence, and even walked out of the room if you were there. You shrugged this things off, figuring it was something you had no control over. You couldn’t deny that it didn’t hurt on the inside. Every little thing he did broke your heart piece by piece.

Today was a beautiful day so you all packed up Ethan’s Jeep and decided to go to the beach while inviting some other friends along. Before leaving everyone said hi to you except for Grayson who just threw you a quick glance. You hated the fact that his mood affected yours so you spent the whole car ride glaring at him.

“Is everything okay?” Your brother’s girlfriend whispered in your ear as she noticed how tense you were.

“It’s a long story.” You mumbled turning away from Grayson and looking out the window.

A few minutes later you arrived at the beach, which was surprisingly empty for a Friday. You all unloaded the car and started to head towards the beach. You were struggling a bit with the chair and had to stop and put it down to readjust your grip. Seconds later you felt someone bump into you and say in a rude tone, “Can you get out of my way? Gosh.”

You looked up, heart sinking to your stomach, and saw Grayson give you the side eye and stomp away. Everyone else had stopped and stared at the both of you, shocked at what had just happened. They knew something was up, but not like this. Grayson would never treat anyone, especially you, like that. Or so they thought... You could see it in their eyes that they were full of pity and shock. So being you, you decided to shove what had just happened deep inside by giving them a fake smile and started walking again.

No matter how hard you tried to hide your feelings, they just kept coming back up. Why did he just do that? What did I do to him? Just... why?

You all got to the spot where you decided to leave your things and relax for the rest of the day. Not really wanting to join everyone at the moment, you stayed back and decided to tan. From a far you could see your brother and his girlfriend having a great time and wished you could have that too. Just to be happy with someone who wasn’t so confusing and give mixed signals all of the time. Just someone who loved and cared for you as much as you did.

Does he even care anymore? Was I such a horrible person to be with? Everything was going so well what happened? Was it something I did? You began to rethink everything that happened between the two of you, but nothing came to mind. Maybe he just lost interest or wasn’t even interested to begin with.

As time went on, a few more people began to show up and join the five of you at the beach. Some you knew and met before and some you didn’t know at all. Grayson was still giving you the cold shoulder and avoided you as much as possible. When the sun began to set, the guys started a bonfire and everyone gathered around to make some smores. You sat with Ethan, but was basically sitting on his lap because the log wasn’t big enough for the amount of people on it. Unfortunately your spot was right across from Grayson, meaning your eyes drifted to him and the girl he was sitting with more than you would have liked.

She was so much prettier than you. The hair, eyes, perfect makeup, smile. Everything Grayson wanted. Everything you didn’t have, including him.

Everything around you started to blur as you tried to drown out the thoughts your mind kept developing until you felt a large hand squeeze yours. You looked up and saw Ethan staring down at you. His hand was soft and warm, but not as much as Grayson’s.

“You good?” He whispered in your ear.

“Um...” You contemplated whether if you should tell him the truth or not. Even though you were closer to Grayson, Ethan came to a close second. You looked over at Grayson and the girl who were now laughing he must have said and then looked down at your hands and said, “It’s nothing. Don’t worry about it.”

Ethan’s eyes followed to where your gaze just was and landed on Grayson and the girl sitting next to him. So he got up and stood in front of you reaching his hand down for you to take. “Come on let’s go.”

You took his hand as he led you past the group, feeling Grayson’s eyes on you as you left with his brother but you didn’t care. Ethan led you far enough from the group to where you could be alone to talk. “What’s going on?” He asked.

“It’s nothing, E.” You said crossing your arms and looking at the ground.

“You can tell me anything Y/N. It’s me. Tell me what’s wrong. Is it Grayson?” How did he know?

“No...” You mumbled but he knew you were lying.

“Don’t lie. Just tell me okay? I hate seeing you so upset.”

You explained everything to Ethan from the point you first started to develop feelings to now, including everything you felt and what you thought Grayson had felt. “What’s wrong with me, E?” You said putting your face into your hands, “What did I do wrong? Why does he hate me so much? I feel so stupid!”

He pulled you into a hug and placed a kiss on the top of your head, “You didn’t do anything wrong babe. Grayson’s the stupid one. But please know that he doesn’t hate you. I don’t think he ever could.”

“But did you see how he was to me earlier? I don’t know what I did wrong.” You said into his chest.

“Yeah I did... I don’t know what’s up with him. But I know he cares for you a lot, probably more than your own brother does.”

“Sure as hell doesn’t seem like it.”

“I know it doesn’t but know that on the whole trip back home from tour, that boy could not stop talking about how much he missed you and how excited he was to see you. Grayson has always cared and always will.”

“I don’t know...” You said pulling away from Ethan’s chest and looked over to the group where you spotted the girl under Grayson’s arm and leaning onto his chest.

“Hey listen to me. Don’t look at them,” Ethan said walking stepping in front of you to block your line of vision, “He’ll come to his senses soon and realize what he has been doing isn’t right.”

“I hope so...” You said still feeling discouraged.

