#my brain hurts so fucking badly

[maidofmetal]

insane what birth control will do to a motherfucker

[ahalliance]

my roman empire is that one moment smth smth qsmp lore happened and étoiles responded to a chat message by saying smth along the lines of “bah baghera me fait pas confiance” and laughed tersely but i can’t remember when that fucking happened and maybe i hallucinated it . but i need to try and find it again . to satiate my qetoiles qbagz relationship and larger qfrench messy family dynamic illness

[vilelittlecritter]

Helllo please come into my house it is a normal house with normal things like tangible interiors and grounded in reality there is nothing to worry about this house it is very normal:)

[sugared-violets]

my mental state at the moment is such that as long as i just keep moving, as long as i stay focused on a puzzle or tv show or podcast or chore or some combination of things (ideal), i'm Fine. i'm coping and i'm fine.

but if, god forbid, i stop distracting myself for one (1) second, i fall directly into the pit of despair.

[fooltofancy]

figuring out an injection schedule through clenched teeth and a haze of tears 'cause if my body's gonna fuck something up it's gonna do it at the least okay time possible

[moe-broey]

Ohhhhhhhhhhh okay. Bursts jnto tears screaming crying throwing up

[fellhellion]

conchata saying neither of my sons were worth much in a fight...im so fucking unwell...

[hauntingblue]

ANOTHER DEATH BY INMOLATION???? ENOUGH!!!!

[skunkg1rll]

i cant stop thinking abt him... have been doing that all daynd i feel so sad nd my heart hurtsso bad nd i long for him sm it's just a bad day :((

[piplupod]

head in my hands. i promise i am not a scary unhinged person fdsgjkl, and none of my silly happy posting is fake, i am just very good at repressing and partitioning things. i can be having the worst day of my life and still enjoy jokes and be genuinely having a good time with my silly little characters and stories i come up with. this brain LOVES to section off shit that is genuinely unbearable (because how else do you live with that? if not putting it in a place where you cannot feel it?) so that i can cope and find joy in life still fsdjkl i simply love having a good time too much to ever make it up

[dullahandyke]

I need to start having more normal daydreams bcos rn the main one is about finding someone who will agree to consensually stab me 1. Bcos I wanna know what it feels like and 2. I've never had an extended hospital trip before and it would be a Different Problem to have to my current ones and 3. This is a smaller specific facet subset of the daydream of 'qpr with benefits roommate who I marry for tax benefits and have autism with'

[borgeslabyrinth]

It's so funny how having been raised deeply religious but no longer being Christian will linger later on. Like I just tagged a post with my constellation/stars tag from back when we all had artsy tags for everything "come close listen to the story" is about an obscure song about Jesus. Or like I was talking to a Muslim classmate of mine about what she does for her prayers when she has evening classes and I was secretly brimming with envy about the whole concept of Islamic daily prayers. The whole ritual of it, having to do it five times a day, having to face the correct direction, the rakat, that would make me so satisfied having to do that every day. I would revel in that so hard. I would really enjoy that. It's making my brain light up just thinking about.

[the-kipsabian]

can i just sleep the next two and a half weeks i dont want to feel things before its london weekend and i can just focus on the positives

[lilowoof]

Being mentally ill sucks so much. I'm trying to sleep but the anxiety is making me cry OTL

[blueslight]

Man this shit ruined my whole mood . And I cant even ask my.mom.for help even tmrw cause shes so exhausted and I dont wsnna bother her but with stuff like this I am SO fucking lost and like. Man

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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