Ethan pulled you into another hug and wrapped his arms tightly around you, placing his chin on the top of your head. “Just please know I’m here for you. I may not be Grayson but I’m still going to be there for you, even if you just want to talk or hangout. I’m always going to be here for you Y/N.”

You felt your heart flutter at his words and how caring Ethan was despite how much he tried to act like he didn’t have any feelings. You felt so lucky to have him in your life. “Thank you E. Love you.”

“Of course. Love you too little one.” He said pulling away and ruffling your hair a bit before wrapping his arm around your shoulder and walking back to the group.

For the rest of the night you had a fun time talking to the people around you even though your eyes still made it over to Grayson. Sometimes you swore you could feel his intense gaze on you, but quickly shrugged it off before he got the chance to ruin your night any more.

The night soon ended which meant it was time for all of you to go back home. As you were placing some things into the back of Ethan’s Jeep, you heard some snickering behind you, so you turned around and saw Grayson, the girl from earlier and a few others you didn’t know behind you giving you some suspicious looks. You tried your best to ignore them, but heard them laugh loudly as you struggled putting something into the trunk. Being tired of the way you were being treated, you turned around and said, “Grayson can I talk to you?”

He looked over his shoulder at you and said, “Can’t you see I’m a little busy?” before turning back to his group.

You rolled your eyes at him saying, “I don’t care. You can spare 5 minutes of your precious life for once. I just want to talk.”

He turned around and mumbled a stern “Fine.” before nodding his head towards an empty area away from everyone else. You could feel everyone’s gaze on you just like they did before, but kept following Grayson, not before meeting eyes with Ethan who gave you an “Are you sure?” look. You gave him a small smile of reassurance and put your head back down.

When you two reached the spot, you were still trying to gather the right words to say to him. But he beat you to it first, “Go on. You said you wanted to talk so talk.” You could tell he was already irritated just being with you right then and there.

“What’s going on with you?” You asked.

“Nothing. I’m perfectly fine. It’s clear that you’re the one with the problem here.” He said harshly.

“I’m not the one who’s makes rude remarks and completely ignores someone!” You said also getting irritated with him.

“I’ve done nothing to you. All I wanted to do was have a nice day at the beach with my friends, but no you had to come along and ruin it.” He said with no remorse in his voice.

“Me? Do you even realize what you’ve been doing Grayson? Talking crap about me behind my back with people who don’t know who I am, saying shit about things that probably aren’t true, going out of your way just to avoid me. It’s not me that has the problem. It’s you!” You said beginning to raise your voice.

“That’s total bullshit. I was never saying shit behind your back about things that aren’t true because they are! And you want to know what I said? I said that you were someone who only hangs out with her brother’s friends because she can’t get any of her own! Someone who’s isolated themselves so much that they don’t talk to more than 2 people! Always surpressing their feelings hoping somehow their problems would disappear! Someone who can’t get their shit together! These are all true and you know it.” He shouted at you loud enough that everyone heard from their cars.

And he was right. They were all true. You just couldn’t believe what you were hearing, especially coming from Grayson, someone you thought you could trust. You had felt so hurt and betrayed. So broken at this very moment. Your vision began to get blurry as tears formed in your eyes, “Fuck. Fuck you Grayson Dolan.” No longer able to look at him and believe what he just come out of his mouth, you started to walk away.

“What. You’re going to walk away just like you always do when things get difficult?” He yelled from behind you.

You actually started laughing. Laughing about how ridiculous this was. How foolish you had been. You turned around and said sternly, “You always say that you’re this great guy who isn’t a fuck boy. But guess what Grayson? That’s exactly who you are. You’re this fuck boy who thinks he can get with any girl he wants just because you look good and is a fucking dick to people who actually care about you. Sorry that I’m not those perfect girls you see every day on social media. Sorry that I’m not good enough for you. I’m not going to sit around to watch you be with these girls who are way prettier than me, who can give you something I can’t. I’m done. And I feel so stupid because this whole entire time I thought maybe just maybe that this great guy who stole my heart could like me back. I’m so glad it didn’t work out because why would I want to be with someone who only wants hurt me.”

You didn’t want for an answer so you turned back around and walking back to the Jeep, not caring about what Grayson was thinking behind you. You don’t care that you just confessed your feelings for him. You didn’t care anymore.

When you reached the rest of the group, you didn’t realize you had been crying until Ethan came up to you and wiped away your tears with his thumb before pulling you into his chest. Grayson walked by with his head hung low, thankfully you were on the other side of the Jeep so he couldn’t see you. “Gray. Drive my Jeep back home. I’m getting an Uber.” Ethan said throwing his keys to Grayson.

“Why can’t you just drive home?” He asked clearly annoyed.

“Just take the fucking car Grayson.” Ethan said before pulling away and wrapping an arm around your shoulder.

You two walked past everyone and towards the Uber but through the space between the back of Ethan’s car and the car behind him, Grayson saw you two together. He began to feel his heart clench, hurting at the thought of losing you. But what he didn’t realize was that he already did.

